#nd im just so fucking stressed

[silenthillbunni]

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#got an emergency dentist appt today at 14!!! T-T #sadly the dentist is a man but... beggars cant be choosers nd all that 🥲 #they opened at 7.20 nd i woke up from a dream w a start nd was like ?????? if was 7.21 #my alarm didnt go off T-T #luckily i woke up only one minute late omg what if i'd slept nd slept #but yeah have an appt now. i rlly dont wnna go lmao #now my teeth hurt a bit less nd im like hmmm... do i have to go ?? 💀 #i should but it's just the money aspect that stresses me out #i might have to pay using the only $200 i have in my account #nd then get sent that money by my social wellfare worker #who has been terrible at replying lately so i might have to call her #it just stresses me the fuck out i wanna cry #if i had a job w my own money i wouldnt care at all i'd just pay whatever i needed nd then go when i needed #but now i made that appt nd my teeth do hurt so i'll just have to hope it works out .... #i have anxiety abt going to the dentists normally but now that i know it's a man im even more anxious T-T oh well... :((

[izzy-b-hands]

im ngl i had a lil breakdown before my shower (which i took just before i went to bed to chill and watch the new eps) abt some thought-id-already-worked-all-thru-it irl stuff that resurfaced on me like trauma tends to and i just

it made everything in the show so. I don't know how to say it right. but i feel seen and understood and emotionally overwhelmed in a safe yet weird way, just like i did with a lot of s1 and I am Feeling So Much akdnfkgb (i cannot stress enough that this is a Good Thing and I'm absolutely thrilled and happy with the new eps and like. Going to be fine mentally I just gotta wrangle this like i have the times before.)

#text post #god i need a therapist that specialises in PTSD when i can afford therapy again #in the meantime recognition of the self thru the admired other while im in this state weirdly helps #makes me feel like im gonna burst out of my skin and I'm blasting metal in my ear buds to deal with that for now #gonna sleep eventually #i think lmao #im fine honestly bc like. this is not my first breakdown by any means but just. the fucking timing could not have been better #that said i both need a hug and absolutely could not handle being touched rn so that's something #no one's gonna read this far so im gonna just let myself have one little extra messy vent in that #my stupid fucking dad triggered part of this last one and I'm so mad abt it #he doesn't give two fucks abt me now (but he'd pretend to if he saw me in person bc jason LOVES keeping up appearances) #and he would just do a little nod and smile and talk over me telling him all that's happened this last year #i moved across the fucking country with help from friends so i wouldn't wind up dead in ND #and that's the thing i keep surviving and I dont understand why when I'm so often stressed and struggling to want to live #that and more has been sitting weighing and i just. want to tell him all of this and for him to be proud of me #he'll never be proud of me the way i want bc even my mum hasn't pulled that off #where they're proud of me as I am with no caveats or hiding parts of myself #if u think this is bad pls know i deleted a maximum tags tag essay/trauma dump just before this on this post lmao #i am In The Soup rn but it's gonna be fine #gonna rewatch s2 eps and be slightly but safely triggered by bits of ed and izzys stuff and get stoned and try to. process feelings #find some ptsd therapy worksheets online like dr. blohm suggested i try #forgive me the long tags and scroll by it fast if u want/need friends ill try to contain my current mess to this post & few others

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

mmngh,, jensen being a bitch when he's overstimulated <3

#no fr im so sick of this 'oh they just get stressed but dont take it out on anyone' YES THEY FUCKIN DO #they have one of the most stressful jobs on the face of the earth theyre gonna snap sometimes fr #let them be in the wrong my god #on top of that jensen is obvi nd and boy does it fucking suck sometimes #so yeah he Is going to get overstimulated and snappy and a little bit mean are you kidding #jensen valentine

