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waffles-for-brunch · 9 days

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20 questions for fic writers!

tagged by @lovevamp

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

4. One's an okay oneshot, then I did a fix-it after 15x20, then I lost my mind completely and spent three years on a season 12 rewrite and now I'm back again writing another fix-it. My twilight zone is self-inflicted.

2. what’s your total Ao3 word count?

540,492 (insert kevin james shrugging meme here)

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Just Supernatural. I started writing a fic for Baldur's Gate Bloodweave but then Destiel dragged me back to the dark side. Maybe I'll finish that one eventually.

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

they're not gonna be in order bc I'm just gonna go thru my bookmarks real quick but - "And this, your living kiss" by opal_bullets "On labor" by a_good_soldier (i reread this one twice this week) "The Nanny" by Kitmistry and those are the ones i feel like mentioning. :)

5. do you respond to comments?

Admittedly rarely. Mostly because I'll open my email when I'm getting up in the morning and read them and then work all day and forget to respond. I do appreciate all the comments I get tho. And a lot of the really kind ones I send to my groupchat and/or save in a folder on my email labelled "nice comments" also just sometimes I don't feel like I have anything to say. Like idk sometimes thank you just seems too small or something you know. It's strange. Then I'll just get in my head about it and say nothing and the cycle repeats lmao. But I do read them all.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Dog you know I'm not writing any angst without a happy ending. I can't take that shit lmao. It's happy endings only in this house. Happy and found family and loveliness. :)

7. what is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I literally end everything the same way. Please I have the worst case of projection imaginable with these fics.

8. do you get hate on fics?

If I do I'm unaware. But I'd probably know it if I do, I stalk my own name and fics wherever I can because I'm insane and nosey. But nah the most I've gotten is just people being mad about a certain character's actions, but like that's not even hate it's just frustration with a character which is a given in certain circumstances. Now if someone was like "wow bad characterization" I'd be like girl, but no I think people are pretty respectful in my corners for the most part.

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

Bro let me tell you in "Our Old Heroes" I wrote like a singular sex scene and like maybe one or two other hot and heavy ones and good god did they take me so long to write. Like I'm not a very sex oriented person in general so writing this stuff out? Bro it's embarrassing how much poetry I put into that in retrospect (i jest, it's fine) but like I don't generally orient towards it just because it's very time consuming for me. It has to be very intimate and just right.

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you've written?

So short answer no, I haven't. Longer answer I love the concept and would be open to it. Particularly if it involves Dean being psychoanalyzed in some way because that's my favorite thing to write so it would probably be criminal minds. I think crossovers have so much fun and wonky potential tho.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

I hope someone printed my fic to bring into prison and make a black market hot commodity. It would be the highest honor. I guess that's not theft, it's just the free market. But so I guess really no, if I have I'm unawares.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that I'm aware of but I have had people comment in other languages or on twitter people will talk about it in a different language, which is pretty crazy. It's so wild we can be so connected to a story in that way despite not speaking the same language or growing up in the same environment.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

no! but as @lovevamp has said we've talked about a few that I'm certain one day we will follow through on. I've also talked with @icaruspendragon about maybe doing one at some point bc we seem to have the exact same mental illness that is the dean winchester brain disorder.

14. what’s your favorite all time ship?

I live breathe and bleed destiel, it's truly unfortunate for me.

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I just have a lot of ideas in my docs that will probably never become more than the ideas they are. Usually when I start a fic like for real I follow through with it. I would feel bad if I didn't lol.

16. what are your writing strengths?

I've been told my characterization is pretty good, which I appreciate. If it was bad I'd probably kms (jk). But fr idk that's the biggest comment I'll get is in regards to that which I really do like because I spend a lot of time trying to find a balance and make sure I'm expressing everyone the correct way they'd express themselves or not express themselves.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Sex scenes aside I do struggle with action mostly because I find it boring to write out. You just have to try and find so many different words. Ugh. I love dialogue. That's really where I start getting going. But writing action? I tend to do that last because I wanna get through all the good bits first then circle back and do the boring bits.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

listen I can barely remember english i'm sorry

19. first fandom you wrote for?

i'm an og baby i started here (destiel) and this is where i'll die (maybe not, we'll see)

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

Well, I don't really have many so it's probably the massive one. "Our Old Heroes" by adelaclancy (that's me). I was really in a bad place when I started it and I kind of just gave myself this crazy project for several reasons. One I was stopping drinking so I needed something else to do with my time. Second I was jobless and goalless and really didn't have a lot going for me and writing was really the only thing I have ever had consistently so I was like okay well I'll start this stupid project and it's gonna be like 26 chapters and 500,000 words long and it's gonna delve into all my issues through projection of these fictional characters and if I actually manage to finish it I can finally say I finished something. So I did. And I actually managed to work on myself a lot in the process. So over all that time I went from living in bad straights as an unemployed drunkard to a full time worker with a few years sobriety under their belt and a better sense of my own boundaries and thriving friendships and I dunno man, in a way that fic really was a bridge for me and I think in that too for a lot of the readers they get to see that now too. Like they can see my little notes at the beginning of chapters and how they change over time alongside the characters in the book and it's kind of an experience in that way I suppose. If not through Dean Winchester and Castiel then maybe through me, if someone out there finds a little bit of hope from that silly little mess of words then I suppose that's something to be proud of then, isn't it? Anywho...

tagging: @icaruspendragon

(Bro I know like two people sorry)

#there we go #not to get sappy #i'm not a sap i'm a big strong- *gunshots*#destiel #destiel fanfic #supernatural

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kitchfit · 5 months

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Year in Review: Games pt 2

Back to Bildeo Bames! After finishing my big Kingdom Hearts binge, I told myself to cut back on gaming for a while until Tears of the Kingdom came out. That was a huge lie! I love deception and falsehoods :D

Psychonauts

The idea of going inside someone's head to discover an entire universe created from their thoughts and memories has always been a fascinating one for me. I spent a lot of time as a kid imagining what my own or my friends' brain-world would look like and how you might navigate it. So imagine my surprise when I found an entire 3D platformer based around that concept. And for $5 on sale, no less! This had been a cult classic for a long time, but the recent sequel I still need to play elevated it to a higher place in the social conscience.

You play as Raz, a young kid who crashed a training camp in order to become a Psychonaut, people who covertly enter other's minds to extract secrets for the government. At least that's the idea, Raz ends up using his training to help his mind-victims work through their insecurities and psychoses in order to improve their mental health, first focusing on people in his camp, and then on clients in the nearby insane asylum. This isn't just out of a heroic desire to help others, but the easiest way Raz has to save his new camp friends, whose brains have all been cartoonishly sucked out of their ears and placed into jars. This world is so goofy and fun and the premise allows for endless creativity with settings and like. You can write a whole essay on any one of these levels. Damn I need to play the sequel.

The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog

I like Sonic quite a bit. The characters are so expressive and fun and the world is similarly wacky and cool. The lore is an odd mix of typical video-game nonsense and genuinely fascinating tragic backstories. I loved the Sonic X show and Sonic Underground but like. The games... Okay the games are fun, but there's always one thing that ends up giving me a huge headache. Usually the Chaos emeralds. Eventually I'll go back and play through the Origin games and meet the games on their terms, but in the meantime this is the perfect Sonic game for me.

It's just a three hour visual novel written in the style of a murder mystery! It's so cute! Sonic is dead! You spend most of the game as Barry the Quokka, who's name is actually Kitch, a dorky dude in charge of catering on the murder mystery train, thrust suddenly into Amy Rose's birthday party on a quest to figure out the culprit who fake murdered our best blue boy. The game is full of so many adorable designs, fun characterization, and goofy plot tangents that its clear Sega just gave a group of Sonic fans free reign to go crazy over an official project. If you get bored of the visual novel part, its interspersed with random isometric Sonic levels you can plow through pretty quickly. I had a pretty good time with all of it.

Sonic Adventure: DX

In fact I had such a good time with The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog that I jumped immediately into an actual Sonic game. This was Sonic's first real jump into 3D, and I was always led to believe that jump missed the platform and tumbled into badly rendered, inanimate water. This isn't true! The voice acting is pretty bad at times and the animation gets wonky in places, but like. I am a Kingdom Hearts fan. These are not negatives. It also splits a singular story into multiple perspectives, so you discover more context for what's happening the more characters you play as. That doesn't mean the story is amazing or anything, but the effort is commendable and I love when stories do this.

Each character sits in a different genre of game as well. Sonic himself translates his 2D gameplay pretty well into a 3D setting, which is what most people reference when talking about this game. Tails is more of a direct racing game where you can basically skip most of any level due to the fact he can fly. Knuckles is a treasure hunting game focused on exploration. Amy is a survival horror game where you beat the shit out of robotic pyramid head at the end, and Big the Cat is a fishing game that's pretty fun after you tear all of your hair out. The last story, Gamma, is a rail shooter about one of Eggman's robots developing a conscience after learning it is being powered by a small tormented bird, before going on a rampage against its robotic brethren and self-destructing, freeing them all from Eggman's control. It's surprisingly... pointiate? powniant? *checks watch* poignant dammit. I have an English degree. Anyways robot stories like this always get to me for some reason.

Pokemon Infinite Fusion

There are a few communities where the amount of effort that can go into amateur fan content astounds me. The Pokemon fanbase is one of those communities. Romhacks have been popular in this community for a long time, many of them matching or exceeding some of the professionally made mainline titles, in my opinion, at least. Pokemon Infinite Fusion approaches that line with just the shear volume of fan content present in this game.

Any Pokemon of any stage can be "fused" with another to create a new design. Their typing and stats depend on a fairly simple algorithm, but the designs themselves are created by hundreds of incredibly talented independent artists you can find credited in the Pokedex. You can even import your own design if you wish! Obviously, with the amount of possible combinations, not all of them are artist-created, most procedurally generated, but there are just so many that it boggles my mind. Here are a few of my favorites

[Image I.D. Fusion of Mawile and Electavire created by Sadfrog, it has jumper cables in place of its giant mouths]

[Image I.D. fusion of Cofagrigus and Weavile that resembles Midna from the Zelda series created by King Peggy]

[Image I.D. fusion of Charizard and Aerodactyl created by artist Beespoon]

The game itself is a decent remake of Firered and Leafgreen with a significant post game. I have a couple issues, such as the credits being kind of vague and buried, and the gameplay being glitchy in certain areas, but this game is still being updated, so I'm excited to see what else it will offer in the future.

The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess

Ocarina of Time is the quintessential Zelda game, Breath of the Wild reinvented the franchise, but this is my first and favorite Zelda game. When I think of Zelda I think of this Hyrule's landscape, this Link's journey. I can talk at length about the perfect structure of this game, the dungeon layouts, the visuals' mix of quirky and grimdark, the fun boss designs, but I can't deny its all washed in nostalgia.

The story is about two people with the rest of their life apparent ahead of them, both cursed and disfigured beyond their imagination and forced into a role they could have never predicted. People say Midna is the greatest "helper" in the franchise, but really she's the hero right alongside our main boy. This isn't Link's story, its both of theirs. And at the end, neither of them can truly return to what they used to be; the curse is dispelled, but the change remains. For Midna this means sacrificing her closest relationship for the good of her kingdom, and for Link this means leaving the town he knew as home. Maybe he's looking for a way to find Midna, maybe he's off on a new, dangerous adventure, maybe he wants to do motion-controlled sharpshooting on Nintendo's cool new console. Regardless of his goal, his adventure changed him in a way that he can no longer live comfortably in the life he grew up in. So he leaves.

The Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword HD

When this game came out, the biggest complaint about it were the broken motion-controls. Personally, they always worked fine for me, but I'm glad the switch remake added a new control scheme to make the experience more accessible. Now more people can complain about the actual game rather than the controls! Honestly never really understood why this game was so polarizing, the only big problem I had with the original was Fi's constant interruptions (which were toned down in this version), but Navi did that shit way more frequently and no one marked that as an abject flaw. It's a damn good 3D Zelda with excellent dungeons and a really compelling conflict.

This version of Link and Zelda are one of the only overtly romantic iterations of these characters. A classic childhood friends to lovers dynamic. Zelda is on her quest to restore the power of the goddess and Link is set on supporting her, no matter how painful it might be for him. A cool detail I love in this game is after Zelda seals herself up in the Orange Sap of Eternal Agony or whatever, the lines on Link's face notably lengthen and darken.

[Image I.D. Link at the beginning of Skyward Sword. The lines under his eyes are visible, but indistinct]

[Image I.D. Link towards the end of Skyward Sword, the lines under his eyes are deeper and more apparent.]

It's as if the trauma of his journey has physically aged him. Idk maybe its just a lighting thing I'm reading too far into. I'm glad this Link and Zelda get a happy ending. My only complaint nowadays is learning Nintendo almost made a "hero mode" style extra game where you play through Zelda's adventure! And they took it out! Cowards! You get glimpses of what it would be like in the end credits, like they're taunting you.

The Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom

Breath of the Wild might be my favorite game to just exist in. Every inch of Hyrule is so thoroughly laid out; the environments are gorgeous, the movement is fun, there's always something in the distance worth checking out, and the towns are so heavily detailed. You can spend hours even after completing the game 100% just driving around the landscape or studying the textures and wall decor in Kakariko to find some hidden piece of storytelling. In that regard, excited to say the Tears of the Kingdom is the perfect sequel.

I was concerned when it was revealed we were exploring the same Hyrule's map, just a few years later, but they changed things up so thoroughly, exploring the same area doesn't feel like retreading old ground, but seeing how the area evolved. It's familiar, rather than identical. Not only that, but there are now two entirely new maps situated above and below the old one, each with a new, invigorating aesthetic that are so fun and exciting to travel through. Go to the Sky for some awesome Agoraphobia, or travel to the Depths for some cooky Claustrophobia. You will never know how badly I spelled claustrophobia at first.

The story is nowhere near as elegantly written as BotW, and that's fine, it's a sequel, it only needs to add on to the original, and it brought it me Tears (HAH) for entirely different reasons that BotW. The dragon's tears sidequest had genuinely shocked me with the order I collected them, and the endgame boss sequence was just so incredibly peak. On the lore side of things, and how it connects to the larger mythos, this game makes me want to strangle someone, but this is Zelda, I would not have it any other way. Mechanically, I'm never one to push a game to its absolute limit, but this game has so many tools intended for the player to do exactly that, and I'm excited to see what other people come up with.

youtube

Recently, as of writing this, the Youtuber Any Austin put out a video analyzing the woodworking of TotK and BotW, and it might sound goofy, but it got me pumped to return to it in the near future, to just exist in Hyrule for a while longer.

Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Red Rescue Team Pt 1

This is the first title I'm granting the "pt 1" moniker. Some games have a definitive ending, and then a post-game epilogue that is an entirely new story that I might finish next year. This is a childhood favorite of mine I'm revisiting. The mystery dungeon games have this insane hold over my psyche and always wrench an emotion out of me like no other Pokemon games can. While that didn't change time around, I realized I had a great deal of nostalgia blindness over its story. It's not bad at all, but it plays into a lot of generic adventure story tropes while I remembered it being more unique. In truth, this game was actually my introduction to a lot of those tropes and archetypes, and it pulls them off very well. It occasionally moves into some insane territory, like your cute Pokemon guys are hunted down by a lynch mob at one point.

This game also established a lot of Pokemon identities in my head, and are the reason Mons like Ninetales and Gardevoir are some of my favorites. Its such a comfortable game to go back to, but it will always be outshined by its successor, in my opinion.

Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Skies Pt. 1

No, I didn't misspell that. This is a fanmade improvement hack that adds some quality of life adjustments, like shortcuts for all of your moves, and a bunch of new story sidequests. Most of the story elements are relegated to the post game, so my playthrough was more or less identical to the original. That being said, this is one of my favorite games of all time. The reason I remembered Red Rescue team as having a more in-depth story is because of this game. Upon my umpteenth playthrough of this I can confirm that it is not (just) nostalgia blindness, this is still one of the best video game stories I have ever experienced. You can withdraw all of the elements that make it a Pokemon game and you are still left with a really well written, emotionally driven science fiction story. Wigglytuff and Chatot aren't even Pokemon to me. They're just the chaotic gay couple from this game.

The gameplay is mostly unchanged from the first, with the addition of the lovable 4th generation freaks. The change of focus from rescuing Pokemon to exploring new areas and finding treasure always hooked me and spurred on my imagination as a kid, it captures the sense of wonder really well.

Link to hack: https://hacks.skytemple.org/h/skies

Pikmin

This is probably my most replayed game ever. It's a pretty short game, if you know what you're doing. There was a point where I had the map so consistently memorized I could do a playthrough in my head, lmao. Take that Miyamoto. I pirated your game through MY MIND. YOU WOULDN'T DOWNLOAD A MEMORY.

There's still something magical about the atmosphere in this game that I don't think any of the sequels quite matched. Something about music; the mystery; the sound design; the isolation. It's just one man forced to make friends with these adorable alien freaks to ensure both of their survival. Later entries would focus on the intrigue of exploring what seems to be the ruins of human society from an ants perspective, which has its own appeal, but this game feels most genuinely alien and hostile in the way nature can be, in a beautiful way. I also played this with gamecube controls for the first time in my life man fuck the gamecube controls.

Pikmin 2 pt 1

This game has come under fire in recent years, which I think is goofy as all hell. I heard people call it "the black sheep" of the Pikmin series back when there were only three sheep! And a pygmy goat on the 3DS, I guess. I understand a lot of the criticisms, but this was a dream come true when I first picked it up as a kid. Now you have an endless amount of time to explore the Pikmin Planet to your leisure! You have another dude (he sucks so much I love him)! More little freaks to follow you around! Even more big freaks who want to kill you! I love freaks. I don't know how much time I spent studying through the Piklopedia to understand the wider ecology of this viddy game. It solidified the character of Olimar in my head even moreso than the original.

People hate the caves, (or hated?) but I think that's just because it wasn't like Pikmin 1. There's something to be said about the generic aesthetics dulling down the personality of these dungeons, but it always felt like a suitable expansion of this world. They're bugs! Tons of bugs live underground! Of course that's where they're all hiding. Because of the endless time limit, they did ramp up the difficulty on some of these caves to the bullshit level, which made me want to move on once I paid off the debt. Sorry Louie! I know you like it down there anyways. With the other freaks.

Pikmin 3

I never owned a Wii U, so this game coming out at the peak of my Pikmin hyper fixation was agonizing. I staved off the insanity of not being able to play it by scrolling the fanwiki articles for every new creature it introduced and rewatching the trailer demo over and over again? Huh, I really did that. Finally being able to play it on the switch is fantastic, and I don't have to deal with that stupid gamepad. Sorry, really cool bulky controller with a tiny screen you can't see shit on.

This game is so beautiful. It almost retains the majesty of discovery that the original had. I understand why people often refer to it as the true sequel. It works to strike a balance between the tight survival gameplay of 1 and the explorative aspect of 2 by having your day count tied to the amount of resources you can gather within a day, which also allows the plot to manufacture genuine anxiety when a certain asshole steals all your shit. All that time you spent gathering a buffer against certain starvation for your dudes was worthless unless you can get it back. You can actually lose the game at this point if you aren't on top of things.

I like all the new dudes. They all fit within the pre-established universe very well and contrast nicely against the original trilogy of dudes by being nice and actually liking each other. You just feel bad that Olimar hasn't been living it up with these cool cats all this time, and is instead tormented by his asshole coworkers every waking moment of his life on PNF 404. All three of the coolcats also get original Piklopedia entries from different professional perspectives. All together we get an amateur biologist (Olimar), a cook (Louie), an engineer (Alph), a botanist (Brittany), and a tactician (Charlie). Most of Charlie's are just "can I take this bug in 1v1" and I love him for that.

Cutting this off here for now. Remember how I said I love deceptions? That also went for writing this in a timely fashion. Oh well, one person's Monday night is another's Friday morning. That's how timezones work, I think. Going back to movies next Monday. I don't watch a lot of movies overall, but I have a lot to go through.

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maleyanderecafe · 2 years

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hey! hope you had a fun trip :D not sure if i can call this a recommendation, as ive never played the game, but there's a pretty obscure yandere otome game named 'Lunatic Honey ~Sekai de Ichiban Kimi ga Suki~'. Someone did write about it over on deviantart, so its not completely lost

It took a bit of digging and learning how to use TextExtract, but I was able to find the game here, though the game is only in Japanese as it seems. There's not a whole ton of information on this game other than the VNDB page and the deviant art page mentioned. However, I did find two korean reviews on it that are pretty detailed, so if you are interested, try reading those. Still I played the entire thing with all endings, extras and everything, so I will be documenting as much as I can on this. It's pretty good actually, even when the translation was a bit wonky all the time (but pretty hilarious), so I really hope that someone will pick this up and properly translate it.

I will warn that almost all the endings are rather tragic and dark and there is at least one cg in this summary that involves decapitation. I won't be posting all of the CGs, but I will be posting at least one for each character.

The story of Lunatic Honey starts out with our main protagonist Yuki talking about the three yanderes in the game: Hibiki, her childhood friend who takes care of her and is a bit aloof, Haruka, the blond underclassman who adores Yuki and Ryoma the flirty and dependable upperclassman. They are all popular at school with Haruka and Ryoma having their own fanclubs (essentially) and they all love Yuki and are a bit possessive of her (oh, you know, yandere things). The first choice dictates whose route you go down, with the girls in Yuki's class asking who she likes the most.

