when i look in the mirror
i never trust what i see
having trouble realizing me
told what to do, what to feel
where do i begin to find what is real
i said no, “you mean yes”
i guess
not so sure anymore
an uneven score
wanting more
do i deserve such
i feel i have been missing much
caught in a web of lies
unheard for years, my many cries
chains stay the course
do you think he feels remorse
overactive emotions
dysfunctional neurotransmitters
i’m not a quitter
not even bitter
i just need to know
how do i go
from here to there
care
self-distrust
do i matter much
it’s not a crutch
i’m struck
by a twist of fate
stalemate
maybe
someone help me
figure this out
untwist my brain
serotonin lost
my mood the cost
depressed
on a quest
to find my true mind
real emotions
presynaptic collapse
my body reacts
self-harm
moving to my arm
sound the alarm
imperfections now found
on my body’s sacred ground
tell me the truth
show me what to do
is this true
as tears drop
shocked
mediating tension
hand is wrenching
stainless steel
again appeals
to the theory of
invalidation
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It’s a waste of time and energy trying to reason with unreasonable people. Pour that energy into yourself and your healing journey instead. Even if the narc lives with you and it currently feels like a hopeless situation, you can still engage less. Yes it’s easier said than done. Yes the narcissist will probably get mad and lash out when they notice you engaging less. But also, YES anything the narcissist says to you is calculated to incite a reaction out of you. They get a little kick out of your reaction. Being aware of how you react and making a conscious effort to not react while you’re talking to the narcissist is how you begin to take your power back. Don’t beat yourself up if you can’t become the grey rock champion overnight. None of this is ever an overnight process. It’s all about baby steps one day at a time. This is where doing the emotional work comes in handy - processing your emotions (away from the narcissist) can actually help you to not react emotionally to them. Want a little taste of doing the inner work? Grab my free rage journaling guide at the link in my bio! Want to take your healing journey up a notch and join a safe community for survivors to connect, get access to my best courses, attend live events, and have a safe place to share or vent what you’re going through and share your wins? Then I invite you to join my community membership! The best part is it’s super affordable, you can get started for less than $1/day! Click the link in my profile to learn more. (Disclaimer: inner work won’t help you if the narc gets physically violent. If that happens or seems like it might happen, an Instagram post is not going to help you, get yourself to safety asap and get authorities involved! Your physical safety is always # 1!) #Narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticabuse #narcissistfree #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissisticabuseexpert #emotionalabuse #psychologicalabuse #mentalabuse #toxicistoxic #toxicpeople #gaslightingawareness #darktriad https://www.instagram.com/p/CpDuZjaONJE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Understanding Narcissistic Abuse: What It Is and How To Recover?
Narcissistic abuse is a form of emotional and psychological abuse that is perpetrated by someone with narcissistic personality disorder or traits. It can take many forms, including gaslighting, manipulation, emotional neglect, belittling, and exploitation.
The following are some common signs of narcissistic abuse:
A constant need for attention and admiration
Belittling, demeaning, or insulting language or behavior
An inability to acknowledge or apologize for mistakes
A lack of empathy for others
Manipulation and gaslighting
Control and domination over their partner
Emotional neglect or abandonment
Blaming their partner for everything that goes wrong in the relationship
Isolation from family and friends
Threats or violence.
Recovering from narcissistic abuse can be a long and difficult process, but it is possible.
The following are some strategies that may help:
Seek Therapy: Therapy can provide a safe space to process your experiences and emotions, and can help you develop coping mechanisms for dealing with triggers and negative thoughts.
Build a Support System: Surround yourself with friends and family who are supportive and understanding, and who can provide emotional support when you need it.
Practice Self-Care: Take care of yourself physically and emotionally. This can include exercise, healthy eating, getting enough sleep, and engaging in activities that bring you joy.
Set Boundaries: Establish clear boundaries with the person who has abused you, and stick to them. This can include limiting or cutting off contact, and refusing to engage in behaviors that are harmful to you.
Challenge Negative Self-Talk: Work to identify and challenge negative beliefs and thoughts about yourself that were reinforced by the abuse.
Take Legal Action If Necessary: If you have experienced physical or sexual abuse, or if your partner has engaged in illegal activities, consider taking legal action.
Recovering from narcissistic abuse can be a difficult and overwhelming process. It is important to seek professional help to heal from the trauma of being in an abusive relationship. Therapy for narcissistic trauma, emotional abuse victims, and survivors of domestic violence are all available options for those seeking help. Professional counselors and therapists can provide support, guidance, and tools to help individuals manage their emotions, cope with the effects of the abuse, and develop healthy coping strategies. With the right kind of therapy, survivors can begin to heal from their traumatic experiences and move forward with their lives.
