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#my eyes are gonna HATE me but it's fine
munamania · 3 months
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ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc
#and now we're gonna get into some quiet parts and youre just gonna let me have this#i. am so sick. first of all it was kinda funny how people ik ended up sorta surrounding her. felt good. but like we've shared a space#together since everything. i can like be in her presence it's seriously fine. that said. i do sometimes miss her#i say this after going through the really hating her guts period bc of her evil evil evil ways. and feeling like she's lame as hell bc she#s. but i mean it's me talking i have my problems too. i Hate the way we always so naturally act in sync. and i hate that we've both picked#each others' brains for hours so it's like. i knew you once and now we can't even look each other in the eye and that just really sucks#and i feel like. not that i strictly believe in these things. but we were sort of twin flames. i largely suffered for like. basically#falling in love w her. and i know i didn't leave as much of a mark. but i still hope it sucked a little for her#and i'll admit i think it'd be some sort of miracle if we could ever talk civilly. unfortunately we work in two ways#literally behaving in Ways and borderline fucking or not speaking. so. here we are#and i already humiliatingly tried to extend an olive branch this summer so im not gonna be fucking stupid. yk#but GOD how annoying. i did talk to situationship today and we were relatively normal so at least that's not deathly awkward#it's still. definitely um. stiff. but not terrible#i need to get to the club. pretend theres a cig emoji im on desktop rn#sorry for this.#film girl saga
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listles-s · 2 years
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just realized when kay/o joins the protocol all the agents probably had to learn how to rez him (since everyone can). so i made a helpful chart
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afraid im gonna dissapoint people who look forward to me being up when they're up because i'm fucking exhausted
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bumblingbabooshka · 1 year
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T’Pring Memes 
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fabulouslygaybean · 30 days
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a friend of mine kept making weird as shit comments about trans bodies during lunch and i tried to ignore it at the time because it really wasn't that bad but now im fucking angry and it's so stupid
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tarakau · 11 months
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bpd has been kicking my ass so bad these past two or three weeks but today is just
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ghost-of-someone · 1 year
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literally just saw some radfem bullshit on my dash, & then when I went to their blog to block them not only was it full of anti-trans half arguments & accusations of other people being childish, but one of the very first posts was about how a certain show would be better if one of the main characters was a young woman instead of an old man because they "don't like old people"
#there is no point to this other than i'm pissed and tired of having terf bullshit pass my dash#i feel like i'm gonna have to get that eye thing because i don't super vet the blogs i interact with casually#so as long as they're not immediately anti queer i usually don't notice#and then i've got fucking radfem shit in my 'based on your likes' feed#all because i interacted with feminism stuff that - without the anti-trans lens - seemed totally fine#& like terfs are already shitty people but i feel like the anti older person sentiment just further highlighted the fact that#terfs are just shitty hypocrytical people who play the 'poor me boo hoo you're all childish' card & act like they're so fucking superior#& that any trans folks are terrible#and then turn around and spout all kinds of bigotry#but it's okay i guess because they've got a vagina <3 (& experience the exact same kind of misogyny that tons of us do but they're special)#ALSO#I learned what 'moid' means and you guys are fucking assholes#men are not just mindless sex freaks you fucking cunts#& the fact that you think that just shows how warped your sense of the world is#you 'hate the patriarchy' but aren't interested in actually dismantling it#how could you when you don't even view half of the people involved as really human!#fuck off#terfs and radfems aren't welcome here and you can all kick rocks#i try my best for this to be a queer friendly space and i want that to be clear right fucking now#if anyone who follows me has bothered to read this please let me know if i've accidentally reblogged something from the 'drop the t' crowd#i am not the golden standard queer or whatever the fuck the term is#but i dont ever want someone to think that i'm part of that crowd
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telemarcs · 4 months
