#my sing journal

[shortnotsweet]

In a Week by Hozier ft. Karen Cowley

“The raven is death, obviously. When I die, I want a good tombstone—something right spooky. LT’s got something against the underground, though you’d think that would be just his kind of place. That’s alright. He needs to, he can cremate me. It’s not exactly Catholic, and Mam would turn in her grave, but God is a unicorn and no one is pure anymore, so. What’s all that got to do with me?”

Johnny “Soap” McTavish has a journal. Had. It is his no longer.

Simon “Ghost” Riley had dreams—awful ones, the kind that sank claws into his lungs, dragged him into sleep, and then sent him careening out of it. He still has dreams, but they’re different, now. Better. Johnny’s pages have folded themselves under his eyes and gotten into his head, brighter and more infectious than anything else has ever been. It’s more than the past, that rotting carcass behind him, and more than now. Now is nothing. Now is ash. It’s like, it’s like—blinding, is what it is. He’s a blind man.

It is biblical now. Ghost has read it backward and forward and sideways and inside out. When he runs out of things to read, he reads them again, and when that is not enough, he reads between the lines.

#ghostsoap #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #soapghost #soap x ghost #ghoap #call of duty #cod mw3 #my art #ghost is obsessed with soaps journal bc it breaks his heart at first like really tears it apart but soon focuses on what soap has written #about him. words of admiration and envy and love and fondness. real fondness. jokes made for him thoughts about him musings etc. #and johnnys snippets about his family and how he wants to settle down eventually #then all simon can think about is what life they could’ve lived together after the ‘war’ #nevermind that there will always be war be death be blood and love is there and it matters but it changes nothing #for simon there will always be johnny #who even knows if thats what soap wanted if he loved him back if ghost even remembers him as he was instead of what he wishes he could have #become to ghost if things had gone as they should. who knows. the dead dont sing dont speak. all thats left is what they wrote #the cigarettes refer to soaps smoking habit and how ghost disapproves like a nagging wife. the ash smudges and burns in the paper allude to #ghost deciding to have soap cremated as a spouse decides post mortem due to his own aversion to being underground bc he doesn’t want soap #to be nothing but a decomposing body. he couldn’t bear that. he couldn’t bury him alive or dead so burning it is

[chemevan]

happy 18 years of the horrors

#also not a petekey i'm just fascinated by pete's web journals from the 00's and the fact some ended up as lyrics #like girl (gender neutral) what do you mean you made patrick sing all of that shit #fob #fall out boy #pete wentz #mcr #my chem #my chemical romance #mikey way #gerard way #haha jonathan #amazing new mexico sunset #mcr fanart #fob fanart #fanart #my art

[whack-patty]

did the thing

#technically i had other comfort characters before blinky but blinky was the first non-oc i drew obsessively #little blinkies on my math homework. little blinkies in my journal #frick yeah #i mostly do that w ocs and i drew a version of this w ocs maybe ill post that one too someday lol #anyway tags #blinkous galadrigal #trollhunters #sing movie #buster moon #my art lol #i think we're gonna have to kill this guy

[cutekoala1001]

2023 September

mood + habit tracker pages (Johnny and Nooshy)

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#see my post about how to use these! #sing movie #sing 2 #sing Johnny #sing Nooshy #they’re like two peas in a pod #inseparable #I don’t even think of them as two separate characters anymore lol #journaling #bujo spread #hobonichi #mood tracker #habit tracker #theme: all I wanna do is have some fun

[carcarrot]

cock action

#normal review title. #other great moments from this include: #the 'merry band of lesbians' that apparently enjoy when do i get to sing my way. okay . #calling russells song fruity and then also getting the fruit wrong is also incredible journalism #i keep having to look back at this to make sure im not like hallucinating it. but its all actually there #cock action 👍 #spars #sparks

[nyarados]

Where am I supposed to stand? Am I the only one who wants us to stand together?

