#no sam. he doesnt want things for himself because he was never fucking ALLOWED. and now he doesn't fucking know HOW.

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I discovered that Communication Knife AweSamDrunz have Children Now today, and I’m loving everything I’m reading so far.

Also that they hang out with Sapnap, Philza, and Techno. Was not expecting that, but yeah, Dream would want to reconnect, wouldn’t he? Even if it make Sam Uncomfortable and Punz Salty.

aaaaaaaaa I'm glad!!! The kids are sort of separate from the main au in that they're not really the main focus, they're just something that occasionally makes me happy to rotate in my mind. Healed, happy characters who are extremely neurodivergent, with their weird neurodivergent children, able to exist contently.

also, yeah!!! I realized a while back that I haven't really talked about the relationships and conflicts or Anything with real consistency on this tumblr. I'm used to interacting with people in the discord who've already had to listen to me so many times yell and rant that I've forgotten that I. might need to give context actually to other people who have showed up to a person on a soapbox spouting nonsense.

short answer: yeah, theres a Lot of complicated feelings, but by the time the children are in the picture its been like a decade and peace has been made with most things. No one has forgotten, of course. Shit was fucked. But events keep happening, characters keep developing, and Dream cradles his happy ending with the people he got to keep so very close to his chest.

So its like! Techno will support Dream through thick and thin and be civil with his partners, Punz and Sapnap had some rough moments but are buddies, and Sam will never talk to Dream's friends about anything deep, but after years of him genuinely trying to be a good partner, Techno and Sapnap are no longer five seconds away from trying to murder him.

Long answer: I'm trying to pull together some posts that will give detailed explanations of this entire thing. Itll take a bit, but its infinitely easier than the full fic I was trying and failing to write. I'm pulling this timeline from an old post so it might not be completely up-to-date even with my edits, but this is some skeleton stuff I can give that will make things easier for Understanding probably. I'm very sleepy. Here you go.

Timeline for My Own Damn Convenience:

Shady Dubcon Prison sex w/ SamDream

Prison Escape

Gentle Recovery sex w/ Drunz

Dream decides he has major control issues and is going to fuck Sam to prove he isn't traumatized. Punz thinks this is a terrible decision.

AweSamDrunz sex, complete with a rulebook of things Sam isn't allowed to do (including giving or receiving kisses)

Quackity kidnaps Drunz similar to in the one cut lore thing, offers to let Punz go if they torture Dream (they stab Quackity instead)

Sam rescues them (without Q finding out) and then kidnaps them, where he ties up Punz and gets Dream kisses until they all eventually pass out (Dream gets mild medical attention)

Dream wakes up and unties Punz

SamDrunz has a talk and decides Sam is allowed kisses again

many kinks are discovered

Sam tries (and fails) to get a hobby

Sam builds +30 prisons/boxes/sex dungeons around the server, of various usefulness

Sapnap finds out about the Torture, sees the sex tape, assumes Dream can't consent to the relationship considering Sam was his warden and Sap thinks Punz betrayed him, and takes Dream to a cottage away from everyone to try to protect him. After Sapnap yells at SamPunz, Dream gently informed Sapnap he's going to continue the relationship, and they have an emotional reconciliation that leads to weeklyish meetings between Dreamnap where they can just sit and talk

The Snow Incident

Sam Recovery From The Snow Incident

Oh God The Egg Is Back (Sam locks up Punz and Dream in a bunker for a month out of terror, and doesnt tell them why because he knows it will stress Punz out and Dream could be an idiot and get himself Egged. Punz is pissed but can't argue with that) (Dream could have fixed this all with his admin abilities good god)

They actually deal with the Egg

An Incident Happens (but its like several incidents actually, including Tubbo finding out that Ranboo was working with Dream the whole time)

Failed Finale

Recovery

Eventually grow old and live in a nice little lush cave house called The Box that Sam made

#communication knife au #ask boxed #I really hope this came out coherent #I have a sleep disorder so I'm just. trying and failing to push through 30 levels of exhaustion rn

[doggerell]

wow sending an ask to myseld wow how crazy. do sam a.wesamdude

wow such a lovely request me 💚 thank you I thought you would never ask

I got unnormal and Angry so under the cut it is

theres literally not much I can say cause I should keep this on the dl but they dont know. they dont know they have no idea they dont know the things that I do. all I can say is I am possibly the third highest Sam understander in the world. including his actor himself.

the only issues he gets of mine are sadism (which he already has) and aromanticism (which I mean…. this guys got major of romantic issues I had to)

(this is where it starts to derail) Sams done horrible things and he self justifies and rationalizes so much and its so sexy but also look me in the fucking eyes. Dream is not fucking undeserving. canonically Sam didnt ever touch Dream in prison anyway, he just allowed torture to occur but he did NOT starve him and he did NOT personally beat him. if ur gonna claim that I need you to look me in the eyes and explain to me that you understand that Dream kidnapped, isolated, and abused a teenager and drove him nearly to the point of suicide. he is not some uwuw tortured sweet angel. I love Dreams character so much but not because hes so tortured baby. but because hes a twisted and sick and obsessed individual. hes an excellent villain and hes so good at manipulation that all these stupid fans have fallen for it too despite the fact that he CONTINUOUSLY reinforces the fact that his character is evil to the bone and did not change and ounce from his imprisonment and is still just as obsessed with the abuse of a teenager. I know Im taking this too seriously and Im a huge villain enjoyer and if people were enjoying him for that I would be fine with it but these people literally act like exile doesnt exist when its one of THE most important arcs of the whole series. it takes up a whole fucking season like what were u doing during s2

and the abuse of Tommy that is mirrored and reinforced in Sam when hes in prison like AUUGGHHGHHH. YOU GUYYYS ARE STUPID THESE ARE INTENTIONAL PARALLELS. but people dont like or havent fucking seen Sams imprisonment/exile….2! and it makes me so angry. girl it literally spells everything out for you and was done like old style lore quick succession day after day streams

anyway back to Sam. raging over. literally fucked up men of all time. man has trauma up to here and only understands violence and love through violence and will always fall back into his abusers traps. he can never escape Dream hes literally carved into his skin and soul

the way this fandom either completely demonizes Sam and hates him for shit he didnt even fucking do (at least get it right!!!! hes done plenty of fucked up shit canonically!) or treats him like a uwu dad and smooths out all his intricacies and issues… fuck oooff. like my guy doesnt even care abt Tommy anymore. that self recognition and love and attempts to save Tommy like nobody ever saved him are GONE. Dream beat it all fucking out of him. he doubts exile now too like GOOODDDD hes so fucked in the head and so abused 💚 loyal hound always running back to his masters side 💚 governed by a short leash and a spiked collar, can never get too much of his own power because the second he does its turned on him tenfold

his refusal to kill Dream but killing R,anboo almost without hesitation to try and draw Dream back to prison GETTTTS ME. he cant kill Dream. he will inflict unspeakable violence on others but he cant personally lay a hand on Dream. most of my fics involve him hurting Dream to try and get back at him and realizing hes just falling into exactly what Dream wants for him, but the flavor of being unable to lay a hand against him is SO yummy. he can watch, he can allow torture to take place, but he cant have that responsibility, that weight on his shoulders. a good dog cannot bite the hand that feeds.

his own first death is SO GOOD. dying at Dreams hand after beginning to trust and believe in Dream again, falling once more until the lull of love and believing his lies and manipulation and Dream literally slamming it back in his face again that he will always hurt Sam and he will never change

Sams absence is so important to me but Im so sad he didnt have an important role until s3. I need to watch more of his s2 stuff to get a better picture of what I can work with there.

GOOOOODD PEOPLE DONT KNOW ABT HIS ABSENCE. gutz from berk momence. the fact that I cant talk abt this kills me

he is my man of all time and my ch: loyal hound tag is Him. r: mark of the beast is him and Dream.

literally everything is better and makes more sense if you understand that Sam and Dream had a turned-toxic relationship before the story started/before Sams absence and Tommys joining

look at him :)

#asks #sorta #listen Im really mad and I needed an excuse to talk abt him fr #dont side eye me for sending myself an ask… clap… Im beating the system… #be ur own boss send urself asks for things u wanna talk abt… #speaking #also sorry for censors I dont want this to come up in search

[sobsicles]

what if this whole thing was over tonight? man, id sleep for a month. go back to school. just be a person again. you wanna go back to school? yeah, once we're done hunting the thing. huh. why? is there something wrong with that? no. no, it's uh. great. good for you. i mean...what are you gonna go when it's all over? it's never gonna be over. there's gonna be others. there's always gon' be something to hunt. but there's gotta be something...that you want for yourself. yeah, i don't want you to leave the second this thing's over, sam! dude, what's your problem? why do you think i drag you everywhere, huh? i mean, why do you think i came and got you from stanford in the first place? because dad was in trouble. because you wanted to find the thing that killed mom. yes, that, but it's more than that, man. y-you and me and dad. man, i want us to—i want us to be together again. i want us to be a family again. dean, we are a family. id do anything for you, but things will never be the way they were before. could be. i don't want them to be.

#here. if any of you dean kinnies need a reason to cry #legitimately can't watch that scene without crying. like fully bawling my eyes out. #ive never seen a man more stuck in his situation. wanting to get out and knowing that he cant. that he cant live with himself if he tried. #'its never gonna be over. there's always others. there's always gon' be something to hunt.' #dean winchester the man with the biggest goddamn heart in the world. the biggest heart FOR the world. #he could want out until the cows came home. but he felt obligated to fight. to save people. to continue on with how they were raised. #no sam. he doesnt want things for himself because he was never fucking ALLOWED. and now he doesn't fucking know HOW. #the only goddamn thing he was ever allowed to want and told to want was his family and his little brother safe. thats it. #and he genuinely wanted those things too. bc thats all he knew. bc thats what made him happy. #and neither his dad nor his brother wanted the same. #no fucking wonder he has abandonment issues. #every goddamn thing he's ever wanted has wanted to leave him. #he just didnt want to be alone. he just wanted his family. he just wanted to be wanted the same way he wanted them. #he wanted to be enough. and they repeatedly showed him that he wasnt. #early season dean genuinely breaks my fucking heart. he just. he seriously crushes my whole goddamn soul. #idc idc do not come for me about how problematic he could be and how j*hn had shit to do and how sam just wanted to live his life #literally do not give a fuck. j*hn was a piece of shit father and thats NOT up for debate. it's just not #sam didnt have to give up his brother to have a life. like im sorry but he didnt. #and 'id do anything for you BUT' like. sam #sam sweetie. thats not. thats not how that works. you dont KNOW. #dean would LITERALLY do anything for sam. esp in early seasons era. lile sam doesnt know that he's dean's kid. #he doesnt fucking know. jesus. im about to go feral. genuinely losing my shit over this dialogue and this scene and dean's FACE #i cant believe im saying this but... #jensen understand the assignment. like. he knew from the get go. he Got dean. #idk i just cant articulate how upsetting this is. how heartbreaking. #dean just wanted people to stay. or to even want to. and no one did. #cant do this today. head in my hands. i am dean-coded and know his faults etc. yet i would die for dean winchester. but he wouldn't LET ME #dean bean #s1 dean makes me ache yall #spn 1x16

[calehenituseappreciation]

Tommy thinking Sam Nook and Sam are two different people would lead to such funny senarios.

Especially if you apply this logic to everyone.

what if mexican dream and quackity are the same people and that was just him making fun of dream and making tommy laugh and tommy genuinely thinks dream killed mexican dream and that hes a different person

and when ranboo pretended to be killed by clarencio

he just doesnt realise

he thinks girl dream is someone else too

tubbo genuinely has a bunch of personalities and so he thinks theyre all different people (and also he doesnt realise theyre the same people a lot)

sam, in his normal voice: tommy do you have the- tommy, crying: what happened to sam nook?

sam proceeds to live as sam nook around tommy because he once tried to tell tommy sam nook isnt real and he started sobbing and so sam cant

sapnap, approaching sam on the site: hey sam can you do this for me? sam: su- tommy, running up: SAAAAAAM!? sam, in the sam nook voice: hello tommy! sapnap: wtf??? tommy: this is sam nook! :D have you met him? sapnap: what? thats just s- sam: shakes his head, behind tommy where he cant see sapnap: uhhhhh sam: takes out sword sapnap: h-hi sam nook! tommy: :D

sam is not the only person this happened to. 

tommy: technoblade???? techno, sneaking into l'manberg: uhhh techno, in a highpitched voice: no this is Clarencio tommy: the llama? techno, in high pitched voice: no the pig tommy: hmmm techno: sweats tommy: smiles brightly ok!!!! techno, under his breath: that worked??? tommy: wanna hang out with me? techno, in high piteched voice: i really need to go tommy: buttttttt :(

technoblade proceeds to have to pretend to be clarencio the pig and hang out with tommy all afternoon

phil, coming to check on techno: techno? techno, in a frilly pink dress, in a high pitched voice: hi tommy: phil!!!! have you met clarencio??? but not the llama!!! clarencio the pig!!! phil, holding back a laugh: is that so?

