#my dating life is a mess

[destinywillowleaf]

one of a kind living in a world gone plastic

baby you're so classic

@most-tragic-character-tournament

(all my thoughts in the tags)

#anyway i found their theme song and lost my mind #tragedyshipping #lloyd garmadon #ninjago #antigone #tagamemnon #pollshipping #i'm gonna be thinking about this for the next hour before i go to sleep #i just wanted to make a playlist for them i didn't think i would find a perfect fit #they have taken over many of my braincells and i can't even complain this is the enrichment i needed #all i'm saying is the idea of a movie trailer for these two is taking shape more and more and this should 100% be the accompanying song #not even a full trailer because that would take forever but like. a 30 second TV spot. family drama. them not really getting along at first #(e.g. glaring at each other while being forced to dance or something) #but then warming up to each other on the road because road trips have my soul when it comes to movies ok #i want them to stargaze in the bed of a hotwired pickup truck while on the run from people who demand bloodshed (a poll winner) #the slow(?) burn of not wanting to be in this mess to actually enjoying spending time together to something more #(trailer/commercial ends on or just after “baby you're so classic” with the cut to the title and in theaters date) #maybe most of the tv spot is them arguing and making life hell for one another but it's hard to deny there's something more brewing #(one of the reviews is just ''A modern classic'' because i think i'm funny) #i really want the title to be a play off of them meeting through the tragic tournament but it's completely different from the tone i want #''tragedy: null and void'' is a fun one #i've never been the greatest at titles if they don't hit me like a truck #anyway hi folks i'm sorry if you have no idea what's happening and see this in your tags

[moeblob]

I met people I knew only online for the first time irl last night and I'm still extremely exhausted cause I am not a social person so here. Take an OC.

Katale (Kitty) is wonderful and I love her and she's a criminal and that's fine. She likes to look cute and so whenever I see a really cute outfit in public with a specific vibe, I'm like "Kitty would love that". So here. Please. Please know that I saw this very pretty woman jogging with her hair pulled back, running shorts, and the CUTEST top with a little scarf from the same fabric tied and wow. It was. So wonderful, please have a wonderful day @ the lady I saw jogging yesterday.

#my characters #kitty is so funny to me cause she is absolutely used to a life of crime #shes second in command in a huge group because she actually forfeited the top command spot to her future boyfriend #and now they are exes and besties and she just really likes their criminal crew #and then she adopts a lil agent guy bc hes like a puppy and she is like listen that is my son now you cant hurt him #ANY OF YOU TRY TO HURT MY SON I HURT YOU including you rud my beloved ex current boss #and hes just like okay #and then they become a very weird messed up family of two crime bosses and a good boy #but anyway kitty is the glue that holds everything together and she commits crimes on the side of being nice #like oh sorry im late to get here i had to kill a man #but its also her getting phone calls from rud telling her sorry babe cant show up im a bit gross #and shes like oh yeah dude i get it sometimes blood just doesnt wanna hide :c ttyl smooches ily #anyway she deserves to have cute outfits and no one is gonna tell her otherwise #ALSO for those who dont know and might care shes a weeb she watches so much anime #she just ..... really likes anime and makes rud watch some shows with her during and after dating #he just goes along with it no complaints and he doesnt understand all the appeal #but it makes kitty happy so hes happy

[todokidokifordeku]

So you telling me we're gonna get this next week

And then this, same episode

And we are still gonna get this at some point in the future?

While knowing SandRay is potentially end game???

Sand. Honey. Favourite child of mine. Do you really want to settle down for this?😔

#He knows about your feelings but still strings you around #Borderline stalks you when he wants your company and then goes on cute dates with his love-of-my-life #Messes up your chance to hook up with another; claim ownership over you; noncon kisses you; while also having kissed another not 2 sec ago #Let's not even talk about the “you're a hoe who only wants money” situation #Sand baby; how about NO? #for your self esteem and for my sanity #raysand #sandray #only friends the series #ofts

[technicalthinker]

before the full ep is out i just need to say that on a more personal note that sneak peek clip of buck on the date with tommy hits a bit too close to home as an adult bi who lately has been very nervous, on edge and self-critical about having my first real explicit gay flirt with someone within reach. the way he was all like 'im chill about this' in the least chill way possible. the defensive 'i'm not lying to anyone' while nobody said he was. do you get me.

