#negativity tw

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

[kryptonfuture]

I've had a shitty year, to put it bluntly.

Between hospital visits for myself, my partner, related to diabetes and self harm attempts. My financial situation has been weak as shit as is, but having to be out for all of that has been wildly worse.

I'm like 5k behind on rent. I'm trying to catch up on things, but I'm currently between jobs and ready to pull my own fucking hair out trying to get responses.

I'm not begging, I'm not demanding, but if anyone is ever willing and has the extra scratch to spare, and I emphasize only if you can, because as it stands I have no way to pay anyone back:

cashapp: $shifterfree venmo: @Charles-Goodwin-61 paypal: @shifterfree

#ooc #negativity tw #idk what to tag #im having an astronomically bad time

[aetherknit]

i know we're all trying to move forward, but its been a few days and i'd like to speak more clear-headedly on the subject: with regards to Dream, i think its... extremely unfair to warp those exiting the fandom as suffering from some kind of "mob mentality." this isnt a result of misinfo or fearmongering -- in general, i think ex-dtblr bloggers fall on a wider spectrum than people believe wrt whether Dream is a bad person and how guilty he is.

although i can only speak from my experience/feelings, the thing that tipped this into "i really need to leave" territory, even though things still seem like a gray area to some with the trial in the air, is that this is very much an issue that can only exist because of Dream's platform, his fan community, and (as he noted in his twitlonger) parasocialism. i think many of us were put in a position where we realized a victim came forward, and our kneejerk reaction was that we didnt WANT to believe her, and that was an appalling thing to confront.

it all fell into perspective for some of us who have defended Dream tooth and nail in the past: how damning would something have to be before we believed it? really, in this situation, the only thing we could do was withdraw active, public support. sure, sure, parasocialism is to blame; if that's really the case, we all needed the wake-up call 😭 a lot of us have been through this song and dance with former creators -- blind faith only gets you so far before we have to remember ourselves.

#i think people misconstrue the fact that dtblr was cultivated by its long-time members into something negative #in reality a lot of us have just known each other so long that we ended up being some of the pillars of the space and #some things we think similarly on because in the past weve pushed and argued and changed each others minds #<- that part is just my biased perspective though obviously everyone is entitled to their own biased view LOL #.txt #dream situation #negativity tw #long post

[compassionatereminders]

(Venting, please feel free to delete)

What hurts the most is not being anyone’s priority. Everyone in my life who cares about me, there’s someone else who comes first. Someone else they’d drop me for in a second if it was between me and them. Hell, my own fucking therapist told me I can’t expect to be a priority to anyone. What the hell am I supposed to take from that? Other than that I’m just a placeholder until something better comes along, nobody would miss me, it doesn’t matter if I live or die because everyone else has their own lives and other people who are actually important to them. How the fuck can anyone say they care, if that’s the case? If I’m only a “nice addition” to your life, and something you could easily do without if you had to because you’ve someone else filling that “actually important person” position, then what’s the point? How can I matter? The only people I’m fucking “special” to, I’m only special to them because they can use and abuse me for their own gratification.

I. Don’t. Matter. Fundamentally. Nobody does, that’s why we need each other, to feel like someone cares about us as people and like our lives are worthwhile because of that. Anyone who says any different is lying.

I just want to be genuinely loved by someone dammit.

I'm actually of the opinion that: 1. Everyone should be their own first priority. Both me, you, and everyone else shouldn't be expected to sacrifice their own health to be something for someone else. 2. Love isn't a competitive hierarchy with just one valid relationship at the top. People can care about you AND other people without faking any part of it. 3. You don't have to always be liked the very most to be liked. 4. There is in fact a lot of connection to be found in between the extremes of "they wouldn't care if I died" and "they'd do literally anything for me." 5. So while you can and should expect to be A Priority in some capacity, acting like a relationship is inherently fake if you aren't The Only Priority 24/7 isn't great.

