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sairitaikutsu · 6 months

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gonna go on a little schizo rant on main here we go

so i only REALLY thought about it just earlier while streaming, the content that does well online are mostly either minecraft twitch clips i edited for yt shorts, or remixes of songs, most especially from my FNF phase.

it got me thinking, i want to be known for my music, both remixes and originals, with gaming on the side, not the other way around. this semester break has become a productive week for me (even though i was sick during the weekend), and it gave me a chance to start streaming again and working on music more. this in turn probably lessened the drive to write??? idk, that's not what this is about.

i'm suddenly contemplating on switching up my yt content. instead of more music videos and visualizers, i start posting long-form minecraft videos, which are basically stream vods edited into a video that's less than an hour at most. i'll still probably make music, though, but only posting it to soundcloud without sharing it to yt.

i'm a little bit scared to make that change, though, because again, i want to be known for music. i still want to create and share music, as it is my passion along with videogames. i'm afraid that making this change will mean i have to put more time into editing 2-3+ hour long videos into something shorter, and i'll also eventually stop making music because of that.

not finishing music wips already happened because i picked up a writing hobby, only coming back to my music production roots thanks to Reignite...i'm afraid of that happening again.

tl;dr, minecraft content does really well on my yt and twitch channels, so i'm contemplating from transitioning from a yt musician to a mcytber.

idk what the point of this was, honestly, but i really did need to get this off of my mind 😓

#real talk #rant #hell. i posted an original song today #like with vocals and all #it only had 4 views until my dad shared it with his family #4 VIEWS.#my originals don't do so fucking well #this kinda sounds like i'm making music for clout #which i didn't mean to do but i think i do anyway #because i worked so hard on this. i don't even care if it's shit.#i want someone to feel something with my music the way i feel something listening to my fav artists #i finished. 2-3 wips this week. you mean to tell me that did sO MUCH WORSE THAN A MC SHORT????#i have like 690 subs and the average views i get are WAY LESS #i hate to sound like an attention seeker but validation that my talents/skills have some place in this world is what keeps me going #fUCK I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF MY BF SAW MY NEW VOCAL TRACK. I WROTE IT FOR HIM

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molkolsdal · 4 months

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you get what you pay for I suppose but I cannot fucking stand it when I'm going for any type of hair removal and the bitch feels the need to unnecessarily comment on shit

#how fucking hard is it to keep your mouth shut and do your job #this time she was so distracted she literally missed 2 body parts and when i pointed out one she got defensive and said i wasnt paying #attention #like bitch I've been lying here silent and motionless i would know which part of my body has been zapped yet and which hadn't #**hasnt #every place I've paid more ive had such a pleasant calming experience like those girls are so nice i wanna be lifelong friends with them #lmao #but prices have increased and i can't afford to go as often as i used to

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daz4i · 6 months

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actually i decided it's time for me to post a rec of my favorite bsd fic. on god please read the warnings. if nothing about them puts you off, i definitely think you should give this one a shot 🫡 it's incredibly well written with beautiful descriptions and prose, imo great pacing and mix of relationship development vs actual plot (and a good mixture of one moving the other), great action sequences and lots of tension to keep you going, as well as some sprinkled in small mysteries here and there. also the sex scenes are ho-*gets shot*

fr tho if you can stomach violence and descriptions of abuse (of the... conditioning and dehumanizing sort) i cannot recommend it enough. it's my favorite for a reason and it's so painfully underrated 💔

#i think the fact i managed to finish it when i have a hard time getting through more than like 2 chapters for most fics -#- is testament enough for how good it is. like the writing really keeps you wanting to keep reading #also at least from the way they reacted to my comment. the author seems very sweet :P and def deserves the attention #i mostly sent that one to ppl through dms when they personally asked but. it's time. more ppl deserve to read it #(also i kinda wanna reread it ngl)

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glassphinix · 2 years

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[ID: the “touching grass is not enough” meme of text over a flowery field that has been edited to read “touching grass is not enough, i need an update about the edge of sleep tv series.” end ID]

