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awkwardgtace · 2 years

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I Can't Remember

made a kaijune story hadn't planned to but was encouraged to by folks. hope y'all like it!!

TW: Death, Mentions of death, A little gore, i guess dehumanization, uhh honestly i'm not sure what to trigger this one for so please lemme know if i gotta add any :D

I Can't Remember

I couldn’t tell what was happening. My body felt strange. I flexed my arms as they seemed to get longer. I winced as sharp claws replaced my normal nails. I couldn’t remember what I was doing. I didn’t know how I got here. My body felt like it was growing heavy. I leaned forward and touched something smooth and cold. It felt strange. I curled my fingers, a strange sound filled my ears. I knew this sound…

“The subject is waking up!” Someone called.

Alarms started blaring. I couldn’t tell what was happening. They were so loud. I slammed my hand on the smooth surface in front of me. It started to crack. I felt so weird and strange. I tried to move more, but it felt like I was running out of space. Something was pressing against me, I couldn’t breathe anymore. It felt like water started to fill my lungs. I slammed my hands hearing the cracking sound again.

“We need to stop it. Sedate the subject!”

Was I the one they wanted to sedate? I couldn’t understand what was going on. My body was growing heavier. I couldn’t take it. I started to bash against the smooth surface. The cracking sound grew louder, but I still couldn’t breathe. There were more noises, I couldn’t place them. The space I was in started to grow smaller. I needed to know what was happening. I pulled back the best I could and slammed into the cool surface hearing something shatter.

“Evacuate the area! We’re losing control! Get the guards here now!”

I couldn’t stand the noise. I didn’t know why people kept shouting. I didn’t remember why I was here. I needed to go home, I needed to go back to someone. I felt cool air on my face. I reached towards it. It wasn’t big enough. I could barely get my hands through. I grabbed the edges of the opening. I hissed as something sharp pinched my palms. I pulled them back, I couldn’t see. I needed to fix my hands, but something was wrong. I couldn’t open my eyes. I needed to fix this somehow.

“Lockdown the facility! The subject is bleeding. We don’t know what the blood will do.”

I needed to get out. I felt trapped, the space felt like it was shrinking. I pressed just below the open cool space. The surface started cracking much faster. I placed my other hand next to it and pushed forward. The cracking drowned out the sound of shouts and screams. I felt the surface fall away and followed it down. Something scratched my skin as I fell.

“Quickly, evacuate the area and the town. We need to get everyone out of here as soon as possible!”

I grimaced. I still felt wrong. My body felt much lighter now that I was out of the space. I flexed my fingers, they felt wrong. Almost like they were too long. I clicked against something as my nails… no my claws hit my skin. It was like my skin had become hard suddenly. I reached up to my face and there was something on it. I needed to pull it off.

I couldn’t get a grip. Something was there. I used my claws to make an opening to start pulling it off. There was screaming, I’m not sure whose it was. It might have been mine. I kept pulling the thing off, light pouring into my eyes. It was painful. Something hit me that forced me to pull the thing off my face completely.

“Sir, it didn’t work. The subject’s skin is too hard. None of the safeguards are working and the mask is gone!”

I had a mask so they had to mean me, I was hit by something again. Everything was too bright. I moved my arm, but there were more screams. They sounded quiet even outside of the confining space. I had too much happening, I couldn’t tell what anything was. The light was too much. I needed it to turn off. I slammed my fist down. Something warm and wet wound up there followed by more screams. The light went off after that.

It took a bit of time, but I could finally see. I was in some small laboratory. It was too small, I couldn’t stand even if I tried. I lifted my hand to see what I’d hit. It was red, bugs didn’t bleed red. I leaned closer, barely making out the mangled form of a small thing. I knew that form, it felt bad to see it there. This made no sense. I looked around, the small lab had even small technology.

I narrowed my eyes at the small ones who still had something aimed at me. I couldn’t remember how I got here. I was doing something important. I had somewhere to be. I needed to reach them. Although I didn’t know who they were. My body started to burn, the small space feeling claustrophobic. I knew it was my own scream this time when the small things around me covered their ears.

Something hurt, everything hurt. I was on fire. I felt like I wouldn’t survive. The fire grew on my back and I felt my skin break. I screamed again as something seemed to grow along my spine. I heard shouts get cut off, and turned to see what looked like a tail covered in splatters of red. Bugs shouldn’t bleed. The tail flicked, was it mine?

