#not a vent its rly funny and i love her

[waechan]

love is patient, love is kind.

pairing: mark lee x reader (jisung plays a rly small role)

genre: angst, sorry guys lol

wc: 704

notes: i've been going through a lot of relationship/crush problems so i just wanted to vent through my writing and share what i'm going through with u guys somehow! the guy i like is very mark coded so that's where were going with this one- thanks for listening and supporting me:)

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mark came out of nowhere. i met him through jisung, and we went to go hangout at an outdoor mall that day. i remember everything.

he was funny, sarcastic, super cute, and if i'm not wrong, flirted with me the entire day. his lingering touches, his hand on my back when he walked by me, the smiles he gave me when he thought i wasn't looking.

we hungout almost every day with the rest of the group for a while, but then the we started to communicate and call on the phone separately, just the two of us.

calls switched to facetimes, facetimes changed to hanging out in person, and whenever we did hangout i felt the rest of my world melt away.

he showed me what others couldn't. he showed me bliss, ignorance (in the greatest way possible), fun, pure joy, and comfort.

we were in the back of my car one day, eating food that the two of us had picked up, and we were out watching the stars. it was sprinkling, but we were protected by the open trunk. we shared a blanket, and we were both just staring, in silence. comfortable silence.

i looked at him and he looked at me, and he tilted his head.

"what?"

"nothing." i whisper as i look away, feeling my heart race.

"you okay?"

i nod.

"yeah, i'm good."

"you want a hug?"

i freeze, and before i know it i'm declining. god, i was so nervous.

"no, it's fine. i'm okay."

"alright then." he says as he shrugs.

i should've said yes.

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we drove home afterwards, and it was late, almost midnight. i drop him off at his house and i'm about to leave, but he comes running outside with his dog.

"it's not my dog, it's chenles but i'm taking care of her for him."

my eyes widen in happiness as i hold her in my arms, and i hold her close. she was nestled comfortably against me, and i cuddled up to her.

i could feel his stare on me, and he took a picture. i saw him in my peripheral, and he was smiling. he laughs.

"you look funny."

i went home, and he sent the picture to me later that night. i smiled when i saw it.

i looked beautiful. i looked truly happy.

i really hope that's how he saw me.

beautiful.

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now, i stare at him across the gym.

he wasn't looking at me, and i knew he was avoiding my gaze on purpose.

my heart still beat for him, my cheeks still got red when i saw him. i knew i wasn't over him, but how would i ever be? i never got the closure.

i feel a tap on my shoulder and i'm snapped back into reality as i force a smile towards whoever had touched me.

i'm met with jisung standing right next to me, tilting his head as he smiles right back, completely oblivious. "you okay?" he asks softly as he looks at me, looks at me like i'm the only girl in the world, the only girl who mattered. my heart clenches...

but not in the good way.

me being the people pleaser i am, i nod and i smile. i lean closer to him, pretending to be okay, and i look him dead in the eyes to once again pretend.

"great.

i'm great."

well i wasn't. i missed him, and i still wondered if he missed me. he had to, the way he looked at me, the way he treated me, the time he spent with me.

i feel someone's gaze on me as i turn instantly to look.

he's staring at me.

mark, he's looking right at me.

our eyes lock, my heart skips a beat.

oh how i wanted to go over and hug him, to cry, to smile, to do anything. to be with him again like i had been before.

i take a step in his direction.

he turns away and walks right out of the room.

love is patient, love is kind. love is dangerous.

i loved him. how was i ever going to move on?

remember this;

love is patient.

and it takes its time.

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lol so yeah thats my love life rn, im in love with this guy but his friend and i had a talking stage recently but i realized that he was just a distraction and i feel horrible

i really hope you feel the emotion and care that i have for this guy in this story, i just wanted a place to rant and just relieve myself from all these feelings i have

ty for being a group of people i feel safe with<3

#nct dream #nct dream x reader #kpop #nct dream imagines #nct dream angst #nct #mark lee #park jisung #mark x reader #jisung x reader

[legodamianwayne]

BATMAN AND ROBIN 2023 #1 (Take 6 (yes))

(im not writing this as i go since ive already read the issue before. ill also be mentioning gotham war since this takes place during it (just a warning for spoilers!))

i just noticed the bat and robin on the cover! so cute

OH........(just noticed this too) that doesn't look good

look at them goofing off n having fun

this is cute but the way bruce acts here and in gotham war is so jarring its kinda funny

bruce in batman #137: can't stand my fake ass family

bruce in b&r: me and my son damian 🤗

bruce is in his "local dilf in the area" era rn

damian having talia's mannerism that bruce noticed is so <3

and here its confirmed that this takes place during gotham war. not sure how to feel about that

STILL INSANE OVER THIS baby first self insert fanfic

damian went from drawing hyper realistic gore vent art to anime eyes in the corner

i think it'd be fun if we see damian write more as the story goes on. like him daydreaming n doodling in class

wonder if theres any meaning with damian putting talia as a hero n bruce as a criminal here...or maybe its just a "totally original character do not steal" thing

you dont say bruce 🙄

"the last few years"?? pretty sure the events shown there all happened not even in 2 years since damian turned 14 around the start of the lazarus tournament

also why are alfred n talia not shown there? alfred's death has huge impact on damian (he literally hallucinated him) n talia was there as much as ra's

i dont like how damian looks here but that white connor should be a crime

"thats enough emotions for tonight father" [slams door]

i wonder why damian is staying with bruce tho (outside of making this book exist) didn't bruce n talia had a custody battle moment™ n damian's like "nah i have my own life (is literally 14)"

HELL YEAH MY BOY CAN COOK

he's quoting alfred ohhh im gonna sob

this is kinda embarrassing for bruce...like ur son is finally living with you again n he's the one up early cooking?? sir u better step up

aw he's making tea the way alfred did

*squints* did bruce get his hand back? thats a pretty normal looking hand to me

did damian's comment on it in batman #137 made bruce think "shit i cant give damian any ideas of getting a robot hand" n he just. magically grow it back

[GLASS SHATTERING SOUND]

gotham...heights? n. not gotham academy? no maps? no damian joining her dnd team?? no detective club finally hanging out with damian??

ik damian got expelled from gotham academy BUT. WHY

okay? whats the point if he's not going to the same school that his friend went to?

interesting how damian fantasize for a normal life in robin 2021 (with him liking the mundanity of shoujo manga) n now that bruce is offering him that he's rejecting it (or maybe he just rly don't like school which is. fair enough)

wellll just cuz we're not getting maps n the detective club doesn't mean damian's other friends arent showing up right? RIGHT? (maya plz come home)

