#most of the time I look like a RAT

[aro-culture-is]

quick note - this blog is gonna be sparse again for at least this week. trying new medications and tbh initial side effects are not super pleasant + actual effects build up. as a result: currently as if unmedicated for mental health, with anxiety+ side effect, extra fatigue, dizziness, and fatigue. it's uh, sure something.

totally recognize that most of y'all know we're absent at times due to health things, just wanted to give a heads up that this one is at least anticipated.

#fun fact sometimes condensing meds just means poorer treatment of some conditions #this is a re-expansion + new thing #so that instead of poorly treating my mental health and using an unusually high dose SNRI for another (physical) condition #i will hopefully both be in less pain AND not depressed af AND also have an appetite again #i doubt i will be lucky and not have a fucked stomach due to meds but one can hope that an appetite will allow me to eat foods that upset #my stomach a lot less #my health is forever a massive balancing act #every time a medical thing is like 'so what meds do u take' i'm like here i wrote it down for u #and they're like 'oh. ooookay. let me just...' *five minutes of typing and clicking later* #'so! what did you come in for again? uhuh. you said you experience pain daily? with your chronic pain thing? hm. have you tried yoga?' #/gen #like. straight up every time i say 'i am in pain all the time due to fibromyalgia' they are like 'ooh studies say regular exercise helps' #and like. theoretically yes! but also. i would be lying if i said the fibromyalgia studies i've skimmed don't set off general 'bad science' #alarm bells in my brain #like... cool you performed a fibromyalgia study with... all male lab rats? mhmm? so are you aware fibromyalgia appears to occur #overwhelmingly in women? like. data seems to suggest between 70-85%? #(not that the data can't still indicate things but it certainly makes male rats a poor choice of model for tests on it) #also just... idk i've looked at some metaanalysis and been like 'okay cool theory and for all i know about human bio or bio in general that #sounds more or less correct BUT. you never discussed that one study on this subject that did NOT support your conclusion. #and that's 1) interesting when it was the most diverse group of subjects and the exceptions often teach just as much as the 'rule' #2) just shitty science. tell me how your theory is still credible when some evidence doesn't fit the model. #like... 'given that all other studies were primarily conducted on white american women in their 30s to 40s it is possible that this model #only explains (the early effects of fibro since that's a typical onset period) / (a possible genetic link primarily found in white women) / #(a possible sign of bias in diagnosis that demonstrates the possibility that there are different causes) / combinations of all of those #like... idk a paper that just throws out things that don't support it is a pretty big red flag #it doesn't mean the conclusion is entirely incorrect but it is often important to understand the context in which it applies #like... it's very easy to jump to an incorrect conclusion if you used something in the wrong context #ie: thumbs up is a good job / positive thing in a lot of western civilizations. teenage kee once went to china and discovered it to be #neutral to offensive in many areas outside of major tourist locations that were used to it #anyways i gotta sleep

[tacagen]

look there is something So special in the way thawne smiles in his non-flash-centered arcs

#eobard thawne #professor zoom #reverse flash #the flash #the flash cw #legends of tomorrow #matt letscher #tales from the dark multiverse: flashpoint (2020) #my poor little squeak squeak whose obsession only hurts and sabotages him at this point.. you could be so much more.. you could be beautiful #hey @ matt letscher legitimate question: why do you look so soft all of the time. youre playing the most Rat Bastard man ever here. why /pos #i literally remember only 1-2 scenes from all his screentime in lot where he has a canon!thawne-like expression and i think that's beautiful