#911 spoilers #911 abc #911 blogging #evan buckley #idk what to tag bc it's more personal but idk maybe someone else had a similiar experience?? #i was like oh fun messy bi who discovers himself late in life oh thats cool #but after that clip it actually hits pretty close in a way im like #almost a bit messed up abt ngl #it's the 'I HAVE NO REASON TO FEEL FREAKED OUT' but actually there's a lot of complex feelings to unpack and just #like SURE there's connections to a lot of my romantic interactions but #the way ive been paralyzed and in my head interacting with girls is different. #if someone i knew showed up on a date i was already nervous to be on i would die right there maybe.

[absoloutenonsense]

Coming soon…

'cause I want you (for the worse and for the better) by nonsensedarling

When Louis gets invited along to Anne's wedding, Harry is prepared to let people think whatever they want about their relationship. That's what Louis said -- let people think whatever they want. That all changes when Louis sees his ex, who turns out to be Anne's future husband's son. Now, Louis wants to prove that he's an omega that an alpha could want, and Harry wants to get through this weekend without letting his best friend figure out he's in love with him.

Written for the @1daboficfest -- posted here! Moodboard by @dearlou

Read a snippet below the cut!

They walk into the restaurant at 7:02pm, and are promptly guided down a set of stairs into the lower-level party room. 

From the doorway, Harry can see his mom and future stepdad, talking to a couple of younger guys – a dark-haired alpha and a blonde omega from the looks of it. They all laugh and his mom goes in to give one of them a hug while John clasps the other on the shoulder. That must be John’s son and the boyfriend Harry’s heard them talk about. 

Harry takes a deep breath, smoothes out his shirt, and reaches for Louis’ hand, ready to walk in and muscle his way through this weekend.

But Louis doesn’t take his hand. Instead, he grabs onto Harry’s wrist and yanks him in the opposite direction. 

“What?” Harry asks, stumbling a bit as he’s pulled. 

Louis doesn’t say anything, just gets to the restroom area and shoves Harry inside one of the single-room bathroom. 

“Ouch,” Harry says, shaking out his wrist. He watches Louis lock the door and whip around with wild eyes and frown lines etched into his face. “Louis, what the fuck? We’re already lat–”

“Will is here,” he says. 

Harry furrows his brows, unsure what that is supposed to mean. “Will…?”

“Will,” Louis says frustratedly. He looks to the door as he adds, “Will. My ex-boyfriend, Will. Will, who broke up with me after three months because he thought I was too loud and too clingy and too much.” He turns back around to Harry to emphasize, “Will!” 

Harry gasps. Ex-boyfriend Will, who refused to meet Harry because he didn’t like that Louis had an alpha best friend. “Dickhead Will?” 

“Dickhead Will,” Louis agrees. “Fuck. Fuck.” He reaches up and grabs fistfuls of his hair. 

What are the odds that Louis’ ex-boyfriend from Oakland is here in Sacramento now, working at the one restaurant where his mom’s rehearsal dinner is?

“Hey, it’s okay.” Harry steps close, and tries to pull Louis’ hands down from his hair, but they don’t budge. “We can ignore him, yeah? It’s just toni–”

“He was hugging your mom,” Louis interrupts. 

Harry is confused. He shakes his head immediately, ready to say that no, that was his future stepdad’s son – when it clicks.

“William,” Harry says.

“Yes,” Louis says, annoyed, finally pulling his hands down from his hair. “Will is often short for William. Very good, Harold.”

“No. John’s son is named William,” he explains. “He’s John’s best man. They’ve been talking about William and Dimitri – his boyfriend.”

Louis pales. “Jesus Christ.”

“Okay, it’s okay,” Harry says, looking around the room like the sink or toilet will tell him how to handle this. “We’ll just… avoid them.”

The look Louis gives him is unimpressed to say the least. “Avoid them?” he asks, voice filled with mirth. “You –also in the wedding and the co-person of honor with your sister– want to try and avoid another person in the wedding party?”