THE ROBIN MOBILEEE it looks so ridiculous i love it

HOLD ON. DOES THIS CAR HAVE NO SEAT BELTS?? BRUCE UR LETTING THIS SLIDE?

ik that thing is rly loud too damian waking up the whole neighborhood here

not rumors abt the batfam fighting getting spread around?? this is so embarrassing omg

am i the only one getting gotham academy flashbacks here? with killer croc n the trio with the fox shark n bird masks

they're very comfortable with calling eachother father n son while in suits huh. ig everyone in gotham knows that batman is a dilf (who's beefing with his adult children) now

not much to say abt the rest: bruce got shot with something n now bats are attacking him

end thoughts: i hope with all the focus on animals here means that we're getting damian's pets back soon n that gotham war wont affect this book much since i rly want to see damian interact with his siblings again. also is it just me or does the day scenes looks very bright? saturated? it kinda hurts for me to read idk. the night scenes r pretty tho

next issue is damian's first day on his new school that is not gotham academy but im still excited for it! (coping)

bonus bestie corner

#damian wayne #bruce wayne #batman and robin 2023 #FINALLY tumblr keeps posting it while im editing it but its done yippee #this is inspired by makeste bnh/a liveblogs! i remember how much fun it was reading them that i wanna try it with b&r #tho i dont think i could ever write as much for a single issue... #still figuring out how i want to do this

[wulvert]

more lore questions for u,,,same as before pls feel free to add more or avoid answering if u dont wanna spoil something/would rather it be shown in the comic!! i dont personally care about spoilers/implications but this is UR awesome media!! its completely up to u :]

do vampires naturally run colder since their heart beats slower, or are they still a normal human body temperature?

how much do vampires hunters actually know about vampire lore besides what it takes to kill/weaken/hurt them? are they mostly clueless?

is it public knowledge vampires and other creatures like trisha exist, or does the average person have no idea theres ghouls and beasties out there?

besides the bloodlust, would vampires suffer any similar symptoms to anemia when they're haven't drank, since it would mean they have a low rbc count? or would any symptoms besides bloodlust be more similar to human starvation? maybe a mix of both?

is it possible for vampires to drink non-human/non-vampiric blood, like animal blood? if it is, would most vampires just find it too small/distasteful a portion for it to be worth it? also, does this mean animals would be targeted as well when a vampire's in a bloodlust frenzy?

is,,,scarlet a vampire hunter?? ex-vampire-hunter??? i assumed she was since kelly recognized her and she seems knowledgeable about it, and tracked avery down, but its also rly funny to imagine she isn't and everyone at the bbq just going "strange! this woman isn't a hunter how'd she get here! well anyways. we'll make an exception bc she looks very polite and avery's finally introducing us to a friend (🏳️‍🌈🤨❓️). good for her!"

also not really a question but. ur lore implies avery was maybe just. blacked out laying in her own blood for at maximum a week before anyone went looking for her and its so. in character for her wet and patheticness,,,i love the unseen details in ur writing!!

hello!! I think it shouldnt be too spoilerly, heres the lore....

vampires are very cold, & its uncomfortable for them, so they end up sleeping next to radiators & heat vents like cats- blankets dont make them warmer either cause theres no body heat to trap under, they just insulate their coldness.

averys more knowledgeable about vampires than other vampire hunters just bc of her upbringing ( i think i mentioned it before? her entire huge family are all vampire hunters & shes been raised into it ), I think the average vampire hunter knows the basics, like stake silver sun crucifix, but I think they probably figure vampires are more zombie like than they actually are, scarlet was probably pretty disturbed to realise she's still herself now that shes a vampire, but avery already knew that's how it works- even if shes decided she can just say no to bloodlust, thats just her being her despite knowing better ( yes scarlet is also a vampire hunter ahah but shes found a loophole & doesnt hunt vampires anymore, but still gets paid for it :)

Vampires, werewolves etc. arent a secret but they arent thought about very much! theyre thought of being a lot more rare than they actually are

when vampires r hungry their veins hurt and they cant think about much other than blood. as for anemia their hands and feet cant get much colder but they can go kind of grey if starving 4 a extended period of time, and overall extremely pale. avery has no blood left right now which is why shes like. grey (people ask why scarlet doesnt look as dead as avery, its cuz she drinks blood regularly & also wears makeup) no fatigue though, i think they get very agitated.

vampires cannot drink non human/vampire blood, itd have the same effect as orange juice but like itd be gross bc its animal blood and it wouldnt taste good to them and theyd still feel sick 0 pros all cons :(

yea avery was lying in her pool of blood for a week 😔 kelly probably called her like 4 days in but didnt think much about it bc shes aloof and offputting 90% of the time anyway so it made sense for her to disappear for a bit... nobody else cared though

[yuukei-yikes]

Ok after your whole “shintaro misogyny” “shinaya?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??????!,!,?,?,?,?,?,,,” rant (loved btw, Jin stop making ur female characters rely on male counterparts, stop making your male characters hate women or believe they are incapable challenge), how do you feel about Kanoshin. I know you have talked about it before but like, idk, talk about it again lol.

Kano “I can fix him” Shuuya? Or Kano “I can make him worse” Shuuya.

JQKEOEKDWODIEID MY WHOLE "SHINTARO MISOGYNY" AND "SHINAYA?!?!?!?!?" thats so funny i didnt MEAN for it to be a rant. i was just venting 💔 BUT THANK U FOR LOVING IT BC I FUCKING LOVE TALKING ABOUT THAT BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY BOTTLED UP FEELINGS.

man. kanoshin. i dont think they're an i can fix him or i can make him worse duo. i dont think they are together FOR each other, they're together for their personal gratification if that makes sense??? at least that's how it starts. like they rly feed off of each other's worst coping mechanisms and validate themselves thru that. but through doing this obviously cant help to get to know each other and shintaro is pathetically laughing at kano's jokes and kano is pathetically kicking his feet and twirling his hair at shintaro groaning pathetically on the ground abt god knows what (NEVER forget this novel 7 moment)

also its so funny how often in the novels shintaro just physically throws himself on the ground to start moaning and groaning whenever he gets embarrassed. he's such a fucking freak. like who the fuck does that

shintaro and kano in the seventh novel are so insanely gay it's SO fucking good. THE BIT WHERE SHINTARO SMILES AT KANO AND KANO'S LIKE HUH...THAT'S HOW HE USED TO SMILE AT AYANO... HE ALWAYS HAD THIS SPECIAL SMILE FOR HER, AND NOW HE'S SMILING JUST LIKE THAT TO ME... like GIRLLLL *EXPLODES THEM WITH MY MIND* there is seriously no heterosexual explanation for any of that. god the seventh novel is so so so good. all of them are so good i wonder why it's the least consumed kagepro media they're SUPERIOR. the novels my #1 forever i fucking love them.

