#nelle rants

[all-about-the-tea-parties]

The haunting of hill house being about how the kitchen is the heart of the house, because that’s where we spend the most time together, and the red room is the stomach, and it’s where we spend the least time together, and how the place where you eat is where you love and when you haven’t been in home in a long while, you confuse being eaten for being loved

I mean how could you tell the difference? Your mother fed you and now your mother feeds on you and isn’t that what love is? If I can’t have the heart, I’ll have the stomach. That’s the way to the heart anyways. That’s where everything goes.

Food is everything and every child would be swallowed up by a wolf if it meant being everything to something.

Every child just wants to come home. Be welcomed home. Be called home. They’ll offer up space inside themselves to do it. Lonely and starving and wanting to prove they can share.

Nell hopes for coffee.

Luke buys burgers.

Theo eats with Shirley.

Shirley insists on family dinner.

Steven is an eater. He eats stories. (Stories live longer than people. Stories keep people alive).

Hill house makes eating sound cruel, to make the kids feel guilty for being hungry, to make them hungrier, and make them choose being eaten over eating.

But the kitchen is the heart of the house.

It’s where they eat. (where they give and take and share and keep and indulge and provide love).

Steven is shared stories, and in turn shares them.

Shirley makes family dinners.

Theo prefers to eat with her sister.

Luke fills someone’s stomach.

Nell is asked out for coffee.

#oh to be wake all night and rant about the haunting of hill house #the difference between love and possession #feeding someone and eating them #the haunting of hill house #netflix #nell crain #theo crain #luke crain #steven crain #shirley crain

[quiet-nocturne]

okay so I've been seriously considering participating in febuwhump for royai (because whump = royai, obv, and I've been itching to write some angst/hurt/comfort), and earlier I was screaming over the prompts because they're so royai. Also, there's one for bees (day 9), which I can totally do a scene inspired by the bee scene in xfiles (*cackles, screams, jumps for joy*), as I will never shut up about how royai and mulder/scully are coded the same.

anyway, I was freaking out about this to my husband, who has to Deal With All My Shit (™), and I was reading him the list of prompts and at day 16 (came back wrong), he goes, "'Came back wrong'? That's so fullmetal alchemist." And I was like "right?????"

The prompts are so good - "suffering in silence"? "Killing in self defense"?? "Blood stained tiles"??? "You weren't meant to be there"???? "Not allowed to die"????? Like, royai, hello??????? *flails* I'm thinking I'll likely do drabbles, between a few hundred words to max 1k, just to keep it concise and not burn out (especially because I'm hoping to do the royai big bang as well - and I'm planning to have all the prompts done for febuwhump finished before the end of january, so it won't overlap). If I did my usual 5-7k words for each day, I'd die lmao. Some self-preservation is needed.

anyway, febuwhump is likely imminent lmao. #feralroyaigoblin 🙋‍♀️

#slight rant #husband has adhd and i listen to him ramble about his own special interests plenty too thank you #and btw i've already decided to do it (this has been sitting in my drafts for a while) #riding this high of feral shipping for as long as possible (gotta keep away the depression some how lolol) #royai febuwhump2023 #nell speaks

[landosjpg]

do you ever just have a bad day and want to delete your whole existence

#like #i’m running on barely three hours of sleep #and i’m so exhausted all i want is to crawl up in a ball and cry #how can i. disappear. you know. #on top of the anxiety eating me alive i also feel so bad about myself today for no reason #not physically #more about my skills to do literary anything #which is much worse #pointer finger hovering over the delete post button for everything i’ve posted so far rn #what if i also quit my job #rant over #just needed to get this out #nell rambles ᝰ.ᐟ

[shvroyism]

maybe i should’ve acted like asoiaf book purists when the shadowhunters tv adaptation came out…that shit had way too many fans for a show where nobody in the cast could act

#just got angry all over again #ranting isn’t enough i need everybody involved in that monstruosity to suffer forever #to this day my body reacts negatively to seeing kat mcnamara’s face that girl could be out-acted by an extra in a disney channel movie #nell hates on people #also harry shum jr is never going to be magnus

[scumlafeccia]

tbh reading "rainbow families" in a political program for the upcoming elections makes me fucking sick to my stomach. you wrote "same sex couples" in the following line. talk like an adult ffs

#hanno anche usato l'asterisco nelle due righe sulla legge contro l'omolesbobitransfobia #solo in quelle righe #Italian radblr #lella rants #radfems do interact

[the-butch-of-blaviken]

I’m tempted to write about Philippa/Dijkstra next but am i fucked up enough to write about the contender for #1 most fucked up couple of the witcher universe like. Have i experienced enough things in life to write about this catastrophe of a ship (affectionate)

#and you’ll tell me yes but nell you wrote emhyr/dijkstra once and i’ll tell you YEAH WELL. #i don’t know how i churned out this fic. i don’t remember. maybe i was possessed #co rants

[thisghosts-obsessions-again]

The start feels like an amalgamation of Dracula and The Haunting of Hill House. AMAZING 🤩

#personal rant #spoiler #romance club #screenshots #screenshots spoiler #romance club your story interactive #screenshot #sharing the video because i missed the intro #rc lse #rc love sin and evil #they should have named mc as nell!