[thysilus]

trying to reverse my old ‘30 is wen i will kill myself if im not dead by then’ energies nd hav my 30s b a year i feel established enuf n myself to njoy them

bt i gotta shove A LOT nto tht 1.5yr period to do tht lmao

#im hoping to schedule a bunch of surgery shit early nxt year so tht i can POSSIBLY b finished b4 my 30th bday #which means i might literally not work @ all nxt year nd just spend th whole thing recovering #BUT i ALSO need to stay n my union which means i need to work @ least once i think to qualify?? #might end up switching jobs to wfh if i can find one to try nd stay alive while jobless? idk man #idk theres so much stuff i DUNNO I DUNNOOOOO #ben dealing w having no insurance nd its stressing me out lmfao i hate america #imagine if i was a tattoo artist n 1.5 years instead of a fucking sweaty grunt lugging equipment back n forth on sets

[toastsnaffler]

its actually nuts how missing a single vaccination has shaped my entire fucking life. like not only would I not be deaf if I had gotten it on time but I probs wouldn't have adhd either 🫣

#like yeah I have a family history of adhd but im pretty sure the current model suggests u can be genetically *predisposed* but the actual- #development of adhd is thought to be closely linked to environmental 'triggers' like childhood stress or head injuries lol #or in my case brain trauma. fun fact: a suspected 62% of kids who survive hib meningitis later develop adhd symptoms #vs. 5% incidence in the general population..... #when I first heard that I was still in denial bc i thought of adhd as a 'natural' condition like ur just born that way #so if meningitis survivors displayed symptoms that didnt mean they were ACTUALLY adhd. except literally all adhd is- #is a collection of symptoms its not some tangible 'switch' thats flipped in some ppl and not others. maybe thats a rly obvious statement- #but I found it kinda hard to get my head around. i guess just bc of how a lot of psychology is viewed by the public innit #anyway being deaf + nd kinda fucking sucks yall better be jabbing ur babies with every vaccination possible or im coming for ur knees #its funny bc it sounds like im saying watch out !! vaccination may PREVENT neurodivergence NOT cause it !! #*andrew wakefield voice* u wouldnt want a child with autism #but thats not what i meaaaannn obvs ur kid not getting xyz disease that could kill them is the number 1 most important thing #its so cringe actually bc hib b incidence has been down to abt 2 in every 100 000 babies since the vax was introduced in 1985 #so I was one of like. probably less than 10 babies to get it in the fucking country and they misdiagnosed me a bunch of times #bc it was so uncommon + I had some rarer symptoms plus the only way to actually CHECK is to test spinal fluid which is a faff #if theyd realised earlier then i also wouldnt be deaf bc it wouldnt have been as severe. just a series of unfortunate events i guess #anyway. immunology is so fascinating i wish id focused on it more in my degree tbh #over and OUT #.diaries

[yo9urt]

happy :)

#mine #been talking to my crush more and more at work lately #getting to know each other a little bit #on thursday he told me he hasnt picked a major but he considered art #today i asked him a little more about it and he said hes good at it and i wanted to be like wow tell me more but we were at work #so i didnt rly get a chance #but he also said he was thinking about english major which is so cute to me i love eng majors they are my best friends forever #he said he writes too which is like. I Want To Know More. #also the english major thing is a good sign because it could mean 1. he reads & 2. he MIGHT be capable of critical thinking #and media literacy #i could not date someone who did not have those things. #i think hes been coming out of his shell on our shift and around me in general lately which is really nice #i am trying to do the same im trying to say hi and bye more often and hold conversations with him #BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE HIM!!!!!!! and i want us to bond #i kind of had a feeling that he had a silly guy side under the surface and i was right he has some silliness to him #also me and my other coworker chatted for a bit and we talked ABOUT him at one point (2nd week in a row) #and i just RURRRUGGHGHHGHGHHGHG. i want him #he lives rent free in my mind. #having a crush is so dumb. i saw him on my first shift today and when i came back for my 2nd shift (he doesnt work that one) #i was stressed cause its a busy shift and we had a fuckload of people coming ina nd eating all our fucking food #and then in my head there was that part of my brain that was like. think about him smiling #and i literally calmed down and smiled a little to myself just from thinking that. COME ON #AM I 14? COME ON. #so embarrassing. #i like him so much though #i wish he was my boyfriend im going to jump into the lake

