#not even lying

[incorrect-primarchs-quotes]

Very randomly I found a short story about Vulkan, talking about the time Curze destroyed Nostramo and how he and Horus wanted to deal with Curze after that.

I can post some excerpts if you are curious but let me tell ya, Vulkan is such a precious Boi <3

#Literally tts Vulkan is the canon vulkan #Not even lying #Behaving like such a loving daddy #Adorable #Vulkan

[herrmannhalsteadproduction]

I feel like the most writerly thing I've ever done is to start writing fanfiction as a hobby on the side from my job...as a writer. 🤦‍♀️

#because you know what's fun? #slamming my face against a keyboard ALL hours of the day #not even lying #writers - why are we like this? #dumb of ass #sore of arm #moderately quick of word #this message has been brought to you by carpal tunnel and tendonitis

[wildaboutmnhockey]

not to be emotional on main but one of my friends just sent me this as a belated birthday gift and I'm actually crying

#not even lying #i unwrapped it and went 'awww' and then turned it around to see Merrill's number and started crying #i told her Merrill giving Ashley and I pucks during warm-ups saved pride night for me and she went above and beyond #dee and friends

[paranorahjones]

ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to own a baby blue mini fridge

#not even lying #i have dreamed of owning one for so many years

[urlocalsadkid-l]

i’m trying to see what the unsent message is to my irl name but there are none

#broke my heart #not even lying #literally about to cry cause of it #and ik it’s stupid but like #just maybe one? #unsent messages #urlocalsadkid l #text post #random

[catgoblins-blog]

My Taste in Men is very ✨specific✨

#newt tmr #tmr newt #the maze runner #tmr #thomas brodie sangster #my taste in men is tall scrawny British men with this EXACT hair #not even lying #my bf looks exactly like newt with brown hair help me #this is my life #he cute #newtmas

[sebnameyourcar]

just checked my emails wtf?

#not even lying #silly season 22 #oscar piastri

[makwandis]

I combat gentrification by blasting mexican tiktok and whatsapp videos aloud on public transportation

#not even lying #my methods...

[jonuardoluvmail]

“#1 Jonuardo Shipper”

NO, I’M THE NUMBER ONE JONUARDO SHIPPER YOU FOOL!!!

/hj (I’m being full /srs)

#jonuardoluvmail #jonuardo #I’d murder anyone to claim the number one spot for jonuardo #not even lying #deadass

[and-stir-the-stars]

Since saffron evan is used to seeing people terrified bc of. Y'know, life or death situations. What would he do if he witnessed Michael in maximum panic mode? Like, would he be surprised because Mike's been the one taking care of him and helping with his trauma as much as was possible, or would he just be so numb from exposure that he's like :|

That probably depends on where in the timeline we're talking about.

If it happened in the time between the Bite and Mike moving out ~18, then Evan isn't quite William's perfect little killer yet. I'm not sure yet if Evan's first kill happened before or after Mike moved out, but either way, Evan isn't used to killing or seeing the looks on people's faces before they die. He definitely isn't desensitized to it yet. I think seeing Mike in "maximum panic mode" would be confusing to Evan at this stage, because Michael has spent years making fun of and tormenting Evan for things like crying and not being able to control his breathing, so... why is Mike doing it? It's especially confusing with William's whispers in his ears about crying being weak, and how these feelings that should make you 'weak' should be turned against others so you can be strong. Why isn't Mike doing that?

If Evan sees Mike panicking post-capture but before he connects with Mike after Mike gets custody, things would be way different. At this point, as ironic as it is, Evan basically sees Michael as a weaker version of himself.

Michael is the one who wasn't good or strong enough to carry out the family business. William specifically chose Evan over Mike because EVAN was the one William knew could be strong (or so Evan thinks). Michael is the coward who ran away at 18, the one too weak to even carry the Afton name (Mike changed his name to Schmidt in the au). Seeing Mike in panic mode would give this Evan a grim sense of self-satisfaction, both because William has encouraged him to want those who hurt him to suffer and now the guy who tormented him for years is suffering, and because it's further evidence that Evan is the strong one and Michael is weak.

Or, Evan could see the panic attack while he and Mike are just starting to form a tenuous, fragile relationship. In which case, Evan is unnerved. Ev remembers how bad his own panic and crying attacks used to be (once he stops repressing the early days of William manipulating him, at least), but Evan doesn't have a very good frame of reference for appropriate ways to calm someone when they're panicking, given the way he grew up. Evan feels like he's supposed to be doing something to help-- he knows that a good person should WANT to help-- but Evan has no idea WHAT he should do to help, or how to tell... if... he... WANTS... to help?

And given that this Evan is just starting to be crushed under the weight of what an awful person he must be to have helped William, the fact that he doesn't know what to do to help Mike is crushing. The guilt and uncertainty leads him to either leave the room entirely and just leave Mike to it, or just stand/sit there and watch Michael as he is paralyzed and unnerved by what he's seeing. He feels guilty for it later, but he doesn't apologize for doing nothing, and unless Michael initiates a conversation about the panic attack, then neither of them mention it ever again.

Evan doesn't want to, but he's stuck thinking about it for weeks afterward. Thinking about how it unsettled him to see Michael so weak (re: the proper word is vulnerable but Evan doesn't know there's a difference between weak and vulnerable yet). How Mike isn't all that bothered that Evan saw him at such a "weak point" when Evan knows he should be VERY bothered about that. How he (Evan) didn't know how to respond, how guilty Evan felt for not knowing and doing nothing.