#the edge of sleep #teos #literally ive only listened to the first three episodes bc i struggle to find an excuse to listen to an audio drama #i dont really listen to podcasts. i turned on distractible while i was cleaning my aunts house cause it was good to have as background noise #but teos is a work of fiction it's a thriller/mystery/horror story that i want to give my undivided attention #and thats hard to do because my brain Refuses to stay on track if listening is all i'm doing #when i was into bmc i had to be reading the script while i listened to the audio bootleg or i wouldnt fucken stay concentrated #i only listened to it initially during a shift w a disability support worker bc we were driving and we had fuckall else to do #but 1. i dont always have the same worker and it feels rude to keep listening to a story halfway through with no context for them #and 2. from my understanding shit gets decidedly fucked up from ep 4 onward so its probably super not appropriate to listen to #in somebody elses fucking car #but i wanna finish it SO BAD i wanna be able to pour through the teos tag and talk about it with other people without getting spoiled #ive gotten spoiled on a Lotta shit just from reading the tvtropes page #auauufah im so torn between figuring out how to listen to it as a podcast or waiting for more info on the tv show #fellow autistic people do you ever do that thing where ur special interest is always some form of media but its prone to changing #so like every few months youre defined by a new fucking show or game or film or whatever #but Every So Often when ur between big interests u have a very short-lived (hours/days/week or two) but INTENSE obsession w something niche #yeah its like that #my brain is that little ms paint creature thing on all fours with pointy teeth and red eyes biting something in its mouth savagely #and the something is teos #internal monologue

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aamezish · 8 months

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its so ironic that i remember everyones birthday like of people who matter and who absolutely dont yet somehow people whos wish matters always forget mine

#and its not about birthday its just about remembering something about someone #and tbh i personally am not really fan of my own birthday so it didnt matter all this time but this year it was really sad #im always the one who take initiatives for celebrations at hostel and these girl literally came to tell me sorry we forgot to bring a cake #like what am i supposed to do with that piece of information?#understandable it was exams but you didnt forget about this girls who had her 2 days ago #and still i convince myself birthdays dont matter anymore everyone is busy with their lives #wouldnt hurt you to take 2 seconds to send a text like #and im so confused because ive never enjoyed the typical cutting the cake wishing and giggling traditions why im even upset #that its eventually finally fading away shouldnt i be the happiest #just because i dont keep mentioning every five minutes its my birthday on this upcoming fucking day doesnt mean you need to forget #im mad over such a silly thing but it seems like im a bit forgetful #maybe its not about birthdays and its projecting on this certain topic #this has defemitely happened before like oh shit sorry we completely forgot to invite you #or maybe all my school life i was the center of attention and didnt ahve to try so hard to make myself count #its like im always asking please mujhe bhi bula lena please bata dena jab plan karo

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quickhacked · 2 years

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favorite moments from last chapter under the cut because i need to talk about it or i'll explode. sorry i need attention hiiii

#1): panam and vincent banter. they're besties and i keep forgetting about it because i didn't write about the in-game events a lot #but oooghfh they're such good friends and i love the way they talk to each other and i need to write more about them fr #2): heist parallels. any mention of jackie and t-bug makes me insane because at this point in time it's been a year since they died #3): vitali once again needing to make tough decisions. it's worse because it's also the wrong decision but. this alone is already ouch #he's trying so hard to make the right decisions but nothing works out for him :)))) a #4): american accent vitali because he has a special place in my heart <3 SGHFJGHDFGDHJ #vincent has southern roots and sometimes his accent will shine through a bit and vitali can perfectly mimic it. important info #5): >:) the man himself. hiiii <3 sorry i'm allowed to be a freak about him i know more than all of you #6): >:) vitali should burn things actually. might make him do that #7) + 8): very cinematic bits that i cannot explain to you. the Vibes. it's about the Vibes scoob #9): yeah. [gestures vaguely] yeah #something changed alright. things are happening #anyway hiiii i'm normal about this chapter i swear. so normal #gonna be even more insane about next one possibly. who knows #sorry in advance but again. i'm in the need of attention i'm like a cat. an annoying one #personal

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munch-mumbles · 9 months

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GRR a lot of my paranoia about my heart health has been coming back lately