#chat with kat #self hatred tw #negativity tw

[briankang]

ok since y'all are ok with it i can finally let this out like. i've always actually been pretty lenient with jae and tried to give him a lot of grace because he was going through a lot but after the concert the other night i've decided if i ever see him it's on fucking sight because. what do you mean wonpil on nye of 2021 (when jae announced his leave) said on bubble he didn't want to do things to ruin day6's reputation and didn't want to do things to make my days ashamed. what do you mean he took on 132 schedules in less than 3 months because he wanted to keep day6's name alive. what do you mean brian had things lined up from the minute he got out to do the same thing and was to the point where he was scheduling his day in by the minute and practicing his bass IN THE CAR.

because that means you're telling me they thought jae would be there to keep the name alive, to be there for them, and he just...fucking left them there to deal with it themselves? AND was creating issues to bring a bad name to them? that means you're telling me he left them to fend for themselves and the group and they all thought their careers were OVER and the show they did in before pandemic was like...it for them because of it? that they were struggling so badly and overburdened themselves that they couldn't even hide it from one another and bringing it up made them CRY on stage as sungjin THANKED THEM because he felt so much guilt for them having to ALL while having his own issues and was struggling????? that they all waited to sing zombie together and would refuse to sing it until then and jae's ass just...did it himself AND HE DIDN'T EVEN WRITE ON THE DAMN THING????????

and this is all while jae's fans will sit there and go after brian for daring to be on a fucking twitch stream to promote his album and mock him and say (derogatory) he's just the perfect golden boy because that was jae's thing/site and jyp didn't let him do THAT!!! huh. i wonder why!!!! like cry me a fucking river dude!!!!!!! if i see his little gamer ass out in the streets it's on SIGHT i cannot FATHOM doing that to people i supposedly care about. then again i suppose that's not new considering how sungjin used to get upset bc he'd be gaming loud as FUCK at god knows what hours while they were all trying to sleep and even bought him SOUNDPROOF PANELING and jae still made a shitty remark about it on a stream about being told to be quiet in his own house LIKE YOU HAD ROOMMATES YOU SHARED A WALL WITH THAT MAN!!!! ohhh my god. anyways. my grace giving period is over i hope he continues to flop forever

#tay talks #negativity tw #just in case.

[rpmemes-galore]

thank you, @staff, for somehow making the dashboard even worse. is this, like... a joke? like, are you guys actively going out of your way, snickering to each other in the boardroom, about how to make the worst possible changes just to see how far you can go? sure feels like it. 

#can you tell i'm not happy? #i logged back on for a minute to check something and this is what im greeted with #a messy horrible looking dash that's so overwhelming its making me panicky #my nuerodivergent brain can't process and handle everything going on. #i hate this so much #genuinely debating whether i even want to come back to this blog #and it has nothing to do with you guys or the content #but everything do with the fact that they keep changing things for the worse #and making everything so complicated and then i have to figure out how to use it all over again #and that's just extra stress my already overtaxed brain doesn't need #negativity tw #not a meme

[memovia]

Hey guys, it’s been a hot minute since I am on here to share my random ooc stuff or even write. This is a notice for my spotty activity and how it will continue to be spotty until I steady myself again. Of course, I will be lurking from time to time and work on drafts but this is my official notice for why my activity is so low.

heavy topics below, proceed with caution:

I got a new job & yes, my boss is very happy with how I’m teaching kids so far— which is good for me. But I am stressed out because he does not communicate the schedules of my work properly in which I have highlighted to him and hopefully, he understands where I’m coming from.

But not only that, he has been using my drawings to send to my colleagues, telling them to “stay humble”. It goes against my views and it frustrates me to no end, knowing that my art was a catalyst for putting people down. Art is never a competition to me and I believe that every artist has their own journey and own style. It is what makes art great, I love all art. But this was the opposite of everything I stand for, I had to message my colleagues individually to apologise and explain myself. But thankfully, they didn’t take it to heart and weren’t upset with me. But of course, it did make my anxiety spike— I did not want anyone to feel bad over their own progression because of me.