[consciouschunkofmoss]

screaming my lungs out why do people make subtitles completely different from the actual audio ?? the fuck is wrong with you

literally thats so fucked on so many levels and im just plainly tired

#please let me watch a video with proper subtitles who are not seemingly pathetic attempts at fixing your script post-production #just let me actually know what the fuck is going on #bc otherwise its just a new milestone towards making it even more needlessly difficult to understand your shit #also i know its not my place to say that as fiercely as im not disabled in such a manner #but for those who truly cannot have access to the audio i think its pretty gross of you to change the entire structure of your words #even if to fix how linear and coherent your video is #why would you choose to do that when you Know that the main demographic of people who use captions are solely dependent on it #there is no excuse to cut entire pieces of your commentary to add ''smarter'' takes when you could just. do what youre meant to #(on the terms of this specific task. if youre so set on doing it) #which is just pass down the words one by one without changes ! #literally i am so on edge because that stresses me out so much #im not sure if im just being mean on this subject #because i do know there is *a lot* of work around developing fully working and well timed captions to a video #(specially if its long like those essay types) #but dude i dont want to get a headache every time i try to watch a video and fight for my life to understand the whole context to it #to which a nt person already has complete access to #its frustrating how this manner of editing never seems to have nd/disabled people in mind when exercising it on an actual video #(sorry for repeating video a lot. im not sure what else to use)

[uwooyoungs]

in other news my eye twitch finally seems to be gone!!!!!

#that literally stuck around for like a month i was starting to think it was just a permanent Thing #nd i almost called my doctor abt it bc it deadass just Wouldnt go away #BUT it only twitched once yesterday and (i think) it hasnt today!!! #so we're good!!! #thank fuck honestly. im abt to be in stress mode again soon tho so. we'll see how long this peace lasts #i cant even tell u how annoying the twitch was bc there were days when it was nearly Constant #and its not like it hirt but GOD it was annoying... not being able to control the muscles around my eye... fuckin obnoxious #have never had such a persistent twitch before #and tbh idk that its fully gone bc altho the top lid isnt twitching i sometimes look in the mirror and notice my lower eyelid twitching #even tho i cant feel it

[giverofempathy]

honestly feeling horrible rn hkfkrowjedn i feel like the world is crashing down on me

#its too much !!! #i thought i was gonna have quite a bit of time to sew the mockups #but they all need to be done next thursday #nd we dont have class this friday + monday bc easter i guess #and im still drawing the fucking patterns 😭😭 #salisha speaks #im gonna draw thw circleskirt at home tonight i dont give a fuckkkl ill sneak it into class #and then tomorrow HAS to be the last day of pattern drawing otherwise i just wont make it 🥲🥲 #and then i need to trace everything into useable patterns and cut it all out #which always take so much fucking time ☹️☹️☹️ #and then i need to sew it all together... #if i dont make it im gonna be so sad i just wanted to make all the deadlines for fucking once #and i cant do anything at home bc thats obviously not allowed #so im stressed oh my god im gonna have to sew so fast #basically one garment in a day then it should be fine #all i can do is try but its giving me so much stress 😭😭😭

[king-sassy08]

U will have like 364 good days where u eat shit every fucking day and nobody gives a fuck and then one day where u snap and flip someone off or say fuck off and it is the only thing that anyone ever remembers about you and ur a terrible person and everyone hates you always for being such a shitty fuck without even knowing ur like so fuckinf depressed ur like THIS fucking close to just kicking the fucking bucket

#jay jabbers #aardrrggghhhh i eat shit every fucking day im still eating shit im fucking shovelinf it down my throat i wanna fucking die #irrelevant i guess im just angry for no fucking reason apparently its not like the stress and the grades and the homework and the social pr #essure and the family and rhe money and the sexuality and the graduation nd the crippling fucking diseases are eating me alive or anything. #im totally fine #im so fucking normal right now im so fucking normal right now im so fucking normal im so fucking normal im so fucking normal im s #being told u r not crippled enough because u dont look crippled does not affect me in any fucking way and im so normal about it im so fucki #AAAAGGGHHHHHH!!!!!! #mel blanc screaming

[silenthillbunni]

