#my brain is MASSIVE right now

[armed-with-a-waffle-iron]

Angsty teenage Dick & Babs melts my heart. LOVE how Hope Larson wrote them in Batgirl: Summer of Lies.

"Partners."

"No matter what."

#two dorks with massively complicated history with & feelings for each other; FIGHTING to honour a bold pact: “partners. no matter what.” #i'm gonna explode! my brain is feeling every emotion at once right now #screaming crying throwing up and probs dropping dead #hope larson #dickbabs #barbara gordon #dick grayson #batgirl #robin #oracle #nightwing #batman #dc comics #bat family #batfam #comics

[bigcatbulges]

Hey, real talk for a second, I'm considering not uploading anymore and only turning this is to a reblog only account because of the AI choices from Tumblr. I truthfully feel incredibly guilty that, even though I was crediting the artists and linking everything, I was still submitting their work to be used for AI thru Tumblr and that is not fair to the artists that worked incredibly hard on their art. I'm gonna try and do a bit more research before I make a final choice in the matter but I want to thank everyone for thier kindness the past couple of years and im grateful a small community spawned on discord!

I'll update this post when I think I've figured everything out and any artist out there please give me any advice on how you would handle this situation please! My options right now are to delete all the pictures I've uploaded or maybe nuke the blog entirely? I'm not sure but again, I'm grateful for everyone's kindness and I hope we can keep being kind together.

#im going thru a massive depressive episode so im gonna try and think rationally but right now my brain just says delete everything #i already quit the discord a few days ago when i was having an episode but now i really feel ive done more harm than good here #idk its not my art and that's always been the rule so im gonna go thru a bunch of artists pages and see if they have any advice

[fudgecake-charlie]

more pearl from my cosmic harbingers AU! this was originally supposed to be a two-parter with written text but i have limits

#pearlescentmoon #space #stars #hermitcraft #hermitcraft au #feels great that i'm the only one with actual context for this right now >:]c #massive massive shoutout to jmarshallsmith bcs his comic Drift got my brain going INSTANTLY /pos #art out the oven #cosmic harbingers AU #[scheduled]

[satans-knitwear]

Lace have some fun 💙✨

Treat me ~ Tip me

#Blue lace kinda day ✨ #I love bodysuits like this. Such a pretty piece #Simple but delicious #Satans knitwear #Any tips or treats would be massively appreciated right now #my brain is in shambles #Im exhausted #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #Pretty lingerie #bi girl #cheeky #wlw

[godblooded]

just an fyi, and it feels like it needs to be said here: your blog is your own space and you should be able to say whatever the fuck you want. if you’re sad? vent. get sad. maybe put it under a cut, definitely tag it, but get sad. if you feel like you need someone to talk to? drop a freaking message about how you’re feeling like you could use a buddy, or anything randomly engaging. if you’re having a hard time, you should feel safe and okay to talk about it in your own space. we’re writers and we’re people and while there’s a lot to be said for how engagement outside of oneself is necessary in rp (and really really needs to improve), i think there’s a lot that must be said about people reaching out to others. it’s become so solitary here — the whole ‘reblog from source’ thing when it comes to shit like about and musings is absurd. the whole refusing to like things is ridiculous. yes, curate your space, that’s important, but curating your space into a studio apartment only you live in doesn’t make this a community anymore, it makes it a studio apartment you live in.

