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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months
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Hi! I hope this is okay but I would love to hear more of ur thoughts about the Yunmeng siblings because they are important to me and your tummy hurt comic hasn't left my brain as just,,, such good immediate characterization! ^^ Thanks!
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I have too many thoughts on the Yunmeng siblings to fit into a succinct post, but I can offer you a Jiang Yanli addendum to the tummy hurt alignment.
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sysig · 3 months
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“It could be that the loss of her children drove the Queen deeper into her darker desires...but, I don’t believe she was fighting against them that hard before that particular tragedy. No monster does.” (Patreon)
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Hmm, wonder what he could cover those holes with :3c
#Doodles#Handplates#UT#Fellplates#UkaGaster's answers about Toriel really interest me :3c#As evidenced by the quote caption lol - but his other ones are very interesting too! Since it sounds like she's still around!#Poor classic Handplates!Gaster believed Tori dead for such a long time while she was at the Ruins#Meanwhile Fellplates!Gaster is just like ''? I saw the Queen last week she threw me into the pricker bushes? -.ò'' lol#But anyhow lol ♪ The implications that they're still in each other's vicinity really makes me curious about their relationship!#And how Toriel might react to knowing that someone - someone other than her - is having So Much Success on one of her sore spots#Not just of having children but of the constant reminders of Gaster's success where she has to live every day with a heavy heart for her own#Being cruel to him over it - well that's just par for the course isn't it ♪#He mentions that she's much more of an emotional sadist - insulting him and then making it Very clear that she does Not approve of the holes#''They're ugly and you should feel ashamed for drawing so much attention to something so unsightly''#I do think that her knowing that he's so intent on being kind and merciful and then twisting the knife on how much he's hurting her-#Making him feel guilty for daring to even attempt the betterment of all - for giving pieces of himself away and try to be a good person#''If anyone will break my spirit it will be her'' :)#Although that's all assuming that Toriel even knows about the brothers! :0 When I thought about it later it'd make more sense if she doesn't#It was still too good to not do something with the idea hehe - but imagine her betrayal if/when she found out tho she'd kill him on the spot#Gosh I haven't drawn Tori in foreeeeever I can't even remember the last time#Doing a/nother study on her would probably be fun haha she's rather plain how I draw her currently#I wonder if her Fellplates version would also wear reading glasses hehe#And the bonus :3c Where are the plates featured in Fellplates? Surely it's not just called that as a reference right ♪ Hehehe
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dreamofbecoming · 7 months
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y’all i literally never have omegaverse thoughts but here i am having omegaverse thoughts (i blame witcher fic, characters who can smell emotions are just too damn juicy *shakes fist* ineeeeex!)
omegaverse fics where characters can parse individual emotions from specific people in addition to a personal base scent are confusing for me, logistically. you know? like as a trope, they’re amazing and convenient and they lead to fascinating little complications in communication and i eat that shit up with a spoon, but like. how does it work??
so then i’m thinking, okay, obviously it’s something you pick up naturally using cues from your family as a child, and your friends and classmates as your social circle widens as you age. the way we pick up slang or body language irl, right? that could work. you know what happiness smells like because it’s what your mother smells like when your dad comes home with flowers. you know what sadness smells like when your friend at school is allergic to chocolate so they can’t have any of benji’s birthday cupcakes. that kind of thing. but it’s all semi-unconscious, and some people have gaps as they grow up because they’ve never been exposed to something before
my point being, where is my fic where steve is driving dustin to the snowball and he gives the kid a few last minute pieces of advice and promises to be there to pick him up later and dustin gives him that big bright gummy smile and the car fills up with…what the hell is that? i mean it smells good? but steve’s never smelled anything like it. maybe in passing, but never directed at him and definitely not so strong. the hell is this kid feeling?
and he doesn’t ask, doesn’t want to look stupid, so he just tells dustin not to do that weird growling thing again and boots him out of the car, but he keeps smelling it. on dustin, mostly, but also the other kids sometimes, once even on mrs. henderson when she had to work an overnight and he told her it was no trouble at all to stay on the couch and keep dusty company. and it’s so weird and he doesn’t understand it at all but it doesn’t seem bad, or dangerous, so it’s probably fine?
