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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months

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If I was in a lucid dream with a ghost, I would simply impress them with my blunt rolling skills

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #MDZS disco elysium au #This is brought to you by my Scrambled Egg brain - slowly burning up as I try to finish a long comic for this AU.#I hoped it would be done several days ago but I've changed things so many times....It is now Very Close to being done!#I probably should have just posted each page daily but at this point I'm just being stubborn. I want it complete and together.#Ruining the surprise a bit to say 'yeah its a digital art comic'#But its been tricky figuring out the style I want to use for it!#hence the swaths of MSpain(t) doodles that boil down to 'how would this look if I did X?'#I wanted to do a fully Black & White Ink style. But I scrapped it. Then I did small bits of colour. And scrapped it. Sigh.#This comic started out as just the first panel and then my brain went 'hold on. Its time to make a dumb joke'#Any disco elysium fans who finished the game probably know the scene I'm doing for the *actual* comic after seeing this <3 #Anyways I know in my heart LWJ would roll the worst blunts ever his first time. And then dedicate himself to the rolling craft-#-until he has finally mastered it. He would roll blunts so good that people would hire him and pay him a monthly salary for it.#But he declines. His master blunts are for his beloved and his beloved alone.#wwx would roll above average but after having lwj do it for him he can ever go back.

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kyurochurro · 3 months

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“say, you think you could play that song I like again?”

#churro art #my art #fanart #illustration #digital art #star trek #star trek the original series #star trek tos #spock #s'chn t'gai spock #james kirk #james t kirk #spirk #OHHHH MY IPAD HATES ME SHE HATESSS ME #this should not have taken me forever to finish up but I’m stubborn so now it’s 4 am and I’m tired 😭😭😭😭#anyways I’m queuing this. again…….#U ALREADY KNOW WHAT IM GONNA SAY. I JUST WANTED TO DRAW THEM TOGETHERRRR HEHEHEE #i like the look Jim gives Spock #when hes doing literally anything at all #so this is just like. Artists Interpretation of such occurrences VSHJSVUHAV #i just wanted something sweet and easy but NO technology is HRAD.#oh but what ever it’s okay….. I’m really happy with how Spock looks heeereeee!!#Especilly after my last drawings I feel like I finally got both their faces down LOL #my first sketch of them is okay but I’m so glad I got better at it cus omg.#i look at those first sketched and I’m like WHO IS THATTT THATS NOT MY SPOCK😭#Jim’s hair almost gave me a stroke tho cus it looks so. silly in side profile #so I couldn’t tell if I’m just bad at drawing him side profile or if like. that’s how it is 😭

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mausinly · 3 months

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Soap MacTavish x fem!curvy!militarynurse!reader who’s secretly insecure about her body and thinks that Soap is only interested in her to get in her pants or it’s a prank but he comforts her and proves that she’s wrong and how much he genuinely loves her and that he’s been obsessed with her since she was moved to 141’s base?

Never Far From You

John "Soap" MacTavish x reader

Sorry this isn't exactly what you asked for, nonnie, but just know I am already attached to this reader and I will be slowburning this prompt. This story is getting unpacked layer by layer. I know you specified Nurses body type but it's never mentioned in this part. I couldn't find a way to casually fit it in with the idea I had but I will make it the forefront of another piece, don't you worry :]

This is also my submission for @glitterypirateduck and their Soap It Up challenge.

Prompt 2: "Do I make you nervous?"

Prompt 14: "I've been looking for you."

You haven't had to look around corners to check if the coast was clear since high school. It makes you feel childish. Makes you feel like a helpless teenager trying to avoid the prettier girls that whisper and leer when you walk past. You're too old to feel like that.

You don't know if you should be grateful you're not hiding from bullies or be more fearful of the person that's really chasing you.

You don't think you've ever been chased like this before. The girls in the halls never sought you out, and the boys that did only followed to continue jabbing at you as you tried to walk away.

No, this is much different. Too different. You don't know what to do with yourself.

Another nurse told you earlier that someone was looking for you. She gave a knowing smirk, telling you who with a teasing, sing-songy voice.

