#my mind is a fucking prison

[rendevok]

your narumitsu art made me weep with joy and I heard you want more requests 👀

idk if this is the right place to put them but I think phoenix coming with miles to try on his glasses for the first time would be sweet :,) miles asking how they look and phoenix being just smitten. the good stuff

Dear anon… you sure know how to pick em! Things got very out of hand very quickly while drawing, and well. You inspired me to draft a comic! I didn’t want to make you wait long, so here are the sketches for the pages relevant to your request <3

Thanks so much, and hope you enjoy~! 💜

#narumitsu #wrightworth #we do love a good oh moment but i think beanix deserves something more like a sack of bricks. you’re fucked king! #if it’s not clear beanix is imagining ALL of that. like photoshopping the glasses onto memories #the glassesfication of miles edgeworth #also i can’t promise this comic will see the light of day because i’m VERY bad at writing these two despite what you might think #the whole time i was writing it i was like ‘he would not say do or think that. draw it.’ in a i-cant-do-any-better-rn way #still despite that this was super fun so THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE INSPO!!! #hope edgeworth enjoyers approve bc idk what im doing #thank you for your time if you’re reading this welcome to the prison of my mind <3 #rendoodles #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #beanix #fan comic #fan art #aa #anonymous #asks

[clottedscream]

“it’s just a warmup sketch,” i say to myself. “i’m just gonna warm up on shading and coloring. i’m just warming up on anatomy.” my spine crackles from sitting in shrimp stance for 2 hours. “just to warm up.”

#dairydraws #epithet erased #molly blyndeff #prison of plastic #jelloapocalypse #epithet erased prison of plastic #eepop #digital painting #molly is really fun to practice drawing hair on but i do kinda feel like i’m fighting against the skin tone in her ref whenever i draw her #i don’t even necessarily feel like i favor warmer or more saturated tones in general but idk #something about the color in her ref doesn’t mesh right with my painting style #i should try painting her lit in cooler toned light that might help #i was drawing her crying and then changed my mind #but i forgot to erase the little snot bubble. so i guess molly has a runny nose #the reason i got so carried away is almost definitely because the cafe im in is playing such slow relaxing music #i usually listen to pretty upbeat stuff when i draw #and it motivates me to go fairly fast. but i was just kinda enjoying myself and going with the rhythm of the lowfi beatstrumentals #this is a great cafe. the masala chai here fucking shreds #it’s so cardamom heavy and baby do i love cardamom #you know a tea at a cafe is good if drinking the stuff leftover at the bottom gets a lil grit in ur mouth #molly deserves a warm cup of masala chai frankly

[lupeloto]

thinking about ian’s face here, when mickey was talking about his family, saying “You had my back more than they ever did.” the way it falls and he looks down, it’s a mixture of sadness and guilt and regret. ian was always mickey’s family, his only family that cared about and loved him.

ian knows he isn’t going with him at this point. and so, he knows that makes him one more person to add to the list of people that have let mickey down/abandoned him.

have a lovely friday:-D

#my mind is a prison #they need to leave my brain alone for FIVE FUCKING MINUTES #ian gallagher #gallavich #shameless #mickey milkovich #gallavich meta #i hate them so much #i’m over it

[hereforthecartoons]

Satellite Boys Headcannons

Yusei is a he/they bi, Crow is a transmasc gay/asexual, and Jack is a very loud straight ally.

Aki and Carly and super into horror movies, which really sucks for Jack and Yusei who are really not into horror movies. Yusei can handle most gore, but psychological horrors really mess with him. Jack can't handle gore beyond a stab wound, but he doesn't really mind psychological horrors because he's just like 'nah im just built different (dumber)'

Crow is very superstitious, much like Martha. Knocking on wood, being wary of the number 13, throwing salt over your shoulder (though that one is kinda justified considering spirits are like a real thing in ygo) are all stuff he does on the regular

Crow is the only person in the house who can cook. Yusei has never touched an oven in his life because he's spent half of it forgetting to eat, and Jack is... Jack.

In between the three of them, Jack has caused the most property damage. This is very impressive considering Yusei likes to kick down every door he can't open, regardless of the situation. He can lock pick, he just decides not to most of the time. Crow is usually more sneaky when trying to get into places he's not supposed/allowed to, though he's not above shattering a few windows for fun. Jack just likes blowing stuff up.

