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redwinterroses · 3 years

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RIIIIIIIIIGHT SO.

I just finished chapter 13 of Dog At The Door and holy hot cross buns batman if you're not reading this fic you NEED to. It's literally one of the best written fics I have ever read in my life and I've been reading fanfiction for over 15 years, lol.

I went back and reread the entire fic to lead up to chapter 13 and I decided to treat it like I used to treat things I had to read in college so I took notes as I went and please I am warning you this post is incredibly long. Almost 3k words. PLEASE do not hit that "read more" button unless you're good with having to scroll past it all and also spoilers ahead. Proceed with caution.

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Rereading Dog at the Door reactions (spoilers, obviously):

· Doc finding Ren’s body to be cold and for a second thinking he’s actually dead—my heart

· “That’s Ren, alive and kicking.” Oh…no, Doc. No it’s not.

· The first “Where is my hand?” hits different the second time through

· Gah the ice and winter imagery ALL over the place—my English degree brain wants to watch and see if that shifts to warmth at any point as we go? Thoughts for future Red to think.

· It’s fascinating to me to see Doc constantly thrust into the prey role. This is a guy who is very much not that person normally, but something about the Red King is beyond anything he’s really encountered before—or at least not since Dinnerbone—and it pushes him into an entirely new role that he clearly chafes in

· “I should get back to work on your new arm soon,” he says, making a mental note to add claws to the fingertips. Honestly Doc why tho. XD

· “It feels like something Ren would want him to do.” </3

· Side note: I just watched Doc’s freaking hour long shulker farm vid, and that’s making it a lot easier to hear his voice in this fic

· I’m more curious about the hand.” New Ren laughs a bit at his own words, as though there’s something funny about that phrasing. I MISSED THIS LINE THE FIRST TIME THROUGH

· The bead curtain being cursed hippie treasure XD

· The fact that Doc just so quickly accepts that Ren is gone—maybe not permanently, but at least for now—is kind of heartbreaking. Because you know he hasn’t really accepted it, he’s just… deciding not to feel anything about it. Just nod and move on and pretend you don’t need to stop and cope with the possible/probable death of your best friend and the fact that Someone Else is wearing his skin. That’s so sad.

· “high-fiving the finished hand with his own metal hand.” Aww… Doccy.

· “He shoos away the images of New Ren holding him up by the throat supervillain-style and turns around.” Hmmmmmmm want that fanart. Scary New Ren/RK is good stuff. (post-chapter-13 Red popping in with a WHAT THE HECK)

· “that makes him seem like a ghost in Ren’s body.” YA KNOW. LIKE HE IS.

· Okay side note time: why is the Red King here? Ya know? Like – in 3rdLife the idea of a possessing spirit of bloodlust makes some sense. But why stick around? Was RK trying to escape the 3L server, or was this not deliberate? At what point did he take over from Ren—at Black Heart Altar? In which case, was the whole idea Ren’s to begin with, or was he influenced? Maybe it happened the first time Ren died? The Red King took over then—or at least started to? Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts…

· Wait more theories—what if RK is connected to the ????? entity that spoke to Martyn when he died? In which case, cMartyn said he was considering making that canonically a Watcher (he ended up not doing it, but he also didn’t do anything that contradicted it either). I’m not saying RK is a Watcher… but boy he sure does stare a lot, don’t he.

· Holding the screwdriver like a dagger—mmmm

· Okay funny thought: all this frost, RK’s gonna need to be real careful about rust lol. And straining the metal, tbh, all that freezing and thawing is going to have an effect but the rust idea is making me laugh

· Until I realized it would look like blood and it’s not funny anymore

· “Renbob is in the beanbag stuffed next to the driver’s seat” right so is this where Renbob sleeps because I have been wondering—

· “something about having two people look like Ren when neither of them are makes Doc stop to take a shaky breath” *sob*

· “Renbob clears his throat, looking up at Doc with a smile that is so obviously fake that it hurts.” Ugh the LOT of you stop repressing everything you’ll give yourselves a collective hernia

· “he’ll probably have to break the news to the other hermits, too, Iskall and False and all the others.” All these painful lines I somehow missed the first time through

· Awww warm air comes in when Renbob opens the door—with the flowers and everything, Renbob is so easily associated with spring, I love this contrast.

· Aaand there it is, yup, RK is shocked to see his face on Renbob, and Renbob is shocked to see that this is so clearly Not Ren.

· They both recover pretty quickly, though. Survivors, both of them.

· RK calls Renbob their “ferryman” and I’m not sure if I was supposed to get “crossing the river Styx” vibes from that But I Did. (does RK think he’s dead? That they’re all dead?) (post-chapter-13 Red here with a little bit of wordless screaming.) (and also a bit of pride that I picked up on this.)

· “And what a help you’ve been! Fixing me up, replacing my hand.” Hi yes, 911? there’s a dagger stabbed into my feels.

· “he’d rather remember rage than see another person’s heart break.” Dang that’s such a raw line. Oof.

· ”the Red King says, his voice hoarse with tears.” Really interesting that this blood deity can feel such emotions—like, anger or even fear, I can get. But to see this entity upset to the point of tears is fascinating.

· “There is a crown on Doc’s workbench.” Right, yeah so like—is RK unwillingly manifesting these artifacts? Because that’s wild, man. …how long before he manifests an “enchanter”?

· “I’ve never seen it [the crown] clean before.” Okay that definitely implies that maybe RK didn’t come around until after Black Heart Altar?

· “The Red King has the crown in his lap when Doc turns back around, claws gently tracing over the engravings, leaving frost patterns behind.” I really wish I had art skills because there’s this image in my head of a drawing of the crown held in RK’s hands, with his face (one eye glowing, one in shadow) reflected in the surface, and frost patterns following behind a claw that’s daintily tracing the surface. But I can’t draw so—

· RK asks for a change of clothes. What was he wearing when they rescued him, I wonder? The Red King outfit with the fur capelet? Or Ren’s Stargazer outfit? Which begs the question: where does Stargazer fit into all this? Was Ren’s return to Hermitcraft RK free, but when he came so close to dying to Sith, RK found that as a gateway to take over? (Post-13 Red here, Looking Intently at this note.)

· Awww… the image of a one-legged RK clutching new clothes to his chest and hopping down to change in the bathroom… That’s weirdly endearing. He’s less menacing when he stands up somehow. Less lurking, maybe.

· Oooohhhhh he messed up his back sleeping on the floor. Gotcha.

· Doc keeps telling himself (and RK) that saving him and working on these parts is “the right thing to do” and while he’s not WRONG I just want to see him realize that it’s not only the right thing, it’s realistically the only thing, because if he didn’t, then he’d have to deal with the fact that he’s lost his best friend and we can’t have that.

· “I don’t need to eat” ummmmmm no hold on this definitely implies that RK is possessing a dead body and I’m not okay with that where is Ren

· LOLOL “I can’t stand to see [you do] this” is such a raw line to be about watching Doc eat cereal with his hands

· “The voice doesn’t belong to who he thinks it does.” Ugh, Doc. This isn’t the first time he’s lost a close friend to Something Else, something otherworldly.

· “All of them are waiting for him, waiting for him to do something more, something better—” aaand there it is. Doc’s characterization in this fic in a single sentence.

