#not sure what I am saying except. feelin good lately 😎

[footnoteinhistory]

This week is one year since I started my current job and it’s also around the time I found Phil and now a year later I’m really good at my job and Phil is closer than I ever could’ve imagined and I’ve dealt with a lot of the issues I was struggling with at that time and idk it just feels like things are pretty good right now!!!

I struggle with thinking about time in terms of “once I get past this, everything will be better or different or over” so I’ve been trying to just go with the flow of things… there aren’t beginnings and ends I have to be anxious about, it just keeps going… it’s getting warmer as the weeks go by and I can watch the films again, it’s not over…

#not sure what I am saying except. feelin good lately 😎 #reading my journal from a year ago where I mention PSH for the first time #and how ‘hopefully his movies will be something I can look forward to for a while’ #and bursting into tears #yes!!! you WILL look forward to them they will help you get through the year! you haven’t felt lonely since he came into your life!