#it used to be pretty bad a few years ago and im starting to get there again #its hard for me not to pay attention to my pulse to check that its still working fine because i honestly have a pretty big fear of dying #from a heart attack stroke etc #i can literally remember the day that it became a phobia of mine because in bio class we were reading an exerpt about a womans symptoms #as she was experiencing a stroke and like. i literally freaked myself out about it AS i was reading it i starting panicking #specifically the mention of your left art losing sensation sticks in my mind #a few days ago i read a few comments on a post about people who knew someone who died at their job #and a lot of them were about people who literally just. up and died for no reason. sitting at their desk. THAT freaked me out #cause that seems like a way id die is just out of fucking nowhere thats my luck #anyways im writing this because ive had like 2 borderline panic attacks about it today and i could feel myself freaking out a third time #a minute ago so i startd writing. thumbs up #i know im thinking irrationally but no one who dies of a heart attack expects to die. right. im probably not going to expect #it its going to Happen To me #ive read too many stories about people who either had one themself and survived or talking about someone they knew #where they say they could feel the doom and that something was wrong and etc. so when i start getting nervous it keeps snowballing #immediately into FUCK ITS THE DOOM THIS IS THE BIG ONE #when its literally not

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gekkonidae · 11 months

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Ive been taking my sweet ass time with totk haven't even touched the main quest yet, gonna get full stamina and all the hearts before I actually play the story

#this is what i live abt open world games #no need to start the story until i actually want to #i think thats something genshin kinda lacks?#i mean the open world is absolutely fantastic in totk and genshin but with genshin some puzzles in the open world you cant do #UNLESS you finish a really long quest #and i mean the quests arent hard but i prefer ignoring story stuff ans being able to actually explore without NEEDING the quest in order to #do so #which totk and botw did really well bc all the mandatory mechanics are things you get in the very beginning #and then ur just free to do whatever without needing the main quests #well #axtually i guess since some quests are aboit fixing environmental issues it kinda counts #but those environmental issues dont fully stop you from exploring the way the exploration in genshin does #i love both games #i mean w somw games i lose interest pretty fast like in a few months #but w genshin its been. 2 years? and im still not bored enough of the game to quit #i dont play the game for very long tho. i do some stuff then i close it which i guess is why i havent experienced full burnout #i think games w more freedom are just straight up better at keeping my attention for long periods of time #games w set paths like pokemon and some other story driven games donr keep my enjoyment for as long #i mean i love pokemon but it does get predictable and boring after a while #im not attached to genshin enough to want to stick with it no matter what tho like trust me the minute i get too bored to play #im leaving it w/o a second thought lol

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descendantofthesparrow · 2 years

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“Its all going according to plan, its all falling right into our hands; nothing to it, lets get it moving movin’”

#the aliens hit HARD in this song #best verse #also easily the best song of z3 for me #have i watched more than the first 5 minutes cuz i honestly cannot keep my attention on it?#no #have i listened to basically all the songs?#yes #i've done the same thing with z1 and 2 #i havent watched more than 5 minutes of each movie but i know all the songs lol

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selvepnea · 6 days

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Depending on how big the closet is, keeping BiBi in a enclosed space might be a good idea while you wait for the vet appointment so that you know where he is and can get to him easily. Some cats like to hide when sick or injured, or just plain upset/scared.

Since it sounds like diarrhea, make sure he has water and/or wet food so he doesn't get dehydrated. And if you can fit his litter box in there cats like things that smell like themselves.

I hope any of this helps!

I ended up doing something similar! I was a little worried if he would be more adverse to eating sine I was moving his food so far, but he seems to be eating ok still.

Funny thing, when I checked on him in the morning he was pretty clean, but the closet was a mess when I got home ^^"

Turns out he got some sort of parasite? I think? (I was too tired to ask too many questions :( ) so I've got about a week's worth of medicine before his stools start firming up again u_u

