#never did such a huge piece

[gabe-lovebot]

councilor 3D model

i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up to bring him to life. he's yours now. do whatever you want with him

[link]

please credit me if you make something using the model (or even ping/link me to it, i would love to see what you made!)

currently available as a .blend, .fbx and an SFM port.

#hello councilnation i'm finally releasing him to the wild #have fun playing toys with him #ultrakill #councilor #councilor ultrakill #3d stuff #obviously with the councilor having just 1 full body image of him means that some stuff i had to improvise on #so you get to enjoy my headcanons on how he looks #(like obviously the wings & halo) #(but also the chestplate design) #but did you know that the councilor's canon design has subtle engravings on his forearm armor pieces? #i only barely noticed them when painting textures and i was floored #i had to add them #to the sfm anon and whoever else wants to use this for sfm stuff- #i did my best with a port for sfm and i'm quite proud of the result #but please be aware i have never used it before so if you find that something doesn't work as it should please please let me know!! #gonna pour my heart out in tags as always so close your eyes if you don't wanna see me being sentimental but #i'm not kidding when i say i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up for this #i have meddled with blender before but never actually came close to finishing a project #and i don't know how i did it and how i kept going #(i do know) (it was my friend encouraging me every time i showed him progress) #this was like 1 entire month in the making #but i'm so fucking proud of this and how it turned out and people's tags in my act 2 render genuinely were such a huge confidence boost #so thank you guys for liking it <3 #i'm still very much thinking of doing a version with just his bloodied head #but it might take a while because i want a break and i want to play warframe

[mizzyislost]

so i heard it was a certain silly slug game's birthday

#yes i will keep harkening back to my first piece of rain world art all the time no you cant stop me #sorry i didnt have anything prepared for this </333 #i forgoet................. #anyways shoutout this game for being one of the best games i never played #double shoutout the awesome community im so sorry i stopped. doing anything rain world but you guys always hold a special place in my heart #honestly pushed me to draw and create more at a weird time in my life so. huge thanks for that #i dunno why im actually giving some speech here i just really like rain world crazy that its. 7 years old. what. #how did that happen #rain world #rain world downpour #rainworld #slugcat #yeah we got the slugcat tag theres a lot of those guys here #various meanderings

[jestierabbit]

You know this is only going to motivate me to make that Epic Mickey choose your own adventure blog again

#I made a whole script and story arc and how choices would affect the story #even concept sketches then never did it #it’s such a huge undertaking because I want to make sure I have stuff PLANNED #and I want there to be fairly good art pieces so I’m between how I’d want it done #but perhaps this will be the motivation #who knows #epic Mickey #the jester speaks

[snixx]

middle/high school me didn't form parasocial relationships with celebrities they formed serial parasocial relationships with random lesbian 20-something bloggers with a penchant for being 24/7 haters on increasingly obscure platforms (often that they had abandoned years ago) and would stay up till like 4am every night reading their posts from like five years back and collecting the Lore