Neither Jack or Yusei have gotten their ears pierced (Jack wears clip-ons), because Crow has told them horror stories of what happened when he got his ears pierced in prison and how horribly infected they got (he told them this with a bright smile because he thought itd impress them and has yet to realize the mental ramifications it has had on his family)

Hogan is Martha's last name.

Jack has the most refined fighting style, mainly sticking to hard-hitting punches that can knock you out in one blow. Yusei's is more of a freestyle, mixing both fast punches and kicks to knock someone down as quickly as possible. Crow fights like a kindergartner, with biting, hair-pulling, spitting in your eye being some of his go-to tactics. Crow has nearly bitten off someone's finger before, and is not afraid to do it again.

Crow has only ever served his full jail sentence once. Every other time he's broken out.

All three of them participate in the twin's school activities in some way. Crow and Yusei usually go to the PTA meetings, and Jack usually goes to things like sporting events because he is too competitive for his own good and nobody can stop him.

#yugioh #ygo #ygo 5ds #yugioh 5ds #yusei fudo #jack atlas #crow hogan #aki izayoi #carly nagisa #faithshipping #scoopshipping #crow: haha yeah so anyways then this weird white stuff started coming out of the piercing and it kinda started hurting but i was fine #yusei and jack: what the actual fuck. #crow probably has like amazing prison stories of him just fucking over guards in the smallest ways that hes super proud of #im calling them the satellite boys cuz i dont wanna use their ship name since these are strictly platonic hcs #we need more platonic group names #none of these three are law-abiding and im tired of pretending they are #can you tell crows my favorite #aki loves horror movies change my mind

[remersgf]

i need to watch remer jerk off from like the corner of the room or something

just letting him do his thing while looking at you holding the strongest eye contact ever omfg

watching him buck his hips into his own hand and how he’s getting himself sooooo worked up

watching him cum😭😭 and it goes all over his stomach😭😭😭 and😭and😭 he runs a finger through it and puts it in his mouth😭😭😭😭

#drabble #high as fuck thinking about matt stone #my mind is a prison #and also #him moaning and tossing his head back #but in a theatrical way lowkey #putting on a show for you!!! #doug remer smut #doug remer #baseketball

[good-wine-and-cheese]

Gambling Apocalypse Tenma AU

As I rewatch Kaiji I inevitably end up wanting to combine show I like with other show I like and stuffing fav characters into show. So here we are.

This was uh going to be a short summary type thing but I accidentally wrote a novella about it sorry

This AU starts off with a much more depressive Tenma. After Tobio's death, rather than immediately pour his grief into developing a robot version of his son, he recedes into himself, psychologically paralyzed, likely turning to alcohol to drown out his anguish.

His mental state is taken as an opportunity within the Ministry of Science to have him ejected from his position; Tenma was never the most well-liked director, and there were those with ambition to usurp him that would jump at the chance. Not that he especially cares in his state.

He's eventually dragged out of his stagnation by Ochanomizu - who, inadvertently, becomes the very catalyst pushing Tenma to develop a robot replacement to his child. This was not what he meant by encouraging Tenma to fill the void left by his son.

...But, well, he is no longer the director of the Ministry of Science. His access to limitless government funds and resources for "scientific research" has been cut off, and this is a project he cannot finance on his own. He can't ask Ochanomizu for help, but...interestingly...a representative of a certain shady organization known as the Teiai Corporation reaches out to him, offering to finance and support his project. A sane and well-minded Tenma might think better of it, but grieving and desperate, Tenma accepts their offer and is able to create a robot in the image of his beloved Tobio. For a while, there's joy in his life.

But the bill, as ever, comes due: Tenma must pay up, and the very resources that had been at his disposal will certainly ensure that he will, or else. Of course, he doesn't have the money; instead, he is given a choice. He can relinquish the robot Tobio in order to wipe out his debt - the child is a sophisticated and powerful robot, after all - or he can participate in a certain illicit event hosted by the Teiai Corporation.

It's nothing major...just a four-hour gambling cruise with a collection of desperate, damned souls that were also swept into debt with Teiai. The conditions are simple: Those who choose to participate are given a chance to clear their debts wholesale should they win. And should they lose...?

Well...no one really knows what happens to the losers seized by Teiai. It's said that they labour away their debts under Teiai's watchful eye and are freed once their work has covered their debts, though it's rumoured that most perish before they reclaim freedom.

