#not gonna lie kinda sad

[lttlebrdie]

it’s 2:45 AM that isn’t important but it gives context Ethan and Chad headcanons

Ethan is in constant conflict about how he feels about Chad

because Chad is Chad

he played football in high school and he flirts with girls like it’s nothing and he high fives people when walking to class and everybody loves him

and Ethan resents him for the fact that everybody loves him when most people don’t even like Ethan

because even when he wasn’t sitting with his shoulders in, trying to act as non threatening as possible, with insecure virgin comments and cardboard costumes

before richie died and he didn’t have to play a part for some big scheme to get revenge, when he would act closer to who he really was

people didn’t like him then either

no one would high five him in the hallways or think about him with fondness

no body would talk about him the way he was sure they would talk about chad

and he hates to admit it but he’s jealous of it

that everyone loves chad

but he’s living with the guy and he’s supposed to make friends with him

and no matter how much he doesn’t want to see it he sees why people love chad so much

chad shakes his shoulders and makes him laugh

chad offers to buy him lunch and puts his arm around his shoulders while they walk to class

chad calls him cute and when ethan was sick chad made him chicken soup

they live together for six months and he sees Chad sitting on the floor puking into the toilet hungover and still saying please and thank you when Ethan gets him advil and water

he’s jealous of chad for how much love he gets but he loves him just as much as everyone else does

he hates him too though

not when he’s flirting with girls or talking about football or whatever bullshit

he hates him the most when he’s sitting next to Mindy

and their both smiling and laughing at each other

and Sam and Tara are across from them just as happy

looking like a family

ethan sees chad in those moments and he hates him

he hates seeing chad laughing eating dinner with his family

when ethan won’t ever have that again

#ethan landry #chad meeks martin #ethan x chad #chethan #chadthan #idk what to tag them as here #chad x ethan #they make me kinda sad not gonna lie

[asteraws]

cafe i went to with my friend ^_^

#my art #plein air #illustration #i waurnt lie this took so long lol #im gonna try to practice environments more #aur naur looking at this again im sad it looks kinda ugly ⚰️ oh well #just means i need more practis..

[temporarywoundz]

GAHH ITS SO LATE whatever its still easter where im at. bnuyy time:3

#like not gonna lie. dont give a shit abt easter just wanted an excuse to draw bunnyboy leon LOL #wanted 2 fully render these but didnt have enough time:(( m so sad abt that but whateveeerr #spooky month #leon manson #chilean leon u will always b famous. 2 Me. #scrawlz #oug feel kinda. pretentious?? putting my urls on my drawings but gaahh ever since my friend showed me one of my drawings got reposted on- #-pinterest ive felt kinda weird abt em not having any sort of indication i drew em idkkk #o yea the middle left drawing is a redraw of a drawing poisonjabs did of bunny leon that i think abt Constantly. love him a Normal amount<3

[claireandcrap]

i dont really know what's going on in Adventure Time anymore but im following a bunch of people who do and all im really getting is The Winter King is now a small, sad, dude with better hair.

#i don’t know #adventure time? #i see lots of “fionna and cake” in the tags of the posts that i see #so #fionna and cake #?? #wait is he ice king #wait nope hes still winter king #he looks kinda pathetic im not gonna lie #but in a sad pathetic way #he just looks like some guy whos seen things #i dont really know

[illiana-mystery]

Haven't posted the sexy Sugar Daddy in a while. (yes, that's in reference to my fic, Sugar Baby)

#this is his last scene #which is a shame #because there was not nearly enough of him in the movie #makes me kinda sad #not gonna lie #but that's why i gave him a fic #edward blackridge #a family man #willem dafoe

[sqlmn]

Anyway thinking of older plots I remember how much whiplash this plot had because the MAIN focus was Darotani had a classmate who had a crush on Yutatori and tried to give him a love potion. But then he tripped as Yutatori drank it so he does what everyone does, looks at whatever movement just happened (like how people naturally look to the door when it opens even if they don't care. it's the movement). So instead of the first thing him seeing being the girl who likes him, he sees Darotani and falls head over heel for him because of the love potion.

Which is fine except this is an older plot and so everything had to happen and that means Darotani was cursed and was gonna die at like 18 or something and is working for a witch part time to try and learn from her on how to break the curse? While the popular guy in his grade is fawning over him? Cause? And the girl got the potion FROM the witch Darotani works for???? Like bro it was so convoluted.

#it started with a love potion #and for what its worth when the potion starts to fade and the love fog stops clouding his brain #yutatori kinda resolves that once its worn off he wont be allowed the leniency to hang out with darotani #so he tries to spend lots of time with him and tries to dote on him on his own accord but under the lie of the potion #and so he remembers everything that hes done and is a little embarrassed at how pushy he was but #he also really grew to like darotani and is just kinda sad at the idea that once the potion wears off #he might be seen as weird to have developed feelings so he makes sure to not tell darotani its weakening #and darotani is just waiting for it to wear off and yutatori to want to leave because #nothing good will come of it since hes just gonna die in a couple years since he isnt closer to breaking the curse #long post

[selfshipping-haven]

I just realized that i recreated the same dynamic for Vail and A.nakin that i did for my old m.atrix s/i and N.eo

And I also remembered how depressing that ship was.