just be yourself here. do whatever you want. but i’m always saying: remember you’re not alone, and don’t let yourself feel that way.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[this is illogically worded and after an argument I’m already upset but I just felt like this has to be put here. it’s been sitting on my #brain for so long and it’s something i just wanted to discuss. the way the rpc has become not even an echo chamber just… a shitty ny #apartment only one person lives in that can fit your fridge and your bedroom in the same room. the way literal fandoms have divided each #other through nothing but massive senses of entitlement and so much gatekeepy fucking language. it’s exhausting to watch this happen #literally all because i have no idea where interaction went and yes I’ve been virtually inactive for months now but. it absolutely isn’t for #lack of trying to come back. it’s hugely due to a lack of interaction whenever I reach out and then the feeling like I’m being either #entertained or dismissed. this is a social space and we’re people and everybody just needs to recognize that. like. last week my introverted #broski started discussing how as he’s older he feels loneliness more tangibly but he hates people and i looked right at him and said …yeah #dude. that’s natural. we’re humans. we need each other to live. we need spaces we create and communities we make. but like. there need to be #interactive people in those spaces. we’re social creatures. i love you guys and this is a ramble but… it’s been on my mind awhile. and #frankly? feels kinda good to finally speak my mind.]

[transformers-synergize]

Comment characters I've redesigned that ya want to see more art of, and I might draw a quick thing of them.

I'm currently working on some bigger stuff for this project, but I don't wanna leave this blog postless while to do so

#text post #i got 3 big things im doing #i just started the decepticon redesigns #im working on a lore post with a bunch of art all about cybertronian “”biology“” #and the main thing im focusing on right now is my plot outline #i know i dont have to figure out everything im doing plot wise but theirs definitely some key thing i want to figure out #main thing i struggle with is the start like i got most the early plot downs its just the first 2 chapters that are giving me brain damage #not posting the story outlines here because massive spoiler for everything #i mean even if i did start the comic i prob wouldn't finish it but still #no limit on how many characters you can ask for #more likely to drawn one's i haven't before #you can also anon message me who ya might wanna see me draw

[wonboos]

what do they put into kpop that makes it so addicting? until the last couple of years i've always preferred much heavier, more aggressive music. and i still do, yet my favourite svt songs (and of other kpop groups i listen to) are mostly very upbeat and positive or just very obviously about love. i used to be so. idk disinterested in it both when it came to the music itself and the people who made and performed it, maybe even against giving it a fair try. but what came from a place of simply wanting to support my partner's new interest turned into me having a blog dedicated solely to genuine svt posting. what happened here.

#.txt #it used to be so surprising when a person i followed for other reasons at some point became a kpop fan overnight #and i get that interests tastes and hobbies change all the time but it always happened so FAST and it was so STRONG #that i could never understand HOW it happened #but now literally look at me #i do love the boys dearly #and it's not even about fancying them (more about gender envy if anything) although all of them are obviously beautiful #i just genuinely like their music and content #was i simply a bitter teen who wanted to be separated from anything that could be interpreted as even remotely girly? #but then again i still actively listen to music that makes my brain melt inside my head so it's not that my tastes changed massively #and yet clap left & right mansae fighting and other songs like that are all my best friends and we hold hands all the time #not complaining or anything btw just curious

[mustangs-flames]

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#hey guys just an update #i am really not doing well #had some massive anxiety and panic attacks and haven't slept properly in over 3 days #my brain has latched onto the idea that i am hurting people - loved ones and strangers alike - and i can't move past it #I've started medication but i don't know what to do. i feel miserable and sad and can't even get out of bed #i haven't stopped shaking for days now #i don't know what's going to happen with htb au currently #my anxiety has decided that that is what is hurting people for some reason and i am scared of even going near it right now #i just. i don't know what to do. please if my work has ever hurt you i am so sorry. i really am. #sorry

[omnic]

i did my orientation on wednesday and i'm officially starting my bachelor of animation this upcoming monday

#oddity.txt #i'm so excited my dudes #i was a little hesitant on wednesday but the orientation cleared that RIGHT UPPPPP #one of my first projects is designing a line up of characters for a PG animation with a common theme between them #my brain is like. you will never know inspiration like u do now #GFLKMGDKLMLGMKG #will i be in a massive amount of student debt for pursuing this at a private art university? yes #but will i have FUN and get a job in a field that i love? LET'S HOPE BOYYYYYS

[relicsongmel]

The current brain fog situation is stressing me out more than I expected it to, so I think I'm gonna take a break from Tumblr for a bit.