· Doc waking up and thinking he’s seeing Ren and RK’s hesitation and the gentle “I’m not Ren”—OH MY HEART

· RK’s coffee = Renbob’s friendship bracelets

· Randomly can I just say that I love how RK’s dialog is all in italics? It concerned me at first because I thought it was going to keep pulling me out of the narrative, but instead it really just feels right. Also I’m looking forward to the moment when he says something and it’s not in italics because it’s REN and oh my lands please give this to me I beg you (post-13 Red here with a bit more mindless screaming)

· “watch your tongue with me, Atlas, because I’m the one person you can pass the sky to.” Okay okay okay—English studies brain coming out. This suggests that there is a burden RK and Doc can share: something Doc is currently struggling against that only RK can help him with. In the moment, I don’t know if this is really fair of RK to say—after all, Doc does technically have Renbob too, if we’re just talking about Doc’s unhealthy coping mechanisms. In fact, if that’s the context, then Renbob is a much better fellow-Atlas because he and Doc have known each other much longer and they’re both dealing with the loss of Ren. BUT, knowing about the upcoming conversation where Doc and RK both realize that they’ve lost someone (Ren for Doc, Martyn for RK) this line suddenly has a lot more weight. Again, I don’t think that in that moment RK quite has the right to pull this zinger. But in later context, it turns out to be true after all. They are the only two with this particular shared pain.

· Doc upset with himself because he can’t get over his “stupid hang-ups” DOC MY LAD. “I’ve lost my best friend, you’re in his body, and I don’t know how to process any of these emotions” is not a “stupid hang-up” PLEASE stop blaming yourself for everything!?

· “I’m so tired” in the middle of his nightmare—oh my gosh. That hurts so much for some reason.

· I also very much wish I had the ability to draw the image of Doc with tears on his face, staring dead-eyed down at his workbench while RK looms over from behind, pinning his wrists to the table with one metal arm and one frost-bitten one, a look of exasperation and concern on his face. Why can’t I draw the things

· “How do you know Etho” “I watched him die.” OW ow ow ow ow

· Doc takes this as calmly as only someone used to living in a world where death has low consequences can. Oh. Oh—that means… huh. Doc isn’t used to losing people permanently on any basis, especially not death. So no wonder he doesn’t know how to process Ren being gone (I can’t bear to write “dead” there). He literally doesn’t have context for it… and what context he DOES have is like—I mean, Etho and Bdubs came back. Ouch.

· “Twenty-five.” The Red King makes the number sound like a threat. Yet another banger line I missed the first time through. Imagine waking up and thinking you’re in 3rd Life again but instead of 14 players there’s almost twice that many and you think you don’t know any of them.

· I still don’t quite understand the “when was etho added/should have known there was something different” bit or why RK is so emotional about it… but I have trust that it’ll make sense at some point. (post-13 Red: ...is this something about the fact that he thinks he's dead...so he thinks Etho has died before? Like, that 3rd Life wasn't Etho's first hardcore? ...I feel like I'm almost grasping this but I'm missing an element somewhere.)

· And now a sword. RK. My man. You need to stop manifesting things—especially when they scare the ever-living daylights out of you.

· I absolutely adore the in-universe lore that Fire Aspect is a PvP enchantment because it threatens dropped loot, and yeah I very well might steal that. (Along with something I read at one point who-even-knows-where that Knockback is a coward’s enchantment, because I love that too.)

· He really shouldn’t. / Doc picks up the sword by the scabbard and hands it to him, hilt extended. Doc you already trust this guy so much and you don’t even know it—but is it just because you still subconsciously trust the face he wears? Or is it something deeper?

· Ugh, the “I was supposed to kill someone for him” conversation/scene is SO FREAKING GOOD

· “I don’t want it. Not like the crown.” Why, though? Why doesn’t he want it? Because it’s more to do with death than kingship? OH. Oh, I hadn’t even considered that. I’ve been thinking of RK as this like, god of blood and vengeance but maybe he’s not. Maybe he hates the bloodshed (“the blood! It’s drippin’ in me eyes… I’ve been blinded by the violence…”) just as much—more?—than Ren did/would have. Huh. That’s a new facet.

· Oh my heart the “have you ever lost someone and it was your fault” line. Dagger to the feels. Dagger to the feels.

· This like… “I’m on a roll and even though I know I should stop I really don’t want to” mode? Man. That’s relatable. Especially when you’re working to avoid dealing with something else.

· “Not making it for you—it’s for Ren” oh ouch ouch ouch the denial suddenly breaks through it’s okay, Doc I’m with you on this

· The second time reading through it’s far clearer that Doc has a blind panic attack here—when he starts rambling that Ren’s coming back, he’ll be there for season eight and RK goes to…do whatever he was going to do and Doc just blanks out. The manic productivity should have been a warning sign, the poor guy is crumbling.

· “Doctor” and “he’s not sure he deserves that title right now” UGH Doc needs a hug someone please hug him and tell him it’s all going to be okay. Someone please hug me and tell me it’s all going to be okay.

· “his hand on his throat” over the scar from the Red Winter axe? </3

· “I did do that. I have done that.” RK admitting to it actually having been him in Doc’s nightmares?

· Okay sorry the conversation about beating Dinnerbone will never not be funny to me

· RK mentions that people used to call him m’lord or Ren, and then mere minutes later you have “Ren. You couldn’t save him because of me, could you?” He knows exactly what’s going on here. Not maliciously, but he’s no dense-head, he’s put the pieces together. (post-13 Red: MOST of the pieces. Most of them.)

· Watching Doc slowly stop fighting his nightmares—like, the first time, he fights. The second time, he accepts it but still struggles. And this time… this time he gives up before it even starts. That hurts, man.

· Good grief the whole “get my head chopped off” / “you really don’t want that” bit. O.O I’m not sure what emotion I’m feeling but I’m Feeling An Emotion.

· “Snow’s new. Dream’s not.” </3

· …Doc’s not gonna be a fan of snowier-snow after this trip…

· "Dr. M77" Actually he’s Doc Monster, RK, but we’ll let it go. XD

· OKAY BUT THIS EXCHANGE? The “how are you feeling” / “better” / “you’re a bad liar” / “I said better not great” that’s such a good exchange and I don’t know why every other time I’ve ever seen it used they stop at the lying accusation? Doc with the snappy comebacks, man.

· Aaah, Doc and RK, two establishment bros bonding over a shared disdain for hippies.

· The bit about the fella who wore an iron helmet and called it a powdered wig—fear is in my heart. *shoves Scar into an obsidian box and blocks it closed*

· “Who was Ren to you?” </3

· Doc is more than willing to spread the flames, to sear his loss into RK’s bones. / The king’s face stops him. Ren’s face stops him. Holy CRAP is that a good set of lines. So much going on there, and ALL of it good.

· Again. I wish I could draw. I would draw RK sitting on the edge of the bed, gently hugging a collapsed-in-on-himself Doc. </3

· “And I hate the devil that forced us apart, that mixed my blood with his.” *adds another layer to Scar’s obsidian fort*

· OKAY STARTING CHAPTER THIRTEEN I made the mistake of logging into Tumblr earlier and saw people screaming so I’m sure I’m not ready for this but here we go

· Oh no RK has been hippie-ified

· “You started a paramilitary organization because you have hay fever?” *dies laughing*

· Ugh I need to go back and watch s6 I’ve only seen the tail end of Mumbo’s side of things and there’s so much I don’t know.

· HAHAHAHAH I do know the trident bit though—

· Wait he said Scar

· PANIC

· “Kingslayer. bloodthirsty. Time King. The coward. And the mastermind behind it all, the loyal soldier to the very end, the whole damn reason either of us are in this mess.”

· HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP HOLY—

· “Is this the afterlife I deserve? After everything, this is the hell I’m going to endure?” I AM SCREAMING

· Doc pinned to the wall with ice, struggling to breathe—I CAN’T WHAT IS HAPPENING

· ((You know I’d get through this a lot faster if I stopped pausing to write reactions—))

· “A break in the ice. A whisper of spring.” Symbolism. Symbolism.

· “Ren was dead when I found him again,” NO I REFUSE TO READ THIS

· “don’t use the hand I built you to hurt yourself” DOC. SIR. MY HEART.

· RK don't run, RK get back here—what are you—

· I

· JUST

· ACTUALLY

· SCREAMED

· AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

· *several long moments of just breathing*

· *rereads*

· Holy crap on a garbage cracker with an extra serving of what-the-heck sauce

· REN

· Okay lol okay hahaha calming down

· I literally threw myself back in my chair away from the computer reading that last paragraph. I don't usually... physically react to things I read. LOL. Heh. I’m. Ah. I’m not emotionally invested in this or anything.

· Holy crap.

· Okay. Okay. Okay.

· Um.

· Great chapter, guys. Awesome stuff. Really good. I’m absolutely okay right now and it’s all totally fine.

· …please enjoy your break and get lots of rest and I very much look forward to the return of this fic you have no idea.

· I need to go breathe for a little bit.

EDIT: no, you know what--I'm not going to be a nice polite fangirl over here and quietly hope y'all see this I'm straight up tagging you, @fluffy-papaya and @betweenlands. THANK YOU but also how dare.

#The only reason I'm even posting this is for my own remembering later #and i guess if fluffy or solar want to see my mindless ramblings -- go nuts #long post #redwinterreacts #redwintertalks #dog at the door

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yeojaa · 3 years

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WAAAAA CONGRATS ON 2K! that's huge and you deserve all the love in the world 💕 you always make MY heart go doki doki with how lovely and brilliant you are! oh please do let me know when you decide to write a pacific rim au! maybe by that time, i will have enough courage to go off anon. (i'm shy, and smart, kind, pretty girls intimidate me) random question: do you like the mcu? BUT OH, YOUR MIND?? never let you go was so amazing. i can't even begin to tell you how much i love your writing /cont

cont: and writing style. nlyg jk! is so soft and kind and patient (what a man). i loved the little details that you always include in your stories, the small things that make characters 3 dimensional and real: how oc is sparkly from her holiday soap, how jk has a stash of chocoboys (i love chocoboys; they're so easy to eat mindlessly, and before you know it, the bag is empty), and the soft, gentle way they treat each other, even when they're teasing each other. it's so so beautiful erin. i can tell you wrote them/the story with so much love. i love love loved the way you wrote the section where oc is getting a back tattoo. at first i thought oc's decision to get a new tattoo was symbolic of moving on and the story was going to be bittersweet, but THEN YOU HIT ME WITH HIS PRESENCE. ugh, it was perfect. this line "It might have taken you years and years but here you were, tackling something huge", the way it works for both their relationship and her art YOUR MIND i absolutely adore the exploration of what constitutes home, how foreign cities and familiar buildings can change depending on the person/people we're with. i keep saying this, but i loved it so much. goodnight lovely and i hope you had a good day/have a good day. you are my sun, moon, and stars and you light up my sky. (also, side note, have you read/seen never let me go? it has nothing to do with your fic but the titles were similar and it was the first thing that came to mind!)

excuse me while my usual crying happens first.........

...... okay now that that’s done, ah!!! thank you. so much. your support means so much (do i say this a lot? probably!) and i’m so soft. my kokoro is going doki doki right now please 🥺 i’m hoping to start the pacrim au sometime over winter break. or at least plan it. we shall see how well my brain cooperates dklasjldjda ALSO PLEASE? YOU’RE ADORABLE i’m gonna smother you in affection and then die like a bee after it stings someone. i love the mcu!!! i’m more of a dc girl (big scott snyder fan 👁👄👁 heh) but i really enjoy the mcu movies and certain characters. gwen stacy lives in my mind rent free... do YOU like the mcu? also i’m putting the rest under a read more because.... god i do not know how to shut up

i’m so glad you enjoyed never let you go! it was a treat to write because it was.. so soft. and just. nice. and warm. and i got to trick people with the sudden reapprance of JK 🤠🤠 fun fact: the sparkling thing actually happened to me and i thought it was cute so i threw it in. i love sparkly soap. just soap in general. mmmm soap (on that note, and randomly, what’s your favourite scent? since you ask questions it’s only right i do too 👀)

anyway um! i sound like a broken record, but thank you. for noticing all the little.. things i put into my stories. it’s so touching and it makes writing so rewarding. not that. y’know. you need to be sharing all this sweetness, but it’s so incredible of you and i’m touched beyond belief

i hope you have/had a good night/day! i’m sure at some point you’ll have slept when you read this, so sleep sweet and eat well and take care of yourself 💖💖

ps. never let me go is one of my favourite movies. i can’t believe i’d forgotten about it until now but it is so unbearably god. andrew garfield killed me in it. the book is just as good. now i want to write a never let me go au 😐 excuse me while i go get lost in this idea and hurt myself xoxo

#captaindumbass.txt #memorybox.zip #anon.eml #incoming.eml

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yuhoht-t · 4 years

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For the ask thing do 1 through 50 please because you're cool

OH my god. WHO ARE YOU because i Hate you now omg

but okay here we go:

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

BI! i am bi bi bi :)

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

right now? here in the year of our lord 2020? at 9:25 am?? march 11th? nothing, my brain is a little preoccupied atm with the absolute stupidity of the american college system

3. Ever done any drugs?

i have not, sometimes i want to, but then simply do not

4. What piercings do you want?

i kinda want snake bites? or maybe a second ear piercing. but im not really sure

5. How many people have you kissed?

uno

and honestly? it kinda sucked?

6. Describe your dream home.

a cottage situated in a nice little cliff-side meadow, a beautiful forest to one side and the ocean to the other. I have a small little garden for herbs and easier to grow staples. Maybe a couple of chickens. There’s a whole room, maybe even a whole other structure, dedicated to just being my art studio. It almost definitely smells like oil paint and graphite. There also has to be a large bay window with a seat, two floor to ceiling bookcases on either side.

There’s a lot more I could say, but basically look up cottagecore/goblincore/dark academia and that’s basically it

7. Who are you jealous of?

anyone who gets to go to art school

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

usually it’s a mix between parks n rec and the office

9. Do you watch porn?

i am an adult

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

oohohohohahahahaaaaaa, yes. many actually

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

question. am i immune to any diseases in the region? if yes. can i just take the teleporter and go wherever? there are too many places i want to go

but really i suppose, Ireland? I mean it is March

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

that someone likes me

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

no i don’t think so. it just kinda sounds a little uncomfortable. but it is pretty hot i won’t lie

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

art school. i mean i’d have to see if i get in first! but then after that i’d give the rest to my mom. i owe her and if i ever get the chance i will be paying her back.

15. Are you in a relationship?

bitch? who do you think i am? what do you think i look like? of course fucking not.

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

[this image violates tumblrs guidelines]

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

yes. is it petty? also yes. but it’s affecting my sleep and how comfortable i am in my environment so i think actually kind of justified.

18. What tattoos do you want?

i want a design with poppies and lavender and maybe my mountain, and i’d like to have it, well, let me see if i can find a picture

like this

but it’s kind of a pipe dream since tattoos are expensive and hurt lol

or this:

AHAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAAAA

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

so, heres the thing, i don’t technically mind my name. it’s a good name. it’s gender neutral both in long form and my preferred nickname. BUT. it is very common and i certainly don’t actually love it all that much. However, i have no fucking clue what i’d change it to.