"Soap MacTavish." She grinned, leaning over the front desk, resting her chin on her hand.

You don't know why everyone thinks you like him. No. No, actually, you know exactly why. He won't leave you alone.

You left one of your patients room—a poor sap going by "Wick" that caught the nasty end of a bayonet—down a few halls to the nearest storage room. You stop before turning the corner, a suspicious feeling bubbling in your gut.

You peek over the corner, met with the rest of the long, bland hallway. He's not here. You don't like the feeling that replaces the suspicion. It's a sinking sensation.

This whole ordeal is eating at you. You know he's around somewhere. Unless he gave up after a while. Took him long enough, in your opinion. Part of you wants to run into him, though, just to get it over with and tell him to fuck off so you don't have to worry about it.

You straighten up again, pulling away from the corner and letting out a heavy sigh.

"So, who're we hiding from?" A horrifyingly familiar Scottish accent said from behind you, low and husky and almost a whisper.

You yelp and whip around to look at him, jumping back a little. Your feet scream to run, but you realize how ridiculous that is. You're an adult, you don't need to run, you're not in real danger.

The way he looks at you is dangerous, though. His eyes are lidded, relaxed as they take you in like he could do it all day. Those striking blues drag up and down your body, landing back at your eyes with such intensity that it makes you want to shy away.

He's so casual it infuriates you. He's just leaning against the wall beside you, arms crossed as he waits for your reply.

"I'm not hiding." You brush him off, tearing your eyes away from him and turning to walk away.

You pause, though, when he lets out a little huff of a laugh, almost a scoff. "Sure." He replied, not sounding all too convinced.

You look over your shoulder to glare at him but he only flashes you one of his little grins, eyes lit up with amusement and brows raised.

A real scoff leaves your own lips and you turn away again and continue down the hall. You suppress the urge to groan aloud when you hear heavy footfalls behind you as the Scot gives chase.

"I've been looking for you." He said, walking only a step behind you.

"That so?" You hum, trying to sound uninterested. Your tone doesn't sway him, it never does.

"Mhm, just asked the lass at the front where they keep the bonnie nurses and figured I'd find you around." He replied easily, and you don't have to look at him to know he's got that smirk on his face.

You hum again, not sure how else to respond. He follows you like a lost dog through the hallways until you reached the storage room. You open the door just enough to slip inside and much to your distain, Soap follows in suit, making a show of opening the door wide and waltzing in like he owns the place.

The storage room is fairly large, filled with rows of files and medications and equipment all broken off into different sections. You wind through the isles and try not to think too hard about Soap's heavy footfalls behind you. It makes you uneasy, fluttery in a way you don't want to think about. You feel like you're being hunted, like a little bunny that pops it's head up at the smallest branch snapping, unaware of the beast lurking just behind the foliage.

You stop walking and quickly turn to him, making him halt in front of you so easily that you think he was expecting it. You don't like that. You're not predictable, damn it!

"Do you need something?" You ask with exasperation, pumping up the attitude and irritation in hopes it scares him off.

You think it works for a second when his smile falters a bit and he has the decency to look a bit surprised by your outburst, but that hope immediately dies when he ducks his head down with a small chuckle that makes your stomach flip. He pulls one of his hands from his pocket and leans his arm on the shelf beside you.

He leans forward just a bit, those overwhelming blues flickering back up to you. "Does there need to be a reason?" He flashes you a lopsided, boyish smile and you feel like the ground is giving away under you.

"You always have a reason." You shoot back, cringing at the way your voice falters.

He notices, eyes looking back and forth between yours as his brows raise a little. "That I do." He replies, voice softer than before.

Soap takes a step closer, back straightening a bit in a way that makes you feel small in comparison. You straighten your back as well, taking a breath that comes in shakier than you wanted. Your attempt at coolness and defiance shatters when his other hand slips from his front pocket and slowly lifts towards you.

He's tentative, eyes holding yours and god, you can't look away. His hand lands on the side of your neck, fingers tenderly ghosting over your skin to see if you flinch away. You don't. You want to. You want to slap his hand away. You want to claw and sink your teeth into him so he'll scurry away with his tail between his legs.