(defenitly happened before he got exiled, i refuse to change my mind)

everytime techno is caught he says hes clarencio (the pig) and tommy vouches for him each time and no one is able to bring themselves to tell him that clarencio (the pig) doesnt exist

sam nook, :handshake: clarencio the pic, :handshake:  mexican dream, (not girl dream) not being able to tell tommy their not real bc hed cry

IMAGINE IF TOMMY WAS GIVEN THE JOB OF LIKE BEING THE BORDER PEOPLE WHILE HE WAS WILBURS VICE BEFORE THE ELECTION AND PEOPLE WOULD JUST FAKE IDENTIES AND TOMMY WOULD JUST BELIVE EVERYONE

quackity: i demand to be allowed to join l'manberg! wilbur: ur american quackity: i shpould still be allowed! wilbur: just say your not, thats what everyone does quackity: what wilbur: just make a fake identity?? quackity: youre... the president???? wilbur: yeah and?? quackity: shouldnt you not be be endorsing that??? wilbur: i made tommy the border person. you think i care? quackity: sksksks quackity: still bad tho

the only one tommy never believes is dream, no matter what, he can just tell when someone is dream, like ya know those police dogs? the only reason he didnt realise girl dream was because girl dream is girl dream he thought it was just a dream thing

TOMMY THINKS BAD AND MONOCHROME BAD ARE TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE

monochrome bad: tommy tommy: whomst? bad: oh uh recolourfies tommy, screaming: WHAT THE FUCK

tommy doesnt have object permanence but for people

techno, while tommy is staying with him: leaves room tommy, crying: I had a big brother once, i dont remember him tho

phil leaves them and (while stabbing wilbur) tommy just doesnt realize its him until techno says "dad?"

quackity works at wendys and tommy goes there everyday but doesnt realise its quackity

tommy went there since the war ended

and at the time didnt realise tommy cant tell and so when he and tommy started a mafia and became friends he thought tommy knew who he was and tommy once suggested going to dennys and quackity is like 'oh my god' and tommy is like my friend works there!!! and then they go to the one quackity works at and quackity is like 'haha funny' and then tommy asks around and then turns to quackity sadly like "my friend isnt here today D:" and then quackity is like o h

tommy, towards sam, in sams house: sam!!!!!! sam, who was sleeping, in his normal voice: w-what? tommy: sam!!! :D sam: hey tommy yawns whyd you wake me up? tommy: sorry but i really needed to ask you a question!!! sam: did you want to ask me where sam nook is again? tommy: welll.. that too but!!! you should meet sam nook!!!! sam: what tommy: please please please sam: no go back what did you ask? tommy: you need to meet sam nook! i think you'd be friends!!! :D sam, internally: shit sam: uhhh i dont really think i should- tommy: pleaasee uses puppy eyes sam: sure sam, internally: why did i say yes????

sam then has to pretend to be sam and sam nook at the same time

tommy: you're gonna love sam nook sam!!!! sam: uhuh tommy: where is he? :( sam: uh maybe hes behind you tommy: turns around to look sam: runs to other side of tommy sam, in sam nook voice: hello tommy!!! tommy: sam nook! have you met sam??? hes right here!!! gestures to sam who has to run behind him again tommy: sam say hi!!! sam, panting, in normal voice: hi tommy: whyre you all out of breath and shit???

this,,, just continues for a while

quackity, watching this exchange, driunking juice: sucks to suck sam: you'd do the same quackity: no. mexican dream is dead lol tommy, only hearing the last part: cries i miss mexican dream quackity, feeling sad: uh- we can revive him maybe? tommy: wipes tears YEAH! sam, whispers to quackity: told you so quackity, hisses to sam : shut up

quackity then has to pretend to revive himself while running around also he has to steal another one of dreams masks

honestly in this au everyone would hear about what happened during exile and stab dream (while pretending to be other people because ig in this au tommy still thinks dream was once his friend and yeh)

tommy, after crying infront of sam nook and telling him what dream did to him: so.. sniffs do you have any more quests for me to do? sam nook: i have one more quest tommy, cheering up: what is it!! sam nook: for myself tommy, confused: what is it? sam nook, taking out a glock: homocide

insanebur: you want to know why no one listens to you tommy? tommy, pouting, on the verge of tears: What? insanebur, unable to finish, clutching his heart: your too cute

this is just au where tommy is baby huh

wilbur isnt mad schlatt exiled him- hes mad he exiled tommy

schlatt and dream are the only ones not affected by tommys baby vibes and thats their downfall

tommy just has to call everyone a nickname, once, and everyone is melted

niki and jack: tommy is the fault of all our probelms we should kill him puffy: he. bonk is bonk baby bonk niki and jack: look over at tommy tommy, with sam in the distance: cries to sam because he cant find sam nook niki and jack: okay... maybe we should be less... violent...

Sam rlly just went

sam: looks at tommyinnit sam: nothing bad will ever happen to this child ever again

huh?

I’ve named this au, au where hes baby ur honour

tommy: i had zero parents (who care) tommy, gestures to puffy and sam: NOW I HAVE TWOOOOOOO

insanebur: god i fucking hate everyone tommy: even me? insanebur: except you tommy

sam: I AM THE TOMMY GAURDIAN! GAURDIAN OF THE TOMMY! sam @ anyone who wants to hurt him: FUCK OFFF

tommy canoanically understands the animal crossing language

ranboo: i can speak enderman! tommy: well i can speak creeper

whenever tommy gets overwhelemed around sam he burys himself he asks sam to cover for him in creeper

okay thats enough of that

#dream smp #tommyinnit #awesamdude #mexican dream #captain puffy #sam and puffy are the only ones who get parental rights #hes baby your honour

[sneezy-cheeseloaf]

recounting the entire avengers: endgame movie, which i only saw once when it came out, from memory

because i just took the SAT and i want to do anything except think about that so get ready for a fun ride full of holes and my reenactments of scenes and quotes that i remember from however many years it’s been now since endgame came out. buckle the fuckle up

movie opens, clint’s whole ass family fucking dies. cue killing spree fueled by grief and anger. HashTag Relatable

tony is floating through space with nebula and teaching her how to play paper football

holy shit is this how tony dies

“pep” ouc h

oh hey he’s home, dope

The Gang (tm) learns where thanos’s farm is somehow i can’t really remember

“perhaps i judged you too harshly”

“???? thor????” “what? i went for the head”

“five” five what?? days?? weeks??? months???? oh boy i can’t wait to find ou- “years later” HUH???????

steve looks the exact same, so i guess he kept up that workout schedule even through the snap. i mean good for him honestly

and is also running a talk therapy group like sam did

a single smidgen of gay representation but it’s a good start ig

i don’t really remember what everyone else was doing, i just know that tony and pep have morgan now but idk if that gets revealed now or later

the only reason we had a movie is because of a rat. everyone say thank you to Rat for releasing scott lang, please. round of applause

scott’s daughter is all grown up and catch me sobbing over the fact that he wasn’t there to see it

somewhere in here nat is crying and eating a sandwich and honestly girl same

“hey!!! it’s me!!!! scott lang!!! ant man???? also what the hell happened???? lemme IN”

cue scott lang having a single brain cell and bringing up time travel. i think it was him that proposed the idea. maybe not. but imma give him credit

oh yeah bruce and hulk are besties now and bruce is just permanently Like That

and cue everyone being shook at the idea of time travel

time to go see Science Man at his house on the lake

“i wish you had come for anything else.” ouch

gang leaves dejectedly

peter. that’s it. and suddenly tony is all hands on deck

cue science mumbo jumbo in the middle of the night while he eats something out of a bag that i can’t remember

“shit!!” “sHiT!!!” “NO”

“i love you 3000″

Science Man reveals that he has, indeed cracked the code to literal time travel

cue nat, the only person with an umbrella, going to find clint who is busy with murder, as he does

“don’t do that. don’t give me home” stfu budapest man and get in the car.

thor has. enlargened. and is now playing fortnight with korg as a means to cope with what happened plus losing loki, as i think we all would

The Gang is back together and working (surprisingly) coordinately and throwing ideas around and it’s actually very cute. and it makes my heart very happy. and i want to cry every time i think about it because we all know what comes next

scott’s taco gets blown away. bruce gives him another. all is well in the world

and in this exhibit we see the only brain cell in the whole group, which is being used by rhodey at all times

“why don’t we just,,,, (choking motion)” “to a BABY???”

during the time tests someone gets reverted to a baby but i don’t remember who and it’s highkey disturbing

“i consider this an absolute win!!”

cue slo mo walk with the cool white time suits that everyone looks so good in

“see you in a minute” that smile. she looks so happy. sobbing

i think it’s in here that all the color go through steve’s eyes, so let’s just take a minute to acknowledge how pretty he is

“just for the record, that suit did nothing for your ass.” “i don’t remember asking you to look”

“that’s america’s ass.” yes it is scott you’re absolutely right

“i cOuLd dO tHiS aLL dAy” “yeah i knoOoOW”

time for tony to give tony a heart attack and then just stare in what i can only assume is amusement. i’m pretty sure that comes after america’s ass but maybe not

somewhere in here steve is just staring at peggy through blinds and it’s sad when you see it but when you think about it afterwards, it’s so funny for no reason

time to get whacked by a very angry hulk who was not allowed to use the elevator

“NO STAIRS”

tony goes flying. so does the tesseract. loki, in handcuffs, is like “oh bet this is mine now” and. Leaves.

i’m pretty sure it’s bruce who goes and gets schooled by The Ancient One on the multiverse, and i say it’s bruce because i think he’s the only one out of The Gang who could ever actually wrap his head around it

i don’t remember exactly how they get the tesseract but they do

thor and rocket are in asgard and thor has a panic attack, as I think we all would if we had to talk to our dead mother and pretend like we don't know what's going to happen

and remember kids, slapping someone is not the way to handle a panic attack. anyways

a mother always knows

"i'm still worthy!!!!" you always were, thor. you never stopped being worthy

and we have our hammer back

cue sobbing on vormir

“clint. it’s ok. it’s ok.” that smile.

nat’s fucking dead and i’m fucking dead inside let’s keep this party goin

other stones are recovered and i don’t really remember how but hey we got all six

“where’s nat?” cue more sobbing from me and from clint as you can see each and every team member’s heart drop to the fucking floor. especially steve

yeah maybe we’re doing this for half the universe and all the people we lost, but mostly for nat now

tony’s makeshift infinity gauntlet has entered the chat

Green Man is the only one who can physically take the power of the stones, so the fate of literally everything they have ever done up to this point is on him

snap rest in peace bruce’s arm

cue every single person in the theater holding their breath

“guys. it worked.”

cue explosion as their facility gets bombed and i am terrified that it has killed the entire gang

but it obviously has not and i am once again a Class A Idiot

i can't remember if it’s steve or tony who wakes up first but one shakes the other awake and is like “get the fuck up bitch idk what just happened but we got a problem”

everyone is mostly fine. but they’re all alive and that’s what matters

and now we have the setting for the entire rest of the movie basically

oh hey thanos. that’s uh. that’s a big army you got there

i don’t really remember everything that happened with The Past thanos, gamora, and nebula but i remember that gamora once again sees what a twat her adoptive father is and is like “oh hell na”

cue the gang fighting for their lives against Past thanos. literally

oh shit thor’s about to be killed????

OH MY GOD HE HAS THE HAMMER

cue the theater screaming as they should

hell yeah. bonk that giant space grape with the god of thunder’s hammer. you go steve. and look like a badass doing it as you should

shit’s still fucked and they eventually get their asses handed to them one by one

somewhere in here the shield breaks just like we saw in age of ultron. and like damn bro i liked that thing

steve stands up by himself because bitch. you cant kill him unless he says so. he dies on his own terms. he didn’t live for over a fucking century to die like this

our mans is standing up against a whole ass army knowing full well that he can’t win but damn if he aint ready to try

“ok listen strange. you have to open the portal to his left. his LEFT. you hear me???”

“steve. STEVE. on your left.”

cue the most goosebump-inducing scene that i have ever seen and probably will ever see. i would do anything to see that scene for the first time again. that feeling was like nothing i’ve ever experienced

the amazing symphonics are NOT helping my already-about-to-explode-from-excitement heart

now the gang’s ALL here. and we all cry because all of our peeps are back from the dead and we all missed them and highkey grieved for them after infinity war

i can’t remember if steve actually sees bucky yet but i think he does and i wanted to cry on the spot because not only did i miss bucky but man did i just want them to see each other again

cue sick pan of the whole ass marvel roster like smash ultimate, including howard duck somewhere in there

PETER OUR BOY SWINGIN ON IN

“AVENGERS. assemble.” “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA”

but we all know damn well that not a single person could hear him whisper that shit. like steve bro speak up a little

and the battle for the ages commences

we get to see all our favorite boys are girls fuck shit up and it’s absolutely incredible. wow it really feels like someone’s missing who could that be.

this is now a very elaborate game of keepaway

“catch” “Catch” “CATCH “CATCH”

“hey queens” he remembered. catch me cryin

“hey peter. got somethin for me?” god i love her. flew through a whole ass spaceship. no stoppin her

t'challa remembers clint's name. he did care

oh yeah scott is fucking humongous again, but third time’s the charm ig. maybe he won't pass the fuck out this time

somewhere in here, strange starts holding like. an entire ocean back and i dont really remember where it came from

we get a whole segment of marvel women kicking ass and taking names and i think i just need to take a minute. WE collectively need to take a minute

carol flies straight through a spaceship and everyone is like ???? hello????? where have you been?????????

carol gets literally headbutted by thanos and doesnt move a fucking inch. and that look of murder in her eyes. she could tell me to walk into a pit of lava and i would not question it. the power

“launch the missiles!!!” “but sir, our army-” “DO IT”

damn thanos our expectations for you were low but holy fuck

somewhere in here i think petter quill sees Past gamora and is like gamora???? and she like kicks him in the balls or somethin and is like “this is the ones i picked?????”

the fight continues and honestly a lot of it’s a blur but damn was it not the coolest thing i’ve ever seen. 

cue strange knowing exactly how this was gonna go down, and holding up a single finger

i dont think ive ever seen that look on tony's face before

oh shit thanos has the gauntlet and all the stones. fuck.

wait holdup that gauntlet looks a little funky

WAIT HOLDUP

“i am inevitable”

“and i. am iron man.”

the theater, once again holds its breath

all is lowkey calm and everyone is shook

thanos’s entire army slowly fades away. including one of those big worm things that almost eats (i think it was) rocket but like. dusts right as it hits the ground and is a really cool shot

and thanos sits down on a rock. and finally is gone. and it's so cathartic

oh joyous day!! they’ve won!! they’ve done it!!! wait holdup where’s tony. i remember what happened to bruce where the fuck is tony

wait

wait hold on

wait hold on a minute

“we did it. we won, mr stark. we won. please, mr stark”

“pep.”