[strawberrycircuits]

i would love to see you draw. sheik. or chell. i know she's not loz but she's fun

these r just sketches but. yes ^_^ both

#most of my headcanons for sheik are based on like. color palate and personality thingz #so he looks very close 2 canon otherwise #i think his hair is blonde but slowly gets more and more strawberry blonde / closer to his natural color #the longer time goes on and his magic wears down a little #and he really does just have blue / red heterochromia that manifested after becoming sage of time #as for chell. my explanation is that i love women #also i like to think she uses the rat dens as places of respite? to sleep? and that doug left firstaid materials there #so she patches herself up from there #her other arm is banged up like that bc. when i played the games #and i had to be launched into a wall. id turn chell so the arm not holding the portal gun would hit the wall so the device wouldnt get- #damaged. bc i get into the games i play way too much #like yeah the long fall boots make sure you land on your feet but they dont stop me from being sent face first into a panel now do they #um. im rambling #strawberryscribbles #portal 2 #ocarina of time #chell #sheik

[arolesbianism]

A lil lineup of the mini refs I’ve made for my afterglow furries minus Tsugumi because I’m getting too frustrated trying to design her </3

Solo versions wooo

#keese draws #bandori #furry #furry art #ran mitake #moca aoba #himari uehara #tomoe udagawa #this is also my first time drawing him ari and tomoes new casual outfits #but ya ran is a black bear moca a pomeranian ​himari a lion and tomoe a ferret #tsugumi is a kangaroo rat for context on why they’re giving me so much trouble #despite my tsugu troubles I actually like how most of these turned out! #himari is my favorite I think she looks cute :3

[cypric-rat-hyperfixation]

As my following grows and as I meet more and more people who have rats, had rats, know someone who has/had rats, and love rats...

increasingly I wonder if/when a day will come... a day that I'll express rat enjoyment to someone and they'll enthusiastically ask me if I've heard of This Funnie Little Rodent Blog they like, figuring I may already know it or will enjoy it if not...

and it's.. my blog... and then I have to come out as popular Rat Tumblr blogger that they follow and now know IRL.......

#/lh #I'm saying this like it's some big deal but I'm just exaggerating for comedic effect adjfgsbkdfj #no idea what the likelihood on that looks like. based on statistics of people estimating statistics? probably likelier than we all think #anyway that time I posted a survey for a university research project here and you all wound up comprising 2/3 of our sample was so funny #I had to actually say in an academic research paper that one possible flaw in our study #was bias that may result from 2/3 the sample having come from a niche and extremely specific demographic of people #due to the fact that they flocked in from One Of The Researchers' Substantial Online Following Centered Around A Particular Theme #And Selected Specifically To Have Only A Certain Kind Of Person On It Via Boundaries And Blocking #literally you all made up 98/150 respondents (but that's assuming all digital responses were from y'all-- we had 52 paper responses) #ah but the research symposium was the best. in the paper I was able to remain that generic about it #but at the research symposium. well it's a glorified science fair. so participants have their own stations set up and observers tour them #as the participants speak to their audience; directly providing a summary and then answering any questions #some of the audience/observers are faculty and most are fellow students #so real scholarly scientific types yeah? so they had questions. thoughtful questions #long story short I confessed to numerous listeners throughout the day that the sample's bizarre gender ratio is probably my fault #around 57% women; 21% nonbinary adults; 17% men-- an unusual proportion #so I had to academically tell my professors... underclassmen..... my classmates....... acquaintances.... foes.......... #... that I'm big famous in Rat #and it was so. djkjSBCJXHQKRIGAJFSHF

[sunshinepixels]

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#ts3 #the sims 3 #black sims #black simblr #oc: katie #katie arnold #look i allowed her to live to see another post #thorougly proud of myself #anyways here's katie in some hairstyles she would most likely wear #i never do these trendy things and always regret not participating so im glad to have done it this time :> #i wish my sister would do it too but oh well *sighs heavily* #im gonna go work on a bedroom for this little rat #that's it #bye

[saintchaser]

this is very specific but i want more fics in which the marauders grow and go from first year, all of them can fit under the invisibility cloak, to seventh year, barely two of them can fit under the invisibility cloak

