#not just because he’s too cool to cry

[puppyeared]

The garment, worn by those in good standing with Hyrule royalty, has been reworked with the latest improvements, such as a new shoulder guard.

#I miss my wife tails. I miss her a lot. I’ll be back #I love the champions leathers design but the story behind it is so sweet too like. she wanted to thank him so she went and #got some improvements added to it?? and she wanted to see his face when she surprises him with it hello????? #I think my favourite part is the half chest just for angst. I like imagining she was very particular about the armour placements #and had a chest piece added because yknow. right over the heart might I add #originally I wanted this to be more angsty but halfway through I was like wait this would completely miss the point #in my mind the armor isn’t just ‘I don’t want you to die again’ but also ‘I want to keep you safe as best I can’ #in her diary she was like links armor is wearing down so you know what? I’m gonna add more armor to better protect him!!! #and with her upbringing in mind (and the conversation she had with him about whether he would still choose to be a knight if things were #different) she could have totally asked him to stop doing it altogether. but she made the armor for him instead #sidenote she also got to be a teacher and scholar like she wanted and that is so. dont look at me I’m crying #I don’t know if ANY of this makes sense I’m just rambling. yes I wear the champions leathers every chance I get why do you ask #btw if you squint the leathers chainmail and sweater are taken from the hylian armor chestpiece! slightly modified on the tunic but cool #my art #myart #tears of the kingdom #totk #totk spoilers #totk zelda #totk link #botw spoilers #botw #breath of the wild #loz #loz fanart #comic #tw blood #blood

[lulu2992]

I noticed something else regarding Far Cry New Dawn promotional content, this time in the Announcement Trailer.

In the video, The Twins threaten the people of Prosperity before brutally executing someone. They say:

Mickey: Listen here, rabbits. You need to understand something: the only currency left in this world is power. We’re going to take everything from you, starting with your home. And if we can’t take it... Lou: ...we’ll break it.

Mickey doesn’t finish her sentence because she expects Lou to, and we can assume that what Lou adds is exactly what Mickey would have said had she been alone. There’s a great connection and synergy between them.

In the game, the moment they threaten Prosperity happens differently. First, they don’t come right at the gate but stay at a distance. Secondly, instead of beating someone to death with her helmet (which is something she still does in the prologue), Lou places an unpinned grenade in a child’s hands. Finally, they only talk to Carmina and the Captain, and part of what they say, while very reminiscent of the speech we heard in the trailer, isn’t identical to it:

Mickey: The only currency in this world is power. You-- you made us look weak. That ends now. We are going to take everything that you hold dear. Starting with your home. Lou: And if we can't take it, we'll break it.

The major difference here is that Mickey’s sentence was over, and I don’t think she expected Lou to say anything. Yet, she’s barely done talking when her sister decides to speak... much to Mickey’s annoyance, it seems, as this is her reaction:

The Twins remain very connected and don’t really seem to be in conflict in the game, but I think it’s interesting that Mickey rolls her eyes because of Lou’s comment. Yes, they can still be physically and mentally synchronized, but sometimes, they can also have slightly diverging opinions and get annoyed with each other because, at the end of the day, they’re separate people with different personalities. In my opinion, compared to what the trailer originally showed, the final version of the scene humanizes them more.

#far cry new dawn #mickey #lou #the twins #mickey and lou #I often feel like I should give fcnd a second chance because not everything was bad #there are some cool details like this one #also it looks pretty #I rewatched some cutscenes and they were fine too #...in fact I mostly dislike ethan #and it’s not even because he’s a bad character #I mean he’s a brat and a traitor but the writing and acting are fine #really I just hate that they made him exist in the first place #and that kind of ruined the game for me #gifs I made

[theloveinc]

Was thinking about it a bit more and I realized… if it were to happen, I don’t think you and Kirishima actually get divorced, I think you’d just… “separate” for a while.

