#my highschool could Never

[sketchy-beck]

Been working on a lot of Hellsing sketches lately. Anderson and Alucard have my silly brain in a choke hold.

^ Also a bonus image of Alucard looking like a wet cat that someone left outside for too long.

#sketchy beck art #hellsing #hellsing fanart #alucard hellsing #alucard #alexander anderson #hellsing ultimate #hellsing alucard #fanart #sketch dump #I got covid and these two just took hold of my brain somehow #Like I haven't watched this series in a while? #I was obsessed with it in highschool #teenage beck could never draw these two this well #about to go back in time and flex on a closeted homosexual

[th3e-m4ng0]

med student megatron....

#wip #totally and directly inspired from echoes of messatine #and from my own experience that one time in highschool #i was battling for my life to not fall asleep in literature class one day. i dont remember closing my eyes but suddenly my head i was on th #table and class was already over. i fell asleep so suddenly lmao it surprised me #ohh another recent one was last year where i fell asleep standing up while on the bus as i gripped the seat in front of me with Strength #i wish i could live off coffee but coffee has never ever worked on me grahhhhhhhhhhh

[oifaaa]

Your Tim gives big “peaked in high-school” energy, but I doubt he peaked in high-school, so maybe he peaked at being Robin, thus creating new trauma in the family, and maybe hero community

Oh Tim 100% is the peaked in high-school guy like dude was having a ball he was super popular constantly had girls falling over themselves for him and he was Robin- the fact that Tim is so reluctant to let robin go is literally the biggest tell of all that this boy is trying desperately to hang on to how things used to be

#ask #anon #sorry this is less about my au and just tim in general #but god that boy #and the way this boy is the audience self insert boy #and dc was like #we're making tim robin again bc thats what the audience wants #bc life was so good when tim was robin #and robin tim fans were like fuck yeah #not realising this was the worst thing that could happen to tim #bc your not getting that good story telling back #things have changed and tim has not changed with the times so its not gonna work #it was never gonna work #peaked in highschool thats the best way you can describe tim drake

[why-the-heck-not]

computer science was a hoax from the universe to get me to study math in the pretense of ”hehe coding’s cool look at all these things u can do” *some mf vectors looming just around the corner* ”noNO dont look there; look here!! It’s ’hello world’ but in green heheh wOoOoo now it’s blue !! u are a god of this website” *matrices sharpening their knives somewhere*

#idk whY I’m going to the mathematical side of things #it’s ME who chooses the thesis topic #so could we maybe do without vectors MAYBE PERHAPS #(i dont like vectors. when we learned them at school I looked at them went ’’well I’ll never use this’’ and now look where we are #I owe my highschool math teacher’s an apology like oh no sometimes u do use vectors) #(I’m scared I’ll somehow choose a too difficult topic and make this impossible for myself) #(but also like I’m not MAKING anything from scratch; I’m just reading articles & writing from there (tho gotta have some own thoughts there #also I think?)) #(if I was smart I would’ve chosen this abt something I already know something abt instead of ’’I wanna see if I could like this’’) #(but alas im not) #codeblr #january 2024 #2024

[squishosaur]

hey man. i'm just saying. why would we put inexperienced teenagers with over-inflated egos and obvious emotional issues into combat classes and make them claw their way to the top of their dorms and expect things to just run smoothly. who actually thought this

