#no its not the exact same mentality

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Las Vegas Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#i realized. its actually so unwell of me how i basically make the same exact interview gifs of him ever single day of a race wknd #like hes basically doing the same thing in all of them #and yet every time i still go absolutely insane iver ever one like OH YM GOD LOOK AT HIM!? ISNT HE ADORABLE?? ISNT HE THE BEST?? #so uh yeah hope you too are insane like me and obsess over every little bit of footage we get #that meme 'its like a reward' literally me after every session making these #sometimes i feel the impulse to apoligize but then im like what no this is my blog i can make whatever i want #the important thing is that it makes ME feel incredibly unwell to the point of screaming #also might be because its 5 am and ive had a red bull... maybe that... #^ first gif made me in near tears due to these conditions i think. or maybe im just really that insane abt him. prob that. #'im done with his ass' i say as i make odd animal noises over a simple clip of him #the screenshots from both this and the quali interview....gahhhh im so mentally unwell #fernando alonso #f1 #formula 1 #2023 las vegas gp #we do a little bit of f1

[lazaruspiss]

Batman (1940) #427 | Nightwing (1996) #149

#the joker #jason todd #dick grayson #dicks 'it couldve been me. it shouldve been me' mentality strikes again #he created the role of robin its his fault things turned out like this etc etc #dick has a fear toxin vision of the exact same sequence of panels as jasons death and for some reason ive never seen any posts about it #so im making my own <3 #ITS THE SAME PANELS. I AM NOT IMMUNE TO ADITF REFERENCES. #edit: made it into one image bc the gap was bugging me

[swordsonnet]

sorry but saying that the accessibility needs of mentally disabled people are just preferences or about "comfort" is blatantly incorrect. if i can't enter a building because the bright lights and loud noises would send me into a meltdown, then i can't enter the building, and that's not less important than me not being able to enter a building because it's not wheelchair accessible. if you genuinely think that mentally disabled people aren't really struggling, and that it's okay to mock their very real concerns, then that just shows that you've been refusing to listen to their experiences. do better or shut the fuck up.

#yeah yeah i know i said i wouldn't post about this stupid fucking 'discourse' anymore #but i keep seeing takes that make my blood boil #physical and mental disabilities are two sides of the same coin! yes there are differences but also a lot of commonalities #but nooooo expecting people to have even an ounce of fucking compassion for those who dont share their exact lived experience #is too much to ask for i guess #i've said this many times before but gatekeeping and infighting will get us nowhere #throwing your fellow disabled people under the bus won't help you #i get people's anger - i have a lot of anger too as someone who is housebound with a physical disability #but other disabled people arent your enemy #and taking your anger out on them is just a dick move #especially if you do so using the same ableist 'its all in your head' rhetoric #that mentally disabled people have had to put up with since forever #disclaimer: obviously not all physically disabled people act like that. from what i can tell its just a small (but very vocal) minority #but it's pervasive enough to make me wary of online spaces for physical disabilities #which is kinda sad seeing as i have a physical disability myself and would love to connect with others #but i'm not super keen on being told that my autism (which has significantly impacted me my whole life) doesn't matter

[timeisacephalopod]

The type of Christian who asks atheists how they don't like, murder people on the reg are so funny to me because they seem to think their religion makes them the Peak of Morality when statements like "if you don't believe in God how comes you don't do X thing" all but outright state they have no idea why shit like murder and rape is bad except that God doesn't like it lmao. Like way to admit you have no intrinsic sense of morality and need to be afraid of a higher power to be a decent person, but I promise if you're not a piece of shit it's actually very natural not to want to do heinous evil shit all the time potential punishment from a higher power or not 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

