Depression makes you tired during the day, but keeps you awake at night.
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HOW A 17-YEAR OLD TEACHES A 20-YEAR OLD ABOUT LIFE.
Settings - a late evening. A room with a study, a window and 2 beds.
A boy, 17, messy dark hair, calloused palms, square shoulders leaning on the desk.
A girl, 20, invading space, brown eyes and painted chipped nails.
Her: Do you like it here?
Him: No, I’m going to get out and take mum and dad with me.
Her: Dad doesn’t enjoy enjoying things in general, I think they have lost their souls to something. I just feel everything here is dead.
Him:You are too rude. You are eating right out of their bank accounts. Pay me when you start earning shit and we’ll move out. It’s dog eat dog here. And for once respect your parents.
Her: Right. Dude, I feel like shit all the time. No matter I make others feel like shit too. I’m really worthless right. Fuck it, how do “you” live? It must be easy being good and smart and fucking genius.
Him: You are lazy. We got our intelligence from mum. She would have been something more if it hadn’t been her marriage. I think dad’s coming to check on us. Let’s pretend we are sleeping and then talk.
Her: what about your homework?
Him: the class’s at 12 tomorrow, still got time.
They slide the windows open, the night is cool outside. They slip into their beds. The brother is flat on his back, his head towards his sister. The sister is proped up on one elbow and half anchored on her side. They dim the lights.
Her: How are you so confident? What did I do wrong?
Him:Last week in my class, I told the teacher I didn’t understand this particular stuff, he told me that it was easy, I replied - well none of the class has understood and none had. This kinda confidence comes when you are prepared with everything else. Life is just 40% hardworking and 60% Self confidence. Self-confidence comes when you have something you have done in your life to this point.
Her: Aha, right. Wow. I’m always have been kinda the
loser sibling and even a worse role model to you. I have nothing in my self confidence basket.
Him: it’s all about what is important to you. You have always been afraid of everything. I’m never afraid, I know I’ll make it through.
Her:what was that movement for you? How do I create that for myself?
Him: Small things all the time, the things I have put my mind to I have achieved them. You won’t believe it - I just decided I was sick of it and ran for 45 mins nonstop. That moment I decided, I could do. Anything.
Her: Shit that’s something.
Him: anything can be something.
Her: Do you think I’m fat? Do you think I’m lazy? Do you think I can improve?
Him: Um, you aren’t fat
maybe a little bit but you are lazy as hell. You are so afraid to stick to something. Mom and dad never had high expectations fro m you because you never had them for yourself. You are 20!now, I think people can change till they are 22. You have two years. Otherwise you remain a loser. Forever.
Her: What should I do?
Him: Can’t tell you that, you make your own thinking, you create your own goals. Stop thinking about others as too great. Stop bowing down. Stop idolizing people. Stop apologizing. Just start with your mind. Spent that time on you and work on what you are. That’s as far as I can go.
Her: You are different from the time I last saw you. I’m grateful.
Her: did you fall asleep?
Her: Did you set an alarm.
Her: We are getting out of here.