#Sel talks #scenicphoenix #sel answers #Bibi is baby #unsanitary #I guess he's going to be a closet cat all week :(#Idk where he would have picked up a paricite? Unless I could have brought one in from. The outdoor cat. Oh wait.#She was having diarrhea a week or 2 ago as well. I might have gotten some on my clothes. Heck.#Well. I'll probably work on deep cleaning my room this weekend so I can deep clean the closet next weekend.#I forgot to mention I happen to have a walk in closet (which already had his litter box in there) so he's at least got space and a window #Also hard floors!#Soooo glad I only have a rug #Cleaning up would be so much worse if everything was carpetted #I wish I could give him more attention. I hate to just stuff him in the closet all week :(#I ended up giving him 2 baths yesterday (well 1 and a half. His lower half at least) cause he was so dirty I couldn't clean him with #Anything else :(#Not sure if I should be bathing him when I get off work this week either :/#On one hand; less poop getting spread around #On the other; very stressful for cat and only keeps him clean for so long :(

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aashiqq · 1 month

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#dni #its embarrassing to even exist atp #i need a brainwash i need a purpose #when i wake up tomorrow at 2 pm or smthn and i lie about it to my parents or dont show up for commitments and meetings tomorrow none of this #will matter ill have forgotten every single bit of it except my deep rooted misogyny #or other stuff that i dont or cant and wont tell #im a loser and probably a creep #the try hard guy who thinks he's natural and expects things to come to him that he's the main character fighting battles in his head but in #truth hes just alone and everybody's living their own life and nobody's watching him #hes so starved for attention hes becoming desperate #hes becoming a creep a guy he hated so much he could gut one out just a couple of years back #what happened to me? did i keep waiting for all those miracles to happen? for a lottery to strike?#wasnt it luck enough i made it this far without having my share of fucked up things life offers to every single person??????#how did the things others brag about/take pride in became a point of embarrassment for me? something to hide from others #not to be shown to the world #fuck this shit I'm out

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insanechayne · 8 months

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#why do I still feel like I need you so much?#I know nostalgia is a liar sometimes and all that but God it’s still killing me when it hits so hard like this #all I want to do is talk to you all day and have a really long conversation like we used to #I’d be willing to bet that even though today is a ‘lazy day’ for you I still won’t get more than 1-2 messages from you all day #I just don’t know what changed or why #and if I bring it up it’ll just start a fight again like last time so I’m basically never allowed to be bothered by this ever again #I still want what we had back and I hate that I want that so badly even though I know we can never have that again #I shouldn’t care this much and should be able to move on with my life but I can’t get my feet under me #I feel like I’ll always be begging you or someone else for attention and affection and whatever else for the rest of my life #I feel like I’ll never truly get what I want or get to be fully and completely happy/satisfied all the way around #my thoughts are a jumble and are all over the place and I’m just babbling at this point #but my chest feels tight and I’m holding back tears and this shit always hits me out of nowhere and I don’t know why it keeps happening #I don’t know how to stop feeling this way or distract myself or process it or move on #I can’t predict when it’s going to hit or what triggers it completely so I can never make it stop it seems #and it just makes me want you back even more which makes it all hurt worse again #I think of my girlfriend and how she doesn’t deserve a partner who’s still dealing with this shit and thinking about someone else #I feel so guilty all the time because I’m still thinking about you so much and I can’t get you out of my head #she’s the one I should be thinking about and feeling everything for #and we’re about 90% there overall so it’s not like I’m not trying to put all of myself into our relationship #it’s just that last 10% I can’t seem to fix and that’s why I’m so ashamed of myself #yet I still can’t move on from you and I don’t know why #you carved yourself out a piece of my soul and how do I get that back? I don’t know #personal

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lxnarphase · 3 months

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Screaming, crying, violently shaking the bars on my enclosure for thigh grinding. Please.

i had to let this marinate for a little, this is actually so good i love the idea of just plopping yourself on their lap, straddling their thigh when you want their attention when they're doing something. and you gave me free reign on who to write so i am in heaven with these thoughts. i thought about adding 'who would pretend to not notice' and 'who would make you do it until you squirt' but i think i already got carried away with this little thirst ❤︎

WHO ENCOURAGES IT: g. suguru, n. kento, h. kinji, f. toji

the second you sit on him, his attention snaps to you, inquisitively raising an eyebrow. but once you tell him to focus on what he was doing, he bites his lip as he feels you grinding yourself on his thigh.

