#mostly personal

[tiny-tardis]

Every time when I think up about another headcanon on my favorite ships just be like:

#ships #fandom #my crazy ships #shitpost #my thoughts #mostly personal #monsters vs aliens #b.o.b #gif #it's literally all my ships from differents fandoms #истфандом

[dommesticpet]

Ice, Death, Planets, Lungs, Mushrooms And Lava

It’s been a few years.   Like most of you, things sort of hit the skids in March 2020 - I just got back from a trip to the Ice Planet that is the East Coast, and we were all waiting to see if things were going to be OK.   And the answer is, at least for me personally, things moved along.   Sure, I may have flushed 10% of my lifespan so far down the toilet, but who hasn’t?

My best pal from way back in college died three years ago today.  It wasn’t COVID, it was most likely snowballing self-medicated depression with lots of empty bottles and other substances discovered by his ex-husband. Given I saw signs of problems when I visited him the previous November, I am still beating myself up a bit for not being a bigger tight-ass about all of this.  Take care of yourself, is what I’m getting at, because people will miss you terribly for the rest of their live if you don’t.  I admit, this and the general isolation from most people I know living 6 or more hours away have not lead to the last few years being exactly fantastic.  But hey, that’s about to change a bit.

The Dommestic Pet World Tour continues this week with the first business trip - or trip anywhere more than 100 miles away from home -  since February of 2020.   I’ve been playing “where is that cable?” this afternoon, and am so far mostly winning.  Sadly my plans for fun detours involving music stores and fried fish have been cut short by rescheduled business dinners and other things that are not me having fun for a couple of hours.   If there are interesting things open late at night near the hotel, though, I’m sure I’ll float around to at least one of them.  If nothing else, it is much cooler where I’m going than where I am right now.

We’ve dodged COVID so far.  I don’t know when or if we’ll ever go to a kink class thing.  Am I too old now?  I’ve probably regressed more than a bit, but as a wiser man than I once said “any crash you can walk away from is a good one.”  At least I’m moving around and I’m not wearing Kleenex boxes on my feet.

There are some of you I’m hoping to see again, although the last three years have not been great for the lines of communication.  I have no idea if my pals and pal-ish people are all still out there, but I hope you’re all doing well and hopeful that you’re having an excellent time doing whatever is going on out there, especially if it involves some sort of fried seafood.

See you out there!

#Mostly Personal

[kimkhimhant]

heavy tw rape / sexual abuse under the cut

virginity as a concept is so weird to me as a sexual abuse survivor because it's like, if someone were to ask me if i were a virgin, the simple answer would be no. but does it count when none of my sexual experiences were willing? it's still hard to make sense of what happened to me, and my relationship with it is very unsteady and ever-changing. sometimes i feel like saying i've had sex is a lie, because no, i've been raped many times (even if i hate to use that word for it), but i've never been in a situation where i slept with someone because i wanted to. and it just leaves me very... confused whenever i think about sex and virginity as concepts.

im thinking about it a lot more as i write this tender violence, because to write kim processing these things, i need to process them too. but i still don't know how to frame it for myself. I'm not sure if i'll ever know how to. it all feels very nonsensical

#benji talks #personal #fic talk #a little #mostly personal

[josephseedismyfather]

Well. It's my birthday.

The older I get the harder they are, but this year has *already* been particularly rough.

I was hoping to have some art and writing to share. But with a death in the family, and all of the health issues, I just have not been able to get my act together. I am trying to be kind to myself, but it's difficult.

I'll try to work on tags today, y'all will probably see old stuff so apologies now, ahead of time.

I did want to thank those of you who have reached out and let me vent and just generally been super supportive, I love you guys more than you know. You are so special to me! 💖

#mostly personal #i will catch up #i definitely miss the fandom #can feel the withdrawal for real #hoping to get creative asap!!! #thanks again to all of you 🖤

[noco7]

U said once that you write less cuz u had a friend break up. Y?

