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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 2 years

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Hey, trying to figure stuff out. Would this count as a extremely traumatic situation??

(I think I might have OSDD, so it would be a lot, not sure if enough though :/ (and I do know that trauma affects people differently/can't be measured stuff - it just seems stupid that that would be enough))

Tw for medical stuff, forced restraint, emotional negligence?

So, I was maybe 3 or 4, I had this like intestinal issue with a kidney or something and I had to take daily medicine for almost two years. Because I was young, the doctor would only give me liquid medicine, despite me being fully capable to take pills (stupid as hell, but anyway)

This liquid medicine was AWFUL. The closest description I can think of is like stomach bile mixed with the super artifical grape flavoring stuff. (Some grape flavors still make me gag)

Naturally, I didn't want to take this. I would run and hide and fight my parents when I had to take it. My dad had a super stressful and demanding job, so he often had a short temper due to tiredness whenever he was home, which was rare. I don't think it started like this, but it got to the point where, I would be hiding, my parents would find me, pull me out of my hideaway corner to hold me down and force me to drink the medicine, with me screaming the whole time. This would sometimes take a couple hours and i would sometimes throw up afterward, which would restart the process

I have a single very vivid memory of being held down for the medicine, only I have recently realised that I remember it as more floating above my body and the memory feela very weird, almost sticky, if that makes sense. My emotions also didn't feel right. My emotions and thought process felt very detached although I remember frantically struggling and having strong feelings of terror. (This seems like dissociation to me, so I'm thinking this is probably when the basis of my system formed, but ... :/ idk, it was medicine that I needed or I would like perish or something)

Anyway, I think my parents were tired from these hour long fights and probably didn't explain things properly to me or didn't know how big of an affect it was having on me, so it wasn't dealt with emotionally as well as it should have been (running theory anyway)

Then, I know my parents aren't exactly emotionally healthy for me, but my family situation would be very borderline for any emotional abuse/neglect signs that I have found (to give more context)

Overall, I wanted an outside perspective on things. Tried not to exaggerate as well as fully explain what was going on/my emotions at the time that I can remember

Thanks for helping btw and feel free to ask clarifying questions, I want to make sure I get an accurate opinion, so I'll respond (tbh, it doesn't bother me anymore or those that I believe are my alters, although it did greatly at the time)

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Hey anon,

First of all I'm so sorry about what you went through. That's horrible and I can't imagine what you may be dealing with as a result of this.

Just so you're aware, Mod Allison and I (Bun) have co-wrote this response.

Would this count as a extremely traumatic situation??

Mod Allison: Were you extremely traumatized by it? Then yes. Some things are more likely to cause trauma than others, but the reality is that any situation, no matter how seemingly benign, can be traumatic. What makes something traumatic or not is how your brain responds to and processes it.

Mod Bun: Exactly, an "extremely traumatic situation" is subjective to the person experiencing the event. Everyone is built differently, therefore everyone responds to trauma at varying degrees. That is why traumas that some regard as minor can have devastating effects on others, vice versa. When talking about what counts as traumatic, it matters less what happened and more how you psychologically responded.

Mod Allison: Medical stuff is often traumatic for people. Situations involving force are often traumatic for people. Childhood situations are also more likely to be traumatic simply because kids often lack the context and understanding that allow them to contextualize and cope with what's happening. Even something simple like a child being introduced to a friendly dog might be traumatic if the kid doesn't have enough context or awareness of things to know that the dog is safe and friendly or the kid doesn't feel like they can say no. Feeling unsafe, or feeling like you have no control of the situation is sufficient for trauma, no matter how much actual control or safety you have in the situation.

Mod Allison: Your trauma is valid even if it doesn't match any of the classic examples of traumatic situations.

Mod Bun: I hope you have found healing, and we're here for you if you need anything. Please take care.

-Mod Allison & Bun

#mod allison #trauma talks #🐐#abuse #medical abuse #child abuse #mod bun

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ngeruma · 3 months

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"Triple Horse Phase" | Perpetual Testing | Portal 2 Community Maps & Mods

By Allison Ghost ⸻⸻⸻⸺⸺…

Buttercup needs to chill!

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More Test Chambers

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autisticheadcanons · 7 months

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Allison Cameron from House MD is autistic.

#autistic headcanon #actuallyautistic #allison cameron #house md #mod post

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aceofwhump · 2 years

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The Umbrella Academy 2x04

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hazyaltcare · 10 months

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Roman Sanders (Sanders Sides) noncanon kin x Allison Hargreaves (Umbrella Academy) clicker + themes of yellow

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#fictionkin #noncanon kin #roman sanders kin #allison hargreeves clicker #sanders sides kin #umbrella academy clicker #yellow #flower stim #fire #art #food #gifs #stims #stimboard #mod stemroses

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cosmic-frost-main · 5 months

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Bendy likes or loves Audrey in the swap au, or is he just afraid and sorry for her?

How is their relationship?

Short version:

Start: First was fear but he became friendly towards her just as she does.

Middle: Shock and denial after Allison outs her to him before fleeing with fear.

Near end: A slowly forming hatred as Audrey keeps him captive, followed with a burning rage as he watches what he thinks is his father gets killed brutally by Audrey so she could prove a point.

End: Through many complications yet open to listen to each other did Benjamin accept her as his sister and accept the many faults of his father.

Long version:

During their first meeting he was afraid of her due to her appearance and because he thought she'd attack him like the Lost Ones would, but that changed upon Audrey showing no hostility towards him and he slowly became friendly towards her with her doing the same.

After Allison outed Audrey which resulted in her injuring Allison in front of Benjamin did he begin to fear her, first was shock than denial before running with Allison in fear as Audrey warned them.