#if you look closely i may still not totally be over that tendency - [gunshots] #and it was hilarious id know ALL these details about their lives ok. from their old abandoned blog on wordpress dot com #and i would stalk them and try to find if they were still active somewhere #oh the stories #so first was the forums on fanfiction dot net. i would stalk them daily #and these people would overshare everything about their lives on the internet and id meticulously collect all the details and fantasize #about joining their group someday #and sometimes i would leave reviews on their stories and mention some detail i picked up and they'd be like wait how'd you know that - #and i would make up some shoddy excuse like i did not know every single detail about all their lives #they used to have so much drama too it was hilarious. like full out brawls and catfights #and then there was goodreads. i would get obsessed with a reviewer and stalk hundreds of their reviews #and slowly put together pieces of their life and personality i would never use #there was this one reviewer in particular called emma and she's probably like 25 now?? anyway she was my IDOL in eighth grade #and her entire brand was she loved leaving long rambly one star reviews #and then my blogging era. there were a few then but the most notable was this girl called elle #i know what university she studies at i know her birthday i know all her family drama her girlfriends which taylor swift songs she thinks #are the gayest and she doesn't even know i exist lol #anyway she was A HUGE ONE. she's still influenced such a huge part of my personality to date #and she recommended me so many of my all time favourite books and she was the reason i got into glee #anywayy i stalked her all the way onto tumblr and even summoned up the courage to send her an ask one time #she was the reason i realised i was sapphic actually. and the person who made me the obsessive sapphic media enthusiast i am today #i remember having the awakening at 4am reading her blog posts from years ago on my kindle and listening to all too well #which btw she considered the gayest song of all time so i naturally did too #and i got reallyyy into sapphic media after that #then there was this blogger who went by may #then of course i came on here 💀 and the rest is history #definitely had a bunch of those here too there was this woman named heather #and i was perennially stalking her blog she randomly left tumblr after falling in love with a guy #and making this dramatic post about how she had a burning red love with lots of women in her time but now her love with this guy was golden #noooooo i ran out of tags compulsory stop to my obsessive rant ig

[rainia]

one of the people I went to uni with is posting about her engagement on fb and like. I Know that she cheated on said fiance with like three different people during uni. one of them was a friend of mine at the time, and then she like, stalked him for weeks after, sending pics of herself outside his house. and like. im assuming the poor fiance never found out??? because damn. this gossip was everrrrywhere that year 😭😭😭😭

#we all collectively were like. yeah not our problem #although i did try to convince my friend to tell the fiance #(at that point bf) #that his gf was a huge fucking cheater #but yeah my friend never did so. oh well #she is a real piece of work tbh. homophobic and incredibly annoying #so the less we had to do with her the better lol

[sysig]

Someone’s looking out for you ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Wally West this time! :D #Their flirting is the cutest <3 <3 #But first! ZEX's uniform!!!!! JKFLdhsafjdf <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 #I've always liked his uniform - he looks beautiful in it it's quite fun to draw it's pretty it's flowy - very good piece of clothing do like #How something as simple as missing it for a week makes such a huge impact <3 Hhghh gods the way he describes getting it back ♥♪♫ #I've never appreciated the Feeling of his uniform on his body before now and hhh what a difference it makes! #Genuinely like a tactile understanding to complement the emotional <3 Feeling and feelings! It's so lovely! Ahh <3 #It goes back to being a question mark over everything once he starts to really think through the implications but for A Moment #And he gets to snuggle a human the same night :D Everything going so well! #Wally's so funny lol he's got ZEX making The most obvious come ons he possibly can flirting his little alien heart out #And he's just like ''But do you actually want to? Do you /really/ want to??'' Haha ♪ #It's very sweet honestly! Very attentive and careful <3 I'm always appreciative of anyone who treats ZEX well ♥ #But no he definitely Does Not mean pretty much anything platonically lol #What was it how did I describe him in my notes and haven't been able to stop laughing about lol - #Ah yes - Wally doesn't need to worry because ZEX is a ''hedonistic pleasurebeast'' lol #I also like how Wally is the first(? if I remember correctly) of ZEX's Type starting to develop haha ♪ #Sure he likes all humans but if he happens to lean one way more than another hehehe ♫ #I'm doubly fascinated by his self-awareness (and lack thereof) around submissiveness - he's very sensitive as a human! #He's still quite aggressive but also easily overwhelmed ♪ It's a very interesting combo to me :3c #And any further insight into his proclivities delights me hehe <3 #Heart eyes ZEX >>>>>> ♥♪♫ #And a few silly little doodles as well :D The first one's just a random chibi lol he's cute! ♪ #The second is of him trying a Starburst hehe he's so cute <3 I was so curious as to how he'd react to candy/sugar so lovely to see! #And thus far he hasn't had any alcohol - good Max has had enough - but I got my favourite Catawba so tipsy doodle it is lol #All the cutests <3 <3