Probably at his insistence, too. Not that anything is wrong, really… but having a kid as a hero is super difficult, and I think Kiri probably gets caught up in the loop of not feeling like you guys are lovers anymore, just parents, and every other hero without a partner is doing so much better than him. On the charts, emotionally, etc... so he suggests taking a break in thinking that not being worried about you would make it easier to prioritize what he really thinks matters (your son and his career)…

Not realizing that things’ll go even more to shit after he sees you without your ring on when you drop off son for his first-ever custody weekend.

#kirishima #he’s like ‘let’s just take a break and see if we’re better off’ #and then the first night alone at his dumb*ss bachelor pad he’s crying all night #and when son gets dropped off and acts out the whole weekend and is so mad at kiri #kiri can barely wave goodbye to you from the balcony and #literally bakugo has to peel him off the floor that Monday #after #lmaoooooo and then kiri instantly realizes he made up all his problems in his mind #he’s the most miserable he’s ever been EVER and actually feeling like parents and not lovers was a problem HE caused #and isn’t even bad it’s just something that ppl w kids go thru sometimes #but there u are. living apart because he wanted to be an *ss #and he had to spend the next year trying to win u back #but it works lmaooo #and your son never really forgives him but it’s cool it just makes him super funny #and bakugo is mad too actually LOL like 🤦🏼‍♂️the entire time #anyway bye #I’m watching mha season 5 and it’s good!!! I forgot it was good!!! #gen #kids tw #caitie post #divorced kiri

[sysig]

Last man standing (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #It's lonely at the top :( #Poor dearest is worse for wear ah </3 #This scene made me cry ;; #Like it was sad when he wrote down his missing canonmates but going back in and writing everyone else's names ;;;; #Even his shaky alliances! Even the people he hasn't seen for a while!! Wehhh <3 <3 <3 #You soft heart ;; I see you Admiral ♥ #Also had a lot of fun writing in VUK ZIX again hehe ♪ #The translations from VUK ZIX to English aren't exact - for starters they're upside down haha #So if you started from the top down it would actually read KINLEZ NATPAK but I figured that wouldn't be as readable #You read from the bottom up! I also still headcanon it being written/read from left to right #So he started with Zelnick then Fwiffo then Tanaka and so on #Although I did change it up for the second one - Teisel then Xelloss then Xigbar then Asch and Van #The more I think of it the more I'm surprised there's no H :0 #Even just as a demarcation of a pause before during or after a syllable #The ''sh'' sound makes complete sense tho hehe <3 #Any incorrect shaping of letters/poor handwriting on my part can totally be chalked up to ZEX not being used to human hands! #Totallyyy lol #I really like the way specific syllables are shaped - like how Teisel and Zelnick almost share the same shaped between ''SEL'' and ''ZEL'' #How Z is a more connected extension of S just agh it's so pretty <3 <3 Eco_Mono really did such a lovely job with it ♪ #And then certain ''incorrectly'' spelled syllables still turned out so pretty! Like the ''ANA'' in Talana - look how swoopy and continuous! #The ''BAR'' in Xigbar looks really cool - honestly reminds me of the fanweapons I made ages ago for I? think? Xigbar's apprentice?? #It's been too long I don't remember now lol but it's cool to me in particular because of that!! :D #Fwiffo looks so funny haha - Tanaka has a cool star-like kind of letter in his name?? Man it's just so neat <3 #As for ZEX - I mean he made it this far :( Not one to give up easily that's for certain ♥ Tenacious #I want him to be happy :'0

[alterigo06]

囧rz

#jujutsu kaisen #nanami kento #gonna cry myself to sleep hugging my Nanami plush #I’ve never watched or read jjk and this is the reason #i pick things up through my sister because she watches/reads it #and Nanami Kento is my one and only #also I watched JJK0 in theaters just for fun :) #He was the highlight of the movie 😌 #yuuta was pretty cool too I guess #and inumaki #anyway you guys don’t need to be reading this #imma leave now bye #oh wait also I watched the episode where he fights the stitches guy #and it shows younger him with the bread store

[softquietsteadylove]

some confused thena? xoxo

"Aunt Thena?"

