never enough not
now nor ever I dream of
worlds so much better
in a rare situation, people can leave a relationship when they feel they are not enough, when they feel they are not worth it, weak, helpless, and when they feel that the other person deserves better than them. even though they truly loved.
“ If the urn aptly decks a faded bosom
and a rose in full bloom rekindles it,
he stains its damned bouquet with glistening mildew. ”
— Stéphane Mallarmé, tr. by E. H. and A. M. Blackmore, from Ill Fortune; Collected Poems and Other Verse.
is it greedy to want someone to love you? Giving love is draining, after all, I’ve felt
And queens I have for you good tip for photo how to get look your legs are little bit skinnier let me show you on my picture I use my left leg like this but you can try it on right ( I never see anybody pose like me here. And I don’t know how it look I just want to try it bcs I was trying to get cute) and My clothes look confident but I’m not I’m so scared to go anywhere but I really want to look cute for my love and I know when I lose more weight I will feel better in this outfit) ps: love you queens 👸🏻
Ps: I’m sorry I use so much and
My progress from little kid (2003/2004) to 2014 to now.
In that red dress I weigh 51-52kg (sometimes I was feel really fat but still was confident😬🤯😳 Like where is my confidence now when I lose it all and feel like shit😳) that photo was taken in October 2019 before my birthday. My ed start when I really start losing weight I start addicted to it and want to lose more and more. I think it start really bad when I weigh 43–42 I still feel horrible about myself in 51,49,48 etc but it was different I was happy and love food but when I get sick and I don’t want to eat I eat so little and food start to be disgusting to me. It was really good time because I lose it to 39,9kg but then it stop and I start eat so much and get to point I weight 43,6 kg and I still can’t get it back I miss it really.. it’s hard to pretend how confident I am when I’m not
Why you have always been so mean to me?
Wed, 20 January 2021, 12.02 am
io: *sono mentalmente stanca, l’ansia mi divora e non riesco ad avere interazioni sociali, preferirei essere sottoterra, mi sento sola, odio me stessa, non so esprimere i miei sentimenti, mi sento un peso per tutti e non mi sento abbastanza*
la mia “famiglia”: datti una mossa dai! svegliati fuori! dio mio hai vent’anni, su forza!
grazie, voi si che mi capite come solo la famiglia sa fare
While I’m glad nobody I follow got hacked, I’m disappointed I didn’t get random ray ban ads
why do I always have the feeling I am doing everything wrong.
It doesn’t matter to whom I speak, I always feel as a failure.
I don’t know how to handle life, I am just bad at it.
It’s sad, but it always comes back to me.
I decided to try and ignore my eating problems for 2 days. I gained about 4 pounds. Now this even harder not to eat, but I hate my body so much. I dont know what to do anymore.
It’s not easy to life with this insecure.
“ I am that man. No matter how I strain
on ardent night’s rope to ring the Ideal,
cold sins flaunt their safe wings without a care, ”
— Stéphane Mallarmé, tr. by E. H. and A. M. Blackmore, from The Bell-Ringer; Collected Poems and Other Verse.
I wish I could get better… But at the same time, the darkness is so inviting, dear…
Gotta say i like my major….i do….but….i just wanna do sth to do with art…….drawing…clothes etc etc etc idk ah
loving you was so violent, why do I want more.
I’m only alive out of a sense of duty.
If you feel the same way, please REBLOG.
Ich bin nur noch aus Pflichtbewusstsein am Leben.
Wenn es euch auch so geht, dann bitte ein REBLOG.