#not forgiving someone isn’t about punishing them. it’s not about the abuser at all. it’s about you protecting yourself and growing from

[yanderenightmare]

idk if you write for naoya but i have an idea...maybe darling is like maki but actually weak and naoya bullies and takes advantage of them?

love your work btw!! <3

JJK ! IMAGINE

Zenin Naoya x maid ! darling

TW: yandere, mentions of abuse, bullying

Proposal Gift

Sharp hazel eyes follow you in your innocence, narrowing while he judges – concluding once again, as he’d done before, that there really isn’t a single cursed bone in you – only a humble body of warm squeezable flesh and a heart he bets is all too easy to break.

You’ve always been like that. Quick to smile and quick to cry. A bundle of emotions unfit to be raised in such a ruthless clan.

He’s a few years older than you and remembers well what a weak constitution you’ve always had. Anyone could see it, and everyone knew it from the moment you were born – you were never going to amount to much.

He used to find your weakness quite disgusting – used to push your face into the gravel until snot and tears would wet the dirt in a pitiful puddle – with his foot pressed down between your shoulder blades – sometimes until hearing a pop and shriek loud enough to echo off the walls. With words cutting even deeper – telling you what a curse you were, born so weak and so useless – a stain on the great Zenin name.

But now that you’ve grown up, he bites his tongue – silently watching with a strange type of lusty entitlement forming in his gut…

He’s only been away on a mission for a handful of months – who’d have known he’d come back to see you grown into something so… precious.

You’re the prettiest out of the maids – the cutest one too, and undoubtedly the sweetest as well. Walking about the garden where you have most of your chores – watering plants in the sun and picking herbs for healing. You’re quiet and graceful, taking slow steps in your plank shoes that knock softly on the tiles where you peacefully wade through the maze in a pretty flower-patterned yukata.

You look nothing like the snot-nosed brat he’d left in the dirt. You have a swell of breasts now and a feminine face wiped clean of soot – painted with pretty red on your lips and fresh blue on your eyes.

You’re a lady now.

And while your weakness used to disgust him, he’s now realizing what a blessing it is instead. Smirking the more he glares at you – now sitting on a bench in the shade doing some hand stitching, knowing no ill will – he understands he’s quite lucky you turned out such a fragile little thing.

“Naoya-sama-” You spluttered, eyes widening into big round glass orbs.

Jumping to your feet, you nearly threw your needlework down on the bench before folding your fingers together and bowing – much lower than necessary – with a rush that could only be excused with fear.

You hadn’t known he was back yet and felt the surprise like a vice grip wrapped tight around your throat.

Swallowing thickly, you made your excuse while maintaining your bow, praying he’d show you mercy. “Pardon my lack of awareness- I was absorbed in my chores, you see- please forgive me-”

He folded his hands within his pants and raised his chin with a smirk at your spluttering, licking his teeth in enjoyment at your pretty display of courtesy. Eyeing you for a long moment before speaking, mainly to watch you begin to tremble in the wait – cutely dreading the bite of his punishment.

But punishing you wasn't what he was interested in at the moment.

“You’re not in maid robes.” He said instead, ignoring your previous stuttering. His face, jaded with a tone just as callous, aided by that weighty air of authority he always has surrounding him – the one that never fails to make your skin feel raw in the cold.

“Oh-” You fumbled, halting at his lack of anger – wary of the unexpected behavior as it was pretty odd for him not to jump at the opportunity to punish someone like you if and when the chance presented itself.

Though, it wasn’t yet decided he wouldn’t do just that – the way his steely and strangling presence nearly knocked you over with its vicious intensity alone – staring you down sharply with that otherwise smooth hazel.

In return, you had your doe-eyes yielding and down-cast, eying your fabrics with a bite to your lip – trying to keep your voice from shivering while uttering the next line, heat in your cheeks while at it. “These are- uhm- proposal gifts I’ve been asked to wear.”

He snorted at that, and you flinched at the abrasive sound – eyes shifty while eyeing the ground, lowering your head some more, looking down at the paint on your toenails instead.

“From whom?” He asked a beat later.

Your brows pinched at his curiosity and how awfully unlike him it was. Naoya-sama had never struck you as the type to make trivial conversation, especially with the likes of you. 

“I’m- uhm- not exactly sure…” You confessed, twiddling your fingers. “You see, Father doesn’t want to confuse me- after all… it’ll be his decision in the end, anyway.” 

You kept your head bowed while explaining, feeling awkward before him. Trying to think of a time when he’d paid any type of regard to you or your life – remembering none.

“B- but my marital status must be of no interest to you, Naoya-sama.” You blurted then, finding it to be a rather strange matter to discuss with him of all people.

But all the man responded with was a slight hum, keeping his gaze on you and the way you timidly glanced up at him only to look away when seeing him stare back. 

Ears burning, you chewed and sucked your lip under his glare, thinking of how badly you’d witness him beating other maids – having needed to treat many a cut and gash and bruise and broken bone he’d left on bodies much smaller than himself – not to mention the ones on your own frail self he’d given you in your youth. 

“Please excuse my arrogance-” Your memory prompted you to gush. “Doing anything but welcome you home from your mission is rude of me- I heard you lead our clan into many victories- you must be very proud.”

You decided to try you r luck charming him instead, hoping it could sway him from the urge to hurt you.

“Or maybe it doesn’t come as a surprise anymore. You’ve always been rather strong, after all.” You continued but choked on it only a second later – spurring with yet another apology on your lips. “That was thoughtless of me to say- you should feel proud either way- please forgive me for my stupid words, Naoya-sama- I fear the heat has gone to my head and made a complete airhead out of me…”

But despite the obvious hints of regret and panic in your draining face, the man gave no indication of even having heard what you’d said until offering your ramble another rather unusually relaxed response.

“It’s true.” He agreed – much to your surprise, where you’d braced your face for a backhand and your stomach for a gut punch. “It’s become boring.” 

You dared glance up at him through the lashes of your bow – only to see his face still as expressionless as always – a type of stone-cold that made the hairs at your nape rise.

“Still… you must be tired from the trip, if not the mission” You softly started in spite of it – hoping to end the conversation soon. “You shouldn’t stay out here in the sun for too long…” You tried, praying he couldn’t see straight through your intentions. “And- uhm- I should really hurry along- help prep supper for you and your soldiers with the other maids.” You excused, once again bowing your head, waiting for his nod of dismissal – ever relieved when he gave it.

You swallowed your tremors, feeling lightheaded and dizzy while offering up whatever type of smile you could muster.

“It was good seeing you, Naoya-sama.” You lied. “Welcome home.”

You bowed yet again, dismissing yourself before turning and leaving him.

He kept his eyes fixed on you despite it. Observing the distressed spring in your step and how it disturbed the former peace you walked the gardens with earlier. 

A smile inched up his face watching it.

You look very nice in his proposal gift.

He looks forward to having you in his bed.

tip-jar: Kofi

#yandere naoya zenin #yandere zenin #yandere zenin naoya #yandere naoya #yandere jjk #yandere jujutsu kaisen #naoya zenin #naoya x reader #jujutsu kaisen #jjk x reader #jjk x y/n #yander naoya zenin #zenin naoya

[mikoyamisheadcanonblog]

Illumi Relationship

Warning: Abusive, controlling, manipulation material

I see Illumi as a controlling, abusive, narcissist who will keep whoever he loves under his thumb and use any means necessary

Illumi (Relationship)

Who Wakes up first in the morning:  Illumi, isn’t one to sleep deeply. He will wake up any creaks and movements his S/O moves. He wants to make sure his S/O is around him. He will keep his S/O close to him. He will wake up to bring breakfast for his S/O, and question them about how their night was before, he wants to hear about their dream making sure they didn’t dream anything they shouldn’t have.

Who’s the first to fall asleep at night:  He will ‘fall’ asleep, he is monitoring his S/O.  His S/O has to be in the room when he falls asleep. He is a controlling man but if his S/O is good he will give them a little freedom by having them wander his room, if completely dedicated to him he will allow his S/O to wander the mansion. If bad he will handcuff them to his bed and fall asleep next to them.

What they playfully tease each other over:  Jokes come from his part, he isn’t very fond of jokes when he is at the end of them. But he will make jokes about his S/O. The jokes will be mostly about locking his S/O up if they are acting out of turn, and using his needles to control them. If his S/O is good, he will use rewards. The issue is never knowing when he is joking or not.

What they do when the other’s having a bad day:  Illumi will not notice if his S/O is having a bad day. He will only notice after so many mistakes that irritated him, that his punishment will be harsh. But if his S/O is devoted to him he will be lighter. Never expect a deep understanding conversation from him. If he is having a bad day, it is obvious as he seems more irritated, his S/O will not leave his side at all and he is in more control of them, if his S/O is doing everything perfectly expect to be rewarded if not, punishment ~~maybe shackled in the basement~~.

How they say ‘I’m sorry after arguments:  Illumi saying sorry will never happen. His S/O is always the only one to say sorry. His S/O made the mistake of challenging him, and he punished his S/O till they are begging for forgiveness. When his S/O does he will not forgive his S/O right away but will slowly start giving them rewards as they please him.

Which one’s more ticklish: His S/O. Though he doesn’t really do anything with it.

Their favorite rainy day activities: Training, studying, and housewife training. He wants his S/O to be the perfect S/O for him. After all the training he treats his S/O, could be, cuddling, could be sexual. It is whatever his S/O wants.

How they surprise each other: He might surprise his S/O by rewarding them, and his S/O might have the freedom to explore the mansion more. Or even leave the mansion without him. Others might be a harsher punishment than usual. He will keep his S/O on their toes. He isn’t a fan of surprises.

Their most sickening show of public affection: There is none, till he sees his S/o talking to someone he views as a treat does he hold his S/O close. He gives his S/O a warning glare before kissing his S/O over the corpse that he deemed a treat.