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#i've always struggled with food and lately there are so much food debates in norway and my brother's gf being an almond mom as they say#so lately i just feel bad for my habits and ik eating better would improve my energy a little but idk where to start once you're already#in this bad circle and i have been improving the past year i just hate food and trying stuff make me almost throw up#and i don't bother explaining everything#i really don't believe certain types of foods cure my illnesses i feel like more people wouldn't be sick then#and it's weird despite my shitty habits of eating the same i don't snack much i just hate dinners and never variate much i still have very#good vitamin levels??? like one i'm barely lacking so i take supplements for that because it's not just about food it's generally a thing#you might lack like hereditary i guess#i've read about arfid and it's so me#and that's also a thing i feel like moving out and learn how to cook and try stuff would help like now asking to try stuff at home like#hey can we make this it's just fills me with anxiety and my bro has been mocking me for years for my eating issues and whenever i do eat#certain things it's like wow you eat that! and all this fuss#but he struggled with the same and it improved and now he's eating SO variated so i have hope for myself too and obv it's a lot of mental#battles but also with cfs just getting whatever is available and takes less energy to make like my issue is dinners the breakfast and eveni#meal we have in norway is fine there i see myself as normal lmao#but it's really triggering to me because i didn't eat dinner at my niece and nephew's christening i ate prior because i didn't know what#kind of food there was and people begin asking why i don't eat don't you like anything it's just ugh and idk if my brother and his family#will spend christmas with us but i dread christmas dinner then like people are always saying how they love xmas food and i'm all nah let's#not go there so often it's been that i eat alone prior because i don't want questions and i don't wanna risk getting mocked even if i do#wanna try something i'm just gonna feel those eyes on me and that omg youre eating comments and how was it??? like i love my family and tha#they respect me but also i've gotten so comfortable with it and then it's hard to break out of it and obv they've tried when i was a kid bu#it's always been this huge trigger for me the whole topic and i feel bad because i have anxiety about getting cancer or something by not#getting enough nutrients and then there are people out there without food and i feel selfish for being this way but like now after getting#my disability aid i'm really trying to improve my life step by step and really see that i'm not alone in my struggles and that i wanna make#a change it's just so many things i need to sort out and this hasn't been number one priority as surviving has oof sorry for this rant i'm#considering talking to my therapist about it but idk maybe the whole moving out thing too so yeah#also my bro doesn't mock me now he really understands it as he's been through the same he was just in a bad place then#and ik those omg are you eating is that they're happy for me it's just tough and it always has been even ranting is embarrasing
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deus-ex-mona · 1 year
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my day in two pictures:
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#very very long and incoherent and whiny rant incoming sorryyyyyy#i hate this. so. sooooo. sooooooooooo much#i could tell that this day was gonna go badly bc of just how well yesterday went (my lxl fan novels and curry meshi deliveries came in)#so anyway. i woke up late bc i slept late (thanks lxl event story lmaoo) and stuff happened so i left my place later than usual#but surpriseeeee it rained the moment i stepped out of the elevator. and the bus was coming in 3 minutes!!!!#so i ran across the carpark in the rain to take a shortcut. that was fine. whatever. but then i saw the bus turn in and—#for some reason my legs just. stopped moving. i couldn’t run anymore :( battery? depleted. bus? left right in front of my very eyes :(#and the next bus was set to come in 10 minutes ಥ‿ಥ so that was freakin’ fantastic.#anyways the bus came and took me to the interchange where the dumb train station was. and when i got to the platform… the train just left.#and the next train was set to come in 5 minutes. which was great news for me who had an hour to get to work#so the train came. the hour-long journey went. and when i reached the bus stop to transfer to the bus to get to work… the bus had just left#so with some time (read: 10 minutes) to spare i decided to get some bread for dinner…#unfortunately the bakery place thing i went to did not accept card payments ಥ‿ಥ so i decided to rely on qr code payments instead#big. mistake. (ʘ‿ʘ) my payment was rejected 4 times before i gave up and decided to use cash#unfortunatelyyyyyyy i had no $10 notes left for a quick and easy payment (i only had 2 $2 notes and a $50 note along with some coins) so i.#cue a panicked small change counting as i desperately tried to count as quickly as possible while the customer after me pressured me :(#and did i mention that a lady cut my queue while i was waiting to pay???? (ʘ‿ʘ) pain and suffering#thankfully i barely managed to catch the bus after that tizzy but i was already late for work by then :(#anyways i arrived at work late and decided to check my email app for the lolz. biiiiiig mistake!!!!!!!#i noticed that i had a new email from my father (derogatory) whom i had ghosted years ago. like??? why did he have to email today???#my day was bad enough without him pls gimme a break. i just. suffering???????????#so i get to my workstation (the worst workstation ever istg) and note that there actually aren’t many samples today! yay!#…then they freakin’ brought in like 200+ more samples and i realised that the morning shift had yet to finish weighing the morning samples—#pain. and. suffering. (ʘ‿ʘ) looks like i’ll have to work till 3am again.#ughhhhh why did today’s happenings have to happen this week??????? this isn’t a biologically good week for me i’m gonna. throw someone istg#i’m exhausted and annoyed and hating everything and anything sooooo hard rn and i think i need anger management classes bc aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa—#ok rant over time to cry ig. idk. i s w e a r i’m gonna smacc the morning shift people tomorrow if i don’t call out sick first—#it is suiyoubi my dudes
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paradoxunknown · 1 year
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And just when I thought I couldn’t love this man more, Renee posts this on Twitter. This now officially one of my favorite Mox pictures.