suguru's abandoned his show, leaning back on the couch and putting his hands on your waist, guiding you back and forth against his leg. "oh, pretty babyyyy, go on, grind on me. does it feel good?" he's a little upset you aren't facing him, but whenever you turn your head over your shoulder, he coos at you so sweetly. he even brings his hand down to your front, playing with your puffy clit through your soaked underwear. "look at you, your gonna get my leg all wet...tsk, you're gonna lick it up for me after, right?" kento turns a pretty shade of pink, chucking as he shakes his head. he texted you only 2 minutes ago, responding to you pouting and asking when he'd be done with work, he didn't think you'd show up this soon. "have i been neglecting you, honey? mm, i'm sorry, love. you can keep going," he encourages, his hand on your lower back as he looks up at you from his leather desk chair. oh, he could never get tired of his view. if he could, he'd have you sit on his thigh every time he worked in his office, but...he knew that wouldn't work out, he'd never be able to get work done with you sitting all pretty on him like this. "i'll take a break from work, okay? mhm, just for you. now keep going, honey, i want you to feel good." kinji stops everything immediately. "well, hi to you too, cupcake," he whistles, his hands instantly starting to rub up and down your sides. "needy cunt wanted some attention? aww, she needs her kinjiiii, ain't that right, doll?" his hand trails down and smacks your ass before grabbing a handful. his eyes are lidded but filled with excitement. oh, he looooved when you took control of your pleasure and used him to feel good. knowing that you needed him so badly that just grinding on his thigh could make you cum made his ego shoot through the roof. "c'mon, wanna have you soak my thigh before i touch you, baby, lemme see how messy you can get." toji is pleasantly surprised when you come to him with that pretty little pout, cooing his name in just his black sweater. his thin pajama pants can't be that good to grind on, the fabric isn't nearly rough enough, but he can feel how hot and wet you're getting, how sticky your panties are getting. seeing how you're getting frustrated, toji just lifts you up and plops you on his dick. "hey, pretty mama, you strugglin'? mhm, yeah, i knowww. my pants aren't enough for that pussy t' cum, are they?" he helps you move your hips back and forth, lazily smirking up at you. "yeah, that feel better? grindin' on my cock instead? y'so pretty, mama, so so pretty."

WHO CUMS IN THEIR PANTS: g. satoru, k. choso

it's hard not to get turned on from seeing you hovering over him, eyes lidded and filled with need, using their thigh to get yourself off. you just look so fucking gorgeous they can't help but move you off their thigh to their lap.

satoru lets you grind on his thigh for a little bit, kissing all over your neck as he fucking giggles into your skin. when he gets that pretty whine of his name after mouthing your pressure point, he pulls you onto his lap, grinding up into you. "baby, baby, baby, you're so cute, s'fuckin' cute! f-fuck, shit, 'm gonna cum, h-haah, you'd gonna make me cum in my fuckin' jeans, c'mon." he lets out the filthiest moan, laughing deliriously as he cums in his jeans. he barely gives himself a second to breathe before he moves you onto your back on the couch, sliding your panties to the side and pulling out his cock that's still hard and covered in his cum. "tsk-tsk-tsk, little dumplinggg, you made me waste it, 's a baddd girl...now i gotta fuck you 'til it leaks out, m'kay? my cock feels so much better than my thigh, angel, let 'toru into this lil' cunt." choso looks up at you with wide eyes, and you barely get to grind on his thigh before he whines, slowly pulling you towards his lap where his hard dick is pressing against his shorts. "b-babe," he whimpers, finally feeling you grinding against him directly. "y-you, i-i, mmn, i can feel your pussy, y-you're grindin' right on the tip, keep going, p-please?" he's activitly fucking up into you, uncaring that his gym shorts are getting soaked with his precum, eyes rolling back in his head as he keens your name. "pleasepleaseplease, 'm gonna cum, lemme cum, i wanna cum against you like this, please!"

#gojo smut #suguru smut #toji smut #nanami smut #choso smut #hakari smut #gojo satoru smut #geto suguru smut #toji fushiguro smut #kamo choso smut #hakari kinji smut #nanami kento smut #jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #𖤐 ── lxnarworks.#sorry this got so long i am very very excited when it comes to these kind of asks !!

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moonbakeries · 1 year

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HOW I MANIFESTED MY DREAM LIFE IN A WEEK

BACKSTORY

So I decided to fully immerse myself in "persisting" and fulfilling when I listened to Lonely one by LOVA because I spent around an hour just sobbing because I related to the song.

the week that I started was around Easter break and I was under the most amount of stress I have ever been through and I could see it the effects on my body

I was breaking out with huge pimples even though I was on accutane, I was averaging 2 hours of sleep a day every week for 2 weeks, my period had going on for 2 weeks, I was losing weight rapidly (was under 35kg:( ) my anxiety was at an all time high because I got harassed again(sexual assault victim). I used to have severe depression and have had multiple failed attempts of suicide. AND YES I WAS DESPERATE AS FUCK TO MANIFEST THIS DREAM LIFE OF MINE WHICH IS NO LONGER A DREAM

in the mornings I would be super anxious but I learned how to deal with it and get myself into the state super easily

HOW I DID IT

I GOT OFF TUMBLR: you know how many times I doubted myself only to realise I was doing everything right

I also read and listened to Edward Art MULTIPLE TIMES

Within a week of fulfilling and persisting, I had manifested my dream life. just like that. I woke up one morning and everything I had ever desired was right there. and it was super easy.

all I did was affirm(to remind not to get), visualise and feel. I would only do these methods if I wanted to, if I didn't I wouldn't.

Within a few days, the anxiety lessened so much and it started to feel natural.

this was a question on Bambi's " how I manifested with hard circumstances " post which has now been sadly deleted but I remember copying this because it gave me hope at the time I copied it (don't hope, just know)

"But isn’t ranting “not letting the old story die out?” you and i could rant until our minds are cleared, just as long as you flip my thoughts, you are on the right track. I rant for 2% of my 24 hour days. The other 98% i was persisting in the fact that creation was done. as “time” went on, it began to feel more natural and I felt more at ease. I held onto that feeling because I knew this was when I would get my desires and I did."

and that was when I knew I shouldn't give up and I just kept going even when I wanted myself to just get on tumblr and overconsume

I actually nearly decided to see what I was "doing wrong". I clicked on one of Aphrodite's posts but I didn't read it. I just asked myself if I would look through it if I had my desires and I wouldn't and since I already have all of my desires I didn't.

Whenever the anxiety was too strong and I could feel the frustration and desperation building up, I would just rant and it helped me calm down and get back into the state super easily.

why?

because STATES MANIFEST THOUGHTS DON'T

which is why you can rant.

you know how many FUCKING DOUBTS I had, but I didn't even give them attention coz they didn't deserve any and how many times I wanted to just give up, but I was like NO, STFU, I DON'T WANNA LIVE MISERABLY ANYMORE and now I'm not :)

The affirmations I used:

It is done

I am living my dream life

I am in my desired reality

The 3d will conform as long as i keep persisting

Imagination is the real reality

I also daydreamed, but since imagination is the real reality they were real

WHAT I MANIFESTED

- desired appearance

- name change

- family change

- skills (drivers licence etc)

- apartment and furniture

- wealth

- a bunch of random materialistic things

- desired friend group (I absolutely love them!)

- desired uni and always getting good grades

- outfits from pinterest

and a bunch of other things

- I also ended up manifesting an sp without even knowing and he's pretty much I everything I scripted him to be(scripted a year ago because I didn't really care for a relationship) but this happened before I manifested my dream life

after a year and half of being on loablr I finally manifested my dream life. and you can too

(there was probably over 100 things I wanted but I realised what I want is not much, nothing ever is when you know about loa and yes, i was super desperate)

you don't need anymore information other than @angelsinluv states post and fulfillment challenge

you shouldn't ever be stressed or worried while manifesting whatever you want, because you wouldn't stress if you had it

TAKE YOUR TIME

YOU GOT THIS

#success story #affirmations #loassumption #law of assumption #dream life #manifesting #manifestation #loa

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uglyducklingofthe2000s · 9 days

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Black & White - LN

Request from @manicpixiemom - hii !! This is my first time ever requesting something but i was wondering if you could perhaps write a lando fanfic where he meets y/n at a friend//mutuals wedding. Maybe you could make y/n a university student ??¿ thanks :)

Thank you for clearing the college thing 😅 I just had to be sure. Also this is kind of like an early days of a relationship vibe. But I'm not writing any other parts so it's up to you guys to imagine the rest :D

Themes: suggestions/lead up to smut but no actual smut

No part 2 requests please

Fitting weddings into a busy schedules comes with making no promises to guarantee he'll be there.