#winters ramblings #seriously its SO funny when that happens because every time its like ??? the FUCK kind of thoughts do you have #to ask HOW i resist doing evil shit all the time because i dont fear god because i dont believe in God?? #what kind of fucked up person do you haveto be to only resist killing people because of fear of a higher power?? #these are people to avoid because typically they also come with the issue of using their religion to make any action they want #perfectly Good and Moral because GOD said it its in the BIBLE whether thats true or not and like bible or no #if you have no intrinsic sense of morality i dont want to hear about atheist morality from you lmao #not that athiests lack issues i swear to god white dudes who evangelize atheism like its their new religion #have WILDLY missed the point and often suffer the same problem as the aforementioned Christians #wherein the onky thing thats ever given them any kind of pushback is the church so they decide RELIGION is horrible and bad as a whole #which isnt true religion can be a perfectly lovely amazing thing for people but that brand of atheist #doesnt seem to understand that people turned away from the church because of wide spread abuse and discrimination not because #believing in god makes you literally mentally ill like some of these fuckos act like. abelist AND shite to religious folks in one fowl swoop #so you know atheists have problems too but like they arent making laws in their beliefs images across the world so you know #temper the criticism with how influential the group actually is although richard dawkins types DID get a lot of space to spew their idiocy #like dawkims if you think youre SOOOO much smarter than christians how come you have ALL the same misogyny problems?? #youre not that smart and logical if youve decided a whole kind of person is inherently less than you buddy. in fact thats very Christian #of him actually. funny when that happens but again if you dont actually know WHY something is a problem #its very easy to say Thats Bad and then literally do the exact same thing you just condemned because when YOU do it its no longer bad #because its got YOUR flavor of fucked up morality on it now instead of being like hmm maybe Christianity isnt a problem #because it EXISTS but because a lot of people use their religion as a pointed barb to discriminate against huge swaths of people #and often the intolerance becomes a legal issue when Christians and other religious majorities shove through laws based on EXCLUSIVELY their #religions and opinions and that doesnt mean religion should be dismantled it means we ahould tell religious folk who would know what #morality was if it fucked them up the ass to shut up and figure out what morality is outside of rekigion before they start legislating about #it and whatnot. also i wish extreme opinions werent ALL the news focused on exclusively on the political right #can we platform some NORMAL well adjusted christians who are god loving AND not a bunch of wingnuts #who are two steps away from arguing thou shall not kill only applies to people they LIKE because they dont seem to understand #maybe murder is bad when EVERYONE does it not just The Bad People??!?!

[anxiously-sidequesting]

So I don't know if it was ever revealed how Duncan felt when we killed Malistaire all three times but I'm wondering if maybe some part of him could hate us for that too. Like you hear that and you go "but why. Malistaire was terrible and even Duncan knew that(?). Why would he hate you for getting rid of him."

But like I think it's so....... interesting in a very, very, very sad way how Duncan so easily latches onto anyone who directly feeds into his delusions of grandeur. And that's no fault of his own that he was manipulated by the nasty Schism but when you think about how desperately clung to the idea that Malistaire, easily one of the greatest necromancers any of us had ever heard of (at that time), somehow actually recognized Duncan's talents (even when canon supports that Duncan wasn't all that talented, at least no more than the next necromancer) and then praised him for it so often that Duncan believed that he would be the next Death Professor is. I mean ☹️

So like with that mindset I unfortunately feel like it would be quite easy to twist even Malistaire's death as something that's horrible and awful and all our fault. ESPECIALLY if the Schism was feeding into Duncan's already broken mind and shattered ego and was constantly telling him that everything bad that ever happened to him ever in his life was Our Fault. That's like a realistic conclusion that someone like Duncan could come to

And like, at this point in time, are Malistaire's crimes even a factor in how he thinks????? Was Duncan ever able to separate Malistaire's talent and skills and prowess from the terrible and awful things he did? If Duncan wasn't able to consciously tell that distinction in the first place I can't imagine it would be any better during the years he was being manipulated and isolated and lied to

Like in Duncan's mind it probably isn't, "maybe I shouldn't idolize a national criminal, or idolize anyone at all for that matter, and aspire to be like someone so harmful when I can recognize my own talent and build from there" it's probably more like, "you (the wizard) permanently got rid of a brilliant mind, an innocent person who just made a few mistakes, and someone who believed in me no matter what just so that you could be the better than me and loved by everyone else" and that's! very sad actually!

#this is all speculation btw idk if any of this is canon. how duncan feels about all this #i know i keep saying the exact same shit over and over but.... really not a fan of how the game handled duncan! sorry! #i know wizard101 isnt supposed to be about every single character gets a satisfying ending to their arc- #-meaning not everyone in the story will face consequences and/or find a happy ending and like thats fine they dont need to #but idkkkk its just imo really sad how essentially a kid suffers frrom something he cant control by himself (his ego)- #and then instead of getting help he is instead ignored (ambrose) and then manipulated and brought up by a cult #and then when it becomes super apparent how... TERRIBLE his life really is and we defeat him he just... goes back?????? #we.... we LET him go back???? i mean we're not responsible for other people's bad decisions or mental health but bro.... #and then when we tell ambrose he's just like “oh. too bad. well anyways-” AND IM LIKE WELL THATS THE REASON!!!!! NO WONDER HE'S FUCKED UP #NONE OF THIS IS ADDRESSED. NONE OF IT. WE KICK DUNCAN'S ASS AND THEN HE.... GOES BACK TO THE CABAL #i literally just got so desolate when (wallaru spoilers) because. okay. all that for nothing i guess #this isnt me being mad btw LMAO i know the tone probably reads as angry but im not im just disappointed #and tired. what is it with wizard101 in particular and just people suffering with no end. (me as i make my main suffer with no end) #but anyways yeah duncan has been in my head for a while. he's one of the guys that i love a lot BDKSNSKAJ #he's like a son to me and HE NEEDS A HEALTHY PARENT. HE NEEDS IT #not excusing his actions btw. he still committed crimes JRKDJSIEJ #i just have a soft spot for those villains in media who are doomed from the start yknow. (stares tearfully at morganthe and gf spider) #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts #duncan grimwater #im not normal about duncan at all he's probably the wozard oc i feel for the most other than malorn and us