Harry inhales, his shoulders slowly rising up to his ears as he closes his eyes. “I don’t know, Louis, I’m trying to think of what will make this easier on you. I’m not sure how affectionate they are, but I don’t want you having to see it the whole weekend.”

Harry opens his eyes when he feels hand digging into his shoulders. Louis gives him a little shake, eyes still wild but frown lines mostly unetched. 

“That’s it!” he exclaims.

“What’s it?”

“Affection!”

Humming uncertainly, Harry says, “Affection?”

Louis shakes him again. “Yes.” He looks over Harry’s shoulder as he continues. “That bastard called me clingy, and basically told me an alpha wouldn’t be able to put up with it.” He locks eyes with Harry again. “I can show him I did find an alpha who not only puts up with it, but loves it.”

#i have been meaning to put a coming soon thing up for weeks now #but my brain is having A Time doing anything #but I wanna show off the beautiful moodboard Jo made! #like 97% of the things i write this turned out longer than I anticipated -- sitting pretty at 26k #i'm still not sold on my summary but we're working with what we've got #omegaverse fake dating #i also started a new job on top of my current one and am planning to flip my life a bit upside down so things are a mess -- but looking up!

[vulturevanity]

I feel like SV girlies haven't seriously considered "codependent mutually obsessive JuliNemo" yet and that's a shame, really. I've seen a lot of wholesome ChampionRank (really cute but a rehash of every wholesome yuri I've ever seen, not much original content here and that's okay) and one-sided obsessive yandere!Nemona ChampionRank (REALLY do not like the villainization of Nemona's neurodivergence but eh, you can do whatever you want forever) but not as much "these two get on like a house on fire. and boy, it's dry season" ChampionRank.

Where is "battle-hungry socially starved trainwrecks who have no one but each other" JuliNemo. Where is "oh god these two exacerbate each others issues into the stratosphere and this can only end in disaster but I can't look away" JuliNemo. Where is "bringing out the worst in each other and scaring the hoes" JuliNemo. Where is "you two are perfect for each other. Never change, just never involve anyone else in any of this" JuliNemo. There's so much potential here. Toxic codependent yuri save me

#pokémon #pokemon sv #championrankshipping #julinemo #babbles #my juliana is such a mess #she does not make friends easily and can't keep relationships for long at all #whenever someone enters her life she aants to make the best impression so she lovebombs them incessantly #and that either comes across as too much too fast or causes people to get too attached. #but she's young. she is very young. and the people who bothered to match her energy had ulterior motives #so now she's too afraid of getting too close to someone #she'll act the part but never show her true self #and at the slightest hint of genuine connection she'll RUN. #this of course clashes horribly with Nemona's own overbearing personality and loneliness #you know how she wants you to be her ideal rival. and you end up becoming exactly that. #yeah to my Juliana this was kind of a nightmare because. as much as this toed her boundaries #she isn't so inept as to not recognize a bit of herself in Nemona. so she decided to ride this out and appease her #and UH OH! she got attached. fear and need for control and validation from feeling wanted mixed in her head #and she started matching Nemona's energy and the two jumped into dating too fast and oops. they're codependent now #they literally can't handle being away from each other for more than two days or they start going feral #i wish i had the energy to write this one because i'm fascinated by this horrible dynamic. i want to study them in a rat maze #edit: i feel like i should clarify that this interpretation relies on Florian existing and being the one to help Penny and Arven #Florian isn't without his issues. he's a huge people pleaser too. but he's more of a doormat who can't say no

[the-kipsabian]

you know what i was gonna vent post but fuck it positivity moment instead cause whatever is inside of me thats making me sad it can be overruled by the people that still unconditionally love me and i know that and it means everything to me

#i have been awake for an extended amount of hours at this point so excuse me if my brain wanders a little bit #just. yeah. as sad as some things make me i can take so much more comfort in knowing there is someone out there who loves me #and i love them. and we are trying to get through this life together. and thats all that matters #i cant pinpoint an exact date but im pretty sure we are right about there right now for our one year friend anniversary #bugs i love you so much 💜💜 i know you'll see this eventually lmao 💜💜 #thats all. just needed a sappy moment instead of venting into the void. back to power wash hell i go lmao #night is an absolute mess on main