“it’s ok. you can rest. you can rest.”

i have officially passed away and am a sobbing mess. you can’t do this to me. he’s gonna come back. there’s no way. tony stark doesn’t die. no.

this is a fucking funeral. i am going to combust into tears

“proof that tony stark has a heart”

i just wanted him to be able to see morgan grow up.

but him and nat are eating shawarma together in the sky now.

“i’m recording this in case something goes wrong, which it won’t.”

“i love you 3000.”

oh we’re still rolling. oh we don’t even get a minute to process

steve is leaving??? wait holdup we cant lose both. no

“are you sure about this?” “i have to”

“i’m with you til the end of the line” so that was a fucking lie

but steve deserves to do what makes him happy. so i can’t be too mad. actually, nah i aint even mad i’m just sad

bucky looks so dejected. so sad. someone please give him a hug. he desperately needs it

oh hey steve. but you’re old now. hey then, grandpa. how did you. get there

buck and sam go talk to him as they should

“you wanna talk about her?” “no, i don’t think i will”

“how does it feel?” “like it belongs to someone else”

sam has officially inhered the shield, and by extension, his very own bucky barnes. it’s a packaged deal

clint’s got his family back. and they can finally finish their picnic or whatever they were doing at the beginning of the movies

and steve finally got that dance. finally. and he looks so happy. so content.

and that’s about all i remember

i have not watched endgame since i saw it in theaters when it came out because i absolutely do not have the emotional stability to do it again. but damn the disney plus shows have been bangin

i hope you enjoyed the ride, thank you for joining me in my. whatever the fuck this is

#marvel #avengers #mcu #mcu quotes #endgame #avengers endgame #steve rogers #tony stark #thor #natasha romanov #natasha romanoff #clint barton #bruce banner #sam wilson #bucky barns #this took me a whole ass hour #an hour well spent #i know i missed things #but it was like 3 years ago ok #marvel's avengers

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom, season 3, episodes 1-2 thoughts! I had to split up my season 3 watch awkwardly because the second part of it was too picture heavy and tumblr only wants you to have 10 pictures per post, per the No Fun Allowed Rule. :/ I was planning on just doing 1-6 then 7-13, but, it'll probably be split into 3 posts now... (along with a follow up thoughts post after I finish and think on it for a lil while...)

see prev episode thoughts in this tag <3

-vlad got a new mansion. and the guys in white IMMEDIATELY BREAKS IN AND STARTS SMASHING THE SHIT OUT OF EVERYTHING, DESTROYING HIS NEW MANSION KAJDFHSSKADJKJN. NEVER LAUGHED SO HARD IN MY LIFE. 'the greatest practical joke ever' TUCKER YOU ARE SOOO RIGHT.

-'DAnnY FenTon MadE mE ThE LaugHINg StOCk oF WisCONsIn' if you dont shut up. you made yourself a laughing stock. love the cute pink hotel room. also, Vlad's Naked on The News. VLAD BUYING THE NASTY BURGER TO TEAR IT DOWN. the way they keep escalating these..pranks? IS TEARING DOWN A BUISSNESS A PRANK?? (the metric by which I decide if its a prank is if its funny to me or not. vlads house being torn down? funny prank. local burger place being torn down? maybe not. MAYBE the naked on the news prank was pushing it because he WAS in a hotel just, minding his own business, but like, he stays bothering danny for no reason when danny is just minding his own business, too! its not right but there IS a sense of vindication here. yknow?

-...'at least now he's channeling his sociopathic lonely bachelor energy into something positive!' this is unironically an insult to actual sociopathic people. 'but he doesnt care about other people!' 'and thats why he'll make a great politician!' BRUTAL. but not untrue? I mean, this is not at ALL surprising. hes a billionaire via cheating and lying, and already a huge Slimeball. So yeah, politician is 100% right.

-but did vlad move to amity park? I might be wrong about this, or illinois laws might be different, but I kinda assumed if you're running for election for mayor in a town, that you had to live within the voting jurisdiction and be registered to vote there. I mean, he's temporarily in a hotel and technically displaced rn (...I thought for sure he'd have more vacation homes...) so I guess there's probably a grace period to find a permanent home in amity park?

-ME, CHEERING DANNY ON EVERY SINGLE TIME HE BEATS VLAD UP, BEING SO PROUD OF MY SON:

-'hes overshadowing the voters!' why...are you surprised, danny???? election fraud is Nothing. did you forget he stole BILLIONS OF DOLLARS.

-ok the school uniforms are kinda cute tho lol.

-NO TEENAGERS ALLOWED IN THE NEW RESTURAUNT?? WHAT KIND OF BUISSNESS IS THAT,, SO PETTY. tucker straight up tearing off the security camera. king of property destruction

-vlad trying to make life hell. For a 14 year old. who is trying to genuinely apologize and offer a truce (despite all the creepy and fucked up things vlad has done to him and his family). what the fuck can I even say about this. I think i've said several times while watching 'what the fuck is wrong with you', i need a stronger statement.

-Teens Against McMasters! Fries Not Lies! I want to see vlad get mauled by teens. I want them to start Throwing Rocks.

-vlad saying 'dudes' is the worst thing I've ever heard.

-danny overshadowing the clone was GENIUS AND MAKING HIMSELF LOOK INJURED. SO PROUD OF YOUUUU. USE HIS OWN TACTICS AGAINST HIM. GET HIS ASS.

-frostbite's design is really interesting. ghost...bones... incased in ice?? anyway im so glad danny is getting more hugs :)

-oh, they basically worship(?) or put danny on a pedestal because he defeated pariah?? well IM happy for him having more ghosts that are friendly to him :) also, sam and tucker's lil snow jackets...super cute.

-more ghost lore!!! THE BERMUDA TRIANGLE IS A GHOST PORTAL. OF COURSE.

-VLAD ACTUALLY DID GET A CAT AWWW KITTY I WUV U KITTY. who he plays chess with...okay, you know what, thats so valid. and actually, pets are usually actually good for mental health, you have a lil guy to care for and they can give u a reason to try ur best so u can provide for them, and they are always good for comfort...good job, vlad!! next go to therapy. 'if anyone asks, you're my sister's cat!' so does he actually HAVE a sister? can she come beat him up

-sam is Right. they shouldve immediately taken the map back to frostbite! but I get it, exploring Can Be Fun

-'carnivorous canyon' in the ghost zone is just mystery flesh pit

-vlad is going to burn a 14 year old girl at the stake. you know, I half expected clockwork to come up and stop this, because they're fucking with time, BUT. nope. this is nbd, I guess.

-well, blood blossoms are terrifying. I know 'ive never eaten a vegetable in my life!' was tucker being hyperbolic, but this kid is going to get so many digestive problems if he doesnt Start Eating Healthier.

-...vlad wanted to go to rome and be a god?? I want to know where he self-inserted himself in their already established pantheon. what did he say he was the god of??

-VLAD SET THE ENTIRETY OF ROME ON FIRE. SO THEY PROBABLY ASSUME GOD OF DESTRUCTION. GOD OF ASSHOLERY.

-how embarrassing, to swordfight a 14 year old and struggle to win. lmfao they keep running vlad off every place he tries to take over

-'if i can destroy the first airplane, man will never fly and I will rule the air!' VLAD. DO YOU THINK. DO YOU THINK THE WRIGHT BROTHERS WERE THE ONLY PEOPLE TO THINK OF AND CONCEPTULIZE FLIGHT???! oh my god he is so dumb. people have always been trying to fly even before that, and even if you destroyed (1) plane its not like no one else could make one??? as if people hadn't already been making hot air balloons since the 1700s??? or coming up with concepts, and studying on how to make them work? starting to think vlad shouldve paid attention in college and not been so fixated on maddie. or, I dunno, read a book in his huge library...(I mean, I dunno what he majored in or studied in college, but it obviously wasnt history...)

-vlad getting his ass kicked by snow dogs and getting shidded on by a pigeon :)

-'hes got more in common with us than he realizes!' DANNY IS A YETI??? CONFIRMED (no,, but I hope that means we'll see more of the far frozen! I like them :)

-what in the world was this episode tho. like..okay?? vlads plans did not make ANY sense to me, like, was I missing something , or. WHY is he so fixated on Ruling all of the sudden...sure he might be power-hungry, feeling powerless can do that and I'm sure the accident/being abandoned made him feel that way, but its always felt like his real end goal was just to steal jack's family out of jealousy and spite, not to like. um,, rule rome I guess. ?? theres No Maddie In Rome, Vlad.

#sanchoyorambles #dp thoughts #danny phantom

[cunaeparker]

hi could i request smt for harry holland? maybe u guys are best friends but he really likes u. the story is just him pining over u and loving all the things u do (like maybe ur just studying or laughing but his so enchanted by u) and its super sweet and cute. it ends w him finally just giving u a little kiss bc he couldnt contain his feelings anymore? thank you!

sure ! i dont really write for harry holland that often so this is gonna be new :) this doesnt rly follow what u asked kinda but we’re gonna see how it turns out

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In Which They Race a Blue Staffy | H. Holland 

***

Spending time together on weekends wasn't an uncommon thing for both Harry Holland and Y/N Y/L/N.

Usually, it was spent editing Harry's films, arguing with his brothers on matters that couldn't be less important, helping Sam cook meals for the family, and studying; Y/N wanted to be a nurse and the hours she had to put into school were gruelling, so Harry figured that she might as well have a study-buddy — which was him.

Honestly, he didn't understand the terms whatsoever, because he had to quiz her on things like 'mycoplasma gallicepticum,' and other really tough names that he could barely pronounce. But in the end, he didn't mind.

She was his everything.

As much as he hated the fact that she was blissfully unaware of it, he still liked how he could admire her from afar.

The way she smiled was entrancing, because occasionally, in an instance where they just finished going over an exhausting set of slides with eighty terms, the way her lips twisted up into a fully genuine smile was mesmerizing. Her nose would wrinkle and her eyes would gleam in nothing other than unadulterated relief, relieved laugh rasping from the back of her throat as she slammed her laptop closed and leaned forward to rest her head on Harry's shoulder.

She was gorgeous without trying and it drove Harry mad.

And that's where he found himself now, watching her study yet again, observing how her eyebrows would furrow and knit together when there was a particularly nasty term on her Google Slide. She bit her lip and frowned for a moment, pausing — most likely thinking of something important because she never hesitated — before typing away furiously. She was most likely copying and pasting more accessible information onto another slide and pondering on whether or not her professor would find out where she got her information.

Harry couldn't help the laugh that escaped his throat at the thought.

Y/N's frown etched deeper into her face at the sudden interruption, looking up at him irritably through her lashes. "What?"

"Nothing," Harry said, lips twitching up into a smirk. "You look really 'in the zone' right now."

She gazed him for a moment, before sighing and going back to her notes yet again.

"Yeah, well, that tends to happen when you're in med school," she mumbled, looking at her splayed open textbook beside her and typing in some new terms. Her eyes were darting back and forth, brain obviously at hard work, and again, Harry couldn't help but to feel a swell of admiration. She was brilliant.

"Harry?"

Her lips were moving, but she was probably just mouthing something silently to herself. Yeah, that's it. She's mumbling. It's endearing, watching her work. Harry smiled softly, watching her as he flicked absentmindedly through the pages of written notes in her binder —

"Harry!"

Harry's head whipped up, a sudden surge of embarrassment flooding his veins. A small bit of red crawled up onto his cheeks. "Yeah?"

Y/N raised an eyebrow. "I asked you something."

"What was it?"

Y/N looked at him for a moment again, gaze slightly accusatory though confused — but Harry wasn't alarmed. She had been going at it for hours and all Harry had done was read the terms out loud and scroll through his phone.

"I asked you if you wanted to go to the park with Tessa later," Y/N said. "But only if Tom allows it, of course. He holds onto that dog like a fucking child."

Harry laughed. "I've never heard truer words."

Y/N's lips twitched up into a smile, a true, genuine smile that only came from doing something rewarding like studying for hours on end. Harry's pulse quickened.

"Alright, then," she said brightly, all traces of irritation gone from her voice. She got up from Harry's bed with a huff. "Do you wanna go now?"

"N-Now?" Harry stammered, grimacing at the way his voice seemed to turn on him, "like, right now?"

Y/N smirked. "Yes, Holland, now." She gave him a look and began sorting her papers that were splayed all over his bed. "We only have a few hours left of daylight, and I wanna see the sunset."

"Okay, but you know you're gonna have to get past Tom first -"

Y/N chuckled. "C'mon, Harry. He loves me. I'm sure we'll be able to bring Tess."

