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blossomthepinkbunny · 1 month

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Poor rendition of queer characters in HH and HB

Here I am again talking about queer representation in Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, this time just more generally. Because it's always a little weird to me when people claim HH/HB to have good queer representation, when in actuality most of the queer characters are either just blatant stereotypes or get mishandled somehow. And with Helluva Boss recently winning the Queertys - Web series reward I think that this is probably a pretty good time to acknowledge that kind of stuff (as people have done before).

TW: Sexual assault, R@pe (when referring to the actions of characters)

Blitzø (Pansexual): is very sexual and seen on screen multiple times either having sex or just having had sex. Pretty much fits the general stereotype of queer men always being sexual and also the stereotype of pansexuals just sleeping with everybody. Like, he literally screwed the mutual Ex of his coworkers even though he knew how much that guy hurt them.

Stolas (Gay): also mostly sexual (from how he was introduced) and he is in a pretty terrible "relationship" with Blitzø, which includes coercion, SA, Power dynamics and fetishization. Another very sex-driven queer man. Also just great proof for the people assuming that queer relationships are inherently predatory, unhealthy and never work out.

Moxxie (Bisexual): is often forced into a very feminine role because even in relationships with women, queer men always have to be pointed out to be feminine and putting a guy in a dress is funny I guess.

Fizzarolli & Asmodeus (Queer): they're actually better than a lot of the other characters here but there is still some of that uneven power dynamic going on with them and there are obvious issues with their relationship. Overall they aren't too bad though. They didn't get that much sexual focus and what they got is kinda warranted since Ozzie is the Lust demon. But there is that one scene with Fizz stepping out of his car with Dildo confetti canons (I think) and that was sorta weird, since in an episode before that they presented Crimson as being homophobic and stereotypical for assuming queer men are all obsessed with dicks. Which is just interesting because thats most of the queer men in Vivzepops stories.

Chaz (Queer): just a sexually abusive asshole because we definitely needed more predatory queer men in this show.

Sally May (Trans mtf): basically the single recognized trans character in both shows and she only had one line. After that they made fan merch for her which consisted of her in a bikini with her bulge being drawn pretty visibly (multiple times). Of course there's nothing wrong with Trans people who don't have surgery but it's just a tiny bit weird to me that fanservice merchandise is what she got reduced to, when something like that wasn't even the joke of the only line she had in the show and because she hasn't recieved any kind of focus after that.

Angel Dust (Gay): now there is a lot of stuff that could be said about Angel. On one hand he is another very sexual gay man whose screentime often just consists of sex jokes and references. On the other hand that's a big point for his character. How he tries to act confident in his sexuality when in reality it's the main source of his problems. Though he does often harass other men in the show and that's just so unnecessary. Talking about Angel mostly leads into discussing if he is good representation for SA victims or not, which is something I don't want to talk about that much because I feel like it's not my place to judge that as someone who never has experienced SA. I'm gonna say that I do find Viv's treatment of him outside of the show insensitive (with the pro-shipping, diminishing Valentino as an Abuser and general sexualization of the characters) but as far as the portrayal of him in the show goes I've heard different opinions and you should read the discussion's of actual r@pe survivors about this topic if you want to know about more about it.

Husk (Queer): I don't have anything to say about Husk. He is a very refreshing queer man in these show's and there is nothing bad about him I could think of right now.

Valentino (Queer): for him I mostly want to talk about how he is treated outside of the show which doesn't sit right with me. He is a villian in HH so it's understandable that he is gonna do effed up stuff. I also like that the show tries to make a point about how men get sexually assaulted too (wether they succeeded in that inside the show I'm not gonna judge too hard like I said). But there are a lot of people who not only sexualize him, but also his actions and his relationship to Angel and from what I know Viv never really spoke out against that. She actually interacts with people who do that stuff and I it's just kinda gross.

Vox (Queer): I also don't have a lot to say about him. He and Val are a couple so he is dating a r@pist but he is also a villain so you can't really expect more from him. Especially since he would still be interacting with a r@pist even if they weren't dating.

Alastor (Aromantic, Asexual): is obviously not interested in relationships or sex but his identity is pretty much ignored by a huge amount of the fandom. Vivzepop never say's anything about people blatantly invalidating him like that. It seems to me like she doesn't care about characters who can't be involved in shipping but still wanted to have more diversity in her show so she just called him AroAce. In Hazbin Hotel he isn't bad representation though. His sexuality is never the focus but thats fine, it's mostly just the treatment he gets outside of HH which I don't like.

Charlie (Bisexual): doesn't have a lot to her sexuality. This is something I talked about pretty lengthy in my other post, specifically about the lack of Sapphic content in both shows, so I won't go into too much detail here. Her relationship with Vaggie would probably be the best in both shows if it wasn't for the fact that they both never get the real spotlight as a couple. And there is that thing in Vivzepops stories where the women are pretty much sexless without men and that's obviously something that is generally an issue when talking about the lack of Sapphic representation (which is also a topic heavily tied to sexism). Charlie's portrayal isn't necessarily stereotypical but that's just because there is nothing to her identity in the show.

Vaggie (Lesbian): like I said I already talked about the Chaggie relationship so now I wanna focus on something I didn't even mention in that post. Her name literally being Vagina and that's apparently funny because she is a Lesbian so she obviously likes Vagina. That's just incredibly stereotypical and also excludes Trans Lesbians and Asexual Lesbians who don't want sex. The whole joke was that Adam named her that because he is obsessed with sex and he's a jerk. But her name was always Vagina even in the pilot (from what I know Adam wasn't conceived then and neither was the idea that Vaggie even is a former exterminator).

That's all the queer characters I could think of. I hope I didn't miss any.