🦭

#ok lol my social worker called me nd talked a little but so now i know they've approved it lmao. #ok i can relax abt that for now.. i still need a job tho 🥶 #im not even against having a job like PLEASE i want one #i want to be financially independent #im good at saving nd stuff like plz plz #but yeah im 25 w no experience plus i have avpd so idek how to practically find a job #i just dont know. i realize that sounds stupid but my disorder is ssly limiting me 😭 #fuck. still dont know if i can sleep bc im so stressed abt everything #also got me thinking abt how i dont wanna get old. like genuinely i dont want it #i want to be 50 max nd thrn im done. wnna blow my brains out lol #after my mom passes away (when shes old it's gonna be at least 40 more years!!!!!) im finished #so i want to live for the moment i rlly do. i want to fit as much good as i can now #plus global warming.. i rlly dont think life as we know it now will last that long #so anyway.. too much anxiety wtfffff idk what to do lol

[junkie-virus]

rlly feeling izzys “EKE by” speech rn

#ro rambles #i too am a small angry bastard. #but mostly its bc my teacher is trynna ?? not follow my 504 plan cuz im late too much. #which i mean yeah i agree that my lateness is a bit of an issue (though i still get my fuckin work done) but its almost like. #thats another part of why i having the fucking plan in the first place #almost like hmm.. maybe theres something that gives me issues w time management(/blindness/) & also is linked to issues w sleep 🙃 #been stressed out of my mind w school + nearby shark week hormones... worst concoction on fucking earth #& even those that share my stress are calling me lazy or treating me like i dont care or try #alternative being. idk just try harder ig. #my friends r supportive but sometimes it just hurts to be told to ‘do your fucking work!!’ & ‘/ro/‘ like omg never considered #usually im fine w it but recently ive also been kinda overwhelmed so. anger. #izzy was so real like fighting for ur fucking life while ppl around u r totally nonchalant abt the mess that’s happening but u /have/ to #solve it bc its stressing u out & they say they got it but it doesnt seem like it !!! & tgen u try & they get mad at u #but also the people are just not trying to solve it at all & they r just blaming u. #ur supposed to solve it. #the answer of what im solving is my fuckin mental health or ability to graduate idk #like ive been struggling to upkeep my grades & pass & do work & be Good Enpugh for fucking YEARS but noooo ive been doing so GOOD i just #CHOSE to stop doing good & Being Normal. #ugh sorry nd frustration. #every year school starts again i KNOW ill be burntout like a month or even less in & every year i attempt to prepare myself #& every year i am never prepared and get my fucking shit rocked #but hey ive made it this far. in the home stretch.

[ginkgo-phyta]

I'm back again 😅

Hopefully, I'm not the only person with this opinion, but how do you think Spencer would react if his significant other told him that they thought he looked hot with his bulletproof vest on? 👀

omg is this injured spencer request anon?? I NEED TO KNOW im so sorry if it's not tho, whoever you are thank you so much for coming back!! i love you with all my heart you should use a special emoji as like ur own lil signature! :D

okay so i wanted to try blurb(?) format but mmm okay not really cuz just a wall of text was stressing me out but this is def more informal than my other work (look no capital letters!) and because i love you so much i present two scenarios for you :P... i cant fight this feeling anymore guys he rlly is so hot in his vest im becoming my most feral self grrrrr RAH RAH ALRIGHT hope you enjoy, my love!

OKAY SO SPENCER REACTING TO YOU TELING HIM HE'S HOT IN HIS FBI VEST gn! reader, fluff, second scenario a little steamy in tone but nothing explicit just h*rny vibes, no other warnings

if you weren't a profiler: you'd never thought about it before- spencer in his bulletproof vest. sure, you knew that his job required him to go into sticky situations where the prospect of gunfire was imminent and he would have to wear proper equipment, but you never put two nd two together. you never even thought of a kevlar vest as something that could be hot...until you saw a picture of him wearing it.

"what the hell is that." you blurt out, voice serious with hints of concern.