My body burned again. It knocked the wind out of me, forcing my hands forward to catch me. More mangled screams, more red things. Were they bugs? My mind was getting hazy, I needed help. I dug my nai- claws into the surface below me. It came up in my fists. The soft soil beneath whatever had been below me felt good. It felt right. I looked around more.

“Don’t let the subject’s blood hit the soil!”

I was tired, but in pain. This place was too small. I needed to find someone, I needed to get home. Who was waiting for me? Who did I need to find? I couldn’t think. I needed something, anything.

“Subject 295.” The small thing was speaking. What were these things? “Y-you need to remain calm. We’ll get you back to sleep and everything will be good again. Remember why we’re doing this.”

The voice made my head hurt. It made me angry. I moved my hand, it was so big next to the small thing. I blocked the small thing from escaping. It made me angry, why did it make me angry? Vines came up from the soil I let in. White flowers bloomed along it. Flowers… I was looking for these. I needed them. The small thing said it would help.

“Sleep?” I mumbled. The voice didn’t sound like mine. What did I sound like? The small thing shivered as the flowers came close. I needed these flowers. Why did I need them?

“Y-yes sleep. I-I told you we’d get all the white blossoms if you worked with us. Just go back to s-sleep and you can never worry about them again.”

I got angry. I closed my fingers around the small thing. I needed these flowers. They were mine. I almost missed a different small thing nearby. I leaned close, it was so tiny. What was it? Why did it make me so scared to see it? I was angry, not scared. Something crashed. I looked behind me, I saw… me.

There was a picture of me on something. It was the me before. The me who didn’t have claws or a tail. I stared at the picture, ignoring the small thing pushing against my tightening grip. I hated the small thing. The image I stared at shifted, me with small things? No no not small things, humans. I’m human. I should be that size… The red splatters. The mangled bodies.

“What did you do to me?” I asked. The small thi- the small human surrounded by my hand stuttered and trembled. “What did you do to me!?”

I should be human. I should be a small thing. I shouldn’t see the red splotches on a tail or mangled forms under my hands. I shouted, the place started shaking. A building, a large building. What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?What did they do?

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I don’t know how much later I woke up, but I was alone. The place around me was filled with plants and trees that matched my new height. I started to move, wincing when a bit of rubbly dug into my cheek. The facility that did this was smaller than before. I could crush the remnants with a single foot. I couldn’t see any red splotches like before, but I didn’t look too hard.

I moved carefully, wincing each time I heard that small place break. I didn’t know what they did to me, but I wasn’t happy to do this. Once I was off it I climbed to my feet. The ground felt too far away. I shook off the feeling by focusing back on the small building. I couldn’t believe I’d ever fit inside. I had estimated poorly. It was small enough I may not even notice while walking around. It felt almost like looking at an ant hill…

I wanted to protect it, treat it like a memorial. I didn’t know how I could do that. I just needed some kind of dome. I needed to ensure I couldn’t hurt it and if humans came they could get in. I jumped as vines grew up around the small building. It created a dome that only came up to above my ankle. It was enough though, I’d be careful. At least I hoped I would.

I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t have a place to go and I didn’t know why I wound up here. I knew the white blossoms were important to me. I took a step away from the small place that did this and froze. Screams… more humans? I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to go towards the screams, but I didn’t want to cause more death.

I stiffened as vines shot out from the ground near me. I didn’t know what to think as they seemed to seek out things and then hold them up high. They were brought up to my waist before stopping. Carefully I started to crouch, freezing when I heard the screams again. They were closer now.

I had to squint to see past the thick vines, but I just barely made out the small forms of humans. I fell back, I couldn’t believe it. The vines reacted to me, to my thoughts. They needed to put the humans down, this wasn’t safe. My blood ran cold when the vines reacted again, releasing the humans immediately. I tried to catch them, but my skin was too hard.

I was shaking as I pulled my hands closer. All over I had the small bodies of humans. They weren’t breathing, I could tell now. I don’t know why, but I could make out each face and look of fear from when they fell. I had killed them…

I needed some way to fix this. How could I have done this? It might have been less painful if I had just stepped on them by accident. I tried to control the vines this time. Calling them to take the bodies that I’d caught and the ones I failed to catch. I needed memorials, anything to make up for what I’d done. The vines listened, pulling back to a place somewhere too close for comfort.

