#my brain is very tired

[digidrakncreature]

yo I have no idea if I posted this already so here:

very basic tired attempt at my identity formation timeline.

past life of "digimorph", almost-life of "Leafwing", baby drakn in a human-shaped body very confused about what kind of creature I was + relating strongly to gobliny/gremliny changelings + lingering digimorph remnants = drakncreature,

then the dealtarune-esc hearthome turned into a kintype of that kind of monster

#does any of this make sense #my brain is very tired #gtxt #I swear I posted this already?? #an explanation no one asked for #I don't like using Letter to Letter format but there's different kinds of transspecies #and I'm trying to specify that my wishtype is itself transspecies in that universe

[noodle-artist]

Hi my name is Hobie Brown 🎸

I’m not a role model ❌

I was briefly a runway model ✨

I hate the AM! 🌅

I hate the PM!!! 🐖

I hate Labels!!!!!! 🏷️

#hobie brown #atsv hobie #spider man #spider man: across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #spider punk #spiderverse #spiderman #Hobie brown you rock #had so much fun #drawing this #atsv #has fueled my art brain #I am very tired

[changelingsandothernonsense]

And it's done, finished and ready for me to format and hand in tomorrow.

After that I do absolutely fuck all for however long my mind can stay idle.

Coz that artefact interpretation is done!

#now i can forget all words to do with Ivory #my brain is very tired #and i fully expect a migraine in the next 48 hours #but at least we done

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#selfie bee #hello friends!! how are you doing!! ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ #I'm very very tired today #I woke up very early today because I took a driving lesson! #I have had my licence for many many years now but I haven't driven in so long #and when I tried I just turned on the windshield wipers again and again #so I'm taking some refreshment lessons! I was really afraid of driving again but my new driving teacher is very nice (❁´‿`❁) #my last one scared me a little because he talked a lot about bathroom renovation #I just drove for an hour or so but I was so concentrated that I'm very tired now #I have another lesson tomorrow because I deleted every information in my brain about how to park a car #all those synapses are currently used to remember Godzilla facts #another big news!! #I saw a PHEASANT last week #we almost hit it with the car but luckly it remembered in time that it was a bird and flew away #I've NEVER seen a pheasant before!! ( ´ ▽ ` ) #I knew that pheasants were real because my favourite cartoon as a child was animals of farthing wood #and there's pheasants in it and then they get murdered and all the other animals are like 'oh well' #but I had never seen one! #I feel like a stronger person now #one that can drive a car #maybe even park one ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ #have a wonderful evening friends #<3

[boneinator]

Ik there are usamericans following me I have a question for yall , what the fuck do y'all even eat . Like . The typical huge greasy American breakfast has to be an exaggeration but I really can't think of meals that don't contain stuff exclusive to my country and do you guys even have that honestly

#no dulce de leche ... no pepas .... no milanesas ...... #what a sad life #/j ofc im being hyperbolic but fr what #I mean this as in like . what you usually have in your main meals not something specific #also let's not even talk about the hours y'all manage im going to get sick . dinner at 6 pm ??? ong no honor to the merienda ... #rambles #completely random post but im just really tired my brain doesn't work very well

[hailsatanacab]

"Well, this is a bad idea," Tim says, hands on his hips as he surveys the mess they’ve made in the cave.

"Nah," Danny replies, twirling his screwdriver in the air in what is probably meant to be an impressive trick to inspire confidence, except he fumbles it and it clangs to the floor loudly, "we good. If a younger version of myself hasn't come forward in time to stop me, how bad can it be?"

"Shouldn't it be the other way round?"

"What?"

"Normally, it's an older version of yourself going backwards in time to stop you, right?"

"Not in my experience."

Danny's grin is impossibly feral and a shiver runs up Tim's spine.

"This is definitely a bad idea."

#dpxdc #dcxdp #batpham #dead tired #dead tired ship #there is a more expanded upon version of this with actual backstory and context rotting in the recesses of my brain #but its only half on paper and the conversation made me laugh so #here: have some feral danny leading tim down a path to disaster #danny: this is going to go so well! i have such a good feeling about this!! #tim: this is going to go so poorly. i have such a bad feeling about this. #danny: 🥺🙏🙏🙏 #tim: i never said we weren’t doing it. i just reserve the right to tell you i told you so when it inevitably goes wrong #danny: leave that to younger me - he always makes very valid points in the form of fists to the face! #tim: can you stop talking please this is making me want to do it less #danny: no.