#illumi x reader #hxh illumi #zoldyck illumi #illumi zoldyck #illumi #illumi zoldyck x reader #illumi x you #illumi headcanons #illumi x y/n #illumi hunter x hunter

[shorthaltsjester]

honestly as someone who has been in various fandoms for a long time now and who also watched campaigns 1 and 2 without really getting into cr fandom it isn’t Shocking but it is annoying how often people will look at the stories that cr tells and make absolute claims about the goodness of characters (goodness here meaning Moral goodness, not I Like This character and think it’s well made goodness, which is a separate post entirely). particularly regarding the gods and pc parents. and honestly like, typically in fandom i get annoyed by people bending over backwards to woobify characters who are active in their choice to be unkind and generally horrible but in the cr fandom it’s tended to be the opposite where like. a character is just. a human being (in the sense of being Average not in the sense of Fantasy Races) and huge swaths of the fandom act like that’s the most unforgivable thing someone can be. and maybe it is, but one of the most powerful things about fiction is that it tends to encourage people to expand their empathy and exercise their ability to forgive. because fictional characters, no matter how much people like to project onto them, tend not to cause anyone harm, so it’s easier to learn how to forgive and accept things you don’t understand without also villainizing them.

this is mostly prompted by the recent 4sd and the fact that matt’s response to what’s up with the dawnfather was a very insistent “He’s not bad!” and also seeing the online reaction to the mention that the matron would punish vax for saving keyleth that has taken the as usual completely bonkers tune that the raven queen (Who When Met With A Brother Asking A God To Kill Him In Favour Of His Sister, Gave Him A Job, and Later Extended His Natural Life To Help Protect The World And Have More Time With His Family And Allowed Him To Visit His Sister On Her Wedding Day) is a horrible evil abusive bitch of a god. like. can we grow up? can we understand the world and fiction that represents the multitudes of experiences found in it in shades of grey? is that too much to ask (i know it is).

but also specifically the like Extremely Adamant way that both matt and laura were like no no no no relvin isn’t Horirble he’s average. he’s not good he’s just. he’s A father, not a good or bad one. and on the surface it’s hilarious that they’re both so like. enthused to point out that he’s Average because typically when people respond to a claim of a characters badness with the level of immediacy they both did it’s a rebuttal of “no, this character is good actually.” but it was just to affirm that relvin did harm imogen, but not because there’s some aspect of his character that is inherently cruel or especially Bad. and like. yeah actually. yeah you should react like that to a claim that this average person who Has hurt someone, the way that nearly every single person has hurt someone in a way they cannot repair, with immediacy to say this person is a Person and thus imperfect and capable of great harm, but that isn’t some all encompassing judgment on their morality or capability to also do good or be fine.

anyway this is kinda just a rant post but also is just me saying i’m very grateful that when surrounded by a fandom that tends to paint characters as Good or Bad and even while using a game that can encourage that with its alignment system, cr has always told stories that see goodness as a persistent choice that might sometimes falter and that can be chosen even after a lifetime of Badness. i can’t remember exactly what the quote was so forgive me if it’s incorrect but when jester is talking to caleb after he claims he’s not a very good person and she says “good people do bad things sometimes. even bad people do good things.” that’s it! that’s one of the most consistent themes across campaigns. and yet.

#on fandom #cr tag #i just. maybe it’s the philosophy major in me but. good grief the shit some of y’all say about morality and then turn around and ignore #what you’ve just said. good grief #lately it’s specifically been the people who support liliana (i too love evil women) and act like she tripped and fell into her current #position. and then turn around and call relvin an abusive devil #like. sorry which one has been manipulating imogen. which one abonded her? #that’s besides the point. my point is. the words good and bad are meaningless. #the good placeism. is this character trying to be better today than they were yesterday #this is the imogen temult problem actually. like yes she Chooses to be good. but that is only a choice because we have Seen her be selfish #and cruel and manipulative. if i had to choose to call imogen good or bad i’d of course choose good. but that undermines so much of #what makes her ‘goodness’ actually compelling. #honestly same with fjord. like his character as a charismatic paladin who fights for Good™ is comtextualised by having seen his journey #like. otherwise he’d be boring. #like. if any cr main character was just Good or just Bad. i promise it would not be as popular as it is #critical role

[twistedwonderlandimaginesblog]

https://at.tumblr.com/twistedwonderlandimaginesblog/hi-could-i-please-the-dorm-leaders-reactions-when/ig9u1thr34hy

Hello! Can you please write this, but with vice leaders (with Ruggie included and with Floyd instead of Ortho) ? Thank you ❤️

Floyd Leech: 

You handled yourself quite well but that didn’t mean Floyd could just let the issue rest. He has to wonder if the person who flipped your skirt only had half a brain, because in most places Floyd’s reputation preceded him. He had made it all too clear that you were an item, and yet this person had still decided to touch you? He drags the man to you shaking like a leaf, holding them up in front of you and demanding a sincere apology (one that he’ll make him repeat if he doesn’t find it sincere enough).

Jade Leech:

Jade knows he puts out a bit of a different picture than his brother, but he didn’t realize that people had such little respect for him that they didn’t fear his abilities properly. He’d love to make your attacker something a little more subtle but he wants it known you’re under his protection, should they make another foolish move like that again. He’s not above using Azul’s pull on Crowley to get any punishment on your end wiped, hoping to also make the punishment on your harasser that much more extreme.

Jamil Viper: 

To Jamil it sounded like someone abusing their power over you, especially if it was a senpai who had rudely invaded your privacy. He understood just how frustrated you were with getting punished, as it seemed like people could never retaliate without seeming ‘just as bad as the aggressor’. Jamil is firmly on your side, using his unique magic to make them grovel on their hands and knees in front of you. The humiliation they suffer is enough for him to feel like they got their just desserts, and he hoped you felt the same.

Lilia Vanrouge:

Life had taught him a fair few things, and one of those things was that there wasn’t always justice served where it was due. He agreed that the kick was deserved as who knew what might happen next if you hadn’t defended yourself, taking the situation rather seriously (when you thought he might making it feel a little more light-hearted for the sake of helping you move on). He decided to speak to that person and make it clear the effect they had on you, coming off as if he’s educating them; while there is some food for thought in Lilia’s words there’s also an underlying threatening aura that is daring them to try something like that with you again.

Rook Hunt: 

Rook isn’t one to resort to violence as his first line of defense, but it’s not possible for him to simply ignore what had happened to you. Especially if you confided in him about your fears and frustrations, it was simply not something Rook could let go. He’ll take what seemed to be a more passive route where he’s ‘hunting’ the person down, committing their schedule to heart and appearing around every corner they turned for the next month. The threat is a subtle one but he has them begging you for forgiveness, asking to call your guard dog off so their life could continue.

Ruggie Bucchi:

Ruggie can’t help but snicker when you first tell him about the incident, knowing that the other dude had it coming more likely than not. Hearing the reason behind you striking back makes it far less funny, and he finds a sour taste remained in his mouth when he thought about it. He had a way of making things happen, unfortunate things, and he knew his unique magic could take care of your harasser in no time. He might have to get permission from Leona before doing anything too crazy, but as long as he covered his tracks he’s sure his dorm leader is willing to turn a blind eye.

Trey Clover:

Trey is a man of opportunity. In the moment when you’re confiding in him about your troubles, he’ll focus on comforting you. It’s not an easy situation to be in and he empathizes with the choices you had to make, and how you feel like the other party didn’t get in nearly enough trouble. He won’t actively seek revenge for you but if the chance ever presented itself, allowing Trey to get rather underhanded, he would take the opportunity.

#Disney TWST #Disney Twisted Wonderland #TWST #Twisted Wonderland #TWST x Reader #Twisted Wonderland x Reader #TWST Imagines #Twisted Wonderland Imagines #Floyd Leech #Jade Leech #Rook Hunt #Ruggie Bucchi #Trey Clover #Jamil Viper #Lilia Vanrouge #Floyd Leech x Reader #Jade Leech x Reader #Rook Hunt x Reader #Ruggie Bucchi x Reader #Trey Clover x Reader #Jamil Viper x Reader #Lilia Vanrouge x Reader

[anti-katsuki-lounge]

Writing Redemption in Your Fanfics

If you’ve followed either of my blogs, you’d know that I despise Katsuki’s “redemption story”. It’s poorly written and poorly paced.

Sadly, canon isn’t the only place where an attempt at a redemption story is botched. Fanfiction sometimes has equally worse takes on how his redemption story should go.

I wanna talk about one fic in particular. I’m not going to name it, but y’all can probably guess what fanfic I’m talking about because it’s a very famous one.

The fic has one of the most promising starts to a “Katsuki faces consequences” fic: Izuku decides to abandon Katsuki during the Final Exam, and after his teachers show disappointment in him, he snaps, tells them how they’ve failed him, and calls Katsuki a villain. Izuku mentions how he wants to leave U.A, Nezu asks for a second chance, and Izuku accepts.

Sadly, the ball’s immediately dropped upon reaching the second chapter. Katsuki received no consequences other than counseling (which again isn’t a consequence) and without any buildup they have him apologize to Izuku. Furthermore, they start shifting the blame away from Katsuki to his mother for “abusing him”. This I’m shaky about. On one hand, exploring why someone is the way they are can make for some great character writing. On the other hand, the way it’s done here is that it completely changes one character to make the other look better. I’m all for changing a character’s backstory but these fics try to be character studies and when you’re doing a character study you can’t suddenly change one character to make another look sympathetic. Finally, the fic villainizes any character who doesn’t immediately forgive Katsuki. The main example here is Ochako who refuses to let Katsuki anywhere near Izuku. This right here bothers me. Just because Katsuki’s reforming doesn’t mean anyone’s obligated to give him a chance, especially when they’re an abuser of Katsuki’s caliber. You can recognize someone is changing/has changed while also not forgiving them. Demonizing Ochako for not forgiving Katsuki and for protecting her friend sends a terrible message to readers. No one is obligated to forgive Katsuki.