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

internet culture. i don’t usually talk about it, but i absolutely love culture and specifically the cultures that have been cultivated from the internet. it’s so cool!

21. Describe your best friend.

okay, so, she’s amazing. extremely talented and smart. and honestly has the coolest style of anyone i’ve ever met. the biggest gemini bitch you’ve ever met and i love her for it. she knows so much about horror and movies and is just really informed about so many interesting things. And she’s not afraid to get into politics and religion and all that “taboo” stuff. she’s actually taught me so many things! she’s great n i don’t get to gush often about the people i genuinely like in this world so yeah. also, she HOT AS SHIT N EVERYONE IN THE WORLD IS DUMB IF THEY DON AGREEEEEE

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

ahahhhahahhahahahhaaaaa no.

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

- Ghost

- Gorillaz

- Phoebe Bridgers

- Orville Peck

- FIDLAR

(okay, so I was doing this and really there are too many, this is not a great list but I think it covers the range of taste???)

24. What are three places you want to travel?

Japan, Italy (for the art), and ummm, probably Iceland (for the continental divide)

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

this gonna sound so sad but, literally, all of my roommates leave and i get to spend it in solitude doing whatever the fuck i want without having to worry about being watched (that’s what we call paranoia kids!)

26. What’s your favorite season?

it depends. but right now i’m jonesin’ for some good ol’ fashioned summer thunderstorms.

27. What’s your pet peeve?

people

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

me bitch, next question

nah i’m kidding, maybe my little brother? or maybe my friend Shareeza? there is somethin about that girl that just makes me die every time she talks

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

maybe because it’s been a long time, but like, Frozen? idk. it’s what my intuition is telling me so ima go with that.

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

you know i’m not really sure at this moment, but straight up, this is now an open call for anyone who wants to message me, shy or not, i promise i’ll answer lol ^-^

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

paper, obviously. who do you think i am?

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

maybe Spiderwick Chronicles? I love the idea of being able to actually see the fey. or really any world where there’s a hint of me possibly being able to actually have magic or a magical experience.

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

ALL

34. What’s your coffee order?

carmel mocha, if i’m paying for coffee i want it to taste like pure caffeinated sugar

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

maybe? i have a hard time deciphering those types of feelings

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

don’t got none. for past crushes tho? i’m not really sure.

37. Have any tattoos?

38. Do you drink?

39. Are you a virgin?

i don’t have to answer this, do i?

(that basically is an answer)

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

again, hard time with understanding romantic feelings.

41. How many followers do you have?

642

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

i feel a liiitlel uncomfortable with this question. and on those grounds i don’t think i’m gonna answer it.

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

not killing myself :)

44. Do you read erotica?

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

too fresh bro, mmmm can’t open up those wounds quite yet

46. How many people do you follow?

293

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

maybe Jameela Jamil? she’s just so pretty and smart

or maybe David Tennant cause like. i’ve had a crush on him since my doctor who days so really, why not

48. Describe your ideal partner.

willing to go to battle for and with me. and against me.

also it’s important that they’re understanding of me and my struggles, as well as accepting my points of view as my truth and not belittle me for having them. And be willing to give there all in these aspects because I will give my all in these ways for them. That’s just how i work.

49. Who do you text the most?

oh idk, maybe my mom?

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

clouds. and wind. i like to feel like i’m gonna blow away

okay, jeezus, this was a lot. I hope one of you fuckers actually reads this

#about a mouse #ask a mouse

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but monsters are always hungry, darling (preview)

(( Edit, because it’s no longer just a preview: === HERE IT IS ! === ))

Hullo! A while back (either here or on AO3) I mentioned working on another big collaboration with @iruutciv, whom you may remember as the supremely talented artist from ‘All the Lonely People’ and ‘And Miles to Go Before I Sleep’. This is a bit of a preview of that project, the first chapter of which should be going up in the next 25-30 hours or so. So if it piques your interest, watch this space, etc. etc. :)

Some more hints and notes before the main event:

1. It’s an AU in the style of hard-boiled fiction, a genre I’ve been itching to write for a long time now! 2. Its main pairing is going to be Viktuuri (which is probably not that much of a surprise). 3. It’s dark. It’ll have an Explicit rating. And it’s DARK. In comparison, ATLP was a rom-com. 4. It’s going to be a multi-chaptered fic. Quite a long one, though that depends on your definition of ‘long’. 5. GUYS IRU’S ART FOR THIS PROJECT IS / IS GOING TO BE SO AWESOME OMG OMG:

Fic preview under the cut!

It was the same story the world over, and that story never changed: it’s always the forbidden fruit that tastes the sweetest. ‘Sweet’ wasn’t the word Viktor would choose to describe the dregs of gin that he swirled in the bottom of what should have been a coffee mug, but words burned and died at the back of his tongue with every swallow anyway, so what was the point? He couldn’t remember if this was from the unmarked bottle Mila had smuggled into the office from a ‘friend of a friend of her uncle’s’ back in Germany, or left over from the batch Christophe had distilled in his bathtub for Halloween. But good alcohol had a way of making him forget to care about its origins. It made him forget to care about many things.

So when the phone began to ring at just past seven on his wristwatch, it was hard to care about that too. Makkachin, his poodle and the only good thing this life ever had to offer him, lifted her head up from where she’d been resting it on his feet, blinking sleepily at him. I know, he tried to convey as he ruffled her ears with his free hand. Maybe they’ll go away.

They didn’t, and the ringing continued.

Sighing, Viktor downed the rest of his gin and pried himself away from the table. His apartment was a glorified shoebox on Delancey Street overlooking a row of dumpsters down below, and it took all of five and a half strides to get to the phone. He dragged his feet the whole way, because there was only one person in this city who knew his number - it was the same person who’d insisted on paying extra for a private line anyway, because leaving your work at the office was a luxury that you signed away from the moment you started out in this industry.

“I thought I had the day off,” he said once he finally picked up the phone.

“Good morning, I’m doing well, thank you.” Any derision in his employer’s response was lost in how the man always spoke as though he were dragging his words through gravel. “Have you been drinking?”

“No,” Viktor lied. His eyes were smarting, and he remembered now that that ‘hair of the dog’ had been the last of his liquor, and that his apartment was now completely dry. Damn it. “Please tell me this call isn’t about paperwork.”

“It’s not. Have you heard?”

Makkachin nosed at his hand. Viktor obliged her and let her lick the salt from his fingers. “I feel as though I’m about to.”

His boss had always been a man of measured sentences, and Viktor understood the paranoia that came with conducting shop talk over the phone, private line or not. But there was only so much information you could get from not so many words, which was how Viktor learned only that there was a murder last night - when wasn’t there a murder in this city, that was the better question - and for some reason, the Feltsman Detective Agency had officially been invited to consult.

“Sounds like a mess,” he said at the end of it. “Why don’t you give it to Mila? She’s been hungry for a case since her last one went cold. Tell her it’s my Christmas gift to her.”

“Trust me when I say that I considered that option. It would have been preferable, considering your… circumstances.”

‘Circumstances’? Was that the term they were using now? Funny how just a week ago, it was ‘accident’ that was being thrown around, and a week before that, it was a far uglier word altogether. Maybe time just diluted everything in the end. Oh, but that wasn’t really true, was it? God, he wished it was.

“But I’m afraid neither of us has a choice. They requested you by name.”

“Who did? The police?”

He got a grunt that sounded vaguely like assent. “They said it looked like something that would benefit from your expertise.”

What expertise? “Why?” he asked instead.