There's only one answer Tenma can give, of course; he's not willing to lose Tobio again.

Thus is Tenma's debut into the Gambling Apocalypse, where he must become cutthroat in order to survive; if he wants to see his son again, he must make choices that will doom the hapless to miserable servitude, with a nonzero chance it ends in their death.

He survives the cruise, but of course, it was hardly enough to clear his debt; the cruise was never going to be the end of it. Teiai doesn't let go of its victims that easily. He will be called on again: this is a weight that hangs over him, all while he returns to his son Tobio. The same hands that have pushed innocents into hell must now be the hands that can embrace his child.

He wants to protect Tobio from the truth and enjoy what peaceful moments he's allowed with his son, but it's difficult. It's difficult to be the parent of a child who cannot understand the danger that looms ahead; this "happy" home is not to last. Tenma angers quickly and easily. He turns that anger onto Tobio.

As Teiai's games become more and more vicious and unrelenting, as his conscience holds onto the last vestiges of thread that remain, Tenma even threatens, once, to give the boy in: it would all end, then; the debt would be clear and no longer would he have to endure Tobio's childish annoyances, his ungratefulness.

The next time that Tenma is beckoned, Tobio takes matters into his own hands. He does understand, now; and he would have, if only Tenma had bothered to explain sooner. If it's a debt that needs clearing, he will work. He will help his father clear his debts however he can. Of course, it's difficult to find work as a child; but a circus troupe finds amusement in the idea of a child robot, and takes him in. He is whisked into a certainly unpleasant working situation, but he remembers his father, and what he must be enduring. Tobio, also, will endure.

When Tenma returns, Tobio is gone.

All that held Tenma back from becoming something monstrous has disappeared. All that kept him going has disappeared. When he is called upon by Teiai, there is no knowing what sort of person might come out the other end; whether a monster clawing his way to freedom regardless of what actions he must take, or a desolate husk surrendering defeat.

There is still a light, however dim: Found by Professor Ochanomizu and rescued from the circus, Tobio - now Atom - is able to shed light on the situation which Tenma took great pains to keep hidden from his old friend. With time running out, Ochanomizu and Atom must do what they can to save Tenma - from Teiai, and from himself.

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UHHH and that's a wrap!!!! I couldn't quite decide which way Tenma would go after hitting Rock Bottom in this AU, and tbh it would really depend on the kind of mental state he's in at the time. On the one hand I like the narrative of Ochanomizu and Tobio racing to prevent Tenma from crossing a line (actual outright murder probably) - or having to pull him back into humanity (and yknow, his ensuing penance)

But on the other hand having him get sent to Teiai Evil Hell Prison would be interesting because a) there's a lot of narrative potential having Tenma faced with what Teiai is doing with the people that lose the games and b) need him to decimate the foreman at chinchirorin Kaiji style

Tenma's whole character is definitely a much different guy in this AU, he starts off pretty sympathetic, the guy you wanna root for, he just ends up having an inverse character arc where he gets worse instead of better. His conflict with "Tobio" is also kind of reversed, less about being unsatisfied with Tobio as a son and more not being able to handle the fact that he probably has intense PTSD now and isnt capable of coping with it in a way conducive to being a parent (or like, coping at all)

Anyway that's gambling apocalypse tenma!!!

#umataro tenma #long post #well that became a novel. sorry lmao #in my mind teiai's evil hell prison in astro boy verse would probably be quite a bit different than regular kaiji #like. fuckin. weapons manufacturing for teiai or something like that. or scary bad danger robots. horrifying concept #Tenma would be a valuable asset to them whether by giving up Atom or by losing in death game hell and being forced to work for em #and if he dies? they can just take atom #get him out of there. #I'm also thinkin of who Teiai would be represented by.....the snakey loan sharks u could easily put skunk in there. #but who is an evil fucked up sadist billionaire. theres probably someone who could be fucked up enough I just dont know offhand #and im allergic to mischaracterizing in AUs lol im not gonna make a slightly bad guy into an evil freakguy. so. Hyoudou is just himself. #if you squint this could be considered an 80s astro boy AU..has a cruise arc & not actually giving atom away #but man. that tenma LEAST of all deserves this fate lmao #do I want to write fic of this? yes. will I? not likely! #I can just smell it dude this would be some crazy fuckoff 100k shit I am not ready brother #also it would just be soooooo so so so so so edgy. I dont really enjoy writing intensely grim stuff w/ little to no respite #also tbh. I am too stupid. LOL. I cannot write clever gambles alas

[jamesvowles]

house fires

franz kafka / unknown / placebo

Max has something to uphold. He doesn't actually know what it is. A path of destructive killings and false superiority is the only thing that guides him. But as he grows older he wonders if this is really what it takes to be a successful driver. Or has the violence been for cementing how much of a monster he really is, and is meant to be.