I thought about including Millie here too. But she was also already included in my other discussion post and I still don't know if she is canonically Bisexual of if that is just a headcannon so I didn't put her here.

I'm just gonna say that i don't have a problem with queer men being sexual (or any queer person in that regard). But it's pretty much every one of her queer male characters. This is especially bad when a lot of the relationships are toxic as well.

I just think too many characters fit stereotypes and to me that isn't good queer representation. If you like the depiction of queer characters in HH or HB that's good for you and you don't have to agree with me. But you also can't really deny a lot of this stuff and you can't expect others to just be fine with bland, hurtful and sometimes even toxic representation like there is in these shows.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel criticism #vivzepop critical #hazbin hotel critical #hazbin hotel critique #vivziepop #helluva boss #helluva boss critical #helluva boss critique #helluva boss criticism #queer representation #queer rep in media

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nyxsealia · 3 months

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An example of why LGBTQ+ representation in media matters, especially children's media.

As a child I didn't know LGBTQ+ people existed. There were no queer people in my family, or in family friends. (At least, that I was aware of) I remember one time we went to the library and there was an educational table set up outside with information about pride. I asked my mom what all the rainbows were for. I don't remember what she said, other than I remember her mentioning one of my older brother's friends who apparently had two moms. I was very little. I forgot about that conversation and was no more aware of queer people.

I don't remember seeing queer characters in media. The first time I can remember seeing LGBTQ+ people depicted in anything was in the music video for Avichii's "Addicted to You" the plot of the music video follows a pair of female robbers who are explicitly in a romantic relationship. I was absolutely fascinated by this music video when I saw my brother watching it. I was eleven. This music video follows a lot of the common queer TV tropes. The women are criminals, the "bad guys" and they die in the end. But this was the first time I can remember seeing lesbians.

Even as a teenager, I don't remember seeing much LGBTQ+ characters in media. I was intrigued when the token gay side character would show up in a TV show, but that wasn't really representation. I still knew nothing about queer people. A boy in my art class came out to me as trans. The exact words he used were "I'm a trans guy." and I legitimately didn't know if that meant ftm or mtf. I accidentally misgendered him once because of it.

In my early teens, I said some pretty ignorant things. Luckily just to my family, but still. It wasn't until I started questioning my sexuality in my late teens that I actually started to learn anything about the LGBTQ+ community. I did a lot of research, not all related to figuring out my sexuality, just about LGBTQ+ experiences and identities. I watched videos by LGBTQ+ YouTubers, listened to podcasts, read articles, all by queer creators.

I especially made a point of understanding transgender people, because that was something at the time that greatly confused me. So I looked for videos, podcasts, articles etc, made by transgender people themselves where they talked about their feelings and experiences. It made a huge difference. I wasn't confused anymore, I couldn't relate to how they felt, but I had understanding and empathy. I went from confused and unaware, to understanding and supportive. Just from a bit of research.

But even at this point, there was still little to no LGBTQ+ media representation. When I came out at 18 and felt comfortable picking movies focused on queer characters, I had a heck of a time finding any. I did find some, and while a lot of them weren't great, I did find a few really good ones. (Saving Face and Late Bloomers are two of my favourites)

Things are getting better, slowly. We're starting to see more media focused around LGBTQ+ characters, and children's media including the topic. It's long overdue and we're still not quite there yet. You're gonna have a hard time finding media focused on LGBTQ+ characters that aren't white, able bodied gay, lesbian, or bisexual characters. Representation for trans, non binary, asexual and aromantic identifies, queer people of different ethnic and cultural backgrounds, religious queer people, and disabled queer people, and any combination of the above, is still lacking. We still have more work to do.

Having these kinds of shows and movies would have made a big difference for me growing up, and it will make a big difference for thousands of other kids who are growing up right now.

This isn't a negative post to complain about the lack of media, it's an example of it's importance and optimism for the future. I do believe this will continue to get better, however slow that may be. This is just my little reminder of why it needs to.

I hope anyone who reads this is having a good day. You're valid and loved, no matter who you are. Stay safe.

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ghostsmlpstuffs · 7 months

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Kind and True

Fluttershy 🦋🌿🪷

ghosting - mother mother

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trans mtf

half peryton (sika deer breed), half pegasus

grew up in cloudsdale, but got bullied by all the other pegasi for looking different and dressing feminine

moved to the outskirts of ponyville with parents after bullying got really bad

picked on by rainbow dash as a kid too

birds like to land on antlers

second oldest of main 6, second tallest (twilight as a matured alicorn is taller)

big wings, gentle giant

antlers shed in spring (like a sika deer), grow back very beginning of fall

married discord after twilight is coronated, lives in her cottage together

deer tail with feathers coming out

#fluttershy #fluttershy redesign #mlp #mlp fim #mlp g4 #mlp lore #mlp redesign #my little pony #mlp design #fluttershy art #deer #pegasus #Spotify

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uter-us · 8 months

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(context: this is on the MtF subreddit and this was commented under a post asking if it was okay to "pretend [to be] a cis girl.")

this is such an interesting comment. "just be yourself and be happy and people will treat you like the woman you are." What is with this idyllic fantasy of womanhood and being treated like a woman?

