#no thoughts just exhausted fr

[aiadamermaid]

aiadamermaid 🧡

#hey #no thoughts just exhausted fr #again #lol sorry #// #black is so beautiful #looks #damn #black women appreciation #black women magic #black women #black girls are beautiful #black girl #black girls #black girl hair #locs #faux locs #black hair #support black creators #black artist #support black people #singer #songwriter #aia #aiadamermaid #newsoul #neosoul #rnb #vibes #pretty

[mbat]

i think its really funny that with every other ghost hunting channel ever, a good chunk of the appeal is 'woah are they gonna find real ghosts?' or whatever and they make these really over the top videos about it acting like every single thing is definitively ghosts and cant possibly be any other thing (or they completely faked it themselves) and they dont really shine as people quite as much and theyre probably trying to appeal to kids with this style of video, or just make it exciting so it doesnt feel like its just people in an empty old house blah blah

but then we have shane and ryan who have literally never found proof, they dont really pretend theyve ever found proof (ryan has thought so a few times but he doesnt exactly sit around going 'holy shit remember that piece of proof we found one time that totally proved we found ghosts!' which a lot of channels do in my experience)

no we just all kinda stick around cause we love the dynamic. the shenanigans. if they ever proved ghosts were real it probably would be overshadowed by some funny thing they did they episode aside from that lol

#my post #watcher #ghost files #look. i love the paranormal. i constantly think about and watch stuff about the paranormal. but i dont believe in it #so all these channels that act overly gullible. are exhausting #there is not nearly enough skeptical channels and even less who actively go ghost hunting themselves #dont get me wrong i do like a few channels that i would say are... kinda gullible or faking believing a lot of stuff #or outright faking 'evidence' LOL #like i love garrett watts and i love loey lane but my gosh they need to take chill pills. smoke weed or something /j #i would literally never believe that a youtuber proved ghosts are real anyway. they want views and literally anything can be faked #with enough time and effort #i would only ever believe ghosts under extremely specific circumstances that would include me leaving my own house LMAO #loey and hannah need to colab fr. ryan and shane but women. also the aesthetics would go hard #loey is so pinks and colors and soft things and hannah is so dark and macabre and stuff. like it would be so fun #this got off track I JUST HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS STUFF AAAAA #i only made this cause im watching john wolfe talk about sam and colby. i dont watch s&c cause i assumed theyd be annoying and they #they kinda are

[sunnibits]

you are so fucking right about babies. baby naps are hardcore the most cutest naps ever. i love babies i feel like that’s an unpopular around here but they’re just so cute. anyway real footage of me anytime i see a baby

REALLLL ME TOOOO!!! I’m always just like. holy shit a baby. holy shit ur so small. dude I hate to alarm you but um. did u know ur so small. like. are you aware that you are in fact just a little guy. itty bitty even. and the baby’s just like: 👁👄👁

anyways this is a real image of me at work every Saturday

#mr wiggles my absolute fucking beloved. the cutest fucking little guy ever #fr tho I don’t get why so many ppl on tumblr are so fucking mean to kids like 😭😭 #I get that society has made you absolutely exhausted of the way we’re all expected to have kids and treat them like miracles but also. #babies are actually cute and special unfortunately. like they actually are sick as hell if u give them a chance. #I know not everyone wants a baby but I feel like the mere concept of the way children perceive the world fits in very well with the tumblr - #- populations general philosophy of romanticism and enjoying little experiences in life #idk. maybe I think about things too much. but that’s just my thought #ask box #anyways I would kill fifty armed men in cold blood for even my least favorite kids at work and that is a promise #they may drive me crazy but I would take a bullet for them without hesitation #doodles

[rizaposting]

I'm not a Shou Tucker apologist in any way shape or form but I kind of understand his situation in the sense that I imagine many research-based (read: not useful in war) State Alchemists found themselves poor and disillusioned:

Oh, so I need to preform a miracle of fringe science every two years, but Mustang and Edward just get to saunter up to Central HQ, prove they can still snap their fingers and clap their hands to do massive amounts of collateral damage, and they get their funding renewed no problem?

#crystal convos #fma #imagine spending months writing up your grant renewal proposal and you get shafted in favor of the 12 year old with a knife arm #it's just like when i was in grad school fr fr #thoughts and prayers to the state alchemist who just wants to research like... harnessing wind energy #i'm imagining an exhausted researcher being so bitter towards all the weapon-based state alchemists #“iron blood alchemist? Yeah? Well guess what: we ALL have iron in our blood. IDIOT.”

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[widowshill]

hello thinking about 147 and roger, vicki, and david's coordinating check patterns, the similarity of their silhouettes with their shirt collars and lapels, vs laura as very distinct — a different silhouette entirely with her scarf, floral probably? but definitely non-geometric.