[nelllover]

Rewatching Gilmore Girls and i'm realizing just how much I love Rachel

Like JavaJunkie forever and everything but Rachel is such an interesting person and I can't help but wonder how her and Luke even started dating

Like no insult to Luke I love him but he's not exactly adventurous and he's not exactly the type to travel.

Anyway she's cool and kinda wish there was more of her

#I have no idea what to tag this as #gilmore girls #random rant #nell is obessed with gilmore girls tag

[just-about-nothing]

realizing anew that y.t. and nell are kinda the blueprint for how i think about cool women

i read snow crash first & like. wanted to live in y.t.’s world so badly like she’s still p much one of the coolest female characters in my book

what’s funny tho thinking about it is juanita’s approach to life has had the bigger influence on me. her & nell are really more like how i am. whereas y.t. is almost more like the sorta girl i fall for. dunno what that tells you about me

#i rant #yt from snow crash & nell from diamond age #juanita also from snow crash #this is miranda erasure but she is more of a mother figure which i am not #would i react (har har) like miranda if in her shoes? yah but that’s not the point #neal stephenson continued to write compelling female characters but imo none of em were as well rounded out #i read snow crash and diamond age at maybe 13ish? like they were the novels of my youth

[cloudiness]

Se leggo ancora la parola "queerbait" associata a Blanco & Mahmood rompo qualcosa

#e manco sono loro fan..non me me frega nulla di cosa combinano nelle loro vite o carriere ma la gente deve ripigliarsi dio santo #che discorso di merda è?!? queerbait di cosa!? se fossero uomo e donna ma amici nella vita cos'è 'heterobait'?! #se fossero due donne 'ah che bella la loro amicizia' visto che noi possiamo manifestare affetto ed essere solo amiche!? MA CHE CAZZZZ #eurovision #mahmood #blanco #esc2022 #eurovision 2022 #andate tutti a sdraiarvi su un prato e ricentrate i vostri cervelli #pls e thank you #finito il rant #andate in pace

[urcadelima]

thinking about how the opening paragraph of the haunting of hill house ends with “and whatever walked there, walked alone.” thinking about how eleanor’s last thoughts before killing herself are “why am I doing this? why am I doing this? why don’t they stop me?” and how so much of what happens to eleanor in hill house distances her from the others to the point where she thinks luke and theodora are conspiring against her and even forgets theodora’s name towards the end, completely unable to identify her. thinking about how eleanor asks “whose hand was I holding?” and is forced to realize the answer is no one’s. thinking about how the novel ends the same way as it begins, “whatever walked there, walked alone,” a “whatever” that now (or always?) includes eleanor. And then thinking about how the television show changed the last line to “those who walk there, walk together.” That’s not a ‘fix-it statement’ or a ‘happy ending,’ that’s a complete misunderstanding of the text.

#it’s about LONELINESS. not trying to cure that or solve it. not everything needs a solution. live in the damn feeling #you can’t claim to like the book if you won’t even feel what it wants you to feel. stop trying to put a band aid on it #it’s also spitting in shirley Jackson’s face. if so many of her novels are about her own loneliness and are used as an expression #of those feelings and of that loneliness #then for another writer to take her framing and write a happy story isnt uplifting or powerful #it’s a complete unwillingness to sympathize with her and the world she’s created #your story ends with the main character killing herself? no. she does so at the beginning and comes back to reassure everyone & save them #your story is about a group of strangers and the way their relationships are exacerbated by the house in under two weeks? #no. they’re siblings with complex pre-established relationships to each other and a unifying backstory #I’m usually willing to defend the show as it’s own piece of media separate and inspired by the book #but I’ll never forgive it for 1) making theo and nell sisters #(and yes I know theo is a lesbian but this shifts the dynamic from the main focus of the story to a side plot) #2) making a man the author of shirley Jackson’s words #3) having said man change those words— including the final lines suggesting that Jackson’s entire premise was flawed #people keep tagging my posts with that stupid quote as if it’s some kind of solution. Jackson could’ve done that and CHOSE not to. #rant over #author: Jackson #Shirley Jackson

[journalerthecricket]

forest legend au

Sun and Moon are both funny little creatures that live in a marshy forest. Sun is a Will-O-Wisp and Moon is (of course) mothman kinda thing.