[tvckerwash]

do yall ever think about how weird wash's fight scene in s12 is? specifically, that moment where he does that sideways flip while shooting (I believe) at felix? like wash is an enjoyer of combat rolls, my man is always rolling, but that one flip is a flashy, and dare I say, unnecessary move for wash to use.

I also find it interesting that they had him use his sidearm instead of his battle rifle, since in previous cqc situations wash has always used blades or blade like objects such as the epsilon unit. the only times I recall him using a magnum off the top of my head is when he shot south in s6, when he shot donut in s8, and when he threatened carolina in s10. if wash busting out his magnum, it's always symbolic of him letting some part of his personal feelings guide his actions, because shooting someone with a sidearm meant for close range is more intimate than using his primary mid/long range weapon.

this was obviously not the case in the s12 fight, and they probably did it just because it looked cool, but idk that's my random wash thought of the day.

#rvb #red vs blue #agent washington #mine #not t/oaru #look we all know that the chorus trilogy combat doesn't compare to monty's but idk i feel like they just didn't /get/ wash's fighting style #wash is pretty nimble and quick on his feet #he's not as graceful or as aggressive(?) as lina but he's definitely the kind of guy who doesn't just stand around and let himself get hit #words are not working atm so idk how to describe it but he's like not an exact equivalent but he acts as lina's counterpart among the dudes #like he's not staying in one place he's not muscle-ing his way through a fight he's dodging weaving dancing around his opponents #if he needs to get close he gets close if he needs to back off he backs off #carolina is short bursts of high intensity combat meant to overwhelm her opponents #wash is more focused on endurance and steadily picking away at his opponents over a longer period of time #but they both share that sort of “it's not bad if you don't let it hit you” mentality if that makes sense #also related to this post. why did he cut his hand and throw his blood on locus in the s13 fight. wash literally fought the meta who used #the same cloaking tech without needing to do anything like that bc he paid attention to his surroundings #or when he needed to take off his helmet to find locus via the trail from his gun #like yeah its cool but. idk it doesn't /feel/ like stuff wash would necessarily do you know? #idk I'm chalking it up to miles going like “my characters need to be so much better and so much cooler than these characters.” or smthn

[nullbutler]

they share a shelf, I can write little crack stories about them getting therapy. this is normal

#I have one type of favorite character and its the mentally ill ones #also why the FUCK are they the same exact plushie make #hes so tiny compared to her #even though they have only a 2 inch height difference #they really said 'this plushie is a child' #alois trancy #kuroshitsuji #attack on titan #mikasa Ackerman #I had an aot hyperfixation several years ago #anime crossover #crossover comic

[dagss]

girl, interrupted (1999) dir. james mangold

because you're free? you think you're free?! i'm free! you don't know what freedom is! i'm free, i can breathe!

#it's the easiness with which the cat goes through the first barrier and its full stop at the second one that just... gets me #the exact same way the characters easily break out of the facility but are still incapable of getting out of their mental prison #this is one of the greatest shots i've seen in a movie tbh #girl interrupted #filmblr #girl interrupted truly is one of the greatest movies of our time & the same can be said of james mangold #what would i do without him #amy passion gifs #amy passion films

[1000-thr]

I don't know if this is like a big thing where you guys are but i feel like the recent wave of people calling each other autistic as an insult only happened because they're not allowed to say r-tard anymore

#Its the exact same fucking usage too #put down the target by comparing them to a person with a mental condition #And imply people with that condition are fucking idiots #i hear these kinds of things everyday and it drives me CRAZYYYYY #★ phantompost

[skitskatdacat63]

Why can I only ever feel dread and never excitement, I'm just incapable of being excited until I'm physically doing whatever it is