Discord is also @ relicsongmel. Feel free to reach out there in the meantime—it'll probably help.

#mel's musings #now to go on a massive music listening spree bc that's about all my brain can manage right now w/o significant effort #also if anyone has any music recommendations. now would be a great time to share them *wink wink*

[dogtiber]

Tiber had some really nice dog interactions this morning!

we met another whippet and I let him off lead in the public park for the first time!

Tiber was going absolutely berserk about having a friendly sighthound running circles around him and play bowing. I didn’t have his harness on him this morning, only his collar, and I couldn’t get him to calm down all the way and was worried he’d choke himself. he’s been getting to a good place with his recall lately and we’ve been discussing trying him off lead in the smaller quieter park anyway, and the other whippet seemed really well trained and responsive to her owner so I figured if I let him off he’d want to stick close to play with her.

he did really well! got some nice zoomies out and was really good about coming back to me. I usually ask him to tap his nose on my hand for recall and he was a little too distracted to follow through completely with that, but he was very very good about running by me to check in and reorienting towards me when called. I think we have a little more work to do, but I’m very proud of him!

I kept it short and got him back on leash once they were done running their circles.

a little later on our walk we ran into a very old lurcher. they both wanted to greet each other very badly, and Tiber was being very polite about it, so I walked him over. she was 14! he was very gentle with her, but was also play bouncing a lot lol just giving her some extra space when he did so. she bounced around back at him a little, but I think she was too old and wobbly to really go for it. but it was very cute watching them bounce at each other. her owners were very sweet and we chatted a bit and that was very nice.

and then we had a nice passing by greeting with a little daschund on the way home. as always with daschunds he was entirely enamored with her. they had a little cute happy sniff session.

those were the big exciting ones today, but he’s been doing better about dogs on our walks in general lately too! I’m very proud of him. I am thinking tho that I want to try to find some more opportunities to give him outlets for his dog friend excitement.

the other day, he was very good about waiting for the ok to go greet a little terrier-thing while we asked his owner if they could say hi. and he was being so self-disciplined but ALSO soooo excited. he literally plonked his ass down and just sat there vibrating in place until he could go up.

it was very funny and cute to witness and he’s being so good and trying so hard. but I’m worried he’s getting amped up too much trying to hold back and worried about him going over threshold? Idk I gotta see if I can find any info on excited reactivity I guess.

here he is passed out on the couch after exciting walk^^

#journal #tiber tag #definitely glad the circumstances lined up just right to try him off lead and it went well #not sure I would have done it if it were a sighthound lol #but they predictably just went in circles around us and then came back #he’s been very good recently #although firmly in his teenage phase #he’s like. it feels like he’s trying so hard to be good but is just often overwhelmed by his impulses #we’re thinking he may be in a puppy fear period as well right now? because he’s been a little more shy and skittish in certain situations #but overall he’s been so fantastic and sweet #I’ve been walking #him more and longer as well #which I think is massively helping #thank god for my med changes lining up right at this time to make that possible lol #I got back on stimulants for my adhd and it’s not *fixing* the fatigue #but it’s definitely so much much more manageable now that I’m not spending all my energy fighting my brain so much #*werent

[heartbeetz]

I'm pacing rn but only in my mind bc I don't wanna get out of bed.

#ouhggghhhhh the anton valentines......... #cute stupid. I love cute stupid. silly and goofy and cheesy and lame. also themed around my fucking husband #roswell huge massive brain moment #WHY is it so easy to come up with valentines slogans for him!!!!!!!!!!!!! CUT THAT OUT RIGHT NOW #roz posts #♡: 🔨🎰🥃

[satans-knitwear]

Heyyyy (with the intention of giving you a show)

Treat me ~ Tip me ~ More of me

#My body hates me but i look cute today and i always forget how much i enjoy this wig!! And this set! #Satans knitwear #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #Pretty lingerie #Lingerie reveal #Floral lingerie #bi girl #cheeky #uk girl #wlw #Any tips or treats would be massively appreciated right now 💕 #I feel so useless even when i dont stop doing helpful things all day. My brain annoys me

[sheirukitriesfandom]

@skyrim-forever and @friend-of-giants tagged me to share 8 shows to get to know me better. I'm not a show-watching person at all but at least I managed to come up with some.