anyways. im normal erm kanoshin hehehehehehehhehe i think they're both far too terrified and disgusted abt their feelings for each other to consider stuff like "i can fix him" or "i can make him worse" YOU GET WHAT IM SAYING??? on this subject specifically, shintaros self hatred comes from well everything bitch hates himself but if we're talking abt kanoshin. 1. its ayanos brother. even if we dont even look at shinaya ever being romantically involved in the first place, THIS IS WEIRD TO HIM. 2. internalized homophobia arc☝️☝️☝️🙏🙏🙏👍👍👍👍💯💯💯

the fic i drew fanart of a couple days ago is SO *EATS IT EATS IT EATS IT* or also a soulmate au that i havent read in aaaages and also never finished but in that one shintaro was already out as bi... sadly both are aus WHICH DOESNT make them bad, aus are awesome but the things I'd do for content like that set post str. please. *bite bite bite bite bite* srry i bring these fics up cuz hehehe internalized homophobia shintaro is so good

maybe kano would eventually set for i can make him worse but it's in an attempt of scaring shintaro away. he's like im gonna self sabotage so much to make sure he stays away from me but shintaro is STILL here looking pathetic and kano's like god DAMMIT. erm. yeah.

btw now for me being crazy (tw me using shintaro as a stress toy to make me laugh): i think post str shintaro is not AS BAD with being absolutely fucking insufferable abt his whole guys rule girls drool thing because my man's had a little time to grow (ignores shinaya chapter in the eighth novel so i don't go insane with anger). i think post str shintaro makes 1 sexist comment and the entire mekakushi dan just fucking freeze for a moment. and give him an intervention and force him to say im sorry women and ever since then is more mindful of his actions. sorry i have to be delusional and believe this or else I'd just fucking hate his ass. im sorry shinaya i love you but *burns novel 8 shinaya chapter*

shintaro's messy relationships post str is my favorite stress toy btw. relationship with ayano crumbles. starts WHATEVER THAT IS with kano. in the self hatred confusion and internalized homophobia and etc the situation causes him (situation being gf dumped me bc im selfish so i hate myself / i kissed a boy a couple times so i hate myself) he desperately turns to the next closest Female(?) Counterpart with the following thought process "Pfff well i am so straight and SO capable of holding a normal relationship and i can PROVE IT there is one person who is 1. girl enough 2. apparently okay with me being a selfish asshole and consuming all their energy with my bullshit". so the solution is obvious to shintaro. just date takane.

turns out hitting on your best friend who also happens to be ur other best friend's gf is not good for either one of these relationships. so his friendship with not only takane but also haruka crumbles too in response and its so awkward. takane bc 1. i dont feel this way abt you and I'd treat the situation sensibly if i didnt know you well enough to know you dont actually like me that way and ur just taking me for granted like youve been doing all this time which WAS pissing me off and on its way to eventually explode but THIS....??? and haruka 2. YOU JUST HIT ON MY GIRLFRIEND?? (shintaro would be like maaan why did you tell haruka. and harutaka are like *slam door on his face*) situation drives shintaro to possibly end up kissing kano again. 🤨

its so hilarious. to me at least. ITS FINE he will get over it and makeup with everyone but i like making him suffer 👍 this is what you get shintaro. What do you have to say to the women in the world. apologize. say im sorry women. say it. say it and I'll leave you alone. sorry i went a little crazy in the end

#ask tag #headcanons #sorry. shintaro in agony bc ayano dumps him and in agony bc he likes kano desperately hitting on takane is A HILARIOUS CONCEPT #ayashin divorce

[brandnewcitymp3]

ok. so. six flags trip. we did it!!! it was a lot of fun actually!!!! had a v good time with all these lovely ladies and i rediscovered my love for roller coasters and i learned that i enjoy lil haunted house type mazes so all in all a v good day c:

#now time for me to vent in the tags dkdhdk #god the way my ex's gf did Not speak to me at all rly was so................. #like bich im already uncomf as is and also ur making it Very obvious that u dont like me kzvdkdvddmb #'didnt want her to feel insecure' like whats an established 31yo got to be insecure abt with a 22yo deadbeat like #ur just stroking my ego at this point bc. wow..................... Sad. #it was also kind of annoying bc we had an odd number of ppl so i was kinda the odd man out at times #ESP BC THERE WERE TWO COUPLES IN OUR GROUP DKDHDK #but they all made me feel included so it worked out and was okay :) #it was just....... Hard. bc like my lesbians are out here thriving and in love good for them............. I WANT THAT TOO GODAMMITBRMDDBZJ #augh Whatever. not getting into that. yall already know i am not Well. so zkdbdj #it was rly funny tho bc i spent a lot of time with the two str8 girlies and was literally like arm in arm with them and holding hands like #the most physical affection ive gotten from a girl in Months and These were the girls dkdbdk i loved them tho so its okay i only joke #still screaming at how some of them asked how i knew our mutual friend (my ex) and if im seeing anyone or anything like #haha lets Not talk abt this actually shdgsjdv #the str8 girl asking me abt my type tho was so......... like I cant just Point to my ex LIKE I CANT BDKDDHDKDB BRO. #was v relieved that that convo got interrupted and also that my history with my ex is a Mystery to them #anyway yea i have Thoughts but cant articulate them properly like always and theyre ugly anyways so jddbdk keeping it to myself....... #hope yall had good day and a good night and have a good tomorrow 💕💕 #txt

[andyboosack-a]

hi adora! sorry if this is a weird question 👉👈 but u and ria are really cute and i was just wondering. do you have any advice on managing long distance? ive had crushes on my internet friends before but im always too anxious bc i have no idea how id make an ldr last compared to an in person one. sry if this is weird! u guys are rly cute!! have a good night !!!

anon this is so cute just so u know we both cried ab it for a second. but like! i know an ldr is rly daunting and honestly it can kinda suck sometimes. theres a lot of nights where i get super cranky bc ria's so far away and not like physically with me you know. and a lot of the time we are talking about when we'll finally have some time together physically.