Now I wanna turn my attention to a fic called Confession by Scandinavian Sensation over on Fanfiction.net. If there’s any fic that shows a good Katsuki redemption it’s this one. It starts off with some of 1-A witnessing Izuku having nightmares during a sleepover. Soon after, due to Izuku mumbling in his sleep, they learn Katsuki bullied Izuku. The consequences are swift with the entire class shunning him. Katsuki’s forced to go to counseling, but it’s not treated as a punishment. It is a requirement for him to stay in the Hero Course, but a requirement is different than a punishment. Izuku’s confused as to why no one’s hanging out with Katsuki and feels bad about it. He tries getting Ejiro to go back to being Katsuki’s friend, but Ejiro hits him with a fantastic question: “why did he do it?” As this is going on, Katsuki’s being forced to confront his ego, temper, and past actions while also asking himself the question “why did he do it?” The fic ends with a beautiful rewrite of Kacchan vs Deku 2, where Katsuki desperately tries grappling with the question, is consumed by guilt, and tries to apologize to Izuku. Unlike the first fic, this one doesn’t involve demonizing other characters to make Katsuki look sympathetic, especially since it treats 1-A shunning Katsuki as something they’re allowed to do. This fic dishes out great consequences for his behavior and treats therapy as a means of him coming to terms with his own actions. Finally, it deconstructs Katsuki’s and Izuku’s characters while offering comfort to Izuku and opening the way to a possible redemption arc for Katsuki that feels organic and earned. It’s a fic I can honestly say that both Katsuki fans and haters can enjoy and it’s imo the best case study of Katsuki out that that maintains a neutral tone. If you wanna read the fic, here it is:

In conclusion, if you’re going to write a Katsuki redemption arc, you have to have consequences, you can’t demonize other characters to make him look better (especially when they don’t wanna give him a second chance), and you can’t make excuses for Katsuki’s behavior.

#anti katsuki bakugou #anti bakugo katsuki #anti bakugo #anti bakugou #anti bakugou katsuki

[kanatajelly]

general yandere headcanons - wanderer

wanderer - genshin impact

warnings: general yandere themes, unhealthy relationships, mentions of kidnapping, mentions of physical and verbal abuse, mentions of murder (not darling), spoilers for the 3.3 archon quest

word count: 1888

what kind of yandere are they?

The yandere archetype that this man takes on really depends on the point in his life in which he meets his darling, I think.

Pre-Fatui Kabukimono would definitely be a very clingy yandere. He has a deep fear of being abandoned again like his mother abandoned him, so he would latch onto anybody who he cares for and refuse to let them go. He is desperate for affection of any kind, so it would be rather easy to make Kabukimono obsessed with you at this point in his life.

The Fatui Harbinger Scaramouche would lean more on the possessive side. Unlike the desperate boy known as Kabukimono, Scaramouche doesn’t put any trust in anybody anymore, due to the numerous betrayals that have hurt him in the past. If he gets attached to someone, Scaramouche would want everyone to know that they are his and his only. He would probably be a little controlling as well.

Scaramouche as a yandere is also most definitely sadistic. He wouldn’t do anything to severely injure or kill his darling (because what fun would it be if they died?), but he would definitely be one for physical punishment if his darling did anything wrong. He would probably find some kind of sadistic enjoyment in the punishments as well.

Finally, post-Fatui Wanderer would still be possessive, but in a less intense way than Scaramouche. The Wanderer may even allow his darling some small freedoms. However, he would still be very much paranoid about being left behind, which he likely wouldn’t admit unless you caught him in a very vulnerable state.

I feel like one thing that all the incarnations of this man share in common is jealousy. It doesn’t matter if you met him as Kabukimono, as Scaramouche, or as the Wanderer, he would still be extremely jealous of other people, especially other men. Scaramouche would be more mean about it, probably even physically harming his darling or the person who made him jealous if it got too bad. Kabukimono and the Wanderer may be less likely to practice physical harm, especially Kabukimono, but they would still get jealous. I can imagine Kabukimono outputting his jealousy as verbal abuse, while the Wanderer would likely bottle it up and avoid his darling for a while until they either figured out what was going on and confronted him, or his emotions died down somewhat.

how do they treat their darling?

Kabukimono would treat his darling as the one thing keeping him from crashing down, which is partially true. This boy has been hurt so much and he isn’t very used to living by himself, so he can easily break down when there is nobody close to him. However, due to his desperation for connection, he blows this out of proportion, which leads to his extremely clingy nature.

Like I mentioned above, Scaramouche would be controlling of his darling’s actions, because he believes that if he keeps them on a tight leash, it will lessen the chance of them abandoning him. Physical punishment would probably happen often. The thing I can imagine him doing the most is shocking his darling with his Electro powers. He might also leave bite marks and/or bruises on his darling to show his possession over them.

I also feel like Scaramouche would expect his darling to worship him, especially after he undergoes the process that turns him into Shouki no Kami. He likely wouldn’t worship his darling very much, but it is clear that he cares about them in some twisted form.

The Wanderer is… an interesting case. Now that he is finally free from Dottore’s manipulations and can decide his own fate, the Wanderer would be much more forgiving than Scaramouche. He now understands the importance of freedom, and as I mentioned earlier, he would likely give his darling some small freedoms, like going out on their own ever so often. 

However, that being said, the Wanderer still has a strong obsession with his darling. That means that his possessiveness and jealousy are not gone. Even so, he would deal with it in a somewhat healthier way. Unlike Scaramouche, who would regularly physically abuse his darling, the Wanderer would probably not resort to violence unless his darling did something that really made him snap. That being said, physical violence towards his darling may be off the table, but violence towards others… not so much.

I can see the Wanderer being a feral cat (especially because the 3.3 fairytale literally represented him as a cat). He’s untrusting of pretty much everyone, but for those who have managed to get close to him, he clings onto desperately and fiercely protects them. If anyone were to hurt or try to take away his darling, the Wanderer would lash out. He’d resemble his Fatui self within those moments.

In terms of kidnapping, Scaramouche probably would kidnap his darling, but how fast he does so depends on how much they stretch his patience. Kabukimono and the Wanderer likely wouldn’t, the former because he wouldn’t quite have the means to do so, and the latter because he understands the concept of freedom better than he ever did.

what kind of person would they obsess over?

No matter if it’s Kabukimono, Scaramouche, or the Wanderer, this man would probably obsess over someone who is very kind and selfless.

Kabukimono would obsess over a person because they may show him some sort of kindness. No matter how trivial that kindness would be, Kabukimono would become fixated on it and eventually develop an emotional attachment to that person. This boy hasn’t really been shown much kindness in his life, so I think he would take anything he can get.

Scaramouche would probably still yearn to receive kindness from others deep down in his twisted self. However, he would bury this feeling, and convince himself that he obsesses over his darling because of the satisfaction that comes with possessing and breaking the spirit of someone so benevolent. 

I imagine the Wanderer being more open about his feelings than Scaramouche, but he would still probably not admit to anyone that he genuinely admires his darling’s kindness. Though, it would come out in his most vulnerable moments, in the dead of night while his darling is sleeping, and nobody else is around them… The Wanderer would absolutely be the type to watch them sleep, and he would do it with a fond smile on his face.

Another type of person that I think could attract him is a person with a fiery streak. I think this goes especially for Scaramouche and the Wanderer, and a little less for Kabukimono. 

Scaramouche would take a lot of sadistic pleasure in tormenting his darling, and if his darling fights back, it just makes it all the more fun. It gives him a motivation to be more harsh with his treatment of them, which feeds into the aforementioned sadistic pleasure. Though there is a bit of a fine line here, because if his darling is too eager to fight back, then it would just annoy Scaramouche instead. He does want some sort of submission from his darling, so if they act defiant over every little thing, he definitely would not like that.

I think that the Wanderer would appreciate someone with a fiery and free-willed spirit. He admires their boldness a lot, but never admits it. He’d probably enjoy some light banter between him and his darling, since it makes his days more interesting, but like Scaramouche, there’s an upper limit to how much banter he can tolerate. Too much gets him irritated, and irritation is more likely to bring out violence in the Wanderer.

are they aware of their actions? how dangerous are they?

Kabukimono would be a rather delusional yandere, I think. At the same time, he likely wouldn’t realize that what he was doing is unhealthy. He just genuinely wants to be with his darling, why is that such a bad thing?

Scaramouche and the Wanderer are definitely quite lucid, though. They would both know that their actions and thoughts are unhealthy, but I don’t really think either of them would care. Scaramouche, especially. He would take pleasure in seeing his darling squirm because of his actions. This goes for the Wanderer too, but to a lesser extent.

In terms of danger, Scaramouche is definitely the most dangerous incarnation of this man. The Harbinger is dangerous both towards others and towards his darling. If someone tried to come between him and his darling, Scaramouche is definitely not below killing them. Conversely, although he wouldn’t kill his darling, the physical abuse and isolation are enough to pose a danger to their well-being.

The Wanderer probably ranks second in terms of danger, moreso towards others than toward his darling. I’m not convinced that he would jump to killing someone if they interfered like he would have done as Scaramouche, but that person definitely isn’t getting away without a beating.

Kabukimono isn’t very dangerous. Although his obsession would develop much quicker than Scaramouche or the Wanderer, Kabukimono makes up for this by being the least likely to resort to abuse and murder.

what is their most dangerous trait? how far would they have to be pushed to bring it out?

One word: persistence. Kabukimono/Scaramouche/Wanderer would go to any lengths to keep his darling with him. He’d go to the ends of the earth to find them, and he’d tear up anything in his way if need be.

Scaramouche is definitely the one to be most afraid of here. He has so much influence in the Fatui that he can use to find his darling should they ever escape. Unlike the other Harbingers, he doesn’t care much for the Tsaritsa, so I can also see him ignoring any orders from her if his focus is on finding his escaped darling.

Speaking of escape, that’d be the thing that triggers his intense persistence. If his darling ever succeeded in leaving him (somehow), he would go absolutely crazy. Like I already mentioned, Scaramouche would use the Fatui to find them. 

On the other hand, Kabukimono and the Wanderer don’t have many connections that they can use to find their darling, so they’d have to do it themselves. This is really not much of an issue for the Wanderer, since he has his Vision to aid him if the need for combat arises. 