Like this heavily heavily reminds me of incels and misogynists talking about women living life on "easy mode." like i understand that what the commenter is saying is a bit different than that, but i can also acknowledge how very male this POV is to see being treated like a WOMAN as something preferable. (and often the subtext is that cis women are privileged for being treated like a woman from the get-go.)

being a woman is hard (even j internally grappling w misogyny), but living in the real world and being TREATED like a woman is not just hard, but dangerous, and for so many women: deadly. these people soooo enthusiastically want to be BE a woman despite having NO IDEA what being a woman is actually like

being treated like a woman is not something to be idealized, and is in fact just a great example of trans rights activism reinforcing misogyny and suppressing feminism.

stop treating OUR treatment as something you aspire to achieve, because when you romanticize a harsh reality that women live every single day, and you start teaching women and girls this rhetoric about our own treatment, it just further feeds into the contagion of women second guessing themselves. "well, maybe it wasn't that bad..." "I might be overreacting..." "it's j not that big of a deal..." since apparently some people/males want it soooo bad, right

it will also leave women unprepared and wary to speak up about their treatment as "cis women" in fear of being labeled as bigots or transphobes (or terfs)

not only that, but it teaches men (trans identifying or not) that being [treated as] a woman is (at minimum, for some people) in fact BETTER than being [treated as] a man

( this post is kind of jumbled I think and written quickly so lemme know if u have questions or disagree )

(edit: deleted the thing abt drag queens cuz a quick search only found 1 covert example and i dont wanna accidentally spread misinformation!!!👍 ill look deeper later )

#jumbled post I hope this made some sense #radfem #radical feminist safe #mvawg #terfsafe #male socialization #sex based oppression #gender abolition #gender critical #radblr #trans exclusionary radical feminist #radical feminist #radical feminism #terfblr #not j a reblog tag

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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I've been reflecting on some interactions I've had with cis medical professionals, and I actually have a ton of criticisms about the ways they treated my transness, if you could imagine (sarcasm intended).

I've found that a lot of care, primarily in mental health, was almost afraid of my transness. Cis mental health professional almost treated my transness and my dysphoria as their personal kryptonite, and any time I mentioned how awful my dysphoria made me feel, I felt shut down or almost gaslit by their responses. They focused on everything but the primary issue, which before I medically transitioned was my dysphoria, so it doesn't surprise me that I didn't make any progress towards anything, really. Most of the things I have learned about dysphoria were on my own as a kid, no less.

When I transitioned how I needed, I could finally feel ready to tackle other issues because dysphoria really overshadowed everything else. I'm ready for the trauma therapy my many cis doctors insisted upon when I wasn't ready. I feel the care I did recieve at that time though was minimal at best, and had this air of gaslighting me and making me question if I truly was worthy of care because the issues I had weren't being treated.

My advice, ultimately, for cis professionals is to let your trans patients lead the care they get. If a trans person comes in specifically for dysphoria, then you should help them with that. Some trans people will not want you to mention dysphoria, and for those trans people, it would be a good idea to let them initiate those conversations. Don't treat trans patients like lab rats or that you know how to treat dysphoria or even their transness better than they do. I'm sorry, but some of the worst professionals I have had have had the attitude that I was a lab rat on dysphoria and that they simultaneously could lead the discussion (even when they admitted they don't have a clue about what they are doing).

I think cis professionals can treat their trans patients well, which is why I am so critical of them. I know cis people can understand trans people and show compassion to us, it is not inherent to cis people to be transphobic. The only barrier is willingness to learn, willingness to show compassion.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #ally advice #though the shitty care i did recieve has put me on the track to become a medical professional myself so maybe this was a blessing?#i am nothing if not spiteful /lh #i've talked about this a lot maybe... but honestly this has kind of fucked up my life in multiple ways and that sucks y'know M #like it's gotten to the point where i have actively avoided getting care and that's really distressing to me especially knowing it's...#...not just me #like i got so bad that i had to get six shots at the doctors because i was really behind because i have avoided care because of transphobia #which at least i got them done but i was still not being cared for

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bots-and-cons · 4 days

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Hi could I be a bother and ask if you could do Knockout and Breakdown with a Trans adopted human? I'm sorry my dysphoria has been horrendous

A/N: You’re not a bother. Since you didn’t really specify what kind of trans!reader, like ftm or mtf, I tried to do this with stuff that would apply to both cases. (Holoform is like a cybertronian’s human avatar, that they can use to blend in with humans and do human things. Probably a bad explanation though) This is just me rambling as usual. The other (not trans specific) adoption things can be found here, here and here

~Knockout & Breakdown~

•I think Knockout would understand the whole dysphoria thing better than Breakdown

•It’s a different thing, but Knockout has a slight case of body dysmorphia, so he understand what it’s like to not feel at home in your own body

•You’re kind of jealous of the way cybertronians can change their anatomy, you wish it would be as easy for you too

•Knockout is always there for emotional support and for you to talk with, and Breakdown will arrange it if you want to let out your frustrations by breaking something

•Or if you want to shoot something with a blaster, I’m sure that can be arranged too

•Knockout wants you to feel as good about yourself as you possibly can

•He of course has to do some research on gender dysphoria, because cybertronians have such a different/non-existent view of gender

•Breakdown honestly understand even less of it, but Knockout if committed to teaching him and you of course explain your own troubles

•In general, they’re very supportive and want the best for you

•If you’re on HRT, they both take turns driving you to the pharmacy to get your hormones

•Knockout also asks you pretty much everyday if you remembered to take your HRT or if you need to take it weekly, he makes sure to remind you so you always take it on time

•If you’re scared of needles or just dislike doing the hormone injections, Knockout helps you in his holoform

•Breakdown is always especially encouraging when you try new styles or when you change your hair and stuff like that

•Knockout is of course also supportive, but he might sometimes give a bit more feedback than Breakdown

•Knockout is always excited to take you shopping and with mobile paying, his budget is unlimited, because Soundwave has set it up that way

•Breakdown isn’t particularly excited about clothes shopping, but he does still accompany you and Knockout, because he’s protective

•If some jackass were to bully you or just be an asshole to you for any reason, they might have a close call with almost getting run over by a car, and they will definitely get an angry, creepy call from someone with a voice modulator

•It’s kinda like a general, “Don’t be an asshole to people” call, rather than specifically about you, because Knockout doesn’t want you to get any more crap

•Even though Knockout and Breakdown don’t understand everything you’re going through, they’re always there to support you and hear you out, together or separately

#transformers #tfp #transformers prime #decepticons #knockout #breakdown #kobd #knockout x breakdown #tfp headcanons #transformers fluff #comfort #reader insert #platonic transformers x reader

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ellewritesandrants · 1 year

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What do you think about mtf billy?? I'm obsessed with it، really It's sooooo perfect for me☠️.