[aura-bug]

my son lucas was dealt such a dirty hand by the whole franchise man. like he's arguably one of the more important characters lore-wise and they never did ANYTHING with him!! they just refuse to acknowledge his existence

please please PLEASE give more attention to my boy. he deserves it methinks

#yokai watch #yo-kai watch #yo kai watch #Lucas schiffer #im convinced that every time they worked on a new ykw game past 1 they had a huge sign with bright red flashing letters #that spelled out “DO NOT MENTION THIS MAN” and pointed at a printed out image of Lucas #which sucks bc he had a lot of character potential beyond the occasional quest or two- #the fact that his both of his names in English and Japan were puns abt demons #(“Lucas Schiffer” sounding like Lucifer and “Mao” sounding close to Maо̄/魔王 which means “Demon King”) #makes me think he could've been set up for a fucked up little evil boy arc #which might've been interesting #but no. he just never gets to do anything ever. #idk I just wish they did SOMETHINGGGGG with him bc I like him a lot #despite the fact that he is just straight up a piece of cardboard personality-wise bc the franchise barely touches him #hes just neat to me #I dont know jack shit abt yo-kai watch lore past the 3rd game but surely they could've let him do something #since it looks like 4 is really enma-focused and he's. yknow. AN ENMA DESCENDANT #idk the lack of focus on lucas has always annoyed me since he's literally one of the most interesting characters in the franchise

[campingwiththecharmings]

one thing i hate about online friendships is the lack of closure you have when someone leaves.

#like i literally have no other way to contact this person #they were there one day and gone the next #never got to say goodbye or wish them well #weirdly it feels similarly to when someone you love dies #i wanna tell them i miss them #and that i hope they're doing okay #but i can't #because i have no way to reach them #and the annoying thing is #i probably cherished our interactions more than they did #because i am such a closed off private person #and i don't connect with people easily #so if i share pieces of myself and life with someone it is huge to me #i get that not everyone is like this and i don't expect anyone to know or even care really but #it just means that this kind of shit hits me harder than it probably does them #like i'm sure this person probably hasn't thought about me at all since they left #and really that's totally okay #to the casual observer we were not that close #and to this person we were probably not that close #we didn't talk every day #and we rarely spoke about our personal lives #but the fact that we did at all was so special to me #i wish i wasn't like this #ugh #i guess i'm in my feels today idek #ignore me

[pussy-ache]

thinking about how my sister just got engaged at 27 to her first boyfriend ever and i just don’t have a good feeling about it

#i mean i’m not talking to her right now lmao. i did not even say congrats #but i’m still her older sister and i don’t believe she really has experienced enough of the world and of love itself to be tied down #at least in that way — technically speaking she’s already ‘’tied down’’ being in a long term committed relationship #but like. i know she thinks my mom had us when she was ‘’too old’’ #my mom had me at 35 and my sister at 38 #my sister criticizes my mother for that and has made comments throughout the years about how her friends mothers are all so much younger #meanwhile my mother lived an EXPANSIVE life in hers 20s and early 30s #she went out outward bound trips with hippy dippy granola eating fucks and camped out for months on end #she jumped out of planes and paraglided and rode motorcycles #she was a huge pothead and spent so much time at the beach studying tide pools and looking for horseshoe crabs #she even metal detected after storms to see if she could find unique lost beautiful jewelery and other items that were lost at sea #she was a PERSON and without those experiences would NOT have been our mother #i’ve explained this to my sister dozens of times over — your opinion of our moms age is based upon you not seeing her as a PERSON w/ a LIFE #and she does not care. she still believes my mom was ‘’too old’’ which is a ridiculous argument because having kids in your 30s is NOT. OLD #like even outside of my opinion of our moms life. my sister is literally just wrong across the board because 30s is NORMAL #she frustrates me to no end because our ‘’differences of opinion’’ are actually REALLY big differences like. stop dehumanizing our mom….? #so truly. honestly. this is just a big push to ‘’not end up like’’ our mom so she’s getting married earlier and will have kids earlier #now in my own right i don’t want to ‘’end up like’’ my mom either — ie in a marriage that is unfulfilling with a man who bosses her around #but the difference between her opinion of ‘’not ending up’’ like her is she blame MOM for everything #meanwhile in MY example i blame my father for being a piece of shit to our mother and vowed i would never be in that situation myself period #but that’s not putting blame on my mother. that’s me seeing my mother as a VICTIM of injustice and misogyny #meanwhile my sister just sees my moms decisions as a ‘’problem’’ to be ‘’fixed’’ #meanwhile i am consistently reminding myself that while my mother loves her children very much… #she inherently had to LOSE herself in order to have us and fashion a new version of herself - the ‘’mom’’ version to replace her real self #my sister doesn’t care to talk to our mom about the intricacies that come with all of this. i do. quite often actually. #my moms rule was that she was not getting married before 30. period. #the first thing i said when my mom told me my sister was engaged was #‘’i don’t even believe someone should get married period. but especially not before 30’’ #she agreed. because she TAUGHT us that! she TAUGHT us the importance of finding yourself before anything else #but my sister in her race to ‘’not be like’’ our mom is missing out on turning into a wonderful person for it?