He also talked down to us in several meetings and told us we were “nothing” in the industry— that’s why we were “here”. I don’t even know why he said that but that wasn’t very motivational for me and the rest of the staff.

All I can say is, I’m stressed out thinking about these things— while I do like teaching people how to draw, I really cannot stand my boss’ ethics. It’s very hard for me to go to a class without any information given to me, and I don’t want to let the kids down by going in blind. I’m scared that people will be upset with me and I don’t want any work politics happening because of me. Who knows how much sleep I’ve lost over these thoughts— I’ve only been here for less than a month, I don’t know if I’m able to judge this company accurately but it is sad to say that I don’t foresee myself staying long.

I’ve also recently lost two friends to heart related diseases and have tried to take some time for myself. I visited their graves last Sunday and it broke me. So young, below mid 30s, their attitudes were larger than life— they loved living and they were taken away so early.

I don’t know how to describe this feeling but it is like an empty space in my heart that can never be filled again. One of them was a senior of mine in school, and they are one of the reasons I draw till today. She used to draw together with me, we would exchange sketchbooks and return it to each other the next day.

I miss them very much.

But yeah if you’ve made it to the end of my ramblings— thanks for reading and I’m sorry it’s so long… I just needed to get it out. I will try to write or work on more things whenever I’m free, I just really miss writing and everything.

thank you for the wait as always. Love you guys and please take care. If you need me, you can dm me here or discord. Whichever works best for you, I might take awhile to reply and I hope that’s alright with you guys.

Big hugs and love,

R.

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TLDR:work stress and the loss of two close friends took me the fk out

#negativity tw #death mention tw #✧ ooc. | rest your heart. #I’ll be around sometime. #thank you everyone for the patience.

[spxcemuses]

TEMPORARY HIATUS. (read below pls)

(( i think i am going to stop RPing entirely for a long while. had some bad news happen in the family and it's really devastating me right now. Lost a loved one who was really close to me. i'm so sorry guys. i can't do this. i will be safe but i am not in the mental space for RPing/threads right now.

edit: okay i'm not sure exactly HOW long but it might be a few weeks or few months. not indefinitely though, i think. I need time to process and grieve.

#( spacing out. ) | ooc #negativity tw #death tw #. saved

[gracieryder]

Look.

If you watch the show for Buddie alone and both the content you’re currently getting and the official interviews upset you on a weekly basis, maybe watch something else until it actually becomes canon. 

You’re clearly not enjoying the show at the moment, and there’s no need to bring everyone else down with you. You’re making other people and the space itself miserable. Why take that into peoples’ inboxes and spam the fuck out of them just because you’re not having a good time?

It’s one thing to not love everything about the show and to have critiques, but some of y’all are so far beyond that and lack self-awareness to such a degree that it doesn’t even compute.

Just find something else to do, and come back when/if the show starts giving you what you want.

#this fandom is exhausting sometimes #911 discourse #negativity tw #mist speaks

[danderosa]

negative below the cut. mainly just a stream of consciousness, something I've been dwelling on for a while

let's cut right to the chase: I can't shake the feeling that something in this rpc has changed, and I'm not entirely sure I'm comfortable here right now. it's a whole mess of things, really, and I'm struggling to pin down exactly what is making me feel like this. my more paranoid side wants to dwell on the "oooooo everyone's been talking shit and secretly hates you", but I hope that's just silliness

maybe it's jealousy

maybe it's insecurity

maybe it's just general burnout, being bled dry by work so I don't have the same amount of time or energy to devote to my creative endeavours

maybe it's a bit of all three

no matter how you slice it, I'm just struggling to feel like I belong here and am getting a whole lot of ugly thoughts and feelings I'm not comfortable entertaining. I know people like my leon, and please don't interpret this as a goodbye because there's no way I'd ever abandon him, but I think I need to take an official hiatus or something. work on my mental health. softblock people I don't see my myself interacting with, maybe. I'd thought that remaking would have helped with these feelings, but... unfortunately it hasn't

