#nobody talk to me i’m feeling

[mell0bee]

u know aimee carrero was so right with opal. accidentally becoming the champion of the betrayer god and then telling said betrayer god I Can Fix Her like yeah its just kind of Like That when you’re nineteen.

#everyone talks about how weird being in your twenties is but nobody talks about how weird being nineteen is #i feel like shrödinger’s adult #if i found a vestige of a betrayer god i would simply put it on as well. #opal exu #exu #exandria unlimited #the crown keepers #crown keepers #critical role #aimee carrero #bee post #draftposting #don’t mind me i’m just clearing out some drafts bc i think they’re funny #also before anyone comes at me yes i know there was more to it than ‘accidentally’ it’s funnier that way shhhhh

[stonechild]

complaining about social anxiety on the social anxiety website filled with people who have social anxiety <3

#i can’t escape feeling like i’m annoying every single person i talk to. like nobody truly wants to talk to me. idk maybe i’ll call my mom #or maybe i’ll journal :/ #talk #shadow

[lavender-femme]

something something lesbian pride flag hair

🪸men | minors | terfs | do not fucking interact 🪸

#please be nice 🥺 #these are from December when I got to model for a local salon #since a couple of you said you wanted to see the final look #i still haven’t opened the Dropbox with the actual photos #i’m scared to look #it’s a whole disconnect with my body #nobody ever fucking takes pictures of me #so when there are pictures … it’s like i’m seeing what i look like for the first time #and i already feel so detached from my physical body because of chronic pain… body image.. etc. #idk y’all it’s… something i’m working on #a lot of it came undone last year #anyway #please tell me nice things in the tags and replies #i didn’t get to wear my blue power suit… but I felt so powerful with the hair and the makeup done #my hair is totally faded now and i’m trying to figure out what i wanna do now #i’m talking #lavender.jpg #femme #lesbian #femme4butch #femme4stud #femme lesbian

[straight-to-the-pain]

Genuinely don’t mean this as any sort of callout post but it’s interesting to me how there’s been a trend in newer (?) whump blogs putting really long disclaimers in their bios and pinned posts, saying that they don’t condone violence, that they aren’t responsible for other people’s actions, that they know it’s bad and it’s just fiction.

It’s honestly making me wonder how much purity culture has seeped into the fabric of even the Whump community, that people feel the need to explicitly state what I would have accepted as an easily presumed given. When did we get to a point where we have to preface any conversation by stating that we don’t condone irl violence, lest someone accuse us of immorality?

#whump community #whump meta #I’m not like saying this to disparage anyone who has done that #because I get that everyone is scared of the purity police #but like this is definitely something that keeps cropping up more and more #like it’s so sad to me that we can’t just assume that people aren’t evil abusers unless told otherwise #also like makes me worry about how people are actually gonna spot abusers because like #they aren’t Gonna be wearing a sign that says that they’re bad and evil #like yeah I love violence and also I love to hurt people irl nobody is gonna say that #except for me I love violence and also hurting people irl and I’m not a coward /j #I actually think irl torture is also fun and sexy #s talks #this isn’t discourse okay I just want people to feel more confident in their interests #without feeling pressured to justify it at every given opportunity

[remersgf]

hi guys i cant help myself here’s a little snippet

#nobody asked for this #but i’m excited #and feeling insane #need them to talk about me like i’m not even there!! #treating me like a fuck doll 🙁🙁🙁 #anywho back to work #doug remer x reader #doug remer smut #joe cooper x reader #joe cooper smut #baseketball

[blue-eli]

Ink October day ten: Dichotomy

A division into two contrasting things or parts.

The phase of the moon, Mercury, or Venus when half of the disk is illuminated.

Branching characterized by successive forking into two approximately equal divisions.

