#my true top 4

[cohlumbo]

We gonna have to call this in, Rust. Oh, we don't wanna do that.

#he was at his most lesbian here #second only to the lone star-daisy ring scene cc 2012. spitting out metal in a 4 week old shirt. i know she'd fist me in a pickup truck #who was it that said 'you can see his pussy frothing' in the tags? anyway so real for that #true detective #rust cohle #marty hart #h #true detective s1 #my grounding technique is watching the sweat dry on his ripped top✊😔 #they have to take giffing in browser mode away from me before i fry this computer to a jerky strip #some nights are like im rewriting blood meridian im eating pizzolatto's auteurism and spitting it out. other nights you ask? #well other nights are for looking at deadbeat cop yuri #🧃

[whumpypepsigal]

John Wick Chapter 4 (2023): “Will you take me home?”

#whumpedit #whump #johnwickedit #john wick chapter 4 #john wick: chapter 4 #john wick #keanu reeves #gunshot #shot #bleeding #blood #exhaustion #weak #passing out #my gifs #john wick chapter 4 spoilers #loved this scene when i first watched the movie so waited long for it to come out digitally #the joy i felt watching this movie in the theater was palpable… same feeling i got when i watched top gun maverick #true cinema right there #me thinks the little mermaid might do the same for me… can’t wait to watch it next weekend 😭 i will watch it alone if i have to idc

[compacflt]

some more attempts at the top gun class of 86

#the common 3/4 angle my true nemesis #multiple mavs off to the side that were untenable #managed to make tc look like el*n m*sk. ugh #i feel like w/ everything i can get 90% of the way there but im missing that last 10% ykwim #not exactly right. drives me up the wall #anyway this is how i procrastinate writing my final paper so this is fine #top gun #tom iceman kazansky #ron slider kerner #top gun fanart #u will have to let me know if im the only one who sees young jon stewart in this ice and gavin newsom in this slider #or am i just braininfested #once i have time this summer ill get back into digital art !!!!!

[angelinthefire]

Thinking about a 6-part miniseries about Cas. The premise being that there's some way for him to get back the memories that were taken from him, and he's going through the process of re-experiencing them (and this is why we haven't seen him yet, because he's been occupied with this).

So we're following Cas through time, seeing every instance of him going off-script, and every time it gets harder and harder to reset him. And there could be 3 or 4 actors besides Misha who play Cas at various points in history. And there could be returning spn actors for different angels as well as recasts for different "versions" of them. There would be a chance to get into some complex relationships between sibling-soldiers who are under a cult-like authority.

The way I'm imagining it, it would be "kalaidoscopic" to use Edlund's word for describing Cas' perspective. Non-linear narratives layering on top of each other, and making use of motifs and recurring elements in an almost dream-like way, building Cas' story as someone who fought to be his own person. The whole thing being kind of epic and fantastical and philosophical.

And of course it ends with Cas' reunion with Dean. I think in previous episodes there could be short little "missing scenes" situated within the main spn canon, to really re-establish Dean and Cas' relationship for any uninitiated viewers. But by the time it gets to the end, after following Cas' whole story, Dean is framed as the last instance in a long series of Cas' struggles to assert his own sense of right and wrong, his own sense of self. Dean is the time when it finally stuck. So there's a real narrative weight, within the 6 episodes, to them reuniting, it's not just for the sake of finishing what spn started.

And I'm still imagining the reunion scene being something like what I posted about here. Where Dean asks Cas to jailbreak Heaven with him, break the rules with him one more time, run away so they can live their own life. So that Dean is the realization of everything Cas' story has been driving towards.

And then the thing with Jack being taken over by God happens (see linked post). Because a) Cas can't just go off with Dean and leave Jack behind, so there has to be a reason for him to oppose what Jack's been doing in Heaven, and the answer to that is he's God instead of Jack. And b) the series ends on an open page, with Dean and Cas going back into the world as these twin agents of chaos and free will, and you have the sense that they're always going to be out there fighting for free will and fighting to be masters of their own lives, and the story will never end.