#in seveth year peter has the advantage that he can turn into a rat (animal accepted at hogwarts) but for the rest of them it's difficult #james has head boy privilege HOWEVER that should mean that he's a good boy and will do no mischief (to however thought that; you're wrong) #usually they manage to make remus look like a good boy (has the good boy face however. he is not) so sirius and james sneak under the cloak #they get caught most of the time though (because they both got way taller and you can either see their feet from under the cloak or they #have to crouch in order not to be see #idk i just think it's funny and it will Definitely appear in atwfd #anywaysssss #sirius black #remus lupin #james potter #peter pettigrew #marauders #marauders era headcanons

[cfrog]

Penitent ████████ (1625)

#heres that full Rat repaint 👍 #never doing that again (<- lying probably) #my ocs #my art #leddlabs #lab rat #clearly the most important part of this painting is the ear. i know everyones desperate for a rat's ears timeline. leddlabs biggest mystery #historical rat #<- starting past rat tag cause theyre kinda Different #just had the mental image of rat in flashbacks looking all realistic like this and then cutting back to my usual style for current time.

[peachcitt]

there’s rats in my kitchen but i want something from my fridge

#peach rambles #sorry my life is falling apart and i feel the need to tell people about it #this is a good time to say that most shit under the peach rambles tag is not stuff to reply to or offer advice on #(peach stuff is a different tag with stuff i actually may care for people see) #anyway yeah ive been suspecting my house has had rats for a while but ive been. turning a blind eye to the signs because frankly that’s #just another problem for me to have to figure out how to solve and it’s always a pain dealing with my landlord so it’s like. #whatever. ya know? anyway earlier i went to get a drink from the fridge and . #there was a scrambling noise by the oven (right next to the fridge) and i looked over to see . #a rat bottom (not NOT large) squeezing it’s way up between the wall and the bottom of the microwave (a space i did not know existed) #i saw it’s feet. it’s tail. it was in fact a rat. not a mouse . alive #and then there was more scrambling sounds from behind the oven and #it’s important to keep in mind that i watched this happen in complete silence. like it didn’t take long for the rat to disappear from sight #but i definitely 1) saw the rat 2) froze in my tracks 3) watched the rat disappear 4) stood in defeated silence (w/ rat scrambling noises) #i finished my drink and want another but that means going back to the kitchen . the rats are there (they are possibly everywhere but #Rather Not. you understand) #i am going to get another drink i did text my landlord all is well. i just. don’t want to see another rat butt #anyway . if you’ve been wondering why im not very active or why i haven’t watched/talked about s5 of ml #it’s because my life is falling apart and now there are rats in my house. there may have been rats in my house this whole time #hope this helps<3

[47-protons]

i need to kill the creature in my brain i think

#gripping it and shaking it and slamming it to the ground #sometimes it is small and little. like a hamster or perhaps a domesticated rat. it is managable #i can hold it and cuddle it close to my chest and go hey. Hey. you're okay. promise. you've misinterpreted something #and here is what is actually happening. #and other times. it is just a giant hulking mass of dark fuzzy goop and if it touches you you lose time and everything is fuzzy and muted #and you are beating it off with a broom or a stick or your bare hands or a childhood book you grabbed off the shelf #and it's larger than the room you're in and it's all encompasing and it's so so so so so fucking Mean to you. #and i can't ever kill it. but sometimes if i take a nap. or cry it out. it at least gets smaller. maybe down to a Particularly irate #large dog. and then from there. when we have both calmed down. i can see that this dog just has a thorn or a sticker in its paw or something #and i can help it. and we can both calm down. and we are both so so so tired. and it will go back to being a hamster. and i can hold it. #and this cycle will always repeat #you pick out the hurt and you look at it and you go Well. seeing it helps. and i at least Know now. what hurt me so bad #but it doesn't necessarily stop you from stepping in the sticker patch again y'know?? #especially when sometimes i think my parents will toss whole sticker bushes at me and not realize it #and i feel lowkey like i'm sitting in the middle of the elementary school baseball diamond again. surrounded by stickers and goatheads. #none of this makes sense but i am Very bad with emotion words. i have sad and happy and a few other specific ones #but for the most part beyond that?? every feeling i feel is not Words it is Situations And The Feelings Attached To It #loving my dog is like being taken to an ice cream shop on your birthday as a young child #loving my best friend is like standing in the grass with your shoes wet from the dew watching the sunrise and the specific rose-pink #that the clouds turn in mid-august.