"Jack," she blinked, looking down at him as he walked away from his friends and the curb of the school's front entrance.

He looked around them, "what...are you doing here? I'm taking the bus home today."

"Oh," she blinked again, also looking around and appraising herself of her surroundings. She was standing in front of Jack's school, humans mulling about, cars idling while waiting for children. "Yes."

"I thought you were home with Uncle Gil," Jack continued as he took in his aunt, standing with such a bewildered expression on her face. He toyed with the straps of his backpack. "Are you okay?"

"Yes," she repeated, although she didn't look any less confused about her surroundings. "I...I thought I was."

Jack reached up for his aunt's hand, sliding his smaller one into it, "did you get confused?"

Thena smiled.

That was the word for it that had worked thus far. Aunt Thena had her 'episodes', or 'fits', or whatever the rest of them called it. But Jack simply said 'confused' to suffice for what clouded the Warrior Eternal's mind.

"Yes, it appears I have," Thena sighed as she enclosed her hand ever so gently around Jack's precious little one. "I seem to have ended up here."

Jack merely shrugged as he began the walk home with his aunt beside him. "Yeah, I guess that's how I get here too."

Thena merely walked beside him, looking around her still, but perhaps with less apprehension. She recognised more of their surroundings as they walked. She knew the school, and the route they took when Jack was coming and going.

"Do you feel okay?"

Thena smiled down at her brother's child, so gentle at heart. She wasn't sure if all humans had such sweetness to them and she didn't much care. There were many things which paled in comparison to Jack in her mind in that regard.

"I was at home," she narrated as they walked slowly and gently. Jack got to take his time with his little legs, while Thena drifted idly beside him. "I remember looking for something to eat and then... "

Jack merely nodded, so easily accepting of the fact that sometimes Aunt Thena would wander out into the yard and stand still for a long time. He had no fears nor reservations about it, as far as he was concerned.

Thena looked down at their hands and then around them. She tilted her head at him, "do you not fear judgement from your peers?"

He tilted his head right back at her and her antiquated speech.

"You do not wish to hold your fathers' hands."

She was referring to how 'holding hands was for babies', as Jack had so boldly proclaimed last time Phastos attempted to hold his hand in the parking lot of the mall.

"Mm, well," Jack twisted his lips as he made a face for the sake of his thought process. He shrugged, "that's different."

Thena accepted the statement for what it was, as he had done for her. She gave his soft little human hand a squeeze, "thank you, Jack--for helping me get home."

Jack smiled up at her as well, showing off the young teeth in his mouth still finding their permanent placement. "You're welcome. I get confused too sometimes--it's pretty scary to be alone for it."

"Yes, I suppose it is," Thena conceded to the young boy's wisdom, well beyond his years and even the words he had at his disposal.

Jack looked up at her, "does Uncle Gil help you with that?"

Thena smiled at the mere mention of her most constant in life. She nodded, looking at Jack and then at the golden bracelet around her wrist, keeping her powers in check.

True, at first Phastos hadn't gotten them quite right. Gil hadn't been very happy about the side effects they'd had on her. But she wore them still, because they were for the safety of her nephew.

"Aunt Thena?"

"Yes, Jack?" she asked softly as a breeze passed by them.

"What makes you feel better?" He looked up at her more sheepishly, "after you get confused, I mean."

There were some things, although she had more of a history of violence before coming to Chicago and getting these bracelets shackled to her. But she supposed that going dormant on the spot was a small price to pay instead of becoming the planet's deadliest force alive.

"Uncle Gil," she answered plainly and honestly. Truly, the man who had been by her side for - in many ways - her whole life was her strongest pillar of stability. She smiled and uncrossed her other arm from around herself to pat Jack's head, "and you."

"Really?" he blinked at her, baffled by the suggestion. "What do I do?"