#like months before going to austria #i had to apply and everything #and just would have horrible horrible panic attacks and was losing it #and it was just so so so much dread and absolutely no excitement #i had to just resign myself #and then whoops i get there and its a whole month of fun!!! like was really barely every upset #and then: Austrian GP #same situation like dying about it. literally physically sick the morning of #i get there....oh okay fun fun fun!! #anyways this is about how atm i have the possibility of going to COTA #and like i know i should and i kmow i shouldn't miss out on something like this #but god the dread and existential crisis is so bad #like i cant even pinpoint *why* and its always been this way #i just need to someone to assure me and tell me i should push onwards 😭 #my brain: what if its disappointing. what if it doesnt live up to whatever preconceived notion you have #me: my brother in f1. this is literally my brainrot that i obsess over daily! why wouldnt it be fun????? #its just some mental hurdle i really struggle to get over and like i just can never feel excitement #like theoretically im like ofc yes this would be fun! but in reality can only dread it #but i really thinm i need to push thru it even tho i feel horribke abt it #bcs its the same exact thing every single time #and just all these stupid inconsequential things always come up in my head #like the fear of missing out on content on here. can literally bring your phone 😭😭😭 #anyways panic attack yayyyyyyyy #i just really should go right? AGHHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭 #trying to think positive is genuinely impossible. theres some other part of me that reminds me of all the potential bad things #and also this like weird guilt of 'people will think im greedy and spoiled and etc etc etc for getting to go to two' #its not like i really believe any of this but its also like so unavoidable #catie.rambling.txt

[relto]

more drawing practice today, when i start its always like nooo i dont wanna :( and then i ask myself. why? because its hard? and push through and it always gets easier after that.

#tütensuppe #im doing 'draw the exact same thing multiple times' now #first attempt is always very very stiff and anxious #second attempt much looser and relaxed #tbh the skill is mostly there im just hindered through this 'first attempt has to be perfect or else' thing #its unpracticed so it looks stiff but thats easily solved (if i can break up the mental barriers)

[cutearose]

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#having a bit of a breakdown bc i keep fucking everything up bc of how bad my mental heath is rn #and im so tired of feeling like this useless burden #i keep fucking up in the exact same ways and its expensive and frustrating and stressful #and it sucks to be losing my mind over these mistakes while also just aggressively not wanting to be alive #like what does it matter if my bike is dead bc i ruined it and now cant go to my friends wedding? what does anything even matter? #being alive is too fucking hard #and i am very alone and dont want to burden anyone w my mental health anyway #but i am just. completely falling apart at the moment #and im so fucking tired all the time #hhhhhHHHHHH #struggling here pals. #post

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

i always find it funny when i see people try to put clear yearly boundaries on generations because like, half the time my brother and i are in different generations despite being two years apart and having very much the same experience generation-wise.

its even funnier when im the gen z and hes the millennial when hes the one who uses tiktok daily and im the one who wouldnt touch that app with a 100ft pole wearing a hazmat suit

#kai rambles #theres been a generation poll on my dash today and the tags from my mutuals seems to agree with this #its so funny when someones like ''no your brother who is two years older than you who you grew up idolising and spent most of your childhoo #following around and having the exact same experience because your family had the mentality of not giving to one without the other? yeah he #in a different generation than you'' #like if my brother is a millenial im a millenial #if im gen z my brothers gen z #why did i have a bmx? because my brother did #why did i have a football phase? because my brother did #why did i get my first phone? because my brother got his and my mom didnt want to give to one but not the other #why did i spend countless evenings playing gutterball? because my brother did #why did my brother get a trampoline for his birthday? because my family decided to chip in to get him and me a trampoline #why did i get a nintendo wii for my birthday? because my family chipped in to get me and my brother a nintendo wii? #why did my brother get a nintendo ds? because i got one #i got mine before his so i had the OG and he got the lite #and then i got a nintendo dsi i think? for christmas

[findroleplay]

This may sound harsh but every ask sent in before a full day has passed since it was posted will go straight to the trash - no putting it on queue or messaging you anymore . If you're doing it to gain more traction, that's just disrespectful to everyone else using this blog. You're clogging up everyone else's ads - it works because not many people do it, but imagine every single person spamming the same thing every 6 hours. You're not 'smarter' than everyone else, you're just exploiting the fact that everyone else follows the rules to your advantage.

If you really can't remember when the ad was posted, you just need to search the blog with the proper tag (AKA the fandom your ask was for) - but I think I don't really need to explain how to check your own posts because you'd go back to check for notes, right? You have quick access to the post in some way - Posts have timestamps so it's pretty easy to check. It takes less than a minute and you avoid being an a-hole to everyone else.