The voice on the other end of the line spoke three words by way of reply. Three simple words, and all of a sudden, he was two years younger, standing in the middle of an opulent living room whose walls threatened to swallow him whole. And he was ‘making amends’ with a man who was more legend and whisper than flesh, who could have snuffed out Viktor’s life without so much as looking up from his morning newspaper. God fucking damn it.

“How on earth can they be sure?”

“They can’t, of course. But they were insistent that you go visit the crime scene, and I promised I’d at least try to make that happen.”

“Uh-huh.” Viktor rubbed at eyes. He was already feeling the headache, which had greeted him from the moment he woke up and he’d tried in vain to chase away with a little more gin, start to come back with a vengeance. “Right.”

“That could be the end of it, for all we know.” Through the lull in their conversation, Viktor thought he could pick up on faint strains of Christmas music from the radio in the background. Emil must have already come into the office. “Listen, I hate this just as much as you do. If you could just drop by… confirm their suspicions, call it, and bill them for half a day. You could be home before the snow hits. Well before Christmas.”

When did that ever matter? Viktor bit back the retort that was already sitting on the tip of his tongue, and tried to rationalize it somehow. A few hours out of the apartment wouldn’t kill him. Besides, hadn’t he been against this stupid forced vacation, which was starting to feel more like a suspension every time he thought about it, from the very start? Maybe that was something. “I’ll be up in a bit.”

“And Vitya?”

That right there was another loaded word. He could count on one hand the number of people who ever used that nickname with him, and on one finger the number of people who still did. As with all words, it was used sparingly, and Viktor found that he could never see what was coming on the other side of it. Sometimes it was warmth, which came in terribly short supply nowadays. Sometimes it was anger, or frustration, or an entreaty born out of something desperate, an attempt to sweeten a sucker punch a second before it came. Sometimes, it was this: don’t die. For the love of God, please don’t die. “Mmmm?”

“Sober up a bit before you go.”

#yuri on ice #fic preview #collab #iruutciv #yoi fanfiction #IRU'S ART OMG #SO excited to share this #BMAAHD

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KRISIUN

Interview with Alex Camargo by Daniel Hinds

(conducted November 2003)

At the time bands like Deicide and Morbid Angel emerged, it was hard to imagine anyone could take death metal to a substantially more extreme level, yet acts like Krisiun have done just that. Their inhumanly fast and unrelentingly brutal music has earned them worldwide respect, as has their ceaseless touring. After the somewhat sterile Ageless Venomous, Krisiun returned with the more well-rounded Works of Carnage and vocalist/bassist Alex Camargo explains what made it so strong…

The new album has a much bigger, heavier production. We felt that we had to come out with something different. We missed a little heaviness on the previous album, but this time we wanted to approach some kind of balance between the clearness and the heaviness. It has to be heavy, the bottom has to be there, and we were very satisfied with the results. The songs are shorter, faster, more dynamic and more straight-forward - that was the main thing that we were looking for this album.

You have maintained a level of heaviness and speed on each album – is it important for you to keep that aspect of the band intact? Yeah, we don't feel like we have to compromise or please people, you know. We just want to play metal and that's our main approach. We want to stay brutal. It's not a competition or something, it's just natural for us, the speed and the brutality. It's been like that for years. We've got to change and bring up different things here and there, but we're not going to change our style. As you say, that's something that has kept the band intact and we want to keep our integrity even if some people don't give a fuck about what we are doing.

Does that make it challenging to write a new album each time? As I say, it's just natural. We record albums and go on tour and as soon as we get home again we start to write songs. We live together, so it's been a smooth process. Moyses [Kolesne, guitar] has got his ideas, Max [Kolesne, drums] has his ideas, and I got mine, we set them together and go for it. It's no big deal. We feel like we've still got the vibe, you know, still hungry for metal. Each album is a different step. We love that, we love being on the road, we love recording albums and delivering to the kids some decent metal.

What led you to choose Works of Carnage as the album title? The title was no big deal, it just came out. This apocalyptic vision has been our background for years and we feel like we have to write something that has to do with the music, so 'Works of Carnage' we just felt that would suit it better. The lyrics are not going to change, we're still talking about evil things, which is a reflection of the shit that is going on all over the world. All this religious war and crap that is going on, so we feel like, let's bring it up and show the people that we're all going to be fucked up if we don't… We've got to please ourselves, not some religion or gods or whatever.

What is your take on the war in the middle east? It's hard and I cannot speak for Americans, but it's a big mess. You've got to defend yourselves; you've got to defend your country. I think that the shit that happened on September 11th was really shocking, I think the Americans did it right by going for it and defending themselves. Of course, there are a lot more things going on behind this, but my point of view is that you've got to defend your country; you've got to defend your people. At the end, I think everybody's losing.

What made you decide to keep the snakes from Ageless Venomous in the cover art on Works of Carnage (along with the pentagram)? The whole concept was from this Polish guy Jacek, he asked us for the lyrics and it came out of that. We gave some ideas here and there, we wanted something evil and shocking, and I think he came out with this thing and we were very satisfied with that.

I saw you on the Dimmu Borgir tour and was blown away by how much more intense you guys were live. Is it important for you to tour a lot? Yeah it is, man. I think the more you tour, the more experience you've got. Sometimes we don't have time for a sound check or whatever and we've got to be ready, got to sound tight and get along with your band mates, it helps a lot. Sometimes you fuck up here and there, but we just try to deliver the shit raw and you've got to be ready. It's not like in the studio where you fuck up, you have the chance to make it again and again, so we practice a lot at home and we love going on tour.

A lot of bands have a hard time touring the US due to financial reasons, but you guys have managed several tours here. There is an economical fucked-up situation, but you've got to make it happen somehow. When you play in a band, it's not just about playing music - you've got to think and make things happen and go for it. Brazil is a rough country, but you can make things happen somehow. It's pretty much up to the label - if you don't have a label, you're not going anywhere. To hook up and make it happen, you've got to get in touch with people, you've got to speak your mind and deliver your music.

Tell me a bit about the live DVD.. Actually, it's been delayed a little bit because we've got this problem with the old label. We played some old songs and the old label owns the rights to those songs, so it's been a hassle between our new label and our old label. Due to this delay, we're going to add one more show and make sure it comes out with a good quality. Aside from that, we'll have some extra footage from the road and from the recording process of the new album.

Will you be doing a live album as well? No, just the DVD.Was it difficult at all getting recognition outside of Brazil? Mmmm… it used to be. It's getting a little better, not just for bands but for the people. We've got a new government and the economical situation is getting a little better. The kids, they can afford better instruments now. It was rough back in the day, but it's getting a little easier. As I said, Brazil is a different country, it's filled with ups and downs, you have some rough shit going on, but you can make it happen. If you go down to south Brazil, it's different - I know what you guys see on TV is pretty much about the fucked up things we've got down there, but there are a lot more things to see and appreciate. It's not just about misery and roughness, you know.

Having been around for 13 years now, are you happy with how much you have accomplished so far? Yeah, man. I'm happy with what we've accomplished, but I feel like there's still a lot more to do, you know. We still feel thirsty for blood. We fucking love playing metal and each album is a challenge. You make mistakes here and there, but you just go for it and we're very satisfied with what we've accomplished, especially for a third world band playing brutal music. As I said, there's still a lot more to do. Every time, we still get new ideas and we've still got the vibe, which I think is the most important thing. Still got the feeling and still waiting to make things happen and have a lot more to do.

