#no assholes allowed basically

[dankovskaya]

I know there needs to be a conversation abt racism in bg3's writing too tbh and not even just the dumbass fucking incessant fantasy racism I mean like. Wyll.

#First of all the fact that it basically completely disallows you to express any sympathy or understanding or anything outside of the range #of annoyance to violent outrage when you find out about the pact that he is clearly trapped in and suffering for and does not affect #literally anyone other than himself? Like was that not insane to anyone else? #It allows you be ALARMING aggressive and hateful towards him extremely early on regarding things that have almost nothing to do with the #player character? #Like not even just a token 'asshole option' its like its actively encouraging you to be furious #with him its very fucking weird. #It clearly doesnt even expect you to be that mad at ASTARION when he reveals his vampirism #by essentially attempting to kill you in your sleep. #bald

[spotsupstuff]

Anon from the karma flower ask here, just gotta say i have no regrets, hows sparrows recovery going?

according to doctor (Euros) she'll be just fine after grounding herself a lil. nothing bad essentially happened, she just wasn't ready for all those feelings

#Spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #to try n explain a bit: i mentioned it in an answer to alter from yesterday but basically the physical world is a muffler. absorber. #what the karma flower does is basically like. boosts the meditation effect. assists in the subtle bodies departing from the physical body #and since the physical body becomes eliminated from the equation everything will hit stronger and More. sparrows dad is a sore- #-subject for her normally already n getting any kind of input about him while in this Seeing projection state just fucking. rowed her over #shes ultimately okay. maybe even better off. just had to confront the feelings head on without anything to make it lighter or to hide behin #lookin at moons explanation of it fuckin... 'imagined worlds'... Bitch What If Its Real Tho. i like to think that moon is kind of- #-skeptical of the spiritual. the iterators cant experience the effect for themselves ofc so shes 🤨 but nah we already have folk gods in- #-here so the karma flower allowing the user to really See other planes? aiya true dat up in this bitch yeehaw #'have no regrets' tho you ASSHOLE /lh GLSKDCLSKDMLCK

[fizzfags]

the world if i could have my own body and do whatever i want forever

#ignore this post i just need to complain about a very minor inconvenience and i don't have anyone to complain to. anyways. #the request that lukas gave me is EXTREMELY reasonable. it's basically one thing i'm not allowed to do. #and i understand why he (and others) don't want me to do that and i am going to respect that decision. #there is also the feeling of 'i am stuck in this body and it's not fair that he gets to make all the rules just because he's host' #which could change at any time mind you. i was briefly host that one time. #and i'm going to be stuck in this body until i die. Cool #local man asked to follow a very simple rule; has an identity crisis and makes it everyone else's problem. #this isn't BECAUSE of the request. i promise i'm not throwing a tantrum just because i can't do stupid shit. #and it's not me throwing a tantrum over the decision either it's me throwing a tantrum because i can't have my own body and i'm stuck #it's more that it's made me more aware of certain limitations and that i'm never really going to be considered my own person. #but lukas gets to be his own person for some fucking reason i guess. #but i'm not going to be an asshole and intrude on other people's boundaries by trying to explain that to them. i can deal.

[yin-yanglulu]

I never understand why certain people see criticism of their favourite things meaning that they can’t enjoy that media anymore, why the fuck should that stop you from liking something?!

For example: I’m a huge Skylanders fan, I own all six of the games, I still have multiple Skylanders to this day, it’s easily one of my favourite game franchises of all time, Skylanders: Giants is my favourite game of all time, I’ve been a fan of it for half of my life, did Caddicarus’ somewhat negative review of the first and sixth games stop me from liking Skylanders? No, because that is entirely his opinion and that is FINE because he was actually critiquing stuff that’s actually understandable and it wasn’t just shitting on fans for liking it like most Skylanders haters were back in 2013, The only type of Skylanders criticism I truly hate are just the ones from some TLOS/OG Spyro fans that hated on it bc Spyro looked different, bc it was apparently “wasn’t Spyro enough” despite people pointing out it had a lot more in common with the PS1 Spyro games than salty Spyro fans were making it out to be, and hating on kids that played Skylanders just because they were having fun.