However, in Kabukimono’s case, he really doesn’t have much going for him to help with the search, other than his friends on Tatarasuna. While they may help him at first, they would likely tell him to give up if they absolutely couldn’t find his darling. But he would search for his darling anyway, even if it left him hungry, sick, or injured. He’s that desperate. I do think there is a point where Kabukimono would give up, but it’d be when the pain of being left behind becomes so intense that it’s soul-crushing. So… not anytime soon after his darling’s disappearance.

Overall, this man’s persistence is nothing to be laughed at. If he puts his mind to it, he will find his darling again, no matter the consequences, and drag them back to him even if they are kicking and screaming the whole way. Do not underestimate him.

#yandere #tw yandere #yandere x reader #yandere x you #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #yandere genshin impact #yandere genshin impact x reader #genshin #genshin x reader #yandere genshin #yandere genshin x reader #scaramouche #scaramouche x reader #yandere scaramouche #yandere scaramouche x reader #wanderer #wanderer x reader #yandere wanderer #yandere wanderer x reader #kabukimono #kabukimono x reader #yandere kabukimono #yandere kabukimono x reader #kanata-writings

[lagomoz]

I think it’s important to note how with the current system of Milgram, we cannot support/forgive Amane’s actions without supporting/forgiving the will of the cult.

Currently, Amane believes both that she’s done nothing wrong and that her murder was not her murder but an action of the cult. Killing someone was punishing them for going against the doctrine, so it was just and righteous to do. Anyone who disagrees isn’t trying to help her, they’re an outsider that needs to be converted or eliminated.

Amane already believes she’s innocent, because she doesn’t understand anything that’s happened so far - the abuse, the cult itself, the murder - as wrong. The only thing wrong is those who sin.

She is neck deep in the cult’s rhetoric, and while she deserves a proper support system and chance to heal without judgement or fear of punishment, we can’t actually give her that. All we can do is try to stop her from sinking deeper.

She has hurt someone, and while if it was her abuser it was totally justified she still doesn’t see anything bad about the violence itself. Amane believes any punishment she deals out, even if it kills someone, is entirely in the right. She’s already tried to attack Es and expressed strong hostility towards other prisoners. If encouraged, it’s not a matter of if she hurts someone, it’s a matter of how bad.

Even if you try to argue she’s just a kid and can’t actually hurt anyone or they won’t kill anyone off, 1) Just because she’s a kid doesn’t mean she can’t seriously hurt or kill someone, she’s done it before 2) Self-defense might end up with Amane seriously hurt (and unwilling to accept medical attention) 3) Survival doesn’t mean okay 4) Pretty ballsy thing to bet on 5) Even if she couldn’t do any damage at all it’s still a really bad sign for her to try 6) Mahiru can’t defend herself, Futa barely can, and Haruka or Shidou might not even try.

We might want to tell her that it’s okay, she’s a victim and doesn’t deserve anything she’s gone through, but we can’t tell her that. An innocent vote will only tell her that she was right, that the cult was right, and that we believe in it too now.

There is no good option, there is no therapy button, there is no way to prevent anybody from getting hurt. Amane is going to be hurt no matter what - she’s been severely abused her entire life, and that isn’t going to go away, no matter what the vote is.

It’s just a matter of how many others get hurt too.

#amane I am so sorry about the tough love considering the tough ''love'' you've gone through but there are only two options #and one of them encourages you to beat people to death so #illia original #milgram #amane momose #momose amane #she needs to be pulled out the indoctrination or at bare minimum stopped from going further even if it's painful for everyone involved

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

when i was six, i was verbally abused. when iwas six, I was screamed at to the point I was terrified of walls. when I was six, I was physically assaulted, restrained by multiple untrained adults in an intensely painful manner. when i was six, i wanted people to die for the first time.

when i was thirteen, I joined a discord server. when i was fourteen, adults asked me to send them hentai as a “joke”. when I was fourteen, I was asked how I masturbate. i was nearly dared to. when I was fourteen, a younger girl took me into a discord. when I was fourteen, I was treated like a prude for not writing underage noncon. when i was fourteen, adult men got me to read a manga filled with rape and gore. when i was fourteen, i talked to people in chats while they posted pornography. when i was fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, i acted like the jailbait lolita archetype because i had been groomed.

when I was young, I discovered dark fiction helped me cope. when I was fourteen, i found out anti shipping existed and self harmed as punishment. when I was fourteen, I thought i was irrdeeemable scum. when I was fourteen, i joined incredibly toxic pro shipping communities, because I felt I deserved it when I was fourteen and people were asking me my kinks, when I was fifteen and people were telling me to kill my self, when I was sixteen and I was nearly groomed in a private channel- groomed for the second time. when i was seventeen i wanted to leave. when i was seventeen, I was harassed for not leaving fast enough. when I was eighteen only then did I feel brave enough to leave. in all those ages, I was pressured into reading things that made me uncomfortable, pressured into debates I couldn’t understand. i was sexualised and objectified.

when I was very, very little, i was shouted at by a family member for being gay. for the rest of my life, i have been fearful of loud noises. when I was a lot older, I forgave him. i do not forgive the others.

i say this to mean- I am not coming at this topic from the point of view of someone unfamiliar with abuse and trauma. i am not coming into things with a bias towards ccs I barely watch. but i am a victim of childhood exploitation. and i am not a girl. many of my abusers, even my groomers were.

what victims does it help to deny the possibility of childhood exploitation outright? silencing child abuse isn’t helpful, it’s what society has done for years. what victims does it serve to instill paranoia and trauma responses as a normal reaction? what victims are you supporting by leeching onto the perfect victim mentality, violently lashing out at the idea of anyone who’s screwed up in any way being abused? what victims do you serve taking screenshots of trauma to laugh at?

it’s anti victim narratives, pure and simple. nothing but. the idea that people can be put away in neat little categories, that abusers cannot also be victims, that abusers cannot also be enablers allows one to become the abuser themselves, to deny their victims any grace because harassing others can simply not be abusive. telling people to be on guard around everyone allows a smug satisfaction, a way to say you won’t be hurt, a way to tell other victims they deserved it for not allowing themselves into a vicious cycle of emotional self harm and paranoia. the perfect victim model allows them to build up shubble into an object, not care about her feelings, ignore what she’s said about the subject to “protect” her, and then to harass any abuse victim who is human, to make victims either angel or devil, never person. mocking other victims allows that dehumanisation, allows us to be a joke, a bad take without context, a thing to amuse yourself.

and who does this help? it helps abusers. immediate hostility only breeds fear to come out about these things, paranoia leads to victims being attacked as much as if not more than abusers, violating someone’s consent to hurt others is in fact a huge reason abuse is so traumatising, and the jokes I’ve seen you make about shelby's situation are vile. truly vile.

and don’t think i haven’t seen people trying to subtly misgender nonbinary ccs. don’t think i haven’t seen people spout gender essentialist stuff. your transphobia is obvious.

and framing it as people attacking each other is another way of subtle victim blaming. one side always initiates. it might not be the same side to another person on tumblr, but it is a side in this fight. people getting angry because you harass them are not agressive, they are not in the wrong. triggering and poking at people will cause them to lash out. not accepting abuse victims boundaries will do that.

y'all are so fucking quick to turn like piranhas on the first victim you don’t like. because it’s always victims. always marginalised people. you’re not going after the ccs, you’re going against autistic abuse victims for daring to have the audacity for communicating in a cringe way for an allistic audience. you’re going against trans people for pointing out terfs use men to mean trans women and playing dumb when people point out that terfs are in fact transphobic and calling them the transphobes like a fucking alt right shill like that’s genuinely the Jk rowling tactic. you’re going after people who have just mentioned the abuse they went through and asked why they didn’t speak earlier.

it’s because of you. it’s because of you guys. and I know because I did not share my story for the longest time because everyone analyses the shit out of it to ask what you could have done better. signs before that mean you are a Baddie and therefore deserve it.

i hope i fucking die in my sleep and wake up in a world where people weren’t consistently acting like my fucking abusers for a laugh and because it’s easier than going after wilbur soot. i hate all of you. i hope you never get to feel the crushing weight of being an abuse survivor in this fandom, the crushing weight of being too frightened to speak.

i hope you’re never told your abuse was deserved. i was. i was when I was barely 15 and wanted to not exist and had unhealthy coping mechanism. i was when i was eighteen because I didn’t leave fast enough. and now you’re doing it because I dare have compassion for people who might have been hurt. it’s soul destroying. i pray you never feel a inch of that hurt.

#vent #abuse tw

[thewritetofreespeech]

prompt: requests plot of Gojo with a half human/cursed spirit MC. lost the original request in the recent glitch shuffle.

Gojo took a long drag of his cigarette and blew it out. The smoke making a long, mysterious trail in the moonlight.

He’ll never forgive Shoko for getting him hooked on these as a kid; trading bad habits of her smoking and his defiance of authority when they were younger. Like her, however, he doesn’t smoke often. Only when he was feeling nostalgic about the past. As if the smoke & nicotine was some kind of incantation for unlocking the memories.

He turned to look over at the other side of the bed at [Y/N]. Sleeping. He’s often jealous of how well they could sleep, as he was often kept up by ghosts of the past. [Y/N] was more of the opinion ‘the past is the past. keep pushing forward.’ So, she had a lot less sleepless nights.

Taking another pull of the cigarette, Gojo remembered when he first met her. Angry, defiant, snarky. Of course, she was still all those things. It tampered down a little bit over the years. Smoothed the rough edges. He supposed he’d be mad too if his parents bonded him with a powerful cursed spirit. Selling his soul like property, which they didn’t own, and then just abandoning him with all this power he could barely contend with.

Luckily he was cursed with power at birth. So his parents didn’t have to do anything but bask in the honor & glory of a special, chosen child.

They bonded over that. Shitty parents and paths in life.

Despite what anyone said it wasn’t her decision to be the way she was, so he refused to punish her for it. No matter what the old men. They were always scared of unbridled potential. Anything outside the norm was a poison to their ideals.

“Stinks….”

