#not really sure if he'd be more or less against the bos than the military

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okay so. If I remember right, Derrick joined up with the BOS with the goal to get out there more and hopefully find clues for the whereabouts of his son. He also has a military history pre-war, which wasn't necessarily all that positive, was it?

I guess my question is: is he as anti-military as Darryl? To a lesser degree? Not against it at all?

Was joining up with the BOS a necessary evil for him in order to find his son? Did he like it anyway? Did it grow on him after working with them?

Long story short: how does Derrick feel about the BOS

I think Derrick's feelings about the bos are kinda complicated, as were his feelings about the pre-war military

To start, both Derrick and Darryl grew up in a military family. There were a lot of people in their extended family who were actively in it, and for the most part the family had pretty good opinions of them. Some didn't or had bad opinions, but they weren't included much

Growing up, Darryl had a pretty positive view of the military, but grew less so as she got older and learned about them more, but by the time she joined she was still just kinda indifferent about them, maybe feeling pretty unsure. But as that post a while back said about how the military is a cult, she joined anyways after enough pressure from her family - despite the growing feelings she had that maybe the military isn’t so good, nor her family. And since she had to step up and take care of Derrick where their parents fell short, a lot of her views got mixed up with some of the views their family tried to push onto him

He was around 11 when Darryl joined the military and saw it for what it was, after which she wasn’t around as much to combat the stuff their parents told him, so he had a lot of uncertainty because: on the one hand, this is what his parents and a lot of his extended family is saying, and he’s still young and impressionable, but on the other hand he does remember some of the stuff Darryl told him. And he’d feel like he should trust what Darryl has to say about it bc she always seemed to care more than the rest of their family and he generally trusted her with most other stuff, and because of that - even tho their family tried really hard to get him to believe them - he’d have felt really uneasy and not so good about the stuff they said, even if he can’t quite reject or dispute it

Anyways. That being said, Derrick knew that the military was kinda not that good before he joined up - bc of Darryl’s influence when he was growing up, and bc of the stuff she told him after she joined - but he was, ultimately, still pretty dependent on and easily coerced or talked into doing stuff he maybe didn’t really want to do by their family. I mean, he was like 18 when he was pressured into joining. Tho I’m sure that the fact that there was a war about to break out certainly didn’t help

But I doubt it took long for Derrick to go from “hey maybe the military isn’t really that good” to “oh my god these guys are horrible, why did I let my parents talk me into doing this”. He really didn’t like being in the military. He didn’t like what they did, the way they operated, what they stood for, and he definitely didn’t like what he had to do while in the military. I think he would at least be as anti-military as Darryl, but I can’t decide if he would be any more or less than her. They both grew up in the cult of military culture and military families, and they’ve both been funneled into it despite how they might feel about it, so they’re both pretty against it

As far as the bos goes, I think that the intentions behind joining up were genuinely from a necessary evil standpoint. However, after he was in, I think that there was definitely an aspect of, like, old habits dying hard, or like relapsing into a self-destructive tendency. I’m having a hard time thinking of the right way to phrase it atm, but the closest comparison I can think of is an abuse victim continuously ending up in abusive situations, or a cult survivor getting roped into another cult. Partially bc they’ve grown somewhat accustomed to or dependent on the dynamic, but also partially bc they don’t really have the ability to get out that situation on their own

Which means that even tho Darryl was able to find Kellogg and the kids, he wasn’t really able to extricate himself from the bos until blind betrayal happened, something drastic enough that he more or less had to. Although, I don’t think that that was the only reason he stayed in the bos. There’s also the fact that it would be extremely helpful to have insider info on the bos and the stuff they’re getting up to

As far as his opinion on the bos, he’d initially think of them the same way he felt about the military. But, once he and Danse start getting closer, he’d end up in a similar situation that he was in with his family when he was younger; where he logically knows that the group is bad, but he’s still subject to being influenced by certain people in the group whom he feels he should listen to, regardless of whether or not he trusts them. Which he doesn’t

#ask #read more #rockshortage #derrick murphey #darryl murphey #not really sure if he'd be more or less against the bos than the military #they're both Bad as far as he and darryl are concerned but theyre bad in different ways #ok maybe the first line is a lie its not actually that complicated #its just complicated to explain