Another infamous criticism of Skylanders is that it “ruined Spyro” and “doomed the Spyro franchise for good”, which have definitely been proven wrong given that Spyro is still a popular franchise because of the remastered trilogy and that without Skylanders, a lot of people my age wouldn’t know who Spyro is! (Also the fact that a Spyro 4 is supposedly happening soon)

Some criticisms of Skylanders I get, like the “asking you to buy too many things”, “SSA hasn’t really aged well mainly in the graphics and gameplay categories”, and “characters like Double Trouble and Voodood are based off of racist stereotypes” criticisms because most of them are right, but there is a difference between those criticisms and the ones of Spyro fans that I think are permanently stuck in 2012.

So yeah, if you see someone critiquing your favourite media, don’t let that destroy your enjoyment of it!

Edit: JUST TO CLARIFY THIS POST ISN’T PRO HP!

#skylanders #lulu.txt #yes I’m basically targeting this at those assholes in fandoms #that will tear down any criticism of it #and try spreading this positivity bs #that end up spreading more toxicity than the critics would #especially in fandom where the media they love has a lot of problematic shit in it #just for daring to point out that their favourite media has problematic elements #and they’ll call you names #I’m looking at you..toxic positivity assholes! #I better not see any R///BY fans using this post as proof that people aren’t allowed to critique the show’s ableist and racist writing #bc THAT IS NOT THE POINT OF THIS POST! #the point is to call fandoms like that out for taking any understandable criticism and turn it into #something entirely different like misogyny #when they are the ones who are causing all the misogyny and homophobia in the fandom #THIS IS NOT A PRO HP POST BTW!

[madfoxx]

lol yeah michael we wouldnt want to put any labels on it for sure

#i cant believe them #i mean i know they´re trying to avoid spoiling the important stuff #but its just so hilarious to me that those two assholes can sit there with a shit eating grin basically giggling like naughty schoolgirls #and be like WHOS KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN??? #DEFINITELY NOT ANYTHING TOO OBVIOUS THOUGH! NO MAJOR CHANGES OR ANYTHING!! #i hate them #and also i cant fucking wait until they´re finally allowed to talk about the kiss #they´ll never ever shut up about it ever again especially michael #he already did lethal damage to the fandom by changing his twitter profile like whats he gonna do next?? #good omens #gos2 #gos2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #interview #michael sheen #david tennant #Youtube

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm watching the new Sad Boyz episode and Jarvis has been talking about Fall Out Boy for thirty minutes and I'm juuust. not enjoying it

#I hate FOB #I'm so sorry I wish I didn't and I feel bad for it #but oh my god I hate them so much #the second concert I went to was a FOB concert. I was like 13 or 14 I guess? #anyway I was an emo kid so I did kinda like them #but they were my best friend's favourite band so I wasn't allowed to REALLY like them #but she wanted to go to the concert so I had to too. #it was a horrible experience and I had a huge panic attack because we got pushed close to the mosh pit and I couldn't move #because I was a TINY teenage girl #and I genuinely thought I was gonna die. #idk what little I saw of the show was good I think. but the fans really fucking sucked. like damn you have to be an asshole if you see #basically A KID full on sobbing and still not help them get out or anything or stop pushing and all that. #soo yeah idk it was all around just a horrible day and I haven't listened to their music since and I get really anxious when I think about #them. #funny thing is the next concert I went to after that was with my little brother and that same friend. it was a shitty german rapper #that I can't stand. BUT the fans there were so damn lovely to us. they looked out for us the whole time and everything. maybe because they #were mostly older idk #man I really hate concerts now though. #BUT I love Jarvis and I will keep watching the episode and it's fine and hopefully they'll move on soon.... #personal

[tiercel]

Tumblr talking about making its site the same algorithmic slop pile as every other social media bc the users migrating here are too soft brained to curate their own feeds