and then he asks robin out on a bathroom floor and gets shot down immediately, and he pivots on a dime and rearranges his whole worldview for her in about ten seconds, and he’s halfway through a chorus of total eclipse of the heart when that scent swells again, soured a little by the drugs but big enough to fill the whole bathroom. and he doesn’t ask until after, until all the dust is settled and things are calm even if they’re broken beyond repair, but he doesn’t mind looking stupid in front of robin, really, so it’s okay to ask.
and she gives him this look, like he just took his nailbat to her heart, and then she flings herself at him and hugs him tighter than anyone ever has in his life, and she explains. and then he’s crying too
where is my fic where steve doesn’t know what love smells like
(well, turns out the fic is here)
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arthursfuckinghat · 8 days
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"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."
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"It ain't that complicated!"
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How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.
#he makes me feel so emo#this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced#the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me#like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago#not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it#the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts#it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval#hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly#arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart#the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it#his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind#and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived#and hosea notices he knows this#but they still jab at arthur#oh it hurts#is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse?#playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#mick squeaks#mick rants#mick gifs#arthur morgan#dutch van der linde#liveblogging#you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty#and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort#he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole#he doesn't want that touch he craves#it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us
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themoonatmingitaw · 27 days
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And you're so lovely
When you cry, it hurts me
You're the only person left so hold me
Don't leave me
I couldn't resist making some fanart for Perfect Slaughter, an amazing fanfic by @asterdurge
This moment in chapter 15 stuck with me painfully so I had to get it out :)
(for some context I am the anon that mentioned the Mystery of Love song, I was shyer then jsjsj)
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need more chaggie wing fics where charlie is just absolutely obsessed w vaggie's wings like look at her face
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she's obsessed and with good reason too
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mnare · 3 months
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i need some angst, hurt / no comfort with mr simon riley, where he unexpectedly breaks up with y/n before leaving for a dangerous mission, but y/n tries to get him to stay instead of just letting him go. like imagine:
you’re sitting in the couch, tv on in the background but you’re not really playing attention to it as you scroll on your phone.
simon is in the bathroom, said he was gonna take an early evening shower. but it’s been an hour and a half. you hear him walking towards the living room, but instead of walking towards you, simon walks towards the front door, you only look up when he speaks.
“i can’t do this anymore”
he’s looking at you through his skull balaclava. dressed and packed like he’s gonna go on a mission somewhere. he’s just hoping you don’t see his facade of calmness. the mask always did helped him hide his feelings.
“what do you mean ‘can’t do this anymore’,” you ask standing up, tears welling in your eyes as you take a couple steps towards him.
“where are you going with your gear on simon?”
ghost sighs and turns slightly, as if he’s just going to run away without explaining himself.
“what the fuck are you doing simon? you think i’m not gonna ask questions? what do you mean ‘you can’t do this anymore?!”
“i.. i’m ending our relationship, y/n..” he hates say those words to you. knowing how much it’ll break you. you were the only one who he’s let close enough, close enough to see him, to see simon riley instead of lieutenant ghost.
“you know how dangerous my job is. i’m gone for weeks at a time, never knowing if i’ll make it back in one piece. and this time., this time i’m certain i won’t be coming back, love..”
by know he’s looking down towards the door handle, hands at his side trembling subtly. the grip on the handles of his duffel bag seems as if he’d tear it in half.
while he tells you all this, the feeling of dread you had upon hearing the first words he uttered when he stood by the door turned into frustration. how dare he think he can just pack up and leave without saying anything? you thought that you became a place of comfort for him, somebody he can trust with his human side. he didn’t have to be ghost around you. and this is how he reacts?
you’re fuming. taking deep breaths in a failing attempt to calm down. your hands balled at your sides, shaking as you stomp your way towards him.
“so just cause you think you’re gonna die, you’re going to leave me? leave us? tear down everything we’ve built?” you spit the words out at him, tears finally breaking through.
ghost, surprised to hear your words laced with anger instead of sadness, could only look at you. not know what else to do as he tries to reach for the lock on the door to make his way out.
you slapped his hand away from it, a finger pointing at him,
“you’re not leaving this house without sitting down and talking to me simon riley, you are not doing this right now”, you say through clenched teeth as you hold back a sob. you know he could easily push you away but you don’t care. he can’t be doing this, not now.. so this is what a couple weeks of avoiding you leads to huh? you thought he was going through something, tried to give him some space since he would eventually come to you, like he always did. this time, you guess not.
he reaches for the handle again, you try to smack his hand away again, but this time he manages to hold you back enough to let him open the door to walk out into the rain that started to come down.