[moregraceful]

I did so much today and none of it was homework but I DID sign up for ice skating lessons again and this is it I can feel it, this is the year I do a forward crossover without eating shit.

#local blogger sucks shit at ice skating but has a can do attitude!!! #i took lessons for almost two years and never managed and my teacher eventually passed me from her class bc it was so demoralizing for her #for someone to fail that many consecutive classes but still show up each week #but then my insomnia got really bad and i was just physically too weak to take lessons at 8am and had to quit #and then the pandemic hit and all the rinks closed for like almost a year and then i just never went back #but my body is atrophying and i hate going to the gym bc it's boring. my friends were like well do something that will keep you accountable #and so i'm back at it ready to fail for another two years!!! #sadly it is at sharks ice and not my little community rink that closes during the summer #which is horrifying. if i fall in front of the barracuda again i am never going to a game again #did i tell you all abt the time i was walking out of sharks ice after going to a public skate #and they had a big crane in the parking lot and i got distracted looking it at it #and tripped off the sidewalk and nearly fell #and then turned around and it was literally the entire sjsu hockey team walking out of the rink just staring me #i was like damn sorry you're too cool to be interested in construction equipment #like find your joy. it's a big crane with a huge ass piece of steal. how is that not worth looking at 😤 #similar to the time i was skating at a public skate and tripped and looked up and members of barracuda were just there. watching from above #the opposite of a meet cute. a meet fail #i was like well this will be funny when i retell it to my uncles #and i told my uncles later and one of them laughed so hard he had to stop eating dinner bc he was afraid he would choke #and that's on san jose hockey! #fresno oilers.txt

[bumbleblurr]

listen I think bulkhead is far MORE Boyfriend Material than most of the tfa cast but I doubt the majority of the fandom is ready for that conversation

#i admit i do obsess over the 3 out of 6 main guys the fandom goes crazy over #(the 6 main guys being bee‚ b1urr‚ shocks‚ megs‚ op‚ & blitz) #but in my defense. i only would want to kiss bee and thats it the other 2 i like to chop into pieces and cook them in a stir fry #bulkhead though is by far more hunka hunka burning love than all these losers #more hubba hubba even akdgdldhdlhffl #he goes so unappreciated tho including by myself i dont post any of my drawings of him :[ #i think maybe its bc the writers dont. Bother giving him a huge struggle or anything so ppl dont get as invested in him #which could have Definitely been done bc bulkhead had this whole thing in the first ep #where hes like ''im not a brainless brute!! i have a sensitive side too!'' #though they. resolve that by ''forget sensitive smashing stuff is fun'' bc this is a show for little boys in the early 2000s #oh wait did i say first ep i meant like the. 3rd ep ig #ok anyway #they do?? kinda touch on it again in later episodes here and there like the dinobots ep but its never. #Really Explored as much as i think it could have. #bc honestly i Love the arc bulkhead goes though where he goes to art #to express himself & kinda try to prove to the world that theres more depth to him than just The Big Guy #but they use it to be like ''BULKHEAD SUCKS AT ART LMAO!!! look at everybody making fun of bulkhead bc isnt it SOOOO funny'' #like its not :[ but again this is a boys cartoon from the early 2000s idk what i was expecting #i think if it were made later it would have tackled that a lot better #and Actually have bulkhead being an artist be smth a lot more meaningful #idk maybe thats like me as a sappy artist though #at least the little kernels of a well crafted compelling bulkhead focused narrative are there. they just never put them in the ground #ogh maybe i should start obsessing over bulkhead and do the shit canon failed him on #this is how bulkhead lovers can win #i'll singlehandedly convince everyone that man is kissable (/j i dont actually think i have that skill to do that) #🐝 could you repeat the last part? 🟦

