#narcisitic personality disorder

[loveandleases]

I feel like the major difference between Chris and Jade is that Chris was raised to be self centered and narcisitic, and Jade just happened to be that way. Chris feels similar to Jade in the way that they both refuse to take accountability for their actions, but the difference is how they deal with guilt. While Jade simply feels free from guilt since she literally CANNOT fathom ever feeling remorse for something she caused, because in her head, it was inevitable, or facing the consequences of her actions. I feel like Chris sort of expects their consequences in that sense, but is surprised nontheless when they come, they are also very capable of feeling guilt, but like Jade, decides to simply make up reasons in their head the other party is in the wrong, why the other party is inherently worse and whatnot, since that's EXACTLY what they do to Mc's who choose to pursue Cam for example, they refuse to face guilt, or simply feeling bad about something that passed. Chris knows what they do wrong, they just seem like they're in heavy denial, stemmed from the way their parents raised them to be, a perfect angel, unlike Jade who refuses to aknowledge she could ever be a villain in someone else's history, she's not in denial, because denial would imply she realizes what she did wrong.

And i'm not ranting just to make a point about how Jade is worse for possibly having Npd, or how Chris is better because he doesn't and is simply a 'misguided soul'. Nope, i'm not hopping in that bandwagon in which all neurodivergent/people with personality disorders are evil villains who need to be stopped. I'm just pointing out what is, and in the end of the day, they're both awful for what they did with Mc, i just think their egocentric behaviour stems from different places and i'd like to point that out

Thank you for coming to my ted talk, and that was: Chris and Jade slander

Pt 1. here

You would be right in the belief that Chris would/ feel guilt while Jade not so much. There was a scenario ask a bit back that kind of shows that part of Chris, I'll look for it to put it in so others can see the other side. So yeah, Chris was raised that way and others seem to treat them that way to. Very much a golden child. Their behaviors does indeed come from two different places.

#loveandleases #love and leases #chris #jade #im nd and i love it

[my-stupid-advice]

Tw: sentisive themes

My toxic ex sister taking my computer for her dumb exam 🙄 and if you ask why did i called her that way is cus she has done some very very horribile things to my mom and dad also me too, i really want to tell you the full story of this but its privete and its has some very trigger waring things so yeah , also her actoins are very narcisit and mean . She is very selfish and so full of her self but anyways i got very mad and salty about this cus well i don't trust her and i dont like the share my personel things with people like her, i just don't want to see my computer broken ..

Side note: am sorry for being too sassy and salty about writing this bestie 😅

I'm so sorry about her taking your computer, that sucks. Have you told her that you'd rather she didn't take your computer, because you are worried about your computer.

And that sounds like a very unkind way of treating you, I'm sorry you've all gone through that.

(by the way, narcissism is a personality disorder, so probably should not be used as an insult- but that's not the point. I hope your sister becomes more considerate, or if not, you're able to find a way to avoid her taking your computer)

#answer #ask

[sanchezpoetry]

The stitches you gave me (To close my wound) Were laced with poison The drinks you gave me to relax (After a long day) Were sodium pentothal The medicine you gave me (To ease my anxiety) Were meant to make me an addict  The secrets you told me (An illusion) Were a ruse to learn more about me The love and affection you gave me (A construct) Was all just to get me to let my guard down

Everything you did Every action Every word Every sentiment Every gesture Was a lie

Like a ghost lurking in every place I lay my head Like a demon in every spot I cast a shadow  Like countless shameful memories  Your actions haunt my mind 

But believe me when I say I’ve defeated demons worse than you 

#spilled ink #poetry #love #hate #unrequited love #relationships #breakup #depression #shame #addiction #drugs #alchoholic #alchohol #narcisitic personality disorder #psychology #psychoanalysis #abuse

[suprememayobros2]

Yeah I won’t debate anymore still wanna talk? The narcisit I knew didn’t have npd but I know about mpd because I’m interested in stuff like that. I still know the autistic person who used to go with aspergers before I showed them the light, I have a way with words irl

If by mpd you mean multiple personality disorder, then you should know that no one uses that anymore. Its now D.I.D (Dissociative Identity Disorder) otherwise known as Plural if you want to be less science-y sounding. Unless this is an attempt to call me out for using Asperger's despite it not being the official term anymore in a country i dont live in and your still trying to debate me

[razzleberryjam]