I watched in awe as a graveyard erected itself in front of me. There were no names, but markers for each human I’d hurt. I should have listened, I should have gone back to sleep. I stood again, looking over the area that appeared to be mine now. I wished I was smaller. There’s nothing I would be able to do to keep humans safe from me.

I moved carefully attempting to avoid any more humans I could hurt. I managed to find a clearing that felt somehow familiar. I sat down, still able to see for miles. I wish I knew what would be safe for humans near me. The best I could do is try to get better control of those vines. I had to avoid any more deaths because I didn’t know what I could do.

I spent years there, rarely standing from my spot in the clearing. Humans would come to my forest from time to time. I would try not to think or move when they did. A few times I failed and the vines would bring them close to me. I was better at getting them put down safely when that happened. There weren’t many humans who joined the graveyard over that time.

One of the few that actually spoke gave me an idea of my looks. Glowing eyes, one blue and one green. Claws that looked able to black out the sky, but they were somehow soft to touch. Almost like moss. I had spikes on my back that seemed to come out of my spine. That human had been kind, but got hurt while trying to get an idea of just how big I had become. I couldn’t help much, but I got them to a safer spot. I never heard their voice again, I would never know if they survived.

I’d started to be able to sleep. It became easier to avoid hurting humans when I did that. The vines built up around me during those times. I liked the emptiness I gathered during that. I just had to hope no humans came close. I hadn’t seen any in a long time. The humans may finally have stopped coming here. I could lay down and sleep for once. I didn’t have to sit like always. I shuffled around until I was able to place my head down between the facility and the graveyard.

“We shouldn’t be out here still.”

“I’m not leaving until I find a body.”

“It’s been years! We’ll only find skeletons at best.”

“Then I’m not leaving until I find the skeleton. Go back to camp, you know you’re not able to handle hiking around like this. You don’t want to pass out again.”

“I’m not losing you too. I’m staying with you-”

I heard the human start coughing. I hadn’t even expected to hear humans the next time I woke up. I had no idea how long it had been since I’d decided to rest. I listened to the coughing, something about it bothered me more than other times humans came here weak. I heard a scream and my eyes shot open. The vines didn’t act did they?

The humans weren’t close enough to see my eyes. The scream had been from the healthier one tripping. It made me smile. I could hear laughter from them and almost laughed myself. I couldn’t risk that though. I learned my voice was painful at some point. I almost wanted to talk to them though. The laughter felt nice to hear.

“See, this is why I have to be out here too. If I don’t you’ll fall and sprain your ankle.”

“Fine, fine. I know there’s supposed to be a town nearby here.”

“I don’t want to stay there.”

“It’s the only one nearby. Just an hour and then we’ll go back to our camp ok?”

“No…but I know you’re right.”

I panicked a little when I noticed them coming closer. Neither seemed aware of my presence. I almost wanted to see them up close, but I would rather not interfere with them. I’m too dangerous. I did hold my breath as they neared the place my graveyard sat. How would these humans respond? It felt small to me, was it not to them?

“Holy shit…”

“I thought you said this was a town.”

“It was… this is or was… you know where this is.”

“Wait, you don’t think that in there is…”

“I’m going in, I need to know. Stay out here and I’ll tell you if I find a body…well the body we’re afraid of finding.”

I didn’t mean to interact with them. I wanted to stay hidden, but I couldn’t let them see the death I caused. My vines reached out for them before I’d fully thought about it. I heard the weaker one scream out for help. The one who said she would find the body screamed back. I was making the mistake again. My vines brought the two humans close to my face for me to see.

One was petite with green eyes and hair as dark as my claws. Her pale skin felt out of place here in this forest. The other one looked more adventurous. She had brown eyes and hair that looked almost blue. I was shocked, these were the most amazing humans I’d ever seen. I wanted to hear them talk, to see a smile sent my way. I didn’t deserve that though.

“What the hell is that thing? Is that an eye?!” I shifted my gaze slightly, but I couldn’t escape the fear on the face of the brown eyed woman.