[setaflow]

I haven't gotten very far in Starfield yet but looking back it's kinda hilarious that I basically went to the character creator and I guess subconsciously decided "I'm gonna make her the exact opposite of my CP2077 character" right down to them having the exact opposite hair color.

#Starfield #I went Cyber Runner; Neo Street Rat - Wanted - Taskmaster for my build so.......yeah #My roommate even called me out saying that I only picked Cyber Runner because it had 'Cyber' in the name which is.....partially true? #Honestly I wanted to play a space rogue/their and that's the best starting build for one #Anyway yeah I'm still deciding on the name but I think it's Ji-Yeon 'Lee' Aster -- Lee being the pseudonym she gives to most everyone #Korean mother German-American father #Her parents both die when she was young so she grew up in Neon scavenging tech equipment to sell for pittance #and eventually grew into a pretty decent hacker who was able to get by on Neon with minor jobs and the occasional corporate freelance gig #When she's 25 she goes in with a few friends on a huge homebrewed hacker job and the whole thing goes to shit. Like absolutely falls apart #In a moment of weakness Lee throws everyone else on her team under the bus and bails-- everyone else gets arrested and thrown in corp priso #So with a big bounty on her head she hops from system to system trying to keep a low profile until she lands the Argos job and plot happens #In terms of comparing her to Riley she's WAY smarter WAY more cynical WAY less athletic and WAY more guiltridden about her life #And while Riley's slower to trust but overall still nice at her core Lee is just a dick. The entire plot is just one big inconvenience #And to her working with Constellation is basically another way for her to hide from her massive bounty #She trusts them but DEFINITELY looks to use them in the beginning as...let's face it basically meat shields #Riley's story is more about learning how to trust people and accept change; #Lee's story is more about the importance of family and learning how to be less selfish #And finally-- Riley has blue hair and Lee has orange-red hair (her hacker alias was 'F1r3br4nd' and she never wanted to change it) #ANYWAY dump time over back to work #Seta Speaks

[prinprime]

I want to be

Made for the romance

Of the subway rats.

I want to be one of those,

Small and many and exuberant.

Like the woman across the room

Like the androids of the undead earth;

I want the perfect satisfaction

Of whole cloth beings.

I want my suffering

To be the glittering kind.

The way vampires

Are eternally damned.

Who chose to beleaguer me

with this verity.

Who did not let me

Be simply the story of a human.

#so many references #that one poem of a tweet about the subway rats #'No thank you #I am too large. And he turned away from me. and i cried' #and the tumblr post about us romanticizing robots and how one day the robots inhabiting rhe earth will romanticize being human #and that quote #about how you look at the woman across the room and think she is so perfect and beautiful and you're that woman to another woman #and also #baldurs gate 3 #asterion #because he haunts me #edward cullen #too because he's known for being sparkly #and just the idea of catholic guilt #cause thats deeply important and beautiful to me #but like feeling it is a whole different matter lol #that's the whole point #is all this existence is beautiful in the stories I read #but reality is not so romantic #and being human doesn't feel beautiful and important and poignant most of the time

[ourlordapollo]

*wakes up in a cold sweat* IK the localization makes it really difficult for ppl to engage with the Japanese-ess (for lack of abetter word-- Japanity?) of Ace Attorney but WHY haven't I seen anyone talking about how isolating it must have been for bby!Miles to grow up completely cut off from his culture and how awkward it must have been to be thrust back into it. Can i get another Asian-American in the chat can I please get another Asian-American in the chat

