#my mother is ashamed of me

[kkoct-ik]

part one of my big requests bundle! and a cobbed together bonus panel. as a treat

#hermitcraft fanart #hermitcraft #goodtimeswithscar #gtws #gtwscar #grian #fanart #hermitshipping #never in my life have i spent a single second considering a mother spore design. sitting in front of this canvas had me @_@ #so shes just a mycelium flavoured grian. which i think is cute. zombie virus fungus type beat #sorry for making them silly (ashamed cat) as if i can help it #ok truthfully ive never in my life thought about mother spore in general. but! i had a lot of fun drawing this anyway. ty for the request! #kostik draws

[moderndaypandora]

I love every "Death set Dream up with Hob on purpose" headcanon, and I love "actually I was planning to throw Chaucer at you but I can wing it pretty damn well and, once I heard Hob call me stupid, I knew, yeah that's going to be Dream's boyfriend". It takes a village (or an older sister) to get Dream a boyfriend.

Now, I'm picturing the entire Endless family blindsided when Dream comes to a family dinner like "I GOT MARRIED! LIKE TWO MINUTES AFTER THE LAST DINNER--" "That was a literal century ago?!"
 "-- YEAH. WE'RE DOING A VOW RENEWAL."

Not a single sibling clocked this. Not even Destiny.

Destiny, out loud: it was an unlikely path in my book, so I didn't give it much attention 
Destiny, in his head: honestly I started speed-reading/skimming through Dream's love life paragraphs because watching him crash and burn and cause massive body counts just seemed so... repetitive and predictable?

Death: knowing our brother, I was carefully managing my expectations and was just glad he was still doing the century meetups last time I'd checked. Good for him, managing to stay with somebody for a century, that outstrips his last relationship by ... like 7 decades.  Kind of offended I wasn't invited to this wedding, kind of not planning to say anything?

Desire: At this point, I stick my fingers in my ears and go "lalalalalala" whenever I hear anything about Dream and want, either him wanting or somebody wanting him, because Death said I had to stop making fun of him for how disproportionate his Yearn to Act Ratio was, and any ammunition I can't use is just ... irritating. I figured if anything really changed, my twin would tell me about his descent into misery.

Despair: He was less miserable, but I assumed it was a fluke and he'd return to his normal equilibrium eventually. And it's not like my twin let me know he'd managed to successfully want AND obtain something?

Destruction is Sir Not Appearing In This Picture.

And Delirium had more important things to think about than her brother's sad love life, like would flying fish fired out of confetti cannons be considered birds until they landed?

Meanwhile all denizens of the Dreaming are never not aware that Dream is happily married, because the weather has been perfect for years and the throne room stained glass is some variation of Hob and Dream being lovey-dovey.

Lucienne: If I see them necking in the stacks ever again I will be forced to take action, and Lord Morpheus is aware of that fact, but we haven’t had a library flood in 103 years, so overall we’re pleased.

#silly nonsense #the sandman #dreamling #dream's love life is a car accident that everybody sees coming and either goes 'AGAIN?' or prepares popcorn for #and he's very aware of that fact #which is why he's like 'can we keep this private for a little while? not ashamed of you #just very aware of how my siblings will react. a lot of wincing and bet placing' #hob: your family places bets? #dream: yeah. destiny keeps a record of all wagers but doesn't take part since he's omniscient #hob: so isn't he already aware we're married? #dream: he's the one who taught me snitches get stitches #dream: and he errs on the side of 'if you don't already know #i shouldn't tell you' #( #destiny: mother didn't raise us to snitch #desire: mother didn't raise us at alll #) #dream: so he'll keep quiet because it's not his business #hob: alright but we're wearing wedding rings and if anybody asks we're not denying we're married #dream: [touched that hob's so emphatic that they're married] #idek what century this is happening in #it'd be funny if it's 18th or 19th #therefore there'd be no quarrel in 1889 #but if dream got fishbowled hob would be out for blood

[heyimkana]

#the faces he makes... #god i need him #i need him in a way my over-accepting mother would be very ashamed of me #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #megumi smut #kana.jjkdoujinshi

[pens-personal]

My mom got a shitty tattoo of a dragonfly on her hip when she was my age and she always regretted it and got it removed like a couple years ago anyway should I get a better one in the same place just to fuck with her.

#tattoo #tattoos #parental issues #I do want tattoos I'm just not sure what and where y'know #this is mostly a joke but also... it's a pretty harmless tattoo location #like who's even gonna see it aside from me and Jerald right? #course on the other hand it might he a waste of money #but there's also something to be said for embracing elements of my mother she's ashamed of and has cast off herself #when she compares the two of us so frequently #idk

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

we just went through some family albums and. enjoy my grandma being cunty at my parents' wedding