I generally see Billy as more genderfluid and non-binary but to be honest, it could go either way if Billy was trans.

The hypermasculinity Billy portrays could come off as maybe masking if they were ftm and it could also be their forced state of being if they were mtf and trying to be the man Neil wanted to mold them into. I usually lean to gender neutrality when I write unless I want to experiment with the effect that a change of gender would have but maybe I should take this as a sign to explore that area more?

Anyway, you can probably guess I like all of these options but mtf Billy really does fit what little we know about him. It would also be really fun to have mtf Billy and ftm Max as a dynamic brother and sister duo because I think it would honestly be so fun to explore that and to see how his partner/s would react to his transition. Or to even just explore how that would work, especially since they’d have to both be out of Hawkins and/or away from Neil for it to work.

I would imagine it to be something more like this.

In a more modern world, Little Billy grew up wanting to be like his mother, the beautiful, soft-spoken and kind woman that she was. He was always trailing behind her, watching her put on her makeup and wearing her jewelry and for some reason, some part of him desperately wanted to do it too.

So, she would indulge him whenever Neil was out on work trips, making her little sunshine even more beautiful that he already was and allowing him to make believe in her dresses.

One night, Neil came home from work early to find the son he’d always wanted, dressed in his wife’s clothes and wearing makeup. Not even his son’s pleads stopped him from beating his wife into the ground before he beat his son just as bad, before dragging him into the car and taking him far away.

Billy never saw his mom again and he never dared pick up anything remotely girly in fear of being beaten like his mom had been.

Billy was still regularly beaten but as long as he was the boy his dad wanted him to be all while doing all of the girly things like cooking and laundry, it never got to the point of broken bones. But then, everything changed when his father met Susan.

All of a sudden, Billy was relegated to being an older brother instead of having to keep the house and he had no idea how to do that without being beaten by Neil for being too girly if he joined Max in her shit.

So, he got Max into skateboarding and arcade games and he was still beaten for treating Susan’s precious little girl like a boy, possibly even turning her into a dyke since normal little girls didn’t like those kinds of things.

Eventually, Neil grew to tolerate how tough Max was compared to other girls, but even that didn’t spare Billy from his father’s wrath. No matter what Billy did he was still beaten. He was still wrong. He would never be accepted and he realized it.

Billy rebelled for once, not too badly that his father would actually kill him but he dared to get his ears pierced along with Maxine’s when he was told to get hers done. Neil had beaten him black and blue but that hadn’t stopped him from actually smiling at his reflection in the mirror for once when he had his mom’s dangly earrings on.

It all came to a head when Max was suspended for fighting, something proper little girls didn’t do so she must’ve learned it from her older brother who cared more about reading and his grades like a pansy instead of how much he could lift.

Neil was sick of his kids not listening to him so he uprooted them both, telling Billy in no uncertain terms that there would be no more of that bullshit choir and nerd club type of shit and that he would get on the basketball team and be a real man here.

Max had begged Billy to play along, just like she would because she was sick and tired of seeing him being hurt and not being able to do a thing about it.

Ever since they met, there was a silent kinship and understanding between them that they weren’t like other people and Billy did everything he could to let Max be Max instead of who his dad wanted Maxine to be.

If Billy wasn’t allowed to be who he was, he would at least try to let Max be who she really wanted to be even if it got him beat.

So, Billy put on this character of the big bad bastard from California who was all chainsmoking, lifting weights, drinking and flirting even if Billy hated every second of it. The only thing that made it worth it was being able to show off his skin and making it so that Neil wasn’t able to leave any visible marks anymore. Billy forced himself to beat the keg record, very well versed in being held upside down and in being forced to drink.

Neil had been the first to thrust a drink into Billy’s hand even if he was underage to prove he was a real man on his first birthday after Neil forced him to leave his mom behind. His birthday gift then was a bottle of beer, to be chugged like a man and not sipped on like a pansy.

Billy quickly learned how to down alcohol like a champ and to build up his tolerance because God only knew what his father would do to him if he was a lightweight.

With Billy playing along to the son Neil always wanted, Max was given a little bit more leeway. Billy had secretly maintained his grades, avoided the D&D Club he desperately wanted to join and he challenged the fallen King Steve to hide the fact that he was starting to feel like he didn’t want to be a guy anymore. If being a guy meant all of this bullshit, he wanted out but that wasn’t an option under Neil’s roof.

So, Billy developed the basketball skills he didn’t like to have, much preferring his yoga and surfing to the trash talking and extremely physical sports that his dad favored. Billy learned to drink hard and party harder while always making sure he was still in control of his body.

He flirted with girls even if he didn’t necessarily want to be with them but more of wanted to be like them. He hid, and he hid and he pretended to be someone he wasn’t all up until he got tired and when he got tired, he slipped up.

Of course, it would be on one of the rare times he actually liked the way he looked in the mirror, ready to head out to meet his friend, Heather for dinner only to be met with his dad’s angry glare and the question of where Max was.