Interesting question. I'm going to assume you're ask why I write less without the friend, and not why me and my friend "broke up." I'm also not going to answer the latter, because it's kind of personal. So why do I write less now? 1) That friend was a fellow writer, and a very active one at that. When you have someone writing and talking about writing... you get inspired to write your own stuff. There's also that this friend liked to write *together*, as in both of us writing different things at the same time. So I was pushed to write naturally. 2) I could talk to this friend about my writing. See, of my close friends, only one knew Total Drama well enough to *appreciate* my writing decisions. Appreciate or critique, either way. I could talk about my writing as I was doing it. Tell them exactly my problems, and/or my clever solutions. I can't do that anymore. I have a lot of other friends who know Total Drama, but these tend to be fans of my fic. And that's nice, but I can't talk to them about my fic as I write it. That's like... spoiling the suprise. They're the audience, the consumer. Whereas my old friend was well... a fellow writer. There's a difference. 3) This doesn't specifically pertain to the friend, but my whole fic writing process changed after chapter eight. I used to write chapters one after another, every day for weeks. By the time I let the public read chapter 6, I had finished chapter 12. But after chapter eight, I started rewriting each chapter as I went. Chapter 9 [break up chapter] went through several changes. Chapter 10 [court chapter] was basically new. Chapter 11 [makeup chapter] needed to be better and more impactful because of how angsty Chapter 10 was. Chapter 12 and 13 were supposed to be one chapter, but had to be expanded. Chapter 14 [Therapy] was changed because of Chapter 10. Chapter 15 is honestly entirely new I think. Chapter 16 was definitely new. So now I'm writing each chapter new and with less encouragement. It doesn't quite explain why the recent chapters have taken three weeks at a time, but uhh. Yeah. I think I said it before, but my biggest problem is a lack of consistence. I used to be consistent, but now I'm not and will take week long breaks without writing, then spend a few short days on a 4k words per day spree. Maybe one day I'll regain consistency. 🙏

#NCi7 sorta #mostly personal #i do believe i write more when i have posted a wordcount #because i want to post an update #BUT #i have to have a good wordcount to post #do not have one yet #also i have another fic to work on #it's a Secret #but you should be getting it on Dec. 1 #that's a promise :)

[professor-pants]

Genre of character: submissive like a guard dog is submissive

#very capable of taking care of themselves very eager to take care of someone else #would kill a man for even slightly offending their partner #does what they're told #am i on to anything here? #these people come to mind: #crowley #bucky barnes #izzy hands #the doctor #mostly when it comes to clara oswald #ronan lynch #pearl #from steven universe #romeo #except his person is mercutio not juliet #riza hawkeye

[anon-e-has-a-tmblr]

You heard it here first gang, Mahmud from Bethlehem is an illegal settler and colonizer.

#i wont give this nutsack any more attention than they already have gotten #i just find it funny that they just assumed the kind of people i talk to #and have a deal with #sure for the past 2 months i spoke almost excusively with jews irl #however i did have people from all across the land with whom i had a direct contact with #mostly personal #i.e. face to face #because unlike most of yall on the israel and palestine tags i am in fact a native to my land #and my citizenship is irrelevant to almost all opinions and outlooks on life that i have

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF puppet and Michael Afton got beef,,

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #mike schmidt #the marionette #the puppet #charlie emily #fnaf #fnaf 2 #fnaf movie #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #I don’t think the puppet likes Michael much pff #doesn’t hate him just knows what he did #I like how the puppet is seemingly more aware than most haunted animatronics #so it makes sense to me they’d talk so forwardly to the others #she’s mostly just joking and teasing here #I also think about how violent they were as lefty #so this blunt attitude + hostility in the games towards Michael #just adds to this personality #PUPPET MENTIONED 🔥🔥 #we love the puppet

[tiny-tardis]

One of my hobbies..🧩

#jigsaw puzzle #jigsaw puzzles #I love put them together 😀 #i literally can waste hours of my free time just to finish a picture containing 1000 little pieces 🧩... #also I do it all in one day.. #personal #mostly personal #Idk what else tags can fit here #being silly and want to write and reblog many posts today..

