#my focus is pretty bad

[maythearo]

Getting sillier on the self indulgent madness i've fallen into

#i'm pretty proud of the backgroud and composition i think! not half bad! so anyways #that is the only thing yall should focus on. the color composition. the characters? pffft ignore them seriously look away they dont even #they arent even there #twst #my art #twisted wonderland #twst fanart #jamil viper #hell on earth i am (throws phone to the nearest wall) #oh and dont think im crazy for not knowing what color a ditto is cause it is somewhere amongst pink and purple #that i cannot differentiate so i just say it's pink. it's pink if i want it to be i can imagine anything

[sailorfailures]

One eerie frame for every classic Sailor Moon episode, OP, & ED

🌙🖤 Happy Halloween!

#Sailor Moon #descriptions in alt text #the visual design of the first season really was something #in my heart I feel like it's not Sailor Moon yet bc it was still finding its feet but that also allowed it to be more experimental #I don't think it's better or worse because while I do enjoy the novelty of earlier episodes #they also don't feel like Sailor Moon episodes. A lot of them feel like another show with SM characters randomly in them #which is not a good thing necessarily but they're so interesting it's also not a bad thing. It's just a thing #which you don't really see as often with current anime #you can just really see how they were kind of taking a gamble with Sailor Moon and testing the waters to see what angles would do well #I think it started to understand its actual target audience at around the Rainbow Crystals arc and shifted focus there #which is also when Jupes arrived so the team dynamic really started to take hold & the true appeal of it as a Magical Girl codifier emerged #ANYWAY it was just interesting to note that while Sailor Moon could consistently achieve moodiness and tension visually #the WAYS they achieved that were pretty different in the first half of classic compared to any other season #HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! BLEEHHH!!!

[kissnpunch]

i love q!roier and roier so much, i love his roleplay so much too.

his character looks so silly and clueless but has a really complex story on the island, even if he doesn’t talk about it too much is so subtle how that affects his personality and perception of some islanders and events, now, roier makes everything more slow when it comes to lore and i find that really interesting; he likes to plan a idea of lore and start building that without guion and expecting what, at the moment, he can introduce to make more deep his story, bringing little details he remember since day one of qsmp because that’s another strong thing he has, being so into qsmp and not just in english but spanish, big part of the lore started with the hispanics ccs too and he was part of every single one of them, so when it comes to fill some part of the qsmp lore, he’s a perfect person for that; discovering two cucuruchos, meeting q!luzu in his ia version, the q!quackity plan against eggs, the betrayal of q!spreen and q!quackity, even that is part of q!quackity principal lore too.

now, as a someone who consume his streams everyday (i’m not gonna get deep into this because is one of my favorite streamers so is pretty clear my adoration for him and his streams), is really funny to watch how in random moments he decides to do a lore dump or comment something that maybe someone else didn’t remember and change all the perspective, damn, i still kicking with my feet when he has a whole breakdown on purgatory and motive everyone to change rules, when it comes to killing he never judges the person but what are their reasons to kill, even as a psychologist in qsmp he understands a lot of characters like q!missa with his issues with chay, q!maxo’s depression, q!slime trauma with juana, even q!willy weak point with spiders.

now listen, maybe i’m missing a lot of details of his lore because is too long, but my point is how he is pretty clear with his character and likes to make lore not so often but that doesn’t affect his way to play on qsmp, all his lore feels natural and nothing is canon until he decides to share that with us or even the others islanders, with him everything can be a plot twist. my favorite “debut” of roier into roleplay is the abueloier incident, that wasn’t prepare and i still feel how q!roier felt, even being mean to q!quackity bringing his past, i felt the anger and sadness, keeping himself away of others and showing that if he follows his feelings, maybe something bad would happen.

is so cool making theories of his character and respect roier’s choices of what we can take or not, he uses places to make a following story too; since purgatory, just two times he was on q!cellbit’s castle and for two reasons, taking a picture of the wall, maybe expecting to make q!cellbit angry when he come back and checking if richas was there, now, he just stays on his own castle, full of old memories with a new son, deciding to finish what he left after making another life, he decides to sleep outside with pepito or in the place he built for bobby, jumping from the tallest part expecting what? death? he even said to pepito how he can die after losing two lifes but he can’t even after purgatory, he was jealous of that?

so yeah, that’s why i love q!roier and roier’s roleplaying.