Harry couldn't ignore how his heart clenched a little bit at the mention of his brother loving her, but with a small smile, handing over the papers sprawled out on his side of the bed, he said, "I'm sure we'll get through to him."

Y/N hummed in agreement.

"Yeah," she shrugged, "though I still don't understand how he's so attached to that damn dog."

"It's Tom," said Harry amusedly. "He gets attached to things the literal moment he looks at it."

"Very true, very true."

They packed up her notes and laptop for a few more minutes, and miraculously, with only a few pleads and a brisk kiss on the cheek from Y/N (Harry really couldn't ignore how his jaw clenched then), they were off with Tessa at the park a few minutes away from their home.

Conversation ebbed and flowed from topic to topic as they strolled leisurely. Y/N was smiling in that entrancing way of hers, Tessa was practically cutting off the circulation to Harry's hand because she kept trying to bound away and his hand was wrapped pretty tightly around her leash, and the golden glow of dark purples and pinks and oranges doused the park, taking his breath away.

It was gorgeous, but as he glanced to the side of him and watched Y/N gaze at the sky with nothing other than child-like wonder, mouth slightly agape and hands shoved in her Cambridge hoodie, he realized that the only thing more beautiful than the sunset was the girl standing awe-struck in front of him.

But with a particularly shrill bark from Tessa that made Harry's ears ring, the moment was over and he was back to the ground. He frowned. She was so ethereal, and he didn't want to take his eyes off her — but alas, the dog had to be tended to.

Y/N laughed and leaned down, face-to-face with Tessa, hands on her knees. Tessa bounded up and licked her face — making her laugh warmly again.

"You need to run around, Tess?" she sung, bouncing up and down slightly and making the dog jump too, completely happy in that certain dog-like way that made Harry realize: humans did not deserve dogs. Y/N smiled and pet Tessa behind her ears, reaching down to unclasp her leash.

Y/N turned to Harry with a look of mirth. "Wanna see how fast she goes?"

Harry shrugged, trying not to get too entranced in the way the golden sun washed her face with light. His lips twitched up into a smirk and he crossed his arms.

"Bet you're slower."

Y/N's eyebrows furrowed and her mouth fell open, though she regarded him with amusement.

"No shit," she snorted. "She's a fucking pitbull. How am I supposed to compete with that?"

Harry shrugged again. "Try harder?"

Y/N raised an eyebrow. "OK, do you really wanna see how fast I can go?"

Harry gave himself a mental high-five. He knew she couldn't resist a challenge; she's too competitive. Harry shifted and tilted his head up with a little smirk, goading her.

"Yes, I do, actually," he said, voice laced with challenge.

Y/N bit her lip and bobbed on her feet for a moment, obviously pondering on whether or not she should race a pitbull. Her brows furrowed, but with a small nod of her head, a set look in her eyes appeared.

"I'll do it," she reasoned, "but only if you run with me."

"Done," said Harry confidently.

"Perfect."

Y/N looked to Tessa, who was still bounding and whining, desperate to be set free. She smiled at the dog, and looked at Harry with something he couldn't quite place, competitiveness, maybe — but only before letting go of the dog.

She began sprinting off with a trill of laughter, shrieking happily as her legs pounded quickly on the soil.

"Hey!" cried Harry indignantly, a little offended at her cheating though he still set off seconds behind her with a loud laugh. "You're a bloody cheat!"

"And you're bloody slow!"

Tessa was metres in front of her and Harry was already catching up. He could hear her heavy breathing and it was already declared that both of them lost because Tessa was already at the small thicket of trees and Harry and Y/N were a good thirty metres behind her, but, that made it even better — because now, it was a competition between the both of them.

Harry could hear Y/N's heaving breaths pick up as her legs pounded harder, and though she had a good five second start, he was already catching up to her.

"Hey!" he called, "you're rubbish!"

"Says the one -" a heave of breath, "behind me!"

Harry let out a laugh, getting closer to her now. He could reach out and touch her hair if he wanted to.

"Not anymore, you tw—"

Suddenly, his foot landed in a small hole. He cried out in pain and twisted his ankle, falling forward and reaching out blindly for the only thing to stop him from falling face-first — Y/N. He shrieked and grabbed onto her sweater, and with a scream from her and a gasp from him, they came tumbling down in a heap of sweaty limbs and pounding hearts.

"Hey!"

"You fucking cretin, how did you not see that hole?"

"It's small! And it's not my fault, if you weren't so slow I wouldn't have tripped into you!"

"It's not 'my fault?' You're the one that fell into me!"

Harry went to say something else, eyes narrowed and ready to retort, but only until he noticed the position they were in. His heart nearly stopped and he sucked in a breath.

His arms were above her head (that of which was glaring at him irritably), and his legs were tangled with hers. His chest was pressed against hers and he could feel the racing of her heart. It was close, too close, and with his sudden silence, Y/N seemed to notice the compromising position they were in, too. Her eyes widened and Harry swore he could feel her heart rate pick up a tenfold.

His eyes darted from where his hands were planted to her face, too scared to gaze at her lips in fear of her noticing because she's so goddamn analytical and she could probably read the look on his face right now, God, she definitely can, because her eyes are fluttering closed and she's leaning forward, hands reaching up to probably pinch his cheek —

No, her hands are cupping his face and she's getting closer than ever, he can smell her — the overwhelming scent of mint, mixed with dirt and grass and a little bit of blood (ashamedly).

Harry's heart seemed as if it wa going to burst out of his ribcage now.

"Y/N?" he asked quietly, unconsciously leaning forward. "What are we — mmph."

She's kissing him. Her lips are on his. Y/N's kissing him.

Harry's eyes widen at the suddenness of it all. His heart is now hammering at an inhumanly fast pace and he's positive he's going to pass out. It's not him who initiated it, it's her, who always laughed with him, cried with him, and filmed with him — who was always there and held the promise of always.

She was always there for him. He was her everything, too.

With that thought in mind, Harry smiled against her lips, teeth against teeth, leaning forward to touch their foreheads. A silent gesture of affection. He propped himself up a bit more and tangled his fingers in her hair, loving the way her breath hitched even though her eyes remained closed.

"Harry?"

"Yes?"

Her breath was fanning against his lips. Her hands were trembling against his cheekbones.

"I love you."

There was no hesitance in her words. It was genuine.

Genuine like her smile Harry fawned over so often, genuine like their feelings towards one another... no reluctance. Fact.

Harry smiled. Her pressed his lips to hers again. "I love you too."

Y/N smiled.

It was more radiant than any other one he had seen; more radiant than any other one had had memorized and replayed in his head. She was glowing, like the sunset now turned to dark twilight, and there was one thing repeating in his mind.

She loved him, too.

She loved him.

#harry holland #harryholland #anon #holland family #tessa #tomholland #tom holland #friends to lovers #harry holland fluff #x reader #fem!reader #mcu #sam holland #samholland #harry holland x reader #tom holland fandom

[indulgnces]

hello! it’s jess again with my new final girl bb brooke under the cut! (AHS 1984 SPOILERS!) I’m playing her pre-prison for the most part, but legit after this next episode there are gonna be some new attributes given to her, so I’ll circle back and change as needed after Wednesday!

❛  ( LILY COLLINS )  ◈  dude, shut up ! BROOKE THOMPSON from AHS: 1984 is on screen. their fans swear they’re just COMPASSIONATE & CLEVER, but we’ve all seen their RESERVED & SKEPTICAL side ! according to TRUMAN WIKIA, they’re TWENTY-FOUR years old, CLOSETED BISEXUAL, & identify as CISFEMALE ( SHE/HER ). they’re currently a VETERINARY ASSISTANT & are CONFUSED about life in truman. luckily they have THEIR ENGAGEMENT RING AND HER KNIFE with them & can visit THE ROLLER RINK whenever they want. penned by JESS.

so her bio is always subject to change depending on what happens, as her show is currently airing, so a final version of her won’t come around for another couple weeks. but below is a sketch of my sweet & badass final girl brooke thompson (spoiler warning for ahs 1984!!)

CANON LIFE 

(gun tw, murder tw)

“I, uh I had this dumb idea, this, this dream to-” “To be somebody?” “No. To be nobody.....I pretended for so long to be somebody that I wasn't. Now I don't even know who I am.”

was a smart child who liked to learn. top of her all her classes. goodie-goodie who I wouldn’t call a nerd or a teacher’s pet, just like a prepared student who kept to herself and aced all her shit

things were smooth but then there was this entitled jerky bad Nice Guy who kept coming in 2nd behind her, and instead of pushing himself to idk be smarter than brooke and be on top on his own, he bitched and straight up stopped talking to brooke

that wasn’t enough for the baby tho, and so he convinced everyone else in their class to stop talking to brooke too. fucking iced out by her entire class

brooke did not like that. v much did not like that. she is a bit of a people pleaser, and can be easily peer pressured, and the idea of people thinking of her in a negative light, the idea that she was making other people mad or upset for some reason, didn’t set well with her, so she started to fail on purpose

pretended to be dumber than she was until she fell into the #2 spot, then the icing out stopped and the mean Nice Guy asked brooke out and ....she said yes bc well, why not?

flash forward and he’s asking her to marry him and she says yes for the same reasons before and though they’ve been together for years, they’ve never had sex/were saving themselves 

did i forget to mention Nice Guy was a jealous guy? i feel like that was implied, but yeah he was a v jealous boy, and during their wedding he accused brooke of sleeping with his best man sam duke (montana’s brother wassup), then proceeded to shoot sam, brooke’s dad when he tried to protect brooke, and then aimed that gun at brooke before shooting himself instead

#traumatized 

brooke got the hell out of dodge after that. didn’t want to be that girl anymore. didn’t want to be the Smart Girl or the Girl Who Slept With Her Fiance’s Best Man or the Girl With The Crazy Fiance or the Girl With The Murder Wedding like she just didn’t want to be anybody, wanted to blend into a crowd of strangers and disappear

where better to do that than los angeles? 

moved to la, got into santa monica college to take classes towards becoming a veterinarian assistant, was just gonna chill

then the night stalker decided to break into her apartment and try to kill her, but she’s got Balls and is clever when in danger, so she beat him with a frying pan and made a lot of noise and her neighbors heard and saved her life so #bless

decided again to get the hell out of dodge and go with a group of new friends to be a camp counselor at camp redwood for the summer because fun!!!! and safety, mostly

except not fun OR safe bc their first night there and she’s nearly killed by THREE killers (richard, mr.jingles, and fucking MONTANA) on separate occasions, had a traumatized night all around, and when daylight broke, she managed to kill that bitch montana in an act of self defense

bad timing tho bc she gutted her when a bus full of children were driving by, so like, not a good look, and then that bitch camp owner & true serial killer psycho margaret decided to pin all the murders on brooke so (upside down smile face emoji yknow the one)

brooke was found guilty and, after five years in jail, was sentenced to death by lethal injection

sentence was carried, brooke died an Absolute Boss, giving no fucks to richard (this man terrified her before and now she doesnt give two shits my gIRL!!), spitting at margaret, just being a badass, and then afterwards donna gave her a dose of adrenaline and brought my girl back to life

donna brought her back to health, and during that time brooke bonded and began to trust her. she also found out about margaret returning to camp redwood for a festival, and has made it her mission to go back and gut that lying bitch for the hell she put her through before she can go on with her life

also on her one day of fun out of the hotel after her recovery, she had a brief run in with a psycho serial killer bc (donna &) brooke’s apparently just serial killer BAIT, but guess what? just like every time before my girl used her fucking brain and got both her and donna out of their situation, and because she’s a badass now, she didn’t run away this time, instead she stayed and finished the job - opting to tie the psycho up and cut off his hitchhiking thumbs like a fucking BOSS i love her

now walking the way to redwood with her girl donna

and that’s everything of brooke thus far in canon! I’ll add more when the series ends!

FUN FACTS & HEADCANONS

did not sleep with sam, thank you very much

lost her virginity to ray, the ghost, during that traumatizing night at redwood and it was only Okay

was kissed by montana during that traumatizing night before it came to light that montana fucking hated her guts, and um that split second kiss did more for her than sex with ray? (no tea no shade ray you got a shudder or two out of her okay (but not the o oof)) brooke didn’t know she could feel that way towards women until montana kissed her and that shit SCARED her so she freaked and ran

so you know how brooke told donna not to kill that psycho killer who tried to kill them when they were on the road? it wasn’t because she wanted to torture him. it’s because she didn’t want donna to have to go through the trauma of killing somebody. bc even though she knows she was justified in killing montana, and she had to do it to save her life, she still went through the trauma of knowing she ended someone’s life, and she compassionate and doesn’t want her friend to deal with it either. she’s not about that murder game now, she’s not gonna kill if she don’t have to. but she’s not the same as she was before, not gonna let ppl get off scotch free - aka why she took the man’s thumbs & tied him up: punishment for what he did, and she left him there vulnerable to either die, or more likely: be found by a passing car, and face the punishment for what he did

girl really is serial killer bait though. idk what it is. when she was an innocent girl just trying to get through life? encountered her joey her fiance (killed 3 ppl including himself), ramirez (killed 13? people and counting), montana (psycho killed at least 2 people, presumably more, and counting), and mr. jingles (killed 5+ people) - most of who just wanted to kill her to killer her. then she became a bad bitch. and again, serials killers took an interest in her, with both ramirez & psycho bruce hitchhiker both amused by her new thick skin smhhh, girl can’t catch a break one way or another with these killers.