Max had been so good at keeping out of trouble but even she had to slip up and Billy would once again have to pay for it.

One anxiety and cringe-inducing interaction with a woman old enough to be his mother, he got a solid lead as to where the little shitbird was hiding.

It was honestly a big surprise to see his teammate, former King of Hawkins High, Steve Harrington outside but Billy didn’t pay him any mind. He was here to get Max and get home so his punishment wouldn’t get any worse than it already would be.

Even just walking up, he could see Max’s eyes widening at the forming bruise on his cheek before Max ran to what he assumed was the door. Of course, Steve had to stop Billy but Billy didn’t have any time for this.

As soon as he opened the door, Max came barreling into his arms, apologizing for not thinking about the consequences of her actions much to the absolute surprise of the kids she was with.

As soon as Max was composed, they barraged her with questions, asking her what the hell was going on and why the fuck she was leaving in the middle of all of this. Billy didn’t understand what the hell was going on but his heart was warmed when Max said that she had to go because Billy needed her more than they need her.

Of course, Billy didn’t know he was in for the surprise of his life when one of the kids opened the refrigerator door and out fell an alien creature straight out of the sci-fi books Billy lived to read.

The kids called it demodogs, prompting Billy to ask if that was a D&D reference which led to some questioning about what he knew about D&D.

The kids basically explained what their whole town had been going through using D&D terms, confusing Max and helping Billy understand what the fuck was going on.

Since Billy had secretly always wanted to be the hero in a sci-fi book, he convinced Max that they should stay and help out since he’d be punished anyway and it might as well be for saving the world.

The sibling duo ended up helping the rest of the Party with the demodogs and with torching the tunnels, forever changing Billy’s image with the teens and for Steve Hargrove.

They were all witness to how caring Billy was with Max and how overprotective he really was, forcing all of them to wear their seatbelts before he drove off.

He even took up the back and he helped get everyone out of the tunnels except for Steve who didn’t want to leave him alone down there to die. Thankfully, they all survived with Billy dropping the kids off at the Byers house before heading home to his punishment.

All in all, it didn’t really change much in the grand scheme of things expect for some Godforsaken reason, Steve and Billy became friends, making Steve popular again through Billy’s influence.

Billy also forced Steve to give a shit about his schoolwork since the blond was a secret nerd who bullied the Party into getting good grades like Max.

Ever since Billy revealed he knew D&D, the kids had been begging him to join them in a campaign, especially when they wanted to teach Max and El the rules of game.

It had warmed Billy’s heart to see Max become close to El, something he had never seen coming but even if the two girls were somewhat polar opposites in style, they ended up becoming best friends which kind of protected Max from Neil if ever Billy left since El was the Chief of Police’s daughter.

Billy even helped all of them with their looks for the Snow Ball, weirdly becoming especially close with El who bonded with him over having a bad Papa. El had offered to ask Hopper to deal with Neil but Billy didn’t want to risk Max’s future for his safety so he told El that he would endure for Max until El would need to step in.

With Billy’s help, Steve was able to get into a few colleges and come summer, Steve was ready to spend his last summer in Hawkins working at the new mall while his new best friend was spending the summer at the community pool playing lifeguard like Steve used to do. The mall paid better and Steve didn’t feel comfortable with pools after what happened with Barb so he referred Billy as his replacement.

The summer had passed fairly quickly for most of the kids since there wasn’t much to do in Hawkins. Dustin had gone to a science camp while Will had started therapy.

Lucas was working on his basketball skills, helped by Billy and Steve occasionally after he got the courage to ask them for some help. Mike was stuck being a loner since El had dumped him as soon as she became friends with Max.

It had been one of the biggest surprises in Billy’s life to see Max actually get a real girl friend since she’d only ever been comfortable with guys before.

Billy had willingly brought them to the mall several times a week so he could hang with Steve while they shopped. El was more of the typical girly girl while Max would usually choose pieces that kind of toed the line between masculine and feminine just so that Neil and Susan wouldn’t get on her case.

Soon, the kids would be heading into their first year of high school with Billy entering his last year, already planning on using his influence to shield the kids from the worst of it.

Of course, things don’t always go to plan since Billy was propositioned by the same creepy mom he’d had to flirt with to meet him at the motel slightly out of town.

He hadn’t planned to go at all but guilt and anxiety forced him to try to go out there and explain that he didn’t particularly go for women her age. He’d ended up getting into a slight car accident where he ended up possessed by the Mind Flayer.

The first thing Billy did after being flayed was head home because he was going to get an earful for not picking up Max and forcing Hopper to drop her off at their home.

When he arrived, it was just Neil and Susan and Billy was powerless to watch as the monster that got him got his parents when Neil went to slap him. They’d quickly set a trap but Max had seen through it and Billy had gotten enough control to tell Max to run away.

Thankfully, El and Hopper were just down the road and El was able to come back and deal with the Mindflayer with Billy’s help, leaving him feeling even more uncomfortable with his body after losing control over it.

He’d went to mall to tell Steve what happened only to get involved with the plot with Russians and beating up some communists with the strength he hated since he apparently still had some leftover from the monster who controlled him, all so El could shut the gate and stop this horror from happening again.

It was the last straw for Billy Hargrove who had just lost his parents, been possessed and lost control of his body. He didn’t want to be big, bad, Billy Hargrove anymore. Billy wanted to be Willow Carter, daughter of Sarah Carter and sister of Max Mayfield.

Steve had been the first person Willow had told and while he hadn’t understood at first, he was still supportive of her, even of her plans to leave for California.

Of course, she couldn’t just straight up and leave. The government wanted to know how in the hell Willow survived possession and gained powers.

