Most of the time I look in the mirror and see no change. I still see that girl who was stuck at 215 lbs for what felt like FOREVER. Body dysmorphia is so real and it’s a daily struggle but on some rare occasions I’ll catch a glimpse of myself and be like
WHO. IS. SHE. 🥵🥵
Tonight was one of those rare moments & for like 5 mins I felt really pretty and proud and accomplished. I wish I could feel that way about myself all of the time. I wish I saw the girl who busted her ass to lose 50 lbs every day instead of the girl who was forever stuck & hated herself.
Does this feeling ever go away?
Will I ever feel normal & confident in this body?!
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Where my fellow over-30s at?
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I’m sick.
This brain feels tired. Tired of looking at the confusion in the mirror. How did we get here ?
They say that the human body shows the most beautiful journeys.
I have beautiful journeys , my C section scar from being a mom, my tattoos with personal meanings and my piercings with expression. My hair cut to show my growth in lengths.
It’s a bad day again.
A bad day is where we discuss brain 2 brain,
The ugly journeys,
These scars on my arm , oh they show how strong I am ?
They show a PSYCHOSIS of what could’ve been the end of me so again I write and write because when your words are too loud , I’m depended on.
My words can’t be loud, they watch.
My words can’t be dark, they watch.
My words can’t be fake, they watch.
They the ones who mark you human enough to handle and not human enough for society, predictable safety excuses of conditions.
What am I saying ?
There’s TOO MUCH to process ,
I look in the mirror and WHO IS SHE, or that .. maybe it.
No meds no meds
Eat eat snack.
Smoke tolerate sleep:
WHO in the higher heavens gave me the opportunity to be an AMAZING mother but a horrible example of love.
A body abused by calories that could’ve fed a tribe. Abused by men she figured her body wasn’t worth the love. A stomach that hangs lower than she SAID she wouldn’t let happen, body shows examples of long term stress, long term deprivation of many things. Acne ew , hair , ew , dry feet , ew , always sweat ew. Feeling huge feeling loud feeling insecure every loud pressured step I take.
I pray the day I can love enough to see me.
I don’t see me.
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Oh hello there! Life on my end has been grand. I’m enjoying spending every day with my little erp and keeping up with work, home, diet and exercise as I’m able.
As you see, my weight loss efforts haven’t been stellar this month but I’m also not trying hard. I’m enjoying letting that focus move to the background as I cuddle up with my family and the present instead. It’s a nice switch after this year of obsession. But this year of crazy focus has brought me to this happy place and I’m so grateful. It’s hard to believe I’m at my lowest weight in four years. It feels really good.
The only thing of note that’s happened in my life is my downstairs heat was out for five days. It was really rough. The SDS I posted above (thank you @acceptableaddictions!!!) was taken on day two of the heat being out and wearing four layers.
I’d like to do a themed SDS, if I may. @angeldrinkstea, @snapthistiger, @aquietcupoftea, @orange-slice-paradise, @abcd-adventures, @theunstuffedpepper, @beenjen I’m tagging you for pics of your furry feline friends, please!!
Hope you’re all doing so well :)
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hey there thought i’d make a post introducing myself, i’ve been on a weight loss and fitness journey for about 3 years, i just had a baby about a month ago and feel like i’m starting all over i gained over 60 pounds while pregnant😵 down 25 but hope to lose the rest soon! cw:203 gw: 150
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21 day streak on MyFitnessPal so I guess thats 3 weeks. I'm down about 6 pounds but still have that abhorantly named "mummy tummy."
I'm noticing the weightloss in weird places. My ankles for one, and my upper back? Yknow, all the important parts 🙄
The biggest thing which is working for me, I think, is not finishing my son's left overs at every meal. He would eat 5 slices of toast if I'd let him but leaves the crusts so I was packing on a lot of extra carbs.
Also, getting up at 6 to nurse and run makes me want to do well for the rest of the day and be productive. And it makes me want to go to bed at 11 rather than staying up for an extra glass of wine.
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This is horrifying to look at tbh
I don’t like the way I feel/look and I just can’t seem to stick with any sort of plan to lose this weight
I’m still unpacking don’t mind my mess 😂
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11.2.21
Another semi successful day. Still living the plateau life though. No long walk today, we are entering polar vortex town so it is just slightly too cold for me.
- 45 minutes on the exercise bike
- Stuck to nutritional goals
- Paced around the apartment while watching TV when R was having her afternoon nap
- Ate dinner with R tonight, my partner even joined us for once. I made paprikash from scratch and it was both fabulously delicious and surprisingly low in calories. R also loved it. The photo isn't great but trust me on this.
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Late thirties ain't so bad 😉
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Started my weight loss journey with Weight Watchers Freestyle. Here is my first week’s review. Can’t wait to continue giving updates until this 60 lbs is gone!
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10 year challenge 😳😳
17- almost 27
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Ignore the mess... been knocked out with a wicked cold all week, as have both kids so I have not ran at all. Gonna get up and go tomorrow, regardless of how early it has to be.
But! Down 15 pounds! Starting to see real result that I'm happy with 😊
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It was my second day at the gym today and honestly serotonin ringing I had a long term friend help me out etc and it was nice ! Can’t wait to continue this journey gonna do a starting weigh in today not excited for that but baby steps !
I haven’t ate besides coffee so this is breakfast/lunch lmao
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I’m Stephanie and this is my family. Robert, my husband of almost 8 years(together 10). My oldest daughter Alyvia who is 8 and my little one Myla is 5. Just your average family, doing what we can to make it from one day to the next.
The goal of this blog is to be as open as possible. No sugar coating. No only talking about the positives. I want to lift and empower women. My hope is my struggles, can help others.
Now I don't have any crazy struggles. I don't have an addiction problem. (Well maybe coffee) I don’t have any deep dark secrets. I’m talking about the daily struggles you go through as a mom. (We can all admit we don't like our kids 100% of the time.) Sometimes they’re kind of buttheads. Yes, you can say it. Sometimes those tiny humans you made are not your favorite people.
The struggles of a marriage. Lets face it. It’s not all rainbows and unicorn cupcake farts. Sometimes it sucks. Sometimes you want to smother your partner with a pillow in their sleep. Sometimes you want to really hurt them and sometimes they want to really hurt you! (yep Sometimes I’m an asshole too. very rarely!!) but through it all you love them and you continue to fight for each other.
On top of that just the daily struggles of life. Jesus, life can really kick our asses sometimes! Sometimes we can feel so lost and have NO IDEA WHY!!! Guess what? That’s ok!! We’ll get there!! Together!
Question? Ask.
Ideas? Speak them.
Stories? Tell them.
Advice? Give it.
Instagram: Swortham10
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Back in my pre-pregnancy jeans! (28)
Starting to see a little ab definition behind the belly but I seriously feel like it still looks like there's a big baby there. It doesn't look like it's attached to me.
Also as you will notice I made my bed.
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