#[holds out my hand] get coded as a family unit through our similar costumes with me. #very idle midnight thoughts. #➤ ooc. ┊ she’s nauseous，she’s hysterical，and she’s exhausted. #i had the r/v outfit match written down but i hadn't remembered that david is *also* wearing check in this scene.. wow. #that they not only find likeness in each other but that david finds likeness with them – that it is upon their image he's modeled. that #his mother is not only a stranger to him now but something different entirely. not part of this world – #not part of the interpersonal structure as communicated through symbols worn directly on the body; framing our face. #it's david / roger / and vicki who form the mock family unit #(which can only ever be an imitation or inversion of the nuclear family. david is not his son by blood though he is by name #vicki is not his mother though she's the one raising him. roger and vicki who aren't married and can't be. #vicki who is not literally a collins but is more truly apart of them than laura – who is a collins) #man i just think it's neat. they knew what they were DOING fr. #thank u ohrbach's.

[zurko48]

i wonder if when I die and death finally holds my hand and accepts it for the first time he will tell me how annoyed he is with me, how he was tired of constantly hanging around just outside my house, sometimes leaning against the doorframe of my bedroom but not coming in fully, not willing to accept my death, to let me die. He’d always leave without me, he refused to let me pass no matter how badly I wanted too. i think I’ll thank him and apologize for being such a burden for so long.

#this is messy and dumb lol #simply thinking of like. meeting death once I die and he’s like bestie…you are fuckin KILLING ME. and I’m LITERALLY death like. #you have been exhausting to deal with good lord. and I’ll just be like omggg I’m so sorry JFMDMDKKD I never even thought about you in those #situations 😭 fr so selfish of me I’m so sorry. NFJDJSJDJ #poems and poetry #poem #poetry #creative writing #death poem #writing #this is goofy #actually chronically ill #type one diabetic #t1d #diabetic #diabetes #type one diabetes #this is about diabetes and being suicidal btw yes so true #where my fellow suicidal diabetics at!! it’s so easy for us to off ourselves I’m proud of all of us who are still somehow kicking!!!!!!!

[thoughtsofapessimistttt]

I wish my mind would let me rest

#it’s so exhausting #so fucking exhausting #I’m tired #cba with this shit #depressing shit fr #I just can’t #feelings #life stuff #thoughts 💭 #vent

[chrisbangs]

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#every now and then i think abt deleting every single social media and dying . like #i really genuinely think abt just dying fr like #👎👎👎 #there's only 1 person i've been wanting to talk to lately #and like no one else lol #i just feel so fucking out of my head #why is everything so fucking bad #i barely leave the basement these days .. i just stay in bed and sleep #and i have less than a week to get the fuck over this random stupid rut i'm in #because fucking classes start on tuesday #i wanna kms so bad lol #like i would rather be dead than do another year of college rn #it's so fucking bad for me lmfao #i don't have any support or anyone to talk to and i feel like i'm going fucking crazy #i'm on academic probation is the best part so if i fuck up this semester i get kicked out which like part of me would love ik like #the part of me that's tired and exhausted and just done with everything i wouldn't mind being kicked out but #the ik . that my parents would fucking kill me knowing that i wasted 4 years worth of tuition money and just fucking flopped as a student #waking up wishing i hadn't woken up every fucking day... i feel sick inside... #my anxiety is spiking all over again and i can barely even organize my thoughts lately #i literally threw up last night cause i worked myself up into such hysterics . like lmfao... #i cant get a grip and i cant get the fuck over how bad i feel and no one fucking LISTENS when i saw i hate this and i'm not good enough for #this fucking subject i wanna fucking kill myself holy fuck it's crazy how much i wanna die.. #i used to wonder abt that 4th year kid who killed himself when i was at my old uni like how fucking bad was it for him that in his last year #he just couldn't take it anymore and now i'm in the funniest position of literally understanding exactly where he was lol #last year... and i cant do it... i just cant fucking do it and i wanna kill myself i think about it every day i think about it 24/7 and #i'm just so... tired doesn't even encompass what i'm feeling right now i'm fucking exhausted and empty and i have nothing left man i cant #fucking do this... every day im dragging myself kicking and screaming to school and dealing with a 4 hr round trip commute in the shitty ass #weather that we get and getting verbally and emotionally abused by profs and getting 0 acknowledgment for ANYTHING and it's not like my work #is even GOOD enough to begin with so ofc it's not gonna get any acknowledgment like jdjdjdkdkskd i just dont . have it in me to do this #for another fucking year... i literally cannot do this... and i have no other thoughts in my head other than killing myself lmfao...

[redrocketpanda]

I've been starting to feel a bit drained from writing smut and feel like I need to take a break at some point (I say as though the next two things I said I'd write aren't smut)

But then I stumbled upon some Bokuroo notes in my phone that I wrote whilst feral one night in June and now I'm like... cool... or... or I could write my first bokuroo smut fic...