#You dont understand tumblr is the only site that im able to use bc its not algorithmic slop #I can barely use youtube anymore bc i will get trapped in the vortex of shorts and suggested videos #I like tumblr bc unlike instagram twitter etc it allows you to create your own feed rather than force feeding you random posts #But lately it HAS been doing that & staff just released a statement basically amounting to ''new users are too confused so we're gonna pad #everything out'' corpspeak for ''we need to make the twitter refugees feel more at home by copying their dogshit falling apart site'' #Tbh i actually enjoy tumblr as a much more niche site i think that by making other ppl realize its just a regular ass blogging site theyre #gonna clog it all up more than it already is. Not like it isnt already crammed to the gills with reactionary assholes #Like the reasons i stopped going to twitter was A. stupid bullshit like locking me out 4 no phone number and B. people driving me insane #I do NOT need the people that would trigger my mental illness on a nightly basis coming here to spread their spores #Namely the dramabrained weirdos looking for problems in everything and reactionaries that already exist here but will proliferate #Tumblr ALREADY isnt doing jackshit about t€rves or fash why the fuck would they do anything about a massive influx of them #Sorry i needed to bitch a little. Love this site but also hate the web3.0 philosophy of dumbing everything down #When are we crawling back into the primordial sea we came from (neocities and forums) #emf

[iimexpensiive]

✧ @inmiasma ✧ — (reborn!zha) Little Zha won't say he's envious of the delights of the flesh such as food (or in this caseー alcohol), but surely he's given enough hints right? Like showing up with a fiery open palm and slamming fists rhythmically into your your bar counter? Mercy please? Charity? Would you pour a glass for an old spirit?

"Can't even spare a please there? Where have your manners gone, young man?"

Teasing tone leaving the Great Sage, easily guessing what the other wished for without having to speak. Soft laughter leaving him at the demand from the Lotus Prince. It was quite a display for sure and one that would draw anyone's ire if they didn't know him like Wukong did. Oh no, he always enjoyed the visits from one of his dearest friends — even if he had a habit of teasing and taunting him whenever he spared him these moments of his presence. He couldn't help himself. Nezha had some of the best reactions to his shenanigans, second only to his dear brother Bajie of course.

Turning his attention from the pounding against the counter of his bar — no fear that it would be damaged in the process. He wouldn't do that to him after all, not after the monkey had put such painstaking hours into his custom set-up. Making sure to snatch the best bottle he had for his companion to serve. He only stocked the finest of alcohol in his bar — none of that cheap and tasteless crap would dare be stored here. Deciding to mix him something special for his visit, one that he knew Nezha would enjoy. Plus, nothing like a little entertainment to go along with your drinking experience.

No sooner had the demand for earthly delights been made by the firey prince was there a glass slide into his hand from the king. A little flourish of a umbrella and flowers added by two of his little monkey clones in process. Both bowing afterwards before darting off.

"How's that? Hopefully it's worthy of the Lotus Prince."

#I Am The Monkey King | Sun Wukong {IC} #inmiasma #ask #answered #Hope you enjoy X'3 #I got excited to write this so much; love these two 8'D #Nezha and Wukong are just a fund combo no matter the verse XD #They're like those older/younger sibling dynamic to BFFs that annoy one another constantly BUT also love one another XD #Basically 'Only I'm allowed to be an asshole to them' types XD #So excited to write them in the NG!Verse now CB #Throw any other New Gods muses you have at me; gibe me 8U

[orcelito]

Revealing myself as a 98 vashmeryl truther by how I write vash and meryl's interactions in itnl