#spn #supernatural #castiel #destiel #deancas #not actually fanfic #@ chaos machine hire me please #I'm imagining what the show trailer could be like #With like 4 or 5 different voices layered on top of each other and blending into one another #saying 'my name is castiel. i'm an angel of the lord' #and some nice set pieces from different periods of time #and a shot where the camera is circling around cas and his various vessels are morphing into each other #and this is a fantasy scenario so of course there would be the budget for some true form special effects as well #oh for the opportunity to pitch to jackles

[thecrenellations]

Top 5 Lymond ships?

I’m going to keep this to romantic* ships, but my list of top 5 Lymond relationships of any kind definitely includes some platonic and family ones (and is even more difficult to confine to 5).

*other or additional adjectives may certainly apply…

click below for spoilers and because my answers got long. Augh, these characters!

Francis/Will - The nicknames! The fights! The stars! Strip tarocco and its narrative implications! Then the wedding day sheep battle, the tactical cross-dressing, “everything there was to know about Lymond’s way with women” ?!?!, the ring, the way Will is there at Midculter when Francis comes home in DK… They’re such a disaster, in hilarious and serious ways, but they make it through to real trust and friendship in the end, and I just love them.

Francis/Philippa - Their relationship is always important and telling and entertaining, and after a certain point but before the suffering sets in, they just keep making each other smile and laugh, by accident and on purpose. Reading their scenes in RC is like genuinely being in the room with them, with banter and chemistry that is PALPABLE and makes me into a third wheel, but as a reader I also have insights that they don’t, so I’m in on it too? Or something. They love each other so much! And after everything, they get to be together. Francis, you fool, this is what you should be!

Francis/Jerott - if you’d told me when I was in the middle of reading the series that they’d be on this list, I’d be like, “Uh, ok, sure. Dorothy Dunnett has changed my opinion about characters before.” If you'd told me when I had just finished the series, I’d go, “Huh??” But here I am. There is so much wrong with both of them, and we know it all too well, but they are so important to each other, and Jerott is one of the characters closest to the story's heart. Getting Jerott safely out of the disaster that is DK is one of the things Francis promises himself, and he’s so glad when Jerott decides to stay. Their relationship, especially in PiF, becomes deeply devoted and strange and delicate and absolutely full of self-deception on both sides. But Francis never stops trusting him, even when he’s busy running away from all of his own feelings with increasing speed, even when Jerott is being awful to him. And all the desperate conflict within Jerott distills to the essential element of being there for Francis, every time it comes down to it. Also, the way Jerott calls him his first name more than anyone else (on-page, in the series’ scope) messes me up.

Marthe/Güzel - I REALLY wish we’d gotten to see more of them. For Marthe, PiF is (among many other things) this long, agonizing breakup, but we only get a few clear glimpses of it. That scene between them in Djerba! Marthe plays a song wishing misfortune on the brother she knows her girlfriend is zeroing in on, and she cries because Güzel has happiness (does she though 😬) and she has none! And I cry too! And the whole mess that web of relationships becomes is fascinating (and one of the clearest examples of how queer these books are, yay), and there's also the parallels with Francis and Margaret, to consider? Anyway, to quote @sophosthewisebunny, Marthe deserves better than the shadiest bitch in the Mediterranean/someone who would leave her for her brother, but their relationship is very interesting.

Francis/Güzel - Rereading RC, every scene between them made me feel dead inside, while also making me want to run around screaming and then return to my book to savor every word. There’s so much going on with them, hardly any of it good, and since I was just thinking about the previous ship on the list, I have to wonder how their relationships to Marthe affect how they relate to each other, because that’s an interesting question, too.

honorable mention to Francis/Míkál, entirely because of this, and Francis -ahem- Lymond/Richard Chancellor, because another thing that happened as I was rereading RC was that I realized just how much I’d missed about how important they are to each other, in such a rare and needed way (the first time, I was busy losing it about the brother prophecy and yelling at Francis to be friends with Adam and Alec again).