[plushie-lovey]

Went to a flea market yesterday hoping to come home with a bunch of plushies. Found one (1) zodiac beanie babie rat that looks like the embodiment of an acid trip (I mean that in the best way possible)

#severely disappointed that there was nobody sellibg stuffed animals at the flea market #and it was a huge market #most people were selling clothes and jewelry #like. new clothes and jewelry #thats not what people gp to flea markets for!!!! #if I wanted clothes and jewelry I'd literally just shop at the store I work at #or any store for that matter #flea markets are for old trinkets and knick knacks. shit people had hiding in their attic for 10+ years #They're a place to get rid of your now adult kids' old toys and furniture #its the place to sell shit that you bought from goodwill hoping to make a profit and then failed to sell on ebay for a scalper's price #the coolest thing I saw at the flea market was a moose head wall decoration #I've never seen a moose irl. I could tell that head was real and taxidermied #that shit was literally 4 ft tall. and that was just the height of the head and neck!! (not including the antlers either!) #it was so fucking cool but frightening #anyways THATS the kinda shot I was hoping to find #but there was just nothing. absolutely nada #again I foubd 1 beanie babie #I did see like one or 2 other plushies but they were so ragged I couldn't justify buying em #especially for like $5-7 a piece #anyways #viti shoosh

[wacky-nameless-inventor-24]

Hatched shading go brrrrrr

#I almost never do shading like that #and I REALLY liked how it turned out #I also wanted to try out doing a blank grin on Moon and I think it worked?? #anyway I'm quite proud of this one XD #fnaf #fnaf security breach #fnaf sb #moondrop #fnaf moondrop #daycare attendant #fnaf daycare attendant #wacky's art #fnafsb #I would also like people to know that this drawing is huge #I did it on a laaaarge piece of paper #fnaf moon

[girlyliondragon]

Sapphire isn't used to love letters much less affection in any way considering a lot of people want nothing to do with her nowadays or scared her away further into self-isolation. But the deeply suppressed hopeless romantic part of her sprang up -albeit reluctantly- as a result of the letter that somehow popped up. Who could it be???

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This does not involve any former fictional love I had in the past.

A personal doodle with vague self-ship implications as is intended. I don't date irl people anymore as I think it's best for others to not have to deal with me. But regarding the not-irl world I've had this damn bastard of a character in my head for... a month now? Even tho they've been my childhood during the late 90s - very VERY early 2000s when I was little probs because I didn't know f/os were a thing, and they've only just stated making me crush on them this year. Which is all well and good because I miss the feeling so much. But I don't really talk about them much at all and even less want to even hint at who they are outside of extremely vague shit that could apply to anyone else because frankly the only way I feel safe loving 2D in such away again without having people make me feel like I'm a freak who shouldn't feel negative emotions is to keep it all to myself.

Also this doodle takes an anti-social extremely misanthropic cryptid with relationship problems & believes she doesn't deserve any sort of happiness and pairs her with a sudden strange love letter and was an interesting combo because she's not trusting at all and is dealing with an array of emotions like I've been.

