#my life sucks

[trauersinfonie]

he got colored

#Yamato #one piece #ahaodjqoifjwofbwkfqjfnwodjwjfjqkkrjejf #my art #sorry the canvas is so long #i wanted to make the pic smaller by adding another one next to him but then #it cuts his face off in the crop #AGHH #my life sucks

[nicnavarrocage]

Obnoxiously and Conveniently Venting Over Personal Issues Because I Have to Part 1

I'm pretty ignorant. I'm critical against a lot of things, I'm pretty intolerant, and I'm really idolent.

I'm inexperienced, I have a small variety of interests (mostly occupied by Andrew Hussie's works) and I think I'm going insane.

I sometimes can't handle opinions and often never precisely remember things that others think are important. My short term memory boosts these issues to another extent. May I inform my mind has been rotten?

Of course, I think what I've been diagnosed with at a young age is a disability and not a speciality or a personality quirk (seriously, what the hell?), because it might've given me issues I've rarely gotten to notice or might could notice at some point in my life.

I'm socially inept. My parents are afraid that if I meet someone in real life, I would be glad to hurt him or her. And I would, sadly.

The key thing to do when first meeting someone is to not be intimidating or dangerous, otherwise your client would run off ignoring you. But I can't even do it.

I'm acting like a lolcow on the internet. I can't even bother to act like a normal person because I've been demolishing my psychosis with endless re-runs of True Capitalist Radio, host of which inspired me to be who I am at my teenage years (he's an angry conservative mind you).

Most notable of all, I'm terminally online, but I only go to 4 websites. YouTube, DeviantArt, only one subreddit, and this very hellsite.

Not to mention, am I an attention seeker too? You can tell by this very post.

I need help. I don't want that hippie shit or anything that's overly positive and too sappy. I want ground truth. Not from people who obsess over their horoscopes or people with lousy opinions.

I want advice.

#help me #venting #personal vent #rant #personal issues #my life sucks #long rant #words words words

[fortunatelev]

I can't help but to feel a bit salty/jealous of people who have friends to talk to and hang out with. And I am also angry that I had to be dealt such a shit hand at social interaction. Cant wait to be done with this life. Tired of always being sad, depressed, and lonely. One day I won't have to anymore. I find nothing exciting or happy about my life anyway.

#my life sucks #lonely #bitter #friendless #life isnt fair #socially isolated #socially anxious #depressed #alone #i dont fit in #i dont belong anywhere

[thesamoanqueen]

Not me wishing I was a lobster...

#my life sucks #roman reigns #wwe #friday night smackdown

[chainsawidol]

I posted this on my Twitter (@firstdeatth) but the character limit got me so I didn’t get to go in depth so I’m gonna do the in depth stuff here.

I want you all to take into consideration that Makima’s chains are not just specifically located in her womb because it’s sexy.

It’s not even just because she represents the mother figure Denji never had. It’s a lot deeper than that.

You may have already come to the conclusion that they represent the umbilical cord. But what exactly is the umbilical cord, you may ask?

From Google: “The umbilical cord is a tube that connects you to your baby during pregnancy. It has three blood vessels: one vein that carries food and oxygen from the placenta to your baby and two arteries that carry waste from your baby back to the placenta.”

In other words, the baby is dependant on the umbilical cord connecting it to its mother.

Makima is the Control Devil. We know this. She also represents a maternal figure Denji never had. I hope you know this.

Those attached to the chains (umbilical cord) become dependant on Makima. The same way a baby is dependant on its mother.

I love Fujimotos symbolism, you could even go more in depth because she’s modelled after abusive mothers and controlling women and say they’re not just dependant, but forced to be dependant by her. I’ll vouch for this one as someone with a mom who unfortunately resembles Makima very closely.

I am dependant on her to make my decisions, because she raised me in such a manipulative way so she always has me around her finger. Even though I know, I still love her because of the denial and gaslighting, the same way Denji is with Makima. Even if she abuses and hurts him and makes him rely on her, Denji will always go back to her once she shows affection or he’s reminded she’s the only mother figure he will ever have.

#chainsaw man #denji chainsaw man #my thoughts #my life sucks #csm part 2 #csm part 1 #makima chainsaw man #makima #tatsuki fujimoto

[theatrekidsstuff]

I HAVE ALL THESE IDEAS BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS THEM😭 I DONT WANT TO WRITE THEM BUT I DONT WANT TO DRAW THEM😭 (my ideas are mostly Joanfk head canons)

#why why why #my life sucks #why am i like dis #clone high #joanfk #clonehigh

[bbgnyx]

I just got rejected by the guy in the worst way possible 👍. ok so basically I had liked this guy for a few weeks now and I finally plucked up the courage to go ask him and the bitch really said "you're pretty cute and all but you are too skinny and bony for me" 😃 bitch just made me feel insecure so good job you must be feeling real proud 👏👏

(how do i always end up liking douchebags wtf)

#my life sucks #nyx speaks #random life talk #ok imma be boring yall #byeee <3

[hellcatinnc]

My Preorder Radiant Tale Rant

F**K Amazon!