TRUMAN

“I don’t know what’s real. I- I don’t even trust myself.”

ah, truman, brooke has been utterly confused about truman

because brooke, she buys the story the actors have told her 

okay, so she moved to truman after the Red Wedding nightmare, okay, sure

but like, she spent five years in jail for crimes she didn’t commit, and that shit has left an IMPRESSION on this girl and so she’s also like, something doesn’t add up

but she’s not suspicious by nature, and she’ll believe what she’s been told, because why rock the boat and say otherwise? 

so she got her degree in truman in biology, with intentions to pursue veterinary school for her doctorate and obtain her license, and she hasn’t spoken her doubts aloud 

but like, LATELY (*cough* with the season’s premiere *cough*), babe’s been more confused than usual, with intense bouts of memories coming back to her

and she’s expressed these distressing memories to the actors, who act the same way the redwood crew did to her when she told them she was being chased by mr.jingles that first episode: they mocked and laughed her off, got her to believe what they needed her to

but just like redwood, with each passing week the memories won’t stop, and she’s been Distressed and then her PRISON EPISODE hit her and the sensation of dying has fully convinced her that these are not just dreams, these events are real, and she’s not sure how to process it

since the memories have returned, her new experiences and thick skin from prison has returned, making her wary of strangers once again, but it’s battling with her current perception of the world, and it’s all especially especially in this place that’s filled with people trying to tell her that’s she crazy for her memories

PERSONALITY

okay so, before prison? girl was naive and dependent and trusting and believed n the best of people. she got scared easy, had trouble being alone at night, and relied on the people around her for protection in life. she went with the flow and had little agency in her life, as she allowed her controlling fiance to p much dictate her life tbh 

before prison but after her red wedding, brooke became more reserved then usual, because she had an intense desire to be alone, and to be away from the stigmas and the reputation she had in her old life following the nightmare event. it was her first taste of independence, though she was still dependent in nature, as the second a group of friends came into her life, she found herself following their lead, tagging along.

after prison? total change. five years - NO, 1825 DAYS - in prison absolutely changed her. she looked back at her life and that night and realized she was too trusting. she got warnings and scares multiple times that day and night at redwood, from the gas station employee to the hitchhiker to the mystery phone call to the news report to LITERALLY BEING CHASED and she still didn’t follow her gut - instead she tried to do what everyone else around her told her to do, which was relax because she was supposedly being paranoid. if she had pushed, if she had the nerve to walk away even, none of this would have happened. and she hates herself for that. 

she spent five years as an innocent victim with scary guilty criminals, and she grew a thick skin as a result. lost her innocence and her wide-eyed charm. 

not she’s skeptical, and even more reserved than before, and wary to strangers. she’s still compassionate and helpful, still feels for people and had an urge to help, but she doesn’t follow those urges as helplessly as she did before. she trusts her gut more.

carries around a knife too because, as said earlier, she’s some kinda magnet for killers and you can never be too safe!

I called her clever because my girl, when in life and death situations,is SO FUCKING SMART like she does not go out without a fight and it’s never full on “imma hit you with my fists” its “let me see what I have around me at my disposal” like she is smart and she is quick to grasp a new situation when her life is in peril, she out here wielding frying pans and canoe paddles and using two serials killers pushing her around in a net as momentum to grab a tree and climb out of her net like she’s so smart

when her life is not in peril, though, she be doing dumb shit like sleeping with her window open KNOWING serial killers take advantage of that shit and answering creepy pay phones in the middle of the night so, shes a naive bitch too

positive: compassionate, determined, honest, clever, resourceful, helpful, kind

negative: reserved, skeptical, resentful, paranoid, tense, touchy, withdrawn

SUBJECT TO CHANGE! as the season progresses.

CANON CONNECTIONS

i basically love brooke with all of the redwood gang tbh

montana? love it. angsty dark shit im game. xavier? love it. soft as fuuuck. richard? game, tell him to fuck off sis he don’t scare you no more. donna? bet, I need this badass duo in my life!!! chet? adorable babies, let them share more marshmallows together. ray? also cute, he may be a coward but he was soft with her so!, trevor? #letsmakebrookeblush2k19 bc that big dick interaction was funny and I wanted more moments of blushing virgin brooke becoming speechless around trevor (and montana, or the ultimate combo of trevor & montana) during a summer at redwood bUT THAT NEVER HAPPENED 

anyways

TRUMAN CONNECTIONS

once again, I’ll probs post smth separate for her connections!

and yeah! that’s everything on my new girl! if you’ve made it this far, you’re still the best my dudes!! if you’d like to do any kind of plotting with my girl, just go ahead and hit that like button, and I’ll slide in y’alls dms! ♥

#truman:intro #intro #face is subject to change as I feel lily out for her #i also didnt proof this so #ahs spoilers

[angeliclunaetic]

just thinking back to the day i met him, till now and,, there was always something about him. something that drew me in and everything just felt right. That day we met,, something about him just drew me in. idk if it was his sense of humor or just how polite n sweet and caring he was in general but it was,, something. idek why i even texted him in the first place. i just commented on his stuff and decided to text him. we talked for a few and then he showed me a pic of himself and i was just,, in awe. he really was the cutest thing ever. yes i had thought abt using him when i first saw him but,, i couldnt even if i had wanted to. i seen his pic and thought “yeah he looks like he’d be easy to use” but then by the end of texting him that night,, i fell so deeply for him. actually no. i already fell for him. way before we even met. that must be how everything felt so right. but just texting him a little bit that first night,, i just instantly wanted to know more about him. i never even talked abt someone else to my gc and for some reason i had the urge to talk about him,, like i knew he was the one but didn’t realize it. and then when we called for the first time,, i swear i had butterflies. even though i was otp with him and his friend,, i was so nervous to just talk to him. i had thought of him as my crush at that point. no one had ever made me feel that way. i never got so nervous to talk to anyone. i wanted to stay quiet that entire time so i wouldnt say something stupid and embarrass myself but something about him,, made me want to be so open. so i talked to him,, and when we got off the phone of our first call,, i was so incredibly sad. i wanted to talk to him more and more and i just wanted to call him again already,, but i wasnt sure how he had felt or if he even felt the same. i thought he did but i didnt wanna assume and make a fool out of myself. i wasnt sure if he had a crush or if he was just being nice. but after a while it was easy to realize. he was way too sweet and caring to me. more than a friend should be. he was there for me the night i was bawling otp w my ex. and he got mad and upset about how my ex was treating me in a way that was different than just my friends. and thats what made me fall for him even more. just him. being himself. him being so sweet. so caring. him just being there for me and not judging me and wanting others to treat me right. and when we videocalled that first time,,i was so nervous. i was worried he’d see what i look like and not be attracted to me anymore. but he still was. but i was so nervous anyways. but when i saw him on video call for the first time,, i was in shock. how could someone be so cute. so perfect. how could someone capture my heart just by simply smiling at me. i knew from then, that i, was in love with him. i wanted to be his so badly. but when he had asked me out i wanted to just scream yes at him,, but something in my mind told me to just calm down and wait,, however a part of me was worried that if i had made him wait that he’d find someone better and leave me. but he didn’t he stayed. even after that night i had told him everything. of how i used to use people and how i had originally planned to use him and he still stayed. i swear i felt my heart break that night and i was crying so much out of fear that he’d leave me before we even got together. i had such strong feelings for him and i wanted him to be mine. but i wanted to make sure i was away from,, that thing,, and that i fully loved him before i got into anything serious. i didnt wanna jump from relationship to relationship either. a part of me just wanted to be single and just have fun. but just,, talking to him and texting him,, i wanted him. i didnt care if i wasnt single. i just wanted him. but also a part of me didnt want to love again. or “love” as i should say considering i never loved anyone before him. i was mentally and emotionally exhausted and relationships are just so much work and you have to give someone such a large piece of yourself and i wouldnt be able to handle being broken again. so many thoughts ran through my head. “what if i dont love him, what if im just attracted to him because im going through things and he’s there for me” “what if he wont wait for me” “what if he doesnt like me “ “what if im using him and dont realize” “what if i get hurt” all these “what if’s” and i never once thought abt the reality of it all. that i, had feelings for him. that he felt the same. that he was willing to wait for me, even if it took years. that he would never hurt me and even allowed himself to be hurt by me if that meant even just getting a chance at me loving him. i guess i was just so worried and just in shock. no ones felt so deeply for me before.and that night that i had asked him out,,, i had seen a pic of my ex with this new girl and i felt absolutely nothing towards it. so then,, thats when i knew. i was over him. that emotional attachment was gone. and my feelings for sam were real. and we had called that night,, that entire night i was so nervous and got butterflies, and i realized i never stopped smiling once during that whole phone call. and after we got of,, i, once again, was extremely sad. i wanted to hear his voice talking to me for hours and hours. i wanted to smile and feel nervous and get butterflies. and at that point i was like,, fuck it. yes i was still worried that my feelings werent true. but what was the harm in trying. he was the only person to have caught my eye in like,, ever. he was on my mind that whole night and probably abt like 30 mins after we got off call i asked him out. my feelings for him were too strong. i was worried he wouldnt wait and i couldnt risk losing someone as special as him to someone else,, if i did, i wouldve never forgiven myself. im glad i asked him out. even though i had surprised myself by it,, i just couldnt wait any longer,, i needed to make him mine. and i did. and i wouldnt change it for the world. the first month for me was very,, rough. of course we were still getting to know each other and our boundaries,, and i of course made some mistakes. my fears of possibly not having true feelings were coming back. and it pushed him away because he didnt wanna get hurt. and he almost left me. those two nights that we had an issue and he had left me,, they broke me. they really did. that  was the worst i had ever been. the crying,, the screaming,, the anger and complete sadness i felt. i felt as if i had lost everything. i felt as if i had nothing left. if i didnt have him,, then,, who am i. im nothing without him. he’s my other half. my soulmate. and i thought i had lost him. im glad im so annoying and clingy otherwise i’d be so fucking heartbroken without him. we had only been together for less than a month those two times and yet i felt so strongly for him. nothing has ever made me feel this way. i had never wanted to keep someone in my life so bad before. it was like,, i needed him to breathe. i needed him to smile. i just,, needed him. i cant live without him. just thinking about a life without him makes me fucking sick. i want him and only him for the rest of our lives. no one can even compare to him. im just,, in shock. like im really in love with him and it just amazes me. im sitting here writing this as he’s sound asleep and i just. i miss him a lot. i guess all my feelings are coming out now since ive been distant the past month but,, i dont care. ill gladly shout from the rooftops how much i love him. god there’s so much more i could say about us. even before we started dating. i cant get over the rush i felt. the excitement, the nerves, the butterflies,, even all the “what if’s”,, i still get nervous and get butterflies when talking to him but ofc they’re not gonna be as strong as when we had met and declared our love for each other. speaking of love,, now im reminded of the day i had told him that i love him,, we had “argued” the day before and i thought i had lost him for good,, and that next day,,i wanted nothing more than to just hold him and kiss him and tell him that i love him. i know the words “i love you” is such a meaningful thing,, i couldnt help but tell him. its exactly how i felt. i loved him. i couldnt be apart from him,, even after only a week of dating him,, i was in love that night i thought he was leaving me for good,, absolutely broke me. and the next day i just wanted to hold him tight and never let him go. even though i was so nervous to tell him that i loved him,, i just,, i knew i was sure. no one had ever made me feel so strongly about them. yeah ive cried over my ex. but nothing could ever compare to just the complete distraught i felt that night. that crying so much it burned my throat and threw up,, the screaming,, just the complete sadness and anger i felt. after that,, i knew i loved him, and i wasnt afraid to tell him. i was nervous bc of how he’d react but i knew that i was never more sure of anything else in my life. i love him. and i want to be with him forever. 