#AAAAAAAAGKFKHDKDJDKDSHSJSH #what are we if I've been ghosting everyone in a creative stupor and you're the first I call up to meet so I can sing you my first song #The Guy She Was Interested in Wasn't a Guy At All #journal

[rexscanonwife]

Ougghh what a day it's been 😔 I'm finally heading home now and when I get there I'm gonna rewatch certain episodes of ppg....for no particular reason 👉👈💖💖

#jane journals #self insert talk #OUGGHHH #i cant watch more new eps without my partner but i can go back to ones ive seen before >;] #and THERE ARE SOME REALLY GOOD ONES OUGGHH #also yknow who else im thinking about today? barb 🥺🥺🥺🥺💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖🫶💖 #mostly cause im thinking of a musical number based on a song from that one grease streaming show #and like imagining it with her and poppy while she sings about her crush 😊😊😊 #I WONDER WHO IT IS HEHE #my smelly grungy girlboyfriend 🫶🫶🫶 #yeah weird combo but yknow the heart wants what it wants #🎸 hard rock hearts 🎸 #🔬 starkissed scientist 🔬

[adam-luvs-shostakovich]

Last night was my first time hearing Judith Weir's The Big Picture in concert. Cut and pasted some of the lyrics from my two favorite movements, Green and Blue. The lyrics in the pieces are often poems that revolve around color, (which is the whole overarching theme actually) Green features a poem by King Henry VIII, and Blue is based off of The Man With the Blue guitar by Wallace Stevens. Very cool. I ought to find more choir concerts to attend.

Listen to it here:

#my journal #diary #commonplace journal #journal #journal inspo #journaling #my writing #my art #choir stuff #show choir #singing #choral #Youtube

[magicalsookie]

some my singing monsters spreads with the pomily 💜🎀 love them so much 🎀

some artists/brands used that I could credit : seungmiscutestudio, nevertheless, mt masking tape, maildor, stickii club, amifa, yumemoonstudio, froggystudios, mind wave, bgm, artemio, parfait pins, kamio, official play, q lia, bunsietae, nekoni

#sookie talks #sookie's journals #kawaii #journal spread #journaling #kawaii scrapbook #scrapbook #kawaii stationery #kawaii stickers #my singing monsters #pompom #hoola #sooza #rooba #tootoo #pomily #sanrio #pokemon #love them sm and i love these spreads <3

[snixx]

randomly found a hindi rewrite of all too well in my journal send help i can be so unhinged sometimes

#my journal is WILD dude. every page is more random than the last #what the everliving fuck was this jesus #i should finish and sing it lololololololol #taylor swift #“गाते घूमते गुजरते” “पत्तो पेड़ के पवन संग फैलते” “विचार विस्तृत” no guesses what my favourite poetic device in hindi is lol #genuinely what the fuck is this. i should be banned from communicating in hindi

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: December 1. Starting this again! It has been years

"Soap" by the Oh Hellos

#song of the day #I used to use these posts as a sort of daily babbling opportunity and I'm gonna give that a shot again #I'm awful at journaling (for all that I'll tell a story about my day at the drop of a hat I just can't seem to write it down for me) #but a good few of the dumb little articles I've found in my desperate searching for insomnia aids have recommended journals #sleep or otherwise #and I do think it helped me keep track of days/times/general impressions of how I was feeling back when I did this before #so I'm gonna try it again! #if y'all'd like a more specific blockable tag just let me know #anyway I love this song and I was thinking a silly thing earlier and it started autoplaying in my head and I was like /perfect/ #silly concept aside the song itself is a delight. a great sound very fun to sing and clever lyrics #'a rudimentary lye; some kind of miraculous bind' #and I'm just sentimental/superstitious enough to be happy starting this frantic attempt to train my brain into sleeping again #with a song that ends with 'it's gonna hurt like hell / but we're going to be well / I'll give you my best shot'