#speculation nation #itnl shit #THEYRE JUST SO FUNNY and i love them 😭😭😭😭 #so yes this is a trimax fic but i am just gonna. push my 98 agenda for their relationship hfkdhfj Just a little #idk their dynamic is just more Present in the anime than in the manga. and it works for the setup i have so There. #also yes this is a vashwood fic IM ALLOWED to enjoy other dynamics too #toeing the line a little bit on the slight undertones but nothing will come of it #i. plan to have an acknowledgement in this chapter. chapter 13 #vash makes a joke that could be interpreted as flirty and she's basically like 'Dont Deflect. you dont see me like that anyways.' #vash realizing that Yeah there kind of is a dynamic there. but also hes so focused on wolfwood he wouldnt wanna lead her on #it's like. this is just kinda part of being an adult ykno lol like #sometimes you have feelings for your friends and you can acknowledge it even & if youre mature enough about it it's Fine #he'll let her believe he has 0 possible interest in her bc it's easier that way. for both of them. #he doesnt want her to get her hopes up. doesnt wanna lead her on. #and YEAH MAYBE IM A POLYGUN TRUTHER I THINK ALL 4 OF THEM WOULD BE GREAT TOGETHER #for the purposes of this fic im keeping it to just the vashwood #but i cant resist... a lil sprinkle here and there...... #like them meeting with a goddamned meet cute & then vash subsequently being an Asshole by getting her hopes up & then dipping #thats like. the vibes. thats the thing. vash realizing he needs to nip this in the bud bc he Cant be what she wants him to be. #im just. man. i have some Thoughts about this all. #if you couldnt guess vash & meryl r having some relationship development this chapter. im excited !!!! #they Will be friends!!!!!!! soon.

[curiouschaosstarlight]

Y'know what.

Fuck you.

-Easily forgives your villains, gives them unconditional love and support, and helps them awaken to emotions they have yet to experience even once.-

-Lets them make mistakes. Lets them backslide. Lets them have terrible habits they may never fully get rid of. Lets them live with themselves and what that means for them. Lets them have things they don't regret doing. Lets them have things they will never regret doing. Lets them have things they will only regret doing after unpacking everything.-

-Lets them have great reasons for doing terrible things. Lets them have no reason for doing terrible things. Lets them have no trauma. Lets them be born different. Lets them have every trauma. Lets them have every illness. Lets them have every loss.-

-Lets them be selfish. Lets them be self-destructively selfless. Lets them decide to change sides just because it serves or benefits them in some way. Lets them decide to change sides because they have nothing to lose.-

-Lets them get stupidly attached to the person they said they'd never get attached to. Lets them have a complete lack of attachments. Lets them feel ready to die for the heroes. Lets them feel ready to sacrifice everyone else at any possible inconvenience.-

-Lets them betray everyone over and over and over again. Lets them betray no one ever. Lets them never feel fully secure in other people. Lets them have full security in everything. Lets them never even think someone might still have a problem with them. Lets them feel like everyone will have a problem with them forever.-

-Lets them have the ire of everyone and no one.-

-Lets them face every and no consequence of their action.-

-Lets them choose and exist differently under circumstances or reasons that make no sense to you.-

-Lets them love and be loved, and hate and be hated.-

-Easily forgives your villain and welcomes them back every single time no matter what they do or what they've done or what will happen because I'm here and I can.-

#not important #i dont know how to tag this #Chaos is angry #im just sick and tired of 'this character shouldnt be redeemed they're evil!!' #'this character was forgiven too easily!!' #'this character shouldnt be redeemed nothing interesting would happen!!' #'this character SHOULDNT be redeemed because xyz!' #fuck off with that fuck every single one of you #this is @ people who are shitty towards villain characters and fans of villain characters #AND @ people who likes the villain but shames others for wanting that villain to be 'soft' or 'redeemed' #and @ people that complain about villains 'always' having trauma #sorry not everyone's born evil!!! hope this helps!!! #and even if the character's born evil choice and experience is half of everything!!! hope this helps!!! #down with this attitude that previous actions forever poison and lock off future actions #down with this implicit idea that choices arent active actions and having made certain ones makes certain future ones inherent #down with this idea that people need to EARN basic human rights and decency after a certain point #down with the idea that anyone 'good' is allowed to treat anyone 'bad enough' however they please and that's totes a-okay #down with the idea that goodness and kindness are either completely lesser OR completely unobtainable once someone's 'evil enough' #like...i love and i mean absolutely LOVE writing assholes who will never change their ways #and a thousand deaths will never repay all the hurt they've caused #but!! i also love writing characters that are actually absolute emotional wrecks and flinch at kindness because it's so unfamiliar to them! #i love writing characters that are evil even beyond death and characters that just needed That One Chance #all is fun!! all is good!! #now shut up and enjoy your stories w/o shaming other people for enjoying differently than you or fucking leave #no im not being hypocritical because this isnt about different enjoyment it's about fans trying to scream the enjoyment out of other fans