Art/OC: Mine

Do not steal/crop/edit/etc. Do not tag as kin/me

#Sapphire (Fursona) #Em Doodles #I take self-shipping very seriously because it's such a huge part of my life that shaped me to who I am #not to mention my brain sees and materializes the characters into a whole thing with them to where they literally feel real #to where I have entire lives with them. Like living with them. Socializing with them. Talking about them as if they were real and happy #plus I cannot love myself without it as it feels fake and performative otherwise #I don't like that I'm at the point of being afraid of a means to love myself in a coping-mechanism sort of way. #especially not if it was originally a thing to make me feel wanted that I'm now struggling to hold on to (I want this to be long term ffs) #and yet the fact that it's a problem for others shows me that people literally will not get me even when I explain everything #it's like hiding your s/o. I've already had to do that irl with my longest bf. it's why I don't like doing it with my fictional others #it's not JUST a coping mechanism it's literally my best means for a healthy relationship and I wish outside forces didn't make it difficult #real people have almost always hurt me while fictional characters never did. I do not care. I prefer the former over the latter ANY day #the only exception are those that haven't but they're very veeeeeery few. Like three fingers or something few #But oh well. Guess the only way to do that now is to keep it to myself #note btw that Sapphire is still a character built off my stil current extremely depressive state and thus won't be seen happy all that ofte #this is already pushing the line and even then I'm not comfortable still talking about stuff like this now #but between this and an extreme piece of bloody vent art I rather post this

[numbuh424]

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#I try to always remind myself that if me from 3 or 5 or 8 years ago saw my art she'd be so stoked abt it #bc the algorithm is almost never in my favor and it's hard not to sometimes feel :/ when I work on something for so long #and literally right after posting it I alr see it gathering dust lol #the algorithm is especially gonna be a huge asshole towards me now that I'm busy with school and can't post regularly #but it's not like it was any different anyways even when I was posting literally every week #I have my excuses now for not posting regularly but if posting like once or twice a month has no difference from posting like twice a week #then I may permanently just slow my posting bc it is genuinely hitting how hard I was trying to get a fully rendered new thing out weekly #idk idk drawing is so fun and I could do it forever but posting it online sometimes does not bode well for how I perceive my work #yes likes n follows don't matter in the grand scheme of things blah blah blah but a steady following can't hurt #especially since that sometimes translates to getting more commissions #or hell just hearing something abt my work in return #I spend way too much time wondering what it is I'm doing wrong and cope with it by starting a new piece everytime #hence why I draw as much as I did/do lol #this turned out to be longer than I expected I hope no one read thru all this go look at my art instead #elle is talking again #dumps this all on tumblr so I can continue to seem mysterious and nonchalant on other social media 🚶‍♀️

[emdotcom]

The little hater fanclub is fucking expanding, hell yeah

#gale chatter #to clarify my cousin is a huge piece of shit we all hate her #there's like her ex-husband she cheated on w/ her ex #there's her brother her brother's gf me my sister my mother our uncle or cousin(s?) #but the uncle & cousins aren't directly in on the shit talk. & there are two differnet major shit talk circles #& i am the point where they converge. #it's cousin & gf w/ the ex husband on one end #ma my sister my uncle & cousin on the other #we all fucking hate her bc she's evil but my aunt loves her & we care about my aunt #btw. how much & how often do you have to fuck up before you get like? about a dozen people clapping & cheering when something bad happens #to you? #like. not saying i haven't fucked up enough to get a group of people mad at me but never to a degree that they hope tragedy befalls me ? #but usually when people get this mad at me it's because there's something they don't like about me #i.e. I'm gay or too quiet or I'm not active enough #& it's not usually because i did something fucked up or tried to ruin a bunch of people's lives a couple of times over #although i AM getting to a point where people are pissed bc of what i do. I'm a bad coworker but that's besides the point #debated on making a Hatershop Quintet google doc just to chronicle all the fucked up things she does #but realized that would be devoting actual time to her & she is not worth that effort in the slightest.