also a kid gives them salt and they rob hikers of all glowy things

They befriend a kid (her name is Nell and I just made her up 3 days ago but I love her) who thinks they're cool and gives them salt and stuff (hush the salt is important I promise) and lives on the edge of their forest with her dad (Cason) who's a biologist and Does Not Believe in those legends thank you very much

(cue Nell stealing salt for Sun and Cason's just like: what do you need that much salt for? Nell: *continues shoveling salt in a bag* reasons Cason: o kay don't take all of it??? *finds the salt container empty later* )

anyways they're both just mischeivious little guys who trick people who come into the forest and mess with them (and steal all their shiny/glowy stuff because Moon likes it and why not) but they both love kids and actually help them instead of scaring them

Why salt? you ask

well if you add certain minerals/chemicals to fire, it will make it burn different colors, and because will-o-wisps are basically fireballs here, they feed on different minerals to sustain them

and the mineral differs depending on their color, for example, Sun, as a yellow will-o-wisp consumes salt (specifically NaCl aka table salt aka halite)

#my random rants #forest legend au #fnaf moon #fnaf sun #Nell (oc) #Cason (oc) #please i have so many thoughts #especially about sun #ohmygosh #do you even realize #moon likes glowy things #sun IS a glowy thing #it works perfectly #(not really important to the plot but-) #(also they're dating in this au) #(and have matching glow-in-the-dark ribbons around one of their wrists) #(because yes) #they have so many funny little glowy things #and salt #so much salt #I ALSO DREW THEM

[heromaker-if]

do you have any other ifs that we can read whilst we wait😭😭🫶🫶

Hi anon! Thanks for the ask and your patience! 🥰

I do have some other IFs that I worked on in the past but I don't recommend playing them (I was still learning how to write at that time, so they aren't great). But if you want some IF reccs, I can recommend some IFs I've read recently.

(Sorry for the tags friends, and for the rants!)

(Released) My all time favourite is The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - it's just genuinely so good and it always gives me the vibes of one of those shows you watch after dinner, that becomes part of your routine and you want to see desperately what happens after, and the characters become part of your memories, almost like people. It's just UGH such a good IF. If you like nostalgic hometown horrors, this IF is for you.

(Released) Very close favourite is Blood Moon by @barbwritesstuff - WEREWOLVES GUYS!! I've replayed this game so many times. It's one of those games that after you finish, no matter how long of a break you take from it, you always return to it. I love the "found family" of this game, even though it's not really found, it's just... family. I miss them! The romance in this story is also written so beautifully.

(Released) Another fav is The Golden Rose by @anathemafiction - it was one of my favs while it was still in WIP and after it's released I took so long to play it cause I never wanted to finish it. Like, I grew so attached to its story that I didn't want to let it go. 😭 Very well written characters and the descriptions of things, places, feelings, expressions, mannerisms, is so endearing and eye-catching, never a second where I skipped a line, I was CAUGHT. If you like a story with ominous beginnings, middles and ends, this is for you, not to mention the whole religion themes that are so interesting to dive into.

(Released) I miss this one so much but The Soul Stone War by @intimidatingpuffinstudios - there's two books out for this one already and each one is better than the previous. It's fantasy and about powers and there's a dragon lady that you can romance, and the POLY IN THIS IS BEAUTIFUL! Very soulmate-y romance and just generally captivating storytelling.

(Released) Nothing will ever hit the same as The Passenger by @the-passenger-if - there's just something so familiar, so memorable about this story. I don't think in my next lifetime I will ever forget it. It's about an eldritch horror battling with humanity and it's raw primal role as a monster. It feels short but only because you're so into it that time passes you by, but the tone and the flow of this story is very well done (as well as the characters! 🥰).

(WIP) I feel like everyone and their mothers know about Infamous by @infamous-if - but I'm going to talk about it anyways. It's a BAND IF, yes, music, yes, adrenaline, fame, and all the bad decisions that come with it. It's only one chapter out right now, but it's very worth it. I guarantee you the brainrot you will get from this game is going to consume your life.

(WIP) A somewhat popular one as well is Body Count by @bodycountgame - I haven't seen a game do the whole modern reality TV show with a tinge of horrifying brutal horror as well as Nell has, and even though it's still in its early stages, it's very well done and interesting. Lots of ROs to choose from, and genuinely funny humour to laugh about in between the crying sessions of a favourite character dying.

(WIP) Haven't heard that many people talking about this one to be fair but Chop Shop by @losergames - Also a very early stages game, but it's very adrenaline inducing and has so much potential that has me shaking in my seat. I'm already half in love with the cast and I can't wait to go need for speed and play a super chaotic individual.