#been rotting in my drafts FREE YOURSELF FREE URSELF FROM THIS HELL #vampire au stuff #da mind prison #fuck sorry i gotta get to five tags #woohooo weeheee #max verstappen

[justskyla-art]

so I've gotten back into stardew valley hell (I literally have over 420 hours plugged into this game across all the saves I've played (3)) and..

yeah... i made a farmer oc when me and my friends were obsessed with co-op... there is no saving me...

...and i also realized how much i liked elliott.. and you know how things go...

yeah.... i'm not normal about them...

#the honk mimimimimi girl and the honk shooo honk shooo boy #sdv elliott #sdv farmer #sdv #stardew valley #stardew fanart #watch me only post these two with a little sprinkle of alva and isabel eastward art as a treat... #sdv elliot x farmer #god i feel awful using a shipping tag for the first time ever (be cringe and free.. be cringe and free skyla it's ok..) #have never allowed myself to draw anything i want to until just recently on discord #when my friend plagued me with the fuck it we ball mentality #and this is the first time i've tried being cringe and free on tumblr (I'll never be the same again) (craziness attack charging) #if i get more used to drawing ship art then i can spread my evilness to alva and isabel #<- (my 2 eastward mutuals whom i love and cherish forever and always will be ready for that) #anyways guys so i'll never be the same again now that my mind prison has been destroyed (freedom) #I've doodled these guys (elliott and maylie (farmer oc)) so much already and I've just never shown you them yet (I'm evil) #crazy

[britneyshakespeare]

Henry VI Part 3 III.ii name a better wooing scene you can't

#you can name richard iii i.ii but that's not a BETTER that's an EQUAL #ok maybe it's 0.2% superior #'to tell thee plain i aim to lie with thee'/'to tell you plain i had rather lie in prison' AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! #I LOSE MY MIND EVERY TIME I START BITING MY FINGERS #literally what is more dramatic than you go to a king bc your husband was slain in his war and you beg for his lands to be restored #and the king is like hahaha sleep with me and youre like excuse me >:( #and youre just SO fucking beautiful and alluring that the king PROPOSES TO YOU ON THE SPOT #FUCK OFFFF!!!!!!!!! #ALL HER PERFECTIONS CHALLENGE SOVEREIGNTY BRO!!!!!!! ONE WAY OR OTHER SHE IS FOR A KING!!!!!!!!!! #text post #shakespeare #henry vi part 3 #3 henry vi #iii henry vi #edward iv #elizabeth woodville

[pepprs]

i literally need there to stop being situations circumstances events developments complications and happenstances. for the fucking love of god

#purrs #but there will never stop being any of those things so actually what i literally need is to learn HARD AND FAST how to stop getting so #fucking triggered over a situation i know is NOTHING so bad that im anxious for the entire rest of the day and can’t even get any work done. #like (jade from tesco voice) girls… im not gonna lie to you. i think therapy is not working. i think i am not mentally or emotionally strong #enough to work in this job and i think i am never going to get mentally or emotionally stronger. ive been stuck in the quicksand too long #and now im atrophying. i cannot develop the situational awareness and motor skills or awakeness (and i mean AWAKEness.) to safely and #consistently drive a car. i cannot develop the intellect and drive and courage to get an advanced degree or be in a leadership position that #everyone actually sees as a leadership position lmfao. and i cannot develop the emotional intelligence and inner peace to not get triggered #out of my fucking mind at work to the point where im having anxiety heart palpitations and fighting back tears. i am just stuck as i am #forever. and you know how i know that? BECAUSE IVE WORKED AT THE NATIONALLY RENOWNED CENTER FOR YOU-ARE-NOT-STUCK-AS-YOU-ARE-FOREVER FOR #FIVE FUCKING YEARS SINCE ITS LITERAL FOUNDING AND HELPED TO FOUND IT AND IM STILL LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! i go back to square one EVERY #FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!! how am i supposed to tell other people who they are is what they bring and the world can change and whatever when i am #the fucking antithesis of that. when i don’t even believe my own words. like the way i want to punch out every window in this building rn i #HATE BEING LIKe this i hate being in the psychic prison of scared little girl mode all the time forever no matter what and being beyond help #and disappointing and burdening the people around me because i can’t be fucking normal about like. hierarchy and institutional politics LOL #delete later