#look i know it's because people think he's white (bc white = default) but i'm trying not to be needlessly incendiary here lmfao #i actually have a lot of thoughts abt which characters we're 'meant' to view as white but that's a topic for another time #anyway. most of them r japanese-american. 2 me. #the race-coding (or lack thereof) in aa is rly interesting to me. any darker-skinned character becomes recontextualized via localization #(thinking specifically abt godot here but it affects the gavin bros too) #anyway. my only qualifications here are 'being slightly not white' so if anyone with an actual education wants to weigh in #pls message me i will listen to you with rapt attention #i tpyed 'rat attention' like 4 times lmao

[arolesbianism]

Thinks oh so hard abt the spiraling upwards clan founders, especially the birchclan founders. Silly lil kitties who's pasts are drenched in blood with the primary regret of not drawing it sooner

#rat rambles #oc posting #warriors posting #spiraling upwards #long story short they had a shitty awful terrible leader who sucked absolutely ass and they tore him to shreds #I mean that literally they pinned him onto the mountain side and slashed and mauled the shit out of him so hard that his lives evaporated #and several of the cats involved in that scene are sill alive and major parts of the story and I love them #oh also the cat that pinned him through a stab through the throat was his own daughter btw everyone hated his ass so much #and for good reason get his ass #alas in the main story I dont rly get to go too deep into how he harmed everyone involved mostly just three main ones #aka bristlestar because shes murtlepaw's ghost mom dawncrackle because hes also haunting murtle and gullspot because shes bristle's kit #so basically all the flashbacks we get involve those three in some form or another #honeystar was also there and involved but Im not currently planning on having her rly talk abt that #most of her more modern angst is the fact that she was forced into leadership against her will #and shes been alive long enough that shes been leading birchclan far longer than she ever lived in her old clan #but she did go through a lot of shit before birchclan was founded and it definitely shaped her a lot #she used to be a very determined and high spirited lil kitty cat who tried to be optimistic #but her family began to slowly be picked off one by one by both the old leader and the one whod later get evicerated #some of the older cats around her hoped it make her back down from her revelutionary ideas but she noticed that and it backfired on them #instead of being worn down to submission she became absolutely Furious and began to lash out more and become more demanding #it got to the point that she really only had two friends in the entire clan and one of them was her aunt whod later also die after coming #out abt having witnessed the leader killing his own kits #that was the final fucking straw for her and she was fully on board when bristle and dawn started looking for cats to join their rebellion #she did get rly frustrated with them as they waited patiently for the right moment but her remaining bestie kept her from going apeshit #so once the big fight finally broke out she was more than eager to join the hoard of cats chasing the bastard upwards #now unlike some of the other cats involved this legitimately actually made her feel a lot better for a while #for the first time in ages she finally felt like she could be optimistic abt smth again and was excited abt the idea of leaving this place #she had lost so much in this damn place since she was an apprentice and just wanted to finally be able to rest easy #but once they got to their new territory and set up camp things went south real fast as a flood fucked everything up #and after losing the only cat she had left in her life and losing her tail and being made deputy on top of that she deteriorated quickly

[skeletalheartattack]

I FEEL YOU ON THE TORNADO FEAR THO I USED TO BE SO SCARED OF THEM AS A KID THAT THE FAINTEST GUST OF WIND WOULD MAKE ME CRY LMAO 💀💀💀

YEAH LEGIT IT SUCKED SO BAD!!!!!! legit honestly i think it's so funny now cause like, where i live none of that shit happens here or even comes close to reaching us. and even then my ass was still scared to tears