He reminded her that life was full of promise, and love, and joy, and that it was worth protecting. It was worth all the pain and fighting and the sacrifices she had seen - and made - with her own eyes.

She leaned over, kissing the top of his head, "plenty."

Jack rubbed his hair, now thoroughly embarrassed by the public affection. "Okay, I guess."

Thena smiled, allowing his resistance to her gesture. It was part of his maturation, she was told. He no longer liked hugs and kisses and holding hands by family. She seemed a slim exception to the rule. "Indeed."

Finally turning down their street, with the house in sight, Jack looked up at his aunt again. "Do you feel better now?"

Thena inhaled as the front door opened, Gilgamesh clearly on his way to sprint out of the house to come find her. She smiled, "much."

"Good," Jack sufficed, although his hand did give hers a little squeeze.

"There you are," Gil greeted lightly, although his eyes ran over her frantically in search of distress or injury.

"I walked home from school with Jack," she explained needlessly. She let go of Jack's hand as he walked past them and into the house to shed the school day from his mind.

Gil looked at her, "you okay?"

She nodded, leaning into him without hesitation as he pressed his lips to her temple, "I'm sorry I frightened you. I woke and...there he was."

The two drifted into the house, watching as Jack independently got himself a glass of milk and some cookies. Gil chuckled, "great kid."

"He is," Thena agreed.

"Aunt Thena," Jack called out as he slapped the tupperware of homemade cookies onto the table, "have some!"

Gil ruffled Jack's hair on his way past him, "at least put 'em on a plate, buddy--come on."

Thena just smiled, seating herself at the table and taking one of Jack's preciously guarded cookies (which Gil made). "Thank you, Jack."

"Aunt Thena, do you know math?"

"Not at all." She had lived throughout the life of some of the world's greatest minds. She chewed on her chocolate chip, "ask Uncle Gil."

"Hey, don't look at me," he laughed, setting some of the cookies on a plate for the two of them and putting the rest away. "You'll have to ask your dad."

Jack let out a loud groan before rifling through his back for other homework that required his attention.

Gil and Thena traded a look over his head, assuring that she was safe home after another bout of Mahd Wy'ry--this time thwarted by a ten year old human.

#Jack and Thenamesh #this was the first thing I thought of at the word confused #it's just so...kind #it's so much more gentle than the condition causing it #Jack's readiness to say that he gets confused sometimes too #because kids do get confused #and I think they would also know what it's like to have people not understand why #and get frustrated with them when all they're looking for is help #Jack adores Aunt Thena and you can pry it from my cold dead hands #she is actually the ONLY one he genuinely talks to so #write that down #he tells Phastos and Ben to stop embarrassing him and treating like a baby #meanwhile Thena gets a little nervous about the escalators at the mall #and Jack takes her hand and steps on with her to show it's okay #such a sweetie #and Phastos is like I hate it here #and Ben is like he's not supposed to think his parents are cool Habibi it'll be okay #Gil is practically crying from how cute it is

[italictext]

I desperately need to befriend a Death Note fan irl who likes Death Note the way I do.. The only DN fans I've met irl are anime only Near haters :'(

