This morning I was extremely disappointed to wake up and realize that there was in fact no canon in between show in which the inquisitors live and train in a reality tv style mcmansion with their host, Darth Vader, who sounds exactly like himself but campier, while depressed unshowered Obi Wan looks around wide-and-wet-eyed and bonds with teenage Reva while successfully avoiding Vader by hiding in cupboards and behind curtains whenever he enters the same room
love waking up from a dream having been gifted with THE MOST PROFOUND KNOWLEDGE THAT I MUST WRITE DOWN AND SHARE WITH THE WORLD IMMEDIATELY only to properly wake up like 2 minutes later and being like "this is nonsense".
WAIT I just remembered the dream I had last night, so I remember a girl was giving AM's hate speech to me from I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream, this one
But it was SO horny. Like her telling me that was like the most sensual thing I had ever experienced like I really can't explain properly just HOW sexual it was. God
It's gonna be my birthday so I'm sneaking down to peek at all the presents like Christmas morning, a big pile in the lounge. They're all nice but two of the presents are Nameless merch. The other I can't remember what it was but the one was a jumper with Red on it, the design from the keyring, with pretty pastel ish colours swirling around in the background, and it had the softest material like pyjamas
I go back to bed pretend like normal I never peeked at all. The next day I open my presents, it's all great, but the only ones I can't find are the 2 Nameless presents... I look everywhere but they're nowhere to be found. And I can't just ask my mom where she put them cuz that'd mean admitting I peeked beforehand.
I kept looking everywhere and such but.
Then I woke up and realised it was a dream and no such Nameless merch exists in real life!!!! >:( it was the best thing I ever held and I'll never have it again even tho it's the thing I want most in the world!!! Aaaa!!!
Randomly dreamt for the entire stretch of the night I was in Pasadena, CA last night. Can’t even remember what I was doing there. Probably living the life and worshipping some cacti and eating my body weight in American food, like one should there.
One thing I am NOT looking forward to about going home for Christmas is having to watch my little brother get misgendered and deadnamed and having to constantly correct my parents about it/not being able to do anything re: my grandparents bc I think he’s technically still not out to them. Anyway here’s to three straight days of referring to him as ‘the child’ and ‘munchkin’ around company like I did when he was only out to me and I didn’t want to deadname him lmaooo
Took a nap on the couch, with my cat sleeping next to me and purring, and I think my grandma visited me in my dream.
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I’ve been thinking about her a lot recently. It was so nice to hug her again and see her smile. And it was Christmas in my dream, which was the last real holiday we spent together. I think we were eating chocolate-dipped pretzels together.
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People say the veil between worlds lifts around Halloween and Dia de los Muertos, so I guess this year she decided to swing by…I’ve never dreamt about her so vividly. I could almost hear her voice. And she was laughing and sitting next to me on the couch, the same one I was napping on.
i feel like that one “i guess i’m not woke” audio whenever i try to look for wxs-centric fics. they’re all just “oooooh what if they were actually super DEPRESSED and it was all a FACADE” can we not embrace happiness. can we not be mesmerized by the wonders of the world. yes all the wxs have their struggles and personal issues but the whole point is that they are healing through their shows and through each other and sharing their happiness with the world. not every character is mafuyu maybe some people are actually just genuinely happy you edgelords
why can’t i just dream i’m meeting a character i like why must i dream that i’m meeting the actor who plays the character and i try to be so so normal interacting with them
does anyone else completely forget jamie gets shot in the invasion or is that just me
it feels like it should be such prime blorbo angst material but it happens so quickly and matters so little to the plot that it just totally slips my mind
this is so silly but occuring to people is still quite a foreign concept to me. like maybe this is just a children-are-like-that thing that everyone goes through but until i was about 16 or so, my takeaway from life had been "when i am not around, people don't think of me" and i don't mean that in any sort of not grasping object permanence way. people just kinda,, didn't think of me.
then i went to 6th form and suddenly things changed. a now very good friend of mine messaged me to ask if i had some listening exercise or smth for our spanish class, and i just remember thinking "??? oh my gosh? you remembered me when we weren't face to face??" admittedly it was because she needed something, but she is a wonderful person who i do seem to occur to regularly these days. and just now another friend of mine, to whom i recently casually mentioned a song, messaged me to say she'd been listening to it. idkk there's just,,, something about good friends.