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2kyears · 8 months
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i dont want to go to work tomorrow. i dont want to see her desk, her notes about programs, i dont want to pretend to be strong for my team, i don't want to cry anymore.
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arthur-r · 11 months
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need to poll my friends, does anybody drink black coffee like just coffee from inside of a coffee pot and you don’t put anything in it?
#haven’t tried black coffee since i was like ten and i hated it then and now i have mixed feelings#the biggest problem was that it is way too warm i am all burnt up now#that’s what milk is for really is just to drown out the heat turn it into a regular temperature beverage#anyway it tastes well enough and i guess the point of black coffee is it gets the job done#that being said caffeine usually makes me feel unwell so don’t ask me why i went for it today#pro tip if you don’t want to aggravate somebody’s heart problems don’t pour coffee near them when they’re sleeping#(‘‘sleeping’’ what i mean is eyes closed head on desk still perceiving things. not strong enough to wake me up from a dream or anything)#anyway if you pour coffee near me and i’m currently tired out of my mind i’m gonna ask to have some there’s no way around it#so um not my fault i was aided and abetted and i play no role in my own destruction#anyway i’m also feeling entirely fine shdhdf i’m nearly convinced it’s been a chocolate allergy this whole time#and if i stop drinking mochas then i’ll stop reacting cause it’s not the caffeine that’s the problem. we’ll find out soon#anyway who drinks this. do my friends drink this?? do my friends have tips on how to drink this#for example how do you make it not be warm but also not be filled up with milk#do you just blow on it. like an old man in a fable about a satyr who thinks humans are the strangest creatures#the taste is kind of epic honestly like it’s not good but it’s kind of good#at the very least it makes me feel like an old academic#anyway hi it’s senior skip day and i’m playing the system by showing up at the school building and skipping from here#shdhdf i’m gonna go to class from here on out though. just had to skip physics cause i never did the essay and i’m afraid of confrontation#that’s also not my fault because who assigns an essay in physics class???? i dont know this stuff well enough to write about it??#although of course that’s the point of assigning an essay is to see if we know everything well enough to write about it shdhdf#so anyway i’m here to ask my friends who drink black coffee (if there are any) what do you do to help it cross the line to just being good?#cause right now it’s like good in several ways but it’s too warm and it tastes a little bit silly. i need pro tips for college#cause honestly i love the taste of coffee and like i said the chocolate might be the problem so i’m turning away from mochas#probably they’re both a problem. but let’s say i start drinking decaf black coffee. what do i do to make it incredible. please and thanks#shdhdf mostly i’m just checking in though. how is everybody? i really hope you are doing well!!!!#i’ll be around for a bit then heading to humanities class eventually i can’t skip on the teacher who invited me to her book club#also like. lunch. and like i said i have integrity now. gonna go to the rest of my classes#but so anyway i hope everybody is doing well!!!! let me know if you need anything!! listen to corrections by poolboy if you feel like it!!#me. my post. mine.#alright this is my last tag but i’ll be around. hope you are well and let me know!!
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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months
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#ugh. i wasted a lot of time and money today#bc my leg was suddenly hurting a lot more today and it kinda freaked me out so i went to urgent care#and then they had me get an x ray. luckily my hip looks fine and like i thought i probably strained or tore like an adductor muscle#so all that for something i already knew. but she said i should just chill for like 3 weeks and let it heal#at least nothing worse was wrong but its really annoying. i want to run 😫#wtf am i gonna do to dispel energy??? ugh. and i was supposed to go to thr post office today to send stuff#ill have to go tomorrow. bleh. its so annoying#part of it is just that i hate having to interact with people. like talking to people. like im sure i come across as v young#bc im so anxious and hesitant and im like zero eye contact. so idk it just feels kinda embarrassing#i wanna b like. bro i promis im not stupid. i have 2 advanced degrees in biology and im going for a 3rd. u can talk to me like an adult#its probably just me projecting. my perception is distorted from being made fun of by my sister lol#whatever. at least its just 3 weeks. tho it does remind me i havent been to an actual doctor in like 5 years#...probably should do thst before i move. or idk maybe ill just wait a month and go before school starts#ugh. fuck the American Healthcare system. they looked at me for like 5min and to go to urgent care was $125 with my insurance#thats just to b seen. like i can afford that but what r u supposed to do if u cant?#unrelated#at least its not as bad as when i passed out in class and took a 10 min ambulance ride that somehow cost $700
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spin-in-time · 1 year
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If you prefer the newer seasons of ninjago over the older seasons (pilot-s5/s7) we are fundamentally different people