#ask #raidendotcom #i mean wed still do tornado warnings anyway and go into our basement. #which sucked most for me cause like. fears aside. id put all my prized belongings in plastic bags and stuff #and would take everything i feared of losing down into the basement with me #then when itd be all over id be like ''whelp! time to lug all this stuff back upstairs!! :)'' #like id go to the extent of unplugging my n64 and gamecube and would bring them into the basement #but yeah my ass was Scared as fuck #like it got to the point where it was basically happening every night #tornadoes? steve urkel doll episode of family matters? rats? hurricanes? nukes? cry and puke. #like my parents would usually be like ''look man if this keeps happening well. youre gonna have to go to the hospital'' #it never reached that point though #i think it got to the point where i was playing Pokemon Stadium 2 in the living room #and like a screen mentioned the word ''Die'' in reference to a singular dice cube. and i just started fucking bawling #intrusive thoughts were a bitch around that age #once almost started crying at my friends house one time because i imagined something bad happening to my DSi #granted atleast i think i was alone in the room when it happened. #i think thats the same set of time where i spent the night at that friends house for like 5 days in a row #which i think was also when he had his birthday. so like when the 5 other kids left. i just stayed #anyway yeah i was not okay #thank you for the ask raiden :) sorry we were scared of tornadoes

[chisatowo]

Y'know not to be a party pooper but I think ppl should start thinking abt their queer hcs for more than five seconds when making hcs for characters. Like I think ppl get too comfy in the "fuck you, they're all gay/trans/whatever!" mindset sometimes and that sort of spiteful gut instinct way of going abt it can lead to some. Honestly rly gross hcs. Like I mainly just think ppl should examine their gut instincts before just stamping it on, because sometimes gut instincts are unconscious bias, and like it's not inherently evil to have a queer character that somewhat lines up with a stereotype sometimes, real people can as well, but like you've gotta handle that shit with care and caution man, looking at you non lesbians having mean lesbian hcs

#rat rambles #rat rants #Im so so tired sorry if this is nobsense gndjdndh #but yeah this applies to literally every queer identity man pls just be normal guys #I rly dont want to assume the worst in ppl when they have shitty looking queer hcs if I dont know all the context but like god damn #like I said I rly do think its possible to write characters that overlap with some stereotypes without making them a stereotype #like obviously it depends on the stereotype and who the person writing the character is but still #Id also argue that in many cases showcasing these sort of ppl in a nuanced and in depth light is incredibly important #like for example Id fucking kill for neurodivergent aspec rep that didnt treat us as babies or aliens #I dont want both groups to be lumped together so offensively all the time as is common now but like. neurodivergent aspecs do exist #and we deserve good representation too yknow? #I feel similar abt a lot of aspects of my identity. which is why it makes me sad how lacking in critical thinking skills ppl are sometimes #like ppl on here will rly just list the most offensively sterotypical queer hcs Ive seen in my life and get pissy when ppl point it out #and Ive ranted abt this before but theres also a lot of ppl that I dont think actually like. get most of these negative sterotypes. #like vaguely understanding theyre bad but not understanding why theyre bad #so in an attempt of writing a nuanced versions of stereotypes they just. portray stereotypes. #I think another thing thatd help here is if it was a more commonly accepted mindset that you can accidentally write shitty rep #like characters can 100% fall into a shitty stereotype and it be an 100% incredibly bad thing regardless of the writers intentions #and more likely than not youre going to fall into this when trying to add more representation to your story. social bias runs strong man #and like its obviously a case to case basis but like usually if you find out that your doing smth unintentionally shitty just change it bro #like idc how much of your hcs or whatever is built off of it if you find out youre being shitty with a certain identity fucking change shit #this applies to much more than just queer identities ofc like seriously pls listen to ppl when they criticise you #also let yourself criticise yourself! like obviously you can never perfectly capture smth you havent experienced but if you suspect that #an aspec of a hc or oc might be problematic then like look into it yourself you dont need to wait to be called out on it #alright yeah my brain is melting so bad rn I should shut up before I just mindkessly ramble all night long dndndjdh