but managing an ldr isn't that bad! i feel like i have had fulfilling relationships in an ldr but it all depends on you as a person? like for me, my love language is spending time together and words of affirmation. ria and i spend basically every single day talking to each other because that's what we like to do. we say good morning and good night every day. we make a routine, we update each other on our days, we talk about stuff we like. we met through rp so we spend a lot of time headcanoning together, thinking of new plots, creating new characters. but we also talk about music, movies, tv, anime, funny things we saw or experienced, etc. we also pay attention to each other's needs. we give each other space if we need it, we ask whats wrong and we ask before we vent or trauma dump. and i feel like that rly defines the bulk of our closeness and intimacy.

we also spend time once or twice a week to watch something together; we started YOU and GOSSIP GIRL and FUTURE DIARY recently, so every once in a while we sit down and watch an episode or two together and just comment on it as we watch. we also facetime fairly regularly now that im living on my own and i dont have to worry about disturbing anyone / outing myself to my family. we ft and call each other. we make each other "gifts" (not necessarily physical, but also those!) like i make her graphics and presents all the time. we write together when we have the time. we talk about our personal lives and whats going on. over all, we just communicate a LOT. because thats our only means of closeness.

in a way, it almost mimicks an in person relationship (talking to each other throughout the day, spending quality time in our shared hobbies, we even update eachother on our meals so its almost like we're eating together :sob:) just without the physical touch. i will not be ✨spicy✨ on main but theres many different ways to make up for physical touch in an online sense KJNDKDJNF so theres things you can do for that? even though its not the same as holding their hand or kissing in person, i find that my ldr is just as satisfying mentally and emotionally. even if one day i hope that the distance isn't a thing anymore.

this got rly long and rambly but im gay and i love talking ab my gf so KJDNFDNFKJ <3 thank u for that. i hope i helped!

#* gf tag: ria.

[skiasurveys]

405.

Do you feel comfortable wearing tube tops? - Honestly  with the right outfit. But I prefer crop tops, since I am short waisted they usually only show a little bit of my belly lol

Has something someone said today annoyed you? Yeah my co worker lol

Do you like listening to new music, or just sticking to your favorites? I always like new music 

Did you ever feel that there was something you couldn’t tell anyone? - Yes there are a few things

Do you tend to gossip, even if you don’t mean it to cause harm? sometimes. sometimes im just trying to vent or rant.

When was the last time you were bitten by a bug? Omg, i domnt know tbh

Have you ever gotten your hair permed? Nah

Do you have a pair of sunglasses that are worth over $200? Yup, 500, but i got them on a discount cus my mom works for an eye doctor. I would never spend that much hahah unless i was super rich

Would you ever go on a trip to Europe? Yes. I want to

Are you brave when it comes to trying new foods? Nope.

When was the last time you saw your significant other? Right now. We live together.

Is there a friend that you can always go to for advice? Yes, usually sasha.

If you see a piano, are you tempted to go over and play a little something? Lol, no. 

Is there someone you know who bakes amazing sweets? Jennifer hahah

Are you ashamed of your singing voice? I guess? I just cant hit the notes lol

Has anyone teased you with the “K-I-S-S-I-N-G” song? when i was a kid

Have you ever had a dream where you could understand a foreign language? Nope..lol

What time is it where you are? 8:45 PM

Do you have anything important to do tomorrow? Just work tomorrow 

Have you ever owned a beanbag chair? no i want one though.

If you own a laptop, do you have a case for it? Yes and I have a backpack thats meant for caring around electronics

What was the last movie you purchased on DVD? No idea, I dont buy DVDs anymore

Are you a fan of retro things? Yaaas.

Do you do your own laundry? Yeah, lol I hate it.

Have you ever used pastels? They’re fun 

Is there a song you’re listening to at the moment? Nah, I hardly listen to music when I do surveys tbh

Have you ever been in possession of a hundred dollar bill? Yes haha

Is there one food you cannot give up, even though you know it’s unhealthy? Mcnuggets

Will you bother having a party for your next birthday? Idk. This year I didnt do one, so who knows.

If you’re with someone right now, do you think it will last? I hope it does.

What was the last movie that was unable to capture your interest? IDk. 

Have you heard of the Irish actor Jonathan Rhys Meyers? No.

Do you have something to do, that you would rather not do? my job

Are you, in any way, feeling hopeless right now? Kinda

Is there someone you just need to call and talk to? Maybe not call.. 

Are you one of those people who can eat anything and not gain a pound? -Kind of? My eating habits are bad but i dont rly gain but i dont lose weight hgahaha

Are your nails painted at the moment? I wish :(

Is there a song you’ve been listening to lately on repeat? Not rly.

Do you know who you’re planning to ask to your grad prom? I graduated 5 years ago haha

When was the last time you went shopping? a while ago.

Is there anyone who did something absolutely hilarious today? - Nope.

Are you having one of those days where you feel unattractive? Not today 

Do you like hotdogs? sometimes i get these weird stages where i just love hot dogs for some reason lol

Do you ever get bored of your music collection and get new songs? Yeah sometimes I just need something new.

Have you ever bought a designer purse? Yes, Guess.

What’s the limit on how much you would pay for a shirt?

Depends on the shirt tbh.

Would you ever like to see the Walk of Fame? One day.

Have you been in any sort of physical pain today? a little.

Who were the last people you hung out with? My boyfriend

Has someone ever called you “obnoxious”? of course

Most commonly, do you obey rules, or break them? I obey, always hahaha

Do you like making funny faces in pictures? I usually like to take a good one and a funny pic

Is there something you look back on and go “I can’t believe I did that”? Yep

Are you good at offering advice? I feel like I am

When was the last time you had to resort to a map? not a physical one but google maps lol

Your significant other: have you told them you love them lately? Last night I did.

What was the last thing to confuse you? just work stuff

How many different colors have you dyed your hair? Dark brown, blonde streaks ( cringe), redish, red orange brown ombre (fire ombre), blonde, purple tips

Do you know someone who always spells “bored” like “board”? hahahaha yes.

Are you wearing make up right now? yes, that reminds me to clean it off lol

Is there a phrase that you use a lot? "you know”

Are you old enough to vote? yes

Do you have a favorite pair of earrings? I dont have my ears pierced. 

Are you a fan of Keira Knightley? Not a fan tbh but I dont dislike her? 

Have you ever resorted to alcohol to make you feel better? hahahah yes

Are you aware of the significance of the date April 14th, 1912?Titanic...?

Do you ever just lay back and watch the stars?

I do when its warm

Lately have you had much time to relax? nah

Did anything important/changing happen to you in March 2019? Not really in march.

Have you ever felt like a “new person”? yes.

Do you own any expensive jewelry? my rings 

Has there been someone in your life that just wouldn’t leave you alone? Yes, but i got rid of them hahaha

Do you hate to use public bathrooms? Usually but if i have to go, i go.

Would you consider yourself to be loyal? almost too much

Do you find most remixes of songs to be good or bad? depends on the song! some dont need it, some make them cool and unique.

#survey #surveys #dec 11

[champagneandnostalgia]

happy birthday // peter kavinsky

Request: yay can i pls have a peter kavinsky imagine where reader hates celebrating her bday so she doesn’t rly tell anyone that it’s her bday but peter found out so that morning, he picks her up later than usual bcos he got her a piece of cake and coffee from this rly far place + some daises !! thank you :—))

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“How’s Teddy?” (Y/N) asked as she fell down on her bed, slipping her shoes off and resting her head on her pillow. Her old sister, Sarah, was adjusting to motherhood and (Y/N) was her absolute best friend so although she was younger, she often took to venting to her.

“Despite waking me up in the middle of the night, he’s a dream. I know he’s only a month old but, it’s like I can’t imagine not having him here.” She mused. “You have to come visit soon, loser.” (Y/N) and her family had gone when Teddy had first been born. It was so weird. (Y/N) had detested Daniel, Sarah’s fiance, for stealing her sister. Moments like those, seeing Daniel hold their son and Sarah gazing at them with so much admiration, made (Y/N) realize how good they were together.

“I know. I’ll have to talk to the parentals about when I can come down to New York. What about Daniel? How’s he doing?”

“Good! Really settling into the new job. What about you? How’s the boyfriend?” She asked, the teasing tone evident in her voice. (Y/N) let out an embarrassed groan, Sarah laughing loudly at her reaction. “C’mon now...don’t hold out on me! I want to hear all of the gory details.”

“We’re taking it slow. He’s very sweet to me.” (Y/N) had been weary about going out with Peter because of the rumors she had heard, saying no the first two times he had asked her on a date. After the third time she had finally said yes and that was all it took. He showed her how much of a gentleman he could be. It wasn’t an act either. In fact, they went on three dates until kissing for the first time. She couldn’t take the anticipation, kissing him right on the mouth as he dropped her off at home, neither of them being able to rid the smiles from their faces.

“Are you guys going out for your birthday?”

(Y/N) couldn’t help but roll her eyes, “He doesn’t even know it’s coming up.” She said honestly. It was going to the stay that way if it was up to her. She hated celebrating her birthday ever since she was a little girl. No one understood why. Maybe it was the attention or the fact that she didn’t think it was important, but she had no desire to celebrate.

“You think you’re going to be in a relationship without ever having to celebrate your birthday? Also heads up, you know mom and dad are trying to throw you a party again.” The teenager groaned, glancing up as her door opened, her boyfriend appearing in front of her. She stifled a laugh as he moved onto the bed, hovering above her. She pecked him quickly on the lips before mouthing how she’d just be a minute. He laid down on top of her, his head resting on her stomach.

“There will be no party.” (Y/N) assured her, eyes focused on the sexy boy in her room. He had his phone out now, looking at her every once in a while to pull a funny face. “Please tell mom. I know this is her doing and she’ll just do that creepy thing where she pretends to agree with me and keeps winking.”

Peter had began to get restless, lifting himself up so he was hovering over her once more. She raised an eyebrow at him, letting out a sigh as he pressed a kiss to her neck. “I mean I’ll try but, you know how she is. She just doing it out of love.” (Y/N) could only hum in satisfaction as Peter nipped at her neck, tilting her head to the side so he had more access.

“Can I call you back?”

“Mmh,” She said knowingly, “Hi Peter!” She screamed loud enough that he ceased his actions. (Y/N) erupted into giggles while he grabbed the phone.

“Hey, Sarah.” He grinned, Sarah laughing along before telling her sister to call her later and hanging up the phone. “So what party were you talking about?” He asked, not missing the panicked look on her face. She forgot he had been in the room to hear that.

“Uh, nothing. Don’t worry about it. Not a big deal.” She chirped, putting some pressure on his shoulder so he’d roll onto his back, climbing on top of him. She straddled his waist, his large hands coming down to rest on her hips.

He tried once more, “Doesn’t seem like it. Is everything alright?”

“Yes and I know you worry about me and I love that but, there’s nothing to be worried about.” She said sincerely, chuckling at his concerned expression, completely unwavered by what she had said. “C’mon, let’s study for chem.”

After a few hours of studying, dinner and Netflix, (Y/N) was fast asleep on Peter’s chest. He slowly moved from under her, kissing her on the head and putting a blanket over his sleeping girlfriend. “Night, babe.” He whispered although he knew she wouldn’t hear it. He crept out of her room, closing the door as quietly as he could. The light was on downstairs, (Y/N)’s mom watching some lifetime movie in the living room. “Thanks for having me over for dinner again, Mrs. (Y/L/N).”

“Oh, of course, Peter. You’re always welcome.”

He grinned, making his way to the door before stopping in his tracks, “Actually, could I ask you something?” She muted the tv, gesturing him to come over. “I don’t mean to pry but something seemed off with (Y/N) earlier today. I heard her mention a party and she kinda just shut down about it.” He explained.

“(Y/N)’s birthday is on Friday.” His eyes widened slightly. “I’m assuming she didn’t tell you. She has never liked to celebrate it. I don’t know why. She says it’s just another day and she doesn’t see the point. I had mentioned throwing a party to her sister but, I guess the cat’s out of the bag.”

“Well, I had no idea.”

“Don’t take it personal, sweetie. She’s definitely not doing it to be mean.” He nodded quickly before thanking her and wishing her a good night. He couldn’t help but feel slightly hurt that he almost missed his girlfriend’s birthday because she hadn’t told him. He had given no indication that he knew about her birthday the next day at school, acting as if nothing happened.

On Friday morning, she had woken up just like any other day. Her mom hadn’t forced her dad to shake her awake to sing a bad rendition of happy birthday. She didn’t even make her a special breakfast. It had been a normal morning, except for the ‘happy birthday, sweetheart’ she received from both of them followed by a kiss on the cheek before heading to work. It confused her but, she was grateful nonetheless. Peter was supposed to be at her house 10 minutes ago to pick her up for school but he was nowhere to be found. Just as she was about to call him, the doorbell rang.