But that won't happen. He'll just drag his way to your exam room and whine until you wrap him up, ask you to kiss it better. You almost want to.

The pads of his fingers drag up your neck and across your cheek. His palm is warm against your jaw and you're frustratingly pliant when he tilts your head. His eyes fall and you swallow when his thumb slowly traces your bottom lip.

"Do I make you nervous, hen?" His voice drops about an octave, low and just above a whisper. His eyes flit up to yours and you're halfway through your brain rebooting when you realize he's waiting for a response.

He isn't, really. He just wants to watch you try.

"No." You manage, a small murmur that in no way can be convincing.

He lets out a soft hum, head slowly tilting as he observes you. You feel like he's picking you apart, piece by piece. Pulling back your hardened shell to watch your innermost workings as they turn and click.

His thumb presses down on your bottom lip, tugging it down a little and he can feel the muted gasp you take. He leans heavier on the shelf beside the both of you and his hand drops away from you. A long, almost pained groan rips from his throat and he pulls back to run his fingers through his mohawk and tug at the strands. He drags his hand over his face and peeks at you through his fingers.

His eyes are narrow and hungry before he tears his eyes away again, waving you off. "Bah. Go get what you were looking for, I'll be finding you later."

You try not to sigh too audibly as you take a few steps back, your body visibly untensing as you put a bit of distance between you two. "Right, see ya." You say, a little clipped before turning on your heel and walking away.

Soaps eyes follow you until you turn a corner and step out of his line of sight, the back of his head falling back against one of the shelves with a thump. Run, little bunny. You're lucky he likes a chase.

#maus writes #call of duty x reader #cod x reader #cod #soap x reader #john soap mctavish x reader #soap mactavish x reader #so thankful that glitterypirateduck extended the deadline bc motivation was kicking my ass and it gave me just enough time to finish this 🙏#i blame ghouljams for making me love soap with darlings who dont want him #i wanna see him work for it and im a sucker for flustered stubborn mcs

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misteriouschum · 3 months

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unfinished (they were going to hold a banner)

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that-foul-legacy-lover · 3 months

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Fl reacting to reader having a cat or dog.

just that.

:O a fluffy friend for Foul Legacy!!

no seriously, he's going to try to make friends with your pet, regardless of if it's a cat or a dog, but he does so very respectfully! if your pet is more sociable and friendly, then they get along splendidly, but if your fuzzy companion is more standoffish, then Foul Legacy takes his time. he's very patient with this sort of thing- he wants the animal to like him, after all! he approaches your pet slowly, first spending time in the same room, then sitting nearby, before finally daring to give them a gentle pat. Legacy's covered in arms, so any bites or scratches won't hurt him, only serve as a note that he needs to be even slower in his befriending process. when your pet finally approaches him by themselves, Legacy has to bite his tongue to keep himself from squeaking and chirping with joy

after that, they're absolutely inseparable. your animal companion and Foul Legacy are both united by their love for you and each other, and snuggles are now even more of a fluffy pile, with you, Legacy, and your pet all curled up in the blanket nest- speaking of which, you learn to be very careful in where you sit down on the blanket nest, since sometimes your pet likes to burrow themselves under the covers for a nap, and it's very easy to accidentally squish them. Legacy's lap is also PERFECT to curl up in, and you've come home to see him and your pet snoozing together multiple times, waiting for your return. when they hear the door open they both perk up, scrambling off the couch and over to you so they can bump their heads against you and say hello

Childe also carries some of Foul Legacy's scent, even in human form, so whenever he visits you pet immediately comes to greet him, confused as to why he's so much smaller and less armored but happy to see him nonetheless

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seonghwasblr-moved · 2 years

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XDINARY HEROES // Test Me (2022)

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elegyofthemoon · 21 days

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well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This.#yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :(#the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :(#ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3.#kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS'#also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING)#sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else)#idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people....#but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭#anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

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masquenoire · 3 months

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Smash or Pass: Jon

Send Smash or Pass + a name and my muse will say if they would smash or pass on that person.