#lovenotesforsam

[ohlukcs]

( alex wolff, male ) did you hear how LUKAS TOZER is applying to columbia university as a FILM & MEDIA STUDIES major ?! the 19 year old is living in the WALLACH HALL. i heard that they got in because they are + PASSIONATE and +THOUGHTFUL, but honestly i think HE can be -ASSUMING and -CYNICAL. they’re a real MAVERICK. oh well, only time will tell if the SOPHOMORE will make it til the end.

about the mun !!

hi hello my name is sam (she/her), im 22, and im a big fat mess at all times :) um but a lil more about me is that i’m australian and a recently graduated film student lmao. i’ve been rping for like ten years now i think idk but i am a NERVOUS BITCH !!!!!!! and it sometimes takes me forever to reply to things (ic and ooc) bc of that so pls be patient with me lmao. anyway, happy 2 be here !! if u like this post i’m gonna assume u wanna plot with me and my idiot and hit u up !!! lets mcfreakin lose it !!!!

about lukas !!

full name: lukas joshua tozer

nickname(s): luk-ass idk whatever u can come up with lmao

age: nineteen

gender: cis male

pronouns: he/him

hometown: jackson, new jersey

date of birth: nov 4th

occupation: student ( film and media studies, sophomore ), cook/server at a nearby 24hr pizza joint

relationship status: single

drink / smoke / drugs: yes / yes / yes

faceclaim: alex wolff

positive traits: passionate, thoughtful, creative, ambitious, untethered, humorous

negative traits: assuming, cynical, insensitive, rebellious, resentful, irresponsible

if he was in a hogwarts house: slytherin

now some more dot points that are just me talking about lukas !!

was born in fort lauderdale florida but there is a vERY low chance he will ever admit that, he’ll just say he’s from new jersey. as far as he’s concerned, he’s always been from new jersey even if his family did move there after he turned twelve

speaking of things lukas probably wont ever tell u but i’m including them anyway: his family is kind of messy. not majorly but like a little bit more than average. he had two brothers, now he only has one. i’m not gonna include a whole lot of nitty gritty here i’ll save it for when i write the real bio and can actually do it justice but its the reason they moved from florida and it has had a pretty major effect on lukas over time obviously

he’s the baby of the family and he’s pretty much always been treated like one. it has left him pretty immature and irresponsible. still learning that his actions have consequences and that he cant just be a total dick all the time. he’s improved in those areas a fair bit since he started at columbia a year ago but he still has a long way to go

he didn’t ever really expect to go to columbia, he’s from a middle class family and his dad didn’t even go to college. he applied for columbia just as a might as well give it a go thing. like maybe it will happen. they had a film course and although the course itself isn’t really great, the connections to the industry available at columbia were valuable enough for him to try. he was wait listed up until basically the last minute, preparing to go to a college in boston instead but when he was accepted he knew he had to go. for himself, for his family, and for his lost brother.

obviously irresponsible attitude has led to some Bad Decision Making including but not limited to partying and drugs. he doesn’t prioritise that lifestyle over his school work (bc he knows how lucky he is to be at columbia at all) but he is a big believer that you need to experience things to be a great artist and he plans on being the greatest artist so bad decision town here we come !!!!

he has a pet goldfish named michael bublé pls dont nark

for more info on him click here to check his about page, no bio there yet but hopefully soon

wanted connections babey !!

course friends/rivals/anything: i am writing these before acceptances happen so i have no good god damn idea if any other characters are film majors but hit me the hell up if they are bc i would love to plot some stuff out

old roommate(s) : lukas was probably an entertaining roommate but probably verged on annoying pretty easily. he’s messy, gross, probably didn’t respect the do ur fucking dishes rule in first year ( probs still doesnt tbh ). but he also has a password to every streaming account plus a phat hard drive full of movies and shows that he is absolutely willing to share with u so just depends what ur into i guess. maybe this connection led to friendship or maybe they hate each other now. im down for either/both 

dealer: hi welcome back to bad decision town. lukas isn’t into any hard stuff but is a big weed smoker (to my understanding medicinal cannabis is allowed but lukas def doesn’t have a prescription), then after that it’s kind of just experimenting. will chat more details if u wanna take this connection

booze leachers: so yes lukas is 19 but he has four, thats right, four fake ids. he is not willing to give u his contact for fake ids but he is willing to buy u booze if u pay him. dont hate the player hate the game

gang gang: pretty much just a close group of friends. i imagine all pretty relaxed, all pretty chill. idk what to say here except i want people to care about him and let him put on dumb movies and watch them with him and probably have dumb matching stick and poke tattoos and hog a communal tv to play mario kart but lets talk about it

fast food workers deserve respect too: as mentioned, lukas works at a 24hr pizza joint near campus which means he’s seen some shit. one of the things he’s seen multiple times is drunk student trashing the place. whether it be vomit, forgetting how to hold a cup, or bet try at a food fight lukas has seen it and he’s cleaned it up too. this connection could be that maybe he helped someone out and cleaned them up and got them back to campus when their friends ditched and now they look out for lukas too and its a positive connection. or maybe lukas hates their guts and spits on their food whenever they show up ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who’s to say

hot girl bummer by blackbear: now listen here’s an angsty connection i want, and i def want to plot it out way more with whoever takes it on but basic outline of what i have in mind: they’ve kind of sort of been dating for a while but they’re just falling out of whatever they had to begin with. they were never official, they probs def fucked around with other people while they were ““““together”””””, lots of oh sorry ur taking it so seriously i thought we were just chilling bullshit. all of this girls friends probs hate lukas and he definitely hates them back. were probably once really good friends and had a really good time together but they’ve lost it. will they find it again or will it fizzle out? lets find out together xoxo

new girl(s) : i hate the connection title too but i couldnt think of anything better. we’re in bad decision town and now we’re going to thot street babey. since things have been falling apart with hot girl bummer and even before that lukas a little bit of a thottie. this doesnt mean he’s good at it, please also feel free for a part of this to be that they rejected lukas and he got butt hurt about it idk lukas being attracted to them is basically this whole idea and i would wanna plot the rest of it more depending on specific characters wooo

lukas is a bad influence: if u have gotten this far u may have noticed that lukas is not a very good influence at all. this is someone probs his age or younger that wants to loosen up and have a good time and lukas completely encourages that. bonus points if this connection is a combo with the above connection bc lukas is a gross boi and would be like wow listening to my bad ideas thats so sexy and cool of u ya know. but also doesnt have to be that ! could just be lukas thinks its funny and thinks that someone listening to him is just like good content that could get him on barstool

lukas is badly influenced: this is basic as hell but someone that tells him to leave his impluse control at the door and encourages him to be trash. probs older than him and i def see this as more of a masc connection than a fem but like all my plot ideas: lets talk about it. this one probs v much depends on ur character so gonna leave this one nice and short

lukas is good-ly (??????) influenced: also basic as hell and p much just the opposite of above. someone who is a good influence on lukas. encourages creativity and ambition instead of straight up recklessness. again, i see it as an older character but no gender seen here. a lot of this would be based around ur character so lets chat

michael bublé’s co parents: lukas has a goldfish named michael bublé (or just michael), i picture him having got it while high as heck during the day and just being like This Is A Good Idea. maybe ur character was with him and they were co parents from the start or maybbe they came into the picture later ??? i’m honestly down for whichever just give michael the love he deserves pls

and probably just about anything else these are just some ideas, i totally wanna plot further and brainstorm so please still hmu if none of these fit ur character we’ll plot something up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#columbiaintro #( about. )

[markpellegrinoimagines]

Ruined fun?

Pairing: Lucifer x reader

Warning: kidnapping, frenzied!Lucifer, smut,

-if your tired of the smut, sorry, but it's a smut series, and theres gonna be few without it, you can just skip it if you like-

%@^#

For the last few weeks y/n and Lucifer had made a home in an abandoned small hotel. Lucifer had fixed it up cleaned all the rooms and made sure everything was modern and fit for his mate.

He had even removed several of the rooms to replace them with a library, the kitchen was up to date and many rooms were tuned into activity rooms and many on the first floor were removed and made into a living room.

The hotel had been refurbished and in its place a beautiful home filled with his mates favorite colors and designs.

When y/n had first been shown around she was amazed. She spent hours thanking him and staying attached to his side. The master bedroom was previously the presidential sweet and the room next to it was turned into a nursery, for the little future arrival.

Present time-

You were lounging in your shared room snacking and rubbing your belly whispering little praises and love to it. You rocked slightly and started to hum, a random tune with no name, but sweet and calming.

This is the site that met Lucifer when he walked in to check up on you. You looked so serene and beautiful, no angel had ever compared to you in his eyes. Your h/l h/c hair, contrasted against your skin and your eyes such a rare shade of e/c. He was lucky to have a goddess such as you.

When you feel his weight settle in behind you, his cool skin pressed against your own heated flesh. His lips press light kisses into your neck as he lays you down, and begins a trail of them down your torso to your heated core.

Hooking his fingers into the elastic of your shorts he slides them down panties and all. The cool air of his breathe against your wet lips send shivers throughout your body. He swipes his fingers along your slit, once then twice before sitting up on his knees and undoing his belt. With baby bump in the way he cant lay across you like before but this position will work just as well.

He runs his hands under your knees and and angles his hips slush against yours, he pushes the head of his cock lightly against you entrance before sliding in. Th drag of him inside you was still as euphoric as the first time.

His pace is controlled and slow; his hands are firm against your thighs. Each thrust is met with a grunt and a moan.

"Lucifer...you feel so good." Your eyes shine up at him with love, his eyes mirrored yours, this wasnt about lust.

"Shh...let me worship your beautiful body mate, just lay back and relax, this is all about you tonight." His hips pick up a faster pace his eyes search her expression for what she likes and what feel the best to her. When she suddenly arches her back with a loud moan he knows he hit that special spot, angling his hips he thrust in harder hitting it over and over until her wet heat clamps down on his length and his hips stutter filling her with his cool seed.

He pulls out their shared juices running down her thighs as he rolls onto his side and pulls her into his chest.

"Sleep little mate, the little one could be here any day now, you need rest."

Your responding laugh cause a smile on his face, "alright alright, I'll rest more my protective angel."

Only when your body relaxes and your breaths even out does he allow himself to follow you into sleep.

-your pov-

A feeling of unease and discomfort arouses you from your sleep. As your senses return to your there is an ache in you back and you cant move your hands or feet.

Looking around you, your surroundings are unfamiliar. It's an old warehouse, the light through the windows is hazy at best, and there dangling hooks covered in what you presume to be dried blood.

On the floor next to you is a man with his eyes burned out, and across from you a woman was slumped against a wall, blood covered cracks formed in the wall behind her. She had been thrown into it. Hushed whispers grab your attention, turning your head your met with twonken you've never seen before, but the overwhelming stench of sulphur gives you the idea of them being demons. Staying silent you listen in to there conversation.

"How are we supposed to use her against Lucifer if we cant even get with 10 ft of her without being smited."

"I dont know, but asmodeus will have our heads if we cant get ahold of Lucifer, hes been more violent then usual since gabriel got away and nearly killed him."

You were shocked, 'asmodeus is still alive.'

"..maybe we can give her to asmodeus instead, look at her, shes pregnant with obviously a nephilim, maybe he could use that things grace instead."

Hearing this pissed you off. No one threatens my baby! Scanning your surroundings once again you notice the room doesnt have any warding put up, probably because they were attempting to lure Lucifer. You begin praying to your angel, hoping he can hear you.

Lucifer pov-

He had woken hours ago, not seeing his mate anywere set him off, searching the entire area of their home, he couldnt find her anywhere. Panic was starting to take over.

"Y/N. MATE!" He began flying to all her favorite cafes and parks nearby, but she wasnt there either. Sending out his grace, he couldnt feel her soul, the only thing telling him she was alive was he could still feel the bond. He was so panicked that the sky was beginning to darken, lighting flashed and rain pelted the earth, "Y/N!!"

He spent hours looking everywhere, even slammed himself through the warding of the bunker, and checked everyone of its rooms, only when he couldnt find her there either did he crumple to the floor in their library.

The winchesters and several Angel's as well as God and amara, who had been visiting, followed him around trying g to get him to speak. Finally dean yells.

"What the fuck do you want asshole!"

"Not here...shes not here...y/n..."his body shakes and then he breaks, they all look upon him in shock as the great Lucifer begins to sob into the floor. "My mate...shes gone...I need her.."

Gabriel and sam are the first to react, "what do you mean she/y/n is gone!!"

"I woke up this morning and she was just gone. I looked everywhere, I cant feel her soul...only our bond...was she tired of me??"

Chuck was worried for his son, this behavior was not like him, "no she hasn't left you son...I made her for you...please calm down so we can think of a way to help her something is obviously not right with this."

Michael snorts, "father is correct. Now stop acting like a fledging and get off the floor, my rebellious little brother does not cry like a child. He rips apart the people who dare take his things away."

Everyone gathers in the war room and they start planning, they have been talking for hours when Lucifer receives it...a prayer.

"Y/n! Shes praying....." they group watches as his relief turns into anger and hatred.."asmodeus!"

Sam was confused, "what about him, gabriel turned his ass to dust"

"Apparently not, now come on let move. I will not wait to find her any longer." Before any of them could make an argument there surroundings had changed and they were now, in a falling apart warehouse. Two demons were mid argument and they could see y/n strapped to a metal chair, her belly rounder than ever.

The demons notice there presence first and attempt to escape their vessels but castiel and balthazar are quick to react and grab them.

Gabriel and lucifer make there way to y/n and begin untieing her. "Its ok mate..Ive got you"

"Bout time luce, my back was getting sore," her smile filled him with relief.

"They didnt hurt you did they, they pay if they have."

"No, I am fine, jack is strong, he smited anyone that got to close."

Everyone looks upon her in confusion, "jack??"

You just giggle, "call it mothers intuition, its totally a boy." Lucifer face lights up and he picks her up out of the chair. He is ready to lead her out of the ware house when you freeze midstep.

...

"Lucifer..."

"Hmmm..what is it"

"My water just broke" every one in the room looks at me in horror and Lucifer goes into a full panic.

'What!? Now...no.." he leans down to her belly, "you cant come put now, y/n cant you just hold it."

"It doesnt work that WAY! NOW GET ME OUT OF HERE" Lucifer quickly lifts her in his arms and flys her to the bunker, everyone else follows suite cas bringing the winchesters.

When the others arrive, chuck and Lucifer had already entered your old room with you, they can here you yell and curse Luce out through the door.

They spend the next half hour waiting in the war room for any sort of news.

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Aaand cliffy.

Next installment might be the last.

-alex

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[missjackil]

Miss Jacki’s Top 30 Favorite Episodes

#13

Devil in the Details 11x10

After accidentally skipping yesterday, I think Ill be off by one day when Hiatus ends, unless I double up, as our boys will be back in 2 weeks 😍

This one actually shares the same spot with O Brother Where Art Thou, because its a continuation, and its equally as good IMO. 