#i'm kinda sad about them rn not gonna lie #anakin and vail really aren't that involved in each others' lives #they really miss each other #they're both scared that they'll find someone else #fuck why am i gonna cry now #vent

[widevibratobitch]

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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa #something is Wrong lol #i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡 #and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches #all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now #but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit #and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on #to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back #like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend #i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect #i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back #but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms #or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations #or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings #or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af #because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff #im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility #i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn #but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself #and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc #i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself #and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it #i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do #i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it #and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person #<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation #of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡 #like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT

[anna3196441]

The worst type of people that I met in this life,

Were unfortunately my own family.

#sad thoughts #sad poem #sadgirl #sad poetry #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #depressing quotes #depressing life #kinda depressing #sad but true #sad sad times #sad quotes #not good #not gonna lie #absurd

[moonsidesong]

played the fangame danganronpa another with a friend and i didn't really like the ending but i very much enjoyed mekaru bc she's just woman byakuya togami. i'm going to talk a lot in the tags now

#the translation was kinda weird and bad but you get used to it after a while #i do plan on playing the sequel just cause me and my friends enjoy playing murder mysteries #oh uh spoilers beyond this point i'm gonna give some hot takes for. the 3 followers that care about dangit grandpa #anyway uh. ending. yeah i'm definitely biased bc i don't really like sad endings for the most part #but i didn't really. like it. #i'm not really opposed to the idea necessarily of the protagonist NOT being a survivor it's definitely interesting #but given that this game's take on hope vs despair is that 'hope is created not found' #i thought it kinda sucked that they just left maeda/utsuro to die despite obviously being the one suffering the most #also i didnt. like. kisaragi much. him/his alter ego being the epic savior in the end sucked bad not gonna lie #i thought he was really interesting in his initial appearance bc he was someone who Knew what was happening #but was rendered unable to communicate any of it bc of his brain damage #but then he dies (which was expected wasn't really upset about it) and from there you only have flashbacks to go off of #and then he's just kinda boring #it'd be one thing if he was a heroic reliable person we knew from the start but he's just this. guy that shows up in chapter 5 #and we get told he's like the best we should trust him and believe in him but. like. idk this guy! it didn't feel earned #anyway kinjou was. a character. for sure. #i liked his arc and all but when they revealed in the ending that Oh actually his beliefs on crime haven't changed at all lol<3 #he still only thinks in extremes even after all that mess about recognizing the murders were done in gray area circumstances #so like what was that all FOR #also. like. Goddddd. GODDDD. AKANE TAIRA. UGH #when she gets revealed as the mastermind and she's like going crazy off the walls sillygoofy despair lady I thought she was really fun!!! #i enjoyed her quite a lot!!!! #but then utsuro gets involved and she's just immediately extremely pathetic #she just immediately loses all presence bc she just stops taking any authority as the mastermind and is like ouwuoiuuh utsuro samaaaa #i thought her being a maid but actually is a girlboss would be a FUN SUBVERSION but nah we just have peko pekoyama 2: evil this time #like when are we gonna be done with the trope of Woman is cool and powerful until Man shes subservient to is involved and then she's a wuss #it sucks it SUUUUCKS #utsuro himself is. fine. he's basically just bootleg izuru but i didn't really mind that i thought his origins were kinda interesting #anyway i'm out of tags so i guess that's the end of my hot takes #i liked the individual cases! i liked mekaru! ending was kinda bad. goofbye

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

sorry 4 vagueposting i'll do it again. i shouldve unfollowed when they started being super duper gatekeepy about their fave tbh

#the captain's rambles #this is NOT about the person who was an acephobe its someone else 2 clarify #like RAAAAAAAGH im so sad their art is so good but . :/ #big L for the new beepo fan numero uno .... #but that aside. it is kind of a red flag when you take the jokes of “oh ermmm im ackshually the only one who writes this guy correctly” #and then scoff / turn your nose up at people who like the SAME CHARACTER but come from a different part of the fanbase #we're NEIGHBORS. and buddy? you're the annoying ass HOA member nobody likes cuz youre pretentious #let people have fun and be a little nuts about how they portray beepos. its not that deep #IM NOT GONNA LIE. THIS SHIT KINDA SUCKS SINCE IM BASED OFF OF THEIR ART. LIKE NOT EVEN JUST APPEARANCE WISE. THAT IS ME. - 💥 #<- words from our resident fleetway fictive . hai fleets #HEY. - 💥 #anyways rant over we're gonna go eat and shower n shit BLEHHHH

[epic-and-kitty]

yesterday I had an appointment and got weighed. The last few I've had, around three months ago, I was in the 250 range, but this time I was down to 204. Obviously I'm still fat, but I've been exercising more and watching what I eat, but that feels a bit better than before

But the doctor still harped on about my weight and that I need to try harder to lose it

Idk, I feel losing that much should have at least gotten acknowledged...