Remember, recovery is a process, and it can take time. Be patient with yourself and seek support when you need it.
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what is Emotional Abuse?
Emotional abuse is a form of mistreatment that involves the use of tactics to manipulate, control, and harm another person emotionally and psychologically. Unlike physical abuse, which involves physical harm, emotional abuse primarily targets an individual's feelings, self-esteem, and mental well-being. It often occurs within relationships where there is a power imbalance, such as intimate partnerships, familial relationships, friendships, or workplace dynamics.
"TalkToAngel" is a representative of online counseling services, which provide virtual access to professional therapists and counselors. These services offer a range of benefits:
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Perfectionism causes massive anxiety. Anyone who grew up with a narcissistic parent would understand this. #socialdragonfly #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissisticabuseawareness #perfectionism #perfectionist #perfectionistproblems #perfectlyimperfect #motherwound #fatherwound https://www.instagram.com/p/CpQ1QyauwkQ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Emerging from the fog
I am starting to recognise the person in the mirror looking back at me. She looks so damn familiar to me these days... Like someone I knew long ago.... But she is also so very different.
She has scars that are new and discreetly obvious & she wears them so proudly.
She is me and I am her.
We vowed we would never meet.
'Who I was' NEVER wanted to know 'who I became'...... And 'who I became' was too scared, embarrassed & far too ashamed to admit she ever knew 'who I was'.
And now, here we are.....
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When I Learned THIS About Narcissists, Everything Changed! | Kristen Brown
Narcissists can stealthily creep into our lives and slowly turn up the heat until we're so confused, we're not sure what's even happening anymore. This is why when it comes to dealing with narcissists, it's vitally important to keep it very simple. When I learned this ONE thing, it completely flipped the way I dealt with narcissists from that point forward.
👉🏼 No more did I question myself
👉🏼 No more did I allow their words and behaviors to manipulate me and
👉🏼 No more did I parlay with them
I sincerely hope this truth lands for you with the whollop it landed for me. If you enjoyed this video, please give me a 👍 and comment below!
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Ep. 232 out now - a conversation with Brandon Chadwick, host of The Narcissist Apocalypse Podcast. To help with the subject of narcissism, I asked for help from Cult Vault friend and Forensic Psychiatrist @drsohomdas - host of @psychforsoreminds. Here, Dr Das breaks down 5 types of narcissism and the key identifiers. Check out Dr Das’ channel! https://youtube.com/@APsychForSoreMinds And head over to Brandon’s show on all major podcast platforms. #cultpodcast #truecrimepodcast #truecrimecommunity #truecrimepodcast #forensicpsychiatry #forensicpsychiatrist #narcissism #typesofnarcissism #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissistfree #narcissistawareness #covertnarcissist #overnarcissist #communalnarcissist #malignantnarcissist #antagonisticnarcissist #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #cult #cults #cultrecovery #cultsurvivors #cultawareness #podcastinterview #podcasthost https://www.instagram.com/p/Cowp3fkoL3a/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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#Repost @psychologiststephanie with @use.repost ・・・ Yesterday's post on the 'Good Guy Abuser' stirred up a lot for many. Also it raised the question: 'how about female abuse?' So I decided to post on what common female abuse looks like. I’m posting on both genders separately because they look a bit different. The signs are only abuse when the underlying intention is to control, demean or punish. People will abuse often to regain an inner sense of control when lacking Inner Security and emotional empathy and when they may feel entitled. It's important to identify the signs, especially for men who might tend to deny the abuse more than women due to taboo/ shame/ .. It's important to identify when it might be happening in order to Self- protect (self-esteem, self- trust, freedom, etc). An abused man can be: · Afraid to tell anyone · Depressed or humiliated · Afraid he has failed as a lover and partner · Guilty about leaving her or scared of coping alone · Furious she could do or say the things she did · Confused because sometimes she acts loving & kind · Frustrated and sad because he has tried everything · Afraid of continued abuse if he leaves · Panicked he may lose his male identity if people know what has been going on · Worried about his financial security · Believes he deserved it When a (fe)male abuser: it’s good to remember that by abusing someone we actually are abusing ourselves. It ‘kills’ our spirit since it’s unnatural to hurt others. We’re worth finding out when our need for control developed, since this kills the possibility for us to (receive) love (= vulnerability). We heal by going to that inner wounded space (within a safe attachment) and process, re-evaluate our sense of entitlement (we’re often not aware of), learn to regulate our emotions and how to get our needs met in a way that will leave us fulfilled + connected (control =) #selfhealers#lifecoachingforwomen#manipulation#narcissisticabusesurvivor#narcissisticabuserecovery#narcissisticabuse#codependencyrecovery#codependentnomore#codependency#gaslighting#emotionalabuse (at Lismore, New South Wales) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmACobzBZg7/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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there has been a change in my vital signs
something inside my mind has declined
unwilling to further its investigation
finally uttering true devastation
do not put me on life support, a crutch
though my skin is cool to the touch
i believe i can hold on for a while longer
offer me a transfusion, make me stronger
or you could let me be, watch me float out to sea
bury me there in the deep
just a skeleton of who i used to be
churning in the celestial ocean
keeping an eye on my heartbeat's innermost motion
do you think there might be a magical potion
hidden in a subterranean cave beneath
hoping to find something in which to sink my teeth
holding my breath
diving possibly to my death
monsters of the depth follow my trail of blood
wishing to feed from my flesh, trying to drag me through the mud
black waters then envelope me
returned now to my home
freed from the darkness, no longer needing to roam
this is where i've longed to be, free
no evil doers here, just me
i need to speak my peace
a simple question, rescue me please
thought i could do it alone
i need your help one more time
place the tourniquet, make your pledge
keep me from my final hemorrhage
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"He:[she] who writes in blood and aphorisms does not want to be read, he:[she] wants to be learned by heart."