#the reason rsa doesn't have overblots is because they understand the joy and whimsy of life and friendship btw #LIKE. why is there no school counselor?? do you know how much time & resources & effort & TRAUMA we could have saved the students & #school from if ANYONE had reached out to riddle and was like 'hey are you alright i heard xyz and i wanted to let you know...' ESPECIALLY #since TREY LITERALLY TELLS US 'oh well here's the lowdown on her trauma this is Probably what is causing this' #or if someone sat down to tell leona 'hey! i'm rooting for you in ur magift(?) game! you're my fav player!!' AND LET HIM FEEL NOTICED #or if someone approached azul as an Equal to try to stop his plans. as a friend even. BEYOND A BUSINESS TRANSACTION #or if ANYBODY BUT ESPECIALLY KALIM was like 'jamil i think you should follow your passions and do something you enjoy today!!' or AT LEAST #let him know he was appreciated as a person NOT JUST FOR HIS WORK #'i know you're doing a lot today but i just wanted to thank you for how much Effort you put into this and..' etc etc etc #ERM.. IF ANYONE TREATED VIL LIKE A HUMAN BEING AND NOT A CELEBRITY??? or even 'hey i loved you in this film i was wondering if we could #do a play together or something..!!' AND LET HER TRY A TYPE OF CHARACTER SHE NEVER GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE. and sing her praises. #if anyone reached out to idia beyond a 'hey the teacher said to come to class'/'get out of your bed and come to our housewarden meeting' #or even. IF ORTHO HIMSELF was like. 'you know it's not your fault... you didn't cause all of this. not really' OR SOMETHING #or if malleus ever got to experience a small firsthand loss AND WAS COMFORTED THROUGH IT. not just quick fix via magic. not replacing. just #GRIEVING SOMETHING??????? and wasn't feared by literally everyone #um. maybe the real twisted part is that all of this tragedy was easily preventable if we had a support system in place. #but idk. twst is a highschool. there's no support in real high school either. i'd probably overblot too if i could ajdjrjfinfdndjd #twst #chatter #LONG RAMBLE SORRY #yes overblots are essential to the plot. but also. do you know how frustrating it is watching the blot build up and sitting in silence. #I'M SORRY IK IF SOMETHING LIKE THIS WAS HAPPENING TO A GUY I JUST MET I WOULD PROBABLY NOT NOTICE.. but of it was my Friend or Housewarden.. #I'D ASK BRO.... I'D ASK ... UGHHHHHUUUHHHH #not that anyone would notice if *I* was about to lose it tbh #speaks volumes about our society o think #OKAY NOW I'M DONE FOR REAL

[writing-is-a-martial-art]

What do you take me for. No, seriously, what you take me for? In passing, what traits do you decide are those that matter? Do they make you smile or grumble under your breath about kids these days and Internet tenderqueers? Do you account for a margin of error, do you allow even in this briefest estimate the possibility that this is just one facet of a nebulous multidimensional personhood, or would it bring you more comfort to think of me as a background character, face half-erased and one prominent feature exaggerated to distinguish me from the crowd of stick figures? If I got so close I could see the reflection in your eyes, whose reflection would it be?

Would it have my smile? Would it make me flinch?

What do you take me for

#ignore me i was in public again #touching grass is cool but being perceived as a semi-passing trans disabled person is such a mindfuck #we had the loveliest conversation and you could never guess my name right #we chatted briefly about books and you would never guess i have anything to do with sports and shoveling snow in a small village far away #i made up a job for myself on the spot to not have to explain why I'm still in highschool #because otherwise the nature of the conversation would instantly change #you smiled so warmly at the person that you saw and i wish that was truly directed at me #oleg's writing #kind of

[fiendishartist2]

jon becomes an english teacher in their somewhere else and is completely baffled by how much highschoolers hate english class

transcript:

(left): "mr. sims, can we pls watch you play chess.com?" (macbeth essays submitted: 5/27) [i'm too old for this shit"]

(right): "and they're like obsessed with chess? but only on the computer" "at least they're engaged?"

#theres smth so calming about imagining jon in a classroom reading macbeth #like hes in his natural habitat or smth.... #idk if this is true in other schools but at my highschool kids fucking hated english class. like disproportionately #yeah math sucks and there were some shitty math teachers but across the board ppl could not stand our english classes #its esp funny to me bc of how much i imagine jon would love english classes + reading classic lit #he just cannot wrap his head around the fact that most of his class spends the entire period playing chess.com #my art #doodles #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #the day magnus protocol drops expect me to either never shut up or completely disappear #the hype is all consuming #i still dont have a computer nor do i have a job so all i can offer is these sketches #more to come....

[dashingwishes]

Do you guys prefer writing in pen or pencil?