"We're talking about the Scarecrow, right? Wait. Does he even have a sex life?" Roman asks, deadly serious about the question. Jon was many things but a sex god he was not, being far too obsessed with his work and perfecting his Fear Gas over consorting with others for pleasure. He was a joyless man, unless it involved tormenting others by subjecting them to their greatest terrors and that wasn't Roman's idea of a good time. It was more like work, which he could tolerate as the man was intelligent but he had about as much sex appeal as an old piece of beef jerky. "Pass. I ain't interested in a bag of bones and I'd really rather not worrying about whether or not my playmate's gonna stick me with a syringe or blow gas in my face. I'd work with the guy... maybe, because there's potential with raking in some serious moolah otherwise forget it!"

#mcnomaniametus #memes ;; smash or pass #THIS ONE MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD AFSDFSDF #And another anon or two recommended Jon so it was even more entertaining #Roman: I want to fuck not get fucked up :/#Likes Jon's mind not his body #Sorry replies are a little slow my laptop is being an absolute shit #Windows is trying to force an update but I'm stubborn about not letting it until I'm finished for the night #It can fuck off

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soulsilversprings · 1 year

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Re: the "who's a character where you would take it personally if someone didn't like them" - ive never seen anyone dislike zoey but on god she doesn't get enough love round these parts !!

#/lh. ik a bunch of yall here love her too #also. appreciation of her character beyond appealshipping!!!#ill have to do like an actual post once i finish my dp contests rewatch #but like. she actually has a dynamic with ash and brock too!!!#she's driven. she's coolheaded. she knows exactly what she wants #she's a bit stubborn and narrow-minded too. but she's humble and learns from it pretty quick!#she's the perfect step away from pokeani's traditionally antagonistic rivals #friendly to dawn right off the bat while still being confident with more than enough skill to back it up #her contest strategies? impeccable #her outfits? so so good #the way she wouldve decked paul if dawn didnt stop her? legend behavior #in conclusion stan zoey pokemon #zoey pokemon #i get that she only appeared in dp and lots of time has passed but damn. she deserves more love #SHE DESERVED A JN CAMEO. SINNOH WAS ROBBED #ik rich of me to say considering dawns 10 returns. bdsp and arceus. but yall know im right

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akkivee · 11 months

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a hell quiz ffr

#this is vee speaking #it took me three tries lol #the first time i ran out the clock waiting for music to play LOL #the second time the webpage crashed as i got to song 90 🙃#i wanted to give up then but decided to be stubborn lol #AND I TOTALLY COULD HAVE GOTTEN 100% WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS AT NOT IN #AND SINCE WHEN IS IT AND LIKE ACTUAL AND????????????#the last song i missed i literally had the correct title except the number i wanna cry lmao #i’m also a very slow typer lol!!!!! i rely a lot on autosuggest to finish my words so i was so stressed with only 20 minutes 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#hellish quiz lol if it updates to include rhyme anima s2 i will not be participating lmao

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codexxgigas · 1 year

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Dont think it even looks like him anymore

#i so tired #the nose and the chin are off #theyre my mortal enemies #i want to throw this out but im too stubborn so im gonna finish it and be mad about it

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sashimiyas · 2 years

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what i love about the twins (miya) is that when it comes to their partners, they do not understand the concept of me before you.

and what i mean by that is, a partnership with them embodies the true meaning of us and a family unit. you become one with them. your emotions are theirs and despite them being upset, if you need consolation, it will always be you before them.

it's easy to look at them as selfish, but naturally, because they've always shared everything, they look at their partners as a true extension of themselves. atsumu's grief has never been for him to own. he knows that if he loses, the loss does not affect just him, but osamu as well.

so when it comes to emotions, the twins have never regarded their feelings as their own. everything has consequences and the direct and indirect effects are far more apparent because they have each other.

your pain is theirs. your success is theirs. you are part of who they are. and that's why it will always be you. you over him and never him over you.