There could potentially be anger/fear at this point, too; Evan has lost the only person he thought could ever take care of him or love him (William), and yes, Evan is starting to see that William was abusive now, but how is he supposed to trust Michael can take care of him if Mike can't even take care of himself? Michael's the one who took him in and made him feel all these vulnerable and weak feelings again and told Evan that he's "just a kid" and shouldn't have all this horror and weight on his shoulders, and yet, here Mike is, not being strong for Evan like he promised after SPECIFICALLY making Evan vulnerable/weak again.

Evan has confusing feelings for a long time afterward (thankfully, he has some pretty good therapists to help him through it).

Which leads to what would happen if Ev saw Mike panicking post-Actual Formation of Brotherly Relationship. Evan's still plagued by the fear of not knowing what to do, but he tries to act through it anyway. Maybe at first through small things; he grabs a box of tissues and a blanket and a snack and leaves it next to Michael for his brother to have when he comes down from the panic before leaving the room entirely. Maybe one day Evan brings up his paralyzing fear that crops up when he sees Mike upset because he Does Not Know What to Do in therapy, and the therapist tells him "well, have you asked your brother how you can help him when things get that bad?"

Evan's brain short-circuits at the idea of it really being THAT simple. There's still emotional constipation between the two of them (Evan being too anxious and proud to ask, and Mike being too proud to give an actual answer plus not wanting to put the burden of having to help him through panic attacks on Evan's shoulders), but eventually they do talk things through and things get a little bit easier for the both of them.

#this was a really awesome and interesting ask #not even lying #thank you anon this was amazing to think about #saffron pawn au

[galefcrce]

-cracks out my thesaurus- Time to do some Gale replies

#not even lying #I legit use one when writing him cause I do no have the vocab that he has #also the word thesaurus reminds me of a dinosaur #͙͘͡★ ooc. the player

[worldsbiggestnerd101]

got it in my head that the words to acadeca from friendship games were “you talk a lot of shit for a school that never wins” and genuinely didn’t know what it was until i just relistened to it 😭

#em rambles #mlp eqg #mlp #mlp fim #my little pony #my little pony equestria girls #friendship games #equestria girls #NO BC THE WORDS ARE “you talk a little too much for a school that never wins” AND I COULDN’T REMEMBER #NOT EVEN LYING #it didn’t even make sense but i thought it was funny and then suddenly forgot the real words 😭😭

[destructix]

anytime ginzo shows up im like "where's your daughter"

#not even lying #ash can attest to it #talk tag

[teathattast]

My employee handbook basically said "we know u crazy team members wanna bang just go ahead we don't care" 💀

#not even lying #they straight up said we understand yall probly gonna wanna date #that was basically it 💀

[punishing-gray-raven-ocs]

Why Chrome is my Favorite PGR Character: An Essay Inspired by Imprisoned Sight.

I’ll try really hard to refrain from spoilers, but there are times when the writing and characterization in PGR are nothing short of twenty chef’s kisses. The Imprisoned Sight chapter is one such time. Not only do I adore the dynamic between Kamui, Chrome and Wanshi, but Chrome just has me like this every time he’s on screen:

No spoilers but he NEVER takes a moment to think about himself until he absolutely has to. And when I say he NEVER thinks about himself, do NOT take that lightly. At one point he’s in a situation that’s so devastatingly bad, it actually hurt to play it-but Chrome wanted to keep on fighting. He wanted to keep on protecting his teammates. Things were getting so bad I honestly thought I was playing the stage wrong, but that’s the way it was supposed to go-but despite everything going to Hell, Chrome wanted to keep fighting. For the Gray Raven Commandant. For his teammates.

The last time I was this emotionally invested was Kamui’s chapter (chapter 8, I think?). While I felt the end of Kamui’s chapter was painfully flat, and I’m fearing the end of Imprisoned Sight, Imprisoned Sight has made me love Chrome so much I just want to hug him and smother him in kisses and then force him to take a month long vacation. I mean just LOOK AT HIM

This is why his boyfriend is going to do all of this smothering for me. I don’t self-ship, because I’m too embarrassed, but I sure as Hell will make sure Commandant Inyene smothers Chrome in the affection he so definitely deserves. I’m all for seeing other OCs and yes, even self-inserts, shipped with Chrome

BECAUSE HE DESERVES EVERYTHING

Are you done with Imprisoned Sight? Have you started it yet? If you care even a tiny bit about Chrome, I swear on my life this chapter will make you fall in love with him. I won’t go into spoilers but I’m not even lying to you-it’s that amazing. Trust me. I went into this as a Lee simp. I gave Lee all of my cheers and votes during the first round of the Eden Festival. But this damn chapter has me giving all my votes to Chrome because

I AM NOW A CHROME SIMP. ‘IMPRISONED SIGHT’ WILL MAKE YOU INTO ONE TOO.

#punishing gray raven #pgr #kuro games #gacha games #pgr chrome #not even lying #chrome has destroyed me #he will destroy you too #sept 2022

[birdie-ghost]

Happy birthday!!! :D Remember that you’re awesome, my dude!

#birdiessubmittedposts #submission #HHHHH #THANK YOU SO MUCH GALE OMG #HFKL;DJGHS;AWDSGHL #i cried about this last night like oml #not even lying #the shading is so nice too thank you #not my art #doodle #fanart #HHHHHH