He looked down at the other side of the bed as [Y/N] turned over to glare at him with a sleepy expression. “Do you have to do that in here?”

“No. I guess I could have gone outside.” He took another pull and made no effort to do just that.

“Thinking about the past?” Gojo arched a brow. Surprised she had cracked the code. “You only smoke when you think about Geto and the others.”

He flicked off the ash and didn’t say anything. Not willing to confirm the subconscious theory that he was punishing himself with tobacco smoke every time he thought of his friends. “Hey. Let’s get married.”

“Married?” [Y/N] asked. Clearly surprised by the sudden question as she sat up. “What’s this all of a sudden?”

“I don’t know.” He replied with a shrug. “You like it here, right?”

“That’s not a very good reason to get married.” She told him. “I thought you never wanted to get married.”

“Maybe I changed my mind.” They’d talked about it before. Discussing patterns in life, and when they were getting more serious. Given the state of either of the parents’ marriage, one arranged & one abusive, it hadn’t really sold them on the concept. But, he did love her. And that’s what people did when they loved each other, right?

Or maybe it was just his natural pettiness that when someone told him he couldn’t do something it made him want to do it all that much more.

The bed shifted and [Y/N] reached out to take his hand. “I think you’re thinking about things in and backwards way. You want to protect me, right? But…marrying me isn’t the way to do it. Besides the shit storm it would cause at the school and beyond, we still don’t really know anything about what’s gonna happen to me.”

His all-seeing eyes catch the shadows shift. Which aren’t really shadows, but cursed energy.

There’s never been a recorded record of a vessel like her in existence. Basically half human & half curse. No one was sure if the bond was stable. What that meant for her overall life, if it was extend or shorten it. Nor how it affected the elements around her. She could be completely fine and live a normal life with great power. Or her body could just explode in a burst of red confetti under the weight of her curse.

It was all uncertain.

“Well, I want to be here.” Gojo said. Finishing his cigarette and putting it out. Nostalgia over. It was time to look towards the future. “No matter what happens.”

[Y/N] smiled wistfully and snuggled up into his side. “I told you not to get too attached to me when we met.”

“Hey, what can I say? I like stray cats.”

They both lay back down and try to go to sleep. The smell of cigarettes and [Y/N] shampoo in Gojo’s nose. The past & the future lulling him to sleep.

#;ask and ye shall receive (request answers) #satoru gojo x reader #satoru gojo #jujutsu kaisen gojo #jujutsu kaisen satoru gojo #jujutsu kaisen imagines #jujutsu kaisen scenarios #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk imagines #jjk scenarios #jjk gojo #female reader

[the-martyrfication-of-the-matron]

I had a lot of trouble phrasing this, I’m very sorry if it comes off as overly critical of your rewrite or your plans for it. I’m just concerned about how this is being handled.

Is Nicole going to be condemned for what she does? I understand it’s the cycle of abuse and Nicole isn’t doing what she’s doing because she’s a bad person at heart or something like that, but that doesn’t really reduce the harm or fault in the situation even if it provides context for her actions.

That’s not even mentioning the balancing act that sounds like. I can’t think of a way that Dancole wouldn’t be uncomfortable because from what I gathered (please correct me if I’m wrong) Nicole tries to get with Dante when he’s a minor and then later actually gets with him when he’s an adult. I can’t see how Nicole could stay a ‘good guy’ character after trying to date him as a minor, let alone see how her dating him as an adult could be handled well.

Tw, grooming, pedophilia, the cycle of abuse and how the themes correlate to Amaranth

Dw about sounding critical! This is a sensitive topic so I completely understand any kind of critical tone that comes with discussing it. It’s part of the deal with writing this stuff that criticism is expected.

One of the reasons I didn’t want to discuss these events happening in Amaranth yet is because I haven’t fully figured it out yet and they are subject to change with ever piece of media I consume or conversation I have, or simply just if im left alone to think for too long. That’s why my most recent posts about Dante and Nicole’s relationship were from about a year ago.

Most things I’ve said about Dante and Nicole’s relationship pre-recent discussion don’t apply. Nicole and Dante never date as adults, and in fact Nicole never steps foot in Phoenix Drop between the last chapter of Amaranth season 2 and beyond, despite the 15 year gap and all the time after that. Their relationship, which is how I will be referring to it due to a lack of better terms coming to mind though it isn’t at all to be considered genuinely romantic, lasts for all about a week during the events of Amaranth s2, and despite its brevity, it was a very bad situation and Nicole does face repercussions. Those of which I am still trying to figure out, as it’s a difficult spot to try and navigate.

By the time Nicole would face the punishments for her actions, it’s is known she is the heiress of Scaleswind. It’s known that she has immense amounts of power of Ru’Aun and that no physical harm can come to her. They couldn’t even imprison her without inviting another war. So far, the list of punishments ends with permanent exile, and to cut off contact with Dante entirely. The only conversation she should ever have with him is regarding politics and nothing beyond that. Even Dmitri isn’t a topic she is allowed to bring up with him. But of course I am considering other punishments as well as to leave it at ‘oh you can’t be here anymore’ feels too little for what she did.

But aside from it being written that she is very clearly in the wrong despite her lack of understanding, and a conversation she has with Garroth, it’s hard to try and figure out how to make it clear her actions aren’t forgivable. That’s why I wanted to wait until I had done some research to really talk about it, alongside other things of course. Because I’m still figuring out the finer details.

But, to simplify, Nicole isn’t going to be treated like a good person afterwards. It’ll be clear that Nicole is someone who did good things, but they don’t negate the bad. She’s going to be punished for what she did, and it’ll never be stated that what she did was okay.

Talking about the cycle of abuse doesn’t mean that the people that are caught in it are innocent, it means they’re victims as well, and that the only way for the cycle to be broken and to make sure no one else is hurt, is to make sure that victims are given the proper means of healing and coming to terms with what happened to them. It’s why Zane is still considered a villain even though his actions are a result of the abuse he experienced. Because he was never given the chance to heal from his abuse, he abused other people. He is not a good person, his actions are his own, but there is a reason for them and if he had been able to properly heal, or if the reasons didn’t exist at all, he wouldn’t have done what he did. And the same goes for Nicole. Both characters will be treated the same way in this regard. Zane will be held accountable for what he has done, Nicole will be held accountable for what she has done, because even if there are reasons for what they have done, there are also victims.

If anything I said here isn’t clear or makes it seem like I’m justifying anything, please let me know. And if you have any questions or criticisms about how I’m handling it, I’m more than happy to receive them. I wouldn’t post this stuff if I wasn’t open to actually discussing it.

Also yes, this makes Dmitri 15 in season 3. Older than canon but I don’t want to have Dancole happen again so it’s a needed change.

#NOT DANCOLE #aphmau #aphverse #rewrite #aphblr #minecraft diaries #mcd #amaranth

[dragonkeeper19600]

"ik ur reading comprehension skills r at a absolute zero but like dont forget that ur little show that is supposedly better than hnk not only glorifies forgiving practical nazis/abusers (the diamonds and they literally committed genocide on gems) and also the conrete design and the amethyst beta desigin in the artbook.... Also the art in hnk looks like a renaissance painting compared to su which is a 4 year olds art project.

This ask probably isn’t worth responding to in good faith, but I’ll try anyway.

A lot of viewers are upset with how quickly the Diamonds in Steven Universe were forgiven and how easy it was to redeem them. And yeah, I can’t pretend that I don’t get it. Their redemption did happen really quickly, and I totally see why people’s suspension of disbelief wouldn’t be able to withstand the rapid pace of the last few episodes. I also get why people would be unsatisfied that the Diamonds changed their ways without receiving any kind of karmic punishment. However, I’m not sure how this criticism could cause you to favor HnK, considering Aechmea is a genocidal abuser who not only only wiped out both the gems and Admirabilis as species but also got everything he ever wanted.

But let me put that aside and get back to Steven Universe. First of all, while the Diamonds’ actions are villainous, I don’t think comparing them to Nazis is exactly fair. The Diamonds created the gems who serve them, and they don’t have any real experience with organic life because there is none on Homeworld. So, unless the Nazis created Jewish people or Jewish people and Nazis were from two different planets instead of being neighbors in the same country, then the comparison just doesn’t work on a fundamental level. It’s the same reason the clumsy racism allegory didn’t work in Detroit: Become Human. White people didn’t create people of color, so when the game tries to use the Deviants as an analogue for racial injustice, it just comes across as insulting.

Speaking of racism, yeah, I’ve seen the concept art you’re talking about, and yeah, that’s not really defendable. But I was under the impression that the creators had apologized for that, so staying mad at them forever about it speaks of cancel culture, which isn’t the most productive. If someone’s apologized in good faith and stopped the bad behavior, then you move on, you don’t keep endlessly bringing it up. I get that the images will still make people uncomfortable regardless of the apology, so I won’t condemn anyone for still having bad feelings about watching a show that has that attached to it. But, for what it’s worth, the actual show that aired on Cartoon Network is not racist at all. The show has a pretty diverse human cast as well as a diverse voice cast, and it doesn’t rely on racial stereotypes for its story, characterization, or humor.

As for the art, imagine preferring art that looks like this:

Can’t relate, sorry.

#steven universe #hnk #houseki no kuni #su #discourse #criticism #analysis

[badgerstep]

the thing that’s so fucking annoying about “well do you just want to see tom suffer? is that for anything but your own satisfaction?” is that it veers sooooo fucking close to the point that carceral punishment is bad, but then like…. ok so then why no real restorative justice in the books.

bc here’s the thing: if we’re supposed to believe tom actually grows into Not A Wifebeater then he needs to be able to say, “i’m sorry, i see how what i did to you was wrong, you didn’t deserve it, i’m not going to ask you to forgive me, but you deserve to know that i know now that i was wrong. you don’t have to let me into your life again. i know what i did was unacceptable and i’m working on becoming better.” and this is the BARE minimum. he should still have to narratively PROVE that he’s changed, SHOW the character growth, PROVE that he’s worthy of trust again. (and, also, turtle tail and bumble should not be obligated to forgive him! what he did to them was violent and horrific and you don’t have to forgive your abuser even if they are TRULY sorry for what they’ve done! this isn’t a bad thing either!)

to say that all the meaningful growth happens after death when accountability can no longer even be truly had is just… pathetic and cowardly. and what a terrible message to send children. that you can and should only expect better of someone after they die, but they’re immutable in life.

just. what a goddamn mess.