[ectoplasmer]

I did not think reading about jade wanting a family would hurt me this bad but god. it hurts. it hurts sosososo much

#dude :( dudeeeee #picture perfect wizardry #upd8 #i sobbed unironically at the panels with her and baby yiffy #and just. reading jade’s thoughts on how the actual situation went down #how she felt so trapped within earth c and how dating was so hard #how no body there even sees her as a person but only as her title #how she wanted so badly to live and be free and not stuck where she was. how yiffy was what made her world better #THE PANELS OF HER HOLDING YIFFY. i cried. i sobbed #my wifeee :(((( she deserves to feel loved and to have something that makes her feel like she actually has a future #it’s kinda messed up the way she and rose went about it yes definitely #but. god. i feel for her #she’s lived nearly her whole life all alone or feeling out of place. she shouldn’t have to feel like that for forever #she was treated so bad in the epilogues man i am so happy to see her decisions get actual development and attention #she loves her daughter so much and you can just tell and. wagh. head in hands #anyway. yiffy !!!!!! so happy to see her #a little sad how small of time we got with her but obviously we’ll probably get more in the future #also meenah next update ?? maybe hopefully possibly……. #i’m being normal about this series. lying. big lie #delete later

[glitterghost]

Feeling the ace-solation tonight.

#asexual #aromantic even #it just feels like the whole world looks at marriage and kids as endgame and holy fuck no #people only ever focus on who is dating who and when are you having kids and when are you getting married #like what the fuck #im over here thinking about how much time i can mash together seeing friends #and what books i want to read and bring me joy #and always thinking about these fictional worlds that have brought me so much more happiness than this one #like you belong somewhere else #like what do you do when you know nothing is wrong with you but sure as hell know others would think there is if they KNEW you #in all your ace or aro or whatever else glory #i just want quiet and peace without this looming feeling of people looking at you like youre supposed to be doing more #like you're in some fucked up timeline of having to achieve these life goals that sure as fuck arent yours #like please leave me tf alone #make the norm be however you get your happiness is the goal #the feels are real tonight #an untethered feeling of floating away or something #dont mind me im going back to my asmr videos #these tags are a mess rn

[pocket-poly]

I haven't laughed that hard that long in a while. The banter, the deep conversations, the giggles, the power exchanges, the inside jokes, so many laughs and kisses... snuggles and play.

I've never felt a secure attachment with anyone outside bestie (wifey) and her hubby. But he shows up, he makes me feel loved, appreciated, and beautiful in ways i didnt even know existed.

It sounds so cheesey. I'm fully aware. But to be loved in such a way that I love myself more because of him.

My anxiety meds got messed up a few weeks ago it messed up my sleep, too, but i didn't know for like a week that i missed it in my med boxes. i was feeling stupidly insecure at the difference between "love you" and "i love you" text. I journaled, i worked on it internally and in less then 24 i discovered the med mess-up.

It's been over week and was brought up in therapy. I also decided to tell BF about it as an example of my insecurities and stuggles that he hasnt fully seen unfold like that. He was more concerned that I didn't tell him and stuggled alone but respected the way i chose to process feelings and is glad i told him.

Since that conversation, every "love you" text has had an I in front of it. 🥰

#polyamory #polyamorous #polyamourous #dating #boyfriend #polyam #poly life #married dating #mental health #healing #healthy after trauma #communication #messed up my meds #redgrasshopper #belly laugh #laughter

[prankprincess123]

I know I'm very physically attractive, talented, and smart. So it leaves me to wonder if it's my highly chaotic personality scaring guys off, or the fact that I have so many weapons on my person at all times that I can't open my purse without knives falling out...