Having been around since near the start of the death metal explosion, what is your take on how the music has evolved? One thing that is very exciting is meeting bands that used to influence us. Like, we had a tour with Morbid Angel, with Cannibal Corpse, and we just finished one with Deicide. We're still learning and to see them was a great experience. It's a very exciting thing because you can never know enough. Being on the road with such great bands was a great thing for us, it was one of the greatest accomplishments that we've reached so far, hanging out with these people and to share the stage with such great bands.

Did it also push you to make even better music? Yeah, that's it, you get inspired, to see those bands playing, you're like, 'Oh man, we better do a good job!'

Do you still get a thrill discovering new bands? Yeah. Sometimes, you get tired of hearing copycats or whatever, but I still get a thrill. You never know, sometimes some great band will show up. But I'm not concerned with only metal, not just the scene and brutal death metal. It doesn’t matter if you play black, thrash, or old rock 'n' roll stuff - music is universal. I've got open ears for all types of music.

What kind of stuff do you listen to outside of metal? We grew up listening to these bands like AC/DC, Motörhead, ZZ Top, and we still listen to that. Each one of us has got different things, like Moyses has got this classical approach on guitar, Max listens to some jazz, some Brazilian Latin rhythms. Just so we don’t stagnate and listen to the same shit. Like you can pick some different stuff and bring it up in your music, at least try to get something different and new. We listen to blues, jazz, old rock 'n' roll, but metal is the main thing and we listen to a lot of metal. Metal is metal, that's our religion.

Where are you guys on tour at the moment? Today is a day off and we're heading to Florida, we're playing there tomorrow. We've got two shows left and then we're done. It's been a great tour, we fucking love going on tour with Deicide. We heard a lot of shit about those guys and how rough they could be, but they've been so cool with us. We had a great time with Deicide and Hate Eternal as well.

www.krisiun.com.br

#Krisiun #interview #nov2003

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do ALL of the oc asks (or just some of ur Favs) for ur fav oc!! :0

1. What’s their full name? Why was that chosen? Does it mean anything?

Ayako Hatori. I picked the last name randomly, but Ayako is written with the kanji for “coloring.” So her name is basically color child.

2. Do they have any titles? How did they get them?

SHSL Rhythm Gamer. She can full-combo things that should probably be impossible.

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory?

Well. A lot of her childhood was spent as a Monokuma Kid, so like… y’know. Before that, though, she lived a pretty normal life. She liked the arcade, and would frequently skip class in order to visit it. Leading to the bad memory, her mother wasn’t very pleased with that.

4. What is their relationship with their parents? What’s a good and bad memory with them? Did they know both parents?

She was close with her mom. Her dad left her mom when Ayako was young.

5. Do they have any siblings? What’s their names? What is their relationship with them? Has their relationship changed since they were kids to adults?

Ayako had one sister, who is as of now unnamed because I’m lazy. They were very close. Ayako’s older sister was an adult during the Towa City thing, so she’s hecking dead.

6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?

AYAKO DOES NOT! LIKE! SCHOOL! She’s bad at it and not trying is easier than trying only to get her hopes of a good grade crushed :’)

She’d probably like art class most. She wouldn’t even follow the instructions but–

Or possible P.E.

She hates pretty much the rest of it.

7. Did they have lots of friends as a child? Did they keep any of their childhood friends into adulthood?

She was probably kinda popular as a kid?. She had that sort of personality that made her get along well with kids. She *probably* would. I only use her in an rp group, though, so like… Not really.

8. Did they have pets as a child? Do they have pets as an adult? Do they like animals?

Nope and nope. She likes animals to an extent, though. She thinks they’re kinda messy and as much as she loves them (especially dogs,) she wouldn’t want the responsibility of taking care of them.

9. Do animals like them? Do they get on well with animals?

Eh. Just average. Not great, not bad. Average.

10. Do they like children? Do children like them? Do they have or want any children? What would they be like as a parent? Or as a godparent/babysitter/ect?

She gets along with them alright! She’s pretty good with kids, and kids tend to like her. She’d be a fun parent. The kind who impulse-buys you video games.

11. Do they have any special diet requirements? Are they a vegetarian? Vegan? Have any allergies?

Nah. She eats too much sugar, though, and she probably needs to stop that.

12. What is their favourite food?

Does konpeito count?

13. What is their least favourite food?

That kind of chocolate that has like no sugar? Like, extremely dark chocolate.

14. Do they have any specific memories of food/a restaurant/meal?

At least once in her life, she’s gone an entire day eating entirely candy. THAT’S SO UNHEALTHY AYAKO PLEASE STOP

15. Are they good at cooking? Do they enjoy it? What do others think of their cooking?

Mmmm, not sure. I don’t think she ever really learned. She’d probably be able to make something decent with some help, but alone, it would probably be kinda bad.

16. Do they collect anything? What do they do with it? Where do they keep it?

… Rainbow stationery. She’s got a special box full of the stuff. Pens, paper, glitter, glitter glue, stickers. Please stop her, she’s going to decorate everything.

17. Do they like to take photos? What do they like to take photos of? Selfies? What do they do with their photos?

SELFIES!!!!!!!!!!! SELFIES SHE LOVES SELFIES!!!!!!!!

18. What’s their favourite genre of: books, music, tv shows, films, video games and anything else

Horror, mystery, stuff. Probably on the opposite end there, also any and everything cute.

19. What’s their least favourite genres?

Educational stuff. Boooooring.

20. Do they like musicals? Music in general? What do they do when they’re favourite song comes?

Yes and yes. She’ll probably try to dance. And fail.

21. Do they have a temper? Are they patient? What are they like when they do lose their temper?

She can be short-tempered, but she tries not to be. She’d probably yell at you.

22. What are their favourite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back?

She’ll say things to people’s faces… She probably doesn’t have a favorite, though? This is subject to change.

23. Do they have a good memory? Short term or long term? Are they good with names? Or faces?

Better with faces than names. A pretty average memory, leans more on the good side until it comes to school. Between short-term and long-term memory, no idea what would be more helpful with rhythm games. Whichever would be more useful.

24. What is their sleeping pattern like? Do they snore? What do they like to sleep on? A soft or hard mattress?

She will sleep ‘till noon if you let her and she’ll stay up all night. No impulse control on this girl. She can sleep just about anywhere, but she loves soft things.

25. What do they find funny? Do they have a good sense of humour? Are they funny themselves?

She thinks she’s funny. She uses a lot of sarcasm in her jokes. She’s not that funny, but she thinks she is.

26. How do they act when they’re happy? Do they sing? Dance? Hum? Or do they hide their emotions?

Her response to most emotions is play rhythm games.

27. What makes them sad? Do they cry regularly? Do they cry openly or hide it? What are they like they are sad?

She won’t cry in front of someone. Ever. Unless she has absolutely no choice, OR they’re a person she trusts deeply. Jokes about her intelligence or lack of skill in something make her sad. She’ll be sad for a little before she gets just… angry.

28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?

Death. She really doesn’t wanna die. She’ll do her best to pretend she’s not scared of anything.

29. What do they do when they find out someone else’s fear? Do they tease them? Or get very over protective?

It depends on who that person is, and how bad the fear is. If it’s someone she cares about who’s very scared of something, she may get kind of protective, but unless it’s serious, she’ll probably tease them.

30. Do they exercise? Regularly? Or only when forced? What do they act like pre-work out and post-work out?

Yes, if playing DDR counts as exercise. She’s also going to be joining the cheer squad. I don’t think she’d act too much different pre/post workout?? Shrug emoji.

31. Do they drink? What are they like drunk? What are they like hungover? How do they act when other people are drunk or hungover? Kind or teasing?