#Kitty mumbles #If I get another fuckin fatphobe on my vent post telling me to stop stuffing my face I'm gonna actually commit a felony #Kitty vents #Said doctor is my liver specialist so he has access to blood tests and stuff #He's not just telling me to lose weight for no reason #I honestly started feeling good after learning that I lost some weight #But the immediate “lose more” without acknowledging the weight already lost kinda hurt #I'm not tagging main tags here I just wanted to vent #I'm trying to be healthier but it doesn't seem like anyone wants to say good job #Yeah wanting to be told good job for something as normal as losing weight is kinda sad #But I'm trying my best here #I felt the need to lie about looking for a job to them because I felt like I wasn't doing enough #Ok I'm done #Back to your regularly scheduled squid posting

[justdeich]

gg team ghost. Was a good fight

#deich thoughts #kinda sad not gonna lie #but eh #its always like that

[the-kipsabian]

im gonna complain sorry i need to get this out of my brain since ive been thinking about it recently. leaving it in the tags so you can ignore it or whatever

#i just. feel like im missing out on everything recently #everyone else is having fun with each other and their friends and im just. here for no reason #timezones fuck me over so intensely on like a daily basis and its so fucking sad like #the society is demanding me to be a responsible human being which means sleeping - and while i do that everyone else has fun #yall get to watch things together. yall get to chat about things together. yall get to do shit in real time #like im not blaming anyone for having fun good for you im glad youre enjoying yourselves and everything!! #but also i just. feel left out. and its very stupid but im stupid and so is having to sleep and i never get to do anything fun cause of it #i never get to watch stuff live. i never get to participate in anything. and when i maybe do its an anxiety situation so i have to pass #i think thats why wrestling is rn a very sore spot for me. i havent really watched anything in a while cause i feel so left out #like im always behind. and i know it shouldnt matter but when i see everyone interacting with live blogs and such and i know i cant do that #and theres no point doing that afterwards #and the only things i can reasonably live blog are things that nobody else watches or cares about and im just #mostly anyways i only put my time and effort into something that only i care about #and im not gonna lie it kinda hurts. like ofc i cant ask anyone else to care but i just feel so fucking lonely sometimes #sorry im just. not in a good spot. honestly i probably never will be cause none of this is going to change cause i cant change it #and i cant and wont ask anyone to change it cause thats not good or fair or anything to anyone #i shouldnt even post this this is so stupid and im such a stupid little baby but im just... #im so fucking lonely sometimes and i see everyone else being able to do things and have fun and enjoy themselves. without me #im so lonely and im so jealous and it just fucking sucks okay #im gonna go now. im sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

Oh Steven Universe season 1 my beloved

#it felt the most whimsical and mysterious #I miss bratty teen amethyst #and lil baby boy steven #and mystery cool mom garnet #and sad bird pearl although tbf her later character development is absolutely everything to me #but just #the genuine wonder of the glittery magic and the monsters and the kinda anything-goes wildness? #the surrealism?? #the shrouded aura of the legend of Rose Quartz? #the 'oh shit suddenly this is real' moments towards the end of the season after just the weird shenanigans? #the random missions in various old gem locations? #chef's fucking KISS baby #the absolute VIBES #and not gonna lie while the rose/pearl backstory is interesting I miss the idea of wild benevolent rebel leader Rose Quartz #and actual renegade Pearl #like pearl's thing with being attached to Rose in a servile way could still work. She escaped one master and clung to another. #but yeah I keep thinking about what would happen in the show if it weren't for the massive twists #but ofc I know the Pink Diamond reveal was supposed to make me feel betrayed and uncomfortable and I respect that

[mvchpastel]

aight so i’m finallyyy talking to my friends honestly and openly about everything that happened between t and i these past four years, and it feels really really really lovely to believe that i’m “allowed” to share the truths that i’ve felt obligated to hide away for toooo long um

#garbagebraindump #i’m healing #and it feels fucking great #i’m not angry anymore #… #okay #i’m still a little angry #but not like how i was #i’m angry for 21 year old hannah #i’m angry for the hannah who was manipulated into believing she couldn’t be somebody without being somebody else’s ✨somebody✨ #yknow #ya feel #i mean #i’m not back to 100% and i’m not sure when i’ll feel like myself again #but i’m feeling more secure in myself everyday #i still feel sad sometimes but it’s a different kind of sad #it’s the kinda sad that makes you realize that he couldn’t and wouldn’t ever love you properly #it’s the kinda sad that makes you realize that you deserve (AND ALWAYS DESERVED) better??? #the Good Kinda Sad™️ #not gonna lie #i’m kinda sad for him too #and i’m really sad for her #but i can’t be angry at them #and i don’t need to prove that i’m ‘better off’ to anybody but me #they’ll get there and they’ll be fine #(i hope) #anywaysss #sappy gushy shit #🫶 #ily