[miss-wanna-write]

 im making bad decisions so buckle in.

A Non-Comprehensive List of Fun or Speculatory Milgram What If’s/Character Beliefs

i would like to credit @abyssalressentiment for helping build off or just listening to some of the more non-sense ones. also I’m [read more]ing this after Yuno’s.

Note: This was all made based only on the videos on the official youtube channel and some of their comments. If contradictory evidence is found in their drama’s or q&a’s, I have not read them and am not aware of it.

Haruka

he’s perfect, he’s diseased, he’s got nothing right going on and i want to see what he fucks up next.

Es is channeling my energy when they tell Haruka to try murdering them. let us fall together hand in unlovable hand :heart_eyes:

i’m literally so entrapped by the imagery in his mv’s that i cannot focus on theories. i’ve voting without logic for this one, girlies.

Yuno

i don’t actually have a lot of thoughts about Yuno, but i am very compelled by zenchizennou’s analysis on umbilical (link is to the post)

my takes are gonna be v pedestrian, lining up with a lot of others. compensated dating, an unexpected pregnancy, maybe a botched extortion either on her side or by someone who discovered her afterschool job, or maybe a bad client idk.

Fuuta

i wanna bully him so badly,,, he kinda deserves it,,,

okay, he is another one i have very little on because i completely misread his mv, initially. i thought he was so terminally online he deluded himself into seeing game overlays, and was in a fit of disconnect when he murder someone. i know, not even close to reality.

he’s just, so straight forward? and honestly, the guilty verdict was a better choice 1st round, cause i don’t doubt he’d have joined Kotoko in beating people up, or maneuvered her to better beat people up, if voted innocent.

Mu

i will say it now, if Mu doesn’t wow me with her second song, i’m going to vote her guilty.

crazy theory that makes no sense, incoming: what if Mu’s song isn’t chronological? what if she was bullied after she murdered the girl, and everyone knows she murdered that girl, but Mu didn’t get charged because we all know police forces be corrupt af and highly bribable.

listening to Es’s version of Afterpain really shows how Mu is twisting her words. as i’ve seen someone say before, she says sorry so you’re obligated to forgive her. if you don’t, she tried, you’re the one who won’t accept it. can’t you see that Mu is the one really in pain? despicable (mildly impressed)

Shidou

probably worked in palliative care, facing the stress and tears and anger of everyone he had to break the bad news to, until it got too much, of watching everyone he took care of fading and suffering and dying before his eyes until it got too much and he took drastic measures as...

an angel of death. maybe it started out as a genuine thing, where he would offer the service to terminal patients, but then snowballed until he would do it as punishment or just because, or maybe it was always retalitory because of the stress caused by dealing with patients families. i really can’t stop thinking about the dude whos DABDA reaction was Anger, at Kirisaki-sensei... okay no calling Shidou that sounds weird af. back to informality.

Japan doesn’t have any formal euthenasia laws, and the two doctors who were tried for it, one case passive (i.e. cutting off life support) one active (i.e. injection), were both found guilty of having caused death, so no matter why or how he did it Shidou would probably be a murderer for it.

i also think he engages in illegal organ harvesting, but in a way that, once you die he’ll harvest any viable organs regardless of your donor status card.

he also gives me the vibes of knowing he’s wrong, but either knowing he can’t stop, or fearing he can’t stop, which is why he wants to be found guilty.

Mahiru

i think her relationship was abusive on both sides. her reaction to the guilty verdict does not... make me feel comfortable. it’s not like Amane’s where she fell further into her beliefs, at least not in the same sense, but... she was treated cruelly and is reaffirming her love.

this is the easist for a q&a, or voice line, to contest, but it makes sense for why she was in the birdcage too, if she was in a physically abusive relationship.

Kazui

i have, what i like to refer to as my “apropose of canon” what if of, what if Kazui is a professional killer (maybe a honeypot *wink wonk*), and Hinako was originally supposed to be his target but then he fell in love. this has no reason except “professional killer au romance story”

Amane

there was never a right choice during her first vote. if we voted “innocent”, it would re-affirm the teachings instilled in her, when we voted “guilty” we subjected her to the same torment her ‘guardians’ probably did.

so her lines during the lineup in Undercover confirmed two things for me. 1) her cult’s faith healing was most likely a two sided belief thing, both the healer and the healed must believe for it to work. pretty standard typical stuff. 2) a broken promise is only logically followed by death. “cross my heart and hope to die” stuff.

the brainwashing really got her... i hope she gets help, and also doesn’t murder Shidou. please don’t kill Shidou, Amane. if you do Kotoko’s gonna murder someone for real and i have hope for her.

Mikoto

amazing what if: Mikoto’s DID affects the MV’s, not to a major extent, but to the extent that he (or rather, one of his alters) is aware of what’s happening. my bet’s on Green, but Red could be a possibility. Jackalope did say he doesn’t know how DID will affect Milgram.

piggybacking off of the theories that Mikoto has two alters, identifiable by a Red tint and Green tint, as opposed to the core’s blue tint, and will be refered to by colours as opposed to Blue who as the (presumed) core will just be called Mikoto, i will point out something that is very obvious, and probably not something ground breaking.

RGB is the colour spectrum used in light, maybe meaning that if we want to really see Mikoto for all he is, we need to consider every part of him as him. you must consider all motives, regardless of which part of him hosts them, with out that you have a tinted view, and if you don’t consider any of them, you’ve black out your sight.

adding a caveat that i do not have any formal learning in regards to DID and any observations i make are to be taken with a grain of salt and are not meant to offend.

Kotoko

another i am voting guilty, because hoo boy. i admit i may be slightly trying to play 5D chess to have the most people survive, but this is also because she needs humility, just like how Fuuta needs it.

both Ace and I agree that Kotoko didn’t attack Amane cause she either has a soft spot for kids, or sees Amane as the product of corruption rather than a cause of it, like the other three guilty verdicts.

also, meaning to be bi, hO BOY. only the fact that she would stomp me to death with her doc martins is keeping me sane.

#milgram #milgram theory #this will be updated some day and that is a threat!

[flailingfrog]

A Reintroduction of Sorts

TW: BBU-adjacent setting, dehumanization, abuse

Holly does her best. Kit knows this, deep and well into her gut. But she does the same thing everyone else does and carries on like there isn’t a crack in her world even when it’s obvious that there’s something there, edging worry into her. It’s obvious, when you know what to look for, and Holly doesn’t wear it the same as Daphne did, but there’s a stress to her hands, a permanent tug at her shoulders and lips. Kit knows Holly well enough to know what they mean.

But Holly doesn’t want to discuss it, so Kit won’t bring it up, at least not directly. She’s very good at side-stepping issues like that—It’s part of what made her a good pet to Daphne. Besides, Daphne always said there were ways to make someone feel better other than talking.

Kit would still like to know what it was—What about looking at her left Holly’s lips thinning. Maybe then the tightness in her chest and threatening pain in her neck disappear.

Part of the anxiety is good, of course. Being anxious means she cares, and she should. After all, today is the day Holly takes her home. Her nerves need this sticky coating of not quite terror.

She’s never met her husband, or her children. And she’s never been to Holly’s house. It’s too messy, which Holly says is the nature of three kids, a husband, and busy lives, and that there’s only so much you can ask Renee to do in a day when she’s also cooking and helping Holly with her Etsy store and the kids. Renee sets off her nerves, too, though that bit she can admit is unreasonable. Renee and her will probably make great friends, if Holly allows it.

She’s settled perfectly for the moment Holly will arrive: Daphne had arranged the living room so that from the largest of the couches you could look straight across the coffee table to the front door. To herself, Kit can admit she’s always thought the furniture clashed with the wall of glass, high ceilings, and large, sparkly tiled black floors. It’s like her, though, and she’d feel warmer about that if Daphne weren’t gone.

Her crochet bag’s by her feet and she works on one of her current projects, one of what was supposed to be a series of rose doilies her and Daphne made as a pair.

The key scratches in the front door’s lock. Kit wills her heart to stop thumping and looks up from her vantage point on the couch. Downstairs, as the door scrapes across the inner floor mat, Paul starts to yap, which Kit forgives even as it stings through her brain.

It doesn’t show in the easy smile she always gives Holly from rising to her face as the door opens, doily slid back into her bag, and that is another success today.

But it’s not Holly at the door. It’s Nikole, Holly trailing after her with a flat face that makes Kit’s heart stutter.

“Does he always bark like that?” Nikole asks over her shoulder to Holly.

“He’s a barky guy,” Holly says, then to Kit. “He still downstairs?”

“Yes, Holly.” She hadn’t asked her to carry him up them. She digs through the words regardless, looking for any sign of what she’d done.

It must’ve been something bad for Holly to bring Nikole. Of course, asking’s out of the question. She shouldn’t have questions, not the kind that wouldn’t leave Daphne with a fond smile to her lips. She should just know what she did. Can she effectively lie about it this time? Her heart is a traitor in her chest.

Nikole looks away from where she’d frozen staring at the quilt on the wall to Kit, and already Kit can see something building in her. “You’re on the couch?”

Kit’s mouth freezes in the smile meant for Holly. She reaches for it, wills it to act for Nikole, but can’t locate her nerve.

Before she can be punished for it, Holly speaks up, sharper than Kit would dare. “Daphne let her on the couch.”

She could melt into her for the defense, press apologetic words into her skin for whatever she’s done.

But Nikole doesn’t so much as tilt towards her, even as Paul reaches a new crescendo. “Even when she wasn’t home?” Her legs carry her in measured steps deeper into the house, and Holly follows, softer.