#I NEED someone to shake while I rant to them about Death Note pls pls pls #I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO GIGGLE WITH WHILE WE STARE AT DEATH NOTE PANELS PLS PLS PLS #My sister has seen Death Note but she's not really into it + anime only + Near hater </3 #It sucks to remember that the Death Note fandom isn't just my mutuals.. Some people genuinely hate Near :(( #I LOVE the anime the animation is beautiful the soundtrack is beautiful and OOOOO THE COLOR CODING EEEE but #It butchered the 2nd half soo so badly and changed Near's personality and I'm not a fan of the ending :( #THE MANGA ENDING IS SOOO SO GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL #OMGGGG when Light admits to being Kira and gives them his speech and calls himself god of the new world AND EEEE NEAR SAYS “NO YOURE JUST A #MASS MURDERER“ #LIKE EEEE THAT ALWAYS ALWAYS MAKES ME GIGGLE NEAR WAS SOOO SO COOL FOR THAT LIKE HE'S LITERALLY FACE TO FACE WITH KIRA THE GUY WHO KILLED L #And Near REPEATS IT. HE CALLS HIM “JUST A MURDERER” TWICE. #Sorry but the anime made Near so stupid “lol just let him run away it's not like he'll survive” #I love Near and Light's dynamic so much they're so funny. They have the prettiest panels too #Maybe an unpopular opinion but Near vs Light was wayyy more entertaining that L vs Light #And it hurts me to see people say that it should've ended at the 1st half. I know people can have their own opinions or whatever but THEYRE #WRONG!! DN is SOOO much better with the 2nd half + if it ended at L's death that would've sucked. So glad L died midway #I wish I had a friend I could talk about DN to :( I'll just hope one of my friends decide to watch it because idk how to make new friends #Discord servers scare me and while I love my mutuals if any of you tried to message me I think I'd cry out of nervousness lol #Gosh this is long shoukd I even post this

[amnesiamilk]

my mom when her two neurodivergent children don’t want to spend 4+ hours in a overcrowded building that hasn’t been cleaned in years and has lights flashing every five seconds and noises playing over eachother :

#It was a thrift store btw but it was like weirdly rave-ish? #Could’ve been cool but got super overstimulated and started crying because I literally couldn’t handle it #Cause my hands felt unclean and people were litteraly inches away from eachother #Brother is neurodivergent too and he said it was the same for him #Too much going on #and my mom was so upset that we wanted to leave (after litteraly being there for FOUR HOURS) because “we just got here”

[frecklystars]

I cannot stop thinking of Luke today. it is making me ache. it is eating my heart from the inside out. i think he’d help pull me out of a flashback and hold me so tight and never let me go. he doesn’t know much about ptsd but he knows how to be there for the people he cares about

#laying in my bed clutching my chest like I’m wounded #it’s not even 3 and I’ve cried twice today. haha. #i need him to hug me so tight #‘aw don’t cry on me princess. you need a distraction? hey I ever show you all my tattoos?’ #’yeah don’t ask what this one means. or this one. or this one. i just thought it looked cool.’ #i always thought of Luke getting a star tattoo on his chest because of me #i think out of all my Ryan F/Os who call me ‘star girl’ the nickname rolls off his tongue the easiest #‘star girl’ mumbled with a smirk. cigarette in his mouth. slightest curl of the lip. a bit of a lisp #fricatives so gentle and plosives so soft. and a rasp so guttural from a voice so quiet. #like ‘star girl’ is a secret he won’t dare speak too loud. he’s got his own falling star in his hands and he doesn’t wanna jinx it #I keep comparing him to a beach ken doll and he shakes his head and rolls his eyes #he says stop calling me that. and I say I’ll stop when he quits dyeing his hair platinum blond #he kisses my neck til I stop sniffling and then he keeps kissing until I’m laughing #and he’s like why are you laughing? huh? what’s so funny? his very light stubble tickling and he knows full well #petting my hair until I fall asleep in his arms and he’s humming a song stuck in his head #he lets me wear his shirt because it smells like him and it’ll help ground me from a flashback #those hands can kill if need be but they’re always the gentlest when near me and he won’t let me forget that #ANYWAY. i wanna die I’m gonna go to sleep #love notes #💕♬♪ ♡☆ Til my blood runs cold ━ I won't let you go - ̗̀🏍️🖤⛈️ ̖́-

[swallowtailed]

hxh 85:

:(

#hello world #hxh #hxh spoilers #SPOILERS IN TAGS. #dude i'm so fucking sad what the fuck #this WHOLE TIME ive been like wow kite's definitely gonna die #but i had almost convinced myself he wouldn't! #i liked him :((((((((( field ecologist :(((((((((((((((((((((((((( #AND ON TOP OF THAT. KILLUA #absolute roller coaster ride. zero self worth. and then. #you're too bright to look at but can i stay by your side.... #bluebird flying into the sun :(( #cries forever #god. gon just exploding with power. #.................................. oh my god i just googled kite to check he was for sure dead. and. um. #wow i'm going to cry so much about this arc. #eta: coming around slightly on the fact that we didn't get one more cool fight scene with kite because instead there was the rain #field season feeling. the storm rolls in. slow dread and then understanding. #so it feels very right to me in that way