I've been considering making some more casual, discord one-on-one spaces so I can write without the pressure of appealing to a public audience. a whole server is way too much to handle, but we'll see about the 1:1s

anyway, thanks for reading this far if you did. I'll still be on tumblr, just not in the pokemon fandom right now. I hope to be back on leon sooner rather than later, and will probably be answering/sending out the occasional ask to my beloved long-time mutuals who I have a strong connection (both ic and ooc) with, but longer threads and dash commentaries won't be a thing until I get out from under whatever this dark cloud is

#☆;; out of character #negativity tw

[memoir-of-stars]

In all seriousness, I made the mistake of watching the Aloy x Seyka kiss on YT and looking into the comment section. Of course the dudebros are freaking out again…

And like, tell me you didn’t understand the game without telling me you didn’t understand the game??

Like being mad that Aloy had 'no time for romance' and wouldn’t take any man…uhm, has the thought ever occurred to you that she maybe, just maybe simply didn’t like men??

Have you not played the game and noticed that Elisabet and Tilda were a thing??

How strange that her literal copy turns out to be gay as well mmh??

#aloy #seyka #aloy x seyka #burning shores #forbidden west #horizon forbidden west #hfw #next thing you know they’re gonna freak out if beta turns out to be into women as well #who would’ve seen that coming huh #rant over #negativity tw #I really try not to be that person but like too much sh*t #sabrina rambles

[darehearts]

hi glitter bombs if you're reading this and your mental health did a cha cha slide like mine today know that you are not alone and i love you so much  ♡

#asdfghjk i know a lot of my mutuals are going through a lot rn but!! #know that i think of you all on a daily basis-- i couldnt look at the dash #at work and now i have a terrible migraine to nurse but pls do consider #me liking and commenting on all your posts-- in spirit. somehow ;' )) #i'll try again tomorrow and hopefully actually get to do that. you all are #precious. sending lots of love. mwah! kirk out~ #tbd #vent tw #negativity tw #just in case

[neveragcd]

multi besties do you ever feel guilty for having too much muse for one (1) muse and neglecting the others? bc that’s where i’m at Always. and my brain says “make a new solo blog to remedy that” but i STINK at solo blogs. anyways. ANYWAYS. mwah <3

#ellie babbles. #negativity tw #kinda sorta not rly #but just in case

[compassionatereminders]

Love is not worth it. You think you love someone and then they deny your illnesses. It is not worth trusting anyone.

I refuse to give up on love. And I'm speaking as someone who went through TWO horrible unexpected breakups last year and still shakes at the thought of dating. Because while some PEOPLE definitely aren't worth it, and while some "love" definitely ISN'T actual love, I do think the real thing is out there

#chat with kat #negativity tw

[gay-jewish-bucky]

do you ever get a feeling that heyalma posted a wack-ass take? like you haven't checked in on them in a while but you just get this sense they've said something? and then you check their insta and they're still kvelling over the rich white woman/climate criminal who said she didn't care that her fling was an antisemitic, racist, Islamophobic piece of shit and she was the happiest she'd ever been in her life while she was with him?

like, you'd bring that into a jewish place of worship? are you for real???

#personcole #jumblr #anti taylor swift #heyalma nonsense #antisemitism #negativity tw

[mcgregor]

i know the new sw shows are never gonna be perfect, and we all got our beef with something, but i swear, y'all get upset about the smallest things sometimes...

#first thing i see on tumblr after watching the ep? #someone complaining about ahsoka having the anakin recordings #omg #who cares how she got them? #if all you do after watching the new episodes is make rant posts maybe you shouldn't watch the show at all #just saying #my rambling #ahsoka #star wars #negativity tw