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #qsmp roier #qsmp analysis #q!roier #qsmp cellbit #qsmp quackity #q!roier is such a. good character to make a lot of analysis and fan arts and everything #this is my perception #this is so q!roier focus so i didn’t bring another characters because they’re pretty complex too #i love qsmp feels like a novel #i defend every character blame me #q!roier apologist even if he didn’t said or do something bad #GIVE HIM BOOKS OF LORE TOO MY BOY DESERVES SOME MISTERY TOO !!!!!

[alicentes]

FTWDs final season could have been so much better if it was revealed that Troy was running padre and controlling madison (as revenge) this whole time. He knew enough about nick and Alicia to make madison think padre knew who and where they were this whole time. And here are some other reasons how this storyline would make sense and be more interesting:

- Troy has a military background so him taking over and running a military base makes more sense than two teenagers building it up by themselves because all the adults died.

- taking and training up children to be solidiers also would make a little sense because of his own fucked up upbringing and the idea he has of the type of people who were made for this world. He would have probably had the same idea as shrike, that the kids stood a better chance at padre than with their “weak” parents. The mother of his child dying for being a good person and not getting to raise their daughter (who would not be named after his abuser) could have also played into this idea of the kids being separated from their good parents.

- shrikes radiation cure experiments: Troy ran walker bite experiments before, just to see how people would turn. So it would also make sense if the work we see shrike doing was something he approved of or an idea he himself came up with. As for shrike, it would make sense that she turned out this way if she’d spent years being mentored by someone like troy otto instead of becoming evil and stealing children just because her dad died.

- the scene where madison smashes the glass to expose “padre” would have been such a good and shocking reveal if it was Troy. Imagine Madison finding out that Troy is not only alive but had been the one running this the whole time!

There’s also a lot of other things I would have done differently for the other characters too and I would have liked Madison to have a little villain era and do some really fucked up shit as she tries to take down Troy and padre. How dark would Madison go? Would she survive with her humanity still intact?

I know I’m just talking into the void here because no one care about this shitshow but I just hate it when shows have a plot that could have been good, maybe even great but then completely miss the mark and fans come with better theories and ideas with minimal effort and thought.

#somewhere dave erickson is screaming (and relieved that at least frank dillane stayed away from the show lmao) #fear the walking dead #ftwd #madison clark #troy otto #i also would have had s7a focus on strand vs alicia but v differently with only alicia’s ending staying the same pretty much #then 7b would have been wrapping things up with morgans family and actually seeing the group being taken by padre before having a time jump #then season 8 would have been the much better padre/troy/madison arc #the way these writers reaally do not know how to write for troy and madison #it’s like they tried doing what they thought DE wouldve done with them but couldn’t decide if they wanted them to be villains or be redeemed #anyway i will always mourn the arcs we were meant to have in season 4 #madison becoming the villain vs nick and alicia and whatever was planned for troy #troy was only killed off bc dave didn’t trust the new showrunners with him and he couldnt save the OGs by killing them too lmao #but i am glad alicia is alive and we got to see daniel sharmans acting bc most of the cast were only giving about 20% atp #but who can blame them? the writing got to new levels of bad in s7/8 and their personalities were changing every few episodes #actually to be fair they did the best with what they were given they just seemed done #i only tuned in to alicias episodes in s7 so my opinion on the rest of it is from what ive read bc i just could not get through it #so my opinion on the characters full arcs in s7 may be wrong

[thunder-wolf64]

My dogs and I are each other's emotional support when it comes to having company over

Yay anxiety!!