Today is a Fuck You kind of day for me.... I preordered Radiant Tale over a month ago from amazon for them to turn around and cancel this morning on me after saying it would be delivered today. So I search my local stores and they either don't have it in stock or just don't have it. I can't use my credit cards on Nintendo's website because some reason they no longer want my money and yet I asked them months ago about this and no matter what card I use it rejects and they are useless and help none with that. Not to mention when I preordered it I did it through klarna so I could payments every 2 weeks yet you can't buy actual gift cards with klarna so that leaves that option out.

I'm about in tears today because I feel jaded because every where I turn on most sites are talking about people getting htis game early or they got it today. I had planned to binge all weekend and instead I'm sitting here hurt. Like I love alot of otome games but this is one of those that caught my attention from the start and I really wanted to play it, this was even a early birthday gift and yet who knows if I can get it any time soon. Sighs.... Over look me I needed to rant somewhere... Proves you can't even trust in a preorder to make sure you get a game you want on time.

#anime #gaming #otome #radiant tale #preorders #preorder #amazon #my life sucks #crying on the inside #depressed

[kittennovak]

Full update time. I'm back in the hospital. Last night, hubby started noticing I had jaundice (yellowing of the skin and eyes, for those who don't know). Which is a classic symptom of liver failure. We rushed to our GP this morning to figure out what was going on. She suggested going to the ER. They pretty much took me back immediately and started doing blood work. My liver and pancreas enzymes were elevated. Then they sent me for an ultrasound. Gallstones. I have one blocking the neck of my gallbladder. They're planning on stone removal tomorrow or Monday. After that, they'll keep an eye on my levels and pain. If they stay down, they plan on removing my gallbladder completely.

All these health issues can suck a fuck.

#personal #health #my life sucks

[flamingpen18]

The BS Keeps Coming

The guy that Dave is working for and who has allowed us to store our things in his garage has been a huge *sshole to Dave. To me, it looks like he's trying to get rid of Dave but doesn't have the cojones to do so. Today, he accused Dave of stealing $35 all because he was too lazy to get off his ass and go look. Dave is a lot of things: moron, insensitive, etc., but a thief is not one of them. He's had people steal from him, so that is one thing he hates.

So now he's telling me he needs to get out of the job because he can't be dealing with an 81 yr old male that is constantly accusing him of shit and screaming at him daily. This means we need to find someplace else to store our things. The problem is that all of the storage facilities in this area are expensive.

So we now need money for another storage facility, a motel room, rack and pinion for the van as well as a new tire, gas, and food. The list keeps growing while our opportunities keep shrinking. We are trying to hold off fixing everything on the van that needs repairs. The most important things first. The money we do get is just enough to get a room for a few days or some food but not be able to take care of everything we need to take care of at relatively the same time. It's nerve-wracking.

Dave's never going to get hired by any business due to his knee and the need to wear the brace. He can't walk without it, and everywhere he has applied to told him he was an insurance risk. And we all know I am useless and permanently disabled.

Is there no end in sight? Soon? Please?

@helly-watermelonsmellinfellon is fed up with sleeping on the floor.

Motel rooms are soo expensive around here. The Econo Lodge is crazy. It's over $240. We have to be out of here on Friday, and the cheap places are not cheap.

Even the Roadway Inn is expensive. There are a few run-down motels but they are all full cus there are homeless people living in them. We need help. We need a miracle.

#my life sucks #help #helly-watermelonsmellinfellon #go fund me #homeless #gofundme #donate #gfm #poverty #frightened #disabled #actually disabled #chronic disability #disabilties #physical disability

[fortunatelev]

I logged out and stopped playing early. Idk...I'm just bored...like I have no one to hang out with and talk to and sometimes it gets a bit depressing seeing other people hanging out and having fun together. Anytime I have tried to make friends and be kind to people I would always get treated like garbage. I have nothing but traumatic memories of people and how they all treated me like shit. Like wow...am I really that unlikeable? Why was I even born then? 😅

But seriously, though. While it is true that you dont need to have friends, life is more fun when you do have them. Right now...I'm just bored. Lonely and bored. Life feels so dull and pointless. Like?? What's the point to anything? Like you think you are living right and it's like "Okay God I cut off the toxic friends and the people who were bad influences so when am I going to have people to talk to or am I just going to be destined to talk to myself for the rest of my life?" And that is what I actually do. I have full conversations with myself because I have no one to actually talk to. I guess God wanted me to be isolated from everyone and not have any social skills. lol okay so that made me undeniably crazy. what was the point of that exactly? what is the point of me being here? to be a laughing stock to people? to be the butt of a joke? like why? what is the purpose of me being on this earth. I'm tired of everyday being the same thing over and over.