Hibiki's route, Hibiki and Yuki head home after the school day riding on Hibiki's motorcycle after he lends her a dictionary during school. He cooks food for Yuki and then goes home, to his mother, whom he ignores and heads into his room. While his mother is begging apologizes outside of his door, Hibiki is afraid that she might try to kill him again and thinks about Yuki, praying that she'll save him. The school festival is starting soon and everyone has to participate, with Hibiki's class doing a butler cafe that Yuki wants to see. While going home, Yuki meets up with Hibiki and the two go to a restaurant to eat and paint their nails (I think it's like a prize they get since the restaurant owners thing they're a couple but it's hard to tell with the translation). Upon going home, Hibiki begs again that time will move faster so that he can see Yuki's again. The next day, after a cute exchange about the nail painting on the roof, Yuki sees someone confessing to Hibiki, who then shreds the love letter in front of the girl's face. Yuki asks why Hibiki turned her down so harshly and Hibiki states he wanted to make it clear that he didn't like her, which somehow turns to him confessing to Yuki and her turning it down (again, translations a bit rough there). Yuki goes home and cleans her room, finding a necklace that Hibiki gave her when she was younger. We get a flashback to when the two were younger, where Hibiki gives Yuki the necklace as a way to show his feelings towards her. During the festival, Yuki comes to visit Hibiki in his booth, seeing him in a waiter outfit and having a good time. After the festival, Yuki finds a cold Hibiki waiting at the entrance of her apartment and offers him to stay for the night. He takes a shower, thinking how happy he is that Yuki found him and that he will never let her go. The next morning, Yuki finds Hibiki huddled up next to the door of her room instead of on the couch. Concerned, she wakes him up and the two have breakfast. At some point, Yuki brings up the ring, and confesses her feelings, solidifying the two as a couple. At school, Hibiki reveals to the other two yanderes that they're dating, and they don't seem very happy about it, though are forced to accept it. We see how their relationship continues, with Yuki being more and more concerned about Hibiki, as he seems to know exactly where she is all the time and generally being much more possessive. On a rainy day, she sees Haruka standing in the rain and rushes to give him an umbrella, only to be stopped by Hibiki. Hibiki seems angry that she would give the umbrella to him in the first place, stating that she should only care about Hibiki. Yuki compromises and the two go together to give Haruka the umbrella. That night, Yuki remembers a memory from when she and Hibiki are younger, when Hibiki used to get very sick periodically, and ended up in the hospital. Yuki would sneak in after hours to comfort Hibiki so he wouldn't be lonely. Hibiki's mother comes in and attempts to kill Hibiki, with Yuki saving him by throwing a vase at her and promising to always be there for Hibiki. At school, Ryoma confesses to Yuki that he's worried about Yuki and Hibiki, and that it's okay to say that he's a burden. Yuki states that while Hibiki can be difficult, she loves him and wouldn't trade him for anyone else. Upon leaving, we see that Hibiki had been listening the entire time, and Ryoma warns Hibiki to not neglect her and make her sad. We then see Hibiki on the rooftop with Yuki attempting to stop him from jumping off. Hibiki talks about how it would be paradise if the two could be together, to which Yuki hugs him, promising they will have it together. Hibiki jumps off the roof with Yuki in his arms happy that the two can be together forever.

If you choose to give Haruka the umbrella and ignore Hibiki, Yuki will run out into the rain and give Haruka an umbrella. In response, Haruka will be overjoyed and forcibly kisses Yuki. Hibiki from this point on seems more cheerful and the story becomes more light hearted with Hibiki sharing his food with Haruka and Ryoma. It turns out Hibiki hid razors in their food, causing their tongues to be cut off. Yuki reacts in horror as Hibiki takes out a machete to cut off his two rival's heads off.

If you choose to tell Ryoma that Hibiki is a burden, she will cry into Ryoma's arms before leaving, leaving a very depressed Hibiki. At home, Yuki cooks one of the leftover foods that Hibiki left for her but notices something strange. To her horror, she finds either Hibiki's hand or finger floating inside the food. She gets a call from Hibiki from inside of a subway station as well as a text from Hibiki for him apologizing for being a burden and that he left his hand/finger inside the food so that he will always be a part of Yuki. The last thing Yuki hears in the phone call is Hibiki jumping into the traintracks as the subway crushes him.

If Yuki instead chooses Haruka, Yuki will go to the library to find a dictionary for her class, bumping into Haruka there. Yuki and Haruka walk together to school and Yuki finds out that Haruka is actually a full British, his family is rich and he lives on the opposite end of where Yuki lives. Haruka walks Yuki home before going home and having dinner with his family. His family seems pretty normal and generally happy, and Haruka excuses himself to his room where he listens to Yuki over a radio. During lunchtime the next day, Haruka asks Yuki what their stance is on insects, since his cousin has been collecting him. Yuki dislikes most insects though she's fine with some of them (like butterflies or dragonflies) and Haruka agrees. We also find out that at the festival, Haruka will be participating in a cosplay event and dressing up as a cat boy. At the end of school, Yuki sees Haruka sitting out of his track team. Yuki talks to him and finds out that Haruka has injured his ankle and has been sitting out. He states that the team is counting on him and that now that he's hurt himself, he's essentially useless to them. Yuki tries to cheer him up by stating that he has other good qualities as well. Haruka goes home and listens in on Yuki again, believing that she's the only one who really cares about her and that today is proof. Upon going home the next day, Yuki runs into Haruka where they essentially have a date at the arcade playing with the claw machine. During the festival, Yuki goes to visit Haruka who but is stopped by a long line of people wanting to see him. Just as she's about to leave, Haruka stops her and the two go onto the rooftop, where Haruka confesses his feelings and Yuki accepts them. While preparing for her date with Haruka, Haruka is listening in on which outfits she's choosing. Haruka mentions that he planned the trip to the amusement park specifically for her by sending fliers to her house. During the date, Haruka mentions the kind of clothes that he'd like to see on her, and guides her throughout the park, knowing exactly what she wants due to his eavesdropping. Ryoma calls her during the date, but before she can respond, Haruka becomes really jealous, having his eyes cloud over, which scares Yuki. Upon rejecting the call, the two have a good date, although Yuki was still nervous about seeing that side of Haruka. The next day, while moving some things for her class, she finds that Ryoma has fallen down the stairs. It seems that Haruka had come up the stairs as well, and she heavily suspected that Haruka was the one who pushed him down. The next day at home, she finds it strange that Hibiki has not come to visit her and instead finds Haruka at her house and walks her to school. At school, we find out that Haruka broke both his legs in a motorcycle accident, and Yuki gets walked home y Haruka. At their place, Haruka grows jealous, telling Yuki that he fell for her at the beginning of the year since she helped her and that before he was bullied because of his British Heritage. To him, he believes everyone else is simply a bug, and attempts to stab Yuki. Mortified, he begins crying and Yuki comforts him, promising to never leave him. It turns out that Haruka purposefully started crying so that she would promise him that and happily accepts it.

If Yuki attempts to break up with Haruka, he will overhear due to his tracking device. The next day, Haruka continuously rings at the doorbell and tries to get in, much to Yuki's fright. She tries to hide, but Haruka breaks in due to a key that he got off of Hibiki, with his hand still held onto it. Haruka ends up stabbing Hibiki and as she dies, he hears Haruka's expression of love over and over again.

If Yuki accepts to be with Haruka, Haruka will become more and more isolating, cutting off her friends and only hanging around Haruka. One day, while crossing the street, someone pushes Haruka into the way of a truck causing him to get hit. Yuki is pulled back by Ryoma, who takes her away, declaring his love for her.

In Ryoma's route, Yuki runs into Ryoma while looking for a dictionary and Ryoma gives it to her, flirting with her and kissing her on the head. At the end of the day, Ryoma attempts to walk home with Yuki, but is blocked off by all of his fangirls, causing Yuki to walk home with Hibiki instead. At his apartment, his mother checks in on him briefly before living him alone, and we learn that Yuki is Ryoma's first love, and that he's having a hard time expressing his love to her and hopes to claim her as his own. The next day on the rooftop, Yuki asks Ryoma what he's doing for the festival and we find out that Ryoma will actually be participating in a basketball game and hopes that Yuki will come there to support him, to which Yuki says she will try to. After school while walking home, she walks with Ryoma through the park as the autumn leaves fall. They have a romantic moment talking about their favorite seasons and how they like the autumn leaves. At home, Ryoma's love for Yuki grows stronger, with him really wanting to make him hers. The next day, before Yuki goes home, she's confronted by the members of Ryoma's fanclub and bullied before Ryoma comes in to save her. He threatens that he will kill the fangirls and they run away scared. Ryoma promises to protect Yuki and that he will make sure nothing like this happens again. During the weekend, Yuki gets a text from Ryoma asking her to go to the movies with him, to which Yuki accepts. After meeting up, they have a romantic time watching the movie, which is about a love triangle. Ryoma talks about how he would never let that happen to the female character if he was in the main lead's shoes and would rather keep her all to himself. During the festival, Yuki goes to see Ryoma at the basketball game and even cheers for him. Afterwards, Ryoma tells Yuki that he was able to win because she cheered for him. Ryoma confesses to Yuki and she accepts, having them date. The next day they have a date together and they go into Ryoma's apartment. Ryoma notes that the apartment is soundproof making it great for doing karaoke (...amongst other things). Ryoma goes to get Yuki tea and during this time she gets a strange call from Haruka, with strange breathing. When Ryoma comes back, she notes the call to him with his response stating that it was probably a prank call. Ryoma leaves again for a phone call, and Yuki hears strange noises upstairs. Tentatively, she goes up the stairs and finds a tied and beat up Haruka trapped on a chair. Ryoma finds her and wishes that she didn't do that, drugging her and making her pass out. When she wakes up, she is chained onto a bed. From then on, she is unable to escape, with Ryoma leaving to get her food, cuddle with her and even giving her a collar with a bell on it. One day, Yuki finds that Ryoma has forgotten to chain her up and attempts to leave the apartment, however, finds that Ryoma is outside. It seems that he purposefuly let them loose to test if she really loved her and decides to amputate her legs as a result. From then on, Yuki is broken, happy to see Ryoma whenever he returns, with Ryoma extremely happy as well.

If after Yuki escapes her chains she decides to look around the house, she finds that Haruka has been chopped into bits and finds Hibiki drowned in the bathroom. Ryoma while heading home thinks fondly of Yuki, happy that she didn't try to escape. However, upon opening the door is stabbed by Yuki. Ryoma stabs her back leading to the two dying on the living room floor together.

If Yuki accepts the dog collar willingly, she is continually pampered by Ryoma, essentially accepting her fate. He gifts her a coral hairpin before leaving but doesn't return. Instead, we get a Hibiki coming in and trying to save Yuki, showing her the decapitated head of Ryoma. Traumatized by his death, Yuki chooses to take her hairpin and kill herself, causing Hibiki to scream out and watch his love die.

The final (and probably least tragic as we know of) ending is if Yuki doesn't really choose any of the guys (or basically is neutral about them). On the day of the festival, she heads up to the roof, only to find the three guys there. They all confess to her, leading to her being shocked and confused at what's going on.

There are some extras as well, relating to the creator's comments and a "yandere room" with each character to ask them questions about their likes, dislikes hobbies and other things.

Going into the game I wasn't really expecting all that much, but it actually is a very good game and surprisingly tragic/brutal. Despite the fact that is a bit old, it is very well written and very much of it's time (basically it has the vibes that it came from 2014 which isn't really a bad thing it's just a feeling.) Considering the game was made by a team of three, I think it's very well made, from the backgrounds to the sprites to the songs. I'm not sure if they made the music or not, but it's very good consisting of piano rifts. My favorite one is what I call the "panic" music, which generally plays when when the yandere is doing something, well, yandere like and the use of silence is really good for some of the endings. On Hibiki's train suicide route, I was having chills down my spine because of the silence they used when they revealed that Yuki was eating curry with Hibiki's hand/fingers in it.