Olay I'm gonna be real, having a shitty life or having a mental disorder does not give you a free pass to be an assolhole and to hurt others, like idgaf if ur a diagnosed psychopath, narcisits etc. It still is not an excuse to hurt others go to therapy like the rest of us and stop making excuses to be a rude ass bitch like I get it im fucking bitchy too but im like trying to be better cause I recognize that just cause my mom was mean to me when I was little and now I'm depressed doesn't give me a free pass to shit on anybody and be all like "my life was worse, etc blach blach" idgaf stop being an asshole like fuck off like u can't just be an abuser and then be liek "lmfao sorry I have borderline personality disorder lol" like fuck you gucko you f7cko you

[jerseydeanne]

I even reach to everyone not for my image but to they. People like to be listen. I may believe iam little narcisit because i was bullyied on high school soo i never say sorry, or others things, But i tried to listen and learn from my mistakes. Because been like that is not healthy. Soo is the wanted ti reach the young ones she would do it with a 14 years old. Because when we are un collage is when we think more🤣🤣🤣🤣😂part 2

Katherine, you get it !! People want you to hear them! Amen sister! You’re doing great. Being a bit narcissist is natural but having a narc personality disorder is in another spectrum, these folks have a playbook of torture IMO. 

Thank you 💖💖💐🍹🍹🌴

[sanchezpoetry]

     So. Yeah. This relationship lasted a total of less than 4 months. She made me so happy in the first month. Made me feel loved and appreciated (Excluding that really ugly argument in the beginning that should have been a showstopper) and honestly showed me a love and affection that I have never felt before. It truly felt genuine. But for the past 2ish months. Nothing but arguing. And I’m so grateful for my friends and family, because they told me what she has been doing. My sister explained that a lot of the things that she would tell me is the same way she would fuck with my brother in laws head. My buddy who dated a meth head for years told me basically everything that is happening to me is the same exact thing that happened to him. Another friend of mine who went through something similar is explaining to me how people with this mindset cannot even understand that they are doing the things that they are doing. A lot of women who I’m friends with see that I’m hurting and explain to me what she is doing and it makes a lot of sense.

   A manipulative narcissist will make things great in the beginning just to hook you in. They will then begin the gaslighting and manipulation, the blowing up over nothing, yet calling you sensitive when you express hurt feelings. They will then begin to make you feel unneeded while claiming that it is necessary that you stay.

   The scariest thing about a manipulative narcissist is that they aren’t Hannibal lector, or Hitler. They are you and me. Living life, with real emotions and real pain and hurt. And they don’t even realize that they are gaslighting you or playing with your emotions. And they’ll unknowingly try to control you when they realize they are losing control; they lash out at you and do anything necessary to keep you. It’s all a matter of control.

    I have a good job, I’m smart, mature, kind, compassionate, mentally and physically strong. My faults are I can have a bit of a temper, can be overly sensitive, can be clingy, and joke when it’s time to be serious. But honestly, I know I’m a good partner. I’m adaptable, and always take my partners feelings into consideration. But I don’t deserve to be constantly arguing, constantly having my flaws thrown in my face and sure as hell don’t need to be compared to someone’s ex and be called abusive person because I’m not.

   Even as I type this, she’s calling me. I’m wondering if she is trying to put everything to bed so I can go back.

    I can’t bring myself to hate someone that I loved. I put my heart and soul into everything that I do, including relationships. And everyone I have ever loved will always be part of me. I can’t bring myself to hate anyone that I’ve ever loved. Not Rain, not Sam, not Sayah. No matter what happened.     I don’t blame her for anything. From an objective perspective, she suffers from narcissistic personality disorder, because of the horrible things that she has been through in the past. She’s addicted to pills. She’s in pain. Emotional pain because of her past, and literal physical pain because of her injuries. But being in pain doesn’t excuse someone casing other people pain. And I don’t deserve to be gaslighted and constantly having my flaws and imperfections throwing in my face.

    We’re still talking at this very moment. She is telling me that she doesn’t want to lose me, that she will be better. And she seems sincere. And I’m sure that she believes that.

     There’s a part of me that wants to try and wants to believe that she truly loves me and wants to make it work and I’ve been getting upset over nothing. But I need to remind myself that all of this happened in such a short period of time and it’s all a fucking textbook case of being with a narcissistic addict. I still want to believe I can go back and maybe I’m freaking out over nothing. Maybe she really truly does love me and wanted to marry me like she said. 

     But. 

    You don’t treat someone you love like this, you don’t constantly try to argue, you don’t gaslight, you don’t compare them to your ex, you don’t call your partner abusive when they are just trying their best, and now that I’m out of my lovey dovey mode, I’m seeing all the textbook red flags and it look awful. 

     And once again, my heart aches. 

#personal #abuse #npd #narcissism #narcicist #narcisitic personality disorder #love #hate #new relationship #breakup