#luxord #kingdom hearts luxord #kh luxord #luxord kingdom hearts #Luxord kh #kingdom hearts #kh #Luxord my beloved #been playing Days and it’s really warmed me up to him. he talks absolute bullshit it’s so funny #he’s also just nice??? everyone else Roxas gets sent on missions with who isn’t part of his trio is at least a little mean to him #but Luxord is just chill. sure he talks gamblers bullshit but he doesn’t really get impatient with Roxas or anything it’s kinda sweet #like he likes battling people because everything’s a game to him and he loves games and gambles #but other then that? I’m convinced the only reason he’s with the bad guys is because he’s a nobody and he’s morally grey enough to be chill #with the bullshit the orgs pull. he’s just cool with this #who is his somebody. what was his name. who is he. was that him who was driving Yozora??? what the fuck #he would teach the kiddos how to play poker I think. #so glad the one world he goes to with Roxas is Wonderland I think that’s very fitting. card man in the card person place. #also I feel like his bullshit gambler logic works out in wonderland #he just takes this shit in stride

[arthur-r]

ALSO if anybody has any studies about the long term health effects of testosterone as gender affirming care…. my dad wants me to send him articles to prove that it’s safe and necessary for me to do. which is a normal request if you don’t ask it the way that my dad does. and if you don’t say “well i mean i could do my own research but it’s awfully likely that i’ll find too much evidence on the contrary” piss off if there’s something you have a concern about then tell me what it is, otherwise how much of transsexuality do i have to spell out and explain???? anyway just if anybody happens to have comprehensive literature with more of an emphasis on physical than mental health then that would be really helpful to help me argue my case.

#again my dad took it way better than i thought he ever would but he’s still awful confrontational about it #and was talking about how administrators and physicians are just automatically affirmative and nobody ever faces any pushback for just #changing their identity whenever they feel like it and getting prescriptions left and right #so anyway. if anybody happens to have something good for this point. otherwise i will post on the subreddit maybe but eek #anyway. i’m still going to bed very soon. i hope everybody is doing well #me. my post. mine. #delete later #ask to tag

[fxckton]

accidentally thought abt being babied and tickled 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞

#not nsfw. just too shy to post on my main #like i just wanna be babied n praised and teased till my brain is MUSH😭😭😭😭😭 #then tickle me silly to make sure my brain never works again😂 #or both at the same time!😆 #no but it’s such a ☹️☹️☹️🩷special thing to me nobody gets me😞😞😞 #like babying me and praising me AND tickling me???? makes me feel so ☹️☹️😞😞loved idk. #LIKE HOW TICKLING IS A WHOLE LOVE LANGUAGE TO ME #but that .like teasing. goes hand n hand w the tickling for me🎀 #me if loving tummy tickles was illegal #LIKEEEEE the stupid silly teases abt ur giggles being ‘trapped’ in there and the ler going ‘omg we gotta get all the giggles out!’ #me imploding like the submarine the second the ler (she😂) calls my tummy cute 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #OHHHH AND.cooing /baby talking that . Shoot me #ohhhh my god and i accidentally thought abt her tickling me but babying in spanish😭😭😭😭😭😭 #baby talking ‘miraaaa está pancita tan chulaaaa😆’ GOOOOOOD FUCKING BYE. GOOD FUCKING BYE! NEVER SPEAK TO ME. #oh why the fuck am i posting this. she gonna see it😭😭😭 #i’m fucking insane . #TICKLING IS SO FUN AND SILLY AND TEASINF MAKES IT SM MORE FUN. ☹️☹️☹️

[unnerving-presence]

found it !!

i love the decision of him having guns despite having powers because it really does make sense considering how he doesn’t use his guns too often but only when the person he’s facing isn’t a clear challenge/worthy of his physical powers. it really shows that he has standards for who gets their ass whooped and who gets a simple shot in the face.

also makes sense that wesker takes his time whooping chris, jills, and sheva’s ass. he knows they’re skilled opponents and likes the challenge

also love that they wanted to humanize him since people like to assume he’s emotionless. while re5 wesker had way more potential and was done pretty dirty in both character and through the story i did like that they gave him more emotion/slight vulnerability in his cutscenes. yeah, he’s good at hiding emotions but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t feel them 🌝