When we left off, Lucifer had Sam cornered in the cage and taunting him, which Im sure messed many of us up for the Christmas break, but when they come back, we see we worried needlessly *sigh* and Sam isnt in immediate danger. Lucifer is going to walk him through a highlight reel of his life. It’s cute to see teenage Sam with what appears to be his first girlfriend, who is pretty forward and openly admits she thinks hes cute and funny and wants to make out! You go girl! But Lucifer uses this as a segue into how Sam isnt this same bold character he used to be. Hes gone soft.

Next, he uses his life with Amelia (bluck) to show him why he got soft, and shows him Swan Song, to remind him of how he was. How willing he was to sacrifice his life for the greater good, but claims he is no longer capable of that. Lucifer basically tells Sam that he feels too guilty for having not looked for Dean when he was in Purgatory, that he wont ever let him go again and he wont ever leave him again. But Luci is only half right. 

Yes, Sam feels terribly guilty, and no he never wants to leave Dean again, nor does he ever want to lose him again, but, he hasnt gone so soft that he wont sacrifice himself to save the world, nor would he stop Dean from doing so. So my boy has one of his greatest moments in the whole series, when he basically tells Lucifer to eff off. 

Now, Sam is a very flexible character, he changes very often... from season to season really. He learns from mistakes as well as victories and becomes better for it, What Sam has never changed from though, is his willingness to lay his life down for others. Lucifer thinks he has though. Sam might be more codependent on Dean now than he was years ago, but he is still willing to let Dean lay his life down for others too, That doesnt mean he wouldnt go looking for him, or die right along side of him, but he wont stop him. So Sam flat out tells Lucifer “No” he wont let him possess him again. But hes willing to die, and willing to watch Dean die to save the world, but he wont ever be Lucifers bitch. 

When Sam give this speech, I literally stood and applauded him!! THIS is why I love this man (among a million  other reasons)!! These are words and emotions to really hang your life on. Find that thing you wont ever allow yourself to do, and tell it off. Have your ultimate limits. Test yourself, how far can you go and still stay in control? You can put up with this thing, put up with that thing, but this is where you draw the line. If you need to stand up for yourself to someone who intimidates the hell out of you... channel Sam Winchester in this moment... seriously. There is no greater, scarier, more dangerous bully in the world than Lucifer, and Sam told him to go fuck himself.

When I was a kid dealing with bullies, aside from learning Shotakan to help defend myself, my father told me that sometimes Im gonna have to decide, whats gonna hurt worse, giving the bad guy what they want, or getting punched in the face. If I feel like Id feel better about myself by giving the bad guy my lunch money, then give it, but if I feel like getting punched in the face wont hurt as much, then be prepared. Sam here, felt he could live with whatever Lucifer could dole out on him, better than how he would feel about himself if he gave in to him.

SPN sometimes throws in some great life lessons. The whole series itself deals with life’s gray areas, places where the lines of morality arent clear, This double episode was one of them. Sam was almost sold on Lucifers plan, but then he used his brain and logic. If he did let Lucifer in again, sure he COULD save the world, but its most likely that Lucifer would end it anyway. So screw it, if its gonna end anyway, he will go down fighting along side his brother and his friends. 

An honorable mention of another great scene  Dean: Wheres Sam? Crowley: Dont worry about Sam Dean: Im sorry, have you met me?  That was precious LOL

#my top 30 #13 #11x10 #Sam Winchester #sam winchester ftw #fuck you satan

[rusticpumpkin-blog]

|Beyond Love| a Paul Lahote fanfic- extra 1/?

*keep innmind these are for my fanfiction involving Paul Lahote and this is on moblie because im to lazy to go get my laptop.

**these are only for my fan fiction

***cannon says he imprinted with Jakes older sister but this is fan fiction and i can do what i want. In this fic she just doesnt exist.

PAUL LAHOTE

****it takes place 3ish years after breaking dawn and Paul (along with Jacob Black) is 21.

-i hc his birthday as being March 28th, they never stated what it was and i feel like his personality definitely matches an Aries.

-Paul drives an old beat up white s10 pick-up truck. He uses it for work.

-Paul works construction and handy man odd jobs prefering to not have a "boss" so that when pack things come up he doesnt have anyone to answer to.

-he would like to work at the lumber mill close to La Push though for the money and stability it would bring. With the "threat" of vampires taken care of its looking like a better and better idea.

-Pauls father is a mean, spiteful, old guy. Hes round the middle and when he learned about Paul changing he was jealous pf the idea. He would always get in Pauls face and purposefully try to provoke him into a physical fight which happened often with Pauls temper. One of the fights got so bad that it landed Pauls father (Ive started calling him Travis.) In the hospital. This gave Scott a valid excuse to kick his then 17 year old son out of the house.

-dispite issues with his father Paul grew into a full-fledged adult (mostly because he didnt want to keep couch surfing among the pack). He started doing construction and saved enough to buy himself a trailer that Sam allowed him to place on his land.

-it was a real shitty trailer at first but threw blood, sweat and tears Paul made it into a very nice home. Adding on to it with a sunny and cozy den (wanted a room big enough for all the guys to come over an watch football), extending his bedroom, adding on a second half bathroom, and even building himself a garage/oversized tool shed. Pretty much the perfect man cave.

-Paul works A LOT people hire him for jobs because of his skill and relatively low rates. All he asks for is that they pay for the materials and provide a small hourly rate (maybe 10-14 bucks depending on the type of job).

-because of the low take home from each individual job he has to pull a lot of hours to save up for whatever he wants to buy next.

-hes also known for his gorgeousness (dispite his intence need to look and seem bad ass and callous) often doing jobs for the tribe at little to no cost for thoes in need. For example he repared and re-shingled Billy blacks roof because of the multiple leaks that had been haphazardly repared in the past, for nothing but dinner and a couple of shirts that couldnt fit Bill anymore. A small ramp magically apeared overnight on a portion of Sam and Emilys porch steps the week after they found out she was expecting. Stuff that the pack refers to as getting a visit from the construction fairy.

-Paul was in a very volatile relationship with an unfaithful girl named Tiffany for a long time. I dont want to say too much and spoil plot points for the story but this chick is an asshole like, a major cunt-face.

-they met in school before Paul first changed and he was actually teased for being short and having little dog syndrome she and her group were the people who taunted him and a lot of the males got the bad end of a beating for it. Until he changed anyway then he was tall and handsome and tiffany suddenly changed her tone.

-paul being the short guy was into the idea of the hottest chick in school being into him so they happened way to quickly for jt to be healthy.

-Not to say that Paul was the perfect boyfriend or anything he was possessive, jealous and was the kind of dude that would kick someones ass for looking at his girl for too long. She was a manipulative lier who thought he was more of an accessory than a partner, someone attractive who would do whatever she wanted. And he did dispite her expensive tastes and demanding attitude he still loved her and worked way too hard to give her what she wanted for her to just throw it in his face. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA

-Paul is still Paul after the "break up" (which was more of a fuck buddy situation than a relationship at that point)

-hes food agressive lol. The packs learned to not take from his plate unless theyre prepared to deal with an angry, hungry, asshole.

-he wishes he could have went to college for something like contacting. But he gave up on thoes dreams a long time ago becase dreams of going to a fancey school dont pay the bills or put food in the fridge.

-he has really horrible hand writing. Like its bairly legible, clients have learned to ask what he needs themselves rather than ask for him to write a list and get to the store and be unable to decipher the chicken scratch he gave them.

-is actually great at math.

-kinda has a habbit of mansplaining things to his credit tho he only does it when its about things he knows about enough to do so.

-He tends to get along better with Emmet out of all the other Vampires dispite their past. They hang out and play cod on xbox lol. Emmett is trying to convince him to play overwatch, if he did i feel like Paul would main either Roadhog or reaper.

-he enjoys spending weekends and other free time hanging out with da boiz.

I may ad NSFW head cannons later....

#twilight new moon #twilight eclipse #twilight breaking dawn #twilight wolves #twilight #the wolf pack #pack #paul lahote #quil ateara #quileute wolves #quileute #embry call #sam uley #emmett cullen #headcanon #fanfic #new moon #breaking dawn #brady fuller

[calehenituseappreciation]

i hc wilbur made tommy president because he planned to go and press the button while tommy spoke and kill him along with himself

wilbur wanted end all his unfinished symphonies and as the person who raised tommy- he raised him like he raised l'manberg. he doesnt care for fundy- not since he denounced him- so he wanted to end him :)

i need a fic where tommy is the one who goes to stop wilbur and wilbur fucking stabs him before pressing the button saying "it was never meant to be" tommy loses both first and last lives to that phrase

tommys last words are it was always meant to be fucking wilbur survives the explosion and has no one to kill him and now he has to live with the consqunces tommy becomes toast- short for ghost tommy i refuse to write so many letters each time- and immeditly looks for his older brothers and he finds wilbur first :) wilbur is exiled for his crimes and also out of fear- they tried to rehabilate him! they really did but then he freaked out over seeing toast... in a bad way.... and he and toast burned georges house on toast suggest (maybe we should burn something! that always helps me calm down!) this is after wilbur is trusted enough to be not... in a prison... after phil convinced them he needs help and toast tries his best ok- (WHO LEFT WILBUR WITH TOAST!) (I THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA AT THE TIME! I WAS ONLY LEAVING FOR FIVE MINUTES! AND RANBOO WAS THERE TOO!) and toast tries to go with but everyone is like "yeah no" and toast is like "whhhhyyy i just wanna stay with wilby!" and everytime anyone tries to tell tommy about the wrongs that have happened to him he screams and clutches his head in pain and everytime he comes back he doesnt remember the convo toast,,, is the most BABY toast calls everyone cutesy nicknames unironcially he calls eret rere toast, chriping happily: TECHIE!!!! tubbo: TOMMY STAY AWAY FROM HIM! toast, in a very lost and confused voice: why? techno, freaking out: tommy? toast: hi!!!!!!! im toast!!!!!! :D techno: lowkey ab to cry toast: NOOOOOOOO DUN CRI! toast: there there techie... i know what will help! tubbo, sighing: arson? toast: ARSON! phil comes just in time to find tommys dead body and l'manberg gone hes not around for the withers neither hes there just to see the crater and wilbur in chains with blood on his hands trying to off himself phil will forever blame himself for not making it in time :> dream: taking wilbur away in boat toast, floating behind the boat: o^o dream do you have any games on your phone .///^///. looks at exileinnit hmmm spins roulette wheel who should i hurt... i picked d all of the above they dont let toast go with him but because he is baby and you can't tell him what to do tubbo: sighs finally now that the exiles done toast can you- tubbo: looks up tubbo: GOADDAMN IT

toast is promptly kidnapped back to l'manberg the next day toast keeps going back tho and no one understands why- he literally killed him! why does he keep wanting to go back! (toasts unfinished buisness keeping him tied was helping wilbur and l'manberg- he loved wilbur even at his worst)

toast vibes around everyone but he stays with wilbur- where ever wilbur goes is where he builds his home

its shitty but its an 'ome Toast, teary eyed: Dad? Why does everyone hate Wilby? Why can't I be with him... Phil, with no idea what to do: niki bakes cakes with niki whenever hes in l'manberg he keeps accidently setting her bakery on fire but hes sMOL AND GIGGLES A LOT AND HE HAS FLOUR ON HE GODDAMN SELF toast is a part of mexican l'manberg i dont make the rules mexican dream: AYYYYYYYYY HOMIE toast, giggling: 'OMIE!!!!!

Toast is wholesome while everyone is literally willing to murder Wilbur while also trying to stop him from khs toast is just a very happy lovely child and cries whenever anyone is mean to 'his big brother wilby!' and so they all constantly glare daggers over toasts shoulder wherenever he cant see em meanwhile Phil is just dying inside because Tommy is a ghost by Wilbur's hands and Wilbur keeps trying to commit suicide and oh god what is he supposed to do- he simply avoids this struggle by avoiding them toast, waddling up to philza: papa do you have any games on your phone? all im saying is that tommy called phil papa before changing to dad or fathercraft phil,in the tired parent voice: tommy please sit down- just for five minutes- at least for 5 minutes toast: sits down and then proceeds to struggle to continue to sit but he must because dad told him to toast is just ADHD incarnate wilbur, trying to end himself: im gonna escape my consequences toast: HI!!!!! :D wilbur: FUCK ITS MY CONSEQUENCES toast,,,, is so baby Wilbur is just not allowed to have anything remotely sharp i like how theres so much angst and im just hyper focusing on ba yby dream uses toast the same way he uses ghostbur! :D toast doesnt realize of course even after wilbur tells him dream is bad but he keeps forgetting!!! Everyone: da baby Dream: how can I profit from this oh dream is manipulating wilbur btw wilbur: suffering toast: i made you a card toast trusts eret wholeheartedly and this hurts eret because she knows if toast remembered he probably wouldnt- they wanted redemption but not like this- not because of death Toast: you look cool Toast: you are friend now Eret: sobs I don't deserve this Toast: what did I do wrong Toast: how can I help friend!!!!! Eret: sobbing more toast looks at everyone says "ah! friend shaped!" if ur wondering wheres the angst toast is the angst- toast is just tommy without any bad memories and hes so different they thought he was happy before they thought he was fine tommy was hurt too but since he internalized it no one cared toast sees wilbur being sad and goes! i know what will help! n-not arson tho people dont like arson when you do it.... BUT ITS OKAY! I BROUGHT A FRIEND! shows friend, the sheep and wilbur just fucking sobs Toast is wholesome chaotic in a perfect mix- toast is tommy but without the 'asshole on purpose as a self defense mechanism" someone mentioned something about Tommy masking insecurities once Toast doesn't remember. and he's fine with that he doesn't have any insecurities toast hurts because in retrospect toast, meeting bad: WOAAAAAAH! YOU LOOK SO FUCKING COOL! bad: LANGUAGE! toast, cringing back, looking at the ground: ..sorry :( bad: ...you can swear toast: :D bad: once toast hasnt sworn since "hes saving it for special occasions" sometimes he accidently swears and immedtly gasps and looks at bad and bad just sighs and is like "its okay it was an accident" bad never would have thought itd take letting tommy swear for him to stop huh... its almost like... hes a child.... and the negetive reienforcement.... was doing more harm then good.... toast: exists in an amount of happiness no one has ever seen him in before everyone: pain how much pain was tommy in before? they thought tommy was happy- was... was he not happy? he's so unabashedly joyful and energetic looking back they can see how forced every laugh felt, every smile- He's not afraid to just talk to people, make new friends he became so much more cautious after Eret, had it really effected him that badly? He's open. He never lies about how he's feeling, never brushes anything away how much was Tommy hiding, how much pain, how much fear- It's chilling. bone chilling. There's no way to fix what's been lost. No way to apologize to who Tommy used to be, to try and make it better. None of them every bothered to see him as anything more than a nuisance, an annoying child or cannon fodder and they'll regret it for the rest of their lives everyone: having a mental crisis toast: GUYYYYSS!! I MADE ANOTHER FRIEND!!!