“simon fucking talk to me! please!” you lunge towards him as he starts making his was down the small front steps of your shared house, gripping unto his gear, his legs, anything to slow him down, but he’s stronger than you. doesn’t slow down as he walks towards his truck, even when you finally are able to get in front of him, trying to push him back into the house.
between the rain and his heart beat, your voice sounds distant in his mind. he’s already doing it. pushing everything way till he’s numb. he won’t allow himself to feel anything right now, or else he’ll listen to you and stay. he’ll stay, and sit in the couch with you. stay under the blankets as you thread your fingers through his hair while he pours his heart out to you. telling you his fears, both old and new.
he opens the driver’s side of the car, your cursing and crying muffled, yet he can still hear every word so clearly.
“simon, i’ll fix this! please just talk to me; you can’t just leave like this! i’ll wait for you, i always will. please just come inside, and we’ll talk! please, simon!”
he stands still, his head hanging in shame as he’s about to climb into his car. you quiet down, thinking he’ll finally listen to you and come back and talk.
you talk to him while you hold his arm, gently as if he’s and injured animal.
“let’s go back inside simon,” you say softly, “i’ll make you some tea and we can talk ok? just please.. please, let’s just talk about it..”
he see you out of the corner of his eye, you hair and clothes are completely soaked through. you’re eyes red, even though he can’t tell where the rain begins and your tears end.
a fitting setting he thought, was it even raining before he walked out? he wasn’t sure, but he was sure he would regret his next choice of actions.
before you could even react, he pushes you away from him, causing you to stumble a few paces from him. surprise vivid on your face. he gets in the car and starts it as you smack the window, yelling for him to get out the fucking car and speak to you. you, soaked through to your bones at this point, talk to him through the window as he backs out of the small driveway. he gives you one last look, his eyes filled with tears behind the skull. the last sign of simon before ghost drives away.
leaving you standing in the road, the rain pouring over you as you scream at him for leaving you, sobbing and breaking down all for your neighbors to see.
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ANYWAYS, i kept seeing this trope with simon, but y/n always just ends up low key accepting it and not doing anything (like huh?? i’d go psycho😭 tf is this coming from sir) but i’m no writer, and in my head, i was gonna make the reader low key insane, like making threats insane lol
but i decided to mellow it out, probably a bit more realistic this way tbh 😭😭
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wistfulwatcher · 1 year
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You've been here for me in a way that no one has.
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lockwoodsean-archive · 11 months
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Joe Keery as STEVE HARRINGTON STRANGER THINGS 2 2x02 “Chapter Two: Trick or Treat, Freak”
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This drabble is born from a really angsty brain riot with Bonten's origins, that happened to me after reading this words from @just-sp-in-inginthevoid :
"Bonten is a memorial for Izana, its symbol, its members’ tattoo come from Izana’s earrings and the (天) ten of Bonten 梵天 from Tenjiku 天竺, the (梵) bon of Bonten 梵天 comes from Brahman 梵. (...) There’s no need for Senju to have the same role as Izana in Bonten if she’s not dead."
(I always pictured Senju being death in that timeline, but the reality of the kanjis being literally THAT... ajfshgsjgejgrjg, the pain of this. Wakui, you know how to break us every timeline! 😭)
Bonten was born from pain.
(drabble of the day that Bonten was created)
Warnings: I'm so sorry, this is just angst and hurt/no comfort. I wrote it as an attempt of coping with canon and how painful is Bonten timeline when you actually look closer to it. It's from Koko's POV and everyone is just broke and devastated in their own way. Again, I'm so sorry :(
(English is not my first language, so be nice please 🙈)
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Most people think Bonten is synonymous with fear.
But they are all wrong. Kokonoi knows better.
Bonten is synonymous with pain, it was born in it.
He still remembers the day that Bonten was created, even if it wasn't the official date, any of the executives would pinpoint the exact same moment.