I feel like I dont really have much of a life nor much to offer. I can't work or drive because of my mental health and my inability to handle stress and my crippling anxiety. I have no social skills and lack the proper necessary skills to make connections and talk to people. Why the hell am I here? I'm just so bored with my damn life.

It must be nice for the people who do have friends and who do have relationships. You're fortunate. I'll probably never have that especially since it seems like God clearly doesn't want me to. I am wondering why I am even still serving Him. I know I shouldn't be envious of people or covet what they have and I dont want to but?? You arent exactly helping me not to now are you? I want friends...I want a relationship...I want human connection but I never get that. I just get treated like garbage like I am nothing and worthless. Its like each time I see people hanging out that is just the universe's way of telling me "yeah you will never have anyone or connect with them. you will never have that. they are fortunate and you arent". And where are you in this, God? Do you care about my suffering? You said in your word for us to delight ourselves in you and serve you and I have done that and even so with all of the time I have given you and all the times I have defended your name and honored you, I get nothing in the end but suffering. How is that fair?

I dont connect with anyone and any connection I do try to make always falls through the cracks and I have to do all the work while they lose interest and stop talking to me. Now I no longer trust anyone after all the betrayals and abandonment. My life just sucks and I'm tired of living it honestly. Like the people who treat me bad always have people to support them and help them but I get absolutely nothing but people telling me that "they dont enjoy being around me when I am sad". How is it that other people can get support and love and they dont even serve you and yet I get absolutely nothing when I am serving you.

I just dont understand this. God, I have served you and have made every effort to revere you but it just feels like you always want me to be lonely and suffering which is already horrifically bad for my terrible mental health. Do you even care? I know I am supposed to serve you and all but given the fact that I already suffer with my mental health, why do I need to have a lack of social skills, too? That just seems cruel of you. I am trying to trust you but I am beginning to lose my faith in you. I don't feel motivated to live this life anymore.

#my life sucks #god has forsaken me #god #lonely #bored #no friends #loneliness #sigh #i want friends #socially isolated #isolated #trauma #trust issues #i give up #im just done #done with faith #faith

[borderlineflower]

i miss having someone to call mine

#rambles #bpd #bpdprobs #actuallybpd #i hate being a widow #my life sucks #i crave love so badly but im not able to love again

[nanixo]

Every time I try, it goes wrong :/

#female hysteria #girl blogging #lana stan #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #girl interrupted #girl blogger #coquette #lana del ray aesthetic #im going insane #going crazy #nina sayers #mentally exhausted #mentally unstable #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #my life sucks #I hate myself #I hate it here #why do i do this to myself #why am i like this

[chihuahua-is-a-psycho]

i guess i never knew better (discussion) CW: pretty depressing, pls don't read if you dont want to get in a bad mood :[

hi i know i've been dead for about a month but i wanna talk about something; get something off my chest i wish i could go back and change who i was back in 2020-2022. i just seemed like a total asshole, and all i did was do fearmongering and post about me being depressed 24/7 instead of posting actual talent...not like i ever had talent. it sucks. what kind of person was i back then? i was straight up unlikable. no one wanted to hang around with me since i was all political and edgy and shit. it was verryyy cringe. i had so much potential yet i wasted it on edgy art and rant/vent posts 24/7. not to mention i was so fucking dramatic, fucking getting all sad and shit all because i said something that no one saw at all. another thing to add: i have a shitty hyperfixation that won't stop. and its with a cartoon character. its been 4 fucking years. "robo you were just a child" yeah no shit but come on. even 9 year olds would act better than me. i was a troglodyte, trust me. i know i can just move on, but i'm just so fucking guilty of how many people i upset with my posts on ig and twitter back then 3 years ago. im so sorry. i had so much potential but now i just cant start over anymore since im a terrible reminder of how i used to be when i was all over social media. i barely fucking use it anymore because i learned to shut the fuck up. plus i have to learn it the hard way: my old art was ass. if you're wondering if i ever got help, yes i am getting help right now and i am recovering. things have been very traumatic this year for me but i can tell you im handling this a lot better than myself from 2022. cheers

#personal vent #vent post #fml #what do i even do with my life anymore #im just a worthless slob that had nothing to do in my life back then #now i have health issues because i was a fatass sitting behind a keyboard for 3 years #my life sucks