Tamsyn: the iliac crest is like a ragged shoreline
Me, not knowing what the fuck that means: soo true 😭 the cinnamon topography 💯💯💯
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i'm scared to talk about them bc every time I talk about fic plans I somehow always end up hating them and never posting bc I feel like I've overhyped them and people are going to think I'm weird and cringe and suck, BUT I'm really excited about whump: the musical and I want to post my fics now but I can't :(((((
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looking at all the cute v-day fics that everyone is posting knowing full well that I've lost the motivation to write and read fic lately
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thinking back to my Jewish film class in last semester of college and how mid semester we got to around to post Holocaust and the idea of Zionism came up and somehow I was the only one against it. Like with one of the films I get how it was propaganda and p good one at it, and the term seemed to be new to a lot of ppl, but like..... I was the only one who raised my hand in opposition of it. And I recall feeling that sense of doubt did I maybe have the wrong idea? But I made the argument about the existing Palestinians and how it was harmful towards them, idr the full details but p sure I was the only one who brought it up.
this is all to say I keep thinking back to that one day in class and wonder how it'd go down now, though even then when bringing up some of previous incidents in Palestine, if it was presented as a film format would my classmates act differently? probably yes, the original film wasn't explicitly anti-Palestine but just v much that sense of nationalism was still there and no space for implications. as is propaganda ig
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Hmmmmmmmm quick question! What do you do when your executive dysfunction has reached such a critical state that you:
are actively ignoring things you desperately need to do
are ghosting your employers (even though you can make it all go away by doing the one thing you most need to do: send an email and QUIT)
have almost three dozen notifications that you can't even bring yourself to look at
completely unironically have done nothing but sleep and flip between two apps for days
are fucking up your professional/financial future even though you need to move out in a matter of months
✨and✨
are paralyzed by anxiety that keeps mounting to increasingly unsustainable heights
YET
you GENUINELY CANNOT figure out how to PHYSICALLY FORCE YOUR BODY to do the (extremely short, extremely important) list of things you keep telling yourself you're going to do
because at this point you can't even shower or change the clothes you've been wearing for days on end?
Asking for a friend. I'm the friend.
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wonder what easy past fandom my brain is gonna latch onto near the end of next semester when i’m swamped with projects and all day film shoot schedules again and just wanna come back to my room and put on something easy and rot
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yes i became club prez despite self describedly ditching cultural anth bc i’m too socially anxious for it. i have a stupid ego i can’t get rid of and when i feel like people think i’m competent and in control i’m fine and can micromanage groups of people and when i’m not i cry about it
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long theoretical post about my friend hugging me
like. to dissect a matter that none of you are involved in and then i'll delete in the morning: my friend in college hugged me about ten minutes ago and i don't understand why. he's a physically affectionate person so we knew it was bound to happen, it was a running joke between us that we'd like schedule our hug to happen. nothing extraordinary happened tonight. in the second half -- which is when i spent the most time with him -- i was so fucked up that i barely processed what was going on? i was listening to what he was telling me, he just rambled about stuff, and it's interesting and i could recite all of it if asked and the expression he made at each part, but there was absolutely nothing in my head. and he never asked if i was okay which i think he would have if he thought something was wrong, because he's done that before. and we were alone so he could have and there would have been zero consequences. but he didn't ask me what was wrong, so it's hard to assume that the hug was for emotional consolation reasons. he wouldn't have noticed me on the brink of tears, either, he's not that observant. i would have known if he had. and i didn't do anything truly kind to him today, i listened to him talk about his interests and we hung out for a while, but that's what we do all the time. nothing happened. there was the chair thing but i thought i played that off well, i tried to have a coherent narrative about it an hour later too so he would guess what i had hoped, and i think i was successful. he wasn't distressed, i would have known. and he was tired but he's been tired a lot before and he's never acted like this. so he had zero reason to hug me unless he maybe sensed that this entire time i just really fucking wanted him to hug me, but he wouldn't have, and i would never have voiced that, because i don't want him to see me at that level. but i needed that hug badly. and i don't understand why i received it.
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heyyy i am just a meaningless anon but i am pretty close in age to you and feel like i'm in a pretty similar situation and i think as hard as it sounds, you just gotta do what's best for you and not worry about the job bc at the end of the day, you're right, it isn't your responsibility and it's not your burden to be miserable when you owe them nothing. they're gonna be okay and you're gonna be okay and i'm gonna be okay and i'm rooting for you!
thank youu this is so sweet 🥹 my moving date is Set no matter when i quit! so i am going! but i've never actually quit a job so it feels so big and scary. i know it will be okay for me because it has to be. this is the first thing i'm doing that's my choice and completely on my terms and doesn't feel like jumping into a pit of The Unknown.
you will be okay too! our twenties are all about big things and learning who we are and what we need and what we can do and sometimes that means hard and scary things so we can do fun stuff later.
i'm rooting for all of us too. 🫶💗
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