Probably, only Koko could actually offer a coherent narrative of that night. The only outsider of all the chaos unraveling in front of him.
He still has nightmares of what he saw. But is not what happened what haunts him, no. Is the voices, the faces surrounding him.
Wakasa covered in blood, his eyes looking completely empty. His blank stare, like he couldn't believe who this blood belonged to. Benkei's hand on his friend shoulder, tearing up like a baby.
Takeomi curled up in the floor, sobbing next to his sister's body. Saying “it should've been me” over and over, the older man stuck in a loop of guilt and denial.
The former members of Tenjiku looking shocked, not moving a finger for what was supposed to be their gang, their leader. Koko spent enough time with them to know that, even if they were ruthless, seeing the leader of another gang being shot like that... Was too familiar.
Anyone who looked at them could see they never agreed with that. The ghost of Izana Kurokawa still lingered over them.
Kakucho was shaking, his lips trembling. The rain and the blood mixing with red snow in the scarred boy's mind.
The Haitani brothers unconsciously getting closer to each other. Ran pulling his arm around Rindou in a protective way, the younger one allowing it without complains. Both of them staring at Sanzu, terrified with the possibility of being on the pinkette boy place.
Sanzu's screams were the worst of it. The excruciating pain in his voice while he was holding Senju's body. His little sister's body. How he looked at Takeomi, tears rolling down his cheeks, his gaze filled with hate when he spoke to his older brother “I agree, it should've been you.”
Mikey standing there, the void in his eyes while his knuckles kept dripping with South blood. The man's body at his feet.
That gaze, dark and lacking of any emotion. Pure void that swallowed everything around.
(That swallowed them, trapped them like moths that flied too close to the sun)
Bonten was born from pain.
Bonten grew in pain, thrived with it.
And, Kokonoi is sure that whatever destiny awaits for them...
Bonten will die in pain.
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me-sploh-rada-imas · 3 days
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these two... [x]
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mishapen-dear · 5 months
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thinking about 4halo again and dying
they just. they used to be so sweet together. and then the election arc managed to genuinely turn them against each other (and bad is still affected by being caged in the museum) and i would NOT have been surprised if a rebellion had started within the next few weeks after their last fight and. they used to be friends and then they almost destroyed each other
and then the eggs went missing
and there are so many parallels between them, but one of the biggest parallels is how they're both protectors. they both protected the eggs (and, when he became president, forever extended that protection to the other islanders) but the eggs went missing and they had to put all of that aside. Forever was quicker to put it down than Bad was (it felt like only a very temporary truce, from Bad's end), but they put their problems on hold, because their eggs. were gone.
and another parallel. the destruction. both of them with their plans to cause ruin because then, maybe, theyll get their kids back. bad caused most of the grieving arc damage directly, and got aypierre and antoine to help him. he dug holes in the ground. he placed mines everywhere and leapt into them. he started the lavacasting process of the fed building (and was interrupted by admins, so he stopped, but philza and fit were still right to laugh at him lmaoo). he drilled a hole through the side of the federation office from a huge distance away. he has chosen to hurt his friends and himself to get the eggs back. whatever the cost.
forever destroyed the island. or he planned to destroy the island. or he was interrupted just before he destroyed the island or or or. I don't know. but it was big, and it was bad. bad enough that the feds had to step in and forcefully drug him, and kickstart the happy pills arc.
and the happy pills arc..... oughghghgh as fucking awful as it was for their characters to experience i genuinely truly think that it saved them from each other. when he was first told about forever being fucked up bad was still in the "i need to kick his butt" mindset, and was all ready for an excuse to kill forever. and then he saw forever. and the first proposal happened. and bad was angry and he was sad and upset and he was careful. forever tried to kill him. bad decided to save him. forever kept trying to marry him. forever kept taking the pills. forever was so scared of his own anger and all of the damage he could and would have caused to his family that he kept taking drugs that kept him so out of his mind he hallucinated his son was just sleeping safely at his house.
and they both tried to kill each other. and they both failed.
and bad showed phil and cellbit (and tubbo) the item scanner that dapper discovered, which could destroy him, because nothing else was working. because they needed to save forever. because bad was reminded by then that forever was a victim of the federation instead of just a mouthpiece for it. and then when forever woke up he saw bad, suffering, and so excited to see him awake.