[iced-souls]

Uhm, possible spoilers i think for Marble Sky [made by @somerandomdudelmao in which you should go and check out if you haven’t read rn cause they be very cool very cool and very cool]

but—OMG I LOVE THIS BIRB AUUUHGHGHHGUGHUHURHUEHGI—

IN WHICH THEY ARE PERFECTLY FINE AND WE SEE SO SO MUCH OF THEM NYYYGUUH—

Guys guys guys — please trust meee she is A-OK and she is gonna be a teacher to Oscar as they make a pacifist alien befriending club

I am not in denial i have no clue what you’re talking about—

I ain’t got a clue what these so called ‘jars’ even look like yet but i sketched a thing out immediately and then at that point my intrigueness started to fade, and then the ref came out and for some reason that boosted my interest even further. But i know what a bird’s brain looks like now so thats something.

I just think she seems very cool

I may have also did some other doodles a week or 2 ago that i didn’t post cause the social of anxiety was kickin in high those days but I’ll put them under the cut if thou wishes to see

That is all ok buh byyeeee go see marble skiessssss

#I saw this woman for less than a second and now i am dreading everything in my life #OUUGHHH she was only there for like 1 single scene AUUUGH #I SHAKE YOU GIVE HER BACK GIVE HER BAC- #ok imma head out now because in case you couldn’t tell my brain needs sleep due to the fact it is past midnight rn #haha little do you know the reason i posted this at midnight was because I STILL got that anxiety in me— #AH HA HA haaaaa.. #… #anywho #enjoy #have a very good day #am tired #oufff #have a good day #my drawings #marble sky #weeeeeeee ok bye

[midnight-moth]

He does it cause he knows. He knows how cute.

#why does it have to be slightly askew #it makes it sillier and cuter #he knows what he’s doing #like a cat very calculated usage of cuteness #rain ghoul #I wish I could edit this into something silly but I am so tired and my fever is back #I think my brain is soup

[friendlyengie]

I think you can tell when someone’s favorite is scout but they don’t really understand him as a character very well when they draw him like an 18 year old boy. And not even a gangly 18 year old boy but like. A smooth faced little valedictorian boy. Like I know he’s the youngest merc but please for the love of god spare him one (1) singular wrinkle on his face. You’re ironing him out and he can’t survive in those conditions

#“Understand him as a character” sounds very pretentious of me but I’m too tired to overexplain what I mean by that #Help girl I can’t sleep there’s a brick wall in my brain so now I’m thinking about characterization #Tf2 scout #tf2 #The clown speaks

[copypastus]

Sign me up for the tithe in the Spring Court I hear rent prices in Velaris went up again.

#my art #acotar #acotar fanart #lucien vanserra #pro tamlin #tamlin #very serious tithe discourse #it's not that bad acctually #i'm so tired of seeing serious arguments about it #you - bean brained: tamlin and lucien as robin hood villains laughing and extorting his poor citizens from all their gold #me - galaxy brained: tamlin using all the consumables his citizens give him to feed all the fae he allows FREELY INTO HIS HOUSE #at least tamlin won't condemn my wholeass apartment complex coz he had a fight with his sister in law #anti sjm #trying to make tamlin look bad still accidentally looks good if you PAY ATTENTION FEYRE

[cranberrytea451]

Is this you?