[skyllion-uwu]

Am I nauseous because I'm hungry or because I triggered myself last night

#my stomach hurts and i need to eat but the idea of doing that is. ack #and i cant tell my parents why because id have to unpack so much spontaneously #like id have to explain i was on the internet before they let me make an account and that i didnt tell them when i was getting those dms #and how its basically ruined any neutrality i had towards sex because ill be fine and then BAM! #everyone else is 12 year old me and im an adult and im my abuser and im going to hurt them if i keep talking about this #just because it was only words doesnt mean it fucked everything up forever. i know back then i was aroace but didnt have the words #but i sincerely think id be just sex neutral if it wasnt for that fucking asshole and now i think about sex for too long and get sick #and i didnt say anything because i thought they were my friend and i dont know if they were 11 like they said they were or not either way #its just. im getting so much off my chest here i wish i could go back in time and tell myself to block after that first message #and i didnt say anything after i realized because i wasnt allowed to have social media and i didnt want to get in trouble over that part #fantasizing alone is one thing but as soon as someone else is involved theyre me and im that person on da and i hate it. i hate it i hate it #i hate it i hate it #is that a common thing. where you feel like youre the abuser in certain contexts even if youre nothing like them #whatever. i have physical therapy and then ask a prof if i can use him as a reference and then finish my application if he gets back to me #and then i can rot all i want #sky vents like amogus

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

#those assholes are lucky I didn't have the heartless soul to take revenge on them or something. #instead it just became internalized trauma 🙃 #lee rambles #autistic #autism #actually autistic #school trauma #what would they have done if i lost my shit and lashed out at them???? #the most i was ever able to do was take a plastic knife and stab an apple at lunch while glaring at a table of the kids #that scared them enough to leave me alone for a few days. then theh forgot and back at it again #why is it always the victim's fault and the bullies win? even years after the fact. why cant my brain “get over it” like people tell me :/ #and yes i was able to get a therapist. no it hasnt helped yet. i do all the coping stuff she suggests already #basically distractions and whatnot. no it hasnt cured me. #she always tells me i have good coping mechanisms. im doing a good job. i deal with things reallt well. ok why am i still a mess 🙃 #its almost as if theres no cure and only pretending #what am i rambling about. this sounds like an emotional rant but i genuinely feel nothingness atm. just reminiscing how fucked up it all was #why were things like that allowed to be put onto one single child and why did they never get any help or justice and are blamed #s i g h s #also ive always felt like no one believed me when i said i was the most hated and bullied kid at school. it is 100% true lmao unfortunately

[darkredmage]

Ahaga fuck the college shit is getting wirse

#not allowed to draw and do anything i like anymore because my fucking asshole dad wants me to stop doing all this shit #because i cant even fucking finish the task he told me to do thats related to the exam #even tho #I WAS ALSO FUCKING BUSY WITH WRITING MY HOMEWORK MY TUTOR GAVE TO ME FOR THE EXACT SAME EXAM #so basically my life is now complwtely bleak and devoid of all the shit that i used to consider worth staying alive for #i dont even want to work in the animation industry anymore let alone be an artist #i fucking miss my old job i fucking miss everything i had going on before my parents decided that im not allowed to decide on my own lufe an #-d forced this future on me #i miss being able to get money #i miss being happy #ok thats a life im nefer gappy #but that was the closest thing to happiness i had #and the worst part is? im scared of what will happen if j ended up failing this exam anyways #i dont even want to join this specific college they forced me to join #in fact if the scenario of me joining college ever happened then i already know the exact place i wanted to go #BUT NAH #NO CHOICES FOR ME ONLY MY DAD'S FRIEND'S WORKPLACE (the college he works at) #I DONT EVEN WANT TK BECOME AN ARTIST ANYMORE ESPECIALLY WITH ALL THIS UNFAIR NFT AI ART SHIT #I HATE THIS I MISS WORKING AT THE BOOKSTORE #AGHH #vent