“I-I think it is. I-it’s glowing.” Until now I never wondered which eye was which, but I did now. I wanted to know which eye these two were seeing.

“Shit ok ok… I have enough space to get my knife. I-I’ll cut myself out then get you-”

“No! Cutting yourself out will kill you and if it doesn’t it’ll kill me when you cut me down. I um… I have an idea…”

I knew I should put them down. They were so small. I just couldn’t stop looking at them. It felt like something I was missing had finally shown up. I wanted to hear them talk, to see them moving. I flinched when the tail I always forgot about slammed against the ground. The two shook, but didn’t fall thankfully. I wanted them safe, I had to keep these two safe. I watched the green eyed one slip her arms out from the vine’s grip and wave them at me. I tried to show I was focused on her.

“H-hey! U-uh could you put us down? This is kind of high, we'd probably get hurt like this…”

I heard a nervous laugh and pain filled me. I wanted to be able to speak to them. I wanted to tell them it was safe. I had learned how to keep humans safe even if my vines would grab them at times. I wanted to ask their names…

I didn’t get to try and answer. The vines responded to me, forming a platform in front of my eye. The two were dropped there and quickly rushed together. I wondered what it would be like to have someone to care for like that. I need the vines to keep protecting them.

“Oh.. uh this works th-thanks…” She was clearly scared.

The more confident woman stepped forward looking at my eye like she could somehow hurt me. I wanted to speak to them, I wished I could say anything. I didn’t want to scare them. I almost panicked when vines came up near my eyes. If these two were hurt from them I’m not sure I’d recover. Something about them was too important. My vines settled in front of me as jumbled shapes I couldn’t quite understand.

“You… don’t want to hurt us?” The confident one was asking. I hoped I was right, asking the vines to respond to her. I watched their shape change and the weaker one stand up again.

“So you are controlling the vines. Wait… do you know what happened here? To all of the people? Can you tell us?!”

I didn’t want to. I knew they’d be scared. The way they looked at me, tender hope in each gaze. They wanted something from all of this. I wished I could help. I closed my eyes, but told the vines to answer. To tell how the humans died, at least the majority of them. I heard gasps and, for the first time since it happened, I felt tears start.

“You didn’t mean to, did you?” The green eyed girl asked. I wanted her name. I wanted to know who she was. I didn’t think about it and shook my head, I didn’t hear screams though.

“...someone made you, didn't they? Er.. created you?” The brown eyed woman sounded angry. I nodded this time. I felt the little spot slightly as I moved and opened my eyes in fear. I couldn’t imagine hurting them. They both looked upset, I must have done something to them.

“That’s awful. It must be so lonely like this. Can you tell us anything about yourself?”

I shook my head. The green eyed girl was coming closer now. I almost wanted to reach out to her. I couldn’t imagine how it would seem to these two. They both seemed so sincere, it was better than any human I’d met so far. I asked the vines to offer my help. The two looked almost amazed as the words changed.

“Wait, do you really think you could help us?” I chanced a nod again. I felt better when they saw me reacting to their voices. I never understood how I could hear the humans around me.

“We’re looking for someone…”

“They disappeared a long time ago. They lived around here.”

“They had short brown hair back then, it was always close to shaved. They had brown skin too.”

“They had one blue eye and one green. Their face had sharp features.”

“They looked tall compared to other humans.”

My head started to hurt. I’d seen a human like that. A long time ago, when had I seen them? Small… when I didn’t remember. Before I realized I was wrong. The image of me with small things… The image of me the size of humans. Standing with others and being happy. Did I know these humans? Could this be why I wanted them close?

Things felt weird, almost like my control was slipping. My tail was moving, crashing into the ground behind me. The two were stumbling, they needed to be safe. What were their names? I needed their names. I watched the vines changing the word repeating over and over. They looked scared. I don’t want them scared. I want them to be safe with me.

“You want their name?”

I couldn’t tell who spoke now. My head was spinning. I squinted to see them clearer. Green eyes and pale skin… she was coughing. She was sick. I didn’t want her sick. Those white flowers I hadn’t seen since I woke up started to bloom all over. I felt like everything was too bright. I needed her better.

No… the flowers weren’t the reason I was here. I was here for more than that. I needed things. Someone felt trapped because of me… no… because of trying to help me. I used connections to do something. I signed up for something. I hated it, but neither knew. I was supposed to be doing something.