It's difficult.

But on this occasion he didn't have just send a gift in his place, though he made sure to bring a gift too.

Max and P are in attendance too since it's an old karting friend of theirs who is walking waiting for his bride.

Bridesmaids walk up the aisle in silky pale yellow dresses (I'm sorry if you hate that, I just saw a really pretty like full length slip yellow dress and it was so pretty). Now usually Lando doesn't care about the choice of dress on a bridesmaid but when the second one walks forward and steps up to her spot. There's something about her which Lando can't shake from his mind.

He also can't tear his heavy gaze from her and at some point in the ceremony she seems to feel it weighing on her and tears her gleaming eyes away from the bride and groom to look around the room. Trying to find the source of her discomfort before since she finally spots Lando who doesn't waver in the slightly. He just keeps looking at her which earns a raised eyebrow which he smirks at earning a slightly flustered and dumbfound expression before she's tapped by the other bridesmaid since they are on camera.

It's not till the reception afterwards that Lando leaves Max and P at the table and moves to the bar where he watched the unnamed bridesmaid move to after finally ending her conversation with the bride.

"So, I guess I don't have to ask if you're here with the bride or groom." Lando states standing beside her after she's made her request for the drink.

"You...You stared at me the whole ceremony." Y/n states narrowing her eyes on him. "Lando Norris..."

"You know me."

"And reputation." Y/n hums earning a frown before he drink is handed to her. "Thank you, sir."

As if that was not on purpose as a turn on? Please...

She turns around strutting off and Lando quickly finds himself with the groom himself.

"You have to be careful with that one, mate." Thomas chuckles patting Lando's shoulder. "She's studying psychology in university."

"What's her name?" Lando asks not caring for the warning.

"Y/n, my little sister." Thomas states finally making Lando tear his gaze away and look at Thomas in alarm. "Don't worry, I'm not going to stand in your way. It's about time she got into a relationship, your problem is going to be getting her generalisation of any driver in motorsports being a slag."

"So that's what she meant by reputation." Lando nods beginning to make a plan. "You think she'd reject me?"

"No. She just likes playing hard to get to make sure a guy is actually interested and not just acting impulsively to get her in bed for the night-I do have to say out of brotherly obligation and because my mum would rip my ear off my head if she found out I was helping you and you end up hurting her...if you end up hurting her. I'll be forced to not only take her to wherever your cars are located but aid her in smashing them into unrecognisable lumps of metal."

Lando looks at Thomas with one of his expressions which is certainly one that lacks appreciation for just the mental image of him.

"Some liquid courage please, mate." Thomas states catching the bartender's attention.

"I've got a drink." Lando states as they pour shots.

"I know my sister may, trust me. You'll need this." Thomas insists handing him the shot. "I need it too...I think my wife is planning a group dance with some girls and I don't know how my traditional conservative grandparents will be feeling about it."

Lando even grimaces at the thought before thanking the man and deciding to go for it with his sister.

"She likes a slow dance, hates disco music." Thomas states moving towards the DJ seeming to act in Lando's favour for a slow song.

"Would you at least let me have a dance?" Lando asks offering his hand to her while the bridesmaids all raise their eyebrows and look at y/n.

"I'll dance with y-." Another bridesmaid speaks up only for another one to slap their hand over her mouth and speak up instead.

"Y/n would love to dance, especially since it's a slow song. Go on y/n."

Y/n sighs rolling her eyes and placing her hand into Lando's hand before allowing him to guide her out.

"I saw you talking to my brother." Y/n states making Lando smirk.

"Do you have to sound so annoyed about it?" Lando hums as he makes sure he's got the hand placements right before they begin gently moving with the music. "You'd trust your brother's taste wouldn't you?"

"Suddenly you're his taste." Y/n laughs lightly before sighing. "I'm not against you, Lando. I just think getting into a relationship with an F1 driver in my last year of university when I'm trying to get a degree is not the wisest choice."