#most company is pretty chill but ive had bad experiences with family and family friends #and holding my dogs is a great way for me to distract myself and have something else to focus on besides my spiraling thoughts #art #digitail art #my art #tw anxiety #tw vent #anxitey #furry #furry art #my characters

[twistedappletree]

I really want to write a short post-canon story about Jin Ling having nightmares from all of the trauma he’s endured, so Lan Sizhui uses his spiritual energy and their connection to guard his dreams one night and ends up guiding Jin Ling through his sleep.

Meanwhile, everything they see in Jin Ling’s dreamscape is lush and vibrant and fantastical without even a hint of anxiety or darkness, and while Jin Ling assumes the entire dream is shaped by Lan Sizhui’s influence, Lan Sizhui is only blocking out Jin Ling’s intrusive thoughts—the rest is all of the light and wonder Jin Ling’s imagination conjures on its own, a glimpse into what his dreams would be like every night if he hadn’t suffered all that he did.

#it would also give me an excuse to write something super description heavy which is literally my forte lmaoooo #I haven’t done that in so long bc most of my short stories require quick descriptions inbetween dialogue to flow as #well a short story #I already have SO MANY PRETTY THINGS IN MY HEAD #and even lsz is looking around in total awe of how rich and colorful and versatile Jin Ling’s dreams are #nothing bad happens they just explore a beautiful shifting dreamscape together and have a chance to truly relax from the waking world #anyway #fic ideas #👀👀👀👀 #apple babble 🍎 #zhuiling musings #not sure if I’d put a ton of romance in it maybe some light fluff like holding hands #bc I really wanna focus on the experience of the dreamscape more than anything #just have it be a cute fun little feel-good fic #bc I swear that’s what I need rn lmaoooo 😭 #jin ling #lan sizhui

[amethystina]

Last Sentence Tag

I was tagged by @minister-of-silly-walks! Thank you 💜

Rules: Share the last sentence you wrote on your current project.

I, uh, have quite a few ongoing projects, but here are the five I worked on the most recently.

Chapter 40 of Who Holds the Devil:

Ga On was so tired of himself.

It Is Mine to Avenge:

Ga On was warmth and light and beauty, and Yo Han couldn't bear the thought of losing that.

Chapter 6 of New Dawn:

Living with Yoon Sa Wol was turning into an exercise in self-control.

Bonus chapter for Until Death Do Us Unite:

Jong Woo would probably never understand Moon Jo's obsession with teeth, but he did keep all the jewelry the weirdo gifted him.

Chapter 2 of Darkness and Light:

"Who I entertain is none of your business."

And I tag whoever wants to do it! :D

#Amethystina Does Tag Games #Last Sentence Tag #I really have more projects than I should #Or 'should' is the wrong word #But I'm one of those people who works best when I focus on one thing at a time #I'm just more efficient that way #So I think I might just have to sit down and make a list #And just work my way through it one project/chapter at a time #And New Dawn would end up pretty high on that list #I want to finish that one so bad

[silenthillbunni]

☁️🌷

#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it #i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class #but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school #i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine #so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there #and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af #ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch #i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :(( #i just wanna cry tbh #the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die #i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything #im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally #i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove #move* #what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc #im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :(((( #well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3

[running-in-the-dark]

got the main thing done that I wanted to do today (built a desk/table/shelf thing for the living room), so while it wasn't a great day overall it was alright. I hope I won't be as tired and exhausted tomorrow (I probably will be though because I did more than I should have again today 🙃 and I will keep doing that until everything is done and then I will not get up off the couch for a month.)