#and not in the good way #no fr tho i didnt know it was even possible to feel burned out from writing too much smut #it seems almost hilarious #like excuse me... sorry. yeah. i need to take some time off to recover from smut exhaustion? #there are no more sexy images and words in my brain. just static? #i wanna finish this terusumu fic so bad but WORDS ARE HARD #anyway bokuroo thoughts beckon #bokuroo #my beloveds #the god tier of ships

[aiadamermaid]

aiadamermaid 💌

#hey y’all #no thoughts just exhausted fr #having no team is hard but i’d rather be independent than have someone telling me what to do and basically owning me #// #she speaks! #my face #black is so beautiful #looks #damn #black women appreciation #black women magic #black womanhood #black woman femininity #black woman beauty #black woman #black women #black girls #black girl magic #black girls are beautiful #natural hair #makeup #red lip #tumblrgirl #black tumblr #beauty #artist #artists #independent artist #independent artists

[boyghcst]

god i don’t wanna be here i don’t wanna exist

#i hate myself so much #I’m sick of myself and sick of this world #i got upset at Lexi bc they said they didn’t wanna hang lol like i just shutdown n went quiet even tho they drove to take me to the shops #bc I’m ill #like I’m tired of always getting hurt I’m so damn sensitive all the time #like idk i guess i just thought they were gonna stay at mine for a while like we usually do #n instead they just wanted to go home #which is obv fine like they can do whatever they want but im sick of getting upset over this stuff #n i always feel horrible and guilty when i get triggered whether it’s shutting down or passive aggressiveness #or having a meltdown over stuff idk i just feel so emotionally childish n even when i know it’s wrong to feel tht way it still happens #i just wish i knew how to be better and stop being like this #n my therapists just keep telling me well it’s okay and normal to feel this way because I’ve been thru bad experiences before n thts why #i feel abandoned and unloved #but it’s like I’m 24 i shouldn’t be so emotionally all over the place and get triggered all the time like i can’t function bc of this #n i end up just acting in ways i don’t like like if someone was acting this way w me id be exhausted I’m not surprised I’ve been called #exhausting and too sensitive and negative and immature bc i am n hell if u don’t like me dw i hate myself more ive literally been trying #to get better and it’s going nowhere i think i just gotta end myself fr #journal

[puppsworld]

drawing my mermaid au again <3 just gonna drop my little marine lizard here <3

#naruto #naruto shippuden #sai #sai yamanaka #my art #mermaids #mermaid au #omg hes my little fucking creature my blorbo my frogspawn #sai fr does most of the babysitting when it come to the inoshikacho mers #mostly just because he'll literally rip someone to shreds if they get too close to the pups #mans is VIOLENT #my idea going in was haha he probably looks like an iguana <3 and the only thing iguana abt him is his spines and tail #i thought itd be fun to do a little background bc im exhausted and thoughtd its be a good idea and everyone should know that i dont HAVE #good ideas anytime anywhere anyhow #gonna go pass out or something byeeee

[sodrippy]

i think sometimes the risk you run when going to see your childhood dreams in real life as an adult is they arent actually shiny magical moments that are gonna save you. theyre just places.

#unrelatable content but idk the fantasy life attached to the idea of these places for me as a kid #as in the life i thought id have when i was grown up and visiting #was what got me through being that age yknow and now im here and its wonderful!! but its not. idk this is stupid but its not saving me yknw #i already saved myself and my life is real and its good and these are just places and i think..maybe thats ok #maybe its not some failing on my part that im not awestruck like im supposed to be? idk.....idk #anyway so im going to see THEE childhood dream hyperfixation obsession love tomorrow. so um. thatll be fun #im also just SO fucking tired like my body is EXHAUSTED and rundown i cant overstate it fr #and im worried i wont be able to actually enjoy tomorrow bc ive been just #im in so much pain to be honest lol and i dont want that to ruin my day bc this is like. IT for kid val yknow

[gayness-and-mayhem]

Would love it if the Doctor's name was actually just something really shit like Derek and they just don't want to tell anyone bc they're embarrassed so they just try to make the whole thing all cool and mysterious instead.

#Sorry if you're called Derek no offence meant #Also apologies for the very non gender neutral name it was literally the first one that came to mind but you get my point #Or it could be like one of those really terrible banned names or something that is just too shit for words #Anyway you get my point #I'm actually so fucking exhausted my brain is not in gear rn #But ofc that's when I come up with my shittest posts so here we are again 😂 #Sorry these tags are shit as well I really am just that tired lol #Doctor Who #Text post #*From the first tag - I meant to put /j as well. Fr no offence intended just the first name I thought of

[thoughtsofapessimistttt]

Funny that the person you thought saved you can end up being the reason for your downfall

#feelings #life stuff #relationship #love #thoughts 💭 #friendship #mine #vent #heartbreak #done #so tired of this shit #I’m tired #I’m exhausted #don’t wanna let anyone in anymore #just get hurt when the effort isn’t reciprocated #some depressing shit fr