#4/5 of these involve Lymond but that's how it goes sometimes #i feel like there are some more obscure ships that have captivated me conceptually #but i'm not thinking of them now #on reflection ... if it WAS just top five relationships it would still probably be these first three #plus francis & marthe and francis & richard #in terms of total thoughts and feelings #lymond #top five list #ok I’ll stick this in my tags for #will scott #marthe #jerott blyth #but you (hypothetical tag reader) don’t know exactly HOW now do you??!! #jk these are all tried and true

[cockworkangels]

2023 art compilation: my top 4 fave/memorable art moments of the year :)

X this is the most ambitious art project i have ever taken on lol. the file got so big it broke krita and i never could actually finish working on it 😭 it finished itself. everything with this was such a struggle but technically i got it done even if it didn't turn out exactly like i envisioned!

X making this art piece as a commission for the demine ukraine art raffle fundraiser was overall such a good experience! i just really enjoyed working on this piece :)

X i'm just pretty happy how this one turned out :) especially his beard. tumblr makes the image quality so bd but like if you zoom in on the beard you'll see what i mean. idk this is just the closest to realism that i've gotten so far so i'm taking it as an achievement. i love adding every painstaking little detail i can :)

X idk i don't have a specific reason other than that i think this just looks cute and also the style here looks much more relaxed and simple than what i usually draw. it makes me think that i should try to make more art in this type of style and idk try to make my style more relaxed in general lol

+ an honourable mention to my deanpala art :) i think it's pretty memorable

#sorry this is such a long post i would have put the art pieces next to each other but they're too different in size. #i feel a bit silly talking about my art but like. i'm doing it anyways bc i do like talking about my art. trying to be real and true here #i would have done every month but i didn't make enough art for that lol. so top 4 #long post #my art #da.post

[icewindandboringhorror]

More misc. daily life pictures and such

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1 & 2 - Very bright pretty looking sky ! #2. HUGE icicle that looked like you could kill someone with it or something.. Pulled from near a gutter on the side of a building #3. & 4 & 5 - various images from a silly party I had where I pretended to be some elf king turning like 204 years old lol (also not like #a REAL party. Only my roommates were there really and we're all in the same household bubble. #just to clarify. I would never dare have a large party anyway given #my hermitous nature but on top of that.. didn't want there to be some implication that I'm having a Party while covid is still ongoing lol. #NEVER.. But I do love dressing up as some fantasy character so much.. The only thing that could ever bring a true hermit wizard #to engage with others socially is the prospect of connecting it somehow to fantasy worlds and costumes lol. One must simply dress up #as a silly 200 year old man from time to time and pretend you've never seen a balloon before in your life. etc. #6. bapy boye... feets #7. The main food that I made for the elderly elf man 'party'. which was a Deconstructed Beef Wellington (kind of as ajoke since I watch s #o many silly cooking competition shows and they always make stuff 'deconstructed' at the last minute when under time limits or whatever.) #I've wanted to make beef wellington a few times but Ithink to do it well I'd need like..an actual kitchen and a lot of time and #an oven that fully works to bake things and etc. etc. So I thought this would be an easier method. A thick steak cut round to kind of mimi #c the round tenderloin or whatever it is in a wellington. instead of the puff pastry being wrapped around - I just did star shaped cut outs #of pastry and baked them and put them on top (to go with the star theme). instead of mushroom duxelles being wrapped around in pastry #its in a little circle under the steak. and instead of mustard being brushed onto the meat I made a mustard gravy sauce type of thing #Then of course asparagus on the side.. my favorite... Though I know some wellington #also has a layer of prosciutto I think. or I saw one person use crepes. I didn't feel it was necessary to incorporate that too lol #8. bapy son helping me do a giant puzzle that took me hours and I had no idea it was actually that large of a puzzle #until I started putting it together and for some reason it made me stressed by the end instead of relaxed lol.. puzzle fatigue #photo diary