#i can also use this to talk about my favourite insane thing about her #my dad is from a small town in alacant and she ran a bar there so she knew everyone #and wanted to do a second wedding there after the official wedding #my parents agreed to doing it after the honeymoon but said no to wearing the same outfits (my mum was pregnant with me so her dress #would probably not had fitted her) #however. after their honeymoon they learned that my grandma had done a fake wedding in their honour #inviting all of the town plus my mum's family from alacant #and not only that but she made my dad's best friends who were dating at the time (and are married now) wear wedding dresses and pretend #they were my parents #they did the whole mass service (without the vows ofc) and cut the wedding cake and the first dance. my dad's friend danced with my grandma #as if she was his mother etc. #he made sure no photographs survived from that night and they're still deeply ashamed of it #so yeah. that's my grandma <3

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

a very sad thought that just popped into my head, regarding Snake's comment about orphanages being horrible places... I was worried about it messing with my backstory for Snake, but actually it makes my headcanons even sadder

obviously he was in a terrible orphanage which probably abused and neglected their charges

that's not even the worst part, though, and he doesn't KNOW the worst part

after they were separated, Felicity looked for him everywhere she thought of to look

she never thought to look in circuses, because, well, the idea that her son was some freakshow to be gawked at never occurred to her

but she did look in orphanages, every single one in the area and traveling as far as she thought the people who took him would be willing to go

the orphanage where Snake wound up found his appearance off-putting, and the headmaster/headmistress or caregivers (such as they were, considering the God-awful care they gave) would make sure that nobody who came looking for children would see him

whenever someone came to the orphanage in hopes of adopting children, or in Felicity’s case looking for a missing child, these people would hide Snake in another room until the prospective parent left (with or without a child)

“look at yourself, boy. what parent would pick out a child like you?”

it makes my backstory for him hurt more, because he had a chance to reunite with his mother before he grew up

his mother was in the other room looking for her son, and he didn’t know it

she came looking for her child who’d been kidnapped, and the people who ran the orphanage hid him from her because they thought his appearance would drive people away

the people who took him were responsible for ripping a child away from his mother, but the people who ran the orphanage are at least as culpable for the fact that he went through hell in the following years, tortured and abused instead of with his mother

all because they couldn’t conceive of someone loving a child who looked like Snake.

#child abuse tw #Black Butler #Kuroshitsuji #Snake #headcanons #LISTEN I REALIZED JUST NOW HOW HORRIFIC THIS MAKES MY BACKSTORY FOR HIM #this poor fucking child at like five or six years old being HIDDEN while his mother desperately searches for him #she's a few km or so away but he's concealed away and being taught to be ashamed of himself #meanwhile there's this woman who loves him deeply and wants her child back #and he doesn't even know she's out there because other people are cruel #UGHHHHHH I'M GONNA LIE DOWN AND CRY ABOUT THIS FOR A FEW HOURS COME JOIN ME-

[babymyleopard]

honestly? yes. I need validation, I feel the most alive when I am around others and I only feel beautiful when there's someone else's eyes upon me.

THIS is what makes us human. it's not a flaw or weakness. we are social creatures and we need to relate and socialize.

#being a sociologist that's what always fascinated me abou society as a concept #but at the same time I've been ashamed of that for all my life #my mother raised me to believe being independent and strong is abandoning humanity #I'm listening to Barbara's book while I wait for the physical copy to arrive #and that's what she is saying to me #the simple possibility of us understanding other's experiences being capable of empathy is what I think is wonderful about us people #people who need people etc etc

[kkoct-ik]

god put me on this earth to be attracted almost exclusively to characters who are parents and then to be embarrassed about it

#kostik speaks #its crazy to me #just specifically that this is what tears me up #i have all sorts of unethical kinks and while its not like i talk about them publicly im not Ashamed about them #the dads though? absolutely #flagging for brief kink talk because i know a lot of kids follow me better safe than sorry #this post is about kaname date and boss aitsf #im coming round to date (i have a bit of a crush) and ive consistently thought boss was smoking hot #turns out shes a mother. fuck my whole life

[maretriarch]

ive gotten a lot of horrible comments from older middle aged mildly overweight women about my weight loss but the one that makes me the most sad is "what you've lost, ive put on/you've given it to me/etc" like its a "joke" but it really shows how in our society other women are not like. separate people entirely but almost inherently other rulers to measure yourself against in a lot of ways but mostly when it comes to beauty standards

#something something self policing misogyny #also have never gotten a bad word abt my body hair except from older women #its like it triggers a shame response in themselves like theyre ashamed as if it was them that was hairy #and im not like Immune why would i be ill see a beautiful woman and feel like immediately worse abt myself and can see how if i was like a #different person it would make me resent her #i think this is strongest with mothers/daughters bcs id argue most parents see children as the clearest reflections of themselves/ #their parenting skills/their lifestyle/ literally themselves they often have the same goddamn face #maybe inherently isnt the word this all stems from patriarchal values of fuckable appealing to men woman =worthy woman #so women that arent are seen as lacking some sort of moral quality theyre Bad People

[kqluckity]