My favorites in order are Hibiki, Haruka and then Ryoma, with Hibiki having the most emotional route and being the most fleshed out. I think that Hibiki as a yandere is a little bit more rare in games too since he tends to be more self inflicting which isn't something I see too much. Haruka and Ryoma's routes are both good and are more based on preference which one you like the most (I like Haruka because he's cute, has a good face turn and I'm not really into confinement as much), though it does feel like Hibiki's route is the "canon" out of all of them.

Starting with Hibiki's route, I actually wasn't sure that I would like him since he comes off as rather aloof initially but as the route went on I started to feel for him the most. Out of all the love interest he's the only one that has a bad relationship with his parents (with Haruka and Ryoma, they seem to have good relationships with their parents they are simply just unaware what their children are doing), and you really feel bad for him considering when he's at home all he wants is to see Yuki again. He is the childhood friend so he's been taking care of Yuki since she was young and Yuki protected Hibiki from his mother as well when they were smaller and his route shows how vulnerable he is. I think he had the most impact in terms of bad endings because I did not expect him cut of his own hand/fingers and kill himself on the subway (I think it's the bad end that most resonates with me). His other bad ending seems a bit strange since he's really happy until he straight up cuts off Haruka and Ryoma's head since other than that he doesn't really seem to be the brutal type, though I guess it does foreshadow the bad ending in Ryoma's route considering he decapitates him.

I was kinda wondering why it took him so long to sleep over at Yuki's house. I feel that because Hibiki and Yuki are close enough that it wouldn't really be weird for him to sleep over at her place (at least on her couch) especially if he reminds her about his relationship with his mom. Maybe it's because he's trying to come off as more independent, but I just feel like he could have totally slept over if he wanted, plus he'd always be near Yuki if he did, making it so he wouldn't always be pining for her at home.

I thought it was funny that the text extract would mistranslate Hibiki's name into Echo/Sound/Ring, so much so that Cherry and I would just call him Echo-kun/Ring-kun/Sound-kun. Cherry also laments his mullet hair because it doesn't really look that good on him in the sprites and especially when he dresses up as a waitor. There's a bit of a dark joke that he likes watermelons considering in the Ryoma bad ending, Yuki initially mistakes Ryoma's head as the watermelons that Echo-kun and her would break when they were younger which is... dark haha.

Moving onto Haruka's route, I think his route did a good job with his heel face turn especially when it came to him basically going into yandere mode. Out of all the love interests, he's definitely the most pushy in terms of getting Yuki to do what he wants as well as the most isolating (socially because the actual isolation award goes to Ryoma). Yuki is so scared of him that she actively tries not to activate that side of him and tries to believe in that sweeter side of Haruka. I did think it was funny that in his bad ending Ryoma just kind of comes out of nowhere and kills Haruka. I also kept joking that because Hibiki lost his hands/fingers in Haruka's other bad ending that Hibiki is just destined to lose his hands in all of them lol.

There wasn't anything really wrong with Haruka's route, I just thought it was funny that he was like "I like my parents but they just don't understand me" moment when he initially goes into his room to listen in on Yuki. Something about it made me think he was like a brooding teenager which is sort of is, lol. Not that telling his parents that he's wiretapping the girl he likes is something he should do, I just think it's funny. I also kept on imagining when Haruka gets Hibiki into the motorcycle accident that he just straight up jump kicks him sideways because although that's probably not what happened I just think that would be the funniest way of doing it.

Text extract kept on translating his name as remote (?) for some reason. I liked his cat outfit (because I'm weak to those) but it looked kind of weird on him I'll be honest. I think it's just because he looks weirdly flat on him, but a cat outfit is a cat outfit.

Ryoma's route is surprisingly the most romantic, since in pretty much all interactions in his route, its very sweet until up to the point where he kidnaps her (I mean he's sweet to her as well, just in a different way). Ryoma is the most bold out of all the other love interests, actively flirting with Yuki and it's a bit similar to Toma in a lot of ways. I do think that his route probably has the most deaths considering in the murder suicide ending pretty much all the main characters die. I think his route does the most 180 degrees in this game going from romantic to straight up kidnapping Yuki and even amputating her legs in the true ending.

I am surprised that pretty much no one seems to really know or at least care that Yuki is gone other than Hibiki considering she gets imprisoned for like a month, or maybe they did but since we're in Yuki's point of view it doesn't seem like they really cared. I guess Hibiki does end up succeeding in looking for her in the two bad endings, but it either ends up with him or Yuki dead so I guess it wouldn't have really worked out in the first place.

His name was consistently Ryoma except for the instances where they either translated him to horse or old man. I guess it makes sense because the first character of Ryoma's name is horse (馬), though I was surprised that it was so consistent considering the other two love interest's names.

Overall, I really did like this game. I think there was a lot of love when making it and it makes me sad that this group disbanded and that none of their games were ever translated. I hope that it does get picked up one day and translated because it is genuinely very good despite the way I had to change it to English (TextExtract was mostly consistent in translations except when it would cut off some long texts for some reason). If someone were to remake/translate this game, I think it would be really good for introducing to male yandere lovers.

Hopefully you guys enjoyed my really long summary and analysis for this game. Thank you for sending this ask because without it I wouldn't have played this obscure but pretty good yandere game!

#asks #male yandere #yandere #yandere boy #recommendations #OTZ this ask was sent when I came back from Hawaii and now its been two vacations...#lunatic honey

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selkiecoded · 2 years

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small orv details i picked up on my re-read

lee sookyung had (according to her own testimony, unable to be otherwise proven) been released from prison for a indeterminate "while" by the start of the story, and had merely been visiting seoul. kim dokja was aware of the fact that she was released (so he likely knew the broad length of her sentence) but never bothered finding her after she was released

han sooyoung picked up VERY EARLY to the fact that kdj is unreasonably suspicious of yoo joonghyuk. when they first met up prior to meeting shin yoosoung, hsy mentions that hes being harsh of yjh, considering from what she read, hes "fighting for the people." kdj, naturally, hits her with a "fake fan"

(harder to gauge due to wonky translation but) yjh kicked kdj in the nuts once

hsy and gong pildu got sent to peaceland by getting run over by a truck and falling into han river respectively

kdj didnt have a dick the entire time he was at the constellation banquet

uriel initially saw kdj as the top in the relationship and was greatly distressed over the idea he'd become an eunuch (a lot more happens to kdjs dick than i remembered. thats like, four things to do w kdjs penis? five if you count his little black book of sex in his mind palace)

yjh and kdj were holding hands the entire time they gave the nebulae announcement awwwww

lee jihye saw kim dokjas real, actual face without any form of censoring when he first rescued her in the dark castle (its most likely the censoring went back into effect soon after i think? its never really clear on it)

hsys clones didnt have genitalia. do you think 49 kdj had genitalia or...? dammit, i was hoping i wouldnt have to think abt kdjs dick anymore

when exiting paradise, hsy called up clones w kdjs face to practice fighting against. she made sure to punch his dick. (sigh..)

lee jihye calls shin yoosoung "little beast" THAT IS SO CUTEEE 🥺

when hsy and kdj are discussing his fate, kdj gets caught up in the fact that hsy is like... really pretty... not to the same detail as he gets abt yjh lol but more detailed than he usually is. its because hes in love with her.

in the 1st regression, yjh protected paradise and was screwed over for it (did he initially become a protector before being betrayed and fed to it? did he voluntarily offer himself up to protect paradise? some mixture of the two w/out him actually dying in paradise? doesnt clarify!)

for how much kdj likes to go onnn and onnn about how hes an emotionless powerhouse who only saves ppl bc they may be useful to him later, even early on the other characters are very influenced by his selflessness. in dark castle, when lee jihye stills thinks hes dead, she attempts to get shin yoosoung and lee gilyoung to evacuate and leave her to deal with the demons, which she very explicitly links to kdj. additionally, in paradise, when the destruction first happens, yjh spots some of kcom helping evacuate citizens and muses on the fact that this is the influence of kdj. in these two examples, you can very clearly see the link of kdjs selflessness sliding into suicidality by outsiders emulating this behavior. interesting!

i love yoo joonghyuk so much. (just a general thing, but prompted due to yjh coming to the realization that his regressions had chipped away at his sense of love and care for the world and people. seeing kcom in action, defeating reinheit, having the people of paradise thank him... it all reminded him that he truly is a person who loves people. that there truly is no point to the world if he cannot protect people, even in attempts to get to a "perfect scenario." and, upon coming to this realization, he links it back to kim dokja with a budding appreciation and love for the man and his ideals, and gives kdjs name to the survivors of paradise. its all very good. kdj is immediately incredibly suspicious of yjh because of fucking course he is.)

in the love meter chapter (MY BELOVED) yoo sangah is doubtful to the idea that kdj loves her the most, and while denying it she gets self-conscious and relegates herself to nothing more than his ex-coworker and "someone he helps." while it is later shown that shes more willing to think of them as friends than kdj is, theres some edge to this. she becomes much more confident as the story continues, but she does have lots of doubts about her strength in the team and as a friend of kdj. SHE sees him as a friend, but has undoubtedly picked up to the fact that he seperates himself from her. yoo sangah.......

hsy cried at kdjs dick explosion death (under proof of lie detection) awww

the place he and his mother met after his death was styled after their old house, to the extent that there are kdjs old child-sized shoes set by the front door.

i mentioned in the first fact that kdj didnt search her out, but on the other hand, kdj didnt know the exact length of her sentence and raises the question: why didnt she search him out after she was released?

fuuuck. [My mother refuted, "This isn't a novel. There is no ending like 'Everyone lived happily ever after' in reality." "I will see it to the end. In addition, when did I say I wanted that ending?"]

in the fight against the devourer of dreams, cheok jungyeong offers to have the demon who brought 41st shin yoosoung to their world transport kdj out of the scenarios. kdj, the bleeding heart, refuses upon realizing his friends would die if he left them.

hsy did NOT want to fight the demon king. kdj had to literally tie her up and drag her over. he likes her awwww❤️

he teases the fourth wall by imitating it AWWW everythings cute if you put your mind to it

i thiiink jang hayoung was transported into the body of aileens younger sibling! they share a last name. thats very cute.

#posting this now cuz i stopped making notes and now im waaaay past all this #orv

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aquariaries · 2 years

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Hello Haley, I am new to Diabolik Lovers. Is there anything I need to know about Diabolik Lovers?

Hi! I'm not the best at describing things, but I'll try my hardest!

Well, that depends on which media you are consuming. Whether it be the anime, games, drama cds ect.

Most people find the series through the anime, but the games are faaaaar more detailed and expansive of the series as a whole.

DL is basically about a young woman named Yui that gets sent to live with 6 vampire brothers by her adoptive priest father under the guise that they're "distant relatives" while he is called to work overseas in Eastern Europe.

Turns out that they are not relatives, and the church actually just abandoned her as a sacrificial bride to the vampires and she's stuck there. Yui is pretty much tormented and preyed upon by the brothers and treated like a blood bag on a daily basis because she happens to have special blood as her heart belonged to a notorious demon before her.

The brothers as sadistic as hell, and the themes in DL are not for everyone. There is heavy themes of abuse both physical and mental, so that's understandably a major turn off point to a lot of people. Yui is basically a pure cinnamon roll that treats the vampires with kindness regardless of how she is treated and this in turn helps the vampires heal from their traumas and become better people over time, and eventually fall in love with her.

Over the course of time, more vampires end up appearing and try to take Yui as their own over her blood because it's revealed she is what's called "Eve". A man named Karlheinz, which is the father of the main 6 Sakamaki brothers and king of Vampires has a grand master plan called "The Apple of Adam Plan" which basically comprises of having one of his sons "awaken" as Adam by falling in love with Eve and in turn, his goal is to have Adam and Eve create a new race and wipe out/replace the current demon species as a whole. The criteria to become Adam is to be a full blood vampire that learns how to love and feel emotions like a human, and the criteria for Eve is to be a human with demon blood, in this case, Yui.

Make sense? No? Don't worry it's kinda wonky. The anime does not do a good job at explaining any of this so if you actually want to enjoy any plot, you need to play the games. The anime is a good "oooh vampire fanservice!" Thing to watch.

The games unfortunately are not in English so you'll have to play them in Japanese, but I believe the first game or 2 have English patches that you can download online! The way I play them is buy a psvita and get the actual copy of the game and use online translation guides and most games and character routes are fully translated.

Dark Fate is by far the best game, but is 3rd in order of mainline games. Haunted Dark Bridal is first, followed by More Blood.

There's main games that are longer and follow the actual plot line of DL, then there's side games which are what they sound like. Not as plot focused, but more fluffy and shorter.

The actual order of games is as follows:

- Haunted Dark Bridal (main game)

- More Blood (main game)

- Vandead Carnival (side game)

- Dark Fate (main game)

- Lunatic Parade (side game)

- Chaos Lineage (main and side)

All in all, there are 13 vampires (two are technically a different species called Founders but that's not important atm) that are all after Yui's blood for either their own selfish reasons, just for food, or love. Depends on who's route you play and what game you play it in.

I hope that helped a little bit! Once again I am reallllyyyy bad at explaining things and I know there's stuff I'm forgetting to mention, but if you need anything else clarified please don't hesitate to ask!

#diabolik lovers #yui komori #dialovers #Im so bad at explaining forgive me

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Do you think either Sam or Quackity will ever regret what they did to Dream?

I can easily see Q recognizing that the torture was awful and ultimately pointless; hell, he seems to already understand that. But he despises Dream in such a visceral way that it's hard to imagine him feeling guilt, let alone expressing it openly. The most I think we'd get is passive agreement with whatever Dream insults him with, or a very backhanded apology.

Sam. Well. If Ponk cutting him off (no pun intended) and that role-reversal in the box didn't knock some sense into him, I don't know what will. If he feels any guilt at all, he's become a master of burying it in cognitive dissonance. And if Dream's hypothetical future plans cause any harm, all his progress toward self-awareness is going to be gone and he'll be right back to the good/bad dichotomy.

I also wonder how Dream might react to this hypothetical remorse. He seemed pretty contemptuous of the "oh, I did that, but I'm so sorry" mentality. I don't think he'd react well, and he'd definitely doubt its sincerity. But who knows, the guy is an emotional black box. (Pls let me crack open his mind and look at how those wonky little gears turn)

/dsmp /rp

For Sam: we’re going to get that answer very soon. He is at rock bottom. There is no way for him to have his actions ground further into his face (literally) than they just have been. If he doesn’t show any self-awareness now, I cannot imagine he ever will. And even in the case where Sam extends actual remorse/apologies to people like Ponk, Ranboo, etc: Dream is going to be dead fucking last on that list, thanks both to the horrifying severity of what Sam did to him and because of how evil Sam believes he is.

I think Sam feels guilt and has always felt guilt about the torture, which he denies as hard as he possibly can. I think Sam feels no guilt and will never feel guilt about the starvation isolation dehumanization etc., the less straightforward abuses that he committed himself, and feels little need to deny his feelings around those things.

I also think we’ve already seen the closest Sam’s going to get to giving Dream an apology, when he said in the first prison stream, “the thing with Quackity is… regrettable, sure, but...” This was both a major concession—really Sam’s first sincere admission that what happened in the prison was in fact Fucked Up!—and also an abdication of his personal involvement in Dream’s abuse—he’s saying Quackity’s actions were regrettable, not his own, and furthermore he’s still justifying the torture. And we saw Dream’s disgusted response to this.

As for Quackity: he’s a less straightforward case! Like you mention, I think Quackity is already well-aware of how his cruelty got him nothing in concrete terms. But I don’t think this has translated yet into anything quite like regret, much less into active guilt.

I think it’s significant to Quackity that his project with Dream was, on paper, a failure! Quackity didn’t get the information he wanted; and not just that—he gave up. He stopped visiting when he said he wouldn’t; he blinked and Dream didn’t. Sure, he had his excuses, that he was getting sick of the process, that he had other shit to do, that Techno was there. But that doesn’t change the fact that Dream outlasted him and they both know it.

So because of that, I think it’s important to Quackity to force himself to dwell on the ways in which his torture of Dream wasn’t pointless. What did it accomplish? Not nothing—Dream never gave him the book, but Dream still screamed and begged and cried and called him “sir”. That ain’t nothing. There’s a reason that by the time he’s forcing Dream to write to Techno, Quackity’s far less focused on the book (something he’s lost most hope of getting) and far more focused on making Dream pay, because one of those things is still extremely achievable. Quackity still held that power over him; neither of them is going to soon forget it. Quackity still gave Dream something he believes Dream deserved and still deserves, the only real comeuppance he thinks Dream’s ever gotten.

It’s still important to him to think of torture as a tool of the strong; cruelty as the only kind of power that Quackity’s gotten any kind of results from.

That being said, it’s not hard for me to imagine Quackity regretting what he did and how it changed him/tainted him. But I also think it’s something he’s proud of: not of the acts themselves, but of what it says about his backbone, how it says he’s got a strong stomach, how he’s willing to do the dirty work and put his money where his mouth is. No spinelessness or hypocrisy; everybody’s always talking a big fucking game about how they wanna make Dream pay, but Quackity’s the only one who had the guts to go and do it, look the consequences in the eye and sacrifice his own morality to the cause.

And like you say, his hatred of Dream is such that it is inconceivable to me at this point that he’d regret Dream feeling the pain that he caused. I think there’s a critical distinction between those two things in his head, between Quackity regretting blood on his hands versus regretting Dream’s blood being spilt. Quackity can hold two convictions at the same time: that torture is in general hideously immoral, and that Dream deserved it nonetheless.

Maybe he’ll bring himself to regret torturing Dream; I doubt he’ll ever regret that Dream was tortured, yknow? Especially because the memory of Dream’s weakness, Dream begging, Dream at his lowest, is going to be treasured evidence to hold against him when Quackity sees Dream again and he’s once more powerful and terrifying and untouchable. (If Dream is again strong and monstrous, then what Quackity did was not enough to have an effect and therefore not worth feeling bad over; if Dream shows evidence of weakness and fear, then what Quackity did was clearly a step in the right direction of defanging and subduing him.)

And in any case, even in the most extreme case where Quackity privately decides that the torture was completely unconscionable and he’s sorry for every single second of it, Quackity would rather be tortured himself than admit that (weakness, humanity, indecisiveness, pity) to Dream’s face. He could easily admit to Dream that the torture was horrible, but that would be followed by “and frankly I should have gone further, you deserved worse, you fucking animal, and I wish I could tie you down again right this second.” Dream would be unsurprised.

If Dream’s threatening his friends or country, Quackity could probably muster an apology. It might have a kernel of sincerity, maybe even more than a kernel. But that would go over with Dream like a lead balloon.

#c!dream and c!sam #c!dream and c!quackity #prison trio #abuse.#torture.#long post #sometimes I think about Q and get kinda sad #in the sense that. Wow. this lil dude could have chosen any coping mechanism and he really went for sadism huh?

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mxtcha-tea · 3 years

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malam di bulan penuh.

⊹summary; suna crashing into your house because he can't sleep

⊹pairing[s]; suna x f!reader

⊹genre; fluff, crack

⊹word count; 980 [not proofread]

⊹flight details; lmao, only the title is in malay, not the fic itself. Also, the title translates to 'night on a full moon' from malay. also, idk what ya'll expect from this fic, it's literally just them wrestling at the front door, talking about their future and fall asleep. enjoy ig

it's almost perfect. he's cozily tucked in his blankets and the pillow is cold enough for him to sink in it. suna's currently scrolling through his phone, changing from one app to the other, ready to sleep. except he can't.

he doesn't have the feeling of closing his eyes yet even with the preparation nicely done. it's just doesn't feel right.

suna stopped his finger from scrolling as he stare up at the ceiling, a familiar and comforting image fade into his mind,

"[y/n],"

"what the hell, you're coming this late?"

your boyfriend had called you a few minutes ago when you're about to tuck in, "then what're you doing up this late?"

"i have extra work, that's why. i already finished it tho, don't get worried about it," "well yeah, but i do know that you tend to overwork at times, just to make sure,"

a small smile graced your face at his words and just sigh. suna wasn't the most expressive but he still cares, and it shows by how many times he asked you questions. simple ones, such as,

'have you eaten?'

'are you feeling good?'

'do you need anything?'

and so on, "enough about that, back to my previous question- why're you even coming to my house,"

silence greeted you for at least a couple of seconds before a cough was first heard,

"my bed's all wonky," "what," "lemme just go to your house bye," "hey wait-!"

click. he literally just hung up on you after giving a horrible excuse, but it's pretty obvious on what intention he had. you look out from your window as the sight of the cloud covering half of the moon.

but it's pretty visible that it's a full moon tonight.

"you actually came?"

"am i not suppose to?"

suna rose a brow, hands tucked in his jacket and the glimpse of his phone peeking out from his pant's pocket. just like always when he asked to stay at your house for the night,

"well no, but you've come more frequently than before," "wow, you could've just said no when i asked to come," "do you really think i would say no to you?? cause even if i did say no, your stubborn ass would still walk all the way here," "isn't that the point? if you say yes, i'll come. you say no, i'll still come,"

you try to hit playfully but he caught your hands and passive aggressively push forward.

now you two are pushing each other's hand in front of your doorway. you can already hear your neighbor's complaint about having your 'creep' of a boyfriend over and do shits with him. but it doesn't matter anyway.

you pushed his hand to the side and let go off your grip, almost making him trip over his feet, "just, come inside, i can't with you right now,"

he rubbed his wrist and followed after you, closing the door behind him, "thanks for having me in ma'am, and that was a warm invitation just now,"

"shut up before i kick you out again,"

"wait no, don't. i was freezing outside, you can't throw be back there,"

"this isn't your house, so you can't do whatever you want,"

"tch, harsh,"

both of you are laying on the bed, doing nothing but staring at the ceiling. just a gap of silence between you two but it's nice. that, is, until suna started talking again,

"have you thought what our future would be?"

you made no move to look at him and instead, rose a brow, "as in?" "y'know, our life together under the same roof, kids, jobs, ho-honeymoon,"

he stuttered a little before continuing on, "and maybe vacation plans," "well, vacation plans sounds nice," "yep, i already planned not one, but TWO earlier this month," "two?? let's hear it then,"

suna cleared his throat, slowly turning his head towards you and as if in command, you did the same.

and as expected, a shy smile's evident on his face, "we can either, a) have a nice cottagecore life in new zealand, picking flowers, making bouquets for each other and falling asleep under a tree with the sun shining above use. and if you didn't know, i've actually got into cottagecore recently too,"

he proudly said with a lazy expression as the finger he's holding up falls down to your shoulder, rubbing it slightly. he doesn't seemed like a guy who would be into cottagecore to be honestly but would you look at that.

suna always managed to surprise you everytime, even if it's the dumbest thing he ever think of, it always put a smile on your face. how could you not,

"that's cool, didn't think you're the type to be interested in it but go on," a chuckle escaped from his lips as the gap between you two started closing in,

"or b) we have a vacation home at langkawi. tropical vibes and just us having a good time. watching the waves and sunsets while walking through the beach. we could also explore around the city using a bicycle, wouldn't that be romantic you think, and don't worry, i won't make you fall down from it,"

you let out a quiet laugh, tangling your fingers in his hair. running through it in a slow manner, "sounds like two good plans to me, but i think we should keep it in the book for the moment,"

"okay," it's quiet response, but enough to fill your stomach with butterflies. suna put a hand behind your head, touching foreheads with you,

"are you going to sleep now?" you asked, only a mere whisper while he just nodded. your smile widened, kissing the corner of his lips in a slow pace. and with that, both of his eyes are shut.

suna can always sleep better with you next to him,

"good night," "good night,"

#haikyuu #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu crack #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu fic #suna x reader #suna rintarou #suna fluff

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rainbowgazes-archive · 3 years

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I wanna start making music but I have no idea where to even start. I've never fully learned an instrument before or used like any kind of audio software really. Do you have any tips for getting started??

Here are some tips and hopefully I don't get too long winded with this lol

Playing an instrument is not necessary to make music, though I would highly recommend learning how to play one as it can usually be a great reference point if you're ever working with other instruments. For instance, I started out playing guitar, and was able to translate that skill to bass and to a lesser extent keyboard. Sweetwater is a good site that has listings for some pretty cheap starter instruments. Reverb is another that sells used stuff.

If you get an instrument, make sure you buy something cheap. Not because you shouldn't expect yourself to keep going with it, but because sinking a bunch of money into something is just going to put extra pressure on you to learn it, and the last thing you need when learning to make music is pressure.

If you can't afford an instrument you can still make music with a digital audio workstation, commonly referred to as DAW. Ableton is one of the biggest ones out there. it's very user friendly, has lots of documentation and plenty of tutorials on youtube. Reaper is rather barebones DAW and has a somewhat steep learning curve but it's got a really long trial and a really cheap license and it's highly modular. It also has tons of tutorials and documentation. Couple others I can think of are FL Studio, Cubase. You'll want to look around and see what looks appealing to use.

If you do end up learning an instrument, there are plenty of places online and on youtube that can give you scales and whatnot to practice.

You're probably gonna start out making stuff that sounds kinda wonky. It will sound really off and it'll take a while to pick up on why. You need to be comfortable with this because literally everyone goes through this.

Don't compare your progress of learning and making stuff with other people. Music is not a race nor a competition.

The last tip I have might be kind of a ramble, but I've been teaching myself to play and write music for the past 16 years and the most important thing anyone should know when they start learning music is that there is no wrong way to learn.

A lot of people start out learning chords/scales, and things about theory, but I always hated the idea of learning that way. The way I kept myself going was to really hone in on what kind of music I liked the most, and how can I imitate it. And I don't mean perfectly imitate either, I mean at least just match the notes I'm playing/writing to the notes of the music I like the most.

When I first picked up a guitar I was obsessed with Green Day, so what I started doing to learn guitar was match the notes on my guitar to whatever I heard in the song. For the first 3-4 months I only played on one string, just sliding one finger up and down. And most of the time I'd just be playing the bass line or something, but through that I eventually figured out what a bar chord is, what it sounds like, how to do it, and just kept moving up from there. Not only was I learning, I was also kept entertained by getting to listen to my favorite music.

Years later, I still do that (on more than one string and finger now) and I'm able to play and write for multiple instruments. And that's not me trying to flex, that's just saying that you can start literally anywhere doing anything. Don't worry about efficiency, don't worry about being perfect, don't worry about getting something out there for everyone to hear as soon as possible. It's cliche as fuck but really, you just gotta enjoy yourself with it. Hope this helps <3

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dawn-of-tomorrow · 3 years

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shoutout to @punishing-gray-raven-ocs for this ask game!! (didin't expect to be tagged with one so soon lolol but i'm overjoyed~~ ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡❤️❤️)

1) What made you even think of trying Punishing Gray Raven? What made you stick with it?

Funny story actually-- I've long heard about PGR, way back when it was first released even, but I just didn't give it a chance back then mainly because it was in CN and I couldn't understand shit (rather ironic given how I am now lmao).

As for why I decided fairly recently, a couple of months give or take, to give PGR a shot? It's mainly due to the fact that I heard that the Global version would be out very soon, so I thought why not dive into what I've missed so far... not knowing that I'd become THIS obsessed with the game, aha~.

The most obvious thing that made me stick to this game are the interesting cast of characters, the "fun" story, the amazing yet simple game mechanics, and etc. etc.

2) What problems, if any, do you have with PGR?

Honestly speaking, the thing that most VEXES me at the moment about PGR, specifically PGR Global, is the wonky translations. It feels like a group of half-assed fan translators and one official translator who's not doing a good enough job with reigning everyone in instead of feeling like a group of professional translators who know what they're doing. Hell, I've seen better translations from some of my twitter mutuals!

3) Who is your favorite Construct, and why?

Lee. There's no question about it, Lee is my most favorite Construct at the moment (and forever perhaps ohoho~). As for why, god, hold that mic for a bit, I'm gonna go on a fucking rant. Ehem.

First of all, let's start with the most basic of things, like his appearances; As Palefire, he looks like this suave, very aloof, super serious, unapproachable, and "gets shit done efficiently" type of person, and while that description certainly isn't wrong, it's also hiding more layers of Lee's overall personality; as Entropy, he certainly looks and feels bit more casual than before, along with feeling somewhat more, even if a tiny bit, more honest with his feelings and easier to approach than before.

Despite being a serious, no-nonsense, grumpy guy, he's prone to occasionally quip and snark at anyone at their own expense especially if they get on his nerves (see his interactions with Kamui, not even the Commandant is spared from this!). He's also not as cold and distant as he may come across, given that, early on, he quite literally jumps in front of Liv to take a hit that was meant for her with absolutely no hesitation whatsoever, he's almost always the first person to make comments on the Commandant's state as well as express his undiluted feelings (though not without hiding it on occasion behind anger/annoyance, thus making it a case of "anger born from worry").

You can also easily tell if you pay close enough attention to his dialogue and actions that he's not good with expressing his true feelings even to the people he cares about (thankfully Murray, Skk, Lucia, Liv, Kamui, etc. can usually pick up on what he really wants to say), is the type to often be misunderstood due to him being the kind of person who believes in "actions speak louder than words", that he's used to taking care of others instead of prioritizing himself even to his own detriment; while making it clear that he prefers to think and act in a logical and practical manner, he's not exempt to having emotions/feelings, as such, he can be pretty empathetic towards other people even if he doesn't look like it (he's even the first one in the Gray Raven squad to point out WHY EXACTLY the people they come across in Echo Aria refuse to leave their homes even with high risk of the Red Tide washing everything away, and fully understanding as well as getting it).

Alrighty I'm gonna cut that segment short now before this becomes too long for anyone to read through, ehe~!

4) What made you think of designing PGR OCs, instead of making yourself into a self-insert?

.... Actually, truth be told, both of my Skks are, in some way, self-inserts~. It's just that they start out as one before eventually developing into their own characters with only hints/traces of their self-insert origin. Though my Construct OCs are definitely not self-inserts, that much I can certainly say so!

I made them mainly because I really enjoyed the official cast so much I wanted to make characters that would get to interact with them somehow, though I take great care in making sure they aren't TOO out of character with how they're canonically portrayed.

5) What's your thought process behind creating your OCs?

Honestly, it usually starts of something like this--

"lol wouldn't it be funny if I made this type of character? Oooh, what if they interacted with this character? Or this character? Or that character? Let's see, what's missing... Backstory and profile, check. Appearance, I'll sketch one in a bit. Hmmm... I know! *drowns the OC in mountains load of angst*"

6) What's your favorite chapter from the main story?

If I'm limited to talking only about the main chapters currently released on Global then it would have to be Fallen Star, mainly because it's Watanabe's time to shine~. (*´∀｀*)

However, if we were to look at the overall chapters, then, I would have to say Imprisoned Sight.

7) What do you think of the new Liv shown in the latest stream? Where do you think the story is going with her? What do you think happened to Gray Raven?

With Liv, I have a really bad and somber feeling about what Kuro Game has in store for her, given how she looks almost complete different than what she's looked so far, as well as the vibe her new look gives off.

Fuck, I wouldn't be surprised if they decided to thanos snap her memories away as well like they did with Lucia, or worse, infect her with the Punishing and turn her into an actual enemy (for a while before we get her back).

As for Gray Raven, considering what happened at the end of Evernight Beat, wherein the Skk is in a fucking coma with a chunk of the Mother Structure lodged in their abdomen, while Lee and Lucia are in repairs along with Liv, and, if I recall correctly, the Merciful One managed to reach Babylonia and is now onboard the space station as well-- I have a feeling that the despairing Liv will be approached by her and be given a new frame.

8) Have you seen the animated shorts? What do you think of them?

If you're talking about the Panini anime then yes, I've watched them already! Still ripping my insides open from laughter everytime I watch them lol. Favorite episode has got to be the toilet episode, next to that would be the episode where Chrome takes Kamui to Karenina and Liv for training.

9) So do Constructs eat or not? (I'm really confused, especially since I saw Karenina sipping a drink in one of the shorts)

Oh they most certainly can! Fuck, it's even explicitly stated that Camu likes to eat and sample foods whenever he can (revealed in his secrets, as well as his affection stories).

As Camu explains, while they don't get nutrients from human food, they most certainly can still enjoy them and use them as a type of fuel.

10) Do you think Kamui and/or Camu will be a really pivotal plot device at some point, considering how the information on Kamui is so top secret?

Hmmmm.... unless the story at that point is revolving around Kurono Ops and how shady they're being, then personally speaking, the chances are slim.

11) Do you think, at any point, any of the Gray Ravens will die off?

Naaaaaah. They won't do that. Sure, they TECHNICALLY killed off Lucia, but she's still "alive" in a sense, so it both counts and doesn't count.

Besides, sometimes death isn't the worse thing you can inflict on someone/a character~.

12) Who is your least favorite Construct, and why?

I don't really hate/dislike any of the Constructs if I'm being honest. Though I hate how shitty of a unit Sophia is, and that it's kinda pitiful that she's become even more useless now that the new S-Liv is here; but I am in no way saying you should stop using her, keep using Sophia if you really like her! It's your choice after all, and I'm not about to contest you on that part, after all, everyone's enjoyment is subjective.