I… I had to be someone else. I couldn’t be me. It was why I didn’t tell anyone. I came here… I knew here… I lived here. Where have I been?

“Please stop!”

Scared shouting. No, I didn't want that. I needed that not to happen. I moved, I had to sit up. I started moving. There was more screaming. I needed them safe. I watched the vines grow around their platform. They were walled in now. I continued moving trying to be careful. I couldn’t think like this. I watched as the two seemed to disappear. Even the platform looked miniscule now.

Once I was sitting up I had no idea how I ever heard them. Had I hurt other humans without knowing it? I couldn’t think about it. I brought my hand close, and I heard screams again. Something let me hear despite my size. I slipped it under the platform, it only took up the tip of my finger.

I started to bring it close slowly. I’d seen the response to humans when I moved them too fast. I brought them up to my eye again. They’d made it to the center now, I needed my head clear. I needed to know more. I wanted to show them what I thought I knew.

If I’d been less used to the vines I might have jumped when they brought the remnants of the facility to me. I wasn’t as in control, but I just needed them safe. I brought the women close to it and the vines formed a small bridge. They opened a way for the two. I wanted to talk. I wanted to say something, to tell them anything. I flinched as vines covered my mouth. I never had this happen before.

“Hi,” I tried. I had to see if it would work. The two didn’t show pain. They just stared in awe. I needed to know more. I knew them… Their names were so close… I didn’t want them to feel scared.

“So you can talk?” I nodded, they were safe in their walls now. I wouldn’t hurt them… My vines wouldn’t hurt them. The vines knew more, they saw through me. Brown eyes filled with fear were on me for so long. Then it changed, almost too fast in a way. I kind of liked that.

“My voice… It's very loud. I didn’t want to hurt you.” It felt strange to talk. I hadn’t even tried since the first disaster. I never knew the vines could spell things for me either. Green eyes filled with a kind acceptance drilled into me. She stood up and I got one of the smiles I wanted.

“You’re kind. I don’t know what happened here, but you aren’t bad. Do you think we could help you in any way?”

I was shocked. Help me? I was a monster even though I knew these two. Even though I wanted to hold them in my hands without the protection of the vines. I wanted the memories I couldn’t see. At the edge of my mind I could feel their skin against my own. I was too much now. I wanted to hold them.

“No… Inside should have answers.”

The two shared a look and the brown eyed woman ran across the bridge inside. My vines created walls as she went, I hadn’t even felt the anxiety yet. I wanted to look at the other woman closer. I knew I shouldn’t, I knew I was too much. My vines decided for me. They surrounded the green eyed one and brought her up and closer to me. It was like they wanted me to remember. She somehow looked calm despite everything.

“Just saying… I won’t hate you if you killed them. They would have been nice to you. Probably pointed out your eyes are the…same… They’re even… on the same sides…”

Could I really be the one these two want to see? I’m terrifying and huge. If I am, they'll be upset. I wanted to remember though, I needed to remember. It was on the tip of my tongue. I knew them… I need to remember.

“Give her back to me!” The other came back. She seemed angry. “I saw what you did… You are a monster. What are you planning!?”

“Al-”

“No.”

I don’t know when, but my vine mask was gone. My voice came out full force and both were in pain. The one closer to me started to stumble. It hurt her so badly. My blood ran cold as she fell. I needed her safe.

“Delphia!”

I don’t know how, but I knew her name. I faintly heard the other one call her name too. I needed her safe. I brought my hand up, somehow I had to be safe. I held my breath as she landed. The images of the first time I held humans started to flash through my mind. She would be dead because I was as hard as stone. I was dangerous, I was a monster… I wasn’t who they knew anymore.

“Del! Del please be ok! I can’t lose you! Del!”

“Alessia…” She froze. I knew them… I loved them. I came here for them. Money to help Alessia who had been helping me since I left home. A special flower that only grew here and could help Delphia’s constitution. I wanted to help them both. I came here, I came home to protect my life with them. My father got me a job, but it wasn’t what I thought. He sold me to a weird facility that wanted the flowers I’d discovered and a local to test on. I didn’t even know how long I was asleep until the day I woke up.