#genuinely hope that wesker has more screen time in re5r #like is it just me or does it feel like wesker barely gets any screen time in the games?? #even ones where he’s the main antagonist he’s in like 10% of the total game #the most important re villain yet he barely gets the screen time he deserves #in re5 he didn’t show up until chapter 6-3 #also we need more files including his lore #there was like #14 files in the game i think? #not nearly enough to explain more lore which i dearly need #i liked in the little control center there a file where wesker explains how he’ll go about his plans #also reminds me of how smart he is cause i have no idea what he’s talking about but i read it anyways #it’s written in his perspective too so i’m like ‘hehe wesker wrote this more analyzing his character’ #or as an alternative i like to like he’s info dumping to himself because he has nobody else to talk to (that he likes)

[no1ryomafan]

The struggle of talking about your favorite fictional characters depth because no one in the tiny ass fandom that exists gives him the proper analysis he deserves and you rotated him enough in your head that you have detailed opinions about his character arc but making essays are REALLY fucking hard so the only thing you can shove to peoples faces is random incoherent rambles about one very specific scene or just pointing to your ao3 where you’ve written in depth character fics about him but aren’t canon complaint whatsoever since it’s “what if he actually addressed his trauma, got help and it lead to a happier ending for him than canon?” which feels like it contradicts aspect of why him getting doomed by the narrative is so appealing to begin with but you cry like a bitch remembering what happens to him that you need to cope like every other fandom.

…My conclusion is I fucking hate Ryoma Nagare for ruining my life. /s

#meg text #getter robo #ryoma nagare #me and my friends are likely gonna finish new tomorrow and mentally I’m preparing to weep #nobody but me is gonna be emotional about the ending bc it’s not that sad but GRAAAH #I’m not fucking normal about this idiot #I want to go into the void and recuse him myself then BEAT HIM UP for making me feel this way #<I already brought him back in fic but shhhh that’s sadly not canon #I really wanna write essays about him though I just can’t WORD #I struggle to write fucking fics but something where I have to be clear to argue a subject??? Guess I’ll die #somebody come down from the heavens and make getter essays that wasn’t that one retrospective PLEASE #NEW NEEDS TO BE TALKED ABOUT MORE FFS

[thesungod]

where is everyone

#i feel like i’m speaking to myself on here does nobody wanna talk about my wips with me???? the mc of the universe??? #crazy and sad :((

[ariesbilly]

Not to get political during these times especially when I am admittedly not educated on certain subjects but I think it’s weird when you see footage of women being kidnapped and your response is “welp that’s just war for ya 🤷🏻‍♀️”

Like maybe you can hold two viewpoints at once and maybe we should all be of the mindset that kidnapping and murdering and raping civilians as retaliation for what their GOVERNMENT has done should be seen as universally cruel but idk! Apparently this is a me thing

#reading comments on the internet lately has shown me a lot of people are cool with justifying or turning a cheek to kidnapping and brutality #like I’m sorry if I see the shit I’ve seen in these videos my first thought is oh my god that’s horrible not ‘well their country is #responsible for xyz’ #I feel like everyone’s lost their humanity lmfao like I genuinely have no hope for anyone at this point this why I don’t talk to nobody

[flameandignite]

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#struggling a lot lately with not knowing where i stand in my social circles #there’s an irl friend group i’m part of but they’re more like friends of friends and i have very little in common with them #can’t hold a conversation with normal people bc my experiences are not normal experiences #so i usually just lurk quietly while everyone talks and live vicariously through their fun i guess #i’m a lot more comfortable in online fandom but even here it’s like #i’m not smart enough for meta/analysis i’m not a fanfic writer and my art is like…fine but nothing special i think #and yet my friends tell me they love me and i believe it but i don’t understand it #i’m too empty to offer anything greater than words of support and encouragement #which i suppose are important too. but it never feels like it’s Enough #like i’m enough. and i know that nobody else thinks that except myself but nobody knows me as well as myself