#we also watched last week's episode of taskmaster finally. I don't like this season so far 🙈 #but other than that? I don't know what I did. just lay in bed and then on the couch and then in my husband's bed with the cats #lots of lying down and being exhausted #and then manically running around and doing everything I possibly could for like three hours #before lying down and being exhausted again #I would really like to do something fun but I can't get my brain to focus on anything because everything around me is so messy 😭 #and ALSO. I can't even look at gifs to relax because my stupid phone signal is too bad like 95% of the time. most of the time even regular #images won't load (at least on tumblr. pinterest works just fine usually. but not tumblr 🙄) #I miss that 😭 #can't watch my shows at the moment and can't even see pretty gifs 😔 so unfair #hope we'll get internet access sooner rather than later 😭 #personal

[front-facing-pokemon]

#makuhita #so fun fact about makuhita. this was my favorite pokémon when i was a kid #i don't know *why* it was‚ i just know that me as a kid really liked this pokémon. i think it was something about their eyes and their round #shape that just made me think it was cute. they're certainly not my favorite pokémon anymore as my favorite has shifted over and over #recently as i've been figuring everything out but this one i distinctly remember being my favorite when i was a kid #and that was before i even played rt to know abt the makuhita dojo. it was totally in isolation of that. i really just liked the way it look #ed. i'm pretty sure it's 'cause one of the fuckers in pyrite had a shadow makuhita? and that's how i like. came to figure out they existed #i remember not wanting to purify them bc i thought shadow rush was too good and they kept getting boring moves like focus energy #that i thought were useless bc they didn't do damage and so i thought it was gonna get *another* bad move to replace shadow rush #i dunno it was a whole thing. even after i purified them i remember being so upset when they evolved into hariyama #bc i did not like the way hariyama looked at all and thought it was an abomination compared to makuhita #i think i ended up making a new save file and just mashing B every time they tried to evolve. which i figured out you could do #and that's. that's my makuhita story. every time i see this pokémon i think about that story. because it's so rare #no one ever talks about makuhita so i feel like it's rare that i actually get to remember this. so i still do every time

[therealtsk]

Destiny's Lore, and Why It Didn't Need The Witness

So, I know most of you follow me for Worm or DC stuff, so here's an admission of my tragic past: I used to be a big Destiny fan! I know, I know, i'm losing followers by the letter, but in my defense, I dropped out years ago, around Shadowkeep. I briefly checked the game out again during the Witch Queen but never actually finished the campaign since I didn't have any friends to play it with at the time and so I couldn't force myself back into it's goddawful grind. To be clear, I've never played Destiny for the gameplay. I'm one of those weirdos who actually really, really liked the setting's lore and world building. It was one of the most unique things I'd ever seen, this really engaging mix of high fantasy and sci-fi all at once. And you know what? Some of Destiny's lore books are honestly incredible! The writing is emotional, the prose evocative, so many alien perspectives expertly captured. The Books of Sorrow, Thorn, Truth to Power, Book of Unveiling, The Ahamkara gear...goddamn, they're so good. But I got caught up on Destiny lore a little bit ago, and...wow. Bungie did it. They killed the last thing I still loved about Destiny. And they killed it with the Witness.

Let's talk about the Witness for a bit. The Witness has taken the slot of the new Big Bad for the Destiny universe, previously held by The Darkness. Their backstory is that they used to be individuals of a race that was the first to be blessed by The Traveler, Destiny's slated Big Good. This race proceeded to have a golden age that lasted for eons, with them eventually running out of things to do, and thus asked the Traveler to tell them what their purpose is. Obviously, the Traveler didn't answer, and their entire civilization had a collective existential crisis so hard that they decided that if the universe didn't come pre-built with a purpose, they'd just kill everyone and reboot the universe so that it did. To accomplish this, they tracked down the Traveler's never-before mentioned Dark counterpart and all fused into a single being, seen here. And on the topic of the Witness's appearance, I'm sorry, but the visual design here is just...bad. It's just bad. It's almost painfully generic. They have a geometrically rippling long black coat with no defining features, a pale human-ish face, and their brain appears to be leaking other faces in a smokecloud constantly, which i think looked far cooler on paper then it did in a render. Compare this to Savathûn or even Oryx's visual designs and they don't hold a candle. Speaking of comparisons to the Hive Gods, this is where my rant truly begins, so buckle up.