and now they're here on opposite sides again with forever projecting his protection urges onto the fed worker in bad's basement and bad frustrated that he isn't being believed and his evil plans of giving ron lemons apology brownies is being interrupted and. look at them. soft "i hate you" and the appreciation room and bad's quiet heartbreak when he learned about forever being missing and the "i miss you" book bad got mad at because it asked him not to torture fed workers. does anyone hear me im so ill about them. do you understand they care about each other so much and the happy pills arc reminded them of that. forever realized bad is colourblind and bad assumed forever was poisoning him and then forever helped bad cheat on another colourblindness test and forever was giving bad flowers and bad was accepting them and accepted that he was colourblind despite his previously constant denial and! i don't know if im being comprehensible and i dont really care i will be honest i just need you to know i am frothing at the mouth like a rabid little beast. they are a TRAGEDY of miscommunication and external pressure but they love so so much. platonic or romantic or qpp they CARE and it tears me to shreds
#qsmp#4halo#i feel like ive talked about this exact thing like three separate times but#its one of those things that really Kills Me#and its CRUCIAL to understanding them and their relationship#they were fighting and now have found peace in hell#and forever using his care for bad as a distraction to not focus on his Own woes#and the way he's so sure bad needs help the way he was helped that at heart bad is a good person who doesnt want to be hurting people#and in a Way he's right. bad doesn't want to hurt his loved ones. everyone else? yeah. in a heartbeat. but his family...#but he's still makign the choice to do it. it's not lashign out in desperation the way forever destroying the island was#bad is hurting people with Purpose. he's putting thought into it. he's testing people and their knowledge and their motivations and he will#use them all as tools that can be bent and broken if it means they get the eggs back. he'll do it to himself too#especially to himself#ghhhgrhrgh the way theyre both self sacrificial and self destructive the Parallels the fucking parallels#i can best examine their relationship from a bbh pov and it agonizes me because i can't get all the nuance of forever's pov#because i dont speak portuguese yet :c#so best i can do is talk crazy about them like a Lure for other analyst shippers#pspspssps dont you see my ship. dont you see how canon 4halo is !!! in 8 acts#dont you want to examine them and their parallels and the way they are both so strange about relationships but they're finding a way to car#in a way that works for them#pspspsps#like me talking about qbbh vacation arc got the fandom acknowledging his sillies and directly got me a friend to talk about him to (hi kia!#maybe it will work here also#come to the dark side we have complex relationship dynamics that are frequently misunderstood and mislabelled#YOU can help change the world
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shima-draws · 7 months
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NOT THE KIERAN VILLAIN ARC I’M SO UPSETTI SPAGHETTI
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xero-ori · 6 months
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Of course Q!Bad made jokes at first, he just couldn’t register that Q!Forever was just…gone. He couldn’t be, he was always here, he was the President! There was no way something happened to him, no, not Forever. He didn’t even leave him a note, he didn’t even say goodbye, there was no warning. But as the days tick by, he checks the tablist expecting him to be there, the countless nights when it was just them left. Now, though, he was alone. And that sinking realization sets in. Forever was gone. The one who will never give up on him no matter how hard Bad tries to push him away to keep him safe. Who gave him a flower everyday because he knew how broken he is and wanted him happy. Who just.kept.trying to help and understand him. Who made an entire room dedicated to just appreciating him. The one he once trusted the absolute most. Now…now he’s gone. A spot at Bad’s side now an empty void that cant be filled. No more flowers. He hoards the ones he has, desperate to keep them alive, he left no note, so he’s clinging onto the one thing Forever left him. Maybe he starts reminiscing. Remembering the countless hours they spent together, bantering, being drama queens, their shenanigans, theorizing, protecting their kids. The bond that they had shared. Forever was always by his side, steadfast, firm. Now theres a void.
And maybe, he realizes, another sunshine that he didn’t register he had is now gone, too. One of the two last sunshines he had left. He realized too late. Maybe he regrets how hard he pushed Forever away, how harsh he was on him, how much trust he took away from him, all the things he never got to tell. Forever showed countless times his appreciation for him, and he never returned it. Not since the eggs have been gone. Not since his plans. Its going to haunt him. And in the end, just like Bad, he threw away everything, just for a chance to get the eggs back.