"huh?" spencer's as clueless as ever, a little worried about your reaction. he was just showing you random photos his team members had taken over the years, all printed out for easy viewing courtesy of the ever-so-accommodating penolope garcia. someone had taken a pic of a beautiful lake where the bau had saved yet another victim, the sun dipping below the horizon line of pine trees, painting the sky purple and pink. "um...the sunset?" spencer was confused, "i guess maybe it was kinda a weird time to take a photo, but no one was hurt and we caught the unsub and the sky really did look-"

you cut off his rambling with a wave of your hand, eyes never leaving the photo in front of you, "no, no...what's that." you point to what you were talking about, a figure standing off to the side.

spencer takes a minute, becoming even more bewildered "...me?" in that moment your world changed.

"oh my god... "you whispered in a daze, firmly pulling the picture out of spencer's fingers and into your own, "what...what are you wearing?"

"honey what's wrong? it's just my bulletproof vest. i know it might look a little funny, but it, y'know, keeps me alive..." he scratches the back of his neck. a couple seconds of silence pass, but to spencer it feels excruciatingly long.

"spencer," you look at up at him deadpan "you look so fucking hot." to say your boyfriend was shocked would be an understatement.

he was absolutely blown away by your response, so much so that the way his face contorted looked borderline disgusted. "wha-what?? huh? what?" he clamored, eyes flitting over your face to find any sign you were joking.

"seriously, baby, you look so good. oh, my God!!" you almost shriek, gripping the picture tighter, the widest, dumbest grin pulling up your cheeks as you giggle like a schoolgirl.

spencer smiles at your reaction, still a little perplexed "you really think so?" the notion begins to sink into his bones, making him giddy.

you very enthusiastically nod your head, "are there any more pictures of you like this?" you rip the rest of the photos out of spencer's hands, scouring through them at light speed. out of nowhere, spencer laughs out loud, his nose scrunching in delight.

"i...don't know what to say. i'm flattered you think that," a wonderful blush shimmers over his cheeks, "but no i don't think there are. sadly." he playfully adds.

you stop all movements, slowly turning towards him, suspiciously calm. "well then," you grab your phone and suddenly stand up "looks like i'll just have to ask penelope for some!"

"wait! wait, no!" spencer calls after you as you start speed-walking away, your shirt barely escaping his fingertips. he yells out your name, his serious tone interrupted by a giggle of his own as he begins chasing you, "get back here!" he knows: garcia can never ever find out about this...

if you were a profiler: you had seen spencer don his FBI branded bulletproof vest hundreds of times over the years. although you had pined over him for years and were now finally in a relationship with him, seeing him like that didn't make you feel any type of way really. sure, you thought he looked strong and handsome, but most of the time you were too caught up in the case or situation at hand to focus on how he looked. until now. something had shifted in him in the last few months, not just with his ever-changing haircut, but within the way he held himself; more confident, more sure of himself, even more cocky, if you will. whatever it was, it drew your eyes to him in his tight little vest like a lightbulb draws in moths- instantly and continuously. it all came to a head when you caught the unsub responsible for drowning and resuscitating his victims until they couldn't be brought back to life. spencer dove into the lake with emily to apprehend the killer while you had helped the kid he had hostage reunite with his mother. you smiled at the scene in front of you, the teenager running into his mother's shaking arms, her holding him close in a tight embrace. another good ending, you thought to yourself before turning back to watch your fellow profilers make the arrest. suddenly, you mouth goes dry. there spencer reid stood; soaking wet, clothes sticking to his skin, chest rising and falling as he panted to catch his breath, his hand pushing his wet hair out of his face. and that stupid, goddamn kevlar vest. oh, fuck. the others walked away from the dock to situate everyone and themselves in respected vehicles that sat back on the road a few hundred feet away from where you currently were. as spencer moved to follow behind emily, hands trying to flick the water off of him, your gaze stopped him in his tracks. he stood there, a bit confused as to why you were walking towards him, seemingly entranced, instead of beelining behind everyone else.

he spoke out your name, but you remained silent, stopping just a couple feet away from him. you took him in one more time: the way his shirt became translucent, granting you with peeks of his skin; his sleeves rolled up, showing off his delicious forearms; the way his soaked pants choked his thick thighs. you became woozy with desire. spencer watched as your eyes dragged over his figure, drinking in every inch of his dripping body. "oh, baby..." you voice drawled out as soon as your gaze landed on his bulletproof vest, "you're absolutely soaking wet." spencer's eyebrows shot up his forehead at the suggestive twinkle in your timbre. you approached him further, chest just inches away from his. if he wasn't so intrigued by your reaction, he would have been a bit more cautious of lingering teammates. your hands came up to ghost over his vest, "did i ever tell you how good i think you look in this?" you looked up at him through your lashes.

spencer chuckled, "in the bulletproof vest?" you nodded in response, but spencer still couldn't really believe it. "uh, no, actually, you haven't." his eyes glinted at the way you bit your lip, his hands moving on their own accord to rest on your hips. you could feel droplets of water seep into the material and lick your skin, but you didn't give a rat's ass.