The fact that the Witness has all but replaced the Darkness- newly released lore suggesting every time we thought a character was interacting with the Darkness itself, it was really them talking to this character- that the Darkness is now stated to be completely apathetic and unintelligent, nothing more then a power source to draw upon- not only runs directly counter to some of my favorite lore in the franchise but cheapens every other Darkness-affiliated plot line and character. Not only does the Witness not speak at all like The Darkness has in the past, making the claim of them being one and the same dubious to me, but it also results in all of the Witness' Disciples (their right-hand men) being shoehorned into storylines in ways that feel almost painfully lazy. Case in point: The Lore of the Hive. As mentioned above, The Books of Sorrow is some of my favorite sci-fantasy with fantastic horror elements and incredibly evocative bits of prose. It's a gripping narrative how in the face of utter annihilation, a group of siblings make a desperate bargain with unknowable creatures once kept buried beneath the earth...and how their once noble efforts to save their people from death turns into a bloody conquest across the stars. It's an excellent tale, showing us how the truest test of character is who you are when times are hard- will you let those hard times twist you into a foul shape, or will you endure in spite of them? It establishes the cosmology of Destiny, with the Hive and Worm Gods being established as some of the most powerful and important beings in the story, powerful disciples of The Deep. With the new retcons, Rhulk (a Disciple of the Wintess) shows up, basically tells the Worms to shut up and listen cause he's the real Disciple of the Darkness, not them, and they're going to fall in line now. Because now, instead of the syzygy being a real threat that did devastate the planet the Krill lived on, Bungie's saying that the entire thing was a lie created by the Witness and the Worm Gods. Which takes the aspect of "sometimes bad things just happen but it's up to us to choose how we will let those things change us" that's key to the narrative and completely removes it- which is so backwards from how this all works! Evil lives in all of us, waiting for when we're weak to tempt us into doing what's wrong in the name of survival or pleasure or whatever virtue it disguises itself as- it doesn't stroll up out of nowhere and create a twelve-step-point-plan to ensure that we become evil too! Putting aside that, as I admit it's a subjective criticism based on my own perspective on the nature of morality, I think it greatly cheapens multiple other stories. Now that the Darkness is completely amoral as a force and it's just the Witness who is corruptive, I guess Dredgen Yor, Jana-14 and all of the other guardians we've seen fall were all getting brain blasted by this one dude, instead of their falls being a result of being seduced by power they should have known better then to touch blindly. Now, I can already hear people saying "But what about Stasis!" And yeah, I have Thoughts on Stasis too. I don't entirely dislike it, but I do dislike how it's been executed. Sword Logic works- or worked- by basically asserting yourself above physical reality. "I am the strongest thing alive, and I prove it thus." You defeat a powerful enemy and take their strength for your own. That's something you can work as being doable without inherently corrupting you. After all, it's not considered evil to fight for your own survival or for the protection of others. It just so happens that constantly introducing your brain to the idea that killing other things will make you objectively better then them is bad for you even if those powers weren't sourced from a primordial consciousness that has and will try to influence you for it's own ends.

To use a metaphor, Sword Logic is akin to something like nuclear power- sure, it's got one hell of a kick, but if you let your guard down around it, not only will it fuck you up but it'll contaminate everything around you with the fallout. But now to say that "nope, the darkness is totally fine and not even alive and aware it's just the same thing as the light but different colors and this whole time it's just been this one guy who's been ruining it for everyone else" is so...god, it's so much less interesting. And I think ultimately, that's my problem with the Witness. As a whole, they are just so much less interesting then what we had before! I loved the Books of Sorrow and Unveiling so much because it was such a fascinating display of completely alien thought and genuine nuance. The Darkness doesn't do what it does because of any tired trope of "evil nihilist" or just might makes right, it's a living embodiment of a cosmic philosophy in a war with another, both of them arguing for how all of creation should work. Whether or not the only things in life that matter are the things that live, and that to live is to suffer so ergo only that which cannot break should live, so you must break everything until only the absolute strongest shapes remain- or if it is possible for creativity and diversity and soft things to exist and create a life that is worth living in spite of the inevitable pain we all go through. That is so much more interesting then a bunch of dudes who are ultimately just mad about the fact that there's no easy to find and read manual for our purpose in life! It's such a basic, not to mention human motivation in comparison to what The Darkness had when it was a character in it's own right. And so...yeah.