[sanjiswetcigarettes0]

I FUCKING NEED A KIDLAW FIC WITH THE VIBE OF you know what they do to guys like us in prison by my chemical romance CUZ THE SONG’S LITERALLY SO THEM I MIGHT GO INSANEE

#AAHHH #you know the angry fuck they always love to have #i am losing my mind #im so obsessed with kidlaw help #kidlaw #one piece #eustass kid #trafalgar water d law #i hope some kidlaw shippers can relate to me i kinda feel weird here #this shit is wild #imaging kidlaw in prison is something else i swear #i believe all mcr songs can be related with them because of the vibe they give off together fucking shit #i need more kidlaw moots…

[defectzim]

TaTr is real and good. <- have a whole story in its head that would NOT fucking happen in canon.

#show doesnt give us anything my brain fills in the gaps #itd I GUESS be an AU but in my heart and mind its real jus lemme have this #Tenn gets re encoded as a service drone after the incident with the SIR units. tallests would rather put the blame on her than admit fault. #They get sent to moo ping 10 not as a prisoner just to work there (i go back on forth on what her specific job is. BUT its low profile.) #something like a custodian. tenn takes it as best she can but she DOES have a bit of that dramatic i want to get revenge feels. #like they've just lost their mission through no fault of her own. its a difficult time for her as she starts to kinda...question things. #like the way the world (or the only one she knows) works around her. but she also knows there isnt much they can do yk. #eventually she meets Tak there. who IS there as a prisoner. #i think theyd bond over the way theyre both victims of circumstance. and how they couldnt do anything to get where they were when meeting. #but hey. maybe being at your own rock bottom isnt too bad if someone's on the same level. #one thing leads to another they start their own “resistance” BUT really it is just them chilling in space. #theres lots of gaps BUT. but....shhh lemme have this i know its corny and would NOT fucking happen but they make me giggle happy smile. #ZIM SPEAKS #oh also mimi is included too. mimi is their emotional support kitty. #kitty mimi is forever i luv her FOREVER. #also i use they/she for tenn jst so theres no confusion ^_^!

[im-diseased-but-cool]

Gimme be honest fellas I can't stop thinking about the parallel of Lucifer loving God so much and God cast him away and fuccijf Sam and Dean like it drives me crazy. I hate these bitches so much they've ruined my life I have never thought about Cain and Abel but guess what folks! I AM THINKING ABOUT THOSE BROTHERS BEVAUSE OF THESE STUPID FUCKING TWINK ASS FAGS!!!!! Sam and Dean die maybe but don't god im in shambles

#diseasy speaky #sam winchester #dean winchester #spn #supernatural #because why do they consume all of my brain #i need to eat food i feel light headed but also i meed to scream in both of their faces bevause why on god green earth are they like that #too many parallels I'm constantly seeing equal signs #double limed bitchen #fucking #... #sam and dean #dean and sam #i dont care they both need to become omnipotent beings and them explode #seriously the parallels #god amd lucifer #cain and abel #whats next??? jesus and judas fucking probably with these sick sons of bitches #im losing my mind chat #chat help me i am losing it all to these atupid wincest fucks #i feel crazy i need to be locked up in a 20 level security prison with norhing bit lile one toilet amd a pillow padded cell spoon fed theoug #a fuckinf tube and j get one visitor oh my god who is it whos visiting me. boom ita dean winchester and he tortures me by talking about his #baby brother and his puppy dog eyes thay you cant say no to but while hes speaking im thrashing around and foaming at the mouth because lem #lemme out of here please free me tlfrom this hell i just want to leave

[corazondebeskar]

december really kicked down the door like “who ordered the seasonal depression with a double side of imposter syndrome?”

#it wasn’t me #you have the wrong house #fuck off #imposter syndrome immediately starting building writer’s block walls like #help I’m trapped in the prison of my mind