“You’re 10 minutes la-” She stopped mid sentence; Peter Kavinsky was standing there with a balloon, coffee, daisies and what seemed to be a piece of cake. “What’s going on?”

“It’s for you.” He moved forward, placing everything on the table in the house beside the door. They were standing in the doorway, (Y/N) reaching for the daisies before he could set them down. “Why didn’t you tell me it was your birthday?”

She sighed, looking down at her feet. “Because I didn’t want you to make a big deal about it. I don’t deserve to have a whole day dedicated to me.” She muttered sheepishly.

“Hey, hey, hey.” He put a finger under her chin, tilting it up so they’d meet eyes. “Don’t say that. You mean so much to everyone around you, alright. So don’t just act like it isn’t something worth celebrating. Today means a lot to me...because the girl I love was born on this day and I thank God that she was.”

“Uh, can I just have a minute?”

He almost laughs, remembering the first time they made out in his car. She had gotten worked up and squeaked out the same question. It was often something she did and he was accustomed to it. “Sure.” She sent him a half smile before rushing back into her house, shutting the door with her back pressed against it. Tears welled in her eyes. It was overwhelming. She grabbed the coffee from the table, almost bursting into tears at the sight of the purple flower on the cup. It was from Grace’s, a cafe she and Sarah had discovered when her older sister first learned to drive. It was 2 hours away and that’s why he had been so late. She could only stand there wondering why it was so hard to believe his sudden confession. Here he was, saying he loved her, while she was hiding from him behind a door. 

(Y/N) took a deep breath, opening the door, Peter watching her with careful eyes. She smiled at him, practically knocking him over as she threw her arms around his neck. He was quick to hold her, hands hooking under her thighs to lift her up, legs wrapping around his waist.

She leaned back slightly, “I love you.” Her knees went weak as Peter connected their lips, kissing her so feverishly she felt dizzy. They’re were both panting when (Y/N) tugged at his hair, pulling away to catch her breath, a satisfied noise escaping his lips.

“Happy birthday, baby.”

A/N: Thanks for requesting, honey! Let me know if y’all liked this one. Hope it gave you all the feels. And I’m sorry if you hate stelena but pretend its just Paul and Nina looking all sexy and kissing. Thought it went well! Send me some requests! 

#peter kavinsky #peter kavinsky imagine #to all the boys i've loved before #to all the boys i've loved before imagine #to all the boys i've loved before movie #peter kavinsky is a dream

[illusionlock]

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finally blocked a-d--obe-out--de/si-gn so i can finally namedrop freely jkdfjdksfg n like. i just wanna clarify, i dont think shes a bad person, n i rly dont mind if you guys like her or not, but god. i have so much beef with her without even having talked to her because she:

let a rape joke slide n even commented further on it, not even pointing out it was a bad term to use

constantly uses gay people as props in her blog, obviously just to win cookie points or to please her followers, like shes got no filter on her asks n that results in her laughing along at shit like ‘joey drew studios was a gay factory’ (because. you know, the worker class being severely abused n terrorized is quirky n funny n it makes you gay! apparently!!) n lets not forget the lovely time she went ‘yeah i dont think abusive ships are that bad, were just exploring the nuances of it’ which is. how do you not see the problem with that, half of the time when youre talking about it youre joking at the expanse of a gay man suffering, you dont really care about nuances or exploring or whatever, you just wanna look at us like zoo animals n force the ‘evil jealous predatory gay wants to keep his straight/bi friend forever with him’ trope on joey

pretty sure stole my theory about henry having already gone through the studio before like not even 3 days after i posted it (granted she elaborated much further n better than i could have but she couldve still given credit for at least idk, inspo)

this is debatable but pretty sure she took direct inspiration from a fanfic of mine, to the point of lines n motives even nearly mirroring each other, again, an @ couldve easily fixed that but i guess nah lol it never happened

other stuff is just. idk her theories arent that good. sorry? theres often a lot of holes that are patched up with only links leading to her own theories ending up in a constant self referencing circle which is a bit tiring, theres little to no variety of ideas, the average theorist at least tries to come up with various different back up theories n ways the story could branch but its kinda disappointing ao... never does that. not to mention she misunderstands a lot of the canon contents intention n uses that to again, continue her circle of self referencing which is already not holding up too well.

is just fucking annoying man she tags every ask in the main tag n i have to see that shit clutter it up, no thank you i just wanna find cool art not see 5445 asks about how joey is an evil gay or whatever

also someone tell her that just because a woman that was once kind becomes cruel due to trauma n being used n pressured in a male dominated environment that doesnt make her evil, literally why does she think me thinking susie has the deeper voice means i hate her, i dont, people who hate “alice” as a whole just hate her n thats it, they dont even think about that. i literally dont need to even make a distinction about who is who in alice n id still know its fucked up to portray her as completely evil n deserving of a horrible death, like many people out there do.

i dont rly care if you, uh, wanna debate on this, just keep it civil cuz again. i dont hate her, i dont think shes truly bad or a real problem im just tired of everyone acting like shes such a good reference in the batim fandom cuz shes not, theres way better people out there. n again i wont judge you if you like her, i do agree a lot of her content can be pretty good, i liked her dhmis theory. i guess what im saying is this isnt something im up for yelling about, but i just needed to vent on this. it feels good to just let this out

#don't be scared. i am here with you.

[golden-heart-beats]

okay im going to talk abt the new su episode under the cut!! check it out if u want but be warned, i drop spoilers!! (i was going to talk about yesterdays episode to but i got distracted talking to my friends so we doing today and today alone also long post warning okie lets go)

okay, to be frank, i’ve actually? never rly liked amethyst. its not like i hate her or think shes a bad character, i’ve just? never cared for her, like i support her arc and i think shes funny/cute/etc, but my attention just naturally goes to any other character in the show. shes kinda there to be there for me.

but this episode has absolutely changed my opinion on her. like!! in season 1, she was a irresponsible, lazy person dealing with severe self esteem issues and her complicated past/history, especially with the ways other people perceived her. in the kindergarten episode, she basically had a full out breakdown in front of steven and pearl. in the episode with greg, her unresolved issues with him exploded into shapeshifting into rose to spite him, hurting both steven and greg severely. 

 but in this episode!! amethyst realizes that everyone is dumping their problems on steven and they have been for awhile. all she wants is to take a moment to help him out, she wants to let him VENT and get everything off his chest!! shes sad and hurt and angry to, but she realizes that it isnt his problem. it isnt his job to make her feel better. im just so proud of her man!! and this episode made me fully realize how far shes come and how much she fucking loves steven.

like i feel the fandom kinda brushes that aside a lot and i admit i’ve been guilty of that. amethyst, despite being more silly and fun then garnet/pearl, REALLY wants to be there for steven and wants to help him out. most of their one-on-one interactions/episodes together is centered around amethyst trying to help steven in some way, trying to have fun and live in the moment yknow?