#kind of a neutral statement#s8 and s9 get excused to an extend but i will not for forgive them for garma/don#s6 and s7 aren't that amazing to me but they get a pass bc at least they feel like they're about the same characters as the prev seasons#and similair with 8 and 9 except yeah..... this is where it starts......#s11+ means little to me in regards to characters. sure they have some cool stuff and the stories are neat (i love s12 SOO much for example)#but. yeah it's what i call the cardboard treatment because most characters especially when they're not the focus feel like -#- cardboard cutout versions of themselves#guys isn't zane so funny because he's a robot hahaha! what a source of comedy that is so in character! /s#and i'm not gonna say that i hate the new seasons cause that's not true#i bawled my fucking eyes out at s15#but it's. kind of a different show to me and the characters often feel off.#also some recurring things that i'm sooooo annoyed at sigh ugh ugh ugh#also they start this thing around s6 where for some reason the police is involved??#and the explorer's club pls fucking DIE#it's fine if you like the chicken also man but holy crap this is just NOT for me at all#the older seasons were many times more charming and if you disagree then - well we simply have differenzt tastes#which is fine#but my god it's something i do need to point out#i didn't actually mean to ramble so much but yeah.........#one of my favorite examples is the reduction of jay's and zane's characters to goofy guy and robot smart guy#the taking jay's inventing skills is the most insane thing they have done to date and they openly admit this this is literally a thing#they really only cared about tropes and archetypes at this point even though this is simply NOT where ninjago shines#i feel like someone might unfollow mr for this but you literally don't have to#it's all fine! just feel like saying this every now and then because ninjago is one of the shows that have been THE most special in my life#forgot the / for ninja/go oh wel l sorry#the reasons i like this show lie in the early seasons and not the later ones
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fiddlepickdouglas · 1 year
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#i live in hell#im barely climbing out of the hole of a major depressive episode that i barely made out of alive#and i agree that for my own sanity it was a good call that i not move away from here as soon as i had planned#but i have been lowkey harassed twice while shopping for groceries entirely unprovoked#and some dude decided to preach at my work just now for over an hour with like prayers and everything#and that's just within the past 5 days#i felt so uncomfortable#evangelist christians really have no clue they could be sending someone hurrying home as fast as possible#because my religious trauma is so fucking deep and i really wish my manager had kicked the asshole out because#THAT PLACE IS PUBLIC. NOT EVERYONE IN THIS FUCKING STATE BELIEVES THE SAME SHIT.#I WAS HOLDING BACK A PANIC ATTACK UNTIL I FINALLY JUST GRABBED MY SHIT AND LEFT AND KRPT MY EYES DOWN SO I WOULDN'T GET CORNERED#and i had already spent half my night waking myself up having mini panics too#and other bullshit that im really too frustrated about to repeat today#i hate utah#i hate it here so much 😭#im terrified#i wanna be openly queer so bad but if strangers are feeling free to see anything questionable about me#and think it's fine to be outright assholes then i really don't want to imagine the danger i would be in if i were out#i don't have my therapy appointment until wednesday and i already hate that im gonna have to dump all this too#please someone just take me to whatever queer utopian island alternate universe there is i need a break
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ratcandy · 2 years
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ori will of the wisps
#clamtalk#hegeuhgha nm. m. major spoilers >>>>#so that was the most emotional I've gotten over a game in a while#granted it's midnight and I was playing for a while#n also the last bit is . pretty intense#I was trying to crack jokes to myself the whole time so I WOULDN'T cry because i KNEW. I KNEW they were going to do something#I knew they were gonna pull something at the end . So I was just trying to stay lighthearted n make it funny#like it took me a second for it to click what Sier was asking of Ori at the end . prior to the Shriek fight#and then I just went ''I gotta become a fucking tree?'' in disbelief before Shriek showed up#and THEN WHAT THE FUCK#SHRIEK'S STORY JUST ENDS LIKE THAT? JUST AMBLING BACK TO WHERE SHE WAS BORN AND DYING IN HER PARENTS' WINGS?#What I'm understanding is Ori team fucking HATES birds /j#and then. fucking. I was literally fine I was a-ok until Ori is injured and tired struggling towards Sier while the fucking#flashbacks of the family are going on in the background. THEN I started going ''No fuck you don't do THAT'' while also j.#''Ori come on ori come on sweetheart we're almost done. u have to become a tree now it's okay come on you're almost there''#because at heart I'm just a worried mom and I talk to fictional characters like a child actually in front of me#last two things that got me and flooded me was just the. the montage with the family growing up with the tree. and. naru. did naru die#i said directly before it ''naru's gotta be getting so old!'' followed immediately by ''NO WHY'D I SAY ANYTHING!!!!!'' and then the. the.#the baby sprits in the credits with the moki. that made me Wail Out Loud. ok i'm done. fukcng. my eyes are red and sore
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