#Destiny 2 #Destiny 2 spoilers #The Witness #The Worm Gods #The Hive #The Darkness #Destiny 2 meta #Destiny 2 lore #god the fact that Unveiling just #isn't canon anymore kills me #some of the best microfiction i've ever read #lol nope have this vapehead emo #it's like DC Comics all over again #sorry to my regulars who follow me for worm but im so mad about this #im pretty much just ignoring everything post-Witch Queen now #so incredibly annoyed at Bungie #it really does just feel like they wanted another quick and easy villain to defeat who's the source of all bad things ever #and then shift their focus to that Marathon reboot #which is an extraction shooter...ugh

[lizzibennet]

the thing about each pjo book is that each of them is uniquely the best in what it sets out to do. each is so monumental in what the story ends up amounting to, picking a favorite is almost like pointless. you could not have all 5 work so well if one was missing

#tlt introduces the world and the main trio and the main antagonist #fun adventure in wacky world. normal #som piggybacks off the already established status quo of the world (fun wacky adventure) and builds relationships upon it #explores characters more. more introspection from percy and a lot raised (and answered) about annabeth #plus solidifying percy's bond w grover #ttc was my least fav for a long time because it just felt like idk off #and i now think it's bc it's where the story pivots a bit and becomes more serious #it's still v much haha fun adventure bc it's children's lit after all. but it is once again meant to solidify #percy's bond w annabeth; percy's devotion to chb and his feelings towards the prophecy #as well as being the climax of thalia's character and kind of settling the fact luke really is evil and doing some real shit #exemplified by the fact this is the first book where protags die #and thalia pretty much kills luke. like he doesn't die but she couldn't have known he wouldn't die #so percy now REALLY has an idea of what he's up against #notice how the following two books really couldn't have happened w/o this kind of certification from him #botl is like. AHHHHHHHHHH it is my fav for a reason #i just really love how it doesn't lose the footing w the pace and the fun hijinks but still manages to deepen the relationships between #the characters #especially with the focus on percy's feelings towards nico and annabeth's towards luke #like *chef's kiss* that book is so fucking good please #and with a foundation so strong there really was no way tlo could have been bad lmao #but still the fact the book takes time from Teh Final Confrotation vibes of it all #to make a point to show percy going back to his mom's. luke going back to may's. hestia's presence in the middle of all of it #rick was like this series has a theme and i will show it to you NAOW #and the action scenes in this one??? UNPARALLELED. tlo and botl the most riveting to read #if you remove one of them the story stops making as much sense!! #(i can hear you all going yeah like every other book series and NO. esp ya/childrens lit has SO MUCH filler) #ME? pjoposting in 2023? it's more likely than you think #pjo

[yuukei-yikes]

i like that it's canon haruka is really pretty. my proof is 1. konoha getting away with being a freak just cuz he looks good (pretty privilege) 2. jin says haruka would smell really good 3. is voiced by mamoru miyano