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#it's kind of funny how much of a failure and a disappointment i feel every day tbh #and it's not like im doing anything to change that but that doesn't mean I don't feel like that #like. im kind of ashamed of feeling like that too because i know it's 100% deserved. i am both of those things #and i always feel like a burden. most of the time i just want to drop out and go back to my hometown so i can maybe find a job #no matter how much it sucks #and help my mom at home #like. idk. i honestly have no hopes for my future anyways im ngl i never actually expected to get to 20 let alone 22 so this is really a lot #i just. don't think this is for me tbh #but i know that if i were to discuss this with my mother I'd just tell her that i don't know why I don't want to continue anymore #or start crying. or both. #i just don't want to feel like a burden but honestly being here and not even having a job to maybe help her a bit isn't. well. helping with #this feeling #personal

[depresseddepot]

yes my sourdough turned out badly and yes my mother laughed at me for failing and YES i am crying like an idiot but i will be so brave about it and i will not let her meanness dissuade me from trying again

#i knew i fucked it up bc it didn't raise properly but i wanted to bake it anyway #and i was still so proud bc i made something. even if it was fucked up and bad i still did it #and ofc she came over and looked at it and laughed at me #all snotty saying ''you're not going to like it'' like i was stupid for even trying #im beginning to see where my issues are coming from lmao #im not even embarrassed bc i knew it wouldn't be right but. why does she always have to make me feel like im a fucking idiot #EVERY time i try something new she's super patronizing and treats me like im 12 years old #and when it does turn out well and im excited about it she gives me the cold shoulder for like a week #we aren't fucking competing to see who can be the better housewife. i just wanted to bake some fucking bread #i will not be ashamed. i will not let my mother make me feel small for trying something new. #this is why i still haven't told them about quilting #gritting my teeth i WILL eat my chewy fucked up sourdough and i WILL like it because i MADE it and SHE DIDN'T #and if she wants to act like this is a fucking competition that is her problem #i have met other mothers who are so kind and supportive and do it naturally because that is how they are #my mother will not be that way towards me but i can be that way towards myself. fuck her for making me feel worthless #i will move out and she will continue to think i can't even cook an egg without needing help #and i will thrive and barely speak to them and they will be confused and act victimized #and it is not my fucking problem

[poisonandpages]

"2014 nostalgia 🤩" mmm no thanks that was one of the worst years of my life cheers

#personal #the year my dad told me my mother would be ashamed of me if she were still alive and I nearly killed myself on more than one occasion #I developed an alcohol problem that has followed me off and on since #and altogether my mind wound up at the bottom of a very deep pit that I've worked really hard to climb out of and stay out of since #plus it just feels weird to me as someone nearly thirty seeing all these youngsters talk about nostalgia for a time that imo was #relatively recent #but I guess that kind of thinking is inevitable with age #People now talk about my younger years the way I used to think of my parents' #time is weird

[greppelheks]

Things could be worse! I could still be the person who accepted shitty, abusive behavior from someone without saying anything.

#absolutely insane that that was me #absolutely insane that im no longer that person #everytime i wonder why im so so scared to date someone again #and then i remember the aaaabsolute humiliation and shitty behavior my ex put me through #and im like ok that could have something to do with it #licherally one time when we hadent been together for long she took me to a surprise party for her mother #her entire family was there it was at her aunts house #as soon as we arrived there she ditched me to hang out with her cousins - just walked away didnt say anything #huge house huge amount of land around it no idea where she was #didnt introduce me to nobody knowing i was shy and introverted and i didnt know Anyone in her family except her mother and father #i was SO uncomfortable but i introduced myself to her family complimented her aunts beautiful house sat with her granny to make acquaintanc #after like an hour and a half of that i found her she was playing football with her cousins #whole family gather around with drinks so i joined them to watch #she didnt acknowledge me at all #and i was just watching her feeling absolutely miserable and already lowkey ashamed to have her family see this but relieved to not have to #socialize for a bit and just be able to watch... and she turned arond and yelled at me like why tf are you just fucking standing there #humiliating me in front of her entire family #and i didnt day SHIIIIT #i walked away to hang out with her brother and his girlfriend and have i didn't say shit #if it happened now i would immediately dump her ass and go home wtffff #personal #praise the lord im no longer that girl but im also terrified of dating now help #she also one time took me to a house party at her friends and i didnt see her all night #i shouldve gone home after an hour but I STAYED?! wtf lmao #and then when I found her in the backyard she didn't acknowledge me and just ignored me while I sat next to her #and continued the conversation with someone else #i literally had brain damage back then i swear

[scarletseoul]

I’m sorry my progress is so slow but I promise I’m writing the Cho Guesung fics 👍 I got those bitches locked and loaded in my drafts, I just never have a lot of time so the progress has been slow but steady

#cho gue sung #number 9 #south korea #football #soccer #football smut #update #kpop #fanfic #writers on tumblr #smut #my mother would be ashamed of me

[godsfavoritejester]

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#my friend & i were sexually assaulted #the other night & bc of the circumstances #there’s no way we can report it #i feel too ashamed to #but i wish him the worst #i hope he dies in his dumb #ass car…& I hope his #mother never heals #bc she gave birth to #a piece of shit #& couldn’t teach him right #my bf won’t even lay w me #doesn’t wanna touch me