(i also rly love the fact amethyst is so focused on living in the future to!! it makes so much sense with her previous issues. she spent so long dwelling on roses death, her friendship with greg and the complicated existence of being a kindergarten gem. now that shes been recovering from all of that, amethyst has learned that the past is the past. its unhealthy to center too much of your thought around it, esp the way she was going at it. good shit!!!!!!!!)

anyways tonight we stan amethyst we never get tired of her hoe ass 

(ALSO THE ART WAS SO GOOD BITCH LIKE IM LIVING IT UP FOR THOSE FACIAL EXPRESSIONS)

(also as a pearl x sapphire shipper i was losing my mind over their size difference and them hugging.... let them LOVE and also date ruby. poly times.  can you tell i love sardonyx the most and YES i loved her before she came into my system 3 years ago but that made me an even BIGGER stan of sardonyx anyways we stan qUEEN)

#Determination.txt #Long post - #WE STAN! QUEENS

[organictaeyong]

boyfriend!jaehyun

y’all are disgustingly cute

like he looks all cocky and confident

nd tbh you thought he was a fuckboy at first

but then he got really shy and stuttery when he asked you out

spoke a mile a minute honestly

“heydoyouwannagooutwithmesometime”

nd you’re like boy slow down what are you saying

nd johnny overheard and decided to help be an “”””official translator”””

"I think he is asking you on a date or maybe he’s telling you there’s something in your teeth it’s hard to tell"

nd you have never seen someone blush so hard

(or punch johnny as hard tbh)

nd this is when you realised he was the sweetest boy to ever exist maybe

the softest boy to ever exist

especially when he smiles nd you can see his dimples and his crescent eyes and you always scream because its such a beautiful smile

nd he always tells you that you’re the only one who can make him smile like that

nd you scream even more  

probably carries a photo of you in his wallet

nd not so subtly tries to make sure everyone notices

nd when they do he tries to play it off like it was accidental

“oh my god N o haHA DON’T LOOK … isn’t she so cute though”

nd everyones groaning because that is the fourth !! time  !! today !!

but he just wants to tell everyone in the world about you

bc he loves you so much

starts telling taeyong the funny story of how you spilled your coffee yesterday

its four hours later and he still hasn’t stopped talking about you

invited you to hang out with all the members and you were really nervous

nd you were freaking because what do you wear???

jaehyuns like idk just wear ur grey sweater thats cute

nd you do because jaehyun would never lie to u 

so you walk in and everyones shrieking

“JUNG JAEHYUN IS THAT COUPLE CLOTHING I SEE”

nd that’s when you realise he scammed you and is also wearing a grey sweater

nd he was tryna play it off like oh….my…god …. We are….. meant to be??? Look at this for a connection….. no one even planned this…what r the odds.. wowo

speaking of couple clothes

leaves a hoodie at your place when he knows he's going away for a while

(you have a collection at this point)

they're always so soft nd smell so good

remind u of him nd make u feel better when he's not around

which is exactly why he does it tbh

tho he's never said that, just blushes when u bring it up nd changes the conversation

he is so awkward while also not awkward at all

always tryna use cheesy pick up lines on you

“you kno….im not a photographer… but I can picture me and you together”

“jaehyun we are literally dating why are you trying to use pick up lines on me”

“it is cute excuse u now please come here so I can picture me and you together thank u”

he never ever gets tired of taking selcas with you

will deadass make you take a photo with him using every filter on snow

nd then maybe another 600 for good measure

his camera roll is literally just hundreds of photos with you

nd he always complains that he has no memory

you’re like I WONDER WHY DELETE THESE 600 PHOTOS PLEASE

of course he never will

changes his contact name in your phone to Jeffrey

all the time

he won’t stop

he is your best friend and your boyfriend

like 100% always there for you

there for you before you even realise you need him

is so good at reading your moods and always knows what to do

when you get stressed about school he brings you snacks and waits until you’re done with work to come talk to him

nd then he cuddles up with you

strokes your hair and just listens to you vent

nd he agrees that sometimes the girl who sits beside you in algebra is really inconsiderate

offers to beat up your lab partner who doesn’t understand the concept of personal space

hes just really encouraging always telling you you’re a genius and you can do it

nd you don’t know what you’d do without the encouragement honestly

sometimes when you text him that school is really terrible that day

he shows up to bring you for a coffee before walking you home

nd every person in your school is jealous of you

bc you have the most handsome and caring boyfriend

like one day it’s raining when you’re leaving school and you’re like alright

there’s no way he is waiting for me he will catch these hands if he is

but there he is

looking more handsome than ever

under an umbrella

holding your favourite coffee and a muffin

bc he knows you had to work on your history project through lunch

nd even your teachers are screaming like look AT THAT CONSIDERATE HANDSOME BOY HERE EVEN IN THE RAIN

nd the next day in school your teacher is like hi listen marry that boy please

everywhere you go you get told you are perfect together

e v e r y w h e r e

like you went for a date in the park and an old lady was like “you are such a beautiful couple??? Get married??”

nd jaehyuns a blushing mess once more

nd he’s like “oh stop the beauty is all her can u believe I am this lucky???”

so soft

you r aways kissing his dimples

nd he loves it so much

you don’t have dimples but he said he doesn’t mind because he likes to kiss your cheeks anyway

loves to just lie down nd spoon with you

its so relaxing because he has the most comforting presence  

you feel like you suck at comforting him most of the time

bc he is just so good at comforting you

but honestly he just needs you to hold him sometimes

nd that’s enough for him

bc he loves u

nd he loves being with you

nd rly that’s all he needs

all he’ll ever need

such a precious boy !!