In no particular order:

1. Game of Thrones (Fuck season 8. All my homies hate season 8)

2. City of Vice

3. El Ministerio Del Tiempo (Aka that show Timeless ripped off)

4. Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood (A nostalgic fave)

5. Rick and Morty (The show is better than its reputation)

6. Spongebob (Childhood fave. Also, German dub > original)

Tagging: @elavoria @miraakulous-cloud-district @nostalgic-breton-girl @littlegalerion and anyone else who wants to participate. I've seen a bunch of you do this already.

#I have a massive list of shows I've been recommended but never get to #mainly bc whenever I sit down to watch a movie or a show my brain is like #you could be doing something more productive right now

[weenhands]

ummmm...venting *sigh*

#okay so uhhhh #i was doing dishes #and yesterday i kinda told myself i wanna give up trying to be happier again #or at all #because its making my brain go absolutely fucking insane trying to understand why. Im like this at least for ghe past 6 years #i kinda realized today first off im not sad. im not. rlly depressed or anything but ofc sometimes but in General No i am not sad. #i am just. here. and not in an empty way (but ofc i have my episodes sometimes) #i am vibing. #so like im fine right. but i ask myself after i go thru a massive mental cycle of questioning whats going on in my life #“my life is so. empty why is it so empty im bored its quiet nothing is happening”.... #and yeah nothing is happening and. its not sometbing wrong im doing. im not focusing too much on this. im not living life wrong. #its not a routine or a way of life i need to adapt #i think i just had a sudden realization that my life is just so quiet #these past few years have been so quiet and its cuz of me going thru this transitional period and also going from hs to uni #highschool in general i had so many friends and lots of classes. i had robin 2 minutes away. now shes 1 hour away #uni i dont talk to anyone. i hsve like one class per day. workload is harder and i have no friends and worse social anxiety #im also coming back from thr pandemic #so not only is it because of massive changes in everyday life that cause my life to be more. silent #but its also that alot of the stuff i was going thru snd fixating on since grade 11 #stripped me of my hobbies and everyday pleasures #my favorite youtubers and writing poetry everyday. fuck i used to draw so often #the movies and tv shows id watch. everything all of that is gone because i was. Tending to this one extremely sad and heartbreaking goal #which i dnt wanna discuss #butnim glad its over now. #so now im left in this new period of my lifr where im an adult and life is more empty and less.....On the run. and i lost everything #outside of me that made me happy #so maybe i do go thru depressive episodes and stuff but in a general sense. these r why my life is rhe way that it is i thought i was doing #something wrong for so long but im not #i used to wake up at 6am everyday. now i wake up later most days... #i think i just need to ask myself. do i lean into this silence or change it. Whatever.

[ephemeralzenith]

im ngl when i say im in love with a character it is mostly a joke but i may actually be in love with altan trengsin and just never realised

#oops? #i am not sure though #this is not a safe thing to post with these altan haters around fr #but my brain is so full of worms right now #is it appreciation or is it my cute little falling in love moment #he is a massive red flag yes #but good thing red is... a colour! that i like! #just like his eyes #i wonder how many tags i'm allowed to put where i just talk about altan #i'm actually so bad at distinguishing my own feelings #this is a joke or is it #i'm not even sure #existential crisis barbie #sorry to all the 1000 people who are going to block me bc of this post #this is so embarrassing #but have any of you SEEEEEEN him? #any man that says 'what a rebel' should not go unloved #i hope rfkuang never finds my tumblr sorry for desecrating your characters #altan trengsin #oh god. #remember when i used to be a semiserious blog but ive just fallen in love #literally so dumb omfg