[karinyosa]

listen i can’t prove that asp bloggers by and large seem to know brinker was based on gore vidal now because of me but brother i will say it was not like that back when there were like 4 asp blogs and all the fanart was anime

#you may be thinking. well there are basically 4 asp blogs now #THINK AGAIN!!!! it used to be so much worse. #it feels like there are more people consistently posting about it now #and a lot more art (MUTUALS!!! <33) #like there was an art DROUGHT #it used to be that every time you looked at the tag the same posts would be up at the top and like #it’s still sorta like that but allllll the posts i could never escape have been buried into obscurity #because there’s so much new stuff #i used to be like haha there are 5 people in this fandom or whatever #BUT THAT NO LONGER FEELS TRUE #i used to tell everyone who would listen about the gore vidal thing kehskwhskwhdjwhs #it was such a novelty to me at the time i read asp that queercoding could be so like. complete or comprehensive and also supported by #like authors and academic institutions and most importantly a tumblr fandom sksjsk #so an openly queer man being associated w my fav book whose gayness i was mentally going to bat for was craaaazzzyyy to my #middle school brain #even though i didn’t really know anything about him except for a few anecdotes at the time. brother. how things have changed #oh my god and the fact that there is/was an asp gimmick blog??? asp-quotes??? my god middle school me would’ve died #im still writing the same fucking fanfic that ms me daydreamed about finishing though. god #anyway hopefully this post isn’t. ANNNOYIINNGGG but it’s crazy to see things change like that from so close a perspective #like the smallness of the asp online community makes it easy to tell for some of these things #i draw a line directly between my younger asp mutuals constantly posting art to the influx of other asp content #in my memory one followed the other #fucking anyway. write a memoir dipshit #me.txt #a separate peace #if it is because of me that’s very funnyynbgncb #OH AND IT’S IN POLLS NOW TOO #crazy

[pinkfey]

ik it must like suck to be really into a piece of media where everyone unanimously loves one couple that u aren't a fan of but critters take it too far bc what is there to even hate abt imodna.. that they're wise and sexy?? that laura has perfected yearning?? ur all so lame !!!!!!

#some of the backlash is so intense #beauyasha dealt with a lot as well but i don't remember it being as immediate as imodna #and it's 'allegedly' because everyone makes the show about them but i think u guys just hate gay women. tbh. #like ur lesbophobia has carried over into c3 #and like another thing i notice is this hatred for imogen specifically bc 'it feels like everything is about her' #which is firstly like.. not true.. matt is a good dm and knows how to divide time and arcs and weave things together #why is everyone acting like he's devoting every waking moment to her do u all just not pay attention #but ig when ur spending all this time hating someone ofc ur going to notice when they get the spotlight more #and secondly. so what !! did u have the same feelings towards vax?? fjord?? if not then why are u upset. #and thirdly. honestly cannot relate. i love her main character energy it's my favorite thing abt her #kind of cathartic that they're so mad though. vengeance for all the vax x percy years. #okay wee rant/complaint over back to avoiding critters like the plague #laura is sexy imogen is sexy imodna is solidified in my top two cr couples 4 life <33 #anyways​.txt #cr posting

[monstrology]

I encourage everyone who has just finished The Last of Us to stay on HBO and watch The Crazies (2010)

#it recently popped up over there and i wonder if its the zombie connection or just coincidence #either way you get amazing beautiful sexy timothy olyphant as a town sheriff who will do ANYTHING for his wife at the end of the world #true ride or die #and its in my top 4 favorite movies of all time #timothy olyphant #the last of us #the crazies #the crazies 2010

[hollowflight-propaganda]

Me: has my sixth sudden crying spell of the week

Also me: "yeah but I'm probably not ACTUALLY depressed"