Okay, she doesn’t usually drink, no, but she’s been drunk once. She’s kind of an emotional baby when she’s drunk, but also she’d flirt with anyone. she got drunk the other day, got her first kiss, and just devolved into a giggly mess for a minute there it was so cute tbh

32. What do they dress like? What sorta shops do they buy clothes from? Do they wear the fashion that they like? What do they wear to sleep? Do they wear makeup? What’s their hair like?

RAINBOWS!!!!!! PASTELS!!!!! NEON!!!! ALL THE COLORS!!!! OH MY GOSH SO MANY COLORS. I’m not sure what kind of shops particularly, but… She’s got tons of clothes. All different colors. She loves flashy stuff. In the way of sleepwear, she probably has a few very-oversized t-shirts and she’ll just wear that to bed, with optional sweatpants.

She’ll wear a little makeup, sometimes, but for the most part, not all that much. She doesn’t wanna just sweat it off or something. For special occasions, definitely. Her hair’s blue and I want to touch it. I don’t actually know how to describe the style it’s in, but like… It looks like GUMI’s hair? Similar style.

34. What is their body type? How tall are they? Do they like their body?

She’s got a bit of muscle! 5′2. She’s very confident about her body, actually. She has a lot of secret insecurities about herself personality-wise and she doesn’t think she’s exceptionally pretty in the face, but she does like her body.

35. What’s their guilty pleasure? What is their totally unguilty pleasure?

She loves that romancey stuff sometimes, okay. She will deny it adamantly, but. Unguilty pleasure is everything else, okay.

36. What are they good at? What hobbies do they like? Can they sing?

Rhythm games, obviously. She’s kind of got an eye for decorating, too. She can sing, too.

37. Do they like to read? Are they a fast or slow reader? Do they like poetry? Fictional or non fiction?

Not particularly. She’s kind of a slower reader. … Maybe some poetry. Not most. Fiction > nonfiction any day.

38. What do they admire in others? What talents do they wish they had?

Tenacity. Not giving up on new things when you don’t get them right. She wishes she was better in school. Even with her best efforts, she still has C’s, mostly.

39. Do they like letters? Or prefer emails/messaging?

Texting or IMing people is always easiest.

40. Do they like energy drinks? Coffee? Sugary food? Or can they naturally stay awake and alert?

She likes ‘em, but honestly doesn’t need them.

41. What’s their sexuality? What do they find attractive? Physically and mentally? What do they like/need in a relationship?

She’s pan. Generally, personality is more important than looks in her opinion, but being attractive definitely doesn’t hurt anything. She probably likes weird-colored hair. Loves it.

42. What are their goals? What would they sacrifice anything for? What is their secret ambition?

She just… wants to improve herself. She doesn’t have any specific goals, but she would really just like to find something other than rhythm games that she’s naturally good at and use that to get a job. Rhythm games are probably not going to support her forever.

44. What is their favourite season? Type of weather? Are they good in the cold or the heat? What weather do they complain in the most?

She likes summer and spring. Sunny weather is her favorite and she’s better in the heat. She doesn’t really like the cold. Or the rain. She’ll complain in both of those.

45. How do other people see them? Is it similar to how they see themselves?

She tends to brag a lot – trying to seem like she’s confident when she’s not. It makes her come off as vain and self-centered. She really has a lot of insecurities and that’s her way to try and seem cool.

47. How do they act in a formal occasion? What do they think of black tie wear? Do they enjoy fancy parties and love to chit chat or loathe the whole event?

She tries. She TRIES. She is horribly stressed and awkward through the whole thing, though. She would dislike it a lot because she’d feel so pressured not to mess up.

48. Do they enjoy any parties? If so what kind? Do they organise the party or just turn up? How do they act? What if they didn’t want to go but were dragged along by a friend?

She just went to her first party recently. She’s… not entirely sure how she feels about them. They’re okay. She’d probably try to be pleasant. If she was dragged along, she’d probably just follow her friend around the entire time.

49. What is their most valued object? Are they sentimental? Is there something they have to take everywhere with them?

She has a charm bracelet from her sister. It’s got a broken clasp, but she still has it saved somewhere.

50. If they could only take one bag of stuff somewhere with them: what would they pack? What do they consider their essentials?

Ayako’s essentials include clothes, a hairbrush, toothbrush/toothpaste, her phone, charger, headphones, and a portable battery. I’m assuming this isn’t like one of those questions about like. A deserted island.

#Anonymous #asks #THANK YOU ANON #OC CRAP #LONG POST #AYAKO #AYAKO TBH

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hiphopandhookah · 6 years

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7 Things You Probably Don’t Know About Me...

What's up Hip Hop & Hookah Heads?! It's your girl EnerJi. I'm new here to the HH&H crew, so I figured I'd break the ice with a Listicle to help you get to know me better (or at all, let's be real..)

I've been writing forever.

For as long as I can remember I've been journaling and documenting my life and observations. I remember one of the first diaries I owned (maybe THE first) was a little plastic one that looked like a piano on the cover. It had a little cheap lock and rainbow colored pages. It smelled great to me (like candy and fresh paper... mmmm lol). I cherished that thing and took it everywhere. I dunno what I had to write so much about at age five or six, but I was there for it. And that was just the beginning. I wrote a novel in high school about a pair of star crossed lovers from two different mafia families. Once I started letting my friends read it, they started passing it around (sharing actual typed pages. Pre-social media. Imagine that!) and demanding new chapters once they got caught up in the story (think Crazy Eyes style á la Orange Is The New Black). I've had some of my poetry published as well. Writing is something that I've always done and has been a huge part of my life that not many people know about or know the depth and breadth of. It's often helped me work though my issues and sort things out in my head. This isn't my first time blogging, but it is my first time blogging on a public platform like this, so I'm hoping it'll be a fun and transformative experience. And I hope you enjoy my ramblings. ^_^

I have a few different online personas/brands.

The three most active being ChocolatGyrl, DigitalMiss (of DigitalMissDesigns), and most recently BoheMetro.

ChocolatGyrl is more of a personal alias. A nickname from real life that came to encompass my personal online presence. For a while I had a project going called #ChocolatGyrlUncensored where I'd express and engage my friends and readers with thoughts, ideas and questions to spark a deeper dialogue in the interest of gaining understanding, or just for a laugh.

DigitalMiss is my professional handle for all things art/business related. My company DigitalMissDesigns has been in operation for over 10 years and specializes in digital image consultation, graphic design, and photography.

BoheMetro is my latest passion project borne out of my accidental discovery and love for jewelry making. Life circumstances brought me to a place where I had a chance to work at a local beading and jewelry shop where I got to learn how to make, design and repair custom jewelry, working mostly with natural gemstones. I. Fell. In. LOVE. And now I create and sell my own custom jewelry designs under the brand name BoheMetro. It’s still new and I’m still learning, but my creativity has had a chance to flourish in this new arena and I’m happy for it.

I have an extensive and eclectic musical collection.

This is something I hope to be able to share and really delve into with you. I love a wide range of music and love to discover and share new music from the popular to the more obscure. My favorite genres of music are Hip Hop, LoFi Chill, ChillHop, Jazz, AfroCuban, Latin, Roots Reggae… The list goes on. I’ve even begun to compose and produce my own music. I haven’t shared much of it publicly as yet, but I think this might be a good platform for that as well.

I love, love, love to dance.

I went from being way too shy to dance in public at a young age to becoming an avid and active Dance Fitness Instructor in the last 8 years, and it was one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. Dance helped me to get over my shyness in a big way; it helped me build the confidence to get out of an unhealthy, abusive relationship; and it helped me to develop a love for fitness, health and wellness. It’s been a while since I’ve taught on a regular basis, but it is something I’d like to get into again. However, until then, if you catch me anywhere the music is lit, you will most likely find me on the dance floor. (Especially if Latin music is playing!)