#For me pencil I make too many errors I #In highschool everyone wrote in pens I could never #My handwriting isn’t good on pen too #Please reblog your reasoning #write in the tags #college #studyblr #text #school #personal #bored #pencils #pens #schools #anxiety #writing #fics #study #reblog game

[needylittlegirl]

#hes me #i just got very like umm #i need to hold someones hand but that someone Needs to be my younger self #like i wish i could hold my hand so tight right now #growing up is scary and i just want her to know that im okay. that ill be okay #and that even if she isnt proud of me im proud of her #21 was always a big age in my head #in the sense that like. for awhle i was so sure i’d be dead by then #like i knew id graduate highschool and i figured i’d make it a few years but never to 21 #so just the fact that ill be 21 in a few hours really is. So wild and so scary #whatever im fine #also completely unrelated (i swear) i just got my panic attack chest feeling #i think its because i havent been sleeping much so im just exhausted #whatever #i want to grab little 8 year old me and just hug her so tight #i needed it then and i need it now #i hope shes okay. i feel her sometimes and i hope she knows im strong for her #everything i do is for the little girl i used to be #amd i hope everytime i tell her i love her it somehow reaches back through time and she can feel it #tbd

[dawdlecentric]

D3G_Takahashi you are the boniji artist ever 💗💛

Their art really make me feel like this every time

I haven't seen all of their boniji/BTR art yet but these are my favorites so far (tho tbh I love all of their art!)

Source under the cut

#every time they upload boniji fanart I squeal and giggle and kick my legs and punch the air and throw up and explode #their art is just SOOO CUTE!!! and so wholesome!!! #and it's nice that they upload pretty consistently and when they do it makes my day and always put a smile on my face :))) #there are some okay boniji artists on twt but they're my favorite #and I followed them the moment I found their art when I was scouring boniji fanart there #and afaik they don't make sus fanart which is kinda my ick to some BTR artists on twt #so it's pretty refreshing to find an artist who makes fluffy wholesome fanarts #like it's so charming that they captured the highschool sweethearts/crush feeling #and the occasional domestic bliss so well on their boniji art it's so friggin sweet!! #also they like to draw Nijika with tsuchinoko!Bocchi often which I find precious xD #gosh I wish I could express my admiration for their art but my jp is not that great #and I feel self conscious if I comment some English gibberish gushing over their art #I'm just sooo normal abt their bnj art (⁠◔⁠‿⁠◔⁠) *barking biting snarling going around in circles foams at the mouth* #ALSO! ALSO!! THEY AND OTHER BNJ ARTISTS ARE SELLING BNJ DOUJINS/ZINES SINCE DEC31 AND I WANTED SO BAD TO BUY IT 😩😫😭😭IF NOT ALL OF THE ARTIS #but I never ordered/don't know how to order stuff from JP before and even if I knew I'm broke af 😔 #*sigh* oh well I'll guess I'll wait- HOPE that someone who bought it will translate it and upload it to dynasty scans someday :')🤞🤞

[comfycozycrossfox]

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the general opinion i have on mobility devices/tools is that if you want one you should just get one and there isnt like, a threshold to where youre ALLOWED to get a cane or whatever

the exception, of course, being ✨myself✨

#its. literally like every time i see canes in a store im like ah thatd be kind of nice to have #but like im not #im just kind of muscle weak sometimes. most of the times. #buts its never bad enough to where im actually gonna fall it just hurts to walk for any amount of time #except for those times when it is bad enough but to be fair when i get like that its my own fault #no one has to be 'disabled enough' except that i 100% do and i dont think that i am #:/ fucking stupid. whatever #i did use a walking stick briefly in highschool because i was actively lightheaded a lot and a little bit of a fall risk #and it WAS very fucking nice. like it hurt less to walk i could walk more i liked being able to lean on it #but. :/. but i simply

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

and J and T 👀

J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.)

OK so you know these guys

Tim and Moby from Brainpop. I didn't know they had a fandom until I saw someone making a dating sim and there was a good amount of people hyped and i was like

Wait

Yeah! HELL yeah!!

I get it now. I wonder how that fandom is doing. Hope they're well.