13) What part of PGR's lore really holds your attention?

The part of the lore that really holds my attention are the characters, and seeing how they react and act to the situations happening to and around them, especially concerning the Punishing and forces out of their control~.

#punishing gray raven #pgr #战双帕弥什 #戰雙帕彌什 #パニシング #パニシンググレイレイヴン #mun speaks #mun yasu #mun ramblings #ask game #ask #ask box #ask box open

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gondalsqueen · 3 years

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Fic Writer Review

Tagged by @findswoman. Thanks, ma’am! I hadn’t stopped to look at the stats of my writing in...ever. This was enlightening.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

48 currently

2. What’s your total AO3 wordcount?

366,990, yikes!

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Uhm...let’s count. Star Trek: The Next Generation when I was 10 (and I have another one for that fandom in the works). X-men in middle school. Xena: Warrior Princess, The Scarlet Pimpernel, Star Wars (Original Trilogy stuff), Star Wars: Rebels, and Castlevania. That’s seven, I guess?

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Predictably: Close Only Counts (600) (earlyish kanera) En Route (541) (Han/Leia) Next Season (503) (Hera-centric, post-Rebels) Lean (407) (Ghost crew) Continued (297) (Rebels fix-it fic)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

The only reason I write is to talk about these fandoms with people, so yes, and I am not above begging for comments (that was the question, right?). If I haven’t responded to yours it’s because I’ve overlooked it in the day-to-day, and you should poke me and tell me so!

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Probably The First Night, which was written in the aftermath of “Jedi Night,” before the series even ended. Most of my stories have plenty of angst in the middle, but little at the end.

7. Do you write crossovers? If so what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I have not written crossovers. Hyperfixation does not allow me to think of more than one fandom at the same time.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

No, which I take as a testament to how lovely the Rebels fandom is.

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Ahahaha! I mean...in my defense... not ALL my stories are smut.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope.

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don’t think so. Guys? No, right?

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not for A03, but the childhood fanfics were ALL co-written. We had these spiral notebooks we’d carry around and pass off to each other in the halls between classes. Ah, middle school. I also lived that roleplaying life for many years, though I’m not counting those as stories.

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

kanera, oh you came and you gave without taking... Runners-up: Trevor and Sypha (Castlevania) John and Aeryn (Farscape) (though I don’t write them because I’m not sure fanfiction can improve upon the show, which is already...pretty much fanfiction)

14. What’s a wip that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Uhm... I think I will finish all of my works in progress eventually, barring unforeseen disaster. None of them feels abandoned. I would most like to get working on Fault Lines (the big Castlevania fic that’s barely started), and I have a gorgeous Picard story that I wrote 4,000 words for in three hours and then haven’t had a chance to go back to again.

15. What are your writing strengths?

characterization and dialogue, I think. Probably smut? I’m not sure that’s something to brag about.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

Plot? What plot? Also pacing/phrasing at the sentence level, which is sometimes okay but sometimes wonky.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I say if it feels good, do it.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Probably Star Trek: The Next Generation, in terms of things that I actually wrote down.

19. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

I don’t knooooow! Uhm... Next Season is not my best writing (it was written at breakneck speed and needs a heavy edit), but it really hits the spot sometimes. Feels real. (Side note, after I dedicated a story to my husband to troll him one time, my son said, “Hey! Would you ever write a story for me?” and my husband told him, “Buddy, Mommy wrote 40,000 words for you.” He doesn’t get to SEE this story, of course.) We also lost multiple men in our family to suicide, unexpectedly and horrifically, just before I wrote this story. It exploded everybody’s sense of reality in some ways I don’t think we’ll ever recover from. So...there’s a lot of real energy in this one. I think Scenes from Yavin IV is underrated. Fade to Red is smutty garbage in a lot of ways, but it’s been a huge investment, and it’s really made me think about how and why relationships work--and writing Kanan and Hera at the same time as Trevor and Sypha has made it clear that there are REALLY DIFFERENT ways of having healthy relationships, so that’s cool. Fade to Red has been a massive amount of work for a modest achievement, and I both resent it and am attached to it for that reason. It will end in a 8,000 word blowout next week, and I think I’ll be sad to see it done. I think Mastery’s doing some interesting things, though it’s a bit retconned now.

Tagging: @veritascara, @worriedaboutmyfern, @spaceasianmillennial, @amilynh, if you’re interested

#fanfiction meta #fanfiction stats #a03 stats

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lumilasi · 3 years

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Finished her pretty quick, I just got an idea surprisingly fast. Also this confirms Ryuu has a type: Redhead, intelligent, wears lot of black and red lmao. Also her pose is a bit wonky, but eh. it shows her outfit well enough.

....This reminds me, I should rewrite Reidou’s bio somewhat, I don’t quite like her BG story yet.

Anyway, further info below:

Age: 27 (she was 20 when she met Ryuu)

Sexuality: Bi

Ezuko’s QUIRK EXPLAINED

BASICS (Pros in normal, cons in bold)

Quirk name: Living ink

Ezuko is able to create ink-like substance into any surface she touches, basically allowing her to create tattoos and art pieces without needing tools. She just needs to imagine what she wants the picture look like, or have a reference to look at. She can also turn liquids into this inky substance.

Ezuko tends to need more time and proper focus if she wants to create larger and more intricate designs. For her to create these images or change a liquid into ink, she does need to be touching the object/liquid.

TATTOOING/ILLUSTRATING

She can easily create tattoos for people with her ability that is pretty much pain free, or graffiti or even basically change the color and design of an entire building, piece of clothing, etc.

The image she’s made, she can shift and change and make move however she wants, even after a long time. She can use these moving images to even temporarily blind people by making the image shift around their eyes.

The process in some cases take even longer than doing the same tattoo traditionally would take, at least if the image is complex and large, and she doesn’t have proper references for it.

For her to be able to make the pictures move, she usually requires having been touching the object/person minimum of five seconds.

Her quirk ultimately is not meant for combat, and she can’t really use her drawings in a fight, only disorient them to either flee or find a chance to use her liquid shifting ability.

LIQUID SHIFT

Ezuko’s ability to change liquids into ink can allow her (accidentally or on purpose) to turn a person’s blood into ink and basically poison them to death near instantly.

She can neutralize liquid based attacks as well by turning them to her ink, which will automatically start to listen to her commands.

She is immune to most acids and poisons (non-digested ones) because she automatically turns these things into ink when they touch her. It’s not her quirk being passive however, but rather a survival reaction she has developed.

In order to do this, she needs to be able to touch the liquid she wants to change, which means in a case of a fight, she needs to either make the person bleed (or get them to spit or whatever, she prefers the blood as its “easier.”)

PERSONALITY SUMMARY

Ezuko tends to be fairly blunt, no nonsense type of person. She’s mostly pretty calm and level headed even in tight situations, but when her temper flares it can be pretty bad. She’s gonna let you hear where you screwed up exactly, in other words.

Ezuko tends to not like people with “strong” quirks by default, because the whole obsession over quirks let to her family disowning her for not having a “good enough” power and wanting to do something else than be a hero or have some other profilic career. She can change her mind about you (like she did with Ryuu) once she gets to know you better, and sees you’re not putting all your value as a person on your power.

She’s quite intelligent and enjoys reading and learning about a lot of different things, partly because it helps her imagination run wilder and thus makes it faster to create her images.

BACKGROUND STORY (A quick summary, details may develop)

Ezuko was born to parents who were all about status, and quite disappointed to find out her quirk wasn’t suitable for heroism. They then tried to push her for something else that could rise their wealth and standing in society. Ezuko herself didn’t want to do this, dealing with a lot of arguments and abusive language from them, up until she moved out at age 18, heading to study arts. After that her family basically disowned her, refusing to even answer her calls. Ezuko quit trying to reach them, figuring she’d be better off without.

Then, when she was doing an apprenticeship in a tattoo parlor, she ended up having to deal with an abusive customer one evening, where he started harassing her. In a panic, she ended up discovering another, unfortunate side-effect of her quirk, where during the struggle she managed to make the guy bleed, and then swiftly turned his blood into ink, killing him near instantly. Some local residents came to see the commotion, and instead of asking her side of the story just automatically began to call her a murderer as the customer was a regular, forcing her to flee the scene.

The local press and everybody around there started to exaggerate her temper and further paint her in a bad light, forcing Ezuko to flee the place altogether. She tried to reach for her parents for help, but they refused to help her, believing the media that she’d done it on purpose.

Sometime during her runaway spree she ran into Ryuu, who’d only recently gained lot of notoriety, though the girl was unaware of this. He helped her in a fight against some thugs, and she brings the injured Ryuu into her hideout to fix his injuries. They stick together for a bit, and Ryuu even brings her to a person he knows that generally tends to help out with people like her - a broker named Giran. Giran let’s her work in his bar, also making sure that everybody knew not to bother her as that’d be a bad idea. He even helps her to get a place to stay in eventually. Sometime during these years, she hears rumors about “Frostbite” having potentially died, which makes her a little sad initially, though Giran cheers her up be stating that there was probably more to the story than that.

Some years after that, she finds out about Ryuu being alive through Giran, as he sends her to bring something to “an old acquaintance” as the man put it. This said acquaintance turned out to be Ryuu.

Few more extra details;

- She’s the only person out of the people around Kain who actually understands his more scientific talk. They can end up having long conversations about a subject that none of the others have a clue of.

- Her name translates to “Paint” (Pandoru that she pronounces as pandora) and “illustration lake.” (Ezuko)

- The world she lives in is based on my fic Reanimate, which basically means there’s no league of villains, as Tenko never became “Shigaraki.” Giran is the only important member (outside of afo) that is still a criminal in this AU. Because of Kain’s dimension hopping ability, this doesn’t mean she doesn’t get to interact with the more villainous versions of the gang, though.

- Ezuko made Ryuu’s dragon tattoo as a thank you for helping her.

- Her surname is bit of a pun, as it’s written as “Pandoru” aka paint, but after leaving home and her parents behind, she began saying it as “Pandora” referring to Pandora’s box as a bit of a darker joke about her choosing to go against her parents and thus unleashing a lot of bad things into her life. This proved to be even more accurate after the parlor incident.

- Her parents wanted her to either find a way to become a hero with her quirk, or go into some other highly respected profession for status and money, when Ezuko just wanted to do something artistic.

- Ryuu actually didn’t start crushing on her until after they met again years later after their first meeting, when he and Kain returned from another eventful dimension hopping trip to visit their little sanctuary corner and friends, Wasabi and his mums. Up until then he’d seen her just as a friend/acquaintance

- Wasabi digs her a lot because they have similar hairstyles.

- The vine tattoo represents her quirk and spreads around her arms and shoulders more when using her quirk. When using it in extreme amounts (Like turning a large body of liquid into ink for example) her skin around those parts gets so covered it looks like she just has one large pitch black tattoo covering those areas, and you can no longer see the vine details.