She’d agreed to cooperate as long as the government funded her transition and her little brother’s transition as soon as Max had the courage to come out to her once Willow had started her transition.

The government agents had actually advised against transitioning after the possession but it was Willow’s way of reclaiming her body and there was no force on Earth that could stop her.

The scientists hadn’t been able to convince her to stay in Hawkins but instead, they offered her and Max an apartment and a pretty big payout if they would stay within the vicinity of another lab in California, specifically where the Byer-Hoppers were also moving after dealing with all of the bad things Hawkins has thrown their way.

Max would get to keep her best friend and Willow and Max would get to be one step closer to home and to being their authentic selves.

In California, the siblings blossomed. Willow was damn near radiant in the sun, teaching the younger kids how to surf all while Jonathan watched in awe of his new friend and definitely new crush.

The Hopper-Byers had been some of the first people to know about Max and Willow’s transitioning all because they were all in the same boat and while it had been pretty hard for Hopper to understand at first, everyone was supportive of the siblings.

Steve continued to write to and occasionally call Willow, keeping her updated about the goings on in Hawkins while she did the same about Lenora Hills.

With Willow no longer spending every free waking hour exercising, she had lost some muscle mass especially after the unnecessary hospitalization, making her more lithe and fit.

She and Max had gone immediately for chest surgery as soon as the option was available to them and the pair had gotten a few other cosmetic procedures done to make them look the way they wanted to look.

It had been Jonathan’s absolute pleasure to document their transition and to see Willow blossom into the beautiful woman that she was becoming.

Without her father’s influence, Willow was free to be as girly as she wanted to be, exploring makeup and returning to yoga and pilates.

She’d even gotten a few lessons from her stripper friends on how to dance and move around the pole and how she could reclaim her sexuality and sensuality through movement.

Sure, the pair would occasionally draw stares but Willow still had a mean glare and relatively big biceps so no one was willing to confront them.

The idiots who tried only got verbally eviscerated before being threatened physically which had them turning tail 100% of the time, too afraid to deal with Willow beating them into the ground with Hopper in the background with a hand on his gun as backup.

Willow had also reconnected with her old best friend, Argyle who hadn’t blinked at his bro turned into his sis and this led to Jonathan finding his new best friend in Argyle.

The three of them did everything together, even comforting Jonathan when Nancy broke up with him. Their lives in California were great and peaceful with the teens happily adjusting to their new atmosphere together with the help of the older teens who eased the way with Willow’s glares and Argyle’s kind nature.

Of course, the peace doesn’t last forever and they’re soon dragged back to Hawkins to deal with the bastard who started it all. While Will was less connected to the Upside Down, Willow had become more sensitive to it, all too aware of when Henry had gotten his first kill, informing everyone of what happened so they could leave for Hawkins as soon as possible.

With spring break literally just starting, Willow would race ahead with Will, Max and El while the Byer-Hoppers would make a pitstop to grab a friend of theirs who might be able to help as well as Kali who El insisted be involved.

They make Hawkins in good time, with Willow explaining all she knew from the MindFlayer which triggers El into remembering what happened on the way there.

Some government agents try to take El but Willow doesn’t let them, outmaneuvering their cars and speeding away from whatever bastard tried to trail her. One of them managed to come near during an unexpected stop but all of the pent up fury and the cocktail of hormones Willow was on led to the agent being down with just one punch.

When they arrive, no one is able to reconcile Willow with Billy Hargrove, surprising her best friend, Steve Harrington and intriguing the new guy on their team, Eddie Munson.

Willow immediately recognized the patches on his jacket and the Hellfire club shirt he was rocking which made Eddie fall in love at first sight again.

Steve on the other hand, had already had one bisexuality crisis aided by Robin about Billy and now he felt like he was about to have another one because of Willow.

Anyway, with the additional manpower, they were able to make a better plan of action, resulting in them being able to stop Vecna/Henry Creel once and for all.

It had felt really good for Willow to be able to use the gun shooting lessons her dad had forcibly dragged her to at too young of an age to kill the bastard who had essentially killed who she used to be. It also felt really good to be able to be the hero for once, saving Eddie from dying after he did an amazing rendition of Master of Puppets.

Afterwards, they managed to take down Dr. Brenner and expose the government project so that it would all be over. The California crew spent the rest of Spring Break in Hawkins, with Max reconnecting with Lucas as his authentic self while Lucas still blushed and stammered around him.

Willow, on the other hand, had been constantly split between Steve, Eddie and Jonathan who were all weirdly competing over who got to spend the most time with her.

Eddie had even promised to move down to California once he graduated and Steve, not willing to be one-upped, applied to transfer to the college that Willow had been planning to attend that Jonathan was already accepted in. It had felt exceedingly weird to return to their normal lives after but it was satisfying to know that there was no more danger from the Upside Down that might be able to wreck their lives.

Instead, Willow had to deal with the petty struggle of figuring out who her boyfriend/s were and how polyamory worked. In that regard, she envied her little brother who had gotten the hang of his relationship with El and with Lucas immediately under control.

However, Willow was just happy that she and Max were able to live their lives authentically and be happy doing it.

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valcubust-writes · 6 months

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omg sorry again lmao. Okay so in my last ask I said I was thinking two characters were male, which I wasn't super wrong. I guess...idk. Miles would be a Trans-Male right? and then the reverse for Mindy?

Either way I basically found My answer for that one. you can ignore that question.

Also, I love Miles/Mindy already!! They'll probably be my favorite. Preston is my Second Favorite for some reason. I got a feeling he'll be a hoot.

Yup, you got it!! M would be mtf or ftm depending on player choice. Also hehe im glad you like M, i do too!!!