“No way…” Alessia was stunned. I kept my focus on her, I didn’t want to see Delphia’s body. I didn’t want to see how I killed her. I closed my eyes and swallowed before looking down at her. I begged for the mask to come back. I want to be safe. It didn’t grow from the ground like before, just forming from my face instead.

“You’re alive… Delphia.” I whispered. I brought my hand close to the platform and tried to hold it steady. I expected her to climb off, but Alessia ran off and jumped on. It was amazing to watch her run over my hand. It reminded me of the ants I would move around in the gardens. “Let me help..”

She actually froze. She looked up at me, for once I felt lucky to see the small faces so clearly. She was smiling and expectant. Everything I knew about her. I brought my other hand close and laid a claw next to my finger. She nodded and climbed on quickly. She was laughing. I loved her laugh so much. I waited until she stopped moving to start moving my finger closer to Delphia.

“It’s like moss… I thought it would feel more like marble or steel.”

I smiled at her. I never knew what my teeth looked like now. They must be sharp and terrifying. I didn’t even know if she’d seen them. Delphia was sitting up now. Once my claw got close she grabbed it as Alessia climbed off. I could pull away so easily, but they weren’t afraid. I could feel my smile grow wider.

“You have shark teeth now. I wouldn’t have thought of that with you.”

Delphia and Alessia. I would give up everything for them. I did give up everything for them. They didn’t know what I did. I almost didn’t want them to. I didn’t want them to know how close I came to losing myself. The red splotches that had been on my tail that I didn’t understand. If I stayed like that I might have hurt them.

“Is it really you?” I nodded. The two shared a look. I wanted to know what I missed. I wanted to share looks again. I couldn’t though. I was dangerous to them now. I jumped a bit when I saw a tear land near them. I pulled my hand higher and away from any drops, they were dangerous too.

“Ash!” They shouted it in unison. I started to sob. I needed to stop. I had to be in control. I was dangerous, I was a monster. I wasn’t… I wasn’t Ash anymore.

“Not anymore.” I curled my fingers on the hand holding them slightly. I felt the ticklish feeling of their movement as I did. Small things were too much.

“Of course you are. You’re just a bit taller.” Delphia was smiling. I didn’t have to look to know. She always smiled at me. That was why I loved her. She had a smile that seemed to cut through anything.

“Don’t be dumb Ash. We’re here now. I can go back in and I’ll find something so we can fix this. We aren’t leaving here without you.” Alessia was almost too optimistic. There wasn’t a way to fix this. I could never fix this. I was a monster now. I didn’t need her to pretend for me. I was always so curious about this boundless optimism, the weakness she let me see meant so much.

“No, you’re leaving. I’m too dangerous. I don’t… you’re not joining the others.”

“Ash, you’ve been gentle with us this whole time. You’re not dangerous, not to us.”

“You know how I am. I’ll just make my way back here without you knowing. That’s way more dangerous. You know Del is gonna follow me.”

“Look what happens when one of you goes off without me. You become some giant monster. At least you still have a cute smile.”

I was gentle as I pulled my claw free. Delphia looked upset I did, but I had to check. I pressed my hand to my face, the vines were gone. I was quieter now, but the vines were gone. I don’t know how I was doing it. I wanted to do more. I wanted to hold them close. I wanted to keep them safe. I couldn’t though. There was something else I could do.

I tried to grow the vines from me like that mask. I focused on the hand in front of me. I watched them grow to cover my skin before disappearing. I bit my lip before reaching towards them again. Carefully treating them more fragile than anything I ever touched before. I slowly pressed my finger down on the two of them. I could feel as they stiffened, but neither screamed.

“Um Ash, what are you doing?” Alessia was fine. It wasn’t hurting them.

“The vines change you don’t they? This finger, it’s softer than the hand we’re on.” Delphia was always oddly observant. I wasn’t crushing her.

I was still moving slowly as I pulled my finger away. I flattened my vine encased hand then tilted the other. They were more nervous, but still seemed to trust me as I moved. They landed on my palm and I could feel them so much more. It was almost like the vines were a part of me. I pulled the hand with them in it close before stepping away.

I was taking them to a place I had seen once. It was higher than everywhere else. It was closer than I realized, only a few steps, but they would be at my knee now. A lot better than the ground. I called on the vines again and the facility was brought close almost too quickly. I was gentle as I slipped my palm underneath it. At least three of my finger’s widths away I placed the building down. They looked at me with big smiles.