#reinas.inretrograde #i just clocked out and was washing my face #when i started dry heaving bc wtf i love them so much it makes me sick and my tummy twirl #okay so we've seen the boys outwardly selfish and stubborn but really at the end of the day #they are the least selfish people. they do not live for themselves. they live for the other. that's their purpose.#i live to prove to you that i will be happier. i will be happier if only FOR YOU #thats what i get out of that anyways #but i think this comes more naturally to atsumu than osamu #i feel osamu looks out for atsumu. makes particular choices because he knows his brother is his unflappable mouth and sizeable ego combo #so he wants to protect his brother from whatever idiocy atsumu comes up with #but in my head atsumu is instinctively an older brother through and through #hes never looked at himself as an individual and he's made life choices based on how osamu would react. ie becoming a setter so osamu can #hit all the spikes that he wants. and that's why osamu choosing a different path affects him more.#but atsumu when it comes to providing love. once he knows you're it i think he is the most unselfish man. yeah he still has an ego andpride #but he's so consciously aware of his actions and words and the possible affects it could have. and when it comes to his partner it is so #easy to set it aside. you know. blah blah blah gonna finish my skincare

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celestial-sapphicss · 7 months

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#so i just finished s1ep2 of the bear (i don't really get it so far but ok)#and there's this scene where the main character calls up his sister and tells her about the mental shit that has been happening with him uk #and like even though this feeling is always there but lile i can't help but feel like my life would have been so much better with a sibling?#like one id have good relationships with uk???#and ik ik found family and forming meaningful relationships outside is an option but like in this capitalistic individualist society? is it?#anyways that's not the point it's that there's always stuff no body in the world would get except people who grow up with you innit?#be it school or hometowns or families and it would have been nice to have someone help me not feel this complete overwhelmness all the time #and without me feeling like im exaggerating or thinking that the person would judge me or having to keep telling everything repeatedly #but then i think would that even matter when I am the one who's the problem and like can't work to form that connection with anyone?????#like i for the life of me cannot share anything beyond the surface level or without making a joke out of it #and it seems funny but i trivialise so much of the fucking shit that happens so obviously no one takes it seriously not their fault right?#and like how fair to my friends that i literally almost always been superficial and lowkey untrue with them in exchange for their honesty???#at this point i feel like i don't even know what i truly feel or truly am because whenever i look back at my past self im like wtf #idk most of the times it just feels like being 'stuck' in a glass container and me not 'letting' anyone in if that makes sense?#ik im being very annoying about it but im just so tierd of feeling like this its been a decade & its way too long to constantly feeling dead #and im so fucking stubborn in my sadness that i won't even go get help after years of crying about wanting it & now finally having resources #it's like this mental block which i can't seem to remove and i feel like even if i do get help ill still be untrue so what's the point!???#yeahhhhh anyways i'll delete this later i don't journal so tumblr will have to make do #vi.txt

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sharkieboi · 4 months

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I gotta remember I don’t actually like the family party on the 26th and I would much rather be home alone or spending this time with friends, this one is always so overwhelming this house is full of loud opinionated people with undiagnosed ADHD who can’t hold a fucking straightforward conversation to save their lives and my dad always gets upset about how much everyone drinks and the food sucks and every time I try to get to a quieter spot or find an actual pocket of conversation it gets invaded and derailed and shouted over immediately

#shhh sharkie #no one let’s each other finish a story so you’re derailed immediately #and my aunt’s family is so stubborn and angrily opinionated it’s impossible to make yourself heard #they’re talking government conspiracy theories rn and i want to shoot myself #i just want to go back to my video games with my noise canceling headphones #adding on now that we’re back at my parents and i’ve gotten some sleep and decompression time but —#i love them all i truly do it just gets very overwhelming at that party in particular #i did do the big kid thing of remembering i can just (politely and diplomatically) leave a conversation i don’t want to be having #especially if it’s one that’s just happening around me I that no one is letting me get words in anyway #so when things got really overwhelming at the dinner table and i was just watching the younger adults watch SNL in the living room #and reading the subtitles for a stupid transphobic skit with fucking adam driver of all people. and that was just the perfect cherry on top #i cleared my plate and refilled my glass and went into the other room where it was much quieter but still ‘present’ and played video games #was much more at ease for it.#and then later I ran a mini-session of the DnD oneshot for my cousins! and we nerded out over my dice collection and other games #and we watched my one cousin play an elden ring game (??? i think? that family of video games)#and then it was time to go home!#and i got to very neatly avoid the top-of-the-lungs tswift singalong happening with the main party 🙃#tldr i love you all individually in your own way and its not your fault but y’all are too damn loud!!!