Also, the ref sheet base was made by yourultraarchive as usual

#Lumi's art scribbles #my bnha oc #boku no hero oc #my hero academy oc #mha oc #character reference #character ref sheet #Ezuko Pandora #pandora Ezuko #Lumi's chaotic creations

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I’m thinking about writing a short OC piece about Windclan and I’d love to see your notes about its culture and the hymns you’ve written so far, everything you’ve done for Windclan appreciation month has really inspired me :)

hello anon!

alright, first things first: please send me ur piece when ur done if you're comfortable doing so! i will publish it from you, or if you don't want to be associated with it in Any Way, i will also just read it and add it to the queue with no indication why it's there. or if you don't want me to share it at all, i'd still like to read it.

as for your ask,

hymns?

i'm working on it. however, underneath the read more, i'll include a few snippets for u.

culture

alright, i'm just going to post links with some commentary as i go. feel free to ask any more questions you have.

windclan (search) | windclan (tag) | wcam tag | five clans (narrative essays)

i would link the elders den, but there's no windclan stories in there ATM.

moving on, i'm just going to go through posts in reverse chronological order.

tallstar taking a mate admittedly, this is more about cats and sexuality than windclan, but i provide the commentary that windclan...has a particular view on sexuality and fluidity. one thing i haven't explored but should is the role visiting cats have in windclan.

whoops that's a code word, my plug for solacefruit has been activated. okay, as you may be aware, based on the fact that i have a whole tag for it, i'm obsessed with solacefruit. now, i love everything they do, but i would like to point you particularly to "make a mighty sound" for a fantastic exploration of this idea.

i don't want to spoil anything, but i do think windclan, and maybe cats as a whole, but windclan has a certain view towards relationships that very much breaks them into pieces. i'm a "love is a verb" person, so the idea that you can grow to love someone romantically by going through the actions of love makes sense. not to say you will, but you can.

(to be clear i'm not out advocating for arranged marriages just saying that they can work, they're not destined to be bad, and there's a difference between forced marriage and arranged marriage.)

anyway.

this was a lot of words to say, cats do not have a human (and particularly, western/american) understanding of relationships, which makes analyzing them in those terms difficult.

early hymn talk i'll probably say more below, but it is here.

general ibtwicm notes might get you into the headspace for some of my choices in ibtwicm.

i don't have a ton to say because this pretty much all holds, but uh, yeah.

poetry and language this isn't strictly about windclan, but it does explain some of what i think about when writing hymns.

obviously, i'm writing english translations, but these general themes are what i have in mind. it's also part of why i say i don't think i'll ever release a "full hymnal" for windclan, because i don't know if my weak worldbuilding heart could take it if i only had translations.

names part two very much not about windclan, but just some thoughts on names. as i've said before, i support all names and worldbuilding equally, but if you want my thoughts on names, go buckwild.

clan culture fic rec list just stuff i think does a good job, if you want other sources of inspiration.

general clan culture notes this is really old, but it mostly holds.

i've obviously expanded a lot on windclan since i wrote it, so shrug? idk man.

alright, i'm going to move into hymn discussion below the cut, but best of luck! and i hope u have a good time. it makes my brain shut down to read that i inspired you, straight up got brain juice pouring out of my ears, but i'm really, really happy to hear that.

windclan holds a special place in my heart. (i know my oc avatar is from skyclan shhh it's because of the backstory he sees ghosts.) but i grew up in this super sporty household as a lil asthmatic klutz, and running was a sport i couldn't mess up, so of course windclan appealed to me.

they're actually third on my list of favorite clans, but they. it's a special place in my heart that they hold, especially after reading dawn of the clans and moth flight's vision, where i got an asthmatic cat and an adhd cat, both in windclan.

god i should reread dotc it's good.

alright, here's the deal on hymns: i am not going to fight to get duets to post correctly. there's a 0% chance i can in tumblr's wonky ass new editor with no markdown, not to mention how difficult it would have been in the old editor. so i'm going to talk a lil about what i've got, and post some stanzas that i think don't get explored a lot in ibtwicm.

we're discussing these in the order that they go in. a reminder that these are all sections of one epic poem. that said, i don't know where the gaps are. like, i don't know what's between these, if that makes sense.

the wind

the wind, the very first hymn. this is an ode to, well, windclan. it's a song about everything that makes them them. it's filled with poetry about the wind, about the seasons, and it's just...well, it's a bit of a genesis, in a way.

The wind — like the rain, like the river — calls the name of each star in its breath. The wind — like the earth, like the stone — anchors us to our home. The wind — like the sun, like the sky — is knowable only by name.

i wanted to share this stanza because the last line doesn't show up in ibtwicm (at least so far, i cut the reference), and it really, really, makes a difference imo.

anyway, windclan is basically tying the wind in with every other fundamental part of their life here.

they are the wind, and that's that.

the hare

okay, this one has a line that comes up a lot in ch1, but i already talked about that, so instead, i'm going to talk about this stanza

Speak of the earth and the dens, and you will be answered: By the call of the howling gales, the open earth singing in response. But speak of that which grows above, of the grass and field, And you will be answered by the softness of the buds and the roots.

okay, we get deadfoot thinking about this when he's talking to yellowfang.

i like this stanza because it really tells us what the hare is about. now, hares are not something windclan catches. hares are huge, y'all, there's no way they take one down. i take liberties with ecology, but not that many.

(i.e., a team of cats definitely could take one down, but i know too much, and would prefer letting team hunting stay a plot thing, and not fundamentally alter the environment in the way it would.)

now anyway, all of these hymns come from the time of the tunnelers. and the point of this is, even though the work of tunnelers and moor runners is disconnected, they fundamentally affect each other.

a moor runner must trust the hollows of the earth beneath them won't collapse, and a tunneler must trust that the prey they chase up will be caught.

it's all very symbiotic and is, well, in a way, a love poem. plus i really like the line "the open earth singing in response"

of the warrens

so this has one line, one you might not even know is a hymn, in ch1, but i'll share the whole stanza.

And as for the subject of fallow fields: Fallowed fields make for hungry prey, Yet hungry prey makes desperate rabbits, Who leap into our claws.

and ig my big point is, the hymns are a cultural artifact. just like many of the rules in the old testament have to do with hygiene things being codified into religion, this whole hymn is about hunting advice.

the moon on the river

okay, out of all the hymns, this is the most complete, and because ashfoot and deadfoot sing it together, and deadfoot discusses it, i only have one stanza to share.

Under the coldness, you shine back at me, And I do everything to keep the clouds from threatening you.

now, this poem is about love, grief, and being separated. it's a particular kind of grief, and windclan discourages grief, so this is one of only a few ways to really, fully express it.

and this section, in particular, is about love in times of hardship.

i don't have. a lot to say here. but the way hardship changes how you love someone can be particular and intense.

(temporarily, this happens sometime before "Spare for my chosen few / All I have is given towards the distant ground.")

the gorse in the wind

oh shit! i have so fucking much to say okay first.

the series title does not come from this hymn.

second, this is a challenging hymn okay. fuck. i have so much to say. where to start so! moors are actually relatively wet. think british countryside, not, like, a cool desert.

this is something i always knew? i read the secret garden a lot as a kid. but. i've seen stuff about moors being dry, and it's just one of those things that really...starts to eat under your skin. anyway.

okay, so. gorse is a dry plant. it does not like rain. it grows in sandy soil, etc etc, and yet. aside from everything we know about gorse and warriors, it also grows in this moor. because i say so.

okay, so. so so so. the lines quotes here are really deceptive, and i bet no one understood why, and that makes me just a little sad, but i couldn't find a good way to explain it in text, so uh, yeah, anyway. there's an exchange between ashfoot and deadfoot: "THE GORSE: You called me the heather and I grew stronger. / THE WIND: I called you the heather and brought rain for you to grow."

so...so do you see? do you see the point? it's about communication, needs, challenging each other. fadskj;l i love this. okay, so. the point is that heather is fragile, soft, pretty, and gorse is the opposite. the part of the wind is trying to be kind and complimentary, but the gorse is saying, fuck that, you are not being kind to me by undercutting my strength.

anyway, this passage is sung by the gorse:

In what good company have I set down roots, That even through snow fall I flower. You called me the heather and yet I've weathered, Far more than your sweet-named love.

so uh, yeah, this adds context. gorse! gorse is a hardy plant that continues to flower basically all season round. it's cool. it's cool. gorse is super cool. fuuuck y'all it's such a small thing and i've contained talking about it until now, but now it's too much. the floodgates are open, and i thought about this small detail too much.

okay. deep breath. gorse is a really easy plant to grow, but it's still adapted for dry environments. so the "even through snow fall I flower" part is a little tongue in cheek: gorse itself will flower in the cold, but snow is a type of precipitation, which as we've covered, is not gorse friendly.

then we have some rhyming and puns in the next line, and finally, "yet I've weathered, / Far more than your sweet-named love." like. yes. love as a form of softness is not necessarily helpful.

i mean, consider the damaging "soft trans boi" problem. same energy.

right. okay. so we've got all that? now if you remember, this is sung when deadfoot thinks ashpaw doesn't respect him, and ashpaw says she'll sing with him if she can sing the gorse, so in essence, she's telling him...not to back off, per se, but that...she is the "hard part" of the relationship. like, okay, i refuse to even bring up gender roles in human relationships, but uh, her point is very much, "i am the gorse, and you are the wind," and it's a very monumental moment.

it's anchored, i believe, in the other scenes, but this is a small thing that matters a lot to me.

like a lot.

okay, now that i've talked about like four lines for the length of this entire post, moving on.

the heather and earth

okay, this is the last hymn i have in concrete terms, and i cut a bit of it from the latest chapter, so yeah. it's also, uh, okay everything i have for it is only a line or two, but i wanted to share this closing line (sung together):

Sing a song of forgiveness, of growing together, and we will make madness, And madness from hence will everything beautiful grow.

and i just like these lines. they got cut, it was initially part of an exchange between ashfoot and deadfoot, but i can't share the part of it they talk about, because i'm reusing it for a later chapter and i'll 100% spoil shit if i try to talk about it.

but these lines? mmm they speak to me.

i don't have a ton to say about them, but i just. i like it.

if we apply the same ecology discussion from the gorse and the wind, we see heather is a plant that grows in acidic, infertile soil, and heath (which is not the same as a heather, but also kind of is) is a defining quality of heathland, which is...i'm not kidding, it's hot discourse about the difference between moorland and heathland.

i'm not getting involved, but my point is, if the gorse in the wind is a hymn about finding a working relationship, about mutual respect, etc., then the heather and earth is a hymn about working well together in a terrible situation.

god.

uh, wow! can you tell i like plants? because while parts of my ecology are dubious (see: everything regarding the rabbits in ch1), the plants part are well thought out. this shit is carefully detailed metaphor.

and that's why i won't be releasing a full hymnal. it's hard to as on top of this as i want to be. i'm not kidding, writing even four lines of a hymn usually takes me about twenty minutes, because i pull up a lot of research about how things work, how they interact with each other, etc., and then there's wordsmithing, cat worldview filter, etc.

but i hope this overview of what i've got is a good insight into my general thoughts. and i will eventually release more and more of the hymns i've got written.

#ask #anon #mine #txt #windclan #wcam #essay #long #warriors #warriors worldbuilding #windclan hymn project #mateo fanboying over solacefruit again

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