“I’ll let us try…”

They both smiled before waving me closer. I made a face that received two much more annoyed looks. I tried focusing those vines that came directly from me again to cover my whole body. I was coated quickly, even faster than my hand. I felt lighter than I usually did.

I started to move, they sat before I did too much. I couldn’t believe they were so calm already. I slipped onto my stomach. Then I put my elbow on the ground and used a hand to support my face. They both seemed completely awed by it. That awe was replaced by joint annoyance where they waved me closer. I relented knowing full well how stubborn the two were. I rested my nose against the surface they were on.

The two seemed satisfied and climbed to their feet. It was astounding how clear each movement was to me. I never thought about it before, but if I couldn’t see this I would never be able to stay near. I was still nervous, but I would listen to their demands. If I listened in the first place I would still be human. I gasped when I felt the two small bodies pressing against my skin. I never thought I’d be this close to someone again.

“I missed you Ash.” Delphia was quieter than before.

“Welcome home, we’re not letting you go again Ash.” Alessia sounded close to tears.

I had a bit of confidence thanks to how they acted. I brought my hand close and gently wrapped it around them. It felt odd holding such small people against my nose. I wouldn’t give it up. I felt alive for the first time since I woke up. As long as I can keep them safe I’d be happy. I knew I had something I needed and I finally found it.

“I missed you too…”

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Let’s get to know everyone a little bit better.

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Bonus points if there are illustrations or quotes to justify your answers. ✨

Wow, thank you Anon! (I mean... "Anon"... 👀) You really want to read all this?!

8. Who has the worst luck?

Zak, maybe. He's adamant in staying out of trouble, but trouble keeps on finding him!

13. Do/Did any of your characters have large ears they had to grow into as a kid?

Ulrik... Nah, they're still big. 🤡 So, it would be Altair!

14. Are any of your characters nonverbal?

Ash probably, and Juliva.

21. Do any of your characters have heterochromia?

Ash! She's my only character whith heterochromia, and it wasn't even intended at first. But, writing her background story and the part where she's gravely wounded during a hunting accident changed one of her natural green eyes to a blue-ish hue.

22. Do any of your characters have someone named after them? Or are they named after someone else?

Altair isn't the only "Altair" branch in his very extensive family tree, and also Mereel (one of the kids rescued by the Mandos on Aq Vetina in "The Foundlings") has obviously been named after Mand'alore Jaster Mereel.

29. Are any of your characters nameless? (In that there is no legal record of them existing, they just don’t have names in canon, or history remembers them but not their name?)

... Not one that I talked about here, but he's only known as "Sarge".

32. Do you have any characters who are twins?

Yep! Jo and Josh, Merry's cousins. And Guten and Borg, Ash's adoptive brothers (she's the adopted one).

37. Did any of your characters have a fever they almost died from as a child?

Ash again! After the hunting accident, she almost died while being treated because of said fever. Luckily, Walter and the Crone were good at healing people... 😰

44. Are any of your characters overshadowed by other siblings? Or have parents who clearly have a favorite? (ex: Boromir and Faramir)

Vivian, by her baby sister. She loved her, but so did her parents and she felt left aside. And sadly, she didn't imagine it even though she might have exaggerated it all in her child's mind...

48. Are any of your characters apprentices?

Ash was, Zak too... And Elara, somewhat. But also the main character of a fantasy story with dragons I wrote long time ago.

50. Are any of your characters Good Dads ™?

Neal, even though he isn't around as much as he should, but Korben too. I think Din's biological father (and mother!!) was exactly what Canderous would praise against stupid Dantooine farmers whinging about not knowing what to do to protect and save their children, and Korben made a point for Din to remember them and their courage daily. Korben had a son and a foundling before Din, so he knew already what loss and pain could do to a child and how to handle it... even though after his son and foundling left the covert, he wasn't too eager to take another under his care. Until he saw that silent kid mesmerized by the controls of his ship... 😊

68. Are any of your characters intimidatingly beautiful?

Personally, I'd say Juliva and Litti (because Ana Torv and Gugu Mbatha-Raw are just gorgeous 😍). But none has been written to be seen or recognized as such. I'm not sure Isaac (Juliva's brother in arms and now husband) even noticed how pretty I think she is, and Ela just loved how nice and caring Litti was with her.