#am i a mess? yes. #adhd disaster #weapons #my love life #or lack thereof #i went on a date last night #my purse fell over and 15 knives and a collapsible bowstaff fell out #i also had another pocket knife and set of three throwing knives in my pockets #this was not a guy i felt threatened by or a location i felt unsafe in #this is just the contents of my purse

[bakuliwrites]

Gracious, it has been a week... A very weird week... Looking forward to having some time to sit down and write. And also to actually get a chance to look at Tumblr/AO3! I have so much catching up to do! Hope you are all having a lovely week so far and I hope your weekend treats you well 💜

#dani gets personal #this week has been a hot mess #mostly at work #but also in my personal life #dating is really difficult #looking forward to catching up on some reading this weekend #and writing hopefully! #maybe I will provide a story of what happened this week #we shall see

[avatarofcuriousity]

The only things I know about the new characters as a player who hasn't met them in-game yet:

Mephistopheles

He's Diavolo's ex or something

He's a bitch

His color palette is stolen from Barney The Dinosaur

Raphael

He's a bitch

Simps for Solomon

Spears solve everything (They don't)

Thirteen

Woman

She's a bitch

Hates Solomon (Understandable)

#That is all thank you #Thirteen's on thin ice but her hatred for Solomon is based 🙏 #This post is a mess and has zero reason for existing #But I've never wanted to obliterate a grape looking twink ass mf more in my LIFE. #LIKE SIR WHO ARE YOU AND WHY ARE YOU? #Every time I see a screenshot of him talking I just wanna go 🤏 shuuut the fuck up #Like where are the askers #Askers PLEASE show up because genuinely where are they? #Who asked this man? #To speak #To breathe #To Exist #I will not apologize for this is turning into just an Anti-Mep post #I said what I said. #Obey Me #Obey Me Shall We Date #OMSWD #Obey Me Mephistopheles #Anti-Mep League #Obey Me Raphael #Obey Me Thirteen

[jackleopard]

Feeling very the universe is shifting and it’s all for me

#is it just because I’ve had a productive week and I’ve taken some future life decisions and it seems like it will work out? #will i go back to feeling like a mess when the birthday/aging anxiety kicks in and when I have a date for my thesis defense? probably! #but im feeling very good rn and I will enjoy it

[kkooongie]

so you're telling me people date and THEN fall in love and not the other way around???

#wtf?? #this is so messed up #sarah talks. #ALL MY LIFE I THOUGHT THEY FALL IN LOVE AND THEN DATE LIKE IN FANFICS BOOHOO

[notjanine]

i am in suuuuuch a weird headspace rn, my brain is like. i want half a boyfriend i want a husband i want an easy carefree hookup i want to have sex with only one more person in my entire life i want to have a slut era i want someone to fall in love with me i want to ruin a man's life. who am i

#like okay i said that guy was messy and maybe i am messy too #but only internally! i can at least be consistent and honest in my communication and behavior #but idek what is going on with me #is this a belated quarter life crisis is this being thirty is this what happens when grad school and an internship scramble your brain #scramble your brain so hard that your emotions and physical desires also go haywire #this month is gonna be so weird for me and like i'm depressed enough to not care if i live or die which is when i do my best flirting #and i (theoretically) will have enough time off to take care of myself and get good sleep and do skincare and hair care and work out #and do all the little things to make myself feel more confident #anyway all i know is. i have baby steps initiated progress on some things. #but also the mutually agreed upon six-month post-breakup communication moratorium with my ex is almost up and i am half tempted to call him #i am also half tempted to mess with the OTHER guy in our internship cohort even though that would be THEE messy bitch move #(do not let me do it physically stop me from doing it if it seems like i'm going to) #(but y'know he's. nice. nearby. single. quietly hilarious and has full lips and a similar schedule to my own. pls stop me) #(we might hang out next week. i will not WILL NOT invite him over. i repeat do NOT let me invite him over) #earlier this week i talked to a close very cool and fun and social friend about wanting to start dating again and she was like #Oh i know like ten guys for you lemme have another party and invite all of them and you #and i'm thisclose to being like. actually just fucken see if any of them will go on a blind date with me next weekend. #what the FUCK is wrong with me rn #ANYWAY lemme go work out and finally start the vampire show #bc exercise will distract my body and that toxic relationship bullshit will put a damper on these desires right. right?? #starting to understand why so many religions are like watch out for sins of the flesh or whatever. like how they're like temptation is bad. #lizzo_boys.mp3