"I'm a good study buddy and F1 races are great white noise for focusing."

"First hand experience for that one." Y/n murmurs making him grin since it's obvious y/n is the type of person who just has to make comments to try and ground herself rather than allow herself to be charmed so easily.

"I'm not actually that evil of a man."

"I don't think you're evil." Y/n frowns earning a hum she sighs looking over his shoulder before stepping back and moving her hand to his own. "I'm not going to regret this."

Lando doesn't even know where he's being pushed off to till she's pushes them into the very unlit car park and got him in the passenger seat, almost slingshotting him back as she reclines the seat.

"Someone's eager." Lando comments earning a hum as she climbs on top of him.

Sex in a vintage convertible was not the twist Lando expected for the night.

"Are you sure you want to go back in? Your hair kind of gives away what you've been doing." Lando states making her scoff from the drivers seat she'd slid into.

"I'm going in to say bye to the newly weds and then I have to go early. I have classes tomorrow and I'm tutoring people so I can't risk a hangover."

"Is that the point of being a student?" Lando questions as she looks at him for a moment.

"Some might agree, but I've got to focus at least a little on what I'm supposed to be doing." Y/n sighs resting her head in her hand. "This was fun."

"We should do it again." Lando confirms earning a small laugh. "What?"

"Just...going to be a bit hard to do it again."

"We can make it work." Lando states before they hear a squeal and scream making y/n jump. Though they know no one can see them. "What are you plans for the weekend?"

"Nothing."

"You should come to the Imola race."

"You're insane."

"Be my guest. You'll love it and I think it's obvious you've earned some time away from university." Lando comments earning a small laugh and sigh. "I'll make sure you have all the space you need to watched and study simultaneously."

Y/n hesitates looking back at the very obviously drunk woman dancing around.

"Say yes."

"This is a wedding, everyone has to say yes." Y/n mumbles then sighing. "Do you have your phone?"

Lando had spent every spare moment making sure to text y/n and make his intentions with her clear which seemed to be working because when she shows up on Saturday, having had classes on Friday. She does seem fairly happy to see him.

"You look....amazing." Lando grins as he finds her fashioning a orange dress that in the wrong breeze might require some fast action to maintain modesty. But Lando enjoys it nonetheless. "Just missing one thing."

"What?" Y/n frowns making him take her bag which proves to be pretty heavy with her school work. "Hey-"

Lando takes off his cap and places it on top of her own head with a smile.

"Yeah, that's much better." Lando smiles making her try to shake off the heat suddenly building on her face. "Don't hide."

"I'm not."

"Right..." Lando smirks earning a scoff and huff. "Come on, I'll show you your study space and spectator spot for the weekend."

He's placed her in the McLaren unit in front of a monitor and with stationary that is probably more than she could ever think to need.

"This is so sweet."

"I was going to try to put you in the garage, and you can be in there if you decide to take a break from it all. But I thought this would be a safe space." Lando explains with a proud grin.

"Well, I'll probably need study breaks. Constantly studying does burn people out easily." Y/n smiles before she feels his hands move to rest on her waist. "10 out of 10 for effort in brownie points."

"Thank you. I did get you some snacks but catering is going to bring them up once you're actually settled to study." Lando smiles earning a hum before she gently leans in to kiss him, a gesture he's more than eager to accept. "Before you do start studying...would you like a quick tour of the paddock? Just so you know your way around if there's no one with you."

"Sounds like a good plan to me." Y/n nods with a soft smile.

Y/n knows she's managed to become goo from this man's effects on her. She really didn't think he'd make it so easy to fall for him as much as she's tried to make it hard for herself.

She also really didn't think Lando would make such effort to accommodate her needing to prioritise studying like she needs to and it looks like he'll support her all the way through the last few months of her degree.

But she does have to keep him on his toes.

"You know, I do have to say I'm a little upset your ruined my outfit with the McLaren cap. I want to make it obvious I'm here for Max." Y/n states as they step out of the unit and he doesn't hide his fake offence to her words since he's away of her teasing.

"So mean."

"Sorry." Y/n giggles before she kisses his cheek and earns the return of his grin.

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