Maybe he walks around Forevers base, hoping that maybe, just maybe theres a chance he’s there. Its empty. Maybe he uses one of his stasis chambers out of desperation. Nothing. If he keeps checking his mailbox, maybe they’ll be a letter from him. Its hollow. If he scours Forever’s base, his office, his old bases, maybe they’ll be something. They’re abandoned. Maybe if he throws himself through the portal enough, he’ll end up there, with him. Its futile. He interrogates Cucurucho, demanding to know where Forever is, is he okay, will he come back, can he go to him, what is the engine and why does it look him. Its pointless.
The dull warmth of one of his last sunshines is gone. A cold empty void is in its place. And then, Bad remembers his promise. The promise he made to Forever while in his coma, the one he never heard him vow.
“I promise you Forever. Im gonna make ‘em pay…gonna make everybody pay.”
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pleasantlycrazyworld · 7 months
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Don't imagine dating Eddie and meeting Wayne for the first time over a meal you make for them.
Don't imagine Wayne falling in love with you after witnessing how well you take care of not only his son but him as well.
Don't imagine Wayne being the biggest supporter of your relationship with his boy.
Don't imagine noticing Wayne not taking care of himself after losing his boy.
Don't imagine making the same meal for Wayne, the one that made him know you were the one for his son, when you know he stopped eating long after getting the news he would never see Eddie again.
Yeah don't imagine that.
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tothepointofinsanity · 6 months
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what are your thoughts on Madoka and Sayaka's relationship? I always thought it was underrated for how complex and tragic it is.
Madoka and Sayaka's relationship function similarly to that of a knight and a princess, so both their friendship or couple pairing are interesting to me. It seems to be intentional that Sayaka was crafted with a knight motif in mind to click with Madoka's vulnerability. The tragedy is that Sayaka was way too young and inexperienced to be shouldering such expectations in a friendship. Taking up the role of a protector at every turn because she wanted to protect everyone has always been a contributing factor to how fast Sayaka burned out.
Contrarily, Madoka's struggle with her own helplessness throughout the show was also part of the reason why Sayaka said a lot of terrible thing to her, but deeply regretted her actions to the point where she succumbed to Witching out away from Madoka. Madoka, at least in this "final" timeline, was not there to see her own childhood best friend change into something else. To, in a way, "die", and be reborn as the same monster that all magical girls were hunting after in a frenzy. Homura was right that Sayaka brings Madoka grief — it seems that in almost timeline, since Sayaka becomes a Witch as long as she becomes a magical girl unlike Mami or Kyoko, Sayaka is a consistent source of Madoka's grief. Whenever Madoka becomes a magical girl, then, her aspirations are based on Sayaka's sacrifice and ideals, except Madoka actually has the power to "save everyone". I believe Madoka loved Sayaka as Sayaka may not have been an "effective" magical girl, but she was the one who was willing to sacrifice her soul for her ideals, regardless of how naïve they were. To Madoka, who was so ensnared by her sense of uselessness, Sayaka was the closest thing to an idol or a star for the courage required to be a magical girl. Sayaka's desire to make the world a safer and justified place for people was so inspiring to Madoka that even when Madoka becomes Kriemhild Gretchen, the Witch's whole gimmick is "creating heaven on earth, a Witch content only if there is no more grief in existence". A prospect deeply held onto by Madoka that even Gretchen embodies it.
It's probably why Madoka's wish to save all magical girls would definitely sound equally impossible to he audience and the incubators, but Madoka herself says, "If someone says it's wrong to hope, I will tell them that they're wrong every time." Sayaka was often called foolish for her ideals and hopes, and Madoka was the only other person aside from Kyoko who understands Sayaka's struggles so much that she outright tells people that Sayaka was never wrong — this is how Madoka protects Sayaka. Madoka would never want anyone to say any of the magical girls' wishes were wrong or foolish. It was how Sayaka also found her peace at the end of the show: to be understood and not viewed as an object that would eventually be replaced in the cycle of magical girls and Witches.
Madoka and Sayaka eventually learned how to protect each other. Sayaka doesn't need to suffer from her own overbearing expectations anymore, and Madoka can finally be something even more to protect her angel: A God.
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