"well, you do." you whisper, hands wrapping around the back of his neck as you pull yourself up to press a kiss to his lips, "really, really good." your mouth moves enticingly with his.

"oh? is that so?" he whispers against your lips, diving back in, his fingers digging in your hips. he graciously kisses you for a moment before it dawns on him that you're both still at work- in an active crime scene, at that. "mmh, mmh!" he vocalizes between kisses as he tries to move his head back a smidge. his eyes peak open just enough to see if anyone else was around. your lips are addicting, rendering him unable to fully tell you to stop, unable to fully pull away himself. he's relieved when he spots no one. still, he know this is far from appropriate. spencer's hands move up your body to wrap around your wrists behind him, pulling them away from him and the same time he pulled away from you, "okay, okay!" he breathes out with a chuckle, "i believe you now" he tries to catch his bearings, but your pouting face causes him to laugh again

"spencerrrr," you groan at the loss of your beloved's kisses and he turns you around and pushes you towards the spot where the others vanished, walking behind you with his hands on your shoulders, your body held at an arm's distance.

"let's go, angel." his words brought out a hmph! from you. "we can do more of that later at home" he whispers, leaning in ever-so-slightly.

you turn your head back to get a glimpse of him, your eyes and smile equally wide with excitement, "can you bring the vest with you?!"

A/N: OKAYYYY lemme stop myself before things get filthy LOL do yall know which episode im referring to in the second scenario? that end scene will always get me my eye are GLUED to spencer the entire time GODDAMN. okay anyway i hope you liked this anon!!! pls tell me yalls thoughts <3

#spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds #spencer reid fanfiction #criminal minds fanfiction #spencer reid imagine #spencer reid smut #spencer reid x y/n #spencer reid x you #dr spencer reid #matthew gray gubler x reader #criminal minds fic

[moodywyrm]

sighs dreamily,, sevika with a short chubby gf. im rlly self serving here but when is it my turn???

ND SHES SO POSSESSIVE i’m going to combust. like she would be all for you showing off your curves but if anyone even looks at you they’re gone. nd she keeps you on her lap at the last drop, one hand squishing your thighs while she holds her cards in the other bc she just loves having her own personal stress ball,,

looooord and imagine being away for work for the day, coming to visit her at the last drop,, walking in wearing a cute miniskirt and one of her sweaters bc its huge and comfy (have you SEEN her muscles there’s no way her non-work clothes wouldn’t be baggy). and she sees you, she immediately gets up, walks over, and wraps a protective arm round your waist and death glaring anyone who was just glancing your way. sitting you on one of her thighs with her goddamn manspread, kissing your neck as she plays god i need to sit down

ohhhhhh my god. I've been thinking about sevika so much lately, especially bc @sevikasimp has been posting the bartender sevika content that is making me go ahhhHHHHHHHHHHH.

so in the wise words of Emi: Sevika Loves Thick Women. And if your short?? Baby she's in love. She absolutely teases you for being shorter than her, but she loves it. And she is possessive!! Because she knows your gorgeous and she knows Zaun can be scary!! And here you are, her sweet girl, fully capable of holding your own but she wants to protect you!

Thinking soooo much about sitting on her lap while she's playing cards in The Last Drop. You're wearing a miniskirt that she bought you, a short black thing with a laced-up slit + one of her sweaters that she only ever wears inside your apartment + some chunky boots bc Zaun requires the chunky boots. And you stomp stomp stomp into The Last Drop, bee-lining for Sevika at her table in front of the bar.