I Art, Therefore I Am.

I think I must have been in the midst of some over-intellectual, teenage angst rant when I said this phrase aloud, channeling my inner Descartes. But I truly identify with being an artist in many ways and I think I always have. Much like writing, Art has been a big part of my life for as long as I can remember. Drawing, painting, photography, sculpture.. I've experimented with it all.

When it came time to choose an institution of higher education, I chose what was once known as IFAC (International Fine Arts College) in Miami, Florida (Now the Art Institute: Miami International University of Art and Design) and decided that Computer Animation was going to be my field of study. It seemed like the perfect marriage of classical art to the burgeoning realm of digital art. I loved every bloody minute of it. From my very first day in my very first class (Cinematic Techniques with Professor Ahmed Shehata - what's up Ahmed?!), to long nights in the computer lab rendering thousands of frames of animation that resulted in just minutes of a final project, I was - for the first time - living completely in my own truth.

Going away to Art school was one of the best decisions I've ever made for myself. Staying true to my most authentic proclivities has always served me best and I find that when I've tried to oppose my natural inclinations, I usually end up unhappy or feeling stuck. While my dreams of making it big as a well known artist may have yet to be realized and I find myself more often representing the "starving artist" stereotype, I am happiest when I'm doing what comes most naturally and doing I love most - Creating. In whatever form or medium.

I'm a certified Yoga Instructor with 500 hours of training under my belt.

In the Winter of 2016 I found myself lost in translation and at an energetic crossroads. I’d been practicing yoga off an on for several years and became very consistent with my practice during a very difficult time in my life. It made the struggle so much easier to bear. Yoga helped open my mind to a way of Being that I was only subtly aware of and didn’t fully comprehend until I started spending time on the mat. It wasn’t until that Winter, however, that I began a journey that would fully immerse me in a Yogic mindset for a solid year of study. It changed my life. Now that my year of study is complete, I’m not completely sure how this training will manifest in my daily life beyond a personal practice, but I am open to wherever the road is taking me in that arena.

I'm a Brooklyn Girl - I Might Take Some Getting Used To

I’ve lived in Duval for the better part of my 30 something years, but I’m a Big Apple Girl to the core (see what I did there? You know you liked it...) and my Jamaican bloodline runs deep through my veins. I'm first generation born stateside in my family, but the Yardie pride is strong with us. The Brooklyn of my birth is just an echoing whisper of the hipster mecca it is now, but I love my hometown all the same. I carry that New York sensibility with me at all times, so if I don’t look like I’m from here or like I don’t belong - that's probably why! (Lol)

So there it is, HH&H Heads. Just a little introduction from me to you. ^_^ I look forward to sharing more with you here. And in case you're wondering, this was supposed to be a list of 10 Things You Probably Didn't Know About Me, but I got stumped on what I should say for the last three. So I cut it. I figure you'll have plenty of time to get to know me, so why try to stuff it all in one blog post?

· Om Shanti ·

xx · EnerJi

#Introduction #EnerJi #Icebreaker #About Me

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65 Questions You Aren't Used To

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

I do honestly #dissociation is anyone real

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

2? I’m pretty good at getting myself to not freak out with logic, or if all else fails, a good protection charm.

3. The person you would never want to meet?

4. What is your favorite word?

simultaneously

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

mmmm I’m not sure,, a willow tree?

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

oh god i picked at the skin on my nose last night and now i have a big red scab there its so noticeable

7. What shirt are you wearing?

a black tanktop that says “EVERYTHING HURTS AND IM DYING”

8. What do you label yourself as?

A transdude, a witchling, a homestuck, a furry, gay, pan, fickin, brother, idk akdlsjf

9. Bright room or dark room?

dark room, but some bright rooms can be good too?

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

honestly I think I fell asleep before then, which is kind of unusual.

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

Probably now tbh? 17

12. Who told you they loved you last?

My amazing bf we tell each other this legit every time we open up the same chat i mean.

13. Your worst enemy?

I dont think I really have one? maybe like “my inner critic” or something edgy like that.

14. What is your current desktop picture?

this venty art thing that actually is really aesthetic that my moirail made.

15. Do you like someone?

my moirail, my bf, my friends, all the cats in the world, etc

16. The last song you listened to?

Clint Eastwood - Gorillaz

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

my dad lmao. but when he isn’t home like ew the mess.

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

my dad.

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

my brother has to fucking clean the fucking toilet ok he pisses fucking everywhere guys.

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

fuck idk. alot of people say they really admire my jawline? but i never have thought of it as anything special lskdjf. I think my eyes maybe?

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

taking this as in genitalia lmao if i had a dick for a day. idfk omg

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

im. idk i can type faster than the average person? fuckifiknow

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

eyes. like. in the dark, just seeing a pair of eyes.

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

a pizza. but shaped like a sandwhich.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

add it to the collection of money in my wallet that im too afraid to spend until i find the perfect shit online.

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

Canada. Right to my bf’s doorstep, so I can fuckin see him ok. @skelepunny

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

I’ll find out what is most popular and sell it off to people.

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

Only lgbt++++++++++ no cishets allowed.

29. What is your favorite expletive?

i want to say fuck just because i say it most, but thats boring so like.

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

onee thing can that like qualify as ONE trashbag filled with all of my favorite posessions?

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

can i erase my dad from my entire memory

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

canada. to my bf. this is all.

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

idk can i give that choice to someone who needs it more? I didnt really know anyone well who’s died in my family.

34. What was your last dream about?

I met andrew hussie and gave him a whistle, he called me a filthy kankri fan and that kankri was his least favorite character.

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

This question doesnt work because I am not good at anything.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

No.

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

yes

38. What is the color of your socks?

literally theyre basically all solid black

39. What type of music do you like?

mm alternative- hipstery sort of music

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunsets

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

i dont like milkshakes? theyre too thicc

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

Arkansas Razorbacks, since basically ur fuckin born into supporting a team

43. Do you have any scars?

lots and lots

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

A concept artist? I mean I want to persue animation but its just not as big of a desire to me as being like a character designer and concept artist.

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

can i just be able to pass as male pl e a s e

46. Are you reliable?

mm im not sure. I mean most of the time yes, but man you never know when those depressive episodes hit and you cant do fuckin anything

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

are u living w/tav r u happy pls tell me im scare

48. Do you hold grudges?

nah not really. I’m a pretty laid back dude?

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

a cat-ferret like a fucking noodle cat thats cute as fuck and idk man

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

every conversation with my moirail

51. Are you a good liar?

to my parents yes, but i cant lie to my friends id feel too guilty.

52. How long could you go without talking?

forever omg i never fucking talk at school anyways.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

i had a bob once when i was like 7 years old. fuck that shit.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

maybe? probably?

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

i can do an english accent,, southern,, a bad mock canadian accent to tease my bf, lksdf

56. What do you like on your toast?

butter

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

a sphinx cat lady for my dnd campaign

58. What would be you dream car?

a vholkswagon bug

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

no i dont, because i did as a kid and my parents made fun of me for it so never again

60. Do you believe in aliens?

yeah

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

not too often but i stumble across that stuff occassionally

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

G. because. Greyne. and my given name is rlly special to me.its me.

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

dragons by far fuckin fire breathing flying lizards.

64. What do you think about babies?

disgusting worms but sometimes ute as long as im at a far distance and they are happy

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

ehh

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