Also any game by @hpowellsmith, they're amazing at creating consistent well written stories that have such great characters and even better representation. They do it so well, and I've been a fan of them for years now, definitely one of my role models!

I'm sure there are many more IFs out there that you NEED to play/read, but my mind is blank right now, and these are the only ones I could think of. I also don't have as much time to get into an IF, but I'm getting there (thinking of getting into Shepherds of Haven - which you should!)

#WOW THIS WAS LONG #sorry yall #ask #anon #other ifs

[thesefuckinggaypirates]

Um, can I rant about Renegade Nell for a sec? (spoilers below the cut)

When she robbed the fancy carriage and Polly fell in love, I was like 😱 omg is this going to be gay? And then she thought Nell was a guy, and I was like, oh yeah that makes sense. They're going to make it a joke. And then she becomes the ultimate fan girl and I'm thinking, okay well at least it's cute. Then she found out Nell was a lady and the look of bi panic on her face was perfection. And then the kiss?!! Like, it IS gay? I seriously felt the same tingles as the moment I realized they were going to let ofmd actually be gay. But also, now I'm afraid to lose this show too! I have so many feelings 😭 Thank you for coming to my rant.

#renegade nell #disney plus

[shvroyism]

This stupid shit appeared on my fyp and i wanted to throw up

#in this house we HATE moms #there is nothing in this world that i hate more than moms #except for people that keep insisting that you should love your mommy no matter what #fuck you #nell rants #nell hates on people #nell hates on moms

[blogitalianissimo]

mahmood aveva proprio detto in un'intervista, chiaramente riferita a marco carta, che dichiarare "sono gay" dalla d'urso "ci fa tornare indietro di 50 anni" io purtroppo proprio non reggo quando le celebrità eludono il coming out con le tipiche risposte "ma ormai nella mia generazione non si fanno più differenze, siamo tutti più aperti" che fanno tanto iper progressismo ma in realtà sono scuse vecchie come il mondo, e fanno veramente tornare indietro (hanno fatto dichiarazioni di questo tipo mengoni, mahmood, michele bravi) ora: -è ovvio che le domande dei media sulla vita privata siano fastidiose, ma quanto sarebbe più facile stroncare le speculazioni rispondendo in modo onesto e secco? -inoltre l'idea che nelle nuove generazioni siano tutti più aperti è falsa, l'omofobia nei ragazzini è ancora presente e vivendo in provincia vedo quanta gente anche giovane è ancora non dichiarata, far finta che ormai siano tutti più aperti non aiuta -mahmood e mengoni sono ovviamente out nella loro vita personale, il parziale riserbo lo mantengono solo come personaggi pubblici, per quanto fuori luogo l'outing non può avere chissà quali ripercussioni negative su di loro -in generale sono d'accordo che aver menzionato aneddoti strettamente personali in quel programma fosse fuori luogo, anche dire che sono gay dichiarati è tecnicamente sbagliato visto che non si sono mai dichiarati come personaggi pubblici, MA, mi ha colpito molto vedere sotto al video moltissimi commenti indignati di fan 30-40enni di mengoni, che dicono proprio "lui non ha mai dichiarato niente di tutto ciò!! sono fatti suoi", è molto palese come abbiano percepito il dire che mengoni è gay come un'accusa infamante, mentre è stato riportato come un dato di fatto assolutamente neutro. Cos'è che ci riporta davvero indietro allora? poi negli anni entrambi si sono di fatto esposti in modo indiretto, tra supporto alla comunità, temi lgbt nei video musicali, mengoni è stato paparazzato più volte con uomini, penso proprio il giorno stesso di quel programma è uscita una campagna pubblicitaria esplicitamente gay con mahmood quindi, se la loro idea è che non bisogna fare dichiarazioni apposite, ma solo vivere apertamente, allora menzionare quello che già si sà non lo vedo come un outing grave il modo in cui ne è stato parlato in quel programma è criticabile, ma anche l'ambiguità tenuta da loro dovrebbe esserlo, allora perdona il rant non richiesto, sono solo i miei 2 cent sulla questione

Guarda hai esposto dei punti molto validi e sinceramente non è che io possa controbattere, perché sì, ci son cose che hai scritto che condivido anche io.

L'unica cosa che posso dire è che è una scelta, fa parte della sua sfera personale, e non si può obbligare nessuno a fare coming out, o perché no, a condividere dettagli della propria vita privata se non vuole. Perciò io capisco che ci si possa rimanere male davanti a questa scelta, però è anche vero che noi non siamo nessuno per dirgli "Mahmood devi ufficializzarlo pubblicamente".

E ripeto, molte delle cose che hai scritto le capisco, ma allo stesso tempo non possiamo manco mettere bocca sulle decisioni altrui.