#sorry for the rant but like #its been a real problem these last few days #I got an ask 4 hours after I posted the exact same one #And I'm honestly fed up #I don't care for the ad itself because tagging an ask is v quick so it's not like it's extra work #but it's the mentality to cut in line and one up other people that makes me mad #it's not a smart hack that no one else figured out #and let's be honest 24 hours isn't that long at all

[makerofmadness]

Ok looking at fanart having not seen the ruin trailer in a while I have forgotten what Cassie's actual hair color is is it brown or blonde or something in between I keep seeing art of both

like it's FNAF so I don't mind (FNAF isn't consistent with its own human designs I'm pretty sure Susie had her hair go from blonde in the games to brown in one of the books and Vanessa I think went the opposite direction between VR and AR and SB and then there's Michael in FNAF 4 vs. Michael in SL so-) but I genuinely don't know what she was shown as anymore XD

#I usually feel kinda uncomfortable when people change aspects of characters like that #(Like I saw a post that changed several Pokémon characters' eye colors and it fxcked with my brain in ways Idk how to describe) #Usually when I have a weird quirk like this it's because of like autism or something but I never see anyone else talk about this #So I'm assuming that it's either not that or I'm just weird???? Idk anyone have an explanation? #(Like I tried to describe this discomfort to someone once and since that time was concerning when people change characters' races #That person ended up basically accusing me of being racist and like- it hit me like a fxcking truck and hurt my mental health a ton- #And then months later that Pokémon post comes up and the characters' eye colors were changed to brown. WHICH IS MY EYE COLOR. #And I had the exact same reaction. So unless I discriminate against myself I think it's safe to say that was a load of shxt. #But like. I wanna know what the actual cause of this is like is it an obscure rare autism symptom or is it something else-) #Anyway enough of me rambling: #Yeah FNAF is an exception to this for the sole reason that the franchise itself isn't consistent with its own human designs. #So I kinda just. Don't feel the same kind of “off-model” weirdness because what even was the “model” to begin with y'know- #So like I'm chill with both brown and blonde haired art of Cassie but I'm just wondering like which one were we shown again?? #And whichever one it was: I'm still kinda wondering as to why people would change it one way or the other #fnaf #fnaf ruin #fnaf sb ruin #cassie #fnaf cassie

[oatbugs]

the way my heart sank . lol

#tried to get on a call to study w my gf bc weve both been avoiding stuff we Have to do and its been making us anxious #but esp her bc shes been in this cycle for a while and shes struggling w it a lot . and i love her and i want the best for her #and all my friends r like u should push each other to do better even if its uncomfortable somewhat and i agree #so we were like. yh lets do stuff / get on our work tmrw even tho its anxiety-inducing etc...and then we got on a call #and this is the most like. bored/displeased ive ever heard her sound like she seemed extremely disinterested and even mildly irritated #and it honestly shocked me ??? so i ended the call bc i need to do work and it was making me sad #and im trying to listen to words more than tone but it was so extreme and such a sudden change that it literally wasnt good for me . im so #confused rn . like ik facing tasks youve been avoiding for months causes anxiety ik theres like a mental block around it that makes u not #want to deal w it or become irritated at ppl who suggest that you should #but omg?? it was so weird and like. when i said she was making me sad so i wanted to end the call she was like. ok 😐 #which is a fair response ig but shes never responded to me that way b4...like what is this what is happening... #i want smn who encourages me to move forward and who appreciated that i want them to do the same #instead of staying stagnant and anxious for months. i talked abt this before on here and everyone collectively was like Be More Patient and #work through it w her etc etc (my friends said the exact opposite tho) and i have been Trying To but its making me feel actively . bad. #like. im Afraid. #to bring it up . and then when i finally did say yh lets do smth lets get thru this tgth she just shut down on me somehow #idk what else i can do #i will talk to her abt it later i just need to work rn. i had to get this out of my system first. #shes so sweet and wonderful and supportive usually. but when it comes to thsi topic. im rly shocked idk #i knew she felt bad abt it but i thought she agreed to move through it w me and i didnt expect her to direct it at me #like whatever i said shed give me the coldest ok 😐. like. again nothing inherently wrong w that but when contrasted w #the way she talks to me usually there IS smth wrong it . its jarring and uncomfortable and made me rly upset bc it felt like she was mad at #me for trying to help . idk #UGH whatever ill talk 2 her later i have to do this lecture itll help distract me