backslid :(

oh! oh dear!

assuming you’re one of those random people who sends a message to my blog out of the blue because. well

oh i should probably update yes still sick, saturday i went to a good clinic (recommended by my primary doc, who cant see me in office for the help i need because of symptoms. which is wack but that’s another post) and got THREE!!!!! covid tests after talking to a doc. the rapid test came back negative (and hurt so much i cried. i think they took my brain), and the other two are still awaiting results (did regular and blood test). my arm is still bruised from having blood drawn, but other than that my symptoms are exactly the same and i have developed a small fever, the medicine they gave me is just giving me a LOT of energy. im fine after this morning, but i was NOT having a good time. i am incredibly exhausted but cant sit still or calm down enough to sleep so. yeah that’s p much it.

tldr; im still EXACTLY THE SAME after almost 2 months, i got three covid tests and am having bloodwork done, and they have 0 idea what’s up if it’s not covid and have even mentioned me seeing infectuous disease specialists if they cant figure it out. so like fun.

how well am i coping right now? well i’ve been listening to rocket man on repeat for twenty minutes so. hm. you tell me

i don’t mean to rain on the festivities but is anyone else feeling 😬 about cult leader klaus

kind of feeling well ummm uhh um well you know

Nothing more fun than being trapped in florida due to ~☆~circumstance~☆~ and hearing that cops are pulling over anybody with an out of state tag and knowing you Have To Leave this weekend and being so so scared of cops due to prior experiences and common sense…

mental health check in:

bad

maybe ill watch goodfellas tonight or something idfk

there is NO WAY that just hanging out at Cloud Recesses for a while OR traveling together would somehow be too gay for television, that is the EASIEST thing to adapt, that ending was UNNECESSARY and I’m UPSET

How’s our mental health doing today, kids??!

feeling not great

hm. its bad 

feeling unhinged, boys

mr robot viewers how are we doing

indiana is just one giant construction zone & ohio houses the deadly turnpike that stole all of my money on tolls

i was asked to teach a class 7 minutes before the class began, and then a japanese giant hornet flew into the classroom and kids were screaming and nearly flipping their desks trying to escape and i cowered with them until four teachers came with real long sticks and shooed it out. and then on the way home i nearly wrecked my bike bc it was windy from typhoon hagibis. then i got a bill in the mail.

so thats kind of how my day went.

phillip isn’t coming back into the game :(

God I need therapy