[mbat]

im never going to not utterly adore the trope of eyes reflecting someones emotional state tbh. eye color, eyes glowing, hell, even something as human as pupil size, but especially if it expands past the limits of humanity and goes like how cats eyes go soo big lol. physical form changing inhumanly to reflect ones emotional state going out of their control is just so. mmm thats so delicious

#tropes #so i sound weird saying it like this? im just sick of pretending its not one of the best tropes out there okay #INHUMAN EYES ARE ALREADY SO COOL BUT THEN THEY DO THAT AND ITS LIKE!!!!! THATS SO FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!! #points at crowleys eyes going full snakey when hes scared. MORE OF THAT!!!!!!!! #dude my j. ghost has it too. his eye color changes to reflect how happy or upset he is. no one can stop me damnit #my post #ITS ALSO COOL IF ITS MORE THAN JUST EYES BUT THE EYES ESPECIALLY. #like someones whole body practically falling apart because theyre so upset that its overwhelming. dude thats so fun #DO I EVEN MAKE SENSE #idk but im having fun #its not enough for someone to start crying. if you dont start looking less and less human whats the point /j #also not technically emotional state but someones eyes glowing really bright the more powerful they are. duuuuude #are you getting the vision. are you seeing what i see #i just woke up and im rly hungry so im just like. saying shit tbh ok

[abimee]

wrote up a huge sappy post about tock and my time playing xiv so far and endwalker but then i fell asleep after eating bad fast food and now im embarassed to post all of that so just know i think endwalker was the greatest video game story ive ever played and hermes and meteion are going to stick in my head forever and tock is my most important oc. thats the basics

#venat was cool i guess but hermes deserves more than her #i realize too i never do my insane ramblings over here. about hermes. about how i hate people humanizing meteion when her being nonhuman is #critical to hermes character and especially how hermes cares for animals being shoved to the wayside #instead so people can just focus on him being autistic or depressed and ignore that he cares deeply and intensely for #all animals. the wasps the maggots the birds the sharks the turtles the mollusks. how he is the one consumed with the love for what #other deems lesser or below them the animals other cry couldnt possibly exhibit emotions! #i saw a tweet yesterday of someone acting horrified or absolutely astonished that spiders can recognize themselves/other spiders #and make art and it made me lose my mind because why COULDNT spiders do this? why be so surprised? why act so horrified? #they are animals that exhibit understanding. many animals have been proven to show they can recognize themselves #and even then if an animal cannot why do we see them as lesser for it. why do we argue about if animals can feel pain or not #and think that nothing deserves to be tortured by purely existing #why do we kill bugs when they are simply looking for warmth and why do we attempt to justify the merciless othering of #animals based on their capacity for emotion and humanization. when all animals should be given the choice to be as they are #wasps deserve to live spiders and tarantulas and cockroaches and maggots and pigeons and seagulls #to kill them or taunt them or degrade them for how he made them is beyond cruel. consider #anyway. i think hermes would LOVE halloween hissing cockroaches

[jrueships]

scintillating conversation, im sure

#jabari the type who joins clubs/organizations meant to help people make friends #and still end up friendless #that one kid u see in bandclass too cool to join in on the bandhumor #but too nerdy to join in at all #just standin in the corner with his dinky lil trumpet like 🧍🏽🎺 #during concerts he snoops on peoples conversations that are closeby and pretends like hes in on the joke #fake laughter or smiling in their direction so his dad watching in the stands doesnt think hes a loser loser #yea he might be a bandkid but at least hes a liked bandkid 😎 (no #he passed his yearbook around at the end of school during band class and someone wrote 'who are you?' in it #but not even the fully spelled out version but the 'who R u?' version #he proceeded to lock himself in the school bathroom until darkness falls crying because he thought he got called a wh*re #jaba #ppdoesit

