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EFFY STONEM and PANDORA MOON in SKINS UK (2007—2013)

Pandora, why are we friends? Do you ever wonder?

#effy stonem #pandora moon #skins uk #early 2000s #gifs #gif edit #tv shows #television #mxzzy.txt

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🎀 <— comfort characters —> 🎀

veronica sawyer • ryan atwood • rochelle zimmerman • spencer hastings • rue bennett • roman roy • elaine parks • harley quinn • faith lehane

tagged by: @pinktrailerprincess <3

tags: @cinnamoncunt @rightmixofcocaineandheroin @yourgirlmary

#i forgot how many ppl u have to tag lol #tag games #mxzzy.txt #mxzzy.exe

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the beautiful part of adulthood is realizing you can cut off contact w ppl who make you feel small. it’s not like grade school where you’re forced to be friends so you have someone to sit with at lunch. some ppl u literally have to say “i don’t want to be around you anymore” if they repeatedly violate your boundaries and safety but demand your company, others u can just distance from without a problem if you barely keep contact anyway or know they’ll refuse to have any sort of communication based on their past actions. it’s also freeing to know you are deserving of people in your life who listen and make you feel heard and welcomed. that should be the bare minimum.

#mazzy makes a positive post #mxzzy.txt

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i hate “dark psychology” tiktok NO!!! as a psych major, psychology can be such a beautiful resource for basic coping and time management as well as study skills. u don’t need elaborate terms to manipulate people to make it sound cute, you clearly wanna do it anyway so you don’t need to come off smart to justify it. knowing what love bombing is is useless if you understand why it’s bad but continue to do it for your own pleasure at the expense of others.

what’s “fun” for you could scar someone else for life and effectively make them anxious around others over your behavior bc they’re now fearful of the threat of your behavior from other people. if you have to do xyz animal mermaid siren triangle eye trick for someone to “like” you, you probably shouldn’t be in a relationship atm because you don’t yet know tools for open communication which is vital for one to survive. you have to communicate your feelings for one to work, not do whatever you want and expect the person you like to be a mind reader when you put zero work into communication to foster trust and honesty. not everyone is going to see you look at them and do ur makeup a certain way and think “they like me, i should reciprocate.” you have to do the vulnerable thing and accept the possibility of rejection. not avoid it at the expense of yourself and others. that’s human life.

psychology is supposed to be understanding of human thought and behavior so you can help others, not make their lives worse. and if u get off on hurting other ppl enough to brag abt it w/ a guide that’s literally a sign you lack self awareness and could benefit from the coping tools in psychology more than anyone else

#psychology #mazzy makes a giant ramble #mxzzy.txt

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mixed thoughts on black female rage

i understand the want for “feminine rage” to be inclusive to black women and then i remember the only black actresses some ppl know are angela bassett taraj p henson and zendaya, but also a lot of those white “feminine rage” female characters were never meant to be liked or sympathized w in their awful actions. taraj p henson in hidden figures is supposed to be bc she’s dealing w racism in a segregated time.

dre from swarm is the only character i can think of where she’s allowed to be hurt and angry but that doesn’t justify her committing serial murder. she’s the only character to the extent of say (90s film) lisa rowe or whatever where mental illness does not excuse her incredibly harmful behavior and there isn’t some barrier where there is an attempt to excuse her actions to make her “palatable.”

ginny from ginny and georgia expresses her anger and upset at her upbringing stemming from hidden depression, but again this isn’t palatable enough for fans of georgia who thinks she’s a golden egg who can do no wrong, so once again we’re rather limited in what’s considered “female rage.” it has to be palatable and excusable and stemming from trauma—racial or otherwise, and cannot impose on well liked white female main characters who may equally make rash decisions based on emotion that harm others.

ginny can be angry because hell yeah we’re progressive and love female rage, but it can’t be at how georgia refuses to communicate as a parent and keeps secrets that impose on her ability to have a normal school experience. ginny should be also marcus’s therapist for his depression and be able to notice something he has hidden, but ppl have called ginny spoiled for opening up to her father abt her own when she was struggling because she “doesn’t appear grateful enough.”