When Alice tricked and kidnapped Ben did he begin to form a hatred towards her. And it only got worse after she killed memory Joey in front of him thinking that was his actual father (Her messed up way of trying to prove he wasn't real), rage is something Benjamin barely felt and it of course confused him on how to handle it.

After taking Audrey down and forcing her into recovery did they begin rekindling their relationship, Ben still felt unwilling rage but didn't want to lose his only remaining family while Audrey reminded him how horrible their father was, and despite his refusal of it for weeks, he finally acknowledged it.

Their relationship at the end would still be rocky but they slowly worked on it after she moved with him in the human realm.

#cosmic ask #role swap au #bendy au #benjamin drew #audrey drew #batdr audrey #allison angel #alice angel #twisted alice #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #batdr #batim #mod

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hypnotic-melody · 11 months

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Seth// AAAAA- *gets out from a portal*

Seth//

Seth// I… huh…? *looking if he’s still chased by zombies, but no* oh…

@idv-artists-trio (the wheel is just,,, leading me to something./ih)

Allison twirled around, gripping her baseball bat tightly. The screaming triggered her fight-or-flight response. However, she was able to stop herself from hitting the strange man, the bat centimeters from colliding with his face.

"HEY! You can't go around yelling like that man! What if I actually hit you?! That would have been terrible!"

#mod ghost #paparazzi || asks #idv #idv oc #idv oc askblog #sunflower seeds || interaction #ask meme #swing || allison #allison and her impressive reflexs

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satisfyinglyadhd · 10 months

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#stim.#satisfying #mod stemroses #shiny #shiny stim #makeup #nature stim #fire /#candles #glitter #iridescent #allison hargreeves #rosalie hale #claudia de pointe du lac #umbrella academy #twilight saga #twilight #interview with the vampire #stimboard

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fandomandfuntimes · 10 months

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Sims 4 Obey me World Updates: MATURE THEMES 18+

Solomon and Allison added some sex into their apprenticeship.

I built Ristorante Six, I plan to build a bunch of Obey Me locations, I want to expand this Sims world a ton. I'll post updates as they go up.

Lucifer, Allison and Diavolo went on a group date at Ristorante Six. A few minutes into the date Solomon texted Allison asking if they were free for a fuck (excited about the new dynamic I suppose 😂).

All and all the date went well. They discussed Diavolos Royal mission and he asked overly personal questions about humans that made Allison laugh. After a few dates Diavolo finally made things official! Allison also got one of their favorite dishes lobster tail! Look at that excitement.

Hell's Kitchen finally opened up (excited about this build) so Allison and Beel decided to head down there and see what the big deal was about. The food took a bit a bit long for Beels stomach but he was happy with the meal!

#obeyme #obey me #obey me headcanons #obey me mc #the sims 4 cc #sims 4 obey me #sims 4 build #lucifer obey me #obey me beelzebub #obey me diavolo #builds #mods #obey me solomon #obey me sims 4 #Allison MC

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aesthetics-for-harry-potter · 10 months

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Moodboard of two women who play for the Holyhead Harpies.

Face-claims: Kimiko Glenn and Allison Scagliotti.

Requested by: anon.

#Harry Potter #harry potter series #harry potter fandom #harry potter ocs #female oc #holyhead harpies #face claims #kimiko glenn #allison scagliotti #for anon #mod cassandra

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valla-chan · 1 year

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Spore Modding - What I've been doing: A limited-access prerelease!

This video showcases several unfinished mods by Allison Ghost / Valla-Chan for the game Spore.

All these mods will be released FOR FREE when they are finished, but I have also decided to put in-progress versions of these mods up on a Patron-connected section of my Discord server, which will be updated as I make changes. $6 Patrons are eligible to download any of these and try them out! The money goes towards allowing me to spend my time developing these mods.

Due to the in-progress nature of these mods, there are bound to be issues with them, but none should be game-breaking.

KEEP IN MIND: Creations made with the Parts Mods shown here may exhibit issues with newer versions of the mods as they are updated, which is why I am only hosting them in private pre-release until they are finished!

Afterwards, they will be released for free alongside my other mods; I have no intent to ever sell my finished mods. This may take a long time for some mods here, and a shorter time for ones being more actively worked on.

To learn more about the ongoing Spore mod prerelease for Patrons check out this post! https://www.patreon.com/posts/76535751

To download my fully released mods entirely for free, check out my Github page! https://github.com/Valla-Chan/Spore-Mods/releases My social medias: https://allisonghost.carrd.co/

#spore #spore modding #spore mods #spore ea #spore creation #ea spore #spore maxis #spore 2008 #valla-chan #allison ghost #Youtube

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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 2 years

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how do you say "ive been traumatized or abused from the early stages of my development and throughout my life and it's shaped who i am now" without saying "my abuse/trauma is part of who i am" in some way?

and i want to add this in addition but also separately- how as a traumagenic alter in a system who has some sort of function do you say those things, without identifying yourself wjth the abuse or trauma?

Just because something shaped you into who you are doesn't mean it's a part of who you are. It is a part of your journey, a part of your story, but it doesn't have to be a part of your identity or personhood. Most of the events in our lives alter the course our lives take or the people we become in some way (whether big or small). But while that sets us down a particular path, we have the opportunity to transcend and be more than that experience. That doesn't mean we can ever go back to being the person that we would have been without having that experience (this is especially true for childhood experiences). Most of the time we can't. But we can be so much more than what happened to us.

- Mod Allison

#trauma talks #tw abuse #mod allison

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solitary-sir · 1 year

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what pets does everyone like?

Joey: None (heresy)

Henry: Dogs

Sammy: Cats

Norman: Dogs and birds

Wally: Any, he owns multiple cats and dogs

Jack: Dogs