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #as much as I hate to see the social cinema grow as I get new followers. we're at a good and satisfying number. and I like that #also also also. I've introduced a friend to Hannibal (tv show) and he's loving it and I'm so happy cause none of #of my other friends have been able to stomach the body horror. so it's super cool to find someone to hype over it with #another random story that I genuinely can't remember if I said already. got told by a kid in minecraft that he's smiled a lot more around me #which. huge compliment. genuine honor to make people happy and smile and laugh #people don't laugh enough. we don't smile enough. be happy or die. and I'm too powerful to die. been there. haven't done that #cry and then laugh and then punch as hard as you can. #got to visit some of my favorite residents from the nursing home I first worked at. lotta new staff but my three favorite nurses are still #which is nice. I cried when I left that job because even though it crushed my soul I loved my coworkers and most of my residents. #I get why some healthcare workers grind themselves to the bone for the job. you're making such a huge difference in people's lives. #I tried but didn't have the fortitude for it. but it's nice to be able to go back and say hi to the friends I made and see how things are. #anyway. sorry for being weird like.. one or two weeks ago. I think things are settling out again. moving is rough but we're making it work #It's been a lot of Lear again lately. especially while being at my parents house. he doesn't mind being deadnamed as much sooo.... #idk. at least one of us is capable of surviving the dmv and the state medicaid website. heaven knows I can't manage. #trying to stop using him as a crutch for getting things done has just resulted in us not being able to get things done. #but I don't want to be someone else I want to be me. I don't want to be the armor I want to be the human inside. #I don't want to live defensively. pushing everyone away. I can't do that. #anyway. we're back home! and work is on the horizon. hopefully this job works out cause I don't want to have to apply for new jobs. #the hr rep is a man at this store and I immediately got set on edge and our voice dropped as I stepped back. #then we introduced ourselves with the wrong name and he got confused and I just felt stupid about it #but how am I supposed to know which name he's been told. he didn't even use our paperwork name. Anyway that was a disaster #but we're on track and embarrassment is not a setback but a feeling about the way things progress. and it is progress we're making

[iwantyoursexmp3]

this post really is the blueprint for RR felix vs lover boy felix 

#literally RR felix is like an annoying piece of shit at first because he thinks hes got his life under control #and then he realises he doesnt and hes like omg everything is falling apart nothing matters let me get hedonistic and silly with it #then hes like wait no i want my life to be okay i want to be a good person :( #ASTRONIMIC crisis over that because he thinks hes gone past a line #(so much of RR thematically is feeling like you're a 'lost cause' bc of childhood trauma hehe) #and then lover boy felix is like oh i made positive progress with myself #but its just made me feel fragile because i feel like i have more to lose #mfs with trauma will finally reach a sense of peace in their life and its the opposite of peace because it makes them so scared #but its still funny because RR felix is like doing cocaine in the bathtub on a wednesday afternoon #lover boy felix works at a kindergarten and is probably well hydrated #i dont think he realises how much progress he's made and when he does that's when he gets scared #especially because now hes more intentionally unpacking his trauma which is a lot #but like instead of fucking people and fighting people and breaking into houses to cope he like gets a caramel frappe and has a cry #LMAO #because he's like one wrong move and ill go back to how i was and ruin everything (which he does almost do exactly that BUT) #he will return to being messy at some point though....gotta have him falter which will scare him so much #also has a mild gender crisis between all of this too #that's my infodump on tumblr of the day so many thoughts in my head that i cant do anything with #thats really cool dallon have you been evaluated for autism #lover boy is like the normal spongebob of my wips because its tragic and emotional #but the characters dont feel like theyre basically or literally fighting for their lives every day LOL #it's refreshing i cant lie