#sans #undertale #undertale sans #sans undertale #I’m sorry I drew this #this is also me #sans simp #i’m very tired #but he fuels my brain

[sesamenom]

saw this shirt thing and just had to put it on finrod

(aka maedhros and feanor are Not Cooperating so i am doodling around with some less difficult characters lol)

#silm #silmarillion #finrod #idk if the extended skirt part looks cohesive but i am very tired #also melestasflight sorry for how long its taking but your art is still toodling around in my wips! #feanor is refusing to stay still :( #i think i have like four feanor pieces in wips? drawing him is always fun but wrangling him is somehowworse than forty middle schoolers urg #every time i find a good pose for him in my brain he gets up and moves! i cannot visualize the scene because he keeps rearranging it #so yeah still going along but much more slowly than i would have liked

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i am asleep much in the way that Wally is asleep. that is to say, I Am Not Sleeping

#gave it my best shot for a minute there #really made an effort. its Not Working #see this is what happens when your sleep schedule is Fucked and you usually go to bed when the sun comes up #on a normal night id be jammin to tunes. scribbling with reckless abandon #tonight however i am at Someone Elses place so i need to be Quiet #i need to Sleep i am Driving tomorrow #brain wont cooperate tho. brains a bitch. id like to be unconchus #OH SHIT OH!!! I DO HAVE A JOKE I CAN MAKE BARNABY USE!!! #I HAVE A COUPLE OF OCEAN BASED ONES! FUCK! #sorry train of thought took a detour #im tired. today was mostly very good. had lots of Fun <3 #experienced something new! several somethings!! #and now im lamenting my wide-awakeness in a dark room #my hunting gathering badass self is Bored as Hell #and so: wally scribble of him sharing my woes #scribble salad #not gonna tag it as anything else

[afterthelambs]

WHITE RASHOMON TIME

The first time we ever see Akutagawa use rashomon on any other item of clothing except his black coat (in the main manga series), it's this scene.

He uses his shirt, which even Atsushi is surprised by because even if he knows it can happen, this is the first time he (and we the audience) has seen this happen.

And it's so important that rashomon is white in this situation. We all know the symbolism behind red = 'bad' and blue = 'good' (with nuance, since the port mafia has done good before), but black and white is also a significant color scheme. Atsushi's predominant colors are white because he is on the 'good' side, but he has black in his color scheme too because he has that dark past. Meanwhile Akutagawa is predominantly black, but he has some white in his color scheme. He's not pure evil.

The Beast universe leans into this color symbolism heavily, since Akutagawa's color scheme there isn't white but grey. Beast!Aku wasn't as 'good' as main universe Atsushi since he still has that darker mindset that he has to grow out of.

WHICH BRINGS US BACK TO WHITE RASHOMON

The first time we see Akutagawa use Rashomon on any other clothing besides the black coat--the coat that Dazai gave to him as a welcome symbol into the Port Mafia-- he uses his white shirt. And the first time he uses a white rashomon, he didn't use it to attack. It was entirely to sacrifice himself and save Atsushi.

Akutagawa has saved Atsushi many times before obviously. Dragging him off the Moby Dick, working together during the cannibalism arc, etc. But in all those scenarios, he was never putting himself on the line to do it. He either had nothing to lose by saving Atsushi, or mutually benefited from it.

But this time? He knew he was going to die, he knew what it meant, he never intended to be the survivor. And he did it anyway. Some people have theorized that this was still for personal reasons (that he believed this is how he proves his worth to Dazai) but it doesn't change the fact that this was an act purely of saving. It is so fitting that Rashomon was white at that moment.

#if im wrong and aku actually used rashomon as another colored clothing in the main series then someone pls correct me #but from what my tired brain remembers i dont think he has??? #i love bsd's color symbolism. it's blatant but also very rich and meaningful #idk if anyone has pointed this out before but this was my take on it when i reread it #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd akutagawa #akutagawa ryuunosuke #sskk #shin soukoku #bsd spoilers #bsd analysis #my post #bsd atsushi #atsushi nakajima

[kheprriverse]

Don't be shy, Ko'jin. Tell him what it means.

#loz au #fierce deity #link #Ko'jin (Kheprriverse) #Ballad (Kheprriverse) #kheprriverse #kheprriart #Just a silly thing Ive had in my brain for a couple months #two words that sound very similar but mean completely different things. one happens to be a nickname Kojin calls Ballad sometimes #hes flustered Ballad leave him alone #(wanted to practice drawing food. took the opportunity to draw tha bois) #its props getting sooo tiring seeing these two being silly in the FD tag im so sorry bjkdajkcdav #ignore my laziness in terms of poses and coloring. im very tired