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

Not really strong headcanons 🤔 maybe it is actually

Hmmmmm

- wwx is close to jiang siblings but still only adopted into the clan (despite everything jfm wanted)

- lsz is not adopted by lwj, just taken in to be adopted into the clan

Anything that's approximately those kind of cases, I have the same ideas about

WAIT JUST KIDDING

I HAVE ONE

I cannot believe at all

That nmj didn't die a virgin. In Canon. I badly want him to be a virgin and not only that. The type that never learned because he wasn't told to do it and by the time the elders wanted him to marry and reproduce, he has too much of a backlog with nhs to focus on that. He'll do it after nhs becomes independent

This one

Come on. Please. Someone who became sect leader young and in an environment like the nie clan? Duty must be at his core. Also it's funny. Nmj learn sex Ed with nhs. I'm saying a lot of words but saying nothing. But you gotta hear me. Call it too much projection but when you're the first born son, right? AND the heir to the sect? AND an older brother. You've got all these roles to fulfill. And then you're now upgraded to SECT LEADER? HELP-- now you've got like 600 new main quests added and they're all time bound. Like no way there's nobody trying to usurp a wholeass child. So he gotta stop all these crackass adults from finessing him while running a sect finances, social instability, political instability. He's got a baby brother at home. He himself has to develop for like 5 different roles too and uphold sect image and keep relations with other sects. It's like taking a college entrance exam in 5th grade suddenly.

I'm not able to explain what I mean. But you feel the vibes?

Ehhhh I'm lying I don't have any die hard headcanons. I don't think so. This is the strongest one tho.

#some words #im not neutral i swear i just cant make up my mind #i say i dont have strong headcanons but the top 2 im with strongly #i wont say anymore im not trying to get cancelled over 'what is incest' discourse again HAH #man i love talking thank you #nmj is my doll. i love shoving things into him. life experiences #girls look at this 2 meter tall ox of a man and go 'literally me' #bruh when i was supposed to be taking sex ed i was being prepped how to prevent the government from seizing our assets #how is learning safe sex gonna help me raise a pre-existing child? #how about i dont pay attention and just never have sex. thats one less task from my task list #and then my brothers highschool required a guardian to give the talk. #i told him he'd die if he had sex but its natural to want so he can think about it instead of gaming for entertainment #see i didnt listen. i was busy ok. so the only thing i caught on was the fact that STDs exist and something about people dying #i genuinely thought people were risking death for sex and thats why its considered sacred #and before that i thought you could only have sex once in your life and it was a soul binding ritual thats why they say no sex before marry

[pansyfemme]

a lot of ‘satisfying’ art videos on the internet are so different to view when you’re actually a visual artist because like. i was watching a video of someone peel off the paper for a nine layer linocut. and that does not make me feel relaxed no matter how nice the noises are it just makes me extremly stressed just imagining that process

#NINE LAYERS? #i am not a reductive printmaker tho i could literally never #i took a lino class in highschool and i walked out of that class with cuts all over my hands and some terrible work #anything reductive in art drives me crazy whether it be plaster carving or monoprints i just suck at that #im a very addative person and i work in layers i just cant think in reductive ways

[hayaku14]

‘conan but there's no permanent antidote’ stans are so fucking scary like they really stared straight into god's eyes and said, "that's right we thrive in fucking PAIN."

#do not mess with these people #they see shinichi suffer through an identity crisis trying to accept that he cannot escape being conan anymore and they SMILE #they eat up 'conan killing shinichi' fanarts for breakfast #they see conan watch all his peers graduate from highschool and move on with their lives and theyre fucking GIDDY #you can stab these people in the chest with a shinichi funeral and theyd say 'now thats good fucking food' #my weakass COULD NEVER #i am gods WEAKEST soldier #i am built for angst and hurt and pain but ONLY IF IT HAS A HAPPY ENDING #(oh but wait KAT 'conan with no permanent antidote' is about finding happiness despite the tragedy of it all!) #(yes YES I KNOW THIS. A happy ending IS possible bUT) #(you are forgetting i am gods WEAKEST soldier. i am simply not built for this kind of bittersweet happy ending 🤧🤧🤧) #(but that bittersweet ending is beautiful in itself though ;-; i just cant go through the process of getting there 💀) #dc prattles #kaishin #kaico #dcmk #detective conan #i was mainly thinking about kaico when i first wrote this but then i realized this shit is applicable to all ships (romantic ot not) that #involved conan with no antidote SO #yes

[belanova]

Fitza becomes sooo much funnier with recent events because He'll tell Philza to strip himself infront of everybody and say the most horniest shit ever to him

but holding hands with Pac. TOO MUCH FOR FITMC OF 2B2T

#see pac restored my faith in missa not being cucked cause now i know fit could never go through with it #Cause he cant even like... everything this man does with pac is sincerely the most #theyre highschool lovers without calling themselves that

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem