#my side account for fandom-adjacent stuff.

[wakeupthemembersofbylernation]

why do you think byler is less popular than mlvn on instagram?

on tiktok, tumblr, twitter and pretty much all other platforms byler is the more popular ship, but for some reason mlvns is more popular on instagram.

This is a good question! I’m not sure there’s a definitive answer, but if I were to take a stab at it, maybe it has something to do with the age demographic/type of fan on each platform?

Tumblr is very gay platform, and it’s also a platform for theorizing, so it makes sense that Byler is more popular here. Mlvn just kinda exists right now. There’s not much to theorize about. Like if you really believe that the monologue fixed everything and Mike and El will live happily ever after, then okay. It makes sense why a lot of them believe Mlvn will get married young and have children, cause where else is for them to go? All the other ships have unfinished business, even Jopper, the ship that’s probably in the best place after S4. They still have to figure out how to work together as a couple with a blended family.

Byler is inherently exciting to Tumblr cause it’s all about theorizing and anticipation. And it’s queer. Age demographic-wise, it seems like Byler Tumblr is all over the map too: from millennials who’ve been through this before with other ships that turned out to be queerbait to Gen Z adults my age to younger Zoomers who are truly excited about a ship becoming canon for the first time. There’s probably some of Gen Alpha here too, as well as people from Gen X. This shows that Byler is exciting and appeals to a wide range of folks.

With TikTok, it’s a younger skewing platform, and fandom-wise, there’s an emphasis on edits as well as Byler theorizing. And honestly, Season 4 genuinely didn’t give Mlvns that much to work with when it comes to edits. I mean, Will is in most of the shots. And Mlvn theories don’t seem that exciting. The GA already sees Mlvn endgame as the foregone conclusion, and he monologued to her. What else is there to theorize about? Since TikTok is a newer platform, it seems like there’s just less Mlvn-loyalists making content there, and Byler shippers have just taken it over. This is in large part due to Stranger Things as a whole exploding in popularity during summer 2022 and a lot of people switching sides to Byler during that time. There was a lot of content to create. I also think to some extent angsty edits perform better. And Byler obviously has a lot of angst.

Twitter honestly seems like the biggest war zone to me, which is why I stay away from ST Twitter for the most part. There’s just a lot of petty fights and arguments. Clearly we have a strong presence there, as evidenced by us causing the whole Byler script fiasco in august 2022. Mlvns there seem to be the most toxic, and I’ve noticed they always have Regina George tendencies (a lot of them have PFPs of Millie, Regina George, Barbie, or Olivia Rodrigo for some reason). I don’t know if it’s true that there are more Bylers than Mlvns on Twitter, but if that is true, that’s once again because Byler is just more exciting lol.

I think Instagram is a weird creature overall. It’s older than TikTok, so the fandom presence was likely established in 2016 when Mlvn mania began. It’s not really algorithmically based in the same way (with clear trending topics), so I think it’s easier for people to just follow and interact with accounts they support. I’ve noticed that a lot of the Mlvn accounts are Fillie accounts or Fillie-adjacent accounts often run by young girls (but not always- there are older fans too).

They tend to overly romanticize Mlvn and genuinely see it as the height of romance, even denying that they have any problems whatsoever. And they tend to bombard ST comment sections with extremely overzealous pro-Mlvn stuff, sometimes bordering on bizarre. Maybe part of this is due to IG basically being Facebook for younger millennials/older Zoomers? I think it’s a substantially more normie and less queer space than Tumblr. It’s also picture-based, so Mlvns often post screenshots from the show and pictures of Finn and Millie.

And obviously reddit is pro-Mlvn to an extreme too, with Bylers basically been exiled to the Byler subreddit. But there it’s largely middle-aged men who can’t fathom their favorite nerdy 80s nostalgia show becoming “woke” and gay.

#byler

[mxi-88]

hey guys i realized today i could make a pinned post so this is that.

i am mexi this is where i post art! here's some stuff you should know about this blog:

i made this a side blog in 2019 which was a mistake but now im in too deep. i cant follow you back here, my main is zuttosobade but i mainly post on twitter if you want to become friends! or you can shoot me an ask if you want to talk!

this is an archive account, so i more or less post all my art as opposed to separating them between different accounts... so be prepared for multiple fandoms! and for my old art to show up in your recommended posts cus i am dedicated to preservation! (gags)

on that subject, im multifandom and more or less cycle thru my old fixations and occasionally introduce new ones to the mix... here are some fandoms i tend to return to:

enstars (specifically favs are aoi & tojou siblings and ibyz/yztr!)

genshin impact

mairimashita! iruma-kun

ace attorney

rpgmaker & adjacent games (zeno, yttd, utdr, omori, & mother 3 are my favs!)

fe3h

dsmp (purely on a character/story basis, not the ccs)

total drama..? (i get the bug to draw sierra like once a year)

i also draw my OCs a lot! sometimes fandom related ones (my fe3h and genshin OCs are especially dear to me), but mainly clover and co (you will notice him at the beginning of this post and in my pfp) are my favorites! here's where you can learn more about my OCs:

carrd info page! (clover related ocs only)

artfight page! (i have a toyhouse but its very disorganized... this page needs to be updated too...)

my general OC tag!

finally, i have an etsy store you can check out if youre interested! a link to that and all my other socials as well as commission info/usage policies for my art can be found in my carrd:

thank you for reading!

#pinned

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

Starting to think the only way I can consume bts-related content is by removing myself from fandom spaces entirely. Sorry to use this as a space to rant but the constant black/white thinking, competitiveness to prove who's the biggest fan, cherry-picking performative activism, worshipping etc is all becoming too much to the point I feel sort of burnt out and ready for a break. I know you've addressed these aspects a lot on here and I really appreciate the honesty and space for discussion.

I got into bts during their boy with luv comeback in 2019 and they quickly became my whole life -- I basically only thought about or spoke about them, to the point it was unhealthy. I stepped away from the fandom a little bit in 2022 after some aggravating experiences but this year I got back into them because I loved Namjoon and Jimin's solo releases, and remembered how much comfort I took from their music and content. I started venturing back into army social media spaces.

But oh my god, it's honestly unbearable out there and it's exhausting. I'm so sick of the way armys worship and idolize these seven men like they aren't even human. They put them above their values and dedicate their entire lives to them, and don't see anything wrong with that. I'm a little apprehensive for 2025 because who knows what the fandom will look like by then? I guess it's just hard to reconcile being a fan of the group but not wanting to be associated with the stans. Do you have a balance between enjoying the content but not being driven crazy by army? lmao

I mean, the only way you can truly enjoy the content is to move yourself away completely from fandom spaces, particularly those focused on discourse. For example, I can't avoid army or the daily issue even if I follow some Jimin accounts because of course they're bringing up whatever is happening, usually criticism. And then it adds up and before you know it, you get angry everyday so where does that leave us?

A solution, at least from what I've noticed and if you want to still be aware of what's going on and enjoy the experience, apart from paying attention to content, would be to follow focused accounts on something very specific. Like strictly career updates or more on the fun side which usually post images and videos.

But apart from that, take breaks, make sure you find other stuff to be interested about and not just this. I try to curate my twitter feed and tumblr dashboard with lots of other areas of interest, mixing it up so I don't get sucked into BTS discourse and everything adjacent to it. But then, without asking, I still get the info in my inbox which is not always ideal, but that's on me and having an active blog.

#m thoughts #fandom participation #fandom experience #bts

[proosh]

Introduction + Info post

Hi all, I'm Prush! I thought that since it's been a while I'd make a proper pinned post with all the relevant info.

About me:

21+

Any pronouns are fine!

Australian

ADHD + Autistic

Have been in this fandom for like 10 years, but new to the Tumblr side of things

Looking for friends!!

Besides Hetalia and history in general some of my other interests include: FFXIV, ASOIAF, Soulsborne games & Yoko Taro games

I'm a bit introverted but I'll do my best!!

About this blog:

Primarily fixated on HWS Prussia and HWS France + Frapru as a ship

Open to other ships as well!!

Mature content, minors do not interact

Avatar (my FFXIV bunny Pru lmao) commissioned from the lovely @\bunny-bun-draws, go check them out!

About my writing:

Mostly niche weird kink-adjacent stuff + problematic content

My proper fics can be found over at my AO3 account

Other general writing like ficlets can be found at #my-fic

Assorted "stuff I make" (headcanons, meta, etc) is under the #my-writing tag

All of the above, including offhanded low-effort shitposting is under #mine

Thanks everyone!!

#mine #i think that's everything

[keepsmagnetoaway]

What is this? Why? I can answer the first, but not the second.

This is a tumblr where, each day, I read and post about one X-Men comic, in order, from January 1st 2024, when I'll start with the first ever X-Men issue, until...whenever I stop, or run out of issues (which will never happen, I will definitely stop or die first). The idea is that the posts will be entirely freeform: some of them will be actual, like, reviews of an issue, some of them will just be "this panel is goofy", most of them will be something in-between.

My guide here is the excellent, exhaustive but actually useable Crushing Krisis reading order guide, found here (https://www.crushingkrisis.com/crushing-comics-guide-collecting-marvel-comic-books/x-men-reading-order-guide/): I'll read through according to this order, reading all the mainline issues. This guide also includes a bunch of optional side-issues - guest appearances etc. - which I will mostly be skipping, but I'll do optional stuff if it seems fun.

Why am I doing this? I dunno, I needed A Project. I have a crippling reliance on overly elaborate social media projects of this kind. I'm a comics-adjacent nerd and I know the broad outlines but I have no connection to the fandom don't know the X-Men in huge detail, although I've always wanted to, and there's enough stuff there to keep me going for decades. Also I want something that's a mixture of genuinely good stuff and stuff I can laugh at.

This is a secondary account: follow this or check out @acrossthedeadcontinent which is my primary: it's dormant (for now) but might have details of my various other tumblr activities. In the meantime asks and so on are open.

#x men #x men comics #xmen #a project #let's see how long this lasts #why am i like this #comics

[porgatino]

Pinned Post? In this economy???

I’m Porga (previously heichou-espurr), 30+ and Texas-based. I'm a fic writer and fanartist so you'll find that content here mixed with everything else I retweet reblog. Occasionally I'll sneak in some original stuff 🩷

Fandoms include: Attack on Titan (after 10 years? Yeah I’m still here), Pokemon, Yugioh (DM & 5Ds), Dead by Daylight (and adjacent-horror) and Magic the Gathering. There's a sprinkling of odds and ends but those are the main ones you'll find here. Currently obsessed with Hazbin Hotel so you’ll find that in abundance.

I have a niche side account @yeehautja if you like alien monster hunters 🖤

Main ships include: jearmin, eremin, scoopshipping, faithshipping, trustshipping, kbnz, originshipping, valangel and radiostatic

All of my art and writing is going to be for the main ships. I honestly don't venture much outside of those fandom spaces.

Connect with me on other socials and check out my fics!

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❌: DO NOT use my art or fics to spread hate of any kind.

❌:DO NOT repost my art or fics to any other sites even with credit (fic translations are fine as long as they are posted to AO3 ONLY).

❌DO NOT use my writing or art for AI, NFTs, or any other crypto❌

✅ Inbox and submissions are open to headcanons and funny stories! I love chatting about fandom things, but keep it light hearted. I don't take these fictional characters too seriously so if you're expecting a deep character essay analysis STOP. We don't do that here. I also do not take c0mmissions of any kind (writing or art)

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As of now, all my spicy content will remain on twitter until I find a stable spot to post it. No minors over there, please. Tread cautiously here because while I can't post hardcore spicy, this account is still not minor-safe.

Not spoiler free. I don't always tag things either.

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At the end of the day, I'm just here to create funny little posts, silly little fics and pretty little arts for people to enjoy.

Check out my spooky slasher fic 🖤🩸🔪

Check out my social media au comic 🩵📱🍳

#pinned intro #pinned post

[crewman-six]

Question For Craft Sellers

So, before joining Tumblr, I made an Instagram for my online shop. I've never really enjoyed the Instagram experience, tbh, and I'm sure that's a big part of why it's never really gotten any traction. Plus the fact that you can't add links, followers can't really boost your visibility, and scheduling posts isn't really a thing there either (or if it is, I never found it). I'm thinking seriously of deleting the account, cuz the whole thing just ... ugh.

So my question is this. How do we feel about crafty stuffs on here? I mostly see fandom things, a bit of politics, and fandom adjacent things like the WGA / SAG-AFTRA strike so I guess I'm hesitant to jump right in. And what about side blogs? Good for promoting crafty stuffs, or nah?

So, yeah. Reblogs appreciated!

#crafts #makers #handmade #i make things #but they don't sell #I suck at self-promotion #help? lol

[freedfromthegalactichivemind]

Things Ephemeral

Not entirely She-Ra here... A grim and serious post about online estate-management. Relation to this blog, though.

If you've been following my blog lately, you know what's going on in my life that's not directly She-Ra because I've chosen to put a little personal stuff here. If you're new to it or haven't been following lately... my 39 year old beloved fellow-geek nephew fucking died almost a month ago unexpectedly. So, today, over on Facebook / a game adjacent to Facebook, I was wondering if there was a way to get into my nephew's account or to inform someone to close it. We both played a game called "Mousehunt," which is just a little "set-it-and-leave-it" game about catching weird mice in a fantasy kingdom. Both my partner and I openly wondered what would happen with his account on a phone-game he played, some kind of Marvel War game that he played at set times on certain days with a crew from around the world (he tended to play late at night). His other uncle took charge of his cell phone and doesn't know anything of his game accounts (neither do we) - so there's the Marvel game where there are people we didn't know and have no way of informing who are probably wondering "What happened to our General?" Then there's Pokemon Go that's just Pokemon Go-ing.

It makes me wonder about the digital ghosts we leave in the modern age.

It's the kind of thing that would happen to me here if I suffered death, or a dire accident / injury or a financial problem that would knock me offline indefinitely, and I suspect the same with a lot of tumblerinas... there's be just a vanishing. In fact there are a few people I follow here who seem to have up and disappeared and I don't know what happened to them. Could be anything ranging from tragedy to "person just got bored, left their blog for another blog or left tumblr in favor of some other social media" or "too busy for social media because they have a life." Such is the ambiguity of the Internet. I have informed my partner of my tumblr blogs, but he doesn't like tumblr, doesn't use tumblr and would not know how to navigate this "it takes getting used to" posting system, especially for sideblogs. It took me asking people how to do things to figure out how to work sideblogs. I suspect that if I ever vanish for a long, long time and people have no idea what happened to me, that it's probably something bad. It makes me wonder if I should give my Facebook to a trusted friend / mutual on here to "go check the Facebook if I'm gone for more than a month." And here is where I am not sure if even that is reliable. Once upon a time - a few in this fandom probably know, although I suspect it is largely forgotten, save by me because I own the trauma, I fought with some people and got really manic and suicidal. This is actually why I get more spooked when someone I know or know of deletes a blog and pulls up stakes on their fandom stuff. This happened recently with someone I did not get along with, saw from the sidelines and was very concerned. They might be my enemy, but they used to be my friend, or someone that at least tried to be such once upon a time. I heard from someone who knows us both that they were alive. I was relieved. In any case, I was thinking of just pulling up stakes on all my work in this specific fandom at the time I was really bad, my fics at Ao3 and everything - and was convinced to leave them up, but did delete my old blog. I had shown someone whom I thought I could trust my Facebook in a private discord-Discussion, but I don't think she ever checked it because she basically sided with the person who was claiming that my problems were fake in a callout-post. Maybe she was shielding herself, was at a place where she wanted to believe the worst of me rather than potential tragedy, I do not know. I don't think this once "trusted friend" even looked to see what my relations were saying on my Facebook to know ANYTHING. I don't want to show off my hospital records to prove what I've been through, but, you know, the whole thing showed me I can't always trust people who are "fandom-friends." (In fact, I don't think ANYONE cared when I was gone for a month. People seemed disappointed when I came back / showed I was still alive). Yes, I am still bitter about it. I know I screwed up things for myself, but trust was broken both ways between me and a lot of people. My nephew... we didn't know his Facebook password, but if you go to his Facebook, you know he's gone because of all the memorial posts his friends and family have been leaving. There's an entire bereft anime-club and we still tag him with things he would have liked sometimes, with melancholic messages. And, yeah, if something happened to me, Facebook would be the best bet for knowing these things - but I obviously do not want to give out my real name to anyone I don't trust. And here? Tumblr in general and this fandom that I am most active in specifically? Do I bother to trust anyone? I am... not suicidal right now. In fact, I'm realizing how much of a hole a random death leaves in people's lives and don't want to do that to the few people in this world still around who know and love the real me. But, you know, I don't put it past my body to do a grief-stress heart attack or something dumb like that. Or a medication-interaction. (We still don't know what exactly happened to my nephew, his known health problems aside).

[atherea]

*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙* pinned post for mobile *•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*

hi! I'm tuna, I'm an engineering student and this is my main account where I sometimes post my art + reblog misc fandom stuff. I cycle through a lot of interests lol but I'm currently on a manhwa, debut or die, sdv, dcu and hsr kick. my less cyclical interests have dedicated sideblogs

and I have a side blog for my art only if you only want to see that at @artherea (+ obligatory commissions link)

art + sketch tag: #tuna art , #tuna doodoos

headcanons and aus: #tuna hcs

writing tag (barely used oof): #fics i will never write

misc/talk tag: #can it tuna

my other sideblogs:

naruto (+ fanart) sb: @bakakakashi

pjsk/enstars and adjacent sb: @ricecreamcake

rotomblr sb: @serenne-grace

rgg sb: @kiryu-kazooma

i'm 21, not all of the stuff I rb could be gen so interact accordingly. also if you look like a bot i block on spot sorry lol

I tend to forget tagging content warnings (sorry!) but if you ever want to block tags, the format I use is #cw example or just #example

please do not repost my art, but if you want to use anything for personal use that is fine :))

i'm not active on these but these are my tiktok and my insta

#pinned

[rutadales]

Hi, it's me Root! it's been a minute since I made my pinned post so I thought I'd update it and clean it up some.

TAGS:

Root talks

Root draws

Root writes

Root doodles

GENERAL:

This is my dsmp side blog! I follow from pumpkinrootbeer but I like to keep these accounts pretty separate. All the personal information I'm comfortable sharing is in my description, I'm not going to give out more than that.

Since this is my dsmp account I only really post about dsmp and dsmp adjacent stuff, be that c! or cc!, anything else would go on my main.

Though I say this in my description I'll say it here as well: I am autistic! I have trouble reading tone and interpreting meaning through text. I also struggle conveying tone and sometimes realize later how something may have come across not how I intended. I'll usually delete or correct what I meant but please, please feel free to correct me if I do anything that makes you uncomfortable. With that, I'm also just pretty shy! If you dm me or send an ask I might take a bit to get to it because I do struggle a lot with talking to folks. Nothing against u, I just get nervous very easily.

FAQ:

"How do you feel about people shipping __" I don't lmao. I have a very ship and let ship attitude to fandom. As long as what you do online doesn't hurt anyone I'm not going to care. I've said that before but I guess I wasn't clear enough on my stance because I've gotten several asks regarding this.

"How do you feel about (insert any dream situation/cc drama)" I like and engage in cc!dream content, and I'm going to continue to do so. If you ask me about a specific situation there's a good chance I'm not going to respond. In general I only reblog the occasional post about any controversy new or old. There is no shame or harm in blocking me, I mean that!! If what I post makes you uncomfortable in any way, hit that block button! Curate your online spaces!!! CURATE! but yes, op is a dream stan btw.

"well what about ___" stop sending me asks regarding drama unprompted😭 idk what gave people the impression I care or have ever cared about drm drama or fandom drama especially since I equally post about foolish but I will not give you a genuine answer. You'll have a better time at any other blog who actually talks about that stuff

"can I use your art for ___" YES!! A MILLION TIMES YES!! all I ask is you credit me somewhere, bio/pinned post/something similar. The only hard stance I have regarding my art is basic reposts. Don't do that please

"aren't c!dream and c!foolish brothers?" NO. that's a headcanon! Not canon! They only had one canon interaction on the smp! honestly I should be getting "didn't they only talk once?" questions on my c!droolish posts instead of the brothers one. But no, they are not siblings. This common misinterpretation came from the fact C!puffy is c!Foolish's adopted mom and she called c!dream her duckling. this does not make her c!dream's mom or c!droolish brothers. Cc!Foolish has said it's not canon. peace and love.

#yippee #but no seriously if I get one more 'arent they brothers' ill explode

[slightlyrebelliouswriter23]

Writing smut without cringing the whole time? How do you do it.

Writing Smut 101: Overcoming Smut Shame

CONTENT WARNING: NSFW RELATED CONTENT BELOW.

The short answer, nonnie, is: you don’t. 

That is to say, writing smut is always kind of cringe—especially if you’re new to it, or simply “not in the mood” to write. 

But rest assured, feeling embarrassed is completely natural. The trick is learning how to overcome the cringe when it does happen, instead of letting it deter you.

I’m going to break this up into a few sections: 1) Why you might be feeling this way, 2) How I, personally, combat the issue, and 3) Some more tips that might help you get the ball rolling.

1. Why You “Cringe”

It’s important to find the root cause of any form of writer’s block so you can pull the weed out instead of just trimming it back. Smut writer’s block is its own special brand, and generally, the main issue writers have when it comes to smut is stigma.

Speaking openly and honestly about sex, in Western society, is still very much a taboo.

No matter how “progressive” we like to think we are, the inherent shame surrounding pleasure-seeking experiences, and the detailing/consumption of them, has been ground into us since we learned how to understand the concept of gratification.

And I’m not just talking about sexual gratification. This applies to everyday things, as well. Eating, shopping, relaxing (or doing virtually anything in capitalist society that does not directly contribute to capitalism).

So it makes sense that you would feel any amount of embarrassment, awkwardness, or “cringe” when writing smut. It’s something our society teaches us is wrong to want. Unfortunately, that shame translates to writer’s block when we sit down in front of the computer.

A lot of this blockage might stem from not giving ourselves permission to write the thing.

We’re staring at the blank document, knowing we want to write smut, and suddenly the thoughts start streaming in: This feels wrong, is this wrong? What if someone comes in and looks over my shoulder while I’m writing? Am I describing this right? Is this too unrealistic? I have NO idea what I’m doing, and everyone is going to know it.

These are all perfectly normal thoughts, and definitely ones I still have from time to time. But they’re also probably the direct cause of why you feel so blocked. Luckily, I have some bits of advice to give you on how to unblock yourself.

2. How I Combat Smut Block

✦ First, when the intrusive thoughts occur, instead of ruminating on them, think of each one as an impermanent object. You can use any metaphor, but I like to use the imagery of leaves:

Each negative thought is a leaf floating down the river of your mind. If you focus only on the leaf, you’ll exert a lot of energy running to try and keep up with it, consequently miss everything else around you. But if you acknowledge that leaf as a temporary part of the scenery, and let is pass, you can process and appreciate the beauty of your surroundings a whole lot better.

Remember: you are separate from your thoughts. You are not defined by them. The things you think sound stupid might be incredibly exciting to someone else. 

If you can string a sentence together, you can write smut. This is all part of giving yourself permission to write the thing that makes you feel uncomfortable.

✦ Second, I’d suggest giving good thought to how you personally experience embarrassment, how you experience excitement (of the sexual variety), and how those two might sometimes commingle or feel similar.

For me, they are very comparable, like different shades of the same emotion—but there are differences which are important to note. 

If I’m making myself blush from excitement, this is a very good thing for writing smut. It means that what I’m writing feels real enough to evoke something in the reader, even if the reader, like me, knows what’s going to happen.

If I’m making myself cringe, however, it may be time to take a step back and readjust my perspective.

✦ Third, ease yourself into it! Don’t jump straight in the deep end and expect to know how to keep your head above water if you’ve never swum before.

The way I eased myself into smut was first by writing “Steam”—a category of fic I made up because the current vocabulary lacked an efficient term for fics that straddled emotional romance and explicit content. 

Essentially, steam is smut-adjacent but not explicit, and here’s a step-by-step example of how I transitioned myself smoothly from one genre to the next:

I first wrote my fics Wicked Game and You Are (both of which feature either a heavy make out session or teasing + lots of sexual tension) with this “steam” concept in mind.

I wrote the first chapter of Fine Line, which has brief but explicit descriptions of fantasies, framed by a very sexually charged scene.

I released my fic Crashing, which is probably more of a bridge between Steam and Smut, and features soft-focus fingering. Nothing in it is explicit—it focuses more on the emotions than explicit detail—but it’s very clear what is happening.

After I wrote those, I felt just confident enough to make that final stride over the threshold into smut. I wrote my fics Holy, King, and the second chapter of Fine Line all within weeks of each other.

And trust me when I say, once you get the momentum going and receive that validation from people who’ve read your work, it becomes SO much easier to sit down and start writing. 

You just have to finish that first piece.

✦ Finally (and I know I’m going to sound cliche when I say this), just like any other skill, the more you practice the more confident you will feel and the better you will get. 

So practice, practice, practice! 

If you’re nervous about posting smut for the first time, have a trusted friend/mutual Beta read it for you. It’s the online equivalent to someone holding your hand before jumping off the cliff, and works wonders for the nerves.

3. Keep The Smut Rolling

Now that you have some tools to help get you past the blockage of writing smut, here’s how to keep the inspiration flowing.

✦ Start by incorporating smutty fanfiction/erotic fiction into your regular reading rotation- 

Of course AO3 is a fantastic resource for smutty fanfiction. 

If you’re a fan of TFOTA or ACOTAR and want some of my personal fic recs, visit my fic rec masterlist.

In terms of erotic fiction, my personal favourites are anything Anais Nin (specifically Henry & June and Delta of Venus), The Thornchapel series by Sierra Simone, The Godwicks series by Tiffany Reisz, and The Original Sinners series by Tiffany Reisz.

There are also sites like Literotica and sexstories.com, which play host to explicit short fiction (not fandom based).

✦ Next, I’d recommend having a designated digital space for smutspiration- 

This can be a list of “smutty” words/phrases kept on a separate document on your computer, for those days when you just can’t think of the right way to describe something. 

Or you can create a private side-blog or Pinterest board for your favourite smutty fanart or other kinds of visual smutspiration.

✦ For that matter, try following some smutty/18+ blogs (ONLY IF YOU’RE 18+) here on Tumblr-

Many of them have a plethora of what I like to call “lemony snippets”, a.k.a. short text posts that describe (usually in conversational language) explicit scenarios. 

This is useful because it will normalise the concept of sexual fantasies in your brain, making it less weird for you when you try to come up with ones of your own to write into smut. 

Not to mention, your dash will be rife with inspiration.

✦ I would also suggest checking out 18+ ASMR on YouTube (AGAIN, ONLY IF YOU’RE 18+). 

My favourite account is Professor Cal Official, but Auralescent also has some good content. 

Headphones are highly advisable for this, as their stuff is very dangerous for work.

So, nonnie, I hope this has provided you with at least one helpful tip. Whether you took anything away from this or not, just know that the feelings of embarrassment when it comes to writing smut are entirely normal. And the best way to keep those feelings at bay is to confront them head on. 

-Em 🖤🗡

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[woodrokiro]

Bar Service (fic)

Fandom: Bleach

Characters/Pairing: IchiRuki

Summary: Bartenders--especially bartenders around the corner from her apartment--are strictly off limits. Restaurant AU. Written for @ichirukimonth . TW warning for mentioned child abuse. 

She doesn’t think much of the restaurant a few blocks away from her new apartment.

She always passes it to and from her work commute, of course. Maybe from time to time she glanced over, musing how it looks cute enough--a great place to take a date or some friends....

Before Rukia remembers: 1. She doesn’t have the time or capacity to date, and 2. She has no friends here yet… And probably won’t for a while, considering her lifelong difficulty making them in the first place. 

It’s fine by her, honestly. She likes throwing everything she has into her job, loves doing her best to earn a smile or laugh from her patients. That’s enough social interaction for her, and at the end of the day she can go home, pour a glass of wine, switch the television on to some silly drama and order takeout without mourning the “loss” of a Friday night.

So for the first few months that she’s living in Karakura: no. She doesn’t even think about stepping foot in Amore e Morte. 

Until she gets a particularly bad case at work. 

The fact that it was a foster child case alone makes her heart hurt--but of course, there’s always more with these sort of situations. 

A little girl named Hina, aged eight but looking so much smaller waiting there in her office. The social worker sitting with her--a woman named Rangiku, who Rukia knows a little and actually quite likes--squeezes Hina’s tiny hand before pulling Rukia to the side, quietly explaining the situation. 

Physical abuse from her former home where she had been for a year. Her teacher kept noticing bruises in odd places and finally called CPS, who did nothing for two months before the behavior escalated and Hina ended up in the ER.

Her new foster mom is a real nice lady, says she hasn’t been acting out or anything but… Rangiku shrugs, flashing a reassuring smile when the little girl looks their way. You know. 

She knows. 

So Rukia does what she does best: she goes to the little girl, introduces herself by her first name, and focuses on her work until she can sob angrily in her car at lunch break. 

And when her workday is done, when her emotions are fried and she’d really like a drink or three anywhere but her lonely apartment--she sees the restaurant’s sign, glowing warmly in the dusk light. 

Amore e Morte. Love and death. A weird name for a restaurant, she thinks, and wonders if the owners either don’t know Italian and thought the name was cool or are just uppity snobs. 

If you’d stop being so cynical you might go out and actually enjoy life. She can practically hear Renji’s voice scoffing in her ear now.

She parks her car at home before walking back over to the restaurant.

--

The outside of the restaurant is nice enough, but the inside is… Well. Lovely.

Brick walls painted white make the entire place look minimalist yet cozy. A couple of trendy paintings hanging sparsely through the restaurant makes the environment chic, but not overbearing. A few hanging lanterns bring just enough light to let everyone see where they’re going, but otherwise candles are utilized at each of the tables for a romantic touch.

Rukia sees by the sheer number of couples there that it is indeed a good place to bring a date.

And by the looks of one dish smelling deliciously of chicken and bell peppers that passes her by in a waiter’s hand, the food isn’t too bad either. Rukia’s mouth waters. 

“A table for one, miss?” 

Rukia startles from her musings, feeling rather silly as the bright and cheery hostess smiles patiently back. 

“Oh! No, I don’t think that’s necessary. I wouldn’t want to take up one of your tables. Do you have bar seating?”

“Of course! Right this way.” 

The hostess leads her into an adjacent room that sits tucked away from the main dining room. There’s still a couple of tables in this room, and two of the eight bar stools are occupied but it’s so much quieter here, the noise of the dining room a mere buzz. She breathes a small sigh of relief as she takes the stool at the far end. She wanted to be out and about, just… Not that out and about.

“Our bartender Kurosaki-kun will be taking care of you. I believe he’s just in the back talking to Chef, he should be right back.”

Rukia thanks her, taking a glance at the menu. 

She quickly finds out Chef Yasutora Sado’s menu inspiration is Mexican-Japanese fusion cuisine, which is… Interesting, considering the restaurant’s name is Italian. In any case, she’s fascinated. Rukia by no account considers herself a foodie, but the thought of blending traditional Japanese dishes with Mexican spices and turning them into something like sukiyaki tacos makes her stomach growl. 

“Can I get you something other than water to drink?”

Her gaze flickers from the menu to the well-toned arm extended out toward her, pouring a glass of water. Her eyes move up the arm to the man it’s attached to. 

A handsome guy, she’ll admit: if it wasn’t for the obviously bleached orange hair, the sword tattoo on his forearm peeking out from under his rolled sleeve, and the fact that he looked like he wanted to be literally anywhere else.

If she had to pick him out from a crowd, there’s no doubt she’d know him as a bartender. What a walking cliche. 

“Yes, I’ll take--” She didn’t even take a glance at the drink menu. She looks down quickly. “Sorry. Can I get a matcha mojito?” 

He nods, his hands suddenly flying through liquors and shakers and mixes to make her drink. “You ready for food, too?” 

“Any recommendations?” 

“Everything.”

She snorts. She’d be irritated by the subpar service if it wasn’t for his small smirk at her response. 

“Seriously, everything’s good here. If you get something you don’t like, drinks are on me.”

“Risky.” Rukia lifted an eyebrow. “You place that bet with every customer?”

“Every single one.” 

She highly doubts that, but she appreciates the trust in his workplace nonetheless. She orders a couple of small plates, and he tends to his other drink orders while she sips her own. 

The food, when it comes out, is… Infuriatingly good. Infuriating because she would have loved to have scored a couple free drinks off the arrogant punk bartender, but she’ll have to swallow her pride because the sukiyaki taco is absolute divinity. She sips her second drink, already accepting that she’s gonna have to admit to him she’ll be paying full price for everything she ordered.

Unfortunately, it doesn’t look like she’ll have a chance to gloat. From what she hears next door, dinner service has picked up and with that: drink orders. He’s doing as well as he can--hands expertly flying through the liquors, garnishing the cocktails with an expert flourish before passing them on to a server--but she can tell he’s feeling the stress, particularly when he reads his second to last ticket in the rush.

“Fuck,” she hears as he rolls his eyes, stalking over to the wine cabinet. A server comes by, concerned. 

“You need anything, Ichigo?”

He waves a hand, not turning to look at his coworker. “No, no I’m fine. Just annoying when I don't open a bottle before rush, that’s all.”

The server scuttles off to tend to her tables while Rukia watches him bang a (very expensive looking) wine bottle on the counter, clumsily ripping into the foil with an opener. At one point he cuts his thumb, and he half-hazardly wraps a paper napkin around it while he tries helplessly to pull the cork up. The wine opener doesn’t grip the bottle steadily a couple of times, she waits on baited breath to see if he’ll break the bottle. After a few dangerous-looking test runs, he manages to hoist the cork up, cursing out a “fucking finally” at the sound of the cork popping.

The whole thing must have taken ten minutes.

Maybe it’s the matcha mojitos finally hitting her, but she can’t help it. She laughs. 

He shoots her a wild look and she covers her chuckles with the back of her hand. 

“Sorry, sorry! I’m not--it’s not funny. I just… That was the most atrocious opening of a wine bottle I’ve ever seen.”

Ichigo stares for a moment before scoffing, turning back to his (finally opened) bottle and pours the wine into a glass. “Yeah, well… I don’t do wine service here, lady.”

“Excuse me? That’s ridiculous. You’re a bartender.”

“Exactly. Bartender. I do cocktails, not fancy wine stuff.”

“Let me guess, you consider yourself a mixologist.”

“Don’t ever call me that. Ever.” He’s shaking his head as he moves on to his next order, but oddly enough Rukia feels like she knows he’s suddenly having a good time. “Like I said, I don’t do wine etiquette and all that. That’s for the servers.”

“I’m just… It’s hard to believe you’ve made it this far in a nicer restaurant’s bar without knowing how to open wine.”

“Not that far. I’ve been here for like, six months.” He shrugs at her inquisitive stare. “Old buddies with the chef. I bar backed in college where he was a line cook, so… And if he ever got sick of me, my sister is his sous chef. Then again, she’s more likely to fire me than he is, the brat.”

“Especially with you not knowing how to open a fine vintage.”

“Get over it. When it’s not busy I get one of the servers to help me.” He looks down, having seemingly forgotten about his paper toweled thumb. “Shit. Hang on, I gotta get a bandaid from the back--”

“I have some, if you want.” Rukia starts digging through her purse. “If there’s not some restaurant code for the kind of bandage you’re supposed to use, of course.”

“If it looks neater than a shoddy paper towel job, ‘should be fine. Thanks.”

“You’re welcome. Here.” 

He stares at her outstretched hand. She stares back, getting more irritated as she waits. 

“What?”

“... It’s a Chappy bandaid.”

“So?”

“So why are you a grown ass woman carrying around Chappy bandaids?” 

“They’re for my patients, for kids.” She’s telling the truth, technically. To say she also quite enjoys Chappy as a character does not need to be mentioned. “Do you want it or not? Swallow your manly pride or go looking for an ugly beige bandage while your tickets pile up again. Tick tock.”

“Fine! All right, already.” He takes the bandaid and starts unpeeling the paper adhesive. “You a pediatrician or something?” 

“Child psychologist.” Suddenly Rukia remembers Hina’s sweet face and feels terrible for not thinking about her once this entire dinner. 

“Jesus.” Ichigo’s shaking his head, pressing Chappy to his cut.

“What is that supposed to mean?” 

Maybe it’s the alcohol, maybe it’s the guilt, maybe it’s the fact that it’s such a weird response to her revealing her profession, but Rukia can’t help it. She narrows her eyes and crosses her arms.

If he’s uncomfortable with her sudden hostility, he doesn’t show it. He shrugs. “It’s just… I can imagine it’s a hard job. Sometimes, anyway.” 

Oh. 

“Oh,” she exhales. “I’m sorry, I--yes. It can be, yes.I just… That sort of response I’ve only ever gotten from people that don’t believe in the importance of mental health. ‘Shrink talk’ and what have you.”

“Nah, I believe it.” He’s finished his job of covering his wound and moved on to his next drink order. 

She’s abashedly stirring the ice in her glass when she barely hears him say: “I had to go to a children’s therapist once, as a kid. Helped me a lot.”

She raises her head to look at him. He hasn’t changed his facial expression, nor is there any change to his body language as he continues to do his job--but as a psychologist, Rukia can’t help but wonder whether she’s the first person he’s ever told this to. 

“Me too. When I was a child, I… A therapist had helped me, too.” She raises her glass and clears her throat. “To recognizing childhood trauma, I suppose.”

He lets out a short laugh at the sudden dark joke, a sound so quick and so… So nice she can’t stop the fleeting thought that it’s a sound she’d like to hear more of. She shoves it away. 

Bartenders are absolutely off limits. 

He raises the glass that he’s mixing a cocktail in. “Yeah. Cheers.”

--

Later when she finally picks up the check, she pauses.

“Excuse me.” She waves Ichigo down, maybe just a tad tipsy. “You got the check wrong.”

He frowns, taking the bill from her and scanning it. “What are you…”

“You forgot to put a drink on there. My third one.”

It clicks and he rolls his eyes. “Oh my god.”

“What? I’m being honest.”

“It’s on me.” He slides the receipt back to her. 

“But I didn’t dislike any of the dishes!”

“Take some advice, will you Doc? If the restaurant staff didn’t put something on your bill and you still got it, chances are: we wanted to give it to you.” They lock eyes for an intense moment before he clears his throat, looks down to wipe his (suspiciously clean) bar. “‘To childhood trauma,’ and all that. Now stop yapping so loud about it. You want everyone in the restaurant to hear about me giving out free stuff?”

She shuts her mouth at that, but one small detail about what he said is bothering her.

“It’s not ‘Doc,’ so you know. I have a name. It’s Rukia. Rukia Kuchiki.”

“Okay. Whatever, Rukia.” He turns around and waves his hand. “And I’m Ichigo. Just pay your damn bill and come back soon or whatever.”

And with that: she guesses she has a new spot.

#bleach #ichiruki #irmonth2021 #ichigo kurosaki #rukia kuchiki #my stuff #may or may not be multi chapter if I'm being reeeal #but this was fun so maybe

[comradedream]

heard u liked the psychology aspects of fandom :0 not anon but curious on ur thoughts about the complete flip in attitudes btwn tumblr and twitter regarding sbi and dt if you have any? (as in how a lot of mcytblr loves sbi and hates dt but vice versa w mcyttwt and how it was even that way before sbi were mass-cancelled on twt back in spring)

OOOO okay i actually had to think about this for a bit but also i’ve already thought about this so this is me actually verbalizing my thoughts lmaooo

i was ON mcyttwt back in october through march ish so it was before the ‘mass cancelling’ (which i think was largely techno’s and a large chunk of ‘sbitwt’ ceasing being used as a label after he didn’t apologize) so i saw the tensions there before everything actually went down LOL

i don’t think that divide is exactly like it is on here though, i feel like large amounts of both disliked each other on twitter while on here i feel like a large portion of dtblr is actually fine w sbi/sbiblr adjacent (which i think also has a reason.) WHICH ILL ALSO TALK ABOUT this is going to be very long. like actually mega long. like dsmpblr arguing about apologism with each other in reblogs long. (super long.)

so for one, i think ‘stan’ wise (cuz majority of yt viewers aren’t on either) tumblr has more sbi stans here and twitter has more dteam ones there. that’s the obvious one, just by there being more ppl = more chances of ppl disliking ppl, etc. dream is more active w his fanbase on there than most of the sbi adjacent ccs are and he’s the creator with the biggest following out of all of them, dteam has private accounts on there, it’s easily accessible if u want a fandom that’s close to the ccs and to a large portion of ppl who like them too. it’s also a more popular social media that doesn’t have like a user ‘stigma’ LOL i avoided tumblr for a very long time for the reasons i dislike general twitter now. (the radlibs.) (also my irls know i have twitter but i feel weird saying i have a tumblr. idk okay i feel like the way the two are perceived is different.) on here if u don’t care about interacting w cc tweets and also care a ton about the lore for example, tumblr is easier to write long analyses and stuff instead of just constantly provoking each other and trying to get the upper hand and throwing buzzwords around like on dsmptwt. sbi adjacent ccs aren’t super active on there anyway, and a huge section of general twitter doesn’t violently hate one of their ccs and the want to be there to fight them/defend ur fav isn’t there LOL. there are probably other reasons large amounts of sbi fans end up gathering here but i’m more knowledgeable on why large amounts of ppl end up on dttwt 🤷

mcyttwt and twitter in general actually is also very all-or-nothing and has a black and white form of thinking. so if someone dislikes someone they like to justify it with buzzwords and make it a moral thing instead of a preference. and that goes both ways, if a fandom dislikes a cc they like to justify it, and that ccs fandom is gonna dislike THEIR cc and try and justify their dislike of the fandom and the cc. it makes the fandom super polarizing because both sides want to be right when they’re both not even WRONG. so a lot of ppl just dislike the opposing side for literally no real reason OR stay focused on and over-emphasize little things and constantly provoke and antagonize each other

ALSOOO twitters interface makes it so it’s easier for the subgroups to interact with each other, since a twitter timeline includes tweets from ppl the ppl u follow followings, the stuff they like, the stuff the ppl u follow reply/qrt to ALL ON THE MAIN DASH. you can also see follower counts/the followers themselves and likes by default, hashtags and trending things and the ppl under them are very easily accessible, the search system is super advanced, and finally qrts and the more new evil qrt function of being able to look through them is available😍😍. like actually i genuinely think the new version of qrts is a huge cause of the current issues on twitter. u not only put stuff u dislike on ur followers timeline and then everybody there also has an input, but ur also able to gather with other random ppl who disagree, and it’s very easy to end up in subsections of twitter that normally wouldn’t interact with each other. and all of this is very normalized/not looked down on, it’s part of the ‘culture.’ subgroups on that app are SIGNIFICANTLY less isolated. that’s how and why i think the divide works on there on an platform level and how it all affects mcyt fandom behavior and relations between each other

as someone who was there i feel like besides the tensions that came w being the two largest chunks of mcyttwt (the cc comparisons, the want to have an upper hand, and oneups, the justifications on why you like the things you do that/the individuality and superiority complexes, and all the stuff that twitters design made an issue like i just talked about) it didn’t get as badly polarized until the lore

which is the next big divide imo. so first there’s that distrust of each other/each other’s takes. a lot of smiletwt hates a lot of the treatment dream gets from non dteam lore mains and the treatment they get for liking c!dream, such as taking out dislike of the cc on the character and vice versa, a lack in the rp and dsmp tags dream requested, calling fans of c!dream abuse apologists, etc. and a lot of non dteam lore mains care more about fictional characters than the ‘opposing’ ccs so they’re very defensive of the characters. sorry that was too biased BECAUSE c!tommy is a victim of c!dream they feel that anyone who even remotely threatens that is a bad person, and the character’s status as a minor and an abuse victim automatically makes people defensive/protective and gives them the opportunity to use the moral high ground to anyone who disagrees w them. a lot of all of that applies to both platforms and both sets of fandoms, twitter just also has all the aforementioned interface problems that make all of this stuff very in your face, which makes the feelings/reactions to it stronger. like if u constantly see shit that pisses u off literally every day for months ur gonna hate it more and want everyone to know that u hate it a lot

okay and FINALLYYY the last thing i can think of for now is the birth of dttblr 😍😍 (/s.) it was founded by people who already hated/grew to hate dream (and later ended up influencing a lot of the problems they caused on here to end up on twitter at a much bigger level 😍👍👍👍.) this affected the way anyone joining the fandom or was already there viewed dream aka 1/3 of dteam and consumed his content, even if it was subconsciously. a lot of the ogs in the fandom were basically george solos before george solos were a thing and all of that affects the way the fandom interacts with subblrs and functions itself. for ONE several of the ogs liked georgebur cuz they hated dream even though at the time wilbur was making fun of george and the two had hardly any one on one interactions which automatically bridges the content consuming divide between the two halves of the fandom. AND it blurs the ‘the opposing side hates my fave’ divide because dttwt wouldn’t positively interact with ppl who hate dream but much of dttblr did and many of them did it themselves. this all affected the relationship w greater mcytblr

OKAY and finally gnf currently interacts w and makes content with uk ccs. gnf mains i think are still the biggest chunk out of the 3 dteam mains subblrs (SOMETHING WHICH IS UNIQUE TO DTEAMBLR) or at the very least are many of the biggest accounts on here (some of which have big followings from being here early) and that affects how their followers see things. many like the uk ccs and it creates an overlap between the two halves of the general fandom, even while the lore still has other parts divided, especially in regards to c!dream

OH OKAY AND ONE MORE THING anyone on tumblr who sees what’s going on on twitter (such as treatment of their faves) hates them for it and it affects the way they view a lot of dteam stans BY DEFAULT even if they’re mutuals w george mains who like sbi. like the whole generalizing ‘dream stans /neg’ thing. plus theyre the bigger group on here so any of that is multiplied automatically

this is so fucking long and it’s STILL not all my thoughts because there are a bajillion layers and effects on each other and i can’t talk about every single one. oh my god if anyone made it this far i’m kissing u on the forehead. also i like just dumped a bunch of my observations and didn’t always directly say the connections between them and my points LOL please ask if something is unclear !

uhhh tdlr i think the way two platforms are designed, the group sizes of users in both fandoms, the storyline of the lore, and the way the two platforms look at each other all affects the divide and how it manifests on both ends of the fandom 😊

#jesus christ this is so long #also i talk in absolutes none of this is absolutes these are my THOUGHTS #asks

[mcwriting]

Starstruck (9)

hello it’s me again. Second to last chapter :( but I’ve got bigger things in the works

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Chapter 10

Fandom: Tom Holland

Ship: Tom x reader

Setting: LA, London

Word Count: 2230

Warnings: mild language

Rating: K+

                            __________________________________

Tom dodged cameras and wove through crowds as he made his way through London Heathrow Airport.

He finally was home in London, but only for about a week since he’d be coming back to LA for you.

The news had obviously broken that Tom had left South Korea, so now he was being bombarded with paparazzi who still wanted to know everything about you, especially your speech four days prior.

He continued to ignore them as he got to where Tuwaine was waiting to pick them up.

The car doors slammed shut as all four boys settled themselves in, Harrison up front and the Hollands in the back. Tuwaine locked the doors, then turned around.

“Seems like we’ve got a lot to talk about, boys.”

“You have noooo idea,” Tom muttered as the others nodded eagerly.

The drive back to their south London house was comfortable to Tom after everything that had happened. They mostly strayed from talking about you in the car, instead sharing funny stories from the long-lived press tour. 

Sam decided to head back to his parents’ house after they arrived at the other boys’, ringing up an uber. He just wanted to sleep in his own bed. Their parents and Paddy had come home from the premiere before Tom went to Korea.

Once the boys were showered off and settled in, they told Tuwaine everything from the pre-release press tour before the premiere to meeting you to everything since. 

“That’s mad, Tom. So when are you going back? And how do you plan on going unseen?” Tuwaine asked.

“Well we’re gonna get back to LA on Thursday to have time to adjust again and get everything settled. I’ve paid for a couple private planes to keep things off the radar as best as I can. All of you can come if you want.”

After further discussion, they decided for only Harrison and Harry to join Tom since the others had prior commitments. 

After a couple more hours of catching up and reflecting on the past weeks, everyone finally decided to retire to their beds and hopefully get some rest.

As Tom layed down, he thought about the plan to see you again. He was nervous and excited at the same time, and went to sleep thinking one thing.

I’m coming to get ya, y/n.

                             __________________________________

As always, news of Tom’s travel back home was all over the internet with clips and pictures of him dodging through the airport being shared, you of course being tagged in those pictures by fan accounts wanting attention.

“Ughhhh I’m so tired of people tagging me in this shit like I actually care! I’m not even remotely involved in these pictures!” you exclaimed to b/f/n, who was sprawled on your bean bag chair as you laid on your stomach across a rug. 

You showed her a fan edit of Tom someone tagged you in, which was just a video transitioning between pictures of him from his press tour.

“I know. It’s so dumb like, he’s even likely to see stuff if you just pester his friends, or in your case… whatever you guys are.”

“Give me a break. We’re nothing. We just met and yeah. That’s all there is to it.”

“I don’t buy it, but whatever. I need to use your charger.”

You pointed to the bed.

“It’s over on the other side if you want it.”

B/f/n sighed dramatically, then rolled her way off the bean bag to flop onto your bed, plugging the device in. After a few minutes of silent scrolling on your phones, she piped up.

“Yo. Why does your bed smell so good? New detergent or something?”

You blushed, realizing you never told her about that little detail.

“Uh, well. It’s cologne.”

She turned her head to look directly at you, eyebrows raised cheekily.

“And why do you have cologne on your bedsheets?”

You avoided looking directly at her for a second, cringing a little.

“Well… I may have kind of left out the part of the story where Tom gave me a whole bottle of his cologne and it smelled really good so I sprayed it all over my sheets… but like no biggie right?”

She sat up.

“Yes biggie! You know exactly what Tom Holland smells like and didn’t think to tell me?”

“I forgot about it until the other day when I found the bottle in a bag of my stuff. Didn’t seem important.”

“Okay, if it’s not important, then why did you douse your bed in his scent?”

“I told you, I think it smells good. That’s it.”

“You’re really going to sit there and try to convince me of that? Everyone knows that scent memory is a really big deal, not to mention that he literally gave it to you.”

You stared each other down for almost a minute before you cracked.

“Okay, fine. It helps me sleep, alright? It takes me back to the night he spent here, which honestly was one of the best nights of my life. It just felt so nice talking to him about vulnerable things, you know? At the time I thought I could trust him, and maybe a part of me wants to remember that side of him.”

B/f/n nodded as you finished.

“I get it. What he did sucks, but you can’t let that ruin the good memories you do have. Things will work themselves out. They always do. You just need to remember that you’re a boss bitch and no matter what happens, you’re gonna be alright.”

“Thanks. I really needed to hear that.”

“Anytime. Now let’s forget about him and figure out where we want to get our nails done next week.”

                             __________________________________

It was now Tuesday, and you and b/f/n sat in adjacent pedicure chairs, trying to lean back peacefully as yours vibrated violently in the name of a “massage.”

After you both struggled to not laugh while the nail techs exfoliated your feet, you were now relaxed and still as they began to actually polish your toenails.

You looked over to see b/f/n smiling at her phone.

“Who’s got you acting up?” you asked. She looked up in surprise.

“It’s no one. Catherine just sent me something funny on Instagram.”

“Oh, okay. Send it to me.”

In reality, she had been talking to Harrison and Tom about Friday, sending them pics of you in your dress the prior week and learning of their plans to get to LA on Thursday morning. 

To cover for herself, though, b/f/n scrolled through her dm’s with Catherine, looking for something she’d received but never sent to you.

                             __________________________________

Wednesday in London, Tom, Harrison, and Harry sat around the dining room recapping the plan for the rest of the week.

“Okay, so we’re gonna get there pretty early tomorrow morning and then I arranged for us to stay at an AirBnb under b/f/n’s name but obviously I’m paying for it. Since none of us are 25, I couldn’t get a regular rental car, but I talked to Audi and they said they’d loan me another car as long as we post some pictures with it.”

“Won’t that defeat the purpose of laying low if we’re plastering our faces with the car online? It won't be hard to distinguish London from pretty much anywhere else,” Harry claimed.

“They said as long as we get the pictures up before we leave town, we’re good. We’ll just have to put it in the calendar so I don’t forget.”

Harry took that as his cue to put it in the calendar right then.

“What about the actual event? I know you said you got in touch with them,” Harrison brought up.

“I’m glad you asked, mate. They were down for letting us make our appearance a surprise, so they’ll have staff sneak us in the back and wait until b/f/n gives us the go-ahead. They’re gonna introduce me and I’ll give a quick word and then… hopefully y/n will let me talk to her.”

The group got everything in order and loaded their bags into Tuwaine’s car once again for him to drive them to the private jet hangars.

After saying their goodbyes again and loading up onto the plane, the boys were in the air, headed west. They would be stopping in New York to change planes, and got comfortable for the almost 8 hour flight.

By the time they got to New York, the boys were exhausted going through customs. They were happy to find that so far no one had seemed to leak the fact that they had left London and were now in the states.

They boarded the next plane and prepared for the 6 hour flight, this time planning to get sleep as it was overnight and they’d be arriving in the morning.

The sun was beginning to rise over Los Angeles as the plane touched down.

“Tom, we’re here,” Harry said, shaking his brother awake as the plane taxied. 

Tom blinked his eyes a few times to adjust to the light, looking out the window. 

The boys deplaned on the tarmac and sat tiredly in the small airport’s lobby as they waited for someone to drop off the car. 

Tom noticed one woman at the desk looking over at him frequently. He was afraid she would end up putting him all over the internet, so he got up and came to the desk.

“Hi there.”

She looked at him, startled.

“Um, hello.”

“I couldn’t help but notice you looking over at us. Would you happen to be a fan?” Tom asked politely. She blushed.

“Yes, actually, I am.”

“Would you like a picture?” Tom offered. He knew he looked horrible from his long journey but needed to know she wouldn’t go around telling everyone about meeting him.

“That would be incredible! I was too afraid to ask.”

Tom called Harry over to take the picture on her phone, then took it from the younger brother. Tom noticed Harrison carrying a couple bags out the door to a car.

“That’s a good one! I only ask that you try to keep this to yourself? At least until tomorrow evening? I’m on a bit of a secret mission, and I don’t quite want the public to know I’m here, yet.” 

The girl’s eyes widened.

“Of course! I’d hate to ruin anything for you.”

“Awesome, thank you so much. And it was quite lovely meeting you, I look forward to seeing those pictures again one day.”

With that, Tom was out the door and on his way to the spot they had rented out for the trip.

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B/f/n woke up Thursday to work out again and saw there was an Instagram notification on her lock screen. It was Harrison (or maybe Tom, who knew who she was actually talking to).

We made it to the AirBnb. Thanks again for putting it under your name.

She saw it had been sent about an hour prior, so she replied.

No worries. I haven’t seen anything online about you being in the US, so it seems like you’re good so far

We’ll try to keep a low profile. We’re mostly trying to adjust to the time again so Tom isn’t falling asleep at the formal tomorrow night

B/f/n snorted. She figured it really was Harrison that she was talking to.

At the boy’s rented house, they were sitting around drinking black coffee to stay awake for the day. Eventually, they ran outside and took pictures with the car, being careful to watch that no one was looking at them.

As the morning went on, they quickly came to an unfortunate realization.

There was no food in the house, and they couldn’t just go out and get it. Delivery wasn’t the best bet either considering someone would have to answer the door.

So with stomachs growling, they messaged b/f/n again, asking her to pick up some groceries to hold them over for the day.

You’re lucky I’m not with y/n right now. Just send me a list and I’ll bring it over asap

It took her over an hour to get to the store, find everything on the list, and take it to the house. Her stomach fluttered when she pulled into the driveway as she was finally meeting her idol for real.

The door swung open before she could knock.

“Oh thank God you’re finally here, I’m starving,” Harrison said , taking the bags from her hands. “Come in, come in. Don’t need anyone seeing us.”

She stepped in the door to find the other two sitting on the couch. They greeted her starstruck self. 

“Oh, wow. Hi. It’s nice to finally meet you in person,” she eventually spit out, looking at them in amazement.

She ended up spending almost an hour conversing with them, Tom paying her back for the groceries and them finalizing the details for the upcoming day.

She stood in the doorway preparing to leave.

“Well, I’ll see you all tomorrow. I don’t know what she’ll do, but good luck either way.”

“Thanks, b/f/n, that means a lot. And thanks for all the help you’ve been. Without you, I don’t know what I would have done.”

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A/N: honestly I’m kinda sad that this is almost over. I started it over a year ago now and I’ve really enjoyed writing it. Hopefully I’ll put out the last chapter next week and then will begin scheduling “the marriage project.” Love you guys!

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/PAVLOVEWHORE/status/1315759891668242433?s=20 on twitter

oh her (she also thinks b is grooming kids because his music is appealing to them, the puppet, etc, and thinks grooming means... culture appealing to kids and younger adults? when it means a significantly/much older person building a relationship with a kid, introducing them inappropriately to sex eg porn, pornographic phallocentric sexuality, in order to sexually abuse/exploit them. so she may be suggesting that b’s doing it so he can have more kids to abuse a la the anon accusations). if you (general you, not the anon specifically) read ronan farrow’s catch and kill you know rich men protect themselves by doing crazy shit (spying, ndas, trashing accusers, blackballing women who rejected them or spoke out about sexual assault, catching and killing accusations) and this new accusation is in that same boat of crazy shit... but a non-plausible crazy shit. 

why would someone rich (unless this was happening vices era and before, when b and sarah were far from rich) bribe FANS to have accounts online smack talking breezy, dallon, accusers, etc. if so, they’re doing a terrible job, because there is so much shit being said about b, and now sarah, it’s unreal. (with zack, there are both substantiated and unsubstantiated, anonymous claims. i find some of the later claims plausible. he’s being taken far less out of context than b is. i don’t think he’s absolutely evil, but he’s clearly sexually harassed breezy, has been sexist/misogynist on his twitter, etc. i’ve talked about this more my tag for him.) i’ve come across comments on twitter, instagram, etc where two to none of the claims made about him are true the rest are... idk where most of this bullshit comes from. i’m tempted to do a debunker side blog here (eg the plausible, implausible, true, definitely false, etc). the rumor mill is really something. especially in the age of social media online.

i don’t think sarah and zack would do this. as we have seen over this summer fangirls (and boys) turn on their idols like WHOA. gives one whiplash just looking at it. it would be profoundly STUPID and shortsighted to use fans, because today’s fan is often tomorrow’s basher. fans also have no... loyalty in a sense to their celeb (eg it’s not like a religion, political belief system, country even), no job on the line, no contract, no lawsuit worries... all it would take for this to come out if it were true is someone within that circle of fans getting bribes to smack talk breezy to turn on sarah and/or zack and blab to others, show screenshots, etc. it could NEVER be private very long. even not turning per se, but just realizing it was wrong and sharing the convos, etc they had with them publicly. fans also LOVE talking about and showing the contact we have with our chosen celebs and celeb adjacent people, posting about it publicly. seriously, it is so foolish to try to have private GROUP convos where people bribe TEENAGERS and 20somethings with merch, tickets, photo ops, private photos of b, etc both on the levels of the youth and frequent fickleness of fans (how many leave an artist/show/fandom/franchise/etc after months, a year, a few years...), plus the outrage culture/cancel culture going on where some of the outraged are former fans, etc. 

even employees who agree to spy, hack, create fake personas online and in person, etc can turn on their employer, but someone who’s just there as a fan? there is literally not just no guarantee it won’t be found out, it probably fucking will. and quickly at that. the question is more when than if.

this situation, if it did happen, is also plausibly someone pretending to be sarah and/or zack and catfishing fans. chelsey was mentioned, and frankly... this is in her wheelhouse. she has extensively impersonated b and others online, for a few years. she has also hacked accounts and gotten photos/video of b that were supposed to be not public. and another important question, did these freebies eg ticket upgrades, photo ops with b, materialize? or did they not happen? the fact that some girls can be seen on the tour vids doesn’t prove they got them as a quid pro quo in exchange for slandering others and defending b online at all. (btw, the fact that there are chelsey defenders absolutely ASTONISHES me. wtf. there’s a lot we don’t know with breezy, b, etc so i can see to some extent people based on part of the picture, siding with “one side” and deriding the other, but with her? how? what?)

i know this is a crazy fucking idea on twitter for sure, and probably elsewhere online, but one (like me) can like both breezy & dallon AND brendon & sarah. fucking deranged, isn’t it, in this polarized fandom/these fandoms. b is getting the worst of it, but breezy is getting a lot of shit too. and i feel sorry for both of them in particular. again, the rumor mill: assertions of fact without evidence, even people coming forward with their names/faces, being spread around like wildfire and taken as confirmed, undoubtedly true fact eg the claim that breezy said that b knew about all the sexual harassments by zack of her the whole time (eg how could he have? eg how would he know what zack texts her? he obviously would have known some of it but those likely seemed in line with the joking around they did, would be my guess. i also think his anxiety and trying to fit in can come into play. he may have been a bystander to things zack did that crossed lines eg with breezy, idk. speaking of speculation, here’s me doing it. i also don’t think b did nothing wrong, and i’ve also talked about various things when i’ve come across them that i’ve had a problem with. 

there’s also aspects going on that i want to delve into, but i’m debating eg that one young male fan who’s apparently friendly with breezy and dallon now but used to be obsessed with b (including making sexual comments to him on twitter, wanting to look like him) and is claiming zack took advantage of him (jobwise). seems to be a history of mental instability there and a serious lack of boundaries. it’s not about monstering him; i feel bad for him. 

edit to add i’m still reading things on twitter, what i can find anyway, and another thing i’m ambiguous about discussing is breezy’s dms with others because ppl are posting screenshots. obv there’s more to read there too. in one she thought zack was doing the getting fans to target her and dallon thing in exchange for perks eg meet n greets. the closest she’s gotten to saying anything bad about b was saying he wasn’t always sweet (didn’t say if it was to her and/or dallon) and that she thinks he could have changed, that i’ve seen posted anyway.

also, there’s posts ppl are screenshotting of breezy from years ago to say how gross or disgusting or whatever she is and i’m just like “she’s so saucy, i love her.” it’s mostly pg level stuff too, and mostly about dallon, or brallon. like i said before, notice how what damns breezy (being sexual) excuses zack to many people. at most he’s an “old school roadie” who might have an apology to make, they dunno, but not really, people are so sensitive and breezy is a bitch who is to blame for everything. (seriously, there’s people who think she started it all eg the firezackhall tag, and somehow the accusations against b too. fuck outta here.)

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31, 56, 19, 78, 20, 16, 11, 12 , 10, 4, 1, 21, 36, 39. Sorry if this is too many 😅

Guys it’s NEVER too many you’re giving me the chance to talk nonstop about Sonic it’s the best thing that’s happened to me in days

also I had planned to answer them in the order you asked for but it was driving me crazy so I sorted them out thematically sorry alfhjkhljshja

I answered 1 here!

100 Sonic Questions

21.) Tell us a funny Sonic-related story.

This one comes from the depths of my very first months as a Sonic fan. Basically, I had watched Sonic X upon its first Italian release as a very very smol bean. By the time I got obsessed again in middle school, though, I had forgotten everything about it except a few shots from the Italian opening theme and ONE scene from a season three episode, where Sonic and Knuckles played chess on a spaceship and then Sonic began running around and fell into space.

The “friend” that had introduced me to the show again (not a nice person and source of about 25% of my trauma, I’m glad to say I haven’t seen her in years) didn’t believe me and accused me of lying. Repeatedly. Unkindly. For months. How could such a stupid scene be in such an amazing cartoon? I must be trying to fuck with her.

Fast forward to the end of the year. I’m minding my business and I see a Facebook message from this friend, and another, and another. I click on it wondering what she’d be going ham over, and BAM. This girl had been watching Sonic AMVs on Youtube and had caught a glimpse of that scene at the beginning of a video and was fucking losing it over the fact that WOW, I HAD BEEN TELLING THE TRUTH ALL ALONG?!

Now, you have to understand that I wasn’t the kind of kid that swore, back then. I had been brought up to think that swear words would send you to hell straight away. And while not a delicate little flower, I was much, much cuter and more proper than I am now because I couldn’t live out my butch dreams quite yet. But I needed to express all the frustration gathered in those months.

So please imagine this baby-faced, straight A student 13yo wait for her friend in front of their school and bellow at the top of her lungs “BITCH, WHAT DID I FUCKING TELL YOU?”

I still remember that scene fondly, though.

31.) Tell us a Sonic-related story that will give us feels.

Related to the experience I just mentioned, the problem I had in my first years in this fandom was that this person who had dragged me into it was obsessed with the thought that people would mock us for it. She said it was for kids, and when she got over it she gave me shit for clinging to my passion while she’d “grown up”, and she had me enjoy Sonic in secret and yelled at me for saying anything even vaguely related out loud where other people could hear us.

It got into my head so much that for a long long time I didn’t dare share anything Sonic-adjacent on any social media, long past when I’d broke away from her. I thought no one would ever take me seriously again. I felt ashamed a lot.

It got better, though. Slowly, I broke out of my shell and started interacting with this amazing fandom, and I found lots of people who didn’t give a damn about what the world thought of their passion. And I know tons of wonderful people outside the fandom, too, friends who encourage me to talk about Sonic even though they don’t know anything about it. Chats where any mention of Sonic has someone saying “wait we must tag naivesilver into this she’ll love it”. It’s - it warms my heart every day. Tumblr is a shithole, but it helped me in feeling free to do what I love in the fandom that I love most.

Thank you. To everyone that got me through that, thank you. You have no idea how helpful you’ve been to me.

19.) Favorite soundtrack

KNOCK KNOCK IT’S FUCKING KNUCKLES

20.) Least favorite soundtrack?

None I think???? There are some I don't listen to much, either because I haven't played the game or I just don't vibe with them, but there isn't any song that I particularly dislike. Almost all of them are genuine bops.

16.) (if you read fanfic) What are some fic tropes you love? Ones you hate?

FOUND FAMILY!!! Adoptive parents, siblings, friends taking care of each other, I want a shitton of fluff in my life. And kid!fic. I could read (and write!) kid!fic every day for the rest of my life and never get tired of it. That's why I enjoy Chaotix and Sonic Movie fics so much. Let's raise them boys well.

As for hating...I don't like high school AUs lmao I wrote one when I was younger but I never dared touch it again and I haven't read any Sonic one since 2014 at most. And most time travel fics. Sorry, Silver, I love you a fucking lot but time travel shenanigans are only funny in the two or three specific settings my mind lets me enjoy.

11.) Top five stages.

In no particular order:

-Press Garden (Mania)

-Casinopolis (Adventure)

-Casino Forest (Forces)

-Studiopolis (Mania)

Anddddd I haven't played much else so I'll have to get back to you on this ajshfkjfahlljha

12.) Worst five stages.

-IMPERIAL TOWER

-IMPERIAL TOWER

-Jesus Christ I died 78 times in that stage alone

-I'm bad at being fast and not falling off stuff and it required me to do both at the same time

-Also the Shadow DLC levels. Fuck me up a bit more will you

56.) In your opinion, what’s the weirdest thing any character has ever said?

I'm a simple girl, I see this panel and I lose my shit

10.) What do you like best about your favorite animated adaptation?

I only finished my Sonic X rewatch yesterday and I’ve been meaning to make some final comments about it (tho it’d probably be me rambling at thin air bc I doubt I can say anything that hasn’t been already said over and over and over) but the most compelling thing for me is and always will be the music.

Don’t get me wrong, what I’ve seen of the OG Japanese version had wonderful, heartfelt music, but the upbeat themes I grew up with still have me vibing day in and day out. I can dance to the Italian opening sequence at any given moment - no, you know what, here it is. Watch it and feel the serotonin drip into your veins.

(Some people will come at me for this, but I didn’t watch this show in 2019-2020 to make an in-depth analysis about it. I did it to have a dance off while Knuckles beat up some robots.)

78.) Post a scene that always gives you feels.

Sonic 06:

13yo me about to see her first ship torn apart:

4.) The last Sonic game you played is now your life. How awesome is this adventure gonna be?

Sonic Adventure - which means it’s a pretty cool life, unless it runs like SA does on my laptop and it turns slow and glitchy and grinds on my nerves even more

36.) C’mon now. How many ships do you have? :P

A FUCKING LOT my main ones are silvaze, vecpio and sonadow but I have many medium or small ones that I enjoy finding content for, like tikaze or knouge

39.) Which game is your golden standard?

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I’m not the greatest game fan as in I’ve only been actively playing for the past 2/3 years. Before that it was just gameplays on Youtube, so you should not take my opinion into any account since it’s not very informed.

However there was something about Sonic and the Black Knight that just felt...new? Peculiar? I know jack shit about the technical side of gaming but I remember being extremely pumped every time I logged in to see more of it. I'd like to feel that again, when a new game drops.

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