Preston is so easy to love idk, he's based on my neighbor who really embodies that US Eastern sense of kindness. He's a dick, but he'll help you out of a bad situation, no questions asked.

#preston #split m #split if #split asks

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tiefighter · 8 months

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hey for my rounder/biggerbodied/overweight babes who're gonna go get chest surgery, let me give u some advice (I got ftm masculisation surgery, but aside from the shit about binders and removal this is also applicable to bbw trans women/nb people who are getting breast implants, afaik.)

1: don't go completely flat, it'll look so unnatural you'll wanna like, stab urself in the neck. Pectoral muscles have a natural curve, and I know the urge to go like NAH SON TOO MUCH is real high, but once you're healed you'll be grateful for the more natural look to your chest. I'm not saying get like, moobification surgery, just stress to your surgeon that you'd like a natural look. If you have a good surgeon, they'll be able to do it anyway/are way ahead of you. for mtf, you'll want something manageable/not too big! I know the urge when you're a bigger person is to go bigger to fill out tops/dresses, but trust me too much weight up there will DESTROY your back, please be kind to your spines. 2: recovery binders. Get one with fuckin shoulders, or if you can't find one with shoulders, get someone you know (or yourself) to sew shoulders into the thing. A really uncomfortable fact of having a belly/fat shoulders/back is that it /will/ fold your binder and it fucking hurts, and most of the time you need someone else to help you adjust over those first couple of weeks. and when I say it hurts, i mean it /hurts/, it'll compress tighter on your incision site and press the scar and it hurts like all fuck. (transwomen! your bras are supposed to fit flush against your body, if the middle of the cups is sitting away from your body or your band is too tight you're not in your size! get professionally fitted, I promise it sounds like bullshit but it'll save you so much money/pain in the long run.)

3: If your surgeon gives you the willies, and you have another option, dump them immediately. I did just that, and we only have two options on my side of the country (Australia!) Turns out, the surgeon I ended up with is the one that does all the corrections on the other person, and i would've met him anyway to get my chest fixed. 4: breast tissue does go all the way under your armpit. If a surgeon tells you it doesn't, and you just need to lose weight to get rid of it, they're fucking lying and also shit at their job.

5: I know the urge is to hide yourself away during healing and then, towards the end when you're like IM FINE you wanna go out and do things but let me tell you something if you've never had surgery before. You are gonna want that recovery time. you essentially got into a knife fight and fuckin lost. You're gonna be EXHAUSTED. you'll need someone to check up on you, and if you live alone and don't have anyone, look into medical assistance/nurses in your area who can come and help you with your binder if it's causing trouble.

6: My darlings. My sweethearts. My absolute fuckin superstars. Don't go fucking swimming/to the beach/soak in a bath until your surgeon says it's okay. If you get too much moisture in there, your skin will literally rot and fall off. Don't do it. Just don't. Behave, please. I know it's like, it won't happen to me but I SHOWERED too much and now I have a frankennipple. Don't be me. Don't franken your nipple.

7: be kind to yourself. Yeah, you're not skinny. yeah, a lot of androgynous/male oriented fashion relies on you being a skinny bitch. Let me be the first to tell you: boobas make hormones. You are losing those hormones, and your body is adjusting. you do NOT look as bad as you think you do. I swear to whatever nondenominational deity you want me to, you do NOT look as bad as you think you do. Let your hormones readjust, let yourself feel the relief. Wear a fucking dress if you want, top surgery won't take that away from you. for the ladies, wear whatever the fuck you want, we don't give a fuck, just make sure your new tatas are properly supported! You don't want them to drop or warp wrong, make sure to wear something that helps you with support. boobs over a certain size will naturally have weight to them, and that's totally fine! It's just if you're stretching your scars too much you're gonna give yourself some damage, find a trans woman who has had surgery similar to you, or talk to anyone who has had breast enlargement surgery. 8: if you have to work/go to school/etc after your surgery, set yourself time limits if it's a thing you're able to do. I know a lot of employers are grade a cockdolphins, and they're not gonna listen, so go and bleed on them if you have to. Do it. I don't give a fuck and neither should you. Being alive is better than being dead.

9: use the healing excuse to tell people who are bad for you/not good about your surgery/being cunts to fuck the fuck off. hey no can't see you, I'm healing. I don't care about your fuckin church study or your desire to look at the shiny new replaced nipples, get fucked. Cut them off like they're the tits you abandoned. They're excised skin. Biohazardous waste.

10: you're gonna be bored as fuck, please get something to do. lego/reading/watching tv/gaming/whatever you can do within your physical and mental power, and don't let anyone make you feel bad for taking the time to do things like this, and enjoying yourself. you just lost a knife fight you paid for. Be nice.

#top surgery tips #top surgery #ftm #listen I know it's like hey skinny bitches represent #but you don't have to lose a chunk of weight before top surgery #i was the heaviest I'd ever been in my life at nearly 300 pounds #(130kgs for those in real countries)#and it wasn't the end of the world.#I promise #you don't have to lose weight to do what you gotta do to be happy in your body i promise #not if your surgeon and anesthesiologist are actually worth their salt

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lillythepyromancer · 3 hours

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huh

im kind of breaking radio silence i suppose, this may very well be my first post.

24 of april already

happy birthday me. 18 whole years.

i feel quite bad. thought It would be some kind of celebration when i was younger, all the 'coming of age stuff'.