74. Are any of your characters associated with flowers?

... none that I've ever talked about here either. (She's called Lily.)

75: Do any of your characters wear glasses, sunglasses, goggles, or monocles?

Elara wears goggles, Leona wears glasses after a long, tiring day and Vivian and Merry wear sunglasses anytime they need. No monocles but I feel like Anton could fit in here too, because of his stupid gunner helmet 😝

77. Have any of your characters had to kill a friend?

I... don't think so?! 😲 But I have a gnawing doubt now.

84. Do any of your characters have gaps in their teeth or are missing teeth?

Vespera had a gap between her front teeth when she was a child. But not anymore.

92. Have any of your characters started and/or led a revolution?

Vivian started a revolution, somewhat. But if not her, then Ash. Not exactly a revolution though. More like raids?!?! It was against bandits and highwaymen so I'm not sure it can apply as "a revolution" though...

96. Which character is The Proudest ™ of their kids?

Crahl, for starters. All the kids he trained are his pride and joy. But Elara too! She's so proud of Jakem even though he's not her son, and now she's so proud of Tip-yip too!!! She doesn't understand SHIT about all that Jedi stuff but she doesn't care all too much either, so... What she sees is that he knows a lot of stuff, and understand even more!! And that's all she needs. 💖

100. Are any of your characters queer?

Well, Elara? Her most loving and lasting relationship was with a woman.

108. Are any of your characters dogs?

Astro and Nerio. The first is [REDACTED]'s dog and the second is Altair's.

114. Do any of your characters insist on going by their fullname rather than a nickname?

Hmm. I think I have more characters doing the very opposite of that and preferring to go by completely different names like Zak using the name of his dead best friend, Ulrik being known under specific names by his snitches and other contacts, Vivian trying not to trigger Lawrence's script by using her college nickname/username in the park, Elara having a heap of nicknames and monikers given who's talking to her because she can't bear to hear people she barely know call her "Ela" like her parents, brother and Din did...

Well! Now that I think of it, Elara would be one of them! She'd rather be called "Elara" or even by her family name than to be called "Ela" by strangers!

115. Do any of your characters have an honorary father figure?

Ash could count Walter (the grumpy asshole who taught her how to become a demonist) as an honorary father figure, I guess?! 🤣

120. Do any of your characters have PTSD?

Sadly, a few yes. Vivian and Ulrik were my only shell shocked characters, and Vespera has been added to the roster now... because of awful things she recently saw and had to run from during one of our game session! 😭

126. Are any of your characters on good terms/still friends with an ex?

Elara! Litti is still a very good friend of her.

132. Who is the precious cinnamon roll?

Answered here! But I could add Mereel too! This kid is the sweetest there is in all the galaxy.

133. Have any of your characters ever been caught in a fire or explosion?

First, there was Zak.....

"There was a mosquito in the basement... so I threw a match in the powder kegs."

And now, little spoiler for upcoming chapters of Lost and Found, even though he isn't exactly *my* character:

146. Were any of your characters disowned or abandoned by their parents?

Ulrik, kinda. His mother helped him out of the house because the tension with his *cough* 'father' *cough* was getting out of hand. So she caught him as he was planning to flee on his own, gave him a few aquilas, and kissed him farewell and good luck. 🥺

153: Do any of your characters embody the spirit of a flapper? (Bonus points for style and or lifestyle)

A "secondary-ish" character in my Westworld series: Marge, a colleague of Vivian's. Also Adelaide and Leona.

163: Are any of your characters autistic? (If so, do they have special interests and what are they?)

... according to @hathorik , Elara would be... ?!?! Even though she hasn't been written to be.

She loves numbers and languages, but I don't know if these interests are any special! Speeder bikes, maybe???

165: Who is a “girls just wanna have fun” character?

Marge again! She's boisterous and a very big mouth but I think she's hidding a lot of anxiety behind her behavior... (PUN INTENDED)

169: Are any of your characters married to the sea?

Does Elara count? Not exactly the sea but space... Litti can tell that you can't keep Ela on the ground for too long.

172: Do any of your characters hold a grudge against someone?

Answered here!

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