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seilon · 11 months

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by no means do i regret cutting off my dad but. sometimes i remember experiences with him that are so novel i wouldnt ever replace them. specifically i am thinking about how he’d play this country song sometimes that i have no idea how he found about gay interracial cowboys in love. i never asked him about it. i think about it often

#kibumblabs #chorus was like ‘interracial cowboyyy homo kinda love’ or something like that #my dad’s music taste was like. the most unpredictable thing on earth. in the most autistic way possible. it’s so hard to explain #and I still have no idea how he came across 90% of the music he’d listen to #I know when most people think of listening to music Autistically they think of an extremely predictable music taste where you listen to one #thing/band/genre/etc on repeat for however long and nothing else #but. the thing is. my dad didn’t NOT do that. his music taste was weird as hell and all over the place but it came in waves where he’d #listen to solely the same few songs or same artist or whatever for a few weeks and then eventually his focus would switch to something else #and he’d only listen to THAT for a few weeks and so on and so on. sometimes old stuff would come up again in a wave as well and #yeah you get it. occasionally he’d REALLY like a song and then he’d legit play it over and over again #specifically thinking of one time he got like. obsessed with moon river (the breakfast at tiffanys version I think?) and would play it #quite literally on a continuous loop on the house living room/kitchen speaker system and i think I was doing homework at the kitchen table #(wasn’t allowed to do it in my room cause my parents didn’t trust me) and was like. uh. dad. this is getting kind of annoying #and now that I think about it. I don’t think he stopped. at least not because of Me. i don’t remember when he stopped or if I just went #upstairs eventually if I finished my work. but yeah good god is my father autistic. he may not want to admit it but im pretty sure he knows #he is at least to SOME degree (my mother is a psychologist. i don’t think he could avoid it being pointed out at least a few times)#(he’s just prideful and stubborn and likes thinking that’s just the way he is and it’s not Pathological or blah blah blah idk. he knows.)#anywho. on the topic of things my dad would do that in hindsight ive realized are Very Autistic of him- he’d get annoyed sometimes if I sang #along to songs he’d play in the car because he wanted to ‘actually hear the song’ and yes first of all: dickish thing to say to a kid. but #the fact he didn’t realize that + now putting together that it probably had to do with having two sounds overtop one another in a #possibly irritating way… yeah. sounds like an autism thing. which I guess is kinda redeeming cause it means he wasn’t just being a TOTAL #asshole. still an asshole nonetheless but at least I sort of get it and get the feeling #cant blame him for having Autism Moments. can blame him for avoiding diagnosis or at least acknowledgement of it and never even remotely #attempting to keep his more maladaptive behaviors in check

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fluffyblue-multifandommess · 1 year

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if someone took me into a creepy ass room, hooked me up to a lie detector, blasted projector light right into my eyes and asked me to read an apology statement when i did nothing wrong, i would simply not read it. sorry to helly but i'm different

#blue fandom ramblings #severance 2022 #severance #im watching this now #instead of. getting caught up on the billion things im behind on #or finishing a fic i started last week #blue personal ramblings #but like i do not apologise when i have done nothing wrong. you can try to pressure me as much as you want but i wont do it #last week i was non verbal for nearly the whole week and someone tried to make me talk be pulling me into a room to #'discuss what's going on' and they started by asking me a non-polar question #i guess he thought my non-verbality was a choice? and by waiting me out he could get me to talk? lmao think again bitch #i sat there for however many minutes. waiting HIM out. i was fully making little scenarios in my head for my ongoing WIP #by the time HE lost his stupid little game and finally asked me a question i could answer by nodding/shaking me head #yea i couldve made some sort of gesture indicating i needed to write. to respond to him #but here's the thing. im a STUBBORN BITCH #play stupid games with me? lose like the stupid little idiot you are.#ANYWAYS my point is. in helly's shoes i simply would Not read the statement.#ive got all day bitch. ive got the rest of my life. bitch. fucking try me.#queued

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