rue was also not supposed to sympathized w for her abusive behavior toward gia and jules in 2x05, but to justify her anger at feeling betrayed from the intervention, many ppl will minimize gia and jules as characters and act like their concern for her and feeling of hurt and fear is unfounded which goes against their whole idea “women need to be free to feel negative emotions.”

but then that goes down to the idea that for black women to fully express negative emotions, the people hurt in the process of feeling ours fully in a less than docile manner (even if they’re also women in minority groups equally under-represented in “female rage”) don’t matter. that we have zero responsibility for our actions and thus no agency over them when angry.

that rue is not at all responsible for her actions and who it affects if it means she gets to express being upset. which makes zero sense to me. but also, if it’s not for a reason we feel we want to identify w (ex: ginny being depressed from her mother forcing her to constantly move) suddenly they’re ungrateful, being a brat, and spoiled. because ppl can’t identify as closely w/ gia or jules who’ve dealt w/ the fear and betrayal in having a loved ones exposed to addiction, this is the exact terminology used to minimize the emotional and physical harm rue causes them when she’s incredibly violent and/or cruel with them during her withdrawals.

it can be equally true “rue lied to her loved ones because she was sick and that doesn’t excuse insulting and screaming at them to deflect from her actions” and “rue felt isolated bc her entire life she’s been seen as this poster child for sobriety she feels she can’t fulfill and is too much pressure, and not one is listening to her, making her feel all the more forced to hide her issues except from ppl who are familiar w drugs and understand why she’d turn to them” such as fezco or elliot.

which is much more complex of a way to analyze rue as a character than “because rue has mental illness, she suddenly has zero agency over her actions and can harm people however she wants and it’s by no means an active choice she’s choosing to make.” or just saying ginny is ungrateful and georgia is a perfect parent who’s done nothing wrong in raising ginny ever.

#rue bennett #andrea greene #swarm 2023 #black representation #film #tv shows #euphoria hbo #ginny and georgia #female rage #mxzzy.txt #mazzy makes a giant ramble

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write your top five songs this month then tag your friends

glamourous- fergie

favorite crime - olivia rodrigo

raingurl - yaeji

m.a.A.d city - kendrick lamar

blue jeans - lana del rey

tagged by: the lovely @luvjournal <3

tagging: @unrulyheart @angelphilic @yourgirlmary @littleredpartydresson @rightmixofcocaineandheroin

#tag game #mxzzy.txt

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how my day is going 🎀

#i was at marshall’s w my mom and most of everything was on sale #and my dad bought donuts :)) #mxzzy.txt

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cool idea for those of u who like to write in ur journal: annotate it. specifically personal entries. even write it in a different color pen/colored pencil to make it stand out. (i like red.) write the date ur annotating and self reflect on ur past thoughts—how u feel now and if your mindset has shifted. it’s a good way of not letting yourself feel guilty for what u once felt but allowing urself room to grow and change

#journalling #mxzzy.txt

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plans for today — 🎀

take a walk

watch the newest riverdale episode

practice french

study psych notes

bake myself a heart shaped birthday cake

journal

#mxzzy.txt #mxzzy.exe #gossip girl #blair waldorf #prada candy #uptown girls #moodboard

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so my mom being my mom lol she’s made me celebrate my bday a few minutes from midnight before it actually starts (rn) but yay i’m 20!!! more specifically 20 when it turns 6:35am where i live which is in 6 hrs!!! i now have macarons i’m saving for when i wake back up and a lovely giant black tote bag i think will look great carrying all my school stuff

#mxzzy.bday #mxzzy.txt

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books i recommend after having read them:

jazz - toni morrison

awkward black man - walter mosely

black looks and representation - bell hooks

my year of meats - ruth ozeki

the end of white world supremacy - malcolm x

my dark vanessa - kate elizabeth russell

siren queen — nghi vo

the devil takes you home — gabino iglesias

please feel free to add some!

