transcribing my diary from a year ago onto a google doc like some sort of historian specializing in theater major relationship drama
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My current lack of offline friends is definitely my own fault for failing to put the effort in but in my defense, (a) I am so so tired and social stuff costs energy, social stuff with people I don't already know and like costs so much energy especially and most of the energy I have for that is currently being used up pretending to be cordial with landlord and (b) actively seeking out friendships has never actually worked for me*, every good friendship I've had has just kind of happened to me so at this point it feels like it would be a waste of energy I can't spare.
*In retrospect the question of why me approaching people I don't even like that much while heavily and unsustainably masking and projecting a So Very Sociable And Normal And Enthusiastic To Meet You version of me doesn't lead to close long lasting friendships is probably not that great a mystery.
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i: a scrapbook, worn and hoarded selfishly, because i cannot let go, though i have nothing to add. the picture inside the display has changed, though your letter remains; in the pocket of my journal, with countless others from countless others.
you: a donation box, with little hesitation. you told me once that letting go was hard; though as soon as you no longer heard my voice, you no longer heard my song. and my letter, my loving, lengthy response, ashes mingling with the dirt where it belongs.
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💚 ( → @catncore )
( → love and romance headcanon prompts !! still accepting )
💚 → does your muse get jealous easy?
— absolutely not. if anything, he’s a long way in the opposite direction where he has a low tolerance for possessiveness coming from a partner, especially if they’re a romantic one. josh values his independence greatly; to begin with, two of the first things he looks for in a romantic prospect are their abilities to acknowledge and respect that independence, and to trust him.
moreover, he also values his freedom to do as he pleases whenever he pleases, and dislikes being in a relationship wherein he feels like his time and focus are being demanded of by somebody. for that same reason, he favors partners who also prefer having some time to themselves— or at least, those able to handle not having his devoted attention all the time.
at most, he can enjoy entering an acted-out, possessive headspace within the context of kink and sexual activity— from time to time, because he can grow bored of it pretty quickly, and become eager to move on to something else.
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I'm thinking about undertaking a challenge to read every book on my bookshelf.
This would probably take the better part of two years, as I have around 200 books. This challenge would include books I have already read and ones I've not touched before. It would include nonfiction books, academic works, poetry books, and novels.
I would probably start a side blog to review each book, the date I started and the date I finished it, and my general thoughts and interactions with the text.
I'm trying to figure out if this is a sustainable goal or if I should stick to my old habits of fanfic writing, haha. Wondering if anyone else has attempted this and how successful they were!
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