#gonna be honest boys. I have been feeling like dogshit #started with me having a good ol' existential spiral at 4 am a week ago and now I don't even know what's bothering me #and then there's all of the bad stuff going on making me anxious for myself and everybody on top of everything #all the abhorrent transphobia has been making me feel worried for the future #(as if the passing of time doesn't already horribly scare me but I digress) #idk man. I already feel like I'm unequipped for the future because I've realized I never thought I'd still be alive right now #majority of my childhood was filled with adults preaching at me to think about where I'd be going in the afterlife so I did just that #that plus they were the type to believe that the rapture is soon cause “the signs are all coming true” #so I always thought that either that would happen or I'd die before now #well. I'm still here and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. #and I'm lonely. really fucking lonely and I'm going mad cause of it #never had actual friends besides the kids I was with at my old private school. now they're all raging conservatives who mock minorities #I was able to get away but moving on isn't as easy as I hoped #it'd be so much easier to betray all my beliefs and act ignorant again so I can have my friends back #but of course I can't do that. I can't throw out who I am and all of the wonderful people I know who would be “sinful” in their eyes #idk man. I think I've finally reached the breakdown I've been feeling coming for the past two years #fuck. sorry for this trauma dump of a post. I've just felt numb for months and now everything's catching up to me #needed to yell about it I guess #vent #phoenix prattles

[subconsciousmysteries]

idk what to do about the 4s man. They're either really whiny manipulators and groomers (4 -> 2) or they are bona fide psychopaths (4 -> 1 false security) or they are an ungodly combination of both.

In fiction I've seen good examples of 4s but in reality I struggle not to blame them for all the world's problems. There are reasons.

#Don't make me say it don't make me say it #ISRAEL is what happens when people lose touch with holy origin #On top of this I've just never met a 4 who didn't turn out to be a horrible person #Totally self absorbed fake deep turning everyone they claim to love into a degrading caricature #Controlling the identities of everyone close to them and seeing it as betrayal if you don't let them be dictators of who you are #And/or if you don't feed their first world navel gazing delusions. About how they're trans or non binary or how they have superpowers #All of this Whilst playing the victim of the world #My friend suggested once that the purpose of 4s is to create suffering in this realm and teach us all what suffering is #Couldn't agree more lol. Enneatypes are all a construct of the matrix anyways #And the whole reason this matrix exists is so we can learn what suffering in a predator / prey world is #So there has to be 4s #I mean I can see the evil of all types but none are quite as cancerous and malignant 4 #Another thing I notice with 4s is their brand of evil is particularly about worshipping the matrix #Like... theirs is the evil that makes you identify with the roles you are playing in the simulation as if it's your true self #They all get so triggered by real spiritualism which sees infinite possibilities for who you could be (as opposed to seeing fate / destiny) #Real spiritualism sees that all is one and we are everything all at once and our current identity is just a costume we're wearing #They dismiss that reality as stupid 7 talk #All is one is also 9 talk... 9s who they worship their broken ideal of... But anyways #The need to believe one has a fixed rigid identity they can never change is most intense in 4s #There is a real resistance of anything which may transform them #Because to 4s a transformation is seen as a betrayal of my True Self tm #Which the 4 doesn't realize isn't a true self... It's an artificial self-image you've constructed and trapped urself in #I'm keen to meet good 4s but I still believe there is something specially worse about 4 evil compared to everyone else's evil #Hey you guys got what you wanted you really are special #Anyways I do believe we have something innately unique about us on a spirit / soul level. and seeking what that is is important #But no 4 I've ever met is close to capturing what that is #They're too caught up in shallow worldly indicators of identity. They are always mistaking our worldly costumes for our essence. #Then strutting around like geniuses who are more enlightened than everyone. It's quite disgusting

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: some dense icemav paragraphs free of charge idc idc