I was wrong.

i guess- i guess today i realized that i've wasted most of my childhood. never did anything interesting, made friends, or went outside in general. i am completely and utterly lost to what im going to do or how to do- almost anything that isnt academic.

i realized something was different about me two years ago that- that maybe hating to look at your reflection. feeling like you are worthless. that each time you heard someone mistook you for a girl you got happy. that imagining yourself with short hair again you felt sick. that not being able to bear thinking about your body hair without panicking over it. that It wasn't normal. that i wasn't a guy. i've gotten to that conclusion before but i've always felt like i didn't want to get in the way. 'what if i'm not? what if i'm an intruder? a fake' or worse. what if I was? what do i do?

it was very scary

but i reached a wall. i think what cracked me open was OT. i think his content is wonderful and- everything was incredibly relatable. i had never done any research before on any of this (save for the 3 am 'quizzes' that tell you exactly what you want them to say if you answer dishonestly) and suddenly i realized that there were a lot of people that felt like me, that mine wasn't a unique experience. i think that was by far the worst part, 'how did i not know?' 'how could you even not know-?'. for a long while i felt like i couldn't be trans. 'how can you be trans if you hadn't noticed for this long?'.

i stumbled upon an article on one of my panic research nights, the title was similar to 'how i discovered i was transgender in my twenties'. It was from a mtf trans journalist. i cried reading it. It described me word for word.

i cannot do anything but thank my partner. they have been with me since before i even confronted myself about my gender and they have been overwhelmingly supportive. i wouldn't have gotten this far if It weren't because of them. they are the most wonderful person on earth and i would commit unspeakable acts for them. they are the reason i could begin to accept myself and i even owe them my name but that's a tale for another book

happy birthday Lilly! 🎉

i should rest

so. yeah. if anybody got this far, thanks for reading. I think you are cool. Might delete this later if I learn how to do it. And sorry for my bad english, It is not my first language and im already bad at my first one.

#vent post #birthday #trans #transfem #yeah. lilly and its variants are. by the way. killer names. i love them #i was able to come out to my parents and they've been pretty supportive. i am going to a gender therapist gal to hopefully get on E later #pretty funny i always picked gal characters except when i knew people would see them. 'why you making a gal character?' 'uuuuuuhhhh'

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pokemoneverlastingorchard · 10 days

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I just went through Ollie's second event and I am honestly surprised with my past self as well as disgusted with how... Accurate it seems to be. More than I originally thought when I wrote it.

Spoilers for Ollie. (And a lot of personal things, too.)

I've been working on this game for years now (with one year off to focus on commissions) and one major thing has happened while I've been working on it. (Other than my marriage, which I referenced in the game.)

So when I started working on this game I've been reading, hearing about and seeing a lot of transphobia. I haven't seen it be so loud before that.

At some point a Youtuber who I used to watch (before she switched to another form of content that I didn't like) was finally in a position to come out as MTF trans. Transphobia made me mad before, but afterwards I almost felt like it was personal.

I would just listen to her struggles and her journey to transitioning while I was making the sprites for the candidates of this game. I didn't have them all figured out yet, but listening to her I knew that I wanted to have one who's trans.

I decided on MTF because I'm a cis woman, so I know how it feels like to want to be a woman. That's not to say that it's the same. I know it's not the same and I won't ever know what it's like to have gender dysphoria. I just know how it feels like to be a girl is all.

In Ollie's second event you meet her mother. She heard that her "son" have been making and selling clothes and she was thinking that Ollie have gone past her "phase" and that she just wanted to make dresses.

Once she finds out that Olivia is still Olivia and not Oliver she goes on a rant, calls her name and say something like "nobody will ever love you if you don't stop" and "what about children?!"

My thought process was that I want to make my thoughts about transphobes very clear. I wanted to make it obvious that I think she is the bad guy and have the other characters kick her out for her bigotry. So I decided to exaggerate her transphobia. Or at least that's what I thought I was doing at the time.

So this is when it gets really personal.

When I was about fourteen my aunt died. Then her boyfriend died not too long after. They had a child together. My cousin was placed in the foster care system and we lost contact with my cousin for fourteen years. It was during the last recession. All of us were struggling to financially or physically take care of ourselves, let alone a child. (Or in my case, too young.) I don't even think we had time to talk about adoption before it too late.

Then in mid 2020 my cousin found my mom on Facebook. They used a feminine first name and my aunt's last name to get my mom to accept their message. They said something like "hey auntie. This is a picture of me when you last saw me" and attached was a picture of them when they were ten years old.

When my mom told me I cried. I cried a lot. I didn't stop talking about my little cousin and how the foster care system took "him" away for fourteen years and she contacted my mom out of the blue one day. I made it kind of hard for my mom to tell me that she's MTF trans. I just kind of went "oh" and went back to crying for a while because god dammit she's okay and I don't have to worry about her so much anymore! And if I do get worried, I can just contact her!

After talking to my cousin for a while she started to open up and talked to me about how much shit she had to go through. A lot of the shit her foster mom would tell her was so similar to what I made Ollie's mother say that it's scary.

She'd tell her that we abandoned her, that we didn't want her (none of us stopped talking about her in fourteen years) and that even if we saw her again we would never want her back if she kept "pretending" to be a girl. (She was right in some cases. My cousin was lucky to have found my mom on Facebook and not my dad/her uncle. My dad doesn't want anything to do with her unless she's his nephew.)

I haven't read through that event in years. I'd just skipped it once I found out that it worked to save time. It's making me feel almost sick just how fucking accurate I was. It distracted me so much I had to stop to let out my personal feelings.

By the way, the only reason why I made Ollie's identity a secret (thus the "spoiler warning") unless you befriend her is because I wanted her to be cautious of people thanks to her mother. She looks like a girl and strangers don't need to know that she's a pre-operation trans woman. But when you get close to her she realizes that you'll need to know sometime.

#ooc #pokemon everlasting orchard #personal #gender ideology

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