#back at it again with the boyfriend! scenarios #eventually we'll get thru all our requests I swear #kpop scenarios #nct scenarios #jaehyun scenarios #boyfriend!jaehyun #boyfriend!series #admin pear #headcanon

[jamqyu]

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#not a vent but more like a rant #i started talking to this guy off from bumble and its like.....he’s cute and we have a lot im common and we just called and ended up #talming for 2 hours and we’re gonna go on a date in january for my bday but im also like #he’s rly sweet and all and funny and understands my last experience with a guy was horrible and im happy he wants to make a good impression #..........but i feel like i already have feelings for a friend like she doesnt know and idk if she’d reciprocate and if it’d #ruin our relationship but its like........i really like her and i love talking to her and i want to see her again and now i kinda feel bad #talking to this guy and agreeing to go on a date with him oh my god im gonna go crazy idk what to do 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 #i gotta sleep on this. im so confused

[yoonasgf]

171013- saturday a rant dnt bother reading

i feel like i wanna talk to someone but then i think about it and what am i even expecting ? whenever i say smth i regret it immediately so just thinking abt expressing whats bothering me to others i just know ill regret adn feel guilty and embarrassed about it later so i never talk to anyone abt anything that goes on in my mind and it gets to the point where its so over bearing i feel like its drowning my head somehow , im so.. lonely wld be the word but lonely in my thoughts but like that doesnt even make sense idk im just writing here bc i need to let my feelings out somehow and i’d usually do it on twitter but like the 140 characters thing anyway i just feel like i want to let things out but whenevr i do i never like the answer i get, like if they give me advice i feel annoyed cus i wasnt asking for help i was simply stating how i felt (and most of the time its stuff that cant really be fixed?), if they tell me stuff like “i love you !” its like ok? ik its mean but someone elses love does not affect my situation at all since its an inner issue that doest rly have to do with self-esteem, and if they just are like ‘yeah’ or ‘thats so bad:(’ ijust feel like theyre not paying attention (even if they are) which makes me regret opening up, so i dont really know what im expecting when i vent to someone i guess i just want to feel like someone is listening to me idk im like so full of thoughts and feelings. writing this feels like its calming me down a little bit so i think im just gonna keep writing, in english (its funny how id rather open up in english since its my second language i feel more alienated from it so it feels less real? what im talking about seems less seriousdk) so whats circling in my mind is that i dont have anyone im urging to meet i dont have anyone i truly like anymore and that my ladies is so fucking sad and frustrating that ive mentally grown apart from my friends im just not myself when im with them and sure my fake-extroverted persona ive built throughout highschool is good at doing her job and she still gets along with them so well but now it feels like that side of me, the fake one, is another person like we used to share some “mental common ground” but not anymore i just dont have anything in common with that persona anymore so whenever im with my old friends i just become her it’s like i completely leave reality it makesme so lonely inside. and i cant help it its unvoluntary how i switch places with the other me i cant stop it and i hate it because i feel like its drowning me alive, along with my personal issues. lately ive been isolating myself a lot, i stay in the classroom during recess and i havent gone out in like a month.actually last time i went out i decided i just wont go out anymore i just think its not for me i truly dont have fun. is that okay like is that normal? like is just dont enjoy the loudness and the kind of jokes that go on, i think if grown too fast. i justdont wannatalk about drinking andsex and how evil the math teacher is, like its fine once ia while but iwanna discuss science and philosohy and share thoughs too,  anything else is so irrelevant it’s so sos irrrelevant to me. not that i dont enjoy good laughs anddrinking, but for that i feel like i wanna be with someone who is special to me? like someone whoi respect intellectually first, and then we can laugh at dog memes. someone i can show my realpersona to,and the thing is i have my best friends she’s literally so perfect bc she’s smart but also silly so we can talk abt hitler but then we can talk abt that one episode of sponge bob ? but the thing is shes graduating this year, and she has like an almost boyfriend, so i decided i should start getting used to her not beingwith me, but thats way more lonely than i thought. the guy thing, it wasnt planned, and shes with her crush most of the time which i totally understand i watn them to be together and stuff but i dont have anyone else but her- that is the real me not the fake persona, the fake persona hasmany people- but i though “she deserves this” so decided to step back so they can concentrate on each other. she ofc wouldve never asked this of me, but it seems like it was the best, sometimes i feel like a huge burden to her. but now imrealizing how lonely it has made me, being with her is like letting go of a breath that ive been holding and im realizing how much i need her. so i thought of like ‘slipping’ back in but im faced with the fact that we will infact part ways when she graduates because we’re attending universities in different parts of the country so maybe i should be getting used to the solitude, until someone else comes. and someone else seems to be here, this one friend i have in my new class, but im so scared of opning up to her, im scared of her kindness to me. i always think “why is she so nice? why does she stand up for me” at first she wasa bit too rough for me but as we spent time together i think she realized what kind of person i am and changed her ways so now were getting closer and closer and it makes me so 불안해 and 두려워 (idk how to express the sentiment in english) i dont even know what im scared of, it;s not like ive been hurt before in that way i think? maybe i have i cant remember. the point is, i know i should let this person in because she’d help me but i just cant seem to opne the freaking door its like my hand is shakinly holding teh doorknob without actually twisting it. i do think i will eventually tho. anyway. i was saying i spend alot of time alone these days, reading,studying, twitter, watching stuff, and its really nice i really do enjoy being by myself but i honestly dont have manyb things to do? so eventually the Thoughts come, and lately what ive been meditating is how the reason why i dont get close or attached to people (again the fake me might get closed but not me) is because simply no one is as good company to me as myself? which is fine wyou know many people feel like that, but i hate that if im alone poeple thinkg i dont have friends or that im sad and they think its bad that i am alone which is really not the case. i could be with ppl if i wanted to i just chose not to. theres this particular guy in my class actually, who thinks he has to be my friends bcim often alone and it irriates me so much bc 1. hes interrumpting my enjoyable me-time 2. he does it out of pity and boi do i hate pity like sometimes i just stay in the classroom doing homework or reading and he comes in likw “why are u always alone:(” because i want to you fucking dumbass andtoday or maybe it was yesterday particularly he said “why are you always alone is it becayse you dont have freinds bc you went on exchange and dont know anyone” llike um no im alone because i literally want to be alone you absolute dipshit and ido have 10 times more friends than you i just dont feel like being wit hthem you fucking asshole it pissed me off so much as if he’s ?? helping in anyway ?? i just wish anyone whosaw me alone wld tjust think ‘i guess she likes being alone’ isntead of thinking that im alone bc no one is willing to keep me company. isuddenly got really mad writting this. i think this really calmed me downishould do it more often its not like anyone who follows me here wld open it, like ideally this is whatdiaries are for but i dnt like to waste paper. im gonna write the date as well 

#j