This is stupid. That’s what Kit thinks. And she would smack herself for it if she were by herself, because that’s not a thought Kit’s supposed to have. The itchiness of annoyance isn’t supposed to be there, either. Under that, there’s an ache. This is different and she misses Daphne. Her face stays in perfect bland pleasantry as she asks, “Do you want me off the couch?”

“Yes,” she says, and Kit’s heart ratchets at how little it gives her.

She slides to her knees. She shouldn’t have asked. Asking would’ve upset Daphne, and Nikole is worse than Daphne. She’s been to the family events, has seen the way Nikole snaps at her daughter and husband over imagined slights.But sitting there, Nikole digging into her as she danced around an issue so easily fixed…

She aches.

On the other side of the table, Nikole stares at her.

She tries to keep her focus on her, face bent to neutrality and care even as her heart beats faster. She keeps waiting for her to speak, but she doesn’t.

Her eyes flit past her to Holly, as covert a question as she dares. Holly looks back with something Kit thinks might be guilt, and she barely has time to snap an internal rubber band at the elation that comes with it before Nikole speaks.

“What are you looking at her for?”

She snaps back to attention at the accusation.

Frowns settle easily on Nikole’s face, and this one is no different. “Don’t you think you should focus on your owner?”

“Nikole—“ Holly reaches for her, but Nikole flinches away and Holly follows suit, as strongly as if she hit her, further away from the pair than where she started.

Kit doesn’t dare look at Holly, her eyes stuck somewhere at Nikole’s collarbone. Holly said she was going to take her home. She pretends Paul can understand the terrible fate that’s befallen them from even downstairs and that’s why he won’t stop barking. It’s easier to deal with the pulse of pain brought on by each sharp burst of noise that way. If it made all the other pain easier, she’d never stop pretending.

Eventually, Nikole will be as familiar to her as Holly or her mother. For now she isn’t. The safest option, she tries for as much earnestness as she can spare, as much as she dares, and says, “I’m sorry, Niko—”

*“Miss,” she interrupts, a haziness to her. “You can call me Miss.”

For all intents and purposes, Kit and Nikole are alone. Very soon, that will be the reality, too. Something drips in her at the thought.

*Her face has fallen out of standard, but she puts back on a smile as soon as she can muster and says, “I’m sorry, Miss.”

“Look at me.”

She wouldn’t refuse a direct order.

Nikole holds her gaze for a long second, mouth a thin line, as tightly coiled as a snake. And then she relaxes with a cock of her head, and for half a moment, Kit can almost relax, too.

“What other bad habits did my mother let you develop?” Nikole asks.

For a second, she can’t process the words. There’s something scrambling in her throat, a smokiness to her thoughts that leaves her woozy. If you had asked Kit before Nikole came through the door, she’d have said she didn’t have any bad habits. She was perfectly suited, the best friend an old lady like Daphne could ask for.

Out the corner of her eye, Holly almost says something to Nikole, jittering in an almost-step into Nikole’s space, but then she stops, glancing at Kit. Kit doesn’t dare glance back. She’s too busy trying to answer properly. Her throat’s grown too thick. She searches for any flaws Daphne had pointed out in the last few weeks, but as always, there’s nothing.

Instead of an answer, Paul echoes off the high ceilings and inside her skull.

*“You’re taking too long.”

She’s too aware of her heart in her chest. She ducks her head to fulfill the image of contriteness demanded, hands cupped in her lap. It’s like she’s admitting to some kind of crime when she says, “I’m sorry, Miss. I can’t think of any.”

“Why is Paul downstairs?”

Paul barks his own accusation, a throttle to Kit’s heart.

Her chest squeezes her tighter. She manages to say evenly, “His things are downstairs, and he can’t walk up the stairs.”

“So you didn’t think to carry him?”

It’s an accusation, but she can’t grasp the crime. “No one asked me to.” She doesn’t let it sound like she’s begging for understanding. No one likes when you beg. If she explains calmly enough—

“So you’re lazy.”

The words dunk her in water, and she missteps. “No, Miss, it’s just—”

“And you’re argumentative.”

Her mouth snaps shut, the label tight around her. She focuses on the whorls of her fingertips as she fights to keep her shoulders rounded.

“I want you to say it.”

She chances a glance up at Nikole. From the floor, Nikole towers over her, even when Kit knows her new owner’s shorter than her. She fights the urge to glance at Holly, knowing she’s already pushing her as her stomach clamps. She pushes down the thoughts that she shouldn’t have and instead pushes worse. “Miss?”

“Did you not hear me the first time?” she asks, a snip to the warning. Daphne used that word a lot when describing her daughter. It’s like her chest is aching all over again.

Her mouth tries to do something funny, and she’s not quite sure what it is, only that it makes her temple pulse. She forces her jaw to work out, an even mumble, “I’m argumentative.”

“Louder,” she says, the upper knees of her faded light blue jeans pressing into the coffee table. Nikole doesn’t look at Kit like she could ever love her. She doesn’t think she could even love Paul.

Louder, loud enough to be heard clearly over Paul downstairs, she just manages not to rasp, “I’m argumentative.”

*Nikole leans over, sides of her cardigan brushing against the magazines on the table with a slick noise. “That’s right. And my mother might have tolerated argumentative, but I won’t. If you talk back again, you don’t want to know what I’ll do.” She pauses, and the words sit between them just long enough for Kit to feel sick.

Then she says, “You can pack two bags for you and a smaller one for Paul.”

*It’s nowhere near enough for either of them. But it’s not her place to argue. She should be grateful. She reminds herself that in the death of an owner, several pets have it worse. She could be refurbished if Nikole so chose, and even the thought leaves her damper, but instead she’s just…

Being forced out of her home with far too little for her or the little dog Daphne has always trusted her to care for.

*Kit is not grateful. Instead, she is bad.

She still nods, not daring to try and see what Holly’s doing now that she’s gone quiet.

Nikole stares down at her, and Kit waits for her dismissal.

Finally, she says, “I meant now.”

*“Thank you, Miss,” Kit manages, loud enough she won’t be asked to be repeated, and she leaves the room as quickly as she can.

-

@angst-after-dark @black-hole-cobra

#whump #pet whump #bbu whump #adjacent but like. on a personal technicality yk #lady whump #abuse #nikole and kit #surprise im alive bet you didnt expect that #this piece caused me so much trouble #but its over now. im free. and can write other stuff lol

[bestworstcase]

Something about redemption is how some mistake humanizing people who've done some damn bad things (slavers, abusers, the worst you can imagine). That is, they might change but for now we're getting into the head of who has been framed by the show as "the worst." A descenter claimed that it's because we're tired of the news humanizing monsters and letting them get away with awful crimes, especially when they're people in power who'd get far more than a slap on the wrist otherwise. 1/

2/ Sorry if that sounded too vague. It's just a thought. We seem to like uncomplicated, easy-to-hate villains because we desire catharsis we never get in real life. Villains who are shown to be human in tandem with being despicable seem to feel like it's Fox News trying to make a martyr out of a monster.

it’s the christian hegemony

um my feelings on ‘redemption’ are pretty negative because conceptually it centers forgiveness as the mechanism for emotional and moral change (and in fiction very often skips over the actual. changing. to go straight to the absolution-through-forgiveness and gag if i wanted to read a morality play i would just read a morality play you feel me?)—ANYWAY

the thing about having a problem with news stories “humanizing monsters” is that the. the monsters in question ARE, in fact, human; human beings who chose to do terrible, depraved, repulsive things yes but to deny the humanity of evil people is to suggest that humans don’t have the capacity for evil, which we do. every person on this planet has the possibility of evil inside them and it doesn’t do anyone any favors to pretend otherwise. and while there is a legitimate and very widespread problem with human interest pieces and basic empathy being weaponized in a propagandistic fashion, the issue is not “humanizing monsters” it is entrenched systemic and personal bigotry that affords humanity only to members of the hegemonic classes. gkdhshk we fix it by challenging the dehumanization of marginalized victims, demanding empathy and acknowledgment of personhood for the people harmed by this, not by trying to expand the categories of people who don’t get to be human.

(also frankly a society that can’t hold someone accountable for evil acts without stripping away their humanity first is a society that is deeply, deeply sick.)

as it pertains to fiction and fandom redemption arc #discourse the whole discussion inevitably plays out like this:

AGAINST: this character did horrible things and is irredeemable! 😡 how can you even suggest letting them off the hook?!

FOR: but this character has suffered so much 🥺 don’t they deserve forgiveness?

AGAINST: no!! fuck this character! they deserve to be punished for what they did! [optional: insert unhinged revenge fantasy]

FOR: but this character’s past suffering is already punishment enough! 🥺 they deserve a chance to heal

AGAINST: what about all the people they hurt, huh? HUH? why should those people have to forgive this character just because this character had a bad life?

FOR: but this character just needs love and then they can be a better person 🥺

on and on and on. in every fandom. about every character. even the laundry list of irredeemable wrongs the “against” side always comes out with sooner or later tends to sound the same. eventually someone on the “for” team will bring up zuko and everyone against will produce a list of all the reasons this character isn’t like zuko and could never be zuko. kshfbsh fundamentally both sides of this argument agree that forgiveness is earned through punishment/suffering and the point of argument is always, always whether the villainous character has been sufficiently punished.

fun game: every time you encounter redemption arc discourse—whether for or against—start mentally replacing “redemption” and “forgiven” with the phrase “try to become a better person.” like: does cinder fall deserve redemption? does she deserve to try to become a better person?

see how that changes the meaning of the question? how it reframes the discussion such that the villainous character is no longer a passive receptacle for redemption or punishment or forgiveness but an active participant in their own character development? and how by focusing on the agency of the villainous character we place the onus for moral change on them rather than on the heroes?

does cinder fall deserve to be forgiven WHO CARES WHY DOES IT MATTER—but if she wants to do better? if she decides to crawl out of the darkness she’s burrowed herself into, what does that look like? what does she do? how can she atone for the terrible things she did? how do her changing goals and different choices shape the world she lives in and what do the other characters do in reaction to that? what does healing mean to her? if the possibility of her joining the heroes arises, how do the characters navigate that situation and the countless fraught, painful, contradictory emotions that it’s bound to inspire? like—hfbfks i’m using cinder as an example here because she’s the locus of most of the redemption discourse happening in the rwby fandom, but these are general questions. fundamentally i just don’t care about the bizarre moral calculus of whether a character’s personal suffering does or doesn’t outweigh their wrongdoing and entitle them to forgiveness.

tbh personally i don’t—i never have—find any catharsis in uncomplicated evil villains; like, they can be really FUN? love a character who’s just a complete fucking shitheel for no reason. and it can also be very satisfying to watch heroic characters defeat them, but for me that satisfaction is no different from the satisfaction of watching a character overcome any serious obstacle. like, uh—i got the same sense of satisfaction out of jaune grieving in front of pyrrha’s memorial as i did out of blake and yang taking adam down, you know? it’s about the culmination of the emotional arc, irrespective of whether there’s a bad guy to defeat or not.