#god wouldn’t it be nice to exonerate ourselves by saying we’ve been consciously in love this whole time even if that’s so obviously not true #wouldn’t that make it all worth it? #love at first sight as a way to absolve the guilt of silent inaction. #feeling very stop this train by john mayer live at the Nokia theater December 2007 #im so scared of getting older / im only good at being young #so I play the numbers game / to find a way to say my life has just begun #anyway #1. i too can indulge in a little cliche quirky romanticism #2. this is from the original draft of debriefing edits & ices depression was like 10x worse; like to an edgy degree #3. wuhhhhhhh this graf speaks for itself #4. see above #top gun maverick #pete maverick mitchell #top gun #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun fanfiction #edts notes #idk feeling. #just feeling. #it had to be at least 30 years bc that was the constraint TGM placed on me. But the emotional implications are so awful #old people make me sad #but i promise they find the happiness in the situation #that excerpt just wasn’t a nice neat paragraph for this post LMAO #having fun writing for writings sake #this post is being scheduled for the very second my Am. lit. final exam starts so wish me luck

[obiwan-kenobabe]

It's official! In the span of a year, I will have seen 4 out of 5 of my favorite artists live once August rolls around next year.

I woke up to a text from my mom saying that she bought tickets from her, my brother, and I to go see Metallica next year and I'm going to explode !!

#i saw fob in August of this year #i just saw Hozier on Sunday #and then i see Joji at the end of bext month #and now!!!! seeing Metallica next August!!!!!! #thats 4 out of 5 babey #im so sad i missed Logic in June this year i desperately wanted to go.... #if i had been able to pull off going to see Logic i literally would have seen my top 5 live in A SINGLE YEAR #And that's bonkers to think about #but 4 out of 5 ain't bad! #dont mind me #just excited. #i never thought id actually get to see Metallica live ever #childhood dream come true

[rocknrollinbitchforu]

I love musicals that are about or by Jewish people. unironically they usually are the greatest shows with underlying layers and amazing plot. yes this is about cabaret. and falsettos. and oklahoma. and chitty chitty bang bang. and fiddler on the roof. and wicked. and west side story. and 25th annual. and little shop of horrors. and rent.

notice a theme here?

#anything thats #kander and ebb #rodgers and hammerstein #alan menken #pasek (and paul even tho hes not jewish) #stephen sondheim #stephen schwarts #or #william finn #i could genuinely talk so long about how jewish playwrights create such masterpieces by hiding themes like anti-isolationism in their works #i just am obsessed with all of these musicals and their true deeper meanings on top of the impact of their jewish heritages or faith #on their writing #its my actual favorite thing #sages autism moments :) #once again infodumping about a special interest #3/4 of my favorite musicals are by jewish composers #falsettos wss and little shop stay winning

[orcelito]

I am so curious what my stats r gonna be for Spotify wrapped. I only started using it in 2021 and so I only know my things for 2 years. Both years, Stray Kids was my top artist bc they're my fav kpop group

This year, I know without a doubt it's going to be IAMX. I have listened to them just about every day for Four Months Straight, often for hours and hours at a time. I have 102 songs liked from them, so I have not grown bored at all.

It's going to be a frankly ridiculous level of minutes played. I'm rly curious where I'm gonna rank in their listeners hfkdhdksbdk

#speculation nation #even if i stopped listening to them so much Now. thats still 4 months of utter obsession #i have..never had an artist that has possessed me like this before. #ive had plenty of favorites sure. i get in moods where i wanna listen to certain bands on repeat #but usually it lasts for only a few days at a time. maybe a week or two. a Month if its real strong #it's been four months. Four Fuckin Months. #and to be fair ive known of IAMX for like over ten years now. but i only ever knew the one song by them #so it feels like ive been listening to them far longer than i have been.... because it's kinda true. but only in part. #i shouldve checked them out so much earlier. i wouldve been all over this back then too. #but. ykno what. better now than never. #so ive been launching myself into their tip top percentages for listeners. for months. #idfk man it's just been scratching smth in my brain so well. this is music for ME. #dark but not gaudy about it. it's not edgy for the sake of edginess. #it's music for someone deeply fucked up and just kinda vibing with it. Just Like Me. #it's no wonder it's resonated so much with me. it's so fucking good.