[kiwi]

everybodys gotta get back into the practice of using pseudonyms online... i remember the time of screen names where u never ever told anyone ur real name and that was just understood as basic internet safety. plus having a screen name is fun because sometimes it sticks so well that it becomes part of ur identity that u can use in whatever facet of ur life you choose. it rocks to pick your own name

#im living proof! i wasnt always called kiwi but now i am and it rocks #but mostly im just worried about all these kids wayyy oversharing personal info online #not to be like aaaggghh kids these days. but. #um people are sharing their full names and schools and deepest secrets with their FACE ATTACHED #i surely dont need to explain why thats scary #tiktok trends where u share stuff you would Never tell people irl.... WITH!!! YOUR FACE!!!!! IN FULL VIEW!! #WHHH.... WHY........... #Get Scared of Internet Strangers Again Please!

[iogenders]

question because i’m curious

reblog for bigger sample size etc etc

#mogai #pronouns #poll #txt #.poll #.pronouns #personally i don’t i’m mostly around cis ppl

[thedreadvampy]

people seriously pretending EEAAO is overrated suddenly bc it swept awards? it swept awards largely because it is very very very good. I cried like someone who's just had a religious revelation BOTH times I watched it bc it touched something raw and real and beautiful but it was also just very, very funny. everyone's performance kills and the concept is creative and interesting and doesn't distract from the emotional core. you guys are just contrarian.

#red said #also there are posts and tweets like THIS IS JUST FOR MCU FANS #like please go on demonstrating how you've adopted 'mcu fan' as a shorthand for 'person who likes films i don't' #or 'person who likes films that are popular' #because the defining features of mcu films are that they're high budget irony poisoned derivative works #targeted at a broad audience so aiming to be accessible and inoffensive #and it really seems. like 'accessible' is the part of that you object to #bc EEAAO is a highly original A24 indie film with a 14.5m budget which is NOTHING #it's made mostly with practical effects and sets #and most importantly it's beautifully painfully earnest. it's never trying to shy away or go Hey Look How Silly This Is 😏 #everything is driven by its earnest desire to talk about specific themes #i think the people comparing it negatively to mcu films are stuck on the fact that it's about a multiverse and it's got jokes #and colourful action scenes #but they miss that the referential jokes (like racacoonie) and setpieces aren't the point of the film

[bivampir]

#reblog / like for vanilla extract #my polls #my posting #polls #tumblr #personally i'm mostly app sometimes desktop girlguy but i LOVE statistics .

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[titanofthedepths]

Society if people stopped using “he” for characters that use they/them or it/its

#im mostly thinking abt p03 but ive seen it so fucking many times #like i am going to kill you with a rock. ok #like as an nb person who uses he/him as part of its pronouns. if a character is canonically they/them or it/its dont fucking wipe that

[nonasbirthday]

Tbh? I don't like Paul. I don't want Paul. I understand that Paul serves an important narrative function and that Paul is the best possible ending for Camilla and Palamedes given their situation, personalities, and relationship. However what I really want is for Camilla and Palamedes to attend the ATN wedding as two individual humans and for Pal to be a lightweight who loses his tie in the garden fountain after three drinks and for Camilla to do exactly one shot with the group, keep Gideon from ripping the sleeves off her dress shirt, and absolutely kill it at lawn games during cocktail hour. Since this scenario is a wild tonal mismatch for the series and also Palamedes was already dead, this was unlikely to ever happen. However Paul is the final nail in the coffin for the theoretical existence of this scene and I can't help but resent them for that

#I don't think we as readers are supposed to welcome Paul. at least not without grieving Pal and Cam #Paul's existence is both a horror and a triumph #however my concerns are much more petty and involve Camilla winning at cornhole #I can't yet properly characterize Paul. would Paul lose their tie in the fountain??? would Paul win at cornhole?? #or does everything that made Pal and Cam individually delightful cancel out into a person who is mostly competent and boring. #they balanced each other out you see!!! so what happens now that they're combined into one person!!!! #the locked tomb #nonasbirthday #nona the ninth spoilers #the locked tomb spoilers