#and by read i don’t just mean finished i mean read enough to know it’s worth reading #so if u wanna add on and u know the book enough to recc it that works too! #bookblr #book reccs #mxzzy.txt

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♡𝐆𝐈𝐋𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐒 𝐗𝐌𝐀𝐒 𝐄𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐎𝐃𝐄𝐒♡༄

𝟏𝐱𝟏𝟎 ❝𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐟𝐟❞

𝟐𝐱𝟏𝟎 ❝𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐫❞

𝟑𝐱𝟏𝟎 ❝𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐨, 𝐩𝐢𝐠❞

𝟒𝐱𝟏𝟏 ❝𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐨𝐫❞

𝟓𝐱𝟏𝟏 ❝𝐰𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐬❞

𝟔𝐱𝟏𝟐 ❝𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐠𝐰𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐠𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧❞

𝟕𝐱𝟏𝟏 ❝𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐚'𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐟𝐟❞

#pic via @filmlorelai pin #gilmore girls #rory gilmore #lorelai gilmore #christmas #early 2000s #winter aesthetic #mxzzy.txt

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i do it for the girls in their 20s w interests deemed childish bc when they actually were a child they were parentified by their living situation and now have to be the parent for the inner child in their head that still lingers around sometimes

#i do it for myself actually #mxzzy.txt

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i always struggle with wondering whether i’m doing a nice thing to people please or bc it’s from the bottom of my heart. one of my best friends told me “if you’re doing it because you feel guilty and think you need to, especially if no one told you you’ve done anything wrong, it’s probably out of guilt. that’s not as enjoyable as when you’re doing it bc it makes you happy to help another person”

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prom pact (2023): a movie review 9/10

prom pact is a strange (in a good way) movie bc the way some of the pop songs are literally so “dated” in terms of being 3+ years old (bad guy, believer) but also somehow so properly getting teenagers accurate with that outdatedness??? ex: bad guy playing in a disney movie abt two teenagers changing each other from their previous goals and bringing out the better in each other and then feeling “deviant” for getting out of their comfort zones w each other.

like when you’re young and in the socially hierarchal hell that is high school one of the most “bad” things you can do is be the popular/unpopular kid hanging outside of your group, until you actually leave and go into the adult world and start to perceive that clique behavior as childish.

ALSO i’m obsessed w graham and how he’s really not what mandy thinks she is. mandy realizing she knows less than she thinks she does and that graham knows more than he thinks he does. also the actor playing him was so well chosen bc he gives off sterling knight in starstruck vibes mandy/graham give off SUCH chance and sonny vibes. 9/10 cute disney movie of u wanna sit and chill w something warm and fuzzy but new.

also i like the characterization of ben. he’s a character that’s very sweet and well-intentioned but also a great model for teenage boys who are insecure in their looks and popularity and feel like looks matter more so they feel attempts in trying to improve their personality and focus on how they treat others are futile. very good to see in a world kind of trying to convince them thru incel culture that “being a man” is about feeling forced to feel like your worth is defined by wealth and looks and not how you treat others, which matters just as much and can’t be bought.

#prom pact 2023 #disney channel #dcom #mazzy makes a movie review #mxzzy.txt

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list of youtubers i find interesting & recommend:

fashion related youtubers:

—fashion trend analysis:

mina le

lisa fevral

fashionlover4

alexa sunshine83

muse

dion the taurus

—styling:

chin the kid (amazing hair style inspo)

frugal aesthetic

ellie jean royden (great intro to kibbe theory)

cocoa styling (a little more complex explaining on kibbe theory w more diversity and centering on black women)

c0mm0ndrgg

—pop culture throwbacks:

haute le mode

modern gurlz

josy kass

fashion channel

fashion elitist

makeup artists:

—grwm:

sara k

sarah alyssa

veravalentine

vloggers:

soeun in seoul

misha zaka

halle burns

ariel morgan

video essayists:

yhara zayd

fromrosiewithlove

kidology

khadija mbowe

julia boateng

angela benedict

#youtube #youtube recommendations #mxzzy.txt #edited to add more!