#i will never shut up abt mamoru miyano being casted ONLY for saeru and not rly with haruka and konoha in mind #and it was 2013/2014 and it was The Thing to sell thru Sexy evil guy (shaking in anger) and it was like. on purpose #but i have got to live laugh love and focus on haruka for my well being. i hate you saeru i hate what youve done. #ok yes saeru but particularly. KUROHA #yes theyre the same #but im an old time fan and kuroha is more specifically THAT time. bad times. #I HATE IT!!! I HATE IT!! AND ANYONE WHO SAYS KOKONOSE TRIPLES OWES ME MONEY FOREVER #sorry. im normal. thats a real thing people did. #anyways. pretty guy haruka❤️ i like to think of takane meeting him for the first time #but she's probably never stopped to look at a guy in her life and its like #OK YOU KNOW SKIP AND LOAFER SKIP LAUGH LOAF #when shima asks for mitsumis contact and she's like Whoa now that i look at him hes so sparkly. all people in tokyo must be sparkly #(camera pans out and the whole classroom is like IKEMEN!!!) #something like that. except there is no class. its just takane by herself assuming haruka is totally normal looking #and hes just sparkly for no reason #and she feels weird because he's a freak #i think thats something rly funny abt takane's feelings for haruka #she feels Weird (likes someone) and attributes it to haruka being weird. like girl shes so delusional i love her #kagevinnie #does anyone read all my tags #btw im doing hw. well supposed to be doing hw. but i randomly pause to post bc im kageproing at all times and most importantly #yuukei yesterdaying at all times

[bhaalsdeepbat]

love that my "get to work and be able to function" medicine is on a national shortage and i have to...*check's notes*...get to work and not be able to function until they actually genuinely solve this fucking issue.

#bat rambles #i've been waking up just really upset about my vyvanse bc i've been counting down the days to me having to work without it #today is the day and i'm hoping they let me go early #i had to call out yesterday alskdjflksdjf #like i cannot focus at work without getting irritable BC MY ADHD SYMPTOMS ARE PRETTY FUCKING BAD #I JUST SEEM LIKE I'M WELL FUNCTIONING #I AM NOT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH #i fucking hate it

[gazelessmenagerie]

( is it too much to lightly throw the idea that each time I have to throw earth #whatever once broly goes ballistic, that's essentially a timeline where that DOES happen instead of the 'soft reboot' that occurs bc I can't necessarily have earth be destroyed cause RP land etiquette for the other folks I write with. sdfjg )

#|| Tag: OOC #(... it just hit me bc I don't necessarily WANT to pretend him being an uncontrolled force of anger is meaningless ) #( when he's pushed to the brink of losing that control but I dont want to step on peoples toes or seem like im godmodding it ) #( like i do what I can to make sure he doesn't reach that point but ah.. ;w; it cant be helped in some cases ) #( so I'm just kinda pushing it to my own narrative that each time a timeline gets fucked up that bad. it just kinda “ends” there ) #( and the focus shifts towards either another Timeline where Broly DIDN"T do that thing and kill everyone/everything. ) #( so in short.. its like having a trial and error where there's at least one timeline of things going better ) #( but its not pretty and broly has a 90-99% rate of destroying shit bc he's an awful person. ) #( its why it kinda helps if he has people who can effectively calm him down but even they can't help him when hes lost his marbles complete

[crybaby-bkg]

I think I might take a break from writing on here (quite possible a lie) </3

#mainly bc I won that publishing deal #so I have to finish the book I’ve been writing #and I find myself prioritizing writing fics over my book bc I’m like ‘oh there’s no rush to finish my book’ #but now I’m like. I don’t know how much time has to pass before my opportunity expires LOL #I’m about 60% finished with it im pretty sure #but I just need to focus all my attention on it #also my writing on here has been flipping lately and I feel like boo-boo about it LOL #FLOPPING not flipping #I said possible lie tho bc I wanna take a break but knowing me #I’ll get an idea and be like wow x person on tumblr would love this actually lemme write it lol #so I might still write small short blurbs every now and again #but probably no long fics and stuff for a while #…..after I write my sex toy store worker Hitoshi AKSHDKFJDKFJ #this is why it’s taken me three years to write 75k words LOL #sorry I’m rambling i just feel a little guilty #also feel bad bc I think I’m allergic to steroids lol everything sucks #—in store chit chat! 🍫