"Wilby?" Wilbur heard Tommys voice say in an innocent tone.

Was he hearing things? Tommy's dead. He killed him himself.

"Wilby why are you in prison?" The image of his little brother asked, "Did you commit arson without me?" it asked in a pout.

"TOMMY!" Tubbo yelled running into the cell where Wilbur was kept, going through the bars with ease, "Tommy get away from him!"

"But 'ubbo!!!! Wilby is 'ere!!!!" Tommy (?) said with a smile Wilbur hadn't seen since Tommy was a child.

"Tommy, I understand you don't remember anything right now but you need to come back over here!" Tubbo demanded and Tommy flinched

Wilbur was struck with the sudden realization that this isn't just his mind- no no it can't be- but Tubbo acknowledged him he has to- Wilbur reached his locked hands towards Tommy only for him to pass through him. What? No no it was just his imagination that makes sense.

"Oh sorry Wil! I'm kinda dead! I don't remember how i died... but i think im a ghostie!" Tommy said plainly, floating off the floor. Wilbur looked at him in confusion. Whats happening?

the first time toast sees the crater toast srceams in intense amount of pain- its so loud you can hear it all over the smp- and just dissapears for a few days before reappearing with no memories of what happened toast saying things tommy thought but never said- he calls eret "big brother" and eret fucking d i e s toast cals all the l'manbergians older siblings He's far too honest for anyone to handle tommy was always honest too but he learned from experince that honesty only lead to hurt Tommy was like an enderchest, you could never see beyond the exterior, everything inside was exclusive to him and him alone Toast is like when someone dies and all their fuckin items explode onto the ground. you just see everything and most of it was  pain and everyone feels bad because they thought he was the only one uneffected that nothing had ever put a damper on his happiness and energetic smile- at what point had that smile became fake? also for angst reasons the last memory toast has is before the elections toast has uwu boy vibes but more chaotic toast goes to dream smp from logstedshire purely for sam nook toast starts making his hotel since he sees nobody has a home (including dream LMAO) (and he wants to make a safe place since everyone keeps saying something about war) and wants to make one and asks sam for help since apparently hes good at building and sam lets him pay after he finishs the hotel and sam nook is there since day one because i dont think i could handle a world without sam nook toast: biting everyone tubbo: wHY DO YOU DO THAT?????? toast: once techie bit all the cupcakes and then said it was his cuz he bit it so im biting everyone to show their mine!!!!! tubbo: i- tubbo: i am both flattered and disgusted everyone, remembering how tommy used to bite everyone upon meeting and then everyone would get mad at him and yell at him until he stopped biting people on meeting: sadly whips and nae naes hes a BABY toast deserves the fucking world also i havent talked ab it but there is wilbur and fundy angst here fundy confronts wilbur also not that fundy is angry about not not not getting murdered by his father but also why does he consider tommy his unfinished sympohny and not him? he raised fundy too- maybe he just only ever loved tommy (based off his insecurity of how close wilbur and tommy are based off wilbur raising tommy and wilbur only being there for fundy by the time he was older and also using hybrid age go nyoom for this dream manipulates toast during wilburs exile along with wilbur and toast realizes both of them were being used by him and fucking screams lourder than he ever has before and dissapears for a week and then shows up at technos house (he got lost and he didnt know why he was at logsted shire- he doesnt remember the place) on the day of the excution and tries to help technoblade but keeps forgetting that everyone is trying to kill techno the butcher army is hesitant when "hey why are you all attacking big brother Techy-" "HE SPAWNED WITHERS IN L'MANBERG!" "he did?" toast asked tilting his head in confusion "YES! HE DID! AFTER YOU DIED! NOW WHERE IS HE TOAST! WE NEED TO CAPTURE HIM!" whenever tubbo talks ab how theyre planning on excuting techno or how there was no trial toast has flashbacks to tubbos excution but hes never able to hold on to the memories just leaving him feeling bad toast sees anything traumatic and just makes the blue screen noise toast has to reboot every time anything truamatic happens and when he does he doesnt remember what happens after

toast hurts on a "THE FUCKING IMPLICATIONS OF THIS" level just.. everyone trying to make up for not noticing tommys hurt and trying to be good to toast when its already too late... far too late glatt is also here because whenever ytoast dissapears after something trauamtic he bounces back to the land of the dead for the bit and sometimes he drags glatt out to the land of the living with him only works bc toast has unfinished buisness so he can freely go between and just stays in the land of the lving until he can finish his unfiinshed buisness ghostbur and toast wouldve been good friends if they ever met anyone yells at toast and he immeditly starts sobbing

basically when everything is calm and peaceful and everyone is happy together after dream is in prison and toast is like "oh... this is what ive always wanted"

"toast?" tubbo asked, confused toast smiled softly, "i think its time for me to go" "what?" wilbur asked his pitch unusually high due to the fear lacing his voice "i think... i think this was my unfinished buisness... this is the last thing i wanted when i was alive, the reason i stayed... i think its finally my time to go now" toast said smiling tearfully "no! you vcan't go! we just got you back!"

basically when everything is finally ok, when things finally calm down toast fades back to the void/afterlife thing

#dream smp #wilbur soot #tommyinnit #dream smp hcs #dream smp au #dsmp

[teamironmanforever]

My guess regarding Rhodey now being against the Accords is that he is smart and he knows about accountability but he's kinda following Tony's lead. Tony was already on the fence sbout it in CW but knew if they didnt act now it would be forced in them later when they couldnt get any leverage or push their own deals and says for them but afte CW Tony ess still trying to follow them (per Spider-Man: Homecoming) but he was worn out (Rhodey too probably) and they want Ross out & need Team Cap 1/2

for the big Battle (THANOS) and yes tony still cares about Team Cap and CW was a shitshow but in the end they need The Avengers. Rhodey is a smart man and will back Tony no matter whwt, but even he knew that the current Accords (without the changes) are restrictive and he believes in Tony. And he doesnt blame Sam for his accident it was just a bad call

No but see here’s the thing, and I’m going to break down my answer into parts. 

1) Rhodey’s opinion about the accords in CACW was his own and his was the ONLY opinion out of ALL of them that did not come due to past trauma or emotional baggage. 

Tony, unlike Rhodey, signed the accords partly out of guilt and his PTSD. He saw how much destruction the Avengers caused and that took a huge emotional toll on him. Not to mention, he still blames himself for Ultron so he literally does not believe the concept that his hands are the safest. 

Rhodey on the other hand, however, is a military man, far detached from the Avengers. He wasn’t in AV 1 and he wasn’t really an avenger in AV 2. He is someone that truly believes in accountability, because he has served under a system of accountability his entire life. When the military is deployed, their actions are always followed. If they fuck up, they go to court martial. Not only that, but any military action taken everywhere is judged internationally as well. Wars have been started b/c of invasions. Rhodey knows they can’t do whatever the fuck they wants as superpowered individuals. 

2) Tony isn’t “trying” to follow them. He IS following them because that is international law. You can’t ignore the will of the world, no matter how you personally feel about something. 

Tony has always thought accountability important (more accurately, since IM1). His job is to turn to the UN when it comes to crisis. Also, there isn’t really much of the Avengers left, so there isn’t much to follow either. They’re not really a thing anymore, and Tony knows it. Hence why he has been preparing for an invasion alone. 

3) I would argue he doesn’t want them back. He has had this phone for 2 years, and still refuses to call Steven EVEN when he knows a threat is coming.

 He doesn’t want to see them. He is not on speaking terms with them. He lied and betrayed Tony. They used him for years, and I think he is aware of this. OBVIOUSLY, Tony prefers to keep the world safe over fighting these dudes, but I don’t think he much cares about them at this moment in time. He is not vindictive (he is not actively going after them), but he doesn’t want them anywhere near him, hence why he has isolated himself and gone back to his basis (he goes back to pepper, rhodey, happy, and peter. Those are the only ones allowed in at this point). 

4) We don’t actually know how the current accords look like. 

The russos are fantastic at making movies that showcase just how ignorant they are about international law (and this is coming from a poli-sci & international law student). The accords in the first movie were not fully flushed out, but from what they were, they were not actually all that restrictive. Furthermore, they don’t exactly say how much time has passed. We don’t know if Tony has even had the time to work on them or, if he has, just how much work has been done of them. Yes Team Cap are still fugitives (no surprises there. They are literal wanted criminals/terrorists according to some countries, that doesn’t just go away), but we don’t know how the UN is dealing with the other Avengers. The ones that weren’t convicted. 

ALSO, important to note, Ross shouldn’t/can’t actually speak for the UN. So, Ross being the big government baddie literally makes 0 sense and I have been complaining about this since cacw. He is the US secretary of state. He does not dictate terms to the UN. He can veto shit in the name of the US in the security council, sure, but outside of that, the US doesn’t have the power to dictate terms because there’s another 4 countries with veto power. Furthermore, the avengers are not states, so they technically also don’t even fall under the mandate of the security council which then means another governing body should have been formed to enact the accords AND THE RUSSOS NEVER EXPANDED ON ANY OF THIS. 

5) I agree. I don’t think he blames Sam, but that doesn’t really have anything to do with why i was pissed seeing Rhodey just acting like nothing had happened ;) 

#cacw #rant #iw spoilers #maybe? #Anonymous #answered

[ariandsamforever]

February 10th, 2020

i was mentally and emotionally exhausted and relationships are just so much work and you have to give someone such a large piece of yourself and i wouldnt be able to handle being broken again. so many thoughts ran through my head. “what if i dont love him, what if im just attracted to him because im going through things and he’s there for me” “what if he wont wait for me” “what if he doesnt like me “ “what if im using him and dont realize” “what if i get hurt” all these “what if’s” and i never once thought abt the reality of it all. that i, had feelings for him. that he felt the same. that he was willing to wait for me, even if it took years. that he would never hurt me and even allowed himself to be hurt by me if that meant even just getting a chance at me loving him. i guess i was just so worried and just in shock. no ones felt so deeply for me before.and that night that i had asked him out,,, i had seen a pic of my ex with this new girl and i felt absolutely nothing towards it. so then,, thats when i knew. i was over him. that emotional attachment was gone. and my feelings for sam were real. and we had called that night,, that entire night i was so nervous and got butterflies, and i realized i never stopped smiling once during that whole phone call. and after we got of,, i, once again, was extremely sad. i wanted to hear his voice talking to me for hours and hours. i wanted to smile and feel nervous and get butterflies. and at that point i was like,, fuck it. yes i was still worried that my feelings werent true. but what was the harm in trying. he was the only person to have caught my eye in like,, ever. he was on my mind that whole night and probably abt like 30 mins after we got off call i asked him out. my feelings for him were too strong. i was worried he wouldnt wait and i couldnt risk losing someone as special as him to someone else,, if i did, i wouldve never forgiven myself. im glad i asked him out. even though i had surprised myself by it,, i just couldnt wait any longer,, i needed to make him mine. and i did. and i wouldnt change it for the world. the first month for me was very,, rough. of course we were still getting to know each other and our boundaries,, and i of course made some mistakes. my fears of possibly not having true feelings were coming back. and it pushed him away because he didnt wanna get hurt. and he almost left me. those two nights that we had an issue and he had left me,, they broke me. they really did. that was the worst i had ever been. the crying,, the screaming,, the anger and complete sadness i felt. i felt as if i had lost everything. i felt as if i had nothing left. if i didnt have him,, then,, who am i. im nothing without him. he’s my other half. my soulmate. and i thought i had lost him. im glad im so annoying and clingy otherwise i’d be so fucking heartbroken without him. we had only been together for less than a month those two times and yet i felt so strongly for him. nothing has ever made me feel this way. i had never wanted to keep someone in my life so bad before. it was like,, i needed him to breathe. i needed him to smile. i just,, needed him. i cant live without him. just thinking about a life without him makes me fucking sick. i want him and only him for the rest of our lives. no one can even compare to him. im just,, in shock. like im really in love with him and it just amazes me. im sitting here writing this as he’s sound asleep and i just. i miss him a lot. i guess all my feelings are coming out now since ive been distant the past month but,, i dont care. ill gladly shout from the rooftops how much i love him. (Part2)