(and then there’s also the secondary issue a lot of stories have of like, is this actually an uncomplicated evil monster or is this a character who challenges a legitimately bad status quo but the story is written by neoliberals so they’re also going to like shoot a baby or something so the audience will know that challenging the status quo is something only #evil people do?—or the subtler but no less obnoxious variant of is this actually an uncomplicated evil monster or is this just some guy who has been designated #evil for having goals that don’t align with what the protagonists want? nothing will get me to sympathize with a villain faster than a narrative double standard or a narrative that is constructing a cartoonishly evil strawman because it wants to wibble about how challenging systemic evil is even worse than systemic evil.)

hdjfhdjs not to say that people don’t or can’t feel catharsis over seeing villains get their comeuppance because plenty of folks do! it’s just a very big Can’t Relate thing for me haha

i just go wild for characters who are interesting, and what interests me is emotional complexity and dynamic character development. morality doesn’t really… come into it except for characters who have fraught relationships with their own morality, in which case the fraught internal conflict is what interests me irrespective of the actual moral inclination of the character. (this is also part of why redemption discourse exasperates me SO much; all ethical bones i have to pick with redemption conceptually aside, making forgiveness the focal point and fulcrum of change just totally ignores all the interesting junk in favor of treating the character like a static object and it’s BORING.)

[ruki--mukami]

I read your post about Ruki's redemption being difficult to write. I wanted to ask how do you see his canon redemption arc, especially in MB. The afterstory really threw me off because it seemed so abrupt.

I mean in the sense that it looked as if Yui's suffering had no meaning whatsoever. The transition from hateful to caring was never shown [Eternal blood took the same stance, an already caring Ruki from Track 1]

That's why i wanted to ask your views on the canon redemption arc and his development, whether they really were given justice or not.

🧩 Hello, Anon. Thank you for the very intriguing ask. In fact, it compelled me to even re-read his More, Blood route, which admittedly isn’t something I do often at all. If anything, I read his Dark Fate route the most because I find his characterization in that route in particular very heartwarming compared to the others. Anyway, his More, Blood route is pretty much what I remembered from the last time I read it, and suffice it to say it actually made me feel pretty good about my portrayal of him because I’d like to think I’m not making him act more sadistic than he really is, which was quite reassuring to say the least. Immediately when he meets Yui, he already threatens to kill her, and throughout the route he is constantly hating on humanity and dismissing the idea of love altogether, which makes one question how Yui can even develop romantic feelings for him in the first place.

Now, just as a disclaimer, I haven’t read very many other DL routes outside of Ruki’s. I’ve read all of Ruki’s content, but I’ve only read Ayato’s HDB and MB routes, as well as Shu’s DF route, so I cannot speak in general for the formula the franchise tends to opt for, but from what I’ve noticed… Love tends to be developed out of Stockholm Syndrome (when victims cope with their imprisonment by bonding with the captor). All throughout Ruki’s MB route, Yui is getting tortured, bitten, degraded, and psychologically manipulated in every single chapter. There is very little letup from him, minus the few times he decides to free her from the dungeon or stops his punishment midway (i.e., opting not to put her in a collar and chains, saying he’s merciful for not ending her life, etc.) but he does have his moments of “kindness” which is probably giving him more credit than I should since I’m biased and I love him.

For instance, there is a scene at school where Yui begins to feel sick from the lack of blood. Ruki then takes her to the infirmary, and what’s special about this moment is that she is so shocked he would even help her get there in the first place. Another scene is when she is swimming to retrieve Azusa’s knife, but he dives in and saves her despite all that he has done. Now, I’m not saying these are reasons to forgive what he has done by any means, but that’s just the kind of protagonist Yui is in general. Not just with Ruki, but with everyone she meets, she often tries to see the absolute best in them and tends to disregard the abuse even if she is on the receiving end. After she sees the flashback of his past and is taken away by Ayato, Yui deems Ruki as a “kind person,” wishing she was back at the Mukami estate. Even before this, she has a little monologue to herself as she polishes the silverware (one of the very basic punishments he frequently assigns to her), wondering if she has genuinely taken a liking to living under Ruki’s rules and if she has accepted herself as livestock.

There is this phenomenon they will teach you about in psychology class called the Ben Franklin effect, and honestly, I’m not certain how strong of an effect it is or if it’s just a load of baloney, but basically it asserts that if you carry out a favor for someone, your brain begins to rationalize that you must be doing it for them because you like them in order to prevent a cognitive dissonance from eating away at your sanity. After all, who wants to act benevolently for people they hate? I believe it’s possible Yui might’ve undergone this same effect under Ruki’s care. Constantly carrying out these chores, following his every order, and drilling it into her brain that his rules must be followed not only for her survival but also to avoid his brutal punishments. He certainly doesn’t make it easy, either. Even for the smallest mishap, Yui is always being ridiculed by him. Though, that isn’t to say his discipline is purely cruel. Ruki is known to be a very possessive man, much like the other DL boys. As he inflicts pain unfathomable on her, he litters in dialogue like “you belong only to me” and “it irritates me how those guys (the Sakamakis) treated you.” Those all imply he cares about Yui in a very, very twisted way, even if it’s as mere property.

It's for this reason that, whenever I roleplay as Ruki, I remind myself he is no knight in shining armor. Yes, he wants to protect Yui, and he wants to steal her away from the Sakamakis, her previous abusers. However, by no means does he want to spare her the punishment for those same reasons. In fact, nothing gets him off like seeing his prey suffer at his own hands. We all know that much. At the end of the day, he is a sadistic Vampire even if he was once human. He says this himself throughout his route as well, and even Yui comments on how much Ruki hates humans which seems to baffle her. What’s interesting about this dynamic, however, is how he comments to her “looking at you reminds me of myself,” given his past. So, yes, at least he is self-aware that he is taking her freedom away and reducing her to a human who might as well not be alive, since for Ruki, autonomy = aliveness.

So, in a corrupt sense, I do believe Yui’s suffering had meaning in Ruki’s route. Watching her suffer as much as she did probably gave Ruki a thrilling show indeed. Not only that, but over time he likens himself to her. He sees himself from his past in present day Yui, trapped, freedom stripped away, and branded like livestock. That much he can resonate with, and even when Yui comes back for him on the rooftop, he is shocked she would choose him after everything he did, saying that he would kill his own captors if he could. Which, if you ask me, is a much more realistic response than hers. But then again, that’s Stockholm Syndrome for you. Even if she wanted to appeal to Kou and the others, she could not because at every given opportunity for his brothers to intervene, Ruki put a stop to it immediately, making her reliant on the eldest for any means of survival.

This discussion also begs the question of what Ruki might’ve saw in Yui for him to suddenly care whether or not Ayato also loved her at the end of Ecstasy 10. I believe in their shared moments together, since he was able to sympathize in his own sadistic way, there was a bond that developed between them. One of mutual captivity. One that reminded him of his own humanity, whether he liked it or not.

Ah, sorry, this is getting off topic. I tend to let my thoughts ramble on subjects like this.

Anyway, I do think Ruki’s redemption arc was a bit abrupt and poorly executed, more so for people who selected his route out of mere curiosity rather than liking the character from the beginning. I can just imagine the people who chose his route “just because” being really confused by his actions. From abusing her every day, to caring whether Yui will be loved or not in the right hands, then finally betraying Karlheinz to elope with her in the after story. At the end it’s revealed he likens Yui to someone who taught him how to believe, trust, and love others again. And, this last point is more related to Dark Fate than More, Blood, but before their wedding it cuts to a screen of a vast, blue sky, and he says to himself something along the lines of “Finally… I’ve obtained it.” I don’t believe he was referring to the act of obtaining Eve, but rather the blue sky him and his brothers looked to when they tried to escape the orphanage together. Instead, he refers to the act of being free. Free of Karlheinz, free of debt, free of living for someone else’s sake. It’s the first time in any main story route that he has claimed something of his own free will, of his own volition, living entirely for no one but himself.

One might deem this as “selfish,” but to me, this life lesson hit immensely hard. Sorry to make it personal and about myself, but one reason why I will always love and cherish Ruki as my comfort character is because I think we both experienced similar hardships in life, albeit in the form of different obstacles. I know exactly what it’s like to live for someone else’s best interest rather than your own; I think we all know what that feels like. So, to finally free yourself of that burden… Nothing can be more liberating. All throughout both MB and DF, Ruki denies his true desires. He accepts the Adam and Eve plan as his will to repay his benefactor’s saving grace. However, I believe deep down he always wanted to find someone who will love him unconditionally, as much as he argues against it. Someone who will teach him what true freedom is, which is what Yui did for him. In the end, she came back to her abuser out of love, and contrarily, he wishes to love Yui not as Eve but for who she is. To do such a thing is not only betraying Karl, but also to live without caring what others may think. Which is an important lesson we all need to learn eventually. 

Yet at the same time, I know not every person is like Yui. Not every story will be arranged in such a way that Ruki will resonate with the person in captivity. Which is why I also try to develop romance/redemption through shared interests and the two muses overcoming a challenge together, if you look at my rp threads. 🧩

#ruki mukami #mukami ruki #the admin speaks