#n e way fun facts about the grieving process the different stages switch out with each other and all present so weirdly and unexpectedly

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y’all ever think of things you could post that you think are funny and then realise it’s not actually that funny you’re just going through something and dont know how to express that other than making concerning jokes about it

#anyway do you think if i make enough bad jew jokes/comparisons it’ll bring my dad back #that was the original post because i realised purim is kinda just cosplaying and getting shitfaced for g-d #so it’s pretty much g-d’s late night panel at a con #anyway it’s once again nighttime which means this goes from ‘things that are real but i feel numb about’ #to ‘things that are real and also feel real and also oh yeah i’m going through the grieving process right now oh no’ #n e way fun facts about the grieving process the different stages switch out with each other and all present so weirdly and unexpectedly #denial and bargaining are also really similar a lot of the time #acceptance for me is during the time where im doing something and as soon as im not the other ones come in #anger isn’t really present at the moment but my temper is kinda short #sadness is at night :) #yeah i um. celebrate jewish stuff with my dad. so this is my first holiday without him since he passed #i just didn’t think it was gonna happen so soon. im not even out of highschool #emotions are all over the place and i can’t really control them either so im seeing a friend saturday #so im just hoping i don’t completely break down. she’s one of my closest friends if not my closest friend #i just hate crying in front of people that aren’t my mum #vent tw #death tw #personal