~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~
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Whatever the issue at hand is, the outcome of the “civilized conversation” will be one of or a mixture of the following: - You’re even more confused than before - It’s all your fault because you did this random thing that has never been an issue before but now it is because they need to find something to make it your fault - They’re “sorry and promise they’ll do whatever it takes to prove to you they’re serious about working things out” (this is just to buy time, which you’ll become aware of when you realize they haven’t done anything and their words were spoken just to buy more time) - They tell you whatever combination of words they know you want to hear but their actions in the near future tell a different story - Circular arguments that lead to no resolution - Exhaustion from the energy that was wasted engaging with this person - You continuing to believe the issue is you and it’s all on you to “fix” things The most important thing you need to understand when you’re dealing with a narcissist: anything they say and do is designed to get a reaction out of you. They are not thinking the same way you’re thinking. You’re committed to a resolution, they’re committed to chaos. When you look at things with the awareness that the narcissist is literally on a mission to cause, create, and continue the chaos - you begin to plant the seeds of allocating your energy accordingly. One day at a time, baby steps, you got this! #Narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticabuse #narcissistfree #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissisticabuseexpert #emotionalabuse #psychologicalabuse #mentalabuse #toxicistoxic #toxicpeople #gaslightingawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/Cln2ruiPSsX/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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What is your initial thought when you see this card? For me it’s pain. I am not sure how to navigate my desires because I repressed them for so long. Too much responsibility growing up… raised my brother… narcissistic mom who worked all the time… and a hyper-critical dad who confided in me like I was his therapist. There was no space to want. Now there is. And I don’t know what to do with it. My journey is just beginning. This is from the @healinnerchildoracle by @kylie_energyhealing and it is so very potent yet so very sweet. #bewitchedsunflower #innerchildhealing #narcissisticabusesurvivor #innerchildwork (at Mudhouse Coffee) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cl7VyC_umyG/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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mentally abuse
Mental or emotional abuse is a form of abuse where a person uses behaviors or words to control, manipulate, or undermine another person's emotional well-being and self-esteem. It can occur in any type of relationship, including romantic relationships, family relationships, and friendships.
Some examples of mental or emotional abuse include:
Name-calling, belittling, or insulting the other person
Ridiculing or humiliating the other person in front of others
Ignoring or dismissing the other person's feelings or needs
Blaming the other person for everything that goes wrong
Isolating the other person from friends and family
Making threats or using intimidation to control the other person
Gaslighting, or manipulating the other person's perception of reality
If you are experiencing mental or emotional abuse, you may benefit from talking to a therapist or counselor. They can help you process your feelings, develop coping strategies, and work towards healing from the abuse. Online counselling services like TalktoAngel can provide a safe and confidential space to discuss your experiences and get support.
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So many types of abuse exist. Please be aware of them, some are: Physical abuse. **Domestic violence or abuse.** Sexual abuse. Psychological or emotional abuse. Financial or material abuse. Modern slavery. Discriminatory abuse. Organisational or institutional abuse. This coming October become more aware of them and support as you can. Even if it’s simply reposting this flyer. Thank you 🙏🏽 #domesticviolence #domesticabuse #domesticviolenceawareness #emotionalabuse #abuse #narcissisticabuse #narcissist #survivor #gaslighting #toxicrelationships #mentalhealth #ptsd #trauma #healing #divorce #womenempowerment #narcissisticabusesurvivor #women #selflove #sociopath #love #narcissism #domesticviolencesurvivor #manipulation #toxicpeople #abusiverelationship #metoo #abusesurvivor #traumabonding #psychologicalabuse (at New Orleans, Louisiana) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ci-rAj3Jzsr/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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