[mythesque]

just got viktor's sumeru commission and while i am Overjoyed to see him again, why can't hyv let me be NICE to him???? what's the point of giving me dialogue options if they're both gonna be MEAN????? i don't wanna be mean to him he is my best friend!!!!! hoyo stop making me say mean things to the fatui challenge okay what if i LIKE THEM what if viktor is my favoritest specialest emotional support npc huh??? don't be so fucking rude let me be nice to my best friend 😭😭😭😭😭

#why the fuck does hoyo force me to be nice/civil to fucking shitbags like tirzad and yet im not allowed to be fucking polite at a minimum to #my bestest fucking friend??? literally grinds my gears so much whats the fucking point both dialogue ''''options'''' were basically the #exact same RUDE ASS response like bruh why would you even do that to me thats not a fucking CHOICE i dont feel represented here >:((( #i just. wanna be nice to viktor 😭😭 i wanna help him write a letter to lily 😭😭😭 why cant we have nice fucking things #so pissed that im not allowed to call tirzad out on his bullshit but im forced to be an ASSHOLE to a dude who has done nothing wrong in his #life ever like bruh what the hell is this im so sad 💔💔💔💔💔 #okay ill stop ranting now but like. fucking sadge man :'( #.txt

[agrebel18]

so my dad just sent me this YouTube video on a preacher from a church going to a Seattle Pride fest getting teared apart (I refuse to watch it because I have a Feeling of what this video is about) and this is just gonna make any Christian person that actually supports minorities and that aren’t bigots and actually stand up to bigots look SO BAD, and honestly, if you hate a specific group of people SO MUCH, WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU SNEAK IN TO THEIR EVENTS AND INTRUDE???? 

#i DEFINITELY know not all religious people are bigots and I know a few in real life and they're VERY CHILL #I love them sm #but just. why. #ofc they shouldn't get harassed or anything #but queer people have had to live YEARS IN HIDING BECAUSE OF BIGOTED ASSHOLES #AND MOST OF THEM HAVE HAD THIS INTERNALIZED BELIEF THAT THEY'RE BURDENS AND UNNATURAL AND SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO EXIST???? #plus Pride and basically ALL THE MONTHLY CELEBRATIONS LIKE BLACK HISTORY MONTH; AAPI HERITAGE MONTH AND HISPANIC MONTH #AND DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH AND JEWISH PRIDE MONTH ALL EXIST TO CELEBRATE THE EXISTENCE OF PEOPLE THAT BIGOTS WANT DEAD. #so if bigots didn't exist; then we wouldn't have to celebrate all of this and we could all live peacefully #tldr: fuck religious BIGOTS SPECIFICALLY and bigots in general #and minorites aren't gonna stop existing just because you hate them <3 #aggie posts

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

"unicron" being a serious term in transformers lore is bringing me back to my blue sky days. guy with a cigarette looking out the window. i havent heard that name in 84 years

#apple bagel unicron......... #my experiences are not universal. thid is such a niche intersection of things #can anyone hear me. any of my mutual read blue sky. that was a lifechanging piece of media for me . #was on the verge that year. was being very very very heavily bullied on the schoolbus that year #(<< was. physically assaulted multiple times) #nearly broke my fuckin nose cause some asshole would sit in the front seat and trip me every time i got on for like a solid week #hashtag kick a ginger day which lasted a week #anyway. would get 2 my seat and put my headphones on and listen to the portal2 ost and read blue sky #for like. the whole year. bc that fic is basically a full length novel #one thing i would do if i had unlimited money is pay someone 2 bookbind blue sky for me .... i want that so bad #anyway. was on the transformers wiki bc i was trying 2 figure out what. all the media is and where i should stsrt. #bc im serious abt this apparently #and unicron is like..... a Major Thing #and in my head every time i see it i just hear. apple bagel unicron. hdhfhsjdbdnds #anyway. long retrospective post to say i think transformers is silly and neat and #friendship ended with my childhood being raised as a girl not being allowed to enjoy certain things. bumblebee is my new best friend #blahblahblah #reaction time #<< be prepared to block my liveblog tag soon if i actually get into transformers because i have NO other outlet for this shit lmao