things that have happened in the past day and a half:
- got diagnosed with bipolar 2 rapid cycling and have to go up on my anti-psychotics
- found out my bpd diagnosis is now a mixed personality disorder with emphasis on bpd traits (psyche did not explain further than that, i see my therapist next week thankfully)
- a client made me cry yesterday because they kept talking about how shitty of a job i did on her dog the last two times and was just being so mean for no reason (understandable if she didn't like my work, it happens, but why bring the dog back to me?? just to put me down?)
- my boyfriend's parents don't seem to like me all that much or are uncomfortable around me, they don't want me sleeping over there anymore because last time i was too loud (he is currently living with them). the neurodivergent struggle of poor volume control yknow? his mom was really weird about it when he asked if i could sleep over tonight and got into an argument with her and i feel bad for being the kinda-cause of it. it sucks but i was also always that "my mom said i can't play with you anymore" kid and my ex's parents didn't like me either so it's more of a "yeah that tracks" rather than a "my feelings are hurt and i'm really upset"
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Honestly the cliche advice is true. If you fill your life w things you’re passionate about, if you challenge yourself every day, if you give your own opinion of yourself more weight than you do other people’s opinions of you, you will actually thrive. Like no one can tell u anything
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in the club straight up squandering it. and by it i mean. my potentioal
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🖤🩶I hope every asexual has a good day today🤍💜
💚🤍I hope every aromantic has a good day today🩶🖤
I hope anyone who comes into the notes to say something like 'why can't you just wish everyone a good day?' has a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.
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crazy how in c2 they'll have three extensive convos checking in with each other while traveling like an hour in-game meanwhile in c3 they've been on the moon for days and still haven't discussed the following:
laudna fucking ate a guy
imogen's mom is a mythical legend amongst the enemy
orym vs. laudna's response to imogen giving into predathos
how did chetney suddenly learn to make hypnotizing toys
delilah briarwood
"some of us are expendable, we should get captured"
anything and everything they said during the trust exercise, including but not limited to:
laudna not being able to distinguish her thoughts from delilah's
imogen's disgust at delilah's inevitable presence
chetney's fear that his new family will leave him
orym's feelings about dorian
fcg relieving stress through murder
fearne's insecurities about their chances of success
ashton's guilt about the shard
and more!
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had a mental health crisis at work and i'm home and safe but god. sometimes i'm just reminded that i am a genuinely mentally ill person and that it's going to follow me around my whole life until i die.
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One thing I’ve noticed about people in or entering their 30s is they don’t make as many compromises anymore. If someone doesn’t meet them halfway, is not up to standard, is just not where they’re needed to be, they’re just like “ok cool” and they move on from the person. Which is not to say they’re less empathetic or understanding, but more that they have learned that time is their most prized possession and they’re not willing to make massive compromises on it. They are not obsessed w the idea of fixing someone (bc the concept of fixing a person doesn’t really exist). They simply move on to someone who is up to par. I want that. I want to always move w the awareness that time is my most priceless belonging and I can never buy it back. Ever. So I have to use it wisely
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you know what? if you see this; would you mind sharing something nice from your day with me? it doesn’t have to be big. but i would love to hear it!
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My Emet stuff already gets comments like "idk who's this cunty loser but I approve of this". Good, good. I shall use the power of my art transcending fandoms to give you one simple life-changing tip. Come closer, listen. Play the critically acclaimed MMORPG Final Fantasy XIV with an expanded free trial which you can play through the entirety of A Realm Reborn and the award-winning Stormblood expansion up to level 70 for free with no restrictions on playtime. It will hurt you and rewire your brain, and there are old mans to be fucked.
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I think there's a genuine conversation to be had about how aro spaces have begun pushing QPRs in a similar way that amatonormativity pushes romantic relationships onto people but a majority of aros just refuse to engage in the discussion because they see it as an attack on QPRs or people saying QPRs are romantic relationships lite instead of actually looking at the fact it's critiquing how some Aros have begun pushing it almost like an alternative to romance and something all Aro's want.
No one is saying QPRs are bad but rather that there is too much push that the idea of a QPR will fix people's problems. "oh you're lonely? just find a QPR!" "You dont have to be in a romantic relationship you can be in a QPR!" "QPR is MORE than friendship" etc etc.
There's a genuine critique here of QPRs being used to continue to push amatonormativity by again assuming that every aro wants a partner - even if not romantic - and I think we can have a genuine conversation about this rather than going at each other throats over a fake argument of "QPRs bad"
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have discovered that i can just sit down on the ground whenever i want and often people's reactions will just be "man i wish i could do that". you can. join me
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Don’t look for a reaction out of me because I don’t got it for nobody. When I say I’m not dealing with no negative energy, I meant exactly that.
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