[cutekoala1001]

2023 October

mood + habit tracker pages (some of the “Out Of This World” troupe in costume)

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#see my post about how to use these! #sing movie #sing 2 #sing Johnny #sing Porsha #sing Darius #sing Meena #showing up is half of the battle! #journaling #bujo spread #hobonichi #mood tracker #habit tracker #theme: glow up and show up

[aprilblossomgirl]

my quick first impression of wednesday club: a pretty solid introductory first episode, including how they actually came up with that 'wednesday club' name. honestly, i wasn't initially impressed with the trailers (both the mock and official ones) but the cast ensemble choices did intrigue me from the start. and now that i watched the first episode, i kind of changed my mind. i feel like this one has that potential to be good. and, just now checking the show's mdl page, i have one more reason to why i feel that way.

so, the screenwriter of Wednesday Club is Manow Waneepan Ounphoklang who happened to be a part of the screenwriter teams of 55:15 Never Too Late and F4 Thailand: Boys Over Flowers, both were 2021 shows. now this is a very subjective take from me. but i think both shows have pretty well-written scripts. 55:15 Never Too Late handled its story of multiple mains, each with their own arc, as an ensemble show quite well. as for F4 Thailand, -- well, you can say anything about the franchise, -- now, as someone who read and liked the original manga (Hana Yori Dango) and watched ALL its adaptations (except for the Taiwan's Meteor Garden Sequel / Season 2), i can say that story wise the Thai version has a better script which, in my opinion, gives a necessary twist that other adaptations didn't even dare to consider. so...that's that. this is not to give the screenwriter in talk a pedestal, but i do have thoughts that there might be more to this show then what the trailers shown.

and looking at the first episode, with that range of the seven mains, and the eventual set-up of the club... may i say i'm in for this ride.

#my drama journal #april.words #wednesday club #wednesday club the series #however. to have satang kittiphop playing a guitar and singing in one of the scenes only to have it covered by other noises. a crime i say. #you let other actors actually played a guitar and sang in a show. but not satang kittiphop. *inhale exhale* #i wanted to say i'm here for satang and satang only. but these seven kids each poked me in different ways i'm just now intrigued.

[craycraybluejay]

I know I am a sick person all over because everything always hurts and somehow I'm in love with the horror of protecting you. And the eternal wish that there is something as wrong with you as there is with me. For you to hurt me for every time I failed to protect you. For you to enjoy my hurt as I would yours. To smile at me like I am the only person in the entire world even as I fade to nothing. To put small fingers inside my throat and scratch it like an illness. Like swallowing glass. And laugh the whole way through as I struggle through blood to laugh with you. The desire to burn my sickness into you if by some miracle you are different, if by some cruel blessing I am really the only one like me. To bury you alive inside my love so that no matter what it will remain past the death of the sun. It's quiet and then it's loud. Something wrong with me. No one at all knows. I make myself sicker with my fixations. I am not capable of making any of it stop. Only of tucking myself away in a small dark corner like a diseased secret. Maybe I put too much value to things, even those that are altogether inconsequential. Too much romance and sentimentality to things that simply Are. All of the cosmos is unfeeling chaos, all of the humans are feeling order, I inherit the worst of both. Everything feels like a strange, heavy nightmare. Time is fast and slow. The sensation is of a subconscious eternally screaming for me to WAKE UP, that my head is hot enough to explode and my body is wasting away-- except there is nothing else to wake up to. Life is story after story and moments of thrilling clarity. And you.