She saw you the second you walked in, but she has a reputation to maintain so she can't get all mushy and sappy like she always does when she sees you </3. That doesn't mean she won't be touchy! She won't go all mushy, Rottweiler gf, but she will let you cling to her and show her affection if you want to. Because the second you walk up to her, she is hauling you onto her lap and placing on harsh smack on your thigh before groping and soothing the flesh. The feel of you on her lap, the softness of your ass and thighs on her muscled legs, is borderline euphoric.

Sevika keeps you there, propped up on her lap, as she plays and she tries soooo hard not to melt at the way you cuddle into her. You're all snuggled into her neck, one of her arms a sturdy weight around your waist, and you're on the verge of sleep. And who can blame you!! Because she's also kneading at the fat of your tummy, your thigh, wherever her hand can reach without having to fully detach from your waist. And every now and then she whispers lil complements to you and places little kisses on the top of your head. Plus!! I know she takes care to smell good for you. She uses a really suave unisex perfume that smells kinda like the energy of a speak easy? A little smoky? A little boozy sweet? A little masculine, cologne type scent? Do you know what I mean? She smells fucking good is what I'm saying! And She can tell you're completely at ease with her, and she's on cloud nine: winning at cards with a pretty girl on her lap, all for her <3

Anyone who even tries to bother her or talk shit about the way you're clinging to her gets the worst mean mug of their life and, once you're awake enough to go get a drink on your own, gets the shit kicked out of them in the alley next to The Last Drop <3 no one makes her girl feel bad <3 ever <3

#anon #arcane sevika #sevika x reader #sevika fluff #sevika x reader fluff

[frigigly]

Luz Noceda will always be such a special character to me because i relate so. 👏 damn. 👏 hard. 👏 to her fucking insecurities and like. the way she just does not have a healthy sense of morals??? specifically pertaining to herself.

And like the wayyyy its so intimately connected to her negative experiences at school and how she's been treated by the authority figures in her life, especially after her dad died.

She never says it but you can tell the way her school treated her has really fucked her up mentally, especially in her own image of herself. She defaults so so so quickly to blaming herself for every negative thing that honestly is just happening around her in the show. Like belos only takes interest in her because shes the only other human on the boiling isles, and he tries to manipulate her *so* hard, and its so easy for him to hit her where it hurts becuase luz already has so many traumatic and stressful things going on around her (that he caused) and because she's always internally blaming herself for everything anyway.

The way she's so nd coded, and the way she's so clearly been taught to assume she's doing things wrong, in the way so many nd kids and adults are pressured. She has no things she's actually done wrong in the show other than like the one time she lied to amity, and shes shown no behaviour that would elicit such reactions from anybody, but from just the first episode and what we saw in the flashback everyone was so awful to her for no good reason, just for having interests??? and being open about it???? and her school fully seemed to label her as a problem child for it, over the smallest things. I don't care if she was creating some disruptions in her classes thats no reason to treat her like that.

After all of that treatment how could it not have affected her in some way? How can she not think there's something wrong with her after all that? The way she has only ever been shown that it's *her* that needs to change, it's *her* who's wrong, it's *her* who's the bad person here. And it's so easy for her to believe it and start isolating herself because of it. The way it directly has a hand in negatively affecting her relationships too its just ughhhh.

Anyway im not sure where i was going with this but Luz Noceda is an amazing character and the owl house is amazing, and the way the modern education system treats children and the way society treats nd people in general is evil bye.

#the owl house #luz noceda

[uwooyoungs]

is it a migraine? is it stress? is it a cold? or am i just fuckin depressed 🤔

#current vibes are ✨bad✨ all around #i feel like my head got bashed by a brick but also i feel nauseous but also i think im dehydrated #but also im v stressed and unmotivated #im having a Bad time and i v much need some1 to help me adult just for like 3 days or i might rly fall apart #also i fuckin miss having Time i havent seen my horse in like 2 weeks and i MISS him #and im so horrendously out of shape bc well one im lazy and hate working out but also bc i am so fucking TIRED #i feel overall just fuckin terrible nd i Know i need to get a fuckin grip and Do smth about it #but i wanna like. not. #also therapy is expensive and frankly not in my budget at all rn so 🫡