I crave so badly to earnestly write you as a freakshow. I want to grab you and run you-- all clinging to my back and bothering me with questions of what all this is-- right into my world. Hold you out above the mountain like the Lion King and thank the stars for your existence. Initiate you into a madness that is mine, and only mine. Watch you turn in my time into a being in my space. But I know in truth it's a game of burdensome waiting. That I have to play my role forever if I must and simply wait for you to wander here. That in order to hold and cherish you in both my world and this other one I must wait for you to slither up my brainstem yourself-- as a being and not a thought. To leap into my arms a billion times until the atoms do something truly bizarre. I don't allow my hands on your wheel, but I enjoy sitting there and watching as we crash into trees and fly headlong off cliffs. It is more fun than smooth sailing. More real. You manage to shock me when nothing truly phases me anymore. Reach me in a place where I am all alone. I can't push you I can't pull you I can't weave your stories together with mine alone but I will happily take your hand and lead you through the beautiful surrealities when you offer yours first.

#waxing poetic #journal #delete later #this is private but considering no one can decipher what im saying even when i purposely try to talk in a way that appeals to others #which im not doing here because this is for me and mine #im not particularly worried #even the people i love could not understand a word of this in its context the way it is meant to me #it is like i am in an infinite thick mud behind thicker glass and nothing can see me or touch me #my writing #an exercise in honesty #i will read these silly little notes to you if and when you are ready for them-- sing them even #and if not. well. i will stay loyal and content beside you until i die and after too #i want a will where you keep me on your skin. a necklace or a piercing or even under your skin #press me into something you'd like to keep and wear me until you too return to stardust #and promise me you'll never take me off. not when you shower or sleep or get married or die. #promise me i will remain with you until our remains end together. if not i'll haunt your stupid ass

[bmpmp3]

A COUPLE nights ago i had some dream about this very ._. girl who was an aspiring rockstar and in the dream she had hair that was like simultaneously pink and blonde BUT LIKE not like dyed or highlights it was like. you know. just pink and blonde at the same time. so i just layered pink over yellow paint LOL it made a sorta pinky orange....

#dream journal #art #traditional art #watercolour #you know how dreams are. things are pink and orange at the same time #she played guitar and had a pretty strong and expressive singing voice its just she looked like.. ._. #the plot was very shoujosei manga or maybe a little mid 2010s voltage-esque otome game #it was about some over confident 'bad boy player' type character who accidentally ends up as roommates with this o_o of an aspiring musician #(there was a third roommate who was a mutual friend but they mysterious disappeared a la the writer in scandal in the spotlight) #(leaving these two to figure out the new roomies situation on their own) #and then he kinda just gets into the music bizz of it all even more by accident LOL #im pretty sure my brain just mashed like five different media i like into this dream. probably a bunch of shoujo manga #absolutely some sitp. also some characters (like this ._. girl) definitely got elements from certain idol multimedia franchises i enjoy LOL #its fun when ur dreams are like that. mashing everything together

[sovonight]

u have no idea what i’ve accomplished in the last 72 hours (finished 5 full-color pics that i’m queuing for 4 days from now)

#i've been combing through xan's dialog file again #you insult him once and he's like uh excuse you but of my 6 siblings my father chose me to wield this moonblade so you don't know shit #then if you're romancing him & you insult him he's like 'ah. i guess i was under a complex set of delusions. set 'xanbg1romance' to false' #im also not over how many options there are to insult him during the romance like if he asks why you chose him-- #--you can say 'i didnt have much choice :/ so i took what was available' and he's like 'available???? 😢' and i'm like noooo #but also the way he confesses is to go 'are you stupid?? im utterly in love with you. and that's why i have to leave 😟 for both our sakes' #obsessed w how he operates at peak romance but also peak '🙄' at once #he'll murmur poetry to himself and sing aubades and sketch your portrait in his journal-- #--but then dismiss those things as frivolous in his next breath #his toxic trait is that before you get together xan’s like you just see me as your pet magician 😒 just a toy for you to play around with #and like. on a meta level yeah. but in the game nooo #so of course you say 'no xan i value and cherish you' and of course he goes 'whatever just leave me to suffer' #he's a sensitive